#i just wanna know if this is a adhd thing or just a me thing

[blackstarchanx3new]

If you like TOTK I sugjest you don't read the unhinged ramblings of a man who picked the game back up because I'm losing it just a bit

I'm getting so fed up with how badly designed a game TOTK is.

Literally what the fuck is this game's problem with making something fun.

Why does it deter you from fun at EVERY SINGLE JUNCTURE???

Why does it take everything that was dogshit about BOTW and amplify it by a billion.

Why does this game fucking blow so hard.

I want to enjoy it. But I just fucking can't.

Doing anything and everything in it is just painful and annoying.

Can't upgrade shit without doing a million other fucking unrelated things.

Can't do dick because I funneled all my crap into stamina to get the fucking sword, WHICH THE GAME WANTS YOU TO DO CLEARLY FOR A DOGSHIT STORYLINE.

But haha guess what, now you got no hearts and can't do DICK

Let's make all the shrines STRIP LINK OF HIS CLOTHES AND HAVE NOTHING SHRINES. LET'S MAKE EM HALF OF THE FUCKING SHRINES YOU DO.

AFTER MAKING YOU GO THROUGH SO MUCH SHIT TO GET TO THEM TO BEGIN WITH.

I'm losing my god damn mind.

This game makes me feel like I have ADHD with how much road blocking it does to me doing ANYTHING without doing a MILLION OTHER FUCKING THINGS.

I'm just getting so frustrated.

AND I HAVE YOUTUBE TUTORIALS ON THIS HORSE SHIT.

This game would be god damn unplayable without that shit.

Sorry for being so negative I'm just genuinely having a shit time with this game and I put it down for AWHILE after doing the dragon quest. I was like "Maybe I'll have fun next time"

Nope. I honestly think I hate it more now.

And if you wanna nag me with "you're playing it wrong"

I'm literally following other people's tips and shit because I keep getting stuck idk what to tell you.

#rant #i'm just so fed up man #games are supposed to be fun

[artofapeach]

Actually laughing so hard, Pav truly is a poor little meow meow, doomed by the narrative, 100% asshole, fuck your redemption you bitch

#anyway *continued making my lil comic where he does get redeemed* #I do appreciate that Miro seems to avoid more complex fanwork if only to keep it from his own vision #really that’s SUCH a good thing to do (especially for legal reasons) and not a lot of indie creators know to do that #but it also just makes me more comfortable delving into a fan world w/o the fear of accidentally insulting or affecting the original writer #I love miro’s world and want to see more of his vision even if it doesn’t match with my theories and headcanons #but I also love my theories and headcanons and wanna play with them as much as possible #best way to do that is for creators to NEVER SEE ME PLEASE #IM SORRY WHEN YOU GIVE ME A LOSER LIKE PAV IM GONNA HIT HIM WITH THE GOOD GUY BEAM ITS NOT YOU ITS ME #anyway here’s hoping we see more asshole pav in the future because umm yes please 🤲🏽 #fear and hunger #fear and hunger termina #fh pav #art #I guess #barely #more like me going on an adhd ramble and the art’s just kinda there

[halffizzbin]

The more times I re-watch Lost the madder I get that ANYONE still wants to leave the island once they discover there are showers and processed foods. What more do you even need? Smartphone-induced insomnia?? Office jobs????? Robocalls??? Vacuuming???? INCOME TAX????????

