#i know the world sucks right now

[azimuthalis]

Okay, but Del Toro is so right about this.

[Transcript] I consume, and love, art made by humans. I am completely moved by that. And I'm not interested in illustration made by machines and the extrapolation of information.

I talked to Dave McKean, which is a great artist, and he told me his greatest hope is that AI cannot draw. It can interpolate information but it cannot draw. It can never capture a feeling or a countenance or the softness of a human face, y'know?

So, I think that certainly if that conversation was being had about film, it'd hurt deeply, and I would think it, as Miyazaki says, 'an insult to life itself'. [/end transcript]

#guillermo del toro #anti ai art #I know the world sucks for artists right now but I'm gonna go to sleep and listen to my fellow artists and try to block out the world #cause i really want to make stuff again without feeling soul sucking pressure #let this be my 'good luck you can do it vanya' post

[dootznbootz]

(Ian Johnston, Book 10)

#“Dude stfu. Everyone knows I'm the best at stealing. Let's go already.” #Odysseus why tf does it say long-suffering there???👀 as if a compliment from Diomedes is the worst thing in the world? #Ody you're my idiot but why are you so fucking mean to him?!?! He literally compliments you and you bitch at him! #And Diomedes has this 'Notice me senpai' energy and it just SUCKS seeing him get treated like this. #Odysseus is my favorite but this isn't cool :( like he yells at Agamemnon but that's because Agamemnon calls him a coward. #Diomedes has literally done nothing to him. there's no reason to yell at him like this. #Just because Diomedes is a nepotism baby who Athena liked since birth doesn't mean you gotta bully him like this. #Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #sorry I was rereading and I got worked up :'D #odysseus #diomedes #fuck it. I don't mind getting crucified right now. woiehfas I'm right! This WAS mean >:( Bad Blorbo! Bad!

[hoshizoralone]

How did you first get into Nier? And who is your favorite character(s) in each game?

was over at a friend’s house early summer in 2016 and they asked “do you want to play a game about a hot single dad” and that’s how it all started.

my favs are dad nier, yonah, weiss, a2, and 6o :) here is a bad picture of my dad nier shrine on my bookshelf

#if you (reader of this post) make dad nier merch link it to me i’ll buy it #loneask #majorminer4567 #post tags. i really have complicated feelings for nier series now unfortunately where i’m kind of divorced from it #because dad nier is my favorite character ever it really sucks to see him totally ignored. Especially bc i shilled hardcore for nier- #-pre automata. like my reward for liking nier for a long time is my favorite character being erased from the world #on top of other reasons i don’t want to get into. i still love the original nier though and that’ll never change #But my brain is permanently in like march 2017 right when automata came out. I dont think about the after #i really do love dad nier so very much. he will probably be my favorite character forever. #if you fansplain the situation behind dad nier’s creation youre just getting blocked like yeha i know. It doesnt change the fact that - #i love him and a LOT of other people who supported yt before he blew up did too. It really just hurts.

[therantingsage]

Ok I've been playing Slay the Princess and I feel like if you removed all the romantic subtext it really feels like the hero and the princess have N and Cyn vibes (or rather the other way around? idk). Like just in the inherent stress and tragedy of it all.

Two pairs of inherently connected characters, forced into a cycle of hurt, and pain, and desperation. Trapped. She's capable of immense cruelty and yet...still such a terrible victim of circumstance. You can't help but want to save her even though it can and will end in your own demise.

