#i just want both versions to exist

[shackleton2]

(mild spoiler warning but hardly even) guys i just watched The Last Of Us episode 3 and omg 😭 the whole episode's just a beautiful gruff old man love story it's amazing. It's perfect and wonderful the way it is and with the actors cast, but I'm also reshooting it in my brain with Sebastian Stan and Chris Evans and imagining it shot-for-shot the same except as an AU Stucky story.

#The last of us #but also still stucky thougts #it's really lovely #i might have cried a lot of tears #i dont want to downplay how great Offerman and Bartlett were #i just want both versions to exist

[seagull-scribbles]

Love her even though I’m not supposed to ❤️ she keeps me up

#rottmnt #raphael hamato #casey jones #Cassandra jones #rasey #I don’t ship this version of rasey but I do #they’re lesbians your honour #contemporary style #textures #I love textures #played with some new ones here tooo #messed around with colours and got stuck deciding between these #just really wanted to draw these too because I finally started watching rise properly with my friend after 7 months of saying I would #and the itch was real I HAD to scratch it #we’re halfway through s2 btw #of course we saw s1 case couldn’t lift weights so this would have to be after some rep sessions I think #also Raphs fitting because I have a blood test tomorrow and as she said tests are easy it’s the answers that are hard #anyway shoutout to rena for helping me with the caption #and also to little me who wanted to be the biggest strongest kid and also a little baby who could be carried #both can and will co exist for raph

[essektheylyss]

I don't understand how some folks, both people who like and don't like shadowgast, seem to still want me to believe that Liam "caved" to Caleb and Essek being in a relationship because of fandom pressure and continues to go along with it halfheartedly only because of that even though he secretly hates it.

And meanwhile we have entirely unprompted asides like "Imagine two wizards—" "I do. Often."

#I've seen both of these takes REPEATEDLY. RECENTLY. #like you do not have to like it nor do you have to even like how it is established in canon but ??? #just like..... admit THAT instead? #tbh people put a lot of words into cast members' mouths #but frankly especially weird to say about a player who has pointedly discussed not taking fandom opinion into account #like. it's all 'well they play their characters how they want!' when someone's talking story analysis until it's a ship someone's mad at. #also 'matt doesn't really like essek either' is even wilder cuz like #did everyone else watch a different version of the show in which they were fighting over that one essek shirt lmfao. #ANYWAY pls know that every time liam is funny about sg or essek I do think about the fact that this opinion STILL exists. #and those thoughts are spiteful and vindictive. #cr discourse #ig

[notmoreflippingelves]

It's dawned on me suddenly

And for no obvious reason

That I can't go on

Living as I am.

#esteban flores #elena of avalor #disneyedit #eoaedit #don't you hate it when you have a blorbo; a million song lyrics that suit them; and no photoshop skills to speak of? #esteban flores and pierre bezukov (specifically the version in great comet) would get along great tho #the same bruised desperate heart longing for purpose and overflowing with love but no vessel to put it in (at present) #the same intellectual snobbery as a faulty mask for profound and permanent self-loathing #the same...'survivor's guilt ' isn't even the right word...it's definitely that but it's also just 'existence' guilt #like 'yes; I failed to die alongside those I love on the battlefield. but even before that; I failed at being loved in the way I wanted to' #'which is like the one job we are supposed to have as humans: to love and be loved.' #'once I'd like to think I was worthy but now I know that I am not. I have wasted my chances and made too many mistakes' #of course they both Esteban and Pierre still ARE worthy of love but it takes time and effort and willingness to change to find it #am going to try to also do something with 'dust and ashes' at some point #not to mention like my million BATB broadway; Frozen broadway and JCS lyrics that suit Esteban #myedits #mygifs #obligatory ' I used to be butter; I used to be butter; I used to be butter' joke here

[melien]

