#i had to post this now bc i feel it more than ever

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#im just a lil fishy owo #this was initially drawn out while i was home for winter break and terrified by the concept of having to go back to work #it wasnt as bad as i imagined but i still feel this. i also feel slightly crunge abt it #but like idk u gotta build up from something so off it goes into the world #which is to say. i drew this bc i wanted to try to work on composition #and some of it is ok but ya kno meh #original #art #fish #i had to post this now bc i feel it more than ever #whatever compulsive force exists within me is trying its hardest to kill me

[front-facing-pokemon]

#spheal #i wish i could post circular images on tumblr. because this one is deserving of a fully circular PNG. i could technically just take a #regular square image and then make the edges transparent to make it *effectively* a circle‚ but like… would that appeal? #if that would appeal then i'll do it. i don't think it would be *too* prohibitively hard. i would be willing to make an addendum #with a circular transparent image of spheal staring at the screen if enough of you want it. either way #this guy rolls everywhere and i think tumblr is gonna like that. i feel like this is gonna end up being a well-liked pokémon amongst tumblr #as in. i feel like. it already is. because. of how it is. i just don't know bc spheal isn't like. one of my favorites #it's cute don't get me wrong but it's just not one i think about all the time. it's one that i'll like if prompted but not unprompted #i'm gonna stop before i dig myself into a hole. i beat totk finally. it was very good and i honestly had way way more fun with it than i did #with botw. i have my criticisms obviously. it's not perfect it's not pmd. but it was very good. and now i've moved onto the next game in my #backlog. which is very long but i'm steadily working through it. hopefully i can get it done before i graduate this december and stop having #any time for the rest of my life ever forever to play video games. dreading that day. but uh #until then i will game. and hang out with my friends. and go on tumblr. and do all these things i like to do. until i no longer can #wow this got depressing i'm gonna Stop here. enjoy spheal

[seventh-district]

so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh

#hsr #honkai star rail #hsr 2.2 #hsr spoilers #hsr leaks #the body of this post reads as far less enthusiastic than i really am #i just don’t know how to casually return from my latest 2 week hiatus only to gush abt a game i’ve hardly blogged abt before #but i’m not making a whole ass sideblog for it like i did for Genshin. nah y’all r gonna bear witness to my fixation with this one #so anyways don’t mind me. vibrating into another dimension with anticipation for the next 11 days #it’s insane man. a year ago i Never ever woulda thought i’d be so invested in this game. and it took Months for the game to really grab me #but i’m v glad i kept coming back even when i was struggling to really get into it. like i just had this feeling that if i stuck around and #gave the game a chance to really like. come into its stride. i just always felt like there was Something there and i just hadn’t found it #and holy shit i finally found it in Penacony. the devs really truly outdid themselves with this region and these characters and this story #not to discount everything that’s happened prior. like i was genuinely Liking it all before now but i wasn’t Loving it y’know #but that may be more a ‘me having to fight tooth n’ nail to force myself to consume new media’ thing than it is a matter of the actual game #anyways i came here to talk abt the program! bc since i’m not filming my HSR stuff i’m gonna be insufferable abt it on Tumblr instead ! :) #and i’m probably not filming any more Genshin stuff. or anything else at all for that matter but let’s not talk abt that dead dream #pun not intended lmao. Anyways let’s return to the subject at hand while there’s still room left in these tags shall we #i’m so fucking glad they had Aventurine on this program man. especially since he’s leaked to only have 18 lines in 2.2… it was nice to see- #-him here at least 🥹 i’ll take what i can get. his unenthusiastic little bird noises at the beginning.. him being reluctant to come out.. #the way one of the first things to come out of his mouth was ‘y’know DR RATIO once told me…’ like boy we get it ur in love with him 🙄 (/J!) #i love how they can’t go on these programs w/o talking abt each other it’s adorable. AND THE WAY HE WAS THE ONE TO EXPLAIN BOOTHILL’S KIT!? #they can’t just fuel my crackship like this… god and his whole ‘muddle-fudger.. son-of-a-nice-lady?’ thing had me wheezing #Aven mocking Boothill’s inability to curse was not on my special program bingo card but fuck i’m here for it #and Robin being all curious abt him was so cute.. ‘who /is/ he? … does he order milk at the bar?’ i’m crying she’s so sweet #also the trailer was fucking insane. which feels redundant as hell bc all of HoYo’s version trailers go hard but like. still. wow. #that millisecond long shot of Boothill surveying the skyline is so fucking good. also what the fuck is Jing Yuan doing here!! #not complaining at all tho. we’ve got JY & DH(IL?). Argenti(?). Boothill. Sunday. Aven. all my men r here and i am eating so fucking good #Seven.txt #viddy game stuff