N's just that kinda guy about all the people he cares about tho so you could probably make the princess just about any character he cares about and the theming would be the same. But Cyn specifically in that kind of role is the most compelling to me. Change the romantic vibes to family ones and it just.....fits really well

Brainrot says make a crossover au. Also a platonic version of the Slay the Princess situationship genuinely sounds interesting to write and yet....I'm too busy writing one MD au thingy so I don't have the brainspace to write another :/ guess I'll just think about it

#Murder Drones #Slay the Princess #md Cyn #md N #Being vague because spoilers about both things #And also I've only really gotten one actual ending to STP so I don't know what the rest are like #I've got like 30/97 achievements for reference #Like I will never stop being distressed about Cyn #Kid stuck half-alive under a pile of bodies and she gets possessed to survive AND ALL THIS CRAP GETS DONE IN HER NAME CUZ SHE'S PATIENT ZER #AND A VERY ACTIVE PATIENT ZERO AT THAT #LIKE THAT F-ING SUCKS SO BAD #Save her save her but right now she needs to be STOPPED #STOP CYN OR IT WILL BE THE END OF THE WORLD #But that's his SISTER #I just really think about the thematic potential of such a crossover situation #I might make like. A single drabble #But if I don't let it be said I put this idea into the world for someone else to use

[katty-love-bi-lith]

The Miyamoto/Hamato children

aka Usagi and Leo children

aka the next generation of ninja/samurai

HERE THEY ARE- I PRESENT TO YOU

The oldest, Jotaro

The twins Ume and Sakura

And finally the youngest, Kaida

Here they are- it took a whole week , but here they are. Theres prob grammar erros but english its not my native languaje soooo- yeah

Im proud and tired.

Read: A World of Samurais and Ninjas by @annonniiiiieeeee and the sequel: Two Worlds of Family, Friends, and Foes its awesom

Close-ups:

Autistic Eyes:

Head details? idk-

Clothes details:

Info close up

Thats all i think- i hope u like ;)

#a world of samurais and ninjas #awosan sakura #awosan ume #awosan kaida #awosan jotaro #fanart of a world of samurais and ninjas #im tired #in case you didnt notice- i suck at drawing backgrounds #so maybe its not the most pleasant thing to see #I know that some of the colors are not placed correctly but when anonnie responded on how they looked i alredy finished the twins and Jotar #prob going to make more- but not right now #i did this instead of my homework :D #this is my first time doing this plis

[autumnalreaper]

ℍ𝕒𝕡𝕡𝕪 𝟝𝟡𝕥𝕙 𝔹𝕚𝕣𝕥𝕙𝕕𝕒𝕪 𝕁𝕒𝕞𝕖𝕤 ℍ𝕖𝕥𝕗𝕚𝕖𝕝𝕕!

#james hetfield #metallica #plsss i know these suck #but i wanted to contribute to my main mans bday :’) #i have been searching all day to find the right words to explain how much this man means to me #but alas brain is still empty because the love i have for him surpasses any thought my tiny brain can come up with #59 and the finest of wines #he sounds so good he plays so good he looks damn good #your music & personal struggles have resonated with so many people around the world and we cannot thank you enough <3 #happy birthday big man <3 #i hope it’s the best one yet!!! #it’s only 6pm aug 2nd #so not his bday here yet #but it is in some parts of the world so i’m posting it #also he’s smiling in all of the gifs i didnt realize til now 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #loml

[lit-in-thy-heart]

fucking hate moving

#i am surrounded by boxes and bags #i am anxious that things won't fit in the car #i don't know where some things are that i thought i knew where they were #even when i've moved things out i'm still going to have a decent amount of stuff at home so now i'm freaking out about needing to sort that #in the future #wish i could just snap my fingers and have the boxes be teleported to where I'll be living #this #this is why i just have been spending my time writing giffing and knitting #so i don't have to deal with this #fuck it might try and suck it up and motivate myself with the promise of coffee later #right battle face on #personal #lit talks #edit i FOUND the duplicate item for uni i thought i couldn't find the world is a little brighter etc etc

[jewishcissiekj]

Whenever I see the "that sounds like terrorism, Anakin" TCW frame I just I just I remember how the Onderon arc was like the closest thing TCW did to what the Jedi did in the Clone Wars in Legends. Yeah, they aided and trained local resistances against the separatists. It's not just a thing Anakin made up for one arc.