#I am specifically referring to the characters without any family or decent relationships back home lol #but like #I have parents and a sister and nephews and a cat #and I'd still be like. Not in a massive hurry #sure if you're not a main character there's like a 1% chance you get offed by an Other or Smoky or dynamite but is it worth it? Maybe! #and I would be forced to redirect my stimulation-junkie ADHD brain away from stupid shit and just obsess over learning new skills lol #teach me how to butcher a boar or something I'll get SO good at it just WATCH me #it will be all I care about for weeks until I find the next thing like throwing knives or tying knots or hand-to-hand combat #I won't have to grind my teeth over not being able to contribute to my Roth IRA EVER AGAIN #Do you even KNOW how many cool spiders they have in tropical locales? #My skin and my curls look SO good in humidity #JACOB #I WANNA GO #DO YOU HEAR ME JACOB???? #Lost

[cerise-on-top]

Hiiiii how have you been love bug? (Please tell me if your uncomfortable with that term since you are non-binary and they/them I’m not sure what nicknames you are uncomfortable with it’s just what I call my friends and just a nickname I have for people in general🫶🏻🫶🏻 ) so I’d like to to request farah with a adhd reader who is hyper forgetful and sometimes has meltdowns ( as someone with adhd)🧡🧡🧡

Hey! I'm fine! Bought some more yarn for my leftover blanket today, which I'm excited to work on! And don't worry, I think love bug is really cute! I don't mind most nicknames, but thank you for being considerate, I really do appreciate it! Hope you're doing well as well ^^

I don't have ADHD, so I don't know at all what it's like for someone with it! I had to do some research on it, so I don't know if these are actually viable methods of helping, but I tried! Please do correct me with something that might help and I'll add it in this post afterwards! I hope this is enjoyable to you regardless! Thank you for the request!

Farah with a Reader with ADHD

Farah doesn’t particularly know a lot about mental illnesses. She may be traumatized, yes, but that doesn’t mean she ever had the time to research any of them. So she’s definitely not the best person to go to when it comes to things like these, but she tries, even if she can’t always understand everything that’s going on. You’re suffering, and that’s enough for her to know she should do something to help you.

You being this forgetful may be a cause of concern for her, though. It’s not every day she meets someone who forgot what they did five minutes prior. It’s especially concerning when it’s something important, though, like seeing a doctor. Although she may be worried for you potentially developing something as severe as dementia eventually, she’ll try to push her worries aside and help you to the best of her abilities. If you ever need reminders, she can help you. Farah remembers and retains things very well, she’s never had any issues with it since she had to in order to get by. If you need to remember something, she’ll remind you a few times a day. You have an appointment? Don’t forget about it tomorrow, I’ll tell you again then. However, she’s also a big fan of post its and will write down whatever it is you may need and place it somewhere she knows you’re going to see it. I know, out of sight, out of mind, but she’ll also text you and have you make reminders on your phone for important things so you don’t forget. Won’t get mad at you for forgetting your anniversary, she can see that it’s hard for you to remember things and won’t yell at you or anything either. However, she will mention that it was your anniversary, or maybe her birthday. For the most part she just wants to spend those days with you, if she can, and will thus remind you. Again, you don’t need to feel ashamed for forgetting, she’ll tell you that it’s quite alright and that you shouldn’t worry. She’s patient like that.

If you have a meltdown in front of her, she definitely would not know what to do at first. Depending on what kind of meltdown it is, she’ll react differently. If it creeps up on you, slowly making you irritated, then she’ll ask you what’s wrong. Regardless of your answer, she’ll ask you how she can help you, if you would like to be left alone or if you would like to take a small break in any way. She gets it and she’ll get you away from whatever is stressing you out so you can slowly recharge. If you really do want to be left alone for a while, she will comply, but will knock on your door to check up on you every once in a while and will bring you some food as well. Farah just wants you to be well, so she’ll take care of you how she thinks might help. Food is always good, food usually helps her, so she hopes it’ll do the same for you as well.

If it’s a sudden meltdown where you don’t know where left and right are anymore, then she’ll get you away from everyone else at first. While she can’t imagine what it’s like for you, it likely isn’t very pleasant for you to be crying and screaming in front of other people. Hoping that you trust her, she’ll try to ground you, asking you how you’re feeling, what you’re feeling and how she could help you. What happened is also another question she would ask you. Again, she won’t really know what to do on her own, but she tries her best. Farah will talk to you in a soothing tone and try to distract you at first so you can calm down a bit. Whether it be cracking a joke or asking you about your top five favorite reptiles. Even if you can’t answer her properly, she’ll just reassure you that it’s okay, that everything is just bad in this moment and that it’ll pass. She’s with you this entire time and won’t leave you unless you want her to. Asks you to breathe a bit with her. In all your time being together, she’s likely learned a breathing technique or two that might help you.

