#i feel like crying rn fr

[rizzmin]

Prince Pillu and psps are both gone now :(

#; garbage talks ft armin #i feel like crying rn fr #I am already missing pillu #we took psps out and flew away :') #very proud of him #but I miss him :( #I miss both of them :((

[b1mbodoll]

repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please

#♡.gabi barks #im okay i prommy (im crying rn) #like omg seriously what did i do!!!!! i dont do anything but mind my fucking business!!!! and talk to my precious little friends!!!!!! but #apparently i cant even do that bc no matter what i always get meanies in my inbox 🤞 #like im seriously not doing anything i just came back and im already receiving asks telling me to kms and deactivate like do yall realize #im a person too.. like im literally real and i have feelings and im not a complete ditz #like what is so hard about treating people with kindness!!!! #ive spent all morning blocking mean anons and deleting asks and trying to brush off the mean words i see and receive and it hurts!!!! #im just a girl #if u send hate or tslk meanly to or about me im assuming ur a LEWSER and have no life bc i dont even do anything fr!!!!! im coolin!!!!! #i was gonna post this with the jealousy is a disease get well soon girl meme but i couldnt find it #anyway im fine!!!! (as im actively texting my therapist) #no bc im so upset and so angry WHAT AM I DOING WRONG #what am i doing to deserve this like please give me a valid answer so i can fix it im so tired of being sad and mistreated and bullied :( #i know i promised i was gna try to be more active but my little heart is so heavy and sad

[mazojo]

You know what makes Lovely Complex peak romance? That even after Risa realizes her feelings for Otani she barely changes her attitude towards him. She still calls him a stinky little midget rat but now you just add the blush to her expression and I find it cathartic

#therapy actually. risa and Omani as the only romance ever #its so funny dude because its literally me when crushing like cursing myself and being like goD you really decided to have feelings for a #rat bastard huh? ASDFGHJ she just like me fr #I love it because it makes their bond so much stronger like she is just not crushing on him randomly #there's actual substance to their relationship and their past anyways dont @ me crying rn because of them again #lovely complex #manga #anime #risa #otani

[sweetcitrusboi]

Watching gaming dudebros have full-on heart attacks and stroking out over tasm2 not winning or any of their basic ass shooting games and running around talking about how “nobody played Alan Wake 2 or BG3” when in fact a shitload of people did play both games and yall refuse to branch out and play other games and yall live in a bubble of just Fortnite, Cod, and other games just like it, and now you’re going out of your way to be unhinged individuals online about it instead of showing good sportsmanship and congratulating the amazing games and teams behind them that did win an award.

#also I’m like the biggest spiderman fan out there but ofc bg3 sweep had to come through but even im not sitting here screaming over tasm2 #i feel like dudebros crying about their games not winning when they single handedly refuse to interact in fandom spaces and support content #is the main reason why ur games didn’t win bc y’all don’t interact with anything outside of the game #it was the dedicated fanbases and the ppl who loved these companies and the actors/writers/producers/etc tht got their deserved awards #bc they actually care !!! #yall don’t gaf about anything outside of just gameplay yall sit in isolated bubbles and act like every other game is “mid” and non existent #bc u refuse to interact and yalls weird thing with specific genre games tht I won’t get into rn bc tht will go into weird masculinity play #in gaming spaces but #stop being weird ass adults online bc your game didn’t win #just saw a shit load of comments admitting they “weren’t voting” for anything while pissing bc bg3 got goty like make it make sense???? #don’t call something mid or bash the va who rightfully got an award when u showed no support for ur game #like looking at half of these tweets and corny ass dramatic reaction videos by grown ass men is embarrassing #I’m so glad that I’m an actually a well adjusted adult bc I couldn’t be acting like some of yall fr #bg3 #alan wake 2 #goty 2023

[mooodyblue]

i am just so tired

#im fine im just #i'm tired #tired of ppl not listening to me tired of playing therapist tired #like i have my problems too i never vent to anyone i keep them all to myself #like i am struggling every single day to wake up and live locked up inside my home every single day wondering if i will get some miracle #fr just wanna cry rn i wanna sleep my stomach hurts and i don't feel good but im doing this shit again #like u do not want to know what the inside of my brain has been looking like since thursday #but whatever i guess i just gotta move on!!!!

