#i feel bad but hope is LOUD

[espercr]

ok hit that heart for a real actual starter from me in the year of our lord 2024

#✶ when i break pattern i break ground ✶ ( ooc ) #i feel bad but hope is LOUD

[glowingkorbat]

my guesses for NCUC rollout (NOT FACTS this is Fully speculating just based on the AMA and general history of tnt nonsense)

NC Mall will crash relentlessly the first week or so (bad)

there will be different UC Styling sets (not just one item) and they will be accessible only by mystery capsule, meaning you’ll have to either buy multiple capsules to get the specific one you want or you’ll have to trade other users. Capsules will be at least 350NC (very bad. Will cause new levels of userbase backlash that will probably go ignored)

Styling sets will connect to your pet permanently. Existing UCs will have it pre attached. New UCs will have to acquire their desired set and attach it to their pet in a NC Mall substore hosted by the lutari silhouette we got a preview of. Once attached it can be toggled on and off but cannot be removed, and it will stay attached when pets are trading or adopted out (generally good. Keeps some of the PC trading functioning [people who don’t want to spend real money willing to trade names for UCs], saves users from needing gift boxes when transferring UC pets between their account. Does mean you need to purchase more style sets though since you can’t swap them from one pet to another on a whim)

new artwork will generally be nice looking but some will be considered general downgrades and the whole forced change will still be met with vitriol (neutral)

well named pets and aged pets will be the primary pool and status symbol. Probably more name for name trading in general if UCs are easy to access (neutral)

As confirmed via discord, pets will not have to be pre painted with your desired UC colour to have the style set applied. Faerie, Grey, and Darigan paint brushes will deflate as they are now essentially buyable with real money but non-UC colour paint brushes will remain high. (Good for managing paint brush inflation, bad for the ethics of suddenly being able to essentially pay real money to paint your pet)

hundreds of users will quit due to disliking new art or disliking that their (sometimes) hard earned status symbols have been reduced to nothing. Two thirds of those users will come back, because after a certain amount of time on this site no one ever really quits Neopets. (neutral)

#loud glowing #I’m just running my mouth and theorizing. I hope I’m wrong about some of these #thoughts? I really love hearing the range of responses to this decision #as someone who is overall neutral #(have a few lower tier UCs that I didn’t grind overly hard in the PC to get since two were adopted and one was a short trade chain) #(spent too much fucking money on customizing my other pets to bother making them UC) #(feels bad for people who’s trading hobbies or pet art are greatly affected but overall I just love when Shit Is Going Down on Neopets)

[ghostofasecretary]

it's been a while since i've cried hard enough to have a headache but. sure got there today, babes!

#ghost speaks #personal #ripped my favorite tights i've had for 5+ years and can't replace #can't return my glasses #got ptsd triggered by going past my old church because i took a wrong turn because i was. crying about not being able to return my glasses #have been crying for a solid 40 minutes straight #am still incredibly aware of how isolated and lonely i am #my parents are on vacation so i won't see a friendly face or get a hug till sunday night at the earliest #just. doing BAD #(well. there is the faint hope that the office manager will take pity on me since her office literally cannot manufacture lenses #that will meet my needs) #(but considering i spent a lot of the last hour yelling and begging out loud trying to work out a maximally sympathetic pitch) #(and also dreading 1-2 years of not having transition lenses because theirs fuck with my color vision) #(i'm not sure the hope makes things. better?) #i am gonna. make hot chocolate because it sounds like a marginal improvement over crying without that #the last time i couldn't stand up or i'd start crying harder was yesterday but boy did i not miss it #i thought i might feel better in the morning. ha. ha ha. ha #(like i know this is temporary i'm just. i just. i am so tired and SO stupidly ridiculously incredibly upset) #(like my emotional equilibrium right now is. not)

[hwaitham]

so ii accidentally walked into the men's room :D :D :D :D :

#𓈒 ۫ 𝓹𝓾𝓹𝓹𝓲𝓮 𐂯 𝓹𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮𝓼 ₊⠀ೀ #:D there was . . . a boy standing at the urinal :D . . i gasped too loud n we made eye contact . . :D we bof froze in fear . . . . . :D :D #im :D . . hahah .. . . :D I DIDNT SEE ANYTHING.....but i ran away as fast as i cld i was too shocked to even say sorrie i feel so bad T T #Scawy experience i hope i nvr see him again . . .