[liquidstar]

new oc batch ready! 8 more of these guys lol. the whole deal with this set is they’re from the artisan guild- lunar flair! intentionally spelled like “flair” as in “style” or “a flare for ____” rather than “flare”

basically all the members of the guild are different kinds of artists with different niches (and varying degrees of diva-ness). it’s pretty easy to tell who does what based on the everything about them, but if you want more info their bios are still under the cut!

Name: Jupiter

Name Origin: The planet of course

Pronouns: He/him

Age: 52

Guild rank: Guildmaster

Weapon: Lightning rods

Ethos (Power): Gigantomachy. He can make himself (even more) giant

Flaw power is based on: His overly protective nature, especially where the guild is concerned.

Notes: Literally the nicest guy ever until you provoke him though

Name: Erinome (Erin)

Name Origin: A moon of jupiter, the exact meaning of it’s name is murky but it can refer to grace or purity

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 13

Guild rank: 2 star

Weapon: A Book.

Ethos (Power): Poetic Imagery. Illusions cast forth by his her poems that change the appearance of the physical environment

Flaw power is based on: Her escapist indulgence in fantasy

Notes: You know, like, the pen is mightier than the sword and all that.

Name: Pictor

Name Origin: The constellation meaning “painter”

Pronouns: He/him

Age: 23

Guild rank: 3 star

Weapon: Giant paintbrush

Ethos (Power): Ardor. He can create three-dimensional things with his paintbrush. However they are not animate or alive.

Flaw power is based on: His conceited nature in regards to his own work.

Notes: Goes to museums to talk about how he could probably do it better anyway

Name: Oberon

Name Origin: A moon of the planet Uranus, it gets it’s name from the king of the fairies in Renaissance literature. Notably in Shakespeare’s A Midsummer Night's Dream

Pronouns: He/him

Age: 29

Guild rank: 5 star

Weapon: Rapier

Ethos (Power): Fantasia. An illusion of changing his own appearance.

Flaw power is based on: His theatrical nature, of course

Notes: Why is he ourple?

Name: Syrma

Name Origin: A star in virgo, it’s name refers to the train of a garment (Typically worn by actors in tragedies)

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 25

Guild rank: 4 star

Weapon: Giant needle

Ethos (Power): Binding threads. She can create stitches on any solid objects and bind them to each other. Including people- The stitches are manifested energy and do not hurt.

Flaw power is based on: The dependency she often has on bonds- i.e. threads that bind people.

Notes: She makes and models all her own clothes.

Name: Parumleo 

Name Origin: A star in Pisces, it’s name means “small lion”

Pronouns: They/he

Age: 19

Guild rank: 3 star

Weapon: Microphone bardiche

Ethos (Power): Persuasion. If they can make you laugh you’ll temporarily have to follow his orders. Though it’s too weak to call full-blown mind control, and fairly easy to snap out of.

Flaw power is based on: His desire to be liked by others.

Notes: They’re like a lolcat. They can haz cheezburger.

Name: Leda

Name Origin:  A moon of jupiter, the name means swan.