#also um #relating to the current world #but i won't speak on that bc i don't know the right words #sw #star wars #tcw #the clone wars #onderon arc was questionable bc of lux but i liked it other than that #sucks that steela got fridged tho that was weirdddd #i was listening to shatterpoint and went like #'damn that (what depa was doing) sure sounds a whole lot like the onderon arc' #but it's a complicated subject and you definitely need to be careful with it #legends vs. canon choices are always interesting to me idk #the amount of politics that go into that actual war greatly differs #the cestus deception is like half politics and some action #while in tcw you have maybe mon cala and onderon arcs #and they're also very action focused #i don't get politics really so idk how to talk about this #so just an observation for now

[peridots-pixiwolf]

[Start ID. A drawing of two scavengers from Rain World, one labelled Sanic and the other one Shrek. Sanic's fur is light brown, with darker extremities, a messy row of pale green spines down its back, and bright blue eyes. They sit contentedly, staring at the screen, with a couple grenades by its feet. Shrek has pale fur, a green head, hands, and feet, and brown eyes. It's facing to the right, with their arms splayed out and an explosive spear on their back. Beside each scavenger are a few woefully-compressed screencaps of their in-game appearance. End ID]

An ode to these silly beasts, who accompanied me on my second visits to Industrial and Chimney

#peridots-art #rain world #scavenger rain world #...usually only draw set characters of games and not. creatures. so that's new for me #absolutely love specbioing these guys though!! buggifying them scratches the right itch in my brain especially when they could reasonably #be buggy in canon!! #bugs #clarification on the ''shrek is maybe two guys'' thing ahead. first we'll argue for One Guy #1. both found in the same region at the same time 2. remarkably similar coloring and mannerisms (seemed to be the pack leader) #and now evidence supporting the two different guys theory: #1. travelled with a different pack of scavengers the second time vs when i found it 2. second time had slightly duller colors and noticably #longer horns (without the little gradient at the end) #so now you see why i didn't notice anything wrong until after reviewing the screenshots. BUT!!! secret third option!!! #the first one with the short horns was found first when i was using the entrance-to-industrial shelter #and the one i mostly relied on for reference was near the higher shelter. shrek numero dos. the canon shrek. #but i have a screenshot of shrek 1 in the place shrek 2 was found. hanging out with one of shrek 2's pack members no less. #conclusion: ??? #ok now that that's ''settled''. don't let this all distract you from the fact that the simple act of SWITCHING TO THE SHADING LAYER #got me out of a four-month-long mental rut. i can't say that it was depression nor that i know anything about depression in the first place #but even if it wasn't very serious? it Sucked. even if it was just a nagging thought at the back of my mind my life was duller somehow #i started to feel a little unmotivated. lonely. anxious. like the days blend together. the things i liked weren't bringing as much joy #and all of that got worse recently. the main reason i haven't posted any art for like a month? art stopped being fun. #which is a TERRIBLE thing for someone like me who loves to draw so so much. so when everything that's been building up over the past months #just vanished completely? without warning? you better believe i teared up over a doodle of a scavenger for making me feel right again. #i'm overjoyed to be free of it. i'm hopeful again! i love myself again! i can fall in love with the world all over again!!! #i have no idea how this happened. but i have motivation and determination and i feel like i can change my life for the better now. if i try #maybe this was my normal but it's the striking opposite of what I've been feeling--i'm finally proud of my accomplishments! and of myself!! #which was something i couldn't say in earnest even before december. #and reader? i call you tag-wanderer for i have no way of knowing who you are. maybe a treasured mutual or maybe a stranger. but i love you. #and i hope you make your way out.