[radlegowaffle]

now that we have our own lil housing system, sky should implement a mail or letter system

#i need to tell my friend who probably passed out irl that we can do stuff later I DONT WANT TO LEAVE THEM #THEYRE 16 HOURS AHEAD OF ME I CANT STAY HERE ALL NIGHT MY IPAD IS GETTING INSANELY HOT #I WISH I COULD THOUGH #sky: cotl #sky: children of the light #s:cotl #thatskygame #sky children of the light #sky cotl #rad.txt #met them doing dailies and they were just following me #theyre so nice ;;-;; #theyre also japanese and the in game translating is so nice #i feel so bad its an extra step for them but slightly easier for them to talk in their native tongue #also flex some of my japanese for the first time ever 😎 (literally basic sentences) #its so cute though. we both go back and forth saying stuff in japanese and english #we were looking for winged light to go through eden and i think they fell asleep irl #now we're both just passed out by the doors in valley #its so loud i wish i went somewhere quieter or with nicer music #i hope theyre doing okay #also never thought about how 'rad' would translate into japanese until today

[writerfae]

Only my mom can make even such a thing as me having a cold about my brother smh

#I hope you feel better tomorrow also so your brother won’t be interrupted by your coughing #well thank you #and then I dared the unspeakable #I snorted and said like oh yeah poor him #and she got offended???? #she doesn’t think it’s funny? he has to work twelve hours tomorrow? #and? I usually work too and I don’t complain about not getting enough sleep because of his allergies acting up and his loud ass phone calls #sorry this is just a stupid rant you can ignore it if you want #I’m just kinda pissed about this rn #and now I am the bad person again of course #good thing I’m going to bed now

[lishadra]

So the grief never stops huh it just builds

#forgive me i’m really going through it #i just miss my mom. my sister was only 9 when she got diagnosed. she was fucking nine. #i miss every version of myself ive ever been #i miss the daycare kids. i dont think theyll remember me #i wish i could say i had a positive impact on them. i hope i did #i miss being able to hope for anything or say good things out loud without worrying that irony will come up from hell and tear me to shreds #everything nice gets taken away from me #i feel like i cant hold on to the good things. they dont stay in my brain like the bad things do #fuck

[autistic-shaiapouf]

What do you mean I have to get up and do the work if I wanna try to make money <- guy who has been doing work nonstop and needs to give it a fucking rest

#can finally do some delivery stuff and like. idk. i dont wanna get in my car at 7pm and start driving? i wanna stay home and make dinner #and maybe go to bed early. the bar is quite low. my god. i need to take a step back i think #i'm down to 4 work days a week! wanting to see if i can restructure how i view money and bills and start taking it even easier #i already have some motivation coming back! i wanna write actually! got my laptop out of my room and sitting in the living room #been slowly working on some art too and i'm hoping it'll keep getting worked on #thinking like. wanting to let myself start to relax as much as i can before i start jumping into other projects? #just to back off work and come back to some roots #thinking out loud; not feeling particularly bad! actually feeling pretty alright #shai speaks

[tokruta]

love my nieces and nephew

but

my god do they reinforce my decision to remain childfree everyday

#i feel bad saying they're annoying #they're small children and that's how they're supposed to be #but omg are they annoying #the moments of sweetness almost isn't enough to make up for it #i would not be a good parent for many reasons #but one of them is my intolerance for loud noises and overstimulated senses #no need to inflect that trauma onto children i don't even want #thank god my siblings have children/want children #bc i sure as fuck don't want any and my parents already having grandchildren will ensure they don't bother me about it #they've been good about it so far #here's hoping that that remains true into my 30s and beyond #personal #hasan't #venting

[violetclarity]

I'm literally beggingggg people to learn how to have a concise meeting/conversation I am begging. begging. I'll get down on my knees if I have to I s2g learn when it can be a meeting and when an email...