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 28

Guild rank: 4 star

Weapon: Duel ribbons

Ethos (Power): Poise. Complete and utter weightlessness.

Flaw power is based on: Her carefree and utterly absent-minded nature.

Notes: You guys know swan lake right? Well, there ya go.

Name: Styx

Name Origin: A moon of pluto that gets it’s name from the river of the underworld. Yeah it’s also a rock band.

Pronouns: She/they

Age: 20

Guild rank: 3 star

Weapon: Axe-guitar.

Ethos (Power): Vibrato. Powerful soundwaves cast by her axe-guitar

Flaw power is based on: Her brash and blasé attitude

Notes: Calls everyone “baby” or “babe” because they’re a cool rockstar.

#finn's ocs #oc references #finn's art #YAY i finally get to post my funny little artist guys #i feel like its fairly obvious what each persons gimmick is but just for the sake of brevity (for anyone who doesnt wanna read the readmore) #in order #jupiter doesnt have a Specific art bc hes the guildmaster and you can think of him as more of a teacher of sorts #erin is a poet/writer. pictor is obvs a painter. oberon is a thespian. syrma is a seamstress #parumleo is a comedian. leda is a ballerina. and styx is a musician (or straight up rockstar) #since these characters are all like.. trinary characters they dont go all Too much deeper than their gimmicks #but thats why theyre fun to design bc its like. what if [thing] was a guy LOL #also i wanted to try some new stuff out w their designs (like syrmas dimples for example) so i hope they look okay? i hope so... #also leda and how shes literally the least clothed character ive ever made. shes going to catch a cold for sure yeah #parumleo i worry about bc i had a fairly similar color pallet for asterope (but no red) so i hope he still stands out. the lolcat.... #oh also if erin and oberon's powers sound similar that's on purpose too. shes like his protege #i feel like out of all of them though pictor is like the prime example of guy who should be in an artist guild LOL #like the most archetypal. most ppl think of painters when they think of artists #but i wanted different types in there too. #painters writers actors even funnymen and rockstars. they all belong. theyre all weird about creating #anyway im glad i can finally post them now ^_^

[themyscirah]

Wait omg..... Jessica Cruz probably did rifle... my specialized sports knowledge coming in CLUTCH

Okay so I barely practiced and made it to regionals like once so im NOT the expert here but uh headcanoning that Jess did air rifle when she was a teen. Like idk if it would be as part of a team like with a high school (what I'm familiar with) vs like an individual thing vs like a travel/competitive team (it depends on the sitch in her area growing up) but she definitely went to some national matches (probably including JOs/JO quals like i think she was GOOD). I think she probably would have quit competitively following a bad shot at nationals (relatable) along with anxiety about competition (ALSO relatable) but still kept up with shooting casually for fun and relaxation and to hang out with friends etc.

She definitely would have shot smallbore competitively too but I never did that bc I was lazy so idk to much abt it competitively