[https-furina]

you were one of the mutuals I wanted to be mutuals with a long time ago

back when you were I think https heizou?

but little ol me thought you were scary like everyone else D:

and because I didn't think you'd wanna be friends with a minor (I had no clue you were already mutuals with some 💔)

but you're like really nice so I'm glad my chaos got us to be friens :3

mwa

i’m definitely not crying oh my god— you’re so sweet 🥺 but shsjsjsj yes i’m mutuals w a lot of minors i’m everyone’s collective big sister <3

(am i really that scary to people? oh no—)

#i’m straight up crying oh my god 😭😭 #ILYSM /p #i’m so glad we became mutuals #like fr oh my god i need to talk abt how much i appreciate some of yall #)): this made me feel a little better you don’t realise how much i’m struggling rn irl omg #perfect timing u angel #— 🎟️ oliver #the archon’s disciples 💙 #> entry to the opera epiclese ✉️ #https-furina

[straykats]

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#kats personal #crying bawling rn bc things have hit the fan fr and i dont see it getting better at all #but then an old friend msged me about the ojo tv show #and we havent talked for over a year but he knows i like/d pjo and so im like #idk why im crying sm #like ive actually been feeling so shit and yeah like i can pnly see it getting worse rn #but this was so out of the blue #and knowing that i like. i still exist to people who i used to care about ??? #and they still look at things and think of me????? #my chest actually hurts from how kuch i was crying just then LMAOOOOL #if u see this pretend u didnt #while im at it though #its been a long long time since ive felt so scared and helpless #like i cant even rant or sirectly talk about whats going on rn #the kast time this happened it was. really bad and i didnt talk abojt it for years #and it kept happening and then when i did talk about it #it was like 3-4 years after the most recent incident #im hoping that thid yine i dont keep it all bottled up/to myself #and ig guven whats happening i kind of cant #especially if it doesnt get better #idk im tired but i just. #yeah idk.

[scattered-winter]

as lonely as being aro can be I honestly wouldn't have it any other way because as a kid I felt like my life would be over in my 20s once I married and started having kids but the first time I realized I didn't have to do that shit was akin to a bird getting released from its cage

#like idk. i remember watching my mom growing up. no time to read or paint or sing or do anything she wanted to do #because she was always doing chores and housework and taking care of the kids #and she said she chose that life and was happy with it but it felt like a cage to me every time i thought about it #and in the ''religion'' i grew up in anyone with ovaries was supposed to get married and have lots of babies as soon as they could #so yk. 20s. #and as a kid growing up in that environment i Literally thought i would only get to live for 20/25 years #and then i'd be miserable and locked inside the house for the rest of my life #and all my friends growing up Wanted that !! they wanted marriage and a million kids and all the things we were told we needed to have #and im sure a lot of this was just the culture we grew up in. even now after leaving years ago im still struggling to unlearn things #and as kids ?? we didnt know Anything. #but idk. i remember watching brave and connecting with merida so much because i didnt want to get married either !!! #but i thought i had to !!! literally that movie made me cry so many times fr #but finding out what aromanticism was was literally so insane it was like. i dont have to do any of this bullshit actually. #it was literally the most radical thought i'd ever encountered at the time #it felt like i was defying everything i've been taught and it took me a long time to separate myself from the mindsets i grew up with #and then longer still to eventually separate myself from that environment completely #but idk. im a little lonely sometimes and my siblings and friends are all getting married and paired off #but i dont have to. my life isnt over and i can live it however i want. #idkkkkkkkk im feeling kinda emotional rn. being aro is incredible fr #winter speaks #queer #personal

[cathedraldecay]

i believe the stars aligned for me today bc my first binder came in the mail AND we got sappy frank content AND another mcr date AND i ate some really fucking good pasta

#GUYS I HAVE A FR BINDER NOW i cant stop looking in the mirror in awe #i cant believe im capable of looking like that???? #i put on an outfit and i was like iiii look like mikey way rn and started crying a bit #immense amounts of joy today #and i worked from 9 to 5 who knew i could feel joy on a day like this #AND MCR IN TEN DAYS EGJJDJGNENFJFHJD IM GONNA FUCKING CRUMBLE TO ASH #but also it figures that my period would start on this day as well lmao

[bardengarde]

I still wouldn't consider myself a Swiftie, but Enchanted makes me want to cry until I throw up

#what did she PUT in that SONG #enchanted has the effect on me rn that love story had on me in like 2011 #i know it came out way before that but like middle school is when i was watching every amv possible with that song #and fr i gotta imagine my blorbos with this song instead of my actual feelings bc i Will cry until i throw up #taylor does slay sometimes tho I'll give her that

[the-kipsabian]

hey

thanks for dealing with me tonight. today has been absolutely stupid awful and this made me feel better