#I have a new volunteer position that requires me to have a weekly meeting with one of the other volunteers #and it could always be an email #like I feel bad being so annoyed about it and I should probably take a chill pill and try not to be so uptight #but it's a waste of time #this week the person I was on the phone with was clearly at a restaurant or something (I could hear her asking for her check etc) #and she kept telling me things I already knew #but then things I should have been told already get overlooked? #there was no real training or onboarding for this position either which. y'know. I have THOUGHTS on #like I'm sorry but if I'm making time in my week for this unnecessary phone call #can you at least not be in public with really loud background noise? #ugh #I hope I didn't come across as too rude on the phone bc now I am starting to feel bad about how annoyed I was #I just hate redundancy. and wastes of time.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

is there an age gap between satoru and the reader in your bfb!gojo fic?

there is !!! NOT a weird one though. obviously. satoru is older than the reader by a couple of years, but both of you are adults when the fic takes place!! he calls you a good kid bc that’s how he sees you, not bc you’re actually a child (reminder that the fic is in fact centered around the unrequited love trope <3)

#ty for asking anon!! i had a feeling someone would phdjshs…. hope that cleared it up :3 #but yeahhh the whole premise is that satoru just Cannot view you as anything but a younger sibling #and you’re still horrendously down bad (as we all are) #i’m still contemplating how i should write the ending …. >< #bc i could see satoru being more open to viewing you romantically like . FAR into the future yk #but not anytime soon #now im just thinking out loud but 😭 yeah. #ask tag ✩

[stubborn-string-bones]

Welp! Hung out with our longtime former ED at an event and it turns out I'm holding a grudge, maybe forever. Shit may be exponentially more fucked up now and I do not hold her responsible for the actions of others but also like, get the fuck off that high horse

you gave that man an engraved invitation into this house

#i do not forgive you! #i hope you feel bad! #or at least have felt an appropriate amount of regret and responsibility #not to mention the ways she laid the groundwork for so much other shit we're dealing with #like that guy's dead and the shit he did needs to be named (do speak ill of the dead actually #and the other needs to be held responsible for his actions #but do not pretend you were some pristine perfect ideal ED you are absolutely partly to blame for how we got here #like you led him in by the hand and told us he could be trusted and gave him keys to every lock you hadn't already broken #and people make mistakes! #but you also spent years cultivating an environment where you could take your feelings out on your employees every once in a while #so fuck right off #who's got two thumbs and a normal workplace #also the union finally got certified two months after the vote lol #had a few 'oh god now that I've said it out loud' moments the last few weeks #back to where i make sense #also to be clear tonight was mostly a pleasant conversation it was just also a useful reminder

[foxgirlmoth]

So my life is feeling like its on an upward swing since this is my final semester for my associates, I'm starting a new job real soon and also possibly have a really nice remote job if I hear back from a few places I recently applied to.

And it always terrifies me when good stuff starts happening.

Change is really hard for me especially when it feels like its all at once. With better pay comes the opportunity to leave my parent's house finally and move in with a girl who has lovingly stolen my heart. With my school behind me I can find better jobs even!

But at the same time, its just. So scary for me. What if I can't keep up my part of rent. What if my chronic pain or ADHD or other disabilities put a strain on someone I love to my core, and I end up making things worse because I get extremely emotional and will scream (at myself mostly) and panic during these high stress times (especially if money is involved)

I've had a 'safety net' of family members who barely tolerate the fake me I present myself as, and I know my mental health is going to be so much better when I'm not around them, but at the same time I need so much help sometimes. Family just happens to help in terms of shelter and food. It also doesn't help that the one other time I moved out it ended so so poorly that I'm still working through that trauma.

Hurting the love of my life in any way fucking terrifies me. I want nothing but the best for her always always always. I just know I can't always be at my best, its impossible to be. I will break at some point and probably scream and cry about how things aren't going nearly to plan and I'm so weak so often I don't know if I can pull myself together fast enough to not hurt myself or her with my untrue words.