#and by bad shot i mean a 0 #it hurts me to even think abt doing that during a match actually esp at fucking JOs #a girl on my team did that and im sure it was devastating (we never let her live it down after too) but like dang. i feel that pain #im just saying she would vibe sooooooo hard with rifle. like canonically they just said she did it but im talking air in particular #also in the panel they said six which first off. humphries bro thats TOO young ik youre trying to be impressive but youre talking abt rifle #here. if someones let their kid have a gun at 6 theres actually smth wrong with them. and not even a bb or smth wtf #ANYWAYS you guys haveeeee to understand this. jess would go so hard for rifle she would fit right in w every competitive shooter ive ever #met istg- #she would be out there on the porch 35° weather in full gear mid match crying w the rest of us it would be great #wait wait shoutout to the time i had to get smth from my car and there were like 4 ppl out there crying during the middle of standing #like i literally FEEL THAT SO HARD (weve all been there) but also like... awkwarddddddd #4 is an unusually large amount though. normally its like 2 ppl at a time first relay. with more 1st relay ppl crying after than during #gosh rifle omg this is making me miss it #<<<<freshman/sophomore me would kill me for saying this btw. i HATED practicing so bad then omg #OH and Jess would be a kneeling girlie. fave position. why ? bc i said so shut up #no but bc its my favorite position (yes i know its the worst okay. im aware of all the reasons kneelings sucks and why everyone hates it. #but you know what? kneeling hates everyone equally and i respect that) no but uh yeah ✌️✌️✌️✌️ #top 10 posts that are 80% jargon and only i care about 😘 #anyways this is canon to me now actually #like idc what you say she was down in the trenches (the range) w the rest of us #also ik she almost certainly would have shot paper but in my mind she practices mainly w electronic bc thats what i used (even if its super #uncommon and is only used at the nice ranges) if she was super competitive she would probably have driven to shoot electronic. lets just say #there was a paper nearby and an electronic scoring range a bit farther or smth #anyways yeah #WAIT OMG SHE DEFINITELY MET HER FRIENDS FROM HER BACKSTORY THROUGH RIFLE #and the dating drama too omg rifle drama was INSANE. like i was almost always out of the loop bc i never practiced and didnt have snapchat #but like the drama was INSANE. fucking wild. at least to my nerdy ass self. so her relationship drama makes total sense now okay babe fr #jessica cruz #blah

[aeide-thea]

poäng appreciation post 💛

#i forget if i said but Baby Sister and i stopped off at ikea on the way back from picking her up at the bus stop on monday #and finally replaced the ruined-by-a-succession-of-cats-(in-ways-both-unsightly-and-gross) Accent Chair in the living room #with a poäng rocker (bc the shape is a little more interesting and less instantly recognizable than the regular chair) in birch (my beloved #also they make fancy tufted cushions for it now! wish they came in more colors but it's a real improvement on sad options past #and anyway it's like. now you can actually sit here in the morning and look out the window at the extremely beautiful view #and the chair actually supports you??? like i could see down the road trying to work out some kind of custom cushioning that's thicker #but the shape of the frame is so ergonomic for me that it's genuinely quite comfortable regardless. bentwood exocorset… #anyway. not a very original post but i just DO really love ikea #like yes it's a mixed bag but also honestly if you're buying particle board— #(i was going to say 'and expecting it to hold up' but. honestly i think it's just. if you're buying particle board period) #—that might be on you. #(like. if you're being pressed in from all sides by budget constraints and immediate need and no accessible better-made used alternatives— #obviously you do what you have to. but it's like buying pleather—you know‚ or should‚ that the material is going to disintegrate.) #but the things ikea makes with decent materials are remarkably well-designed and affordable for what they are‚ has been my sense? #you just gotta shop carefully but like. that's true literally everywhere. #anyway. in conclusion i love my new buddy with its clean lines. …do people name chairs ever. #i've never before had the urge but this one feels like a little assembly-line friend that deserves its own identity. like a star wars clone #(lol what if i gave it a little nametag somewhere hidden. secret identity talisman 4 chairpal.) #(& yes i promise i'm as aware of the‚ uh‚ itself-ness of this tag spiral as you are. :) ) #domesticities

[binders-and-beanies]