#sims #ts3 #sims 3 #photoshoots #character verse #gaia bethancourt #she's one of the side characters to freya's story #her berry version was #guava blush #I have a few ideas for her #so she goes on a few dates with keegan right #I'm not really sure how to incorporate these things in my verse because almost all my characters are queer and it's quite normalised #but I'm getting a strong vibe that she's compheting with keegan and repressing her true attraction to women #because I've been in similar situations (trying to force yourself to like some nice guy but feeling icky) #I'm still thinking maybe heteronormativity indeed exists in the verse depending on how you were raised #I just find comphet stories very relatable as someone who's both wlw and demisexual #so I'd like to try and include one even if my verse is probably more queer friendly than reality #sure it could be spinned as keegan just not being the right person but... idek if it would have the same emotional value #I think one of the reasons why I made my verse like this was also me not wanting to have all the queer stories focused on homophobia #and just let my characters exist like normal people without anyone batting an eye #which I often see in other sims games and stories too and it's so validating #but I guess it kind of depends on my mood whether I want a perfect queer utopia or to actually bring up and deal with real life issues

[resizura]

i love ada wong and i so badly want her to have ANY and i mean ANY backstory/content outside of leon like please!!!!!! separate ways remake is the closest thing we’ve got on any expansion of adas character in almost 3 decades please im starved

#resident evil #ada wong #resizura rants #the version of ada wong in my head doesnt exist #SHES SO COOL I WANT MORE!!!! #id say the remakes are worse about her characterization #esp re2r they scrapped EVERYTHING about both leon and ada just to make their ship look better (?) #ada wong to me is a morally grey femme fatale subversion but capcom isnt ambitious enough to give me more

[landfilloftrash]

If I told you there was a series of games created before I was born, developed by Capcom, and that I was obsessed with a pairing of middle aged men within; The pairing being comprised of a someone around a decade or so older than the younger, lighter colored hair, stern and serious with a very deadpan sense of humor, along with “this is my job. I shall do it perfectly” demeanor about his work— very cat-coded in general, if you can think it, it will most probably apply— and the younger being very a determined brunette with firm morals who goes toe to toe with the older man and is frequently one of the only ones who can do so with their hell-bent insistence to do good and defend those who cannot, no matter the cost, who is quite dog-coded in reverse. They spend a few years in each other’s company, learning about each other (even if it’s at a distance and professionally) and then. Something happens. The older one of the pair betrays the brunette — his strings being pulled by a higher power, but it does not excuse him— and in the process reveals a cowardly and vengeful side after the event, causing the entirety of the franchise we play to happen. And then only a bit later in the storyline, one murdered the other, in cold but passioned blood, because destiny deemed it this way and they only heed the call of it. And whether or not it was intentional, leaving said murdered man’s child an orphan completely alone in the world as a side effect. For years after the event, they are satisfied with what happened, if burdened by guilt. But they were right to do so, weren’t they? They proceed to be metaphorically haunted by the man they killed for the rest of their life, however. And that will come to a head for them.

Now… am I talking about Chrisker (Chris Redfield/Albert Wesker), or Shingou (Mitsurugi Shin/Karuma Gou) ?

#rea rambles #Ace Attorney #Resident Evil #Chrisker #Shingou #sorry for banging out post after post about those old men but. my mental health now rests partially on them. like a normal person. #im soooooo incredibly normal about those old men. perfectly normal. the blood seeping from my mouth and beneath my nails is unrelated. #I had a minor epiphany and swore out Capcom because godDAMNIT I have two nickels #I dont WANT THIS MANY NICKELS!!!! #anyways #both von Karma and Wesker are so intertwined with ouroboros in my mind it’s. A problem. Stop eating your tail stop this cycle of destructio #they won’t. but that’s what makes it a delightfully fun and very good story. #and the shipping aspect is LITERALLY just on my side of things; they are very important to each other regardless of how you view them #I see Chrisker as a tale of betrayal and rage— yearning and despair— and Shingou as a tragic and almost *twisted* version of Narumitsu #it’s all FASCINATING. #but god DAMNIT Capcom. TWOOOOO NICKELS!!!! #I could even draw parallels to Jean Valjean and Javert into this BUT I WONT. #because that is a completely different mental illness that exists within me. They are similar. Not as Close to chrisker as it is to shingou #but it SURE DOES EXIST. #rea rambles in the tags #shut up rea #blueberrypancakes #rea’s trash

[killjoy-prince]

I FINALLY GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!