Once your meltdown is over, she’ll be very gentle with you, especially if she can see you’re beating yourself up over it. You really shouldn’t feel ashamed for something that you can’t help, it’s not your fault. If you feel especially down, she’ll give you a kiss on the forehead and get some ice cream with you. Something like a meltdown seems exhausting to her. While she doesn’t want to seem like she’s rewarding you for having a meltdown, she does want you to be kind to yourself afterwards, that’s what the ice cream is for. And if you don’t want ice cream, then some berries, fruits or a small snack will suffice as well. Either way, she’s there for you the entire time until you feel better.

#cod #cod x reader #farah karim #farah karim x reader #I didn't think anyone at all would notice or remember that I'm non binary #I don't really mention that fact as much as other things but it makes me happy that some people do pay attention! #also love bug is a really cute nickname! your friends must be very lucky to have someone like you in their lives! #again I don't have ADHD I only have schizophrenia and there doesn't seem to be too much of an overlap among them #so I really don't know what it's like to live with ADHD but I get the forgetfulness #I have so many reminders on my phone and on small paper notes it's incredible #I also journal every day so I don't forget what I did during the day. that's one of my best habits yet #but yeah I'm also the kind of person who can't remember what they did five minutes ago and it's so very frustrating #sometimes I wanna look something up on google only to forget five seconds later what it was #sometimes retracing my steps helps me remember but not always unfortunately it's very annoying #but we are just so very strong for living with our mental illnesses!! #being mentally ill is exhausting and I can't think of any positives either #I know it may seem hard at times but it's important to be patient with oneself. I learned that the hard way #so please do be kind to yourself anon! you deserve it! you seem like such a nice person!

[dkettchen]

me waking up in a cold sweat at 6:20am: "I should get evening classes to be a hair dresser & training to be a makeup artist to be my own hair/make-up person on photo/video shoots and defy industry's single-gender-dominated-and-not-improving department segregation system like the all-rounder online creator that I am 👀😤"

#I swear I don't have adhd or anything I am just having a professional existential crisis recently x'D #ok but hear me out right like how useful would it be if people could hire someone who's a one-person videographer AND hair/make-up person! #I could like double my asking rate! #you need to do one before you can do the other anyway so why have two people for it #other than that the hair/make-up women don't specialise in photography #and the videographer lads have never touched a cosmetic product let alone knowing how to use it to any level let alone a professional one #AND I'd be able to offer hiring me as either role OR both at once #I'd have more options for jobs to apply to #and I'd have full control over the look I want from my subjects #cause like I do my own hair & make-up for my videos #like I know how to cut my own hair & do my own make-up #but I wanna learn how to do ANYONE'S!!! #and I know you can do hair dressing college evening classes cause I remember that was one of the other evening classes running while I was #doing my electrician's level 2 #and I know there's make-up training places in the city I've seen them before while I was looking up other things #if you do professional hair/make-up you need to take pictures of it for your portfolio anyway #and if you professionally take pictures of people you need to do their hair/make-up anyway to get the look you want #SO WHY NOT BOTH for any reason other than gender roles prohibiting the cishets from learning both skills to the required level!!! #THIS IS MY LEG UP #THIS IS MY QUEER NONBINARY TRANS ADVANTAGE #*evil manic laughter* #edit: and smth smth the thing where women & afab ppl don't do their skills to a professional level #unlike cishet men making everything their job and therefore succeeding professionally even in trad-female dominated skills/industries #hence I should LEARN my matr skills to the level required for professional stuff rather than limit myself to patr skills #that I have a disadvantage with due to cishet male-dominated nature of this industry/tech department #AND it'll give me an opportunity to message my detrans previous hairdresser (as I live too far away from her now) #being like 'u were one of my inspirations for this I also wanna learn how to cut mullets real good hope ur doing well T^T' x'D #AND I could apply to screenskills' trainee finder in another department in a few years regardless of whether or not I get in this year #(I applied to the camera one this year)