Doin bad again folx

#might delete later I’m just wide awake and miserable #summer bill came out today and it’s $7100 not including housing which will be $2400 #literally dunno how im gonna pay for that and my dad is. adding to the emotional turmoil of it all #not able to get a loan at least not before the bill is due #able to get aid luckily but again who knows when or how much #my bday is tomorrow and for months I’ve been like please just let my bday be a good day i need one #i need some hope. not that I haven’t had good experiences lately bc I have. but nothing that lasts #nothing i get to feel good about for more than a day before a new problem drops #I need to enjoy my birthday without feeling this deep dark dread and fear and fucking guilt and hopelessness #I have fun plans for today And tomorrow and I’m grateful but honestly stressed about that too #bc it’s gonna be a lot + bc of all I need to do outside of that #+ I don’t get to spend my bday w friends the way I want like I have one friend Maybe coming w me #my bday is supposed to feel celebratory and instead it feels like absolutely forcing some illusion of choice or joy in my life #on top of it all. the most peaceful I usually ever feel is in bed w my partner and now my body won’t even let me hold or be held by them #currently laying next to them not touching them so I at least don’t keep them up w how physically miserable I am rn #I’m literally always physically miserable at this point and it feels like spring is never gonna come and provide any relief #but it’s like can I at least be cozy w them. nope instead I’m wide awake facing various horrors #despite being permanently exhausted and falling asleep in class after 40 ounces of coffee #Im just. so fucking unhappy in life rn dude I don’t want life to be like this forever with the constant threat of it getting much worse #fucking shred of joy in this godforsaken world: the sleep noises they r making rn #mine #txt #vent post #suicidal ideation tw #<- cry for help

[lemongogo]

#HELPP ok i have thoughts.my thinking cap back on #LOVEE the ending as far as the actual direction goes yk.like people seeing (literally) the pain&plight of plants #and vowing to protect and look after them w utmost care #loved that knives technically survived the fall and the aftermath esp in recruiting someone to care for vash #BUTTT i dont know how i feel ab his death ;___; the symbolism w the apple tree and him using the last of his energy is sweet #and i dont think i would dislike it necessarily if we just had more time #to marinate in his story.i think... the ending does not give u a lot of time to reach the full conclusion #i think that theres a whole side to his story i WISHH nightow explored and i wish we had seen knives turmoil and vashs acceptance of his #experiences more than the select few scenes we got beforehand. its soo rushed T_T DONT GET ME WRONG im still more or less satisfied that #we didnt get an ending like.. oh everyones dead and miserable and vash killed knives and ppl never learn to coexist right #like it could actually be so thematically worse BUTT im just like. THATS ITTT??? THATS ALL..sitting here twiddling my thumbs #waiting for a complete resolution thatll never come to be.and it sucks bc i wish i could look towards stampede to get that neat wrap up #but stampede completely altered knives' story and fell into the nasty horrid pittrap of aligning him with reprehensible values #so no conclusion of theres will ever touch on max!knives' conclusion and i think that is the thing im looking 4 the most #no conclusion of theirs* sry LAWL #also read some posts (by trigum LUVV ur analyses btw i need to rb some now that i finished) that the max ending #doesnt give vash an ACTUAL ending. we reach the climax in his confrontation with legato and then his commitment to save knives #but anything beyond that just doesnt exist. MY GODD imagining a reality where we got like 5 more chapters at LEAST to #give it a hearty ending #anyways. the reporter bit is so cute im bummed they went straight to that in stamp :sob: best like... cute ending fr #trigun spoilers #trigun maximum #trigun #vash

[poisoncupids]

say what u want about it but jiper really is for people who didn't know they were gay until after the majority of their teen years

#jason grace #piper mclean #jiper #heroes of olympus #jiper stans i'm sorry for putting this in your tag. and sorry about the rest of the tags you're about to read #please look away if u believe they truly love each other i don't want to step on ur sandcastles #but anyway #the literal years i spent picking and choosing my crushes rather than just having them. i see u jiper. #something about !! if a goddess had tampered with my memories and told me i was supposed to be dating a boy i would have thrown myself into #it headfirst too. and that goes both ways!! #i love jiper so bad bc it's not even a beard situation it's just that no one has ever told my poor little meow meows that They themselves #could be gay. the representation we (i) needed. #and this is why. in the universe where it happens. nico changes jason's life so bad #he thinks he's finally figured out who he is #only to have it all turned around when he discovers what a crush is *supposed* to feel like. and that that's what he feels for nico #and sure it hurts to be stuck finding himself *again* after everything #but at the other end of that journey he's in a truer form #one that sits more comfortably in his own skin #okay. shutting up bc this is a fic now. #this post went jiper -> personal information i didn't need to share -> jasico #always back to fawking jasico. when will the gay people in my brain leave me alone!!!!