[sleevebuscemii]

tmi

#a friend is coming back from a solo kayaking trip in patagonia today and i feel like such a shitty person for this but i just. #really dont feel like im in the mental space to hear about it. #and partly its because where im at mentally and personally right now just makes it hard for me to be happy for others #or at least for it to not open up doors that bog me down badly and thats on Me like thats totally my own shit #and even if i know hearing about their trip will be hard its an asshole move to approach them with #‘im not in the mental space to hear you share something you’re really excited about with me’ #on the other hand. #i know the real reason its gonna suck so bad is that with This particular friend this trip just gonna be another thing they did first. #and in a perfect world it shouldn’t matter who the fuck did the thing first but in this relationship and in this dynamic it always has #and so i Know that yeah im mentally in a place where taking in other people’s good news is hard #but also im just dreading having to hear every detail of how this trip is something i will never measure up to #every detail of things i would have to do bigger and better for it to matter and like. idk i fucking hate thinking about this #because it always makes me feel so small and bitter and they’re such ugly feelings #but also i know this dynamic isn’t like this because of me but i also know nothing i’ve ever done to try to change it has worked #and it’s like. i just have so much anxiety around this conversation that hasn’t even happened yet #and it’s because i know it’s gonna open up all this shit with it #m

[pessimisticprincess]

the 2 people in the office with me all weekend are per diem coverage because of illness/holidays and idk them at all and it feels so overwhelming because i have to help with every step of literally everything and also super awkward because i’m so fucking awkward please help me manifest a power outage 🙏🏻

#i hate hate that because work already sucks and now this #and i’m just like ~in charge because i know the flow of the office and emr system #like there’s a reason i’m not a fucking office manager anymore dude #like i got home at 10 passed out woke up at 7:20 and came right back here again #and i have 4 more days of that #ignore my dramatic first world complaining i’m just burned out and tired of interacting so much

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

When British writers come up with an American character’s dialogue and give them the most painfully British things to say with their American accent and inflection and it makes the actor come off as stiff. :P

#The Oxford Murders (2008) #I mean it was a very well-done movie visually (that flowy choreographed camera work in the beginning WOW) #The plot was apparently hard to follow and it’s not just my lack of spoken dialogue comprehension and attention working against me #I always have to check reviews to make sure I’m not the only person having a hard time following a story #because I’ve been trained through life not to trust my own mind due to its faultiness… #Anyway: When Seldom said something like “…only mathematics can be proven. Basic statements like two plus two equals four #are the only things sure in this world” I— 💀 HELP no no no… one of the previous characters you played #would like to kiss this new character of yours on the mouth for what he just said— ashsisksnsksjjsjdjdmsksk #That is until you elaborated on it and then basically took the side of his persecutor… THAT sucked #And I know my speech right now does not come off as naturally as it once did (or is it) I have no idea #if this is my real voice or the absorption’s afterglow causing me to speak in such an uptight manner #but I don’t mind it #but I do mind it #because no matter what combination of words I use it doesn’t sound or feel as if I am the one speaking — I stitch together what I hear #or have I only been conditioned to think the way I speak isn’t natural because nobody in my immediate life speaks like this #Who says stitching together words into a gigantic quilt isn’t natural for me? #But that still leaves me with no soul. I’m Pete the Parrot. Or Bumblebee. #Maybe I shouldn’t speak or write; maybe I need to master visual telepathy #or a language comprised entirely of touch and eye movement #I always feel the need to create languages so I can express myself without falling into cliches and dialects #I want to be free of stereotypes #I’m tired of speaking this language… EXHAUSTED #I speak in predictable patterns and when I think I’m not using a pattern by being unpredictable; the unpredictability becomes a trend

[dazais-guardian-angel]

went to my first con in 4 years on Friday to meet Kaiji Tang and got a Dazai autograph + video recording of him reading to me. He was the sweetest person (as I knew he would be) and interacting with him was lovely, but also at the same time oh boy it sure was an extremely stressful, ugly wake-up call of what it feels like to live in a world now where everyone around you has blissfully moved on from covid and can enjoy things normally and happily, while you'll forever be trapped in a hellscape of perpetual fear 🫠🫠🫠