[steakout-05]

//ableism mention tw

ok just gonna say something really quick: i absolutely hate Abe's characterisation in the reboot of Clone High because it is nothing like how he acted in season 1 and it just. isn't funny. they've turned this good-intentioned but flawed loser kid who just wants to be like the original Abraham Lincoln but doesn't know how to, into a self-centered and arrogant asshole who literally almost said a horrible ableist slur twice in the first episode. like. i'm being serious, he almost says the R-slur twice in the same minute and i dunno about you but i really don't find it very funny when a) the only "joke" behind it is "oh look at how bad Abe is compared to the more progressive sensitivities of the new generation of clones, isn't he just terrible", and b) they felt the need to completely rewrite a pre-existing character that fans are already attached to to do something against his own morals for the sake of a shitty joke, and c) TOPHER WAS RIGHT THERE!!! isn't he supposed to be the asshole or am i missing something?? like...

i'm not saying you can't have "edgy" or "dark" comedy or whatever, but personally, i don't find it very funny when a character that actually means quite a lot to me and is one of my favourites is twisted and rewritten into an arrogant asshole in an apparent attempt to appeal to the people who hate Abe for his flaws in the original show. especially when he's rewritten to be someone who would say a slur that's literally been used against my fellow disabled peers, myself included. it just feels... wrong. it actually hurts a lot to see a character i once loved and found to be one of the funniest and most important characters in the show be turned into an arrogant dick, with barely any thought or meaning put into him. i don't like what they did with the rest of the OG cast as well (such as Joan making a complete 180 in her entire character, JFK's character assassination, the removal of Gandhi, Cleo barely being in it etc.), but to me, they did Abe the dirtiest in this season and i'm really disappointed that one of my favourite shows had to continue like this :(

#clone high #abe lincoln #rant #sorry this post is a little heavier than what i usually post on here but i just felt like i really needed to say this #abe from clone high is actually quite an important character to me and i'm still upset that he's been written so poorly in season 2 #like he's a silly parody of a teen drama protag but honestly i think his struggles in the original series are actually really meaningful #like he's a little shy and doesn't exactly know how to express his ideas in the best way but wants to help and i just think that's so real #especially as someone who struggles with that myself #he has so much pressure to live up to the OG abraham lincoln and he really wants to be like him and tries but doesn't get it #i mean he even says something like that in episode 2 when joan and gandhi come to see him in his room and that's really relatable #so to see him so horribly misinterpreted as a selfish asshole really hurts me. #they've essentially done the thing where a fandom will tear apart the neurodivergent coded character #and write them off as selfish and arrogant and completely misinterpret everything about them #not saying that Abe is written to be neurodivergent but you get my point #it's kinda like that #he's relatable to me as an autistic person and a lot of his struggles are similar to what the autistic community experiences #also i'm sad that gandhi had to get removed because he's important to me too #he's actually one of my favourite ADHD reps on tv i've seen and he's just really funny #i know he was removed because people in India got offended and they probably don't wanna cause another incident like that again #but still it's such a shame he couldn't be included because he was a great character #also slightly unrelated but i think turning characters into a moral debate it stupid and often results in stuff like this happening #ableism mention #tw ableism mention

[moe-broey]

LIKE something I think is all of the Askr family are like mirrors. Alfonse is a reflection of how much he loves Sharena and the summoner. Sharena is a reflection of how much she loves Alfonse and how, I think in the autistic sense, I think she mirrors A LOT. Henriette is a reflection of how much she loves Gustav (and seemingly, so severely that that love struggles to reach everyone else). Gustav was likely a reflection of how much he loved Henriette and his father. All of them are performing, adhering to SOMETHING. Their roles, and what seems to be The Correct Course of Action.