[mattodore]

made a new sim in cas with the intent of them being one of my ocs but looking at them i'm still so unsure if this is true to my Vision™

#river dipping #the sim is meant to be jordan who alongside theo is one of my oldest ocs.............................. so. i'm in cas just staring. #like................ obviously it's very hard for me to turn him into a sim like it's a struggle bc he means so much to me #like fuck i still consider theo's sim to be a wip when i've had him in the sims since like 2018 like this is hardddddddd #the sim looks really good too like it's not even about the sim it's about meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee like i can't decide if i want jordan #to look like this or not..... i feel like it's really just about the aura the sim is giving off like the sim seems really sweet #and like jordan is a very nice guy!!! but i think he'd give off a more morose vibe than sweet... #like not gloomy exactly but like... pensive? he looks like he's got a lot on his mind bc he does. he's a Creative type so yk how it is #so i'm having trouble w/ that i think............ i'll post a pic of him anyway and just give it a few days to sit with me #if i don't use this sim for jordan then i'll probably end up just making him a gameplay sim? maybe? #i'm testing a new cas light out too tho idk if i could ever part with the bg and light combo i use now just bc of the draper painting yk #but it looks really good it's all glowy #i'm gonna try the lighting out with the draper background i use and see how i feel abt it #otherwise i'll just use this combo for when i'm actually in cas making sims

[iron-sides]

ok so on one level i do think tim will hold damian trying to kill him against him like. for years and years if not for EVER. i am nothing if not a believer in tim drakes ability to hold a grudge. how ever it occurred to me today that my little sister used to like. attack me, right. unprompted. she didnt have any way to deal with her feelings other than anger & violence and she couldnt take it out on my parents so it was All directed at me until she was at least 10 and even then we werent close until she hit around 13 or 14 because we (and by we i mostly mean she) learned how to compromise and also because i had started figuring out how to get my Autism Needs met and had more energy to spend on improving that relationship. anyway the point im making is that and it never occurred to me until like today how unreasonable this is but i have never actually held any instance of physical violence (and i do mean physical violence like hitting kicking biting slapping-- i used to have a habit of turning my back to her any time she seemed upset because she Would come at me and it hurt less on my back like. neither of us knew how to fight but i didnt rlly want to hurt her (i did a few times but almost always in the form of like. "oh bee pushed me down the stairs when we were younger" <- girl you were attacking me i needed you out of the room so i could melt down and u were literally attacking me. it wasnt on purpose it was the natural consequence of you attacking me) anyway ive never held the physical violence against her longer than like a few hours (been nervous sure but not mad) because like shes my little sister and i love her and that was the case even when she hated me. its something my parents did an okay job of acknowledging at the time that like any time the lamented that we didnt get along where i could hear it came with a "we know youre trying, she's the problem" (and she was to be clear. i say this with love but she was very much the problem i was the only person she ever attacked and i never hit back except to try and put space between us). anyway. the point is i do think i would react to damian wayne the exact same way dick grayson does if put in a similar situation because if my sister had had assassin training she would have done serious damage and it wouldnt have changed a thing

#my thots #like i would give the world for her. she is my number fucking one thats my girl!!! #im so proud of her at all times and i love her so much and im so glad she knows she can come to me and that we're friends now #i get rlly sappy abt my sister actually there are not words in english to describe how much i love her. shes the reason i love older #sibling characters so much because theres no other feeling in the world like the way i feel about her #anyway. she described to me in detail one time how she was going to kill me. she was three and i was five #i kicked her out of my room bc she did this after we had a minor argument abt sleeping arrangements for the sleepover we were having in my #bedroom #looking back the image of three year old sister waiting with an axe to kill me is rlly funny but it was a lot less funny at the time lol #idk how much sense this makes but i do think part of the reason i love damian and dicks dynamic so much is bc it half reminds me of her #if she was younger and our parents were more overtly shitty than #yell at us about stupid things shitty #anyway i think its an oldest sibling thing like i dont think tim would ever come around because hes not been an older sibling for that long #he hasnt developed the Instincts. but i have as dick grayson very clearly has and the Instincts say small child attacking needs therapy #and patience #this post makes no sense but im not gonna try to fix that bc i need to write a speech #loveposting