💜

#i have to adult tomorrow and im already dreading it so. going to bed and hoping i can at least sleep well so i feel physically better #but yeah i know im. like this most of the time rn its the mental illness fr lmao #im trying. and it means a lot that there are ppl in my tiny void sometimes yelling back at me when im incapable of close socializing #especially about personal topics. so like. just yelling about wrestling or whatever helps #anyways before i cry im going to bed so. again. thank you 💜 #night is an absolute mess on main

[oatbugs]

AUGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#waiting for smn is soooo #idk #idk how to feel what to think #anyway asked my friends for advice on it #they were all like u should have a convo abt it. bc like #emotional support is important in a relationship and receiving none of it is bad #like how come we r both having a tough time and yet so far i was like aw theyre having a horrible time theyre dealing w #depression thats why they cant support me :(( like. #im also having a tough time dealing w depression and ive been there 4 them consistently !!! and im sorry but like when i was horribly #depressed like 10x worse than this yrs ago i remember i still did my best to be there for whoever i was dating at the time #but rn its so one sided like im excusing a complete lack of emotional support under the category of mental health stuff #and even tho i told myself it was an explanation not an excuse it was in fact both. it was def an excuse #depression can make it hard for u to be there for others but when theyre ur partner and ur best friend and u cant even respond #to them stating how they feel properly that is bad !! viewing them telling u their current emotion or feeling bc thats what the topic is #as ~putting stuff on you randomly~ is bad!! #like fr whenever i feel sad i have to eat up my feelings and cry on my.own bc im afraid theyre not going to respond well to me telling them #that. its not like i vent or anything either (w/o asking. but i dont even do that) its just #UGHHH IDK #anyway ive been avoiding this convo w them for a while bc i have been trying to be patient and just. wait for them to get better #and maybe someday they would be there for me!! maybe my friends r all the emotional support i need if i feel so bad that i cant keep it in! #but its just not fair on me i think. ive been feeling shit too!!! i forgot that i existed #until i finally told my friends abt it and they were like. relationships r a two way street etc etc #anyway yh #idk how this will go x #taking some time away to collect my thoughts n so are they so

[grantihare]

another tiny mordred update : hes taking his pills like a champ, the pill pockets are miraculous fr he even begs for another one after i give him his medicine so its not nearly as bad as when he was on a liquid dose before 🥲 that was rly rough for him so its rly nice that we found a way for him to be okay with the pills

hes still wheezy ofc he only just took his second dose but if its like last time he had meds it might start having an impact by the weekend so im hoping so hard for him 🥹 id love him to be able to have a nice long play day with my partner on their day off

#its such a relief genuinely to have smth to help him like ik im a broken record at this point but #i was in such a major depressive episode for the past couple months bc i felt so so helpless abt it #and i feel so light rn to have him be eager to be medicated and playful again #weve been trying to diagnose this for like 2 months and he started wheezing before then #and thats not so long for us but hes only 8 and a half months old #thats like a third of his entire life unable to have fun like he wants to #im so so happy that he has a diagnosis and a fix for it now #i want so so many energetic years with this little guy and this is a start to that #thinking abt it makes me cry fr /pos #thank u so much to everyone who helped us get here whether thru donations or boosting or kind words/emotional support #i cant wait to be able to post a video of him with zoomies and no panting once this med course is thru #happy things #mordred

[starg1rlie]

HIIIIII LEOOOOO!!! STARBABY YAAAAYYY i was so happy when i saw the notification and even more when i finished reading!!! WOOOO THAT WAS SO GOOD I FELT SO REFRESHED thank you for the GOD TIER WORK!! No pressure in updates or anything else, take care and i hope you're safe and healthy ♡

HOSHIIII! HIHI!! you legit have no idea how happy you make me whenever i see your user pop up in my inbox like- HDHSHDHSHDSHWKLAJWLA YOU MAKE MY DAY LOVE,, pshh- nawhhhh, it ain't god-tier work. just a lil' something that isn't proof-read that i wanted to post to, yk, get it out of my system. ehe <3 my update schedule will deffo remain inconsistent with my hiatus and everything, but i'll DEF tag you in any childe fics i write in the future!! i love to see you and everyone else's comments and interactions, it just makes me incredibly weepy an' giddy inside. i'm both safe and healthy, and i hope that you're doing the same HOSHI!