#fire emblem #feh #not a full thought but like. it's there #i see autism hcs for alfonse sometimes and regardless how i feel personally on that (as an autistic guy myself) #i think sharena is SO OVERLOOKED. for autism hcs. or at least the fuckinh tendencies. #i've seen adhd hcs for her too though and maybe that makes more sense (i have less info on that) #like it's speculated i might have adhd too but i was never diagnosed (only got the autism diagnosis) #which like obvs they aren't EXCLUSIVE like often times they're co-occurring. which i think is another hc route #you COULD take w sharena actually. #as for alfonse i do wanna say i completely get it and see why people do hc him autistic #he DOES have. tendencies LMFAO #but for me. alfonse is just as much a study in cis masculinity as he is a study in being able-bodied #there are a lot of things i need to reconcile with. often. and i need that tool to navigate my feelings #so like. i absolutely don't wanna invalidate anyone's takes on him and i know JUST as deeply how personal #and important hcs can be. #to me alfonse just. has Tendencies. that attract autistic people to him like moths to a flame. #regardless of if he is or isn't himself. #and he has so many problems. but i don't think he has The Horrors you know. #MEANWHILE i think takumi is so autistic he has ALL OF IT. ALL OF THE TENDENCIES. ALL OF THE HORRORS #that's how i feel anyway! #fe alfonse #sharena #fe henriette #fe gustav

[rubensmuse]

my fellow usamericans (and anyone else to whom this may apply), a question for you: when somebody who you don't know super well says "hey how are you" in passing, as a greeting rather than an earnest inquiry,

if you're comfortable with it, feel free to add explanatory details in the tags, such as region you're from, whether you're neurodivergent, field of employment, etc.

for the record, this isn't an etiquette question, either; i don't think any of these answers are wrong. i've just noticed that my answer to this tends to differ slightly from the people i see every day, and that made me curious!

#polls #to elaborate: i live in new england and work a reception/hospitality job #i have adhd #when people ask me ''hey how are ya'' my response is ''good hbu'' and then the interaction ends #whereas a lot of people i ask ''how are you'' to respond with a ''hi how are you'' back #this is a very silly poll i just wanna know what's more common #just squirrelly things

[raiderlucy]

I hate cleaning my room, whenever I do it it's like opening a Pandora's box of never ending mess...

#i was only meant to be tidying the gap between my bed and the wall... #it turned in to me changing my bed #(which ok yeah i haven't done in fuck knows how long ago was probably a hood thing) #but now I've been left with this while need of random shit on my floor which idk where I'm gonna put #because i don't wanna put it back in the gap between my bed and the wall #*sigh* how do people who don't have adhd or other neurodivergent problems clean? #because I've been doing this all day and i just want it to go away now... #sorry ignore me I'm rambling now... #aimz talks

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[bittwitchy]

see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place

#what i need is smthn for my anxiety and PROBABLY the obviously worsening ocd #but anxiety meds and antidepressants dont mix well #just like adhd meds and anything else dont mix well #which is why i just have a redbull if i need to focus bx it works for a few hours and then i pass out #which isnt healthy but its better than going through the diagnosis process AGAIN bc they dont have my info anymore #its early sad times rn w brina who hasnt gotten an ounce of treatment at all hi #see the other thing is #if i talk about my mental health at all #people will either hate me for being annoying which is what my brain will pinpoint #or feel sorry for me which i also dont want #all i rly wanna do is vent but thats never really an option at all #like yes i know its not normal to want to have a breakdown and cry bc your fucking pillow isnt the correct fluff and wont dluff #i know its not normal to feel like you should die because something wasnt in fhe spot you put it in and was moved slightly #im aware. and the reality is nobody who can do anything about it cares #i have to get an authorization to see a therapist or get meds at all even tho the card claims i dont have to #and the doc tbey gave me wont give me one #they dont allow email so i cant leave a paper trail when bitching at them and my calls go ignored #im losing my mind steadily #and thats not even onto the physical problems #but also the sheer fucking audacity of the website being all ‘oh just go to ERs and UC snd we’ll cover it’ vs hospitals specifically saying #‘we will refuse you if you have Gov Ins unless you have the money to pay out of pocket #if youre on gov insurance you dont have fucking money thats the entire fucking point. you creedy fucknuts go shove tour nepotism in your #fucking eyes and die if anyone doesnt deserve to fuck its you fuckfaces #sometimes i just want to scream esp when this doesnt seem to be most other ppls issues #but then i talk to other women and it is #it just doesnt make sense and i hate it #but i never rly got help on private insurance either so #tbd #depression cw