[dballzposting]

I domt think that I can look at this redbubble sticker the same way anymore now that I know that he licks that cat

#im over it now but i wanted to make the posts i drafted in my head while at work anyway.... #Like Ok ive been considering buying this pattern on a hat and i almsot did for my birthday but i didnt and #if i had then that shit would be in transit right now and i domt know how i would feel about that .. Think id lose it. #Im over it but earlier today i was a little hung up and honestly i frowned at thag bc #i dont want it to be like a Thing(tm)bc i HATE IT when things are Things i hate it when i get tunnel vision like that #things are much more enjoyable when i can be expansive and wholesome abt it and not get stuck on one needlepoint perspective or detail #EXAMPLE goten shitting in the urinals. i loved it but for a long time it was all i had 😭😭i got so sick of GOING ON ABOUT IT. #so im glad im over this glad i was able to let it pass naturally w/o getting stuck on it.. was getting a bit disquieting there but im good.. #ive been wanting that on a hat for months maybe one day i really will get it .. honestly maybe i need to now more than ever. Well anyway #dballz posting #yajirobeposting

[front-facing-pokemon]

#kyogre #weird to think this means we're nearing the end of gen 3. growing ever closer to gen 6 where i'm gonna have to re-source my models #*that's* gonna be rough. but for now y'know we still have a bit to go. it's just weird to see the end of gen 3 #i feel like‚ weirdly‚ i never thought it'd get this far. mostly bc i kinda quit this blog for a solid like two years after i first started #it until ONE individual kept going back and reblogging one of its old posts. and then i was like. y'know what. let's bring it back #and then the furret post kinda got it to where it is today. it's no 20k-follower behemoth like realpokemon. not even close. but it's more #eyes on something i'm doing than i've ever had before. so y'know. thanks for sticking with me this long #now i am going to NOT forget primal kyogre and groudon. lemme do those. also this guy is like a postgame fight in rt or whatever

[majorbitchwillgraham]

It's been 7 hours and 15 days

#YES this is psychopath's song ACtually #it's been 3 weeks #actually. #im still so sad hahaha wtf i never expected to feel like this #he was my 1st friend in this new place and thats why it was special #but it's also like a lost friendship? bc i dont even know if we will continue talking or what #and it was a damn surprise that mf told me he was leaving 3 days before so. sigh. i dont even know #just that i lose #i actually discover3d this song when sinead died.. i think it was the same damn day #now whenever other people mention him i feel so damn bad. and ridiculous. why am i so sad #anyway luckily no one i know will ever find this #i had to vent #no one is letting me talk about it. not my parents. not my friends #well. if i told my 1st estp friend maybe he can listen tonme yknow #having strong coffee was a bad idea i feel a lump in my throat #wth happened its just. that i feel like he died #and i SUCKS SO MUCH just to think that he didnt care as much about me #why. in so many relationships theres always one person that cares more than the other #my post #I am so sad this song is exactly what i feel #we talked about so many things goddammit. i told him i was depressed #he told me he used to feel bad before but now had changed. i mean and he was usually talking a lot about himself but i guess half of it was #true or heartfelt #he had such a funny laughter. the sick thing is that. i wanted to know him better and experience new things togethwr and now #it will never happen #imagine that

[maddy-ferguson]

Sick of getting called homophobic for not enjoying or shipping byler. Sorry but will stans are right for not shipping him with a guy who said his life started the day he disappeared. There is no enjoyement here aside from supporting it to piss off actual homophobes. The ship itself sucks ass.