#prince's talk tag #OK SO!! I preordered this on amiami along with the rin and len version #bur for the last few months theyve been on back order so the release date kept getting pushed back #and i was cool with waiting it wasnt a big deal #but yesterday i was at kino with my friend and talking to them when my eyes saw the side that had the luka pic #and my brain was like 'why does that look familiar' #AND THEN I REMEMBER AND GASPED OUT LOUD #my friend thought i saw someone i had seen in ages and was about to catch up with them but NOPE!!!! #they only had this one and the meiko and miku ones. the rin and len ones werent there #and i just started telling my friend that ive been waiting MONTHS for this and couldnt believe i was seeing it with my own eyes #kino did price them kinda high but i decided to get it bc idk how long theyre gonna be backordered on it #at least now i have one of them. i can wait on the rin and len one #ngl they're bigger than i thought. i was expecting like tiny figures but theyre a bit bigger than a nendo #yo im so convinced that they packaged luka and kaito together bc meiko and kaito are the popular duo and luka and miku are a popular duo #so by separating them they can get people to buy both #(no separating the kagamines tho) #BUT AS A KAILUKA SHIPPER THIS IS PERFECT FOR ME #i almost didnt want to take them out of the box but i wanna display them #i cant believe there exists a box that has them both like wow i really love it #im looking at them on my dresser rn and they make me sooooo happy #man i love them!! great buy on my part #i was gonna put this with my haul post imma make rn but i wanted one with just them bc. look at them!!!

[quietwingsinthesky]

at some point i am going to have to force even to go back and deal with donna & tentoo & rose & all and everything they ran away from. and that will probably involve them losing tentoo’s chameleon arch watch by giving it back to its rightful owner, whether she chooses to open it or not. and that is. not going to be a very fun or stable time for them.

#this part is v vague and fuzzy because i want to watch the rest of 12 & 13 and finish the doctor/donna specials before i set anything in #stone about it. but i think i need to rearrange some things in the timeline here vis a vis when the doctor is also forced to go back and #deal with his baggage. #i dont think 14 exists in even’s universe for this reason. and for the reason of tentoo kind of taking on his role? the human part of the #doctor who can stay with donna & with rose. #she’s also trans to me because i love trans!tentoo. her name is johanna. i think it’s pretty. i make a singular exception to my rule of #never changing characters names when i trans them. #but i think. what im getting at here is that this cant be a happy ending. not so cleanly. its more bittersweet. #like i think this version of the story. what i have so far. donna does remember. (tentoo doesn’t but that’s because she’s become her own #person. the doctor is who she came from but she isn’t just the doctor anymore.) and rose knows her doctor is out there and loves her but #she has her wife at home. #and even. oh even. you can’t hold onto a heart that’s not yours forever. you have to give it back. #this. i think. is a moment of respite and recovery for the doctor. and a really really low point for even. however this works out. #its not perfect but there’s kindness in it. and there’s a home to go back to. if they can bear it. both of them. #but like i said. this is all preliminary based on what i might play around with here. and how watching more of the show changes my ideas. #but i think. whatever revelations come in 13’s arc. i think in even’s universe they have to come after donna. i’ll find a way to make it #work. #but mostly right now the important thing is forcing even to give up the watch because why would i let them have one single comfort object <3 #dw oc

[orcelito]

Also remembering that I get to write wolfwood next chapter and I'm a widdle nervous bc this is a Big Moment and I only wrote him a little bit with Sentido and it's been 8 months since then

But im also REALLY excited bc I get to finally (FINALLY) start executing the vashwood concepts I'd thought up at the damned START of this fic