#(｡･∀･)ﾉﾞ leeo replies!! #@ajaxstar #KLAJWPAWJEOAWJEALKDJAKLDJAKSD #when you post a fic and it gets immediate responses >>>>>> #like FR THO #yall make me really happy #istg i don't deserve any of you guys #y'all are going to make me cry #like i really feel like crying rn #i'm not even kidding. #though it's probably from something else #ION KNOW MAN #all i know is that you are the absolute best #and i LOVE you #i appreciate you #and i cherish our time together (don't come at me for being all sappy)

[acaiyatree]

wow!! going into the sonic idw tag was a fucking mistake!!

#yall r annoying god bless #i understood some critiques of last issue (ie : tangle wouldn't Do That and it feels like an artificially made conflict for the sake of #making conflict) #but like. for the folks saying lanolin's a bitch : What. genuinely What. and also Boo Hoo female charas can give off bad vibes boo hoo so #sad crying a river boo hoo yall r weak < 3. yall do know she could go through character dev right? yall do know bitchy characters can exist #right? fucking face palming be fr w me rn. insaw someone say that her saying her wisp can't fly that high is mean and like. bro. be fr with #me. be so fucking fr with me rn. and also miss maam's just tired i??? yall genuinely got mean vibes from her tf #she isn't even all that bad lmao. and then someone saying lanolin is being shipped with sonic in the latest issue.... again. be so fr with #me rn. be fr. you saw that as budding romance?? WHAT. WHY. anyways idw comics tag i will never see you again i hate you so much an #d i hate the people in it more :>

[astrxealis]

sometimes i think of scenarios in my head with my ocs and then sometimes for happy brain i kinda crossover them with my favorite medias atm and also insert myself in bcs i like being self-indulgent and yeah my brain is so fucked up that i just keep repeating the same first bits and can't get far in thinking and i end up just having my s/i ramble my thoughts and it's hard to explain but yeah but anyways it's interesting thinking about who or what my ocs would like in video games or colors or whatever because all my ocs seem to reflect a certain part of me and i can get into the psychology of that but also its hard to explain my thoughts but also anyways yeah i find it interesting thinking about who my ocs would kin

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #feel free to just ignore me oopsies i am just rambling but yeah i love my ocs so much #sorry besties you are all subject once more to my brainrots and rambles and random thoughts now that i am on tumblr rn #my brain is very interesting to me and the way i think but also i can't properly think in such a way and i find it really hard to explain #and i'm such a mess but also man i don't know and i'm going off-track and god i love vgm so much and i don't want to do homework #but anyways back to the goddamn point !!! so my oc merle. i have little crossover thoughts in my head right and i realize #he's similar with akira and then it makes sense as to why i like characters like akira and it's a little woa fr bcs #the way i imagine merle is really similar to akira actually but with a more purple color scheme (but still dark) and he doesn't wear #glasses (at least. wait. actually. i don't really know anymore) GOD my mind never stops but yeah uhm yeah #i think humans are so unbelievably interesting and it's all just so fascinating and and and #also i've awakened to the fact i really like sharks i think they're very cute! i still prefer dolphins though #people who hurt animals make me really angry and sad... i think about it and already want to cry #i have never had a pet but my grandparents had lots and it's funny how memory works. i forgot they once had a pet turtle #until something in a school group project involved my group involving a pet turtle in our storyline for something #and then i remember that past. my past. once again. and clearly even! and... yeah #but yeah... i know i will never abandon my pet if ever i do get a pet. or pets. i would never do that and i really know this is a fact with #all my heart but what's stopping me from getting a pet is that i need to take better care of myself first and learn how to take care of #pets! i think where i live there's actually an opportunity for me to do so. i'll try to see more about that. and hmm... this is a really #busy year for school. and then the next. and then tbh everything onwards from 2023 so... i don't want to put time to something #i'm not even sure if i can really make time for. but. i think i really do want a pet! a dog esp. but also a cat. but a dog esp #bcs i've always wanted one !! i know when it comes to something i really want i am very dedicated and passionate #like how i already calculated xiv expenses months before actually got the game? and planned how me and lune would do things too #and then because i want to handle money better and take note of all that i yeah and yeah and yeah im tired of typing now BYE #will now disappear again after rambling quite a lot ^__^ maybe? maybe not? who knows! #my thoughts are so. whack. wack? idk. but uhm yeah it went from ocs to sharks to pets to money and idk huh #man w some things i'm really shy about being perceived or asked about. like my ocs. egbhebgjhbjehs ;;;;; #and people being nice to me T__T sorry i rlly appreciate it but i can't really comprehend it and my coping mechanism is avoidance