#I used to have (What I'm pretty sure now were autism) meltdowns so bad when I was younger. #I was always told I was selfish and that I can't expect to have x thing or y thing fixed #And I would scream and slam my hands against my legs and the ground #Its never been pretty #I just learned to cry before it gets to that point now and I just sob so fucking much #But if it feels like my life is over? I just. I just can't. I'll still scream and cry and pulp my legs bruised and hands bleeding #And showing my wife all of me includes all of these things I hate. This could happen if I move in with her #I haven't had a meltdown in a while from what I remember #It was probably right after I moved back in with my parents. And was pretty much coerced into an environment I felt extremely unsafe in. #tw self harm #jic cause I have mentioned beating myself #I haven't been close to a meltdown around my love at all tbh so maybe I'm scared for no reason. I mostly just cry because #Thats what happens when any emotion runs high #<- Girl who is currently crying typing all thid #also I hope no one reads hurting her as physically. I've never thrown a punch in my life. Well. I guess except at myself #Huh thats the first time I've thought of it that way. That sucks #I just know that 1. Being loud in general would not be nice to either of us. and 2. I can be a bitch! I can say some rancid shit! #And that would! Be fucking bad and hurt! And I so desperately don't want that #And I know accidentally hurting someone is something you need to expect when you're in a close relationship with someone #It still fucking sucks though #AUGH I just needed to type this all out I'n feeling better already. I'm just a scared girl so often. #I want to live more and more each day so I know I'll make it. Even if I do it scared. I guess I hope you see this honey #Since this is stuff I should be talking about with you #Getting my thoughts sorted though before talking is good though. The reason I type this on fucking tumblr is because it helps me think #Also being vulnerable and letting friends and mutuals and the like see all this is a chance for me to better myself I suppose #This has been a runa rant #runa diary #I have a habit of overthinking. Methinks #Honestly my current safety net of family has been pretty fucking bad #The one time I earned a little bit more money than I needed for bills I was basically stripped of a lot of it paying my folks rent

[strixhaven]

well. yesterday was fine so let’s hope i’m not in severe debilitating pain today. or tomorrow

#saturday was so bad i tried to go downstairs to make a sandwich during the night when i felt a bit better #and i straight up almost collapsed onto the floor from the pain. hurt so bad tinnitus was off the charts loud could barely walk #woke up the next day completely fine. could eat and move normally without any issue. was fine today until now #can feel the Beginnings of the pain and am hoping it stays minor and that painkillers work this time #because. guess who has to go to work. this sad fool #if my body’s gonna implode then let it be tomorrow at least when i already have the day off

[arowrath]

ouhhh its almost easter isnt it. fuck this shit

#text #hoping my parents wont make me go 2 easter service.. for the reasons #but also bc my church is so fucking loud Like my head genuinely hurts thinking abt it #petitioning scott to invest the easter money in some fucking carpets #<- one time they said the easter donation was going 2 a charity and the charity was just. The church. so i dont think he'd feel too bad 😁

[visdiefje]

Always so sad when a product that changes other people's daily lives doesn't do the same for you... I know everyone's different but can I be the same here please

#this is about loop earplugs 😔💔 #like they're not BAD but. aside from the shape they're not really noticeably better than foam earplugs for me #and in my right ear I can easily put it in place and it'll stay there #but it feels like my left ear is doomed to have Loose Earplug Syndrome. tried a few different caps #but it doesn't ever really feel like it is firmly placed in there #and also. I can still hear my upstairs neighbours moving around noises loud enough to interrupt me falling asleep #with the quiet ones that are meant for sleeping #I just take them out at some point during the night #and the engage ones do mute noise around me somewhat but I can't actually speak with them. my voice buzzes SO loudly inside my own ears #I lose track of what I'm saying immediately #sad though because they were. Not Cheap and I was hoping it'd be a good investment with my noisy neighbour #and I hear a lot of good about them which I believe... but for now they're just kinda. eh #stares out the window wistfully