So much relationship development to get to. So much Wolfwood to get to. Very exciting things.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #ive got a pretty solid grasp on wolfwood I Think but also #i think i wanna do some more research into him before i write hin #im gonna need to read more of the manga Anyways. #i need to study his mannerisms and speech patterns and the ways he interacts with the world #because i have a good idea of it already but a lot of my concept of him does exist in fanon #because it's been A Bit since ive actually read the manga. #and i never want to base my writing off of fanon. never ever ever. that's fatal writing error number One. #i pride myself on my rock solid characterizations. for side characters it doesnt matter as much #but the 2nd person in the main pairing? ostensibly the 2nd most important character to the fic? #yeah im not gonna fuckin base him off of what i have in my mind from however much fanfiction. #it's like the difference between accuracy and precision. by following fanon characterizations #someone might be able to be Precise about his characterization. in that they write him consistently and according to common perception. #but fanon very often exists Just to the left of what canon actually is. so it may be precise but not accurate #at least with regard to canon characterizations. #i want my characterization to be both precise And accurate. i want people to read my fic and go 'yeah thats trimax wolfwood' #with vash i do sprinkle in a few of my favorite things from the other versions too. same with the girls. #and maybe i'll do that a bit with wolfwood. but also hes so very different between the 3 iterations #that he might as well be different characters in all of them. #this is first and foremost a trimax fic. so i WILL have trimax wolfwood in it. #i may look up general guides for writing him if theyre around. but tbh i will rely more on my own research probably. #i have my own system for writing anyways. the sliding scales of different qualities that guides my general word choices for dialog #ive explained it before. dont really wanna get into it again. #i need to solidify in my mind where ww exists on the axes of intelligence politeness kindness and formality #among others. while also paying attention for any kind of repeat words or phrases that he likes to use #that i can pepper in to make it Sound Like Him. #thats the key to how i do general dialog lol. it's of course guided by who they are as a person #but word choice is done through the general perception of them along a set of axes. this is how it goes for All my writing. #im. rambling. whoops. anyways im excited for wolfwood. Soon...

[aphelea]

tiertice parallels with sophitz. almost cognates/are cognates. once knew each other better than anyone else but something happened (prentice's exile/alvar + matchmaking) and they're still just as close but something's inexplicably different now. one taking massive risks on their own and the other trying to convice them not to. how duty and expectations impact your relationship. cyrah and keefe maybe

#or maybe this is just the versions of them that exist in my head idk #i’m so normal about both of them definitely #tiertice #sophitz #kotlc #i don’t want to make tiergan prentice and cyrah a love triangle since i hate love triangles. as many of us do #but something about tiergan’s reasoning for why he couldn’t be cognates with prentice #suggests that. maybe that was a wedge in their relationship. secrets kept risks taken trying to protect the other when they don’t want it #i dont think they wouldve been a love triangle either a) they all like each other or b) tiergan and prentice are like. hmm somethin— #—strange there but cyrah and prentice are Also a thing #however given my thoughts towards sokeefitz i think you can probably guess that i prefer the former #whatever i cant explain myself just. have this mess i guess

[never-ending-pizza-time]

So close to pulling a hlvrv like with half life but the ai is self aware but for pizza tower and gathering a bunch of different Peppino's from different aus and stuff and forcing them to go to therapy together

#pizza tower #peppino #pizza tower au #my list so far is regular peppino #followed by pizzano and/or pizzelle #then pepperoni tower au peppino #hell you could even get evil peppino in here I'm sure he could do with some therapy #theres already so many options with all the aus that exist #this is mostly just because I want to imagine them interacting #bonus points if they all have a hard time getting along with one another and spend most of the time going #'what the hell is wrong with you?' #'what is your problem?' #'huh???' #'why am I here how can I leave?' #and just generally screaming and wondering how the hell they are all versions of the same person #you could even use old lore or new lore for sugary spire if you want #old lore if you want some angst where pizzano/pizzelle realises the truth and new lore if you just want silly antics #I think they all probably have issues that they could get therapy for and they could be friends but #its also funny to imagine them all having a terrible time around one another and hating each other by the end of it #both are good :)

[maraeffect]

okay today was like the first time since surgery that i've been able to exist as a human outside my house!! and i had a great time even though i am PAYING FOR IT. HEAVILY 💀