you're so funny for sending this to me like am i supposed to agree that it sucks😭😭 but yeah i know what you mean like are people not allowed to dislike a ship anymore as long as you're not being weird it's literally fine it's A STRANGER THINGS SHIP

#people were like no this is terrible why would they do this to will i kinda hate mike now after volume 2 so they literally KNOW #it's not for everyone and like. a lot of bylers who are will stans' tweets and posts read like they don't even like what's happening that #much since their mike is like...a different mike sometimes or is portrayed as not good enough for will and not as someone who was #struggling too. idk. i feel like you have more to gain from being a byler if you're a mike stan than you do if you're a will stan which #sounds weird bc i just said that a lot of people are always like mike sucks will is the bestest ever but like. if you watch the show its #definitely mike who has the upper hand and who's 'making will suffer' even though he's suffering too if you think he's gay too which i #obviously do. but it means that you have to accept that and like that this is the story for will and a lot of bylers who are will stans #(even mike stans tbh) simply don't! so being like no i don't like this anymore because will's my favorite and the idea of it paying off #eventually doesn't make it worth it to me is like...very normal behavior lol #and when i say mike stans have more to gain i don't mean that mike has more to gain from the relationship. in universe at least (like no #omgg mike you are such a lame person how did you pull will) #because for us as a character he gets depth and an oh mike hasn't had nothing going on for two seasons plot twist. which is always fun #does that make sense #ask

[orcelito]

With gay moon post approaching 600 notes (600 notes... 😥) I have had a few realizations

1: not everyone shares the same observations that I do. Which I say just bc I was IMMEDIATELY struck by the framing of Vash with the moon in that one panel the first time I saw it, but I've had a number of ppl mention they hadn't noticed it

Which leads into 2: the reason that post has so many notes is bc pointing out moments like that holds value to people. Plus I guess my commentary & conclusions? Plus acting as something for people to bounce their own ideas off of.

And then 3: there are probably more moments I could explore in such a way, & that could hold value to people

#speculation nation #im thinking about this a bit too matter of fact probably. but im just trying to make it make sense to myself lol #bc it doesnt FEEL like a post that should be approaching 600 notes to me #im just like. i was just saying some thoughts about things i thought other ppl also noticed #mostly a 'hey isnt this cool?' kinda post. which it is for a lot of ppl. and then there r more ppl who are like. enlightened lol #i have ALSO learned that if i have a post i put out there like this. i should uh. plan for the possibility of it blowing up. #aka i should thoroughly think thru it instead of spitballing it out & having ppl comment things i shouldve included #also possibly do IDs? with the post reaching a wider audience that sure is smth that could matter to some #i havent bothered for my personal posts bc like. idk ive never had anyone in my personal circle of followers mention it being necessary #and i probably still wont for dumb offhanded images lol. but for my analysis posts. probably would be good to do. #I Have Learned to not put things out there if i wouldn't want it to blow up in the state it's in hfkshdj #aka. Baby's First Kinda Big Post. #ultimately not that big compared to other ppl's stuff (right now 😥😥😥😥) but bigger than Aaaanything ive ever had #id been hiding with searches off for Years. and prior to that i didnt post anything of value anyways. #in terms of like. fandom stuff lol. mostly just my rambles & live reactions to things #WHICH SOME PPL HAVE BEEN INTERACTING WITH MY REACTION POSTS... most hilarious being the times i was inconsolable #after reading volume 10. like we all get it lol but Lmfao #ultimately i just hope ppl arent expecting perfection with my posts bc im just kinda bullshitting Everything #i have Never had a big blog. only a handful of my fanfic readers ever followed me here. #im used to the attention being on ao3 lol and this just a space for my bullshit #I Will Still Post Bullshit. but i have learned things for any posts i purposefully put in main tag lol #also sorry i keep posting about my post hfkshfj but it's just kinda crazy to me still. i am noooooot used to this.