[running-in-the-dark]

and it just occurred to me that when we move, I might try to find a new therapist. there might be one/a few right in the town we're moving to (I haven't checked), but we'll be really close to a city then. so I could get there regularly (maybe. it's very scary but maybe I can manage it). so. I should probably do that? maybe find someone who'll like.... do more than just accept that I've got social anxiety (because that's what I said when I first saw my previous therapist) and help me figure out the real problem.

#like I mean I. probably have autism or adhd yeah sure. like that's just. I'm just assuming that for now. #but. the thing that really affects me more than anything at this point #is the stupid fucking rules I have to follow because my brain makes them up and I don't have a choice #and the. well everything else that's probably all related to that. #but i don't wanna go there and be like hi I think i might have ocd #because I've been so ashamed of all of this stuff for 20+ years that the thought of talking about it with a person I have to look at and wh #will ask questions about it and then possibly say nope your brain's just really fucked up. #that thought is. so horrifying idk I don't think I could do that #but I struggle with it so much every day that. idk maybe I need to do it anyway? I didn't think I could talk about the social anxiety stuff #either and I did that for years in the end. and it helped a bit. #but idk maybe it's just. pointless? I don't know how to be any other way. I've never not lived like this? I don't remember ever not having #to follow these rules and feeling like I'm disgusting for having bad thoughts and having stupid routines that I have to follow because if I #don't a Bad Thing will happen. but that part got better so maybe it's not that serious anyway and I've just been imagining all of it #because my brain is bad and all of that. #maybe it's fine that I can't touch dirty things and that if I don't tell my husband to drive safe I have to think about him crashing the ca #and it being my fault all day and almost breaking several door handles because I have to check three times if the door is really locked and #it's never enough so it's usually 3x3 times or more. and just. #just. everything I like has to be good and pure and perfect and if it's not and I can't stop myself from liking it anyway I feel disgusting #and guilty and like I'm personally responsible for every bad thing in the world because I just can't be right. #and if I could the bad things would stop #I don't think. that's how people are supposed to think? right? I feel like if everyone spent most of their time thinking about this and #doing everything to make sure they follow these rules then. idk nothing would ever get done? it's just so hard? #but no it's probably just that I'm so bad at handling it and everything is always hard for everyone and no one complains because they're #better at being human. #idk man all I know is this is fucking exhausting and I can't do this for. however many years I'll be alive for. it's been long enough #I'm tired of it #and maybe I shouldn't be on here. maybe it's time to step away again for a while. so much of this messes with my head. I can't handle the #guilt I feel from every stupid post that I saw. oh that's something people argue about? great that's been added to the list of things that #have to feel bad about now. #doesn't matter how much I disagree on a rational level. I don't get to decide. if I know it exists it will bother me. and I can't do it

[chiropterx]

Muse Theme Challenge (Instrumental)