#god my ribs are KILLING ME SLOWLY #anyway i had a good day 🥺🥺🥺 last night my partner and i woke up at the same time #bc we both had to pee. and i totally forgot but when we laid back down i told her ''i'm hungy..'' #bc it was like 3 am and i didnt wanna get up. so i just wanted to complain lol #but she woke me up to a big breakfast she ordered in like ''hey it made me sad that you were hungry jn the night- #so i got you and i a big breakfast 🥺👉👈💖'' and UGH it made my heart so happy #and then we chilled out before i decided i could handle leaving home and wanted to go to the mall #and i had a really good time existing in public!!! im getting a little depressed from being bed bound #i FINALLY got after laughter on vinyl after wanting it for like almost 5 years 😭😭😭 #and some cute stickers!!! anyway yeah i had a nice day w my baby and it made me happy 🥹💖 #as much as im hurting badly rn it was worth it for the lil date 💖💖💖 pain meds should help soon anyway #im just glad to have finally gotten out of the house #chatter #round 2 #also let me just say my previous thoracotomy did NOT prepare me for this one. #turns out the open version is VERY DIFFERENT. which i knew but god its so stark when youre living it #p sure by 2 weeks post op last time i was relatively fine!!!! almost back to normal #oh and uh #autumn

[sonknuxadow]

why is scourge the hedgehog such a popular character why do people want him to come back so badly. like it has to be people who didnt read archie sonic at all and archie sonic readers who only like him based on the headcanon version of him that exists in their head that make up a big chunk of his fanbase right. because i cant think of any other explanation

#not trying to hate on scourge fans right now btw i just dont Understand. like i dont even Hate scourge #i just dont understand why hes popular #like once ken penders left and scourge stopped being so gross and creepy there were some fun stories involving him #but not fun enough to justify how many fans he has?? not in my opinion anyway #but again i think a lot of scourge fans are people who know nothing about him in canon beyond his design #or they have read some of the stuff wtih him in it and they just like the version of him that exists in their head instead #or both #not saying thats the case for All scourge fans. but it is for a lot that ive come across #if you want sonic to have a green rival whos supposed to be a copy of him so badly surge is Right there #and shes cooler more interesting to read about and has a better design

[astro-b-o-y-d]

Thinks about how Anti-Mabel was kicked out of her dimension for being 'so evil'. Thinks about how desperate she was to take over the life of the original Mabel. Thinks about how there's a Dipper out there who was created as a means of replacing the original and just thinks Mabel is the coolest ever, and would probably adore and support any version of his sister, even the most evil version of her.

Thinks about how they're both. Like. Thirteen-year-old kids. Sure, one's apparently the most evil Mabel in existence and the other's just hated for his cool guy swag, but they're kids. Do you think either of them thinks about their twin in passing, and realizes how much they miss them and will probably never see them again? Or if they do, they won't be the specific version of themselves that the twin actually cares about?

Is anyone listening to me??

#Hayley Speaks #I think the two of them teaming up might help to mellow both of them out to SOME degree #I don't care what the wiki says; Anti-Mabel would NOT be unlovable to a version of her twin who exists to support her #Also this is obviously in a universe where Dippy Fresh doesn't get his neck snapped #Because as funny as that is; what did he do that was so wrong? Support Mabel? Don't we all wanna do that? Leave my boy alone #Anyway #Now would Dippy being there and supporting Anti-Mabel make her want to just be eviler? Potentially #But also like #I think her 'every time you're selfish you're just like me!' thing works in reverse #Where she has the potential to change and care about others like the actual Mabel #The evil is still there sure; but you know #Maybe a proper support system might mellow her out a little bit #She can downgrade to doing small petty crimes with her radical brother

[purbiworl]

wait there was time travel?

#okay so like. those kids got sent to the past. Meridell existed in the past. this timeline says after both Meridell plots that they got > #>teleported BACK to the present (er... Y6)? where was that mentioned? I read the remastered Jellyneo version of the comics because the > #> originals still don't work with Ruffle. Was it ACTUALLY mentioned or are we speculating that's what had to have happened for > #> Meridell. Brightvale. and the Darigan Citadel to be able to interact with the rest of Neopia and not just. Disappear after the plots? #or did i skip over something somewhere? #i really wish this timeline had sources but im just glad a visual canon in-universe timeline exists at all. thanks herdygerdy #how... how did the Skeith Kings take the whole... time travel thing anyways? #I want to see King Skarl use a cell phone. #Neopets