Main Theme - Save Room - Resident Evil 2 Remake OST

Danger Theme - Sky Islands (Threat) - Rain World OST

Battle Theme - The Nest - The Last Guardian OST

Boss Theme - Laboratory Hunt - Lost World Jurassic Park: PS1

Emotional Theme - Creature of the Night - Batman: Arkham Knight

#🦇 || dashboard games #🦇 || memes #🦇 || soundtracks #Stole this from... gnarledbite I think? #It's been a while #Struggling to focus because ADHD wants to do all the things #So winding down with a bit of music so I know where to begin #Here's to annoying you all with my horrible taste in music <3 #Okay but these tracks make me so emotional??? #Main theme and emotional are more suited to Kirk while the dangerous themes are absolutely Man-Bat #But main and emotional can apply to Man-Bat too #Just some fun stuff while I knock out some responses #Tried a long drabble on my OC but tumblr won't post long stuff anymore #I'm crying bc of the wasted effort shsgdsgfd #ADHD LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEE #Oh yeah tagging all you shits if you wanna do this meme btw! #Edited a song bc I remembered a better one ajshdh

[merkerlerspeaks]

So I have been having focus and motivation issues @ christian moots i request prayers that that stops- been doing better with it and I have an ADHD/Dyscalculia evaluation coming up at the end of this month. I want my brain to function without screaming for the tasty hit of Internet Dopamine so I request a simple prayer of 'please help merkerler get her brain in order and keep it that way' thanks

#ushjsdh !! #I am doing better. The past few months I have been worse and I feel I am coming out of it #my mom has been helpful #helped relieve a lot of stress n stuff that's been keeping me in a cycle #as a result I AM doing better #and I wanna try adhd medication if I can however with my thyroid issues apparently that makes it more difficult so maybe #if not that I can try behavioral therapy or something #and go see my therapist again #merkerler speaks #also yes I know it is called an internet addiction I just have no clue how to kick it apparently #but this is part of why I haven't been very active lately so that's actually not a bad thing #at the same time I haven't been drawing which is a very bad thing

[nostomannia]

My current hyperfixation has been writing journal entries for sols bg3 verse, which is why I've been v quiet here

#fawn speaks || ooc #i have all the entries in one doc and its 3.3k words long already jsndbdb #i keep jumping around entries and not finishing sols whole thoughts #i also wanna do doodles that she sprinkles throughout because #sol has adhd of course shed doodle #ill probably make a tag just for them so people can scroll through them #but i just saw a post of comapnio s going through tavs journal and it made me go uhog #hopefully nobody finds her journal (full permission to snoop and nose through her thoughts) #sol journals canonically because it helps her straighen her thoughts out but also in cases if she dies her memories get real jumbled #i have made minor changes to choices that you can make just because like. they didnt fit sol #specifically with Karla.ch and Wy ll #she didnt try to convince wyll to not kill karlach he made his own choice #because at this point sol knows hes a warlock too and is like oh yeah youre totally hunting things for your patron im not getting in on this #but its like really minor things like that LMAO

[spicyliumang]

I’ve been trying to get Enya’s y8 lore down for the last 3 days but all I’ve managed is to stare at this blank draft KSKDKSKS😭

#like its not that I don’t know what to type in fact its the opposite😭 #its just getting started has been tough…😭 and also the 10000 other ideas at the same time #also working on commississons too so it’s been blank for a while LMAO #and I have to do Leo’s ref…😭 but I always end up getting a new Enyao idea or see a pretty ref I wanna do #plus a bunch of other WIPS #AAAAA I’m just ansty… and need to refill meds again… I’ve had awful focus sjdkdkd #monster has helped at least :’) but only for maybe a day and we’re back at square one #AND MY ALLERGIES… MY BIGGEST BEEF RN #even now I’m sneezing and it gets so bad I can barely get any thing done #I just end up fatigued and congested bc of it…💀 #on that note does anyone else who take SSRIS and ADHD meds get a reaction when you go without for a bit…?😭 #I mean besides the brainzaps for me its like I end up getting an allergy flare up #maybe once I square the next payment away I should talk to my perscriber about that😭 #okay I was going to brainstorm more but ended up talking to the Zhaobot instead…help