#like. to be clear this was the first time i've been literally anywhere but doctor's appointments in 4 years #not just because of the pandemic but because of mental and physical exhaustion #so it was a Big Mistake to go from 0 to 100 and not ease myself into it at all #but at the same time........ it was a fucking hellscape of people. i don't think any kind of buildup could have prepared me for it at all. #it was so much less crowded in 2020 (ironically the very last place i ever went; literally on the BRINK of covid) #and now idk what it's become. a monster con. it was unbelievable. #but i was only there for less than an hour but i was so so so terrified that i very nearly left before even seeing him #i couldn't even fully enjoy meeting him as kind as he was because i was so anxious and distracted #and when i got back to the car i just fucking cried......... #the last five days i've just been sitting in fear waiting to feel Any sort of symptoms #i wore two masks and again was barely there for long but Still #and everyone around me was so chill as if everything was normal and No One was wearing a mask :))))) it's not fucking fair man :))))) #insert the 'they don't know' meme; they don't know how much covid can destroy your body even if you get a 'mild' case #i would never want to be that ignorant even if i wasn't disabled and didn't have reason to worry (but everyone has reason to worry!!!) #but also. ignorance is bliss and it just really fucking sucks man. #it really fucking sucks. why do they get to be happy and enjoying life and not /me?/ #why can't i do just ONE thing for myself without having it tainted by anxiety and fear that i'm going to die horribly??? #while they get to do fucking EVERYTHING??? #if they all just wore masks we could all enjoy ourselves much more comfortably than some of us are now #but no that's too much to ask from people 🙃🙃🙃 #shit sucks man. the world sucks. something that should be a happy memory for me was simultaneously the most awful experience #and i don't know how to feel about it now that it's over #he knew that i was afraid and at the end he told me that he hoped to see me again at another event someday #and that made me cry because it felt like dazai telling me to live. and i want to. but i don't know how to when the world is like this now. #i desperately want to be able to see him again someday but right now after how terrifying that was i never want to go to a con ever again.. #i wanted to ask him things about the manga and about dazai but i was being rushed and stressed so i couldn't ugh #(and doing that is hard enough anyway cause disability and i have to talk with my phone bahhhh) #at least i was able to give him my note *sigh*

[musical-chick-13]

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#idk it's just really frustrating to think that people will ALWAYS make allowances for people they're romantically in love with but #not make those same allowances for someone else they otherwise care about. #that people will risk things for their partners that they wouldn't for their friends #that it's EXPECTED for you to prioritize your spouse/significant other/etc. at all times but prioritizing your friend(s) is rarely even #considered. and when you're like me and you LITERALLY CANNOT DO THIS SHIT BY YOURSELF... #like I know I go on and on about marrying some theoretical woman all the time (and my ongoing...whatever this is. with Musician Guy) #but genuinely I'm not even sure that I want that I think I just want someone who will fucking visit me in the hospital if I get into a car #crash or fix me soup when I'm sick. #like...yeah. in that one story I wrote I think I distilled it down: we all just want someone to hold us when we're sad #and it SUCKS that the only avenue we seem to be allowed to pursue that is through a romantic relationship #right now I have my dad but if something happens to him...I genuinely do not know what I'm going to do. I'll have nowhere to go #if something terrible happens. I'll have no one to help me be a person. and I just. like I really am going to just have to power through #the next 60 years on this fucking planet alone and by god I'll fucking do it but I wish I didn't have to!!!! #and I think this was why the loss of Her™ friendship (which was necessary. for both of us) was so acutely painful. because even after #she got married she WAS willing to prioritize me when things got bad enough. she DID genuinely care about me in a way I don't think #anyone ever has. and I just really don't think I'll ever find that ever again. and I can't go back and I don't WANT to be with her anymore #but it was this time of the year when she told me she was getting married way back when and my brain has kept that like the World's Worst #Anniversary and all of those terrible ugly feelings are coming back in full force and I HATE that I'm still unpacking this I. HATE. that #this not-even-relationship is STILL doing this to me #WHAT THE FUCK!!! IS UP WITH THAT!!!!!! #*sigh* okay for REAL I am logging off right now because I've already said Too Many Embarrassing Personal Things about myself today #and I do not want to put myself in a position to say anymore! #In the Vents #GOD this is so stupid IT'S NOT LIKE SOMEBODY DIED WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS

[not-quitenormal]

About two weeks ago, my ex reached out to me in a very work-like e-mail asking if it was too late to start our friendship over. The initial reaction was who the fuck do you think you are? I'm finally piecing my life back together after chaos she started three years ago. I tried reaching out to her as a friend, and she slapped my hand away. What made her think she could come back?

And then I turned the situation over in my head. She and I went through the exact same catastrophe. Devon did his best to guide me through the pain of it. Things got so rough that something between us ruptured as a result, and we're still trying to fix it, but at least he fucking tried. At least he's still with me and wants to work through this. How did Lore and her wife try to heal things? Did something happen?

My curiosity got the better of me. I answered her saying I was open to talking. Because, really...what do I have to lose in this situation? Her friendship? It'll suck a second time, but I've done it before. If anything, I'm the one who has everything to gain. I still have Devon and Joe. I still have a house in my name. I have two families now - and both of them adopted me as their own instead of it being a blood obligation. If I gain Lore as a friend again - if I can stop calling her my ex, finally - that would be a huge win.

She sucked at being my girlfriend. She was amazing at being my best friend.

When it comes to talking about what happened between us and the aftermath - in which Lore told me she does owe me an apology - we're putting a pin in it. A couple of years ago I would be kicking and screaming, demanding that thorough apology and explanation for why she used me and then discarded me. Now? In 2024? Y'all... I'm tired. We both are. We're well into our 30s. A little bit of normalcy is mandatory at this point. I still have questions, and I have let her know several times already that I have questions. But I'm ready to call a truce until she gets through her personal Hell.

Because what she has told me is: Her marriage is ending. She's trying to move out by June. Her family doesn't understand. I am one of only two people who talk to her now.

Clearly she reached out to me because she was in pain and knew I would be a source of comfort. I know what it's like to feel like everything is falling apart. I also am familiar with how isolating it can be, both actual and self-perpetual. She rejected me when I wanted to repair things with her. I was drowning, and she did nothing. Did I have the right to be as cruel to her as she was to me?

I do. We both know it - she's said as much. But my feelings of schadenfreude have a limit. I'm throwing her a life preserver.

So far our conversations are about anime, weed, work, and memes. I am actually very happy with this set-up. We don't talk about personal things, which is great because that's a literal phobia of mine that I'm working on. Baby steps toward solid ground feels like the right call, given our shared experiences. I hope she feels comfortable enough to tell me more about what's happening in her life as time goes on (while respecting I refuse to talk about much of mine), but all-in-all I'm pleased with the glacial pace.

That being said, if she insults me again (or projects her issues on my relationships again), I'm pushing her off the boat and restarting the propeller.

#max is a god in their own right #mental health adventures #way too forgiving i know #would you believe that prior to making this decision i ran it by three people #who all repeated words of caution #but who all helped me realize that i'm actually way more emotionally centered about this than i thought #besides it's not like i haven't turned around and been like 'sorry i can't do the friend thing byeee' and then blocked someone #she is not exempt and neither am i #if shit sucks hit the bricks is the best motto in the world #but right now this is contained. we both wanna avoid drama. noted.

[toytulini]

i know doctor who has never been Perfect, and i love capaldi, i love twelve, but christ alive its a hard watch sometimes

#toy txt post #they just made him so egregiously and blatantly RACIST? like to the point where im like was this like? an on purpose characterization #choice that i just strongly disagree with? or like? is it a consequence of the writers trying to be less racist by including more #characters of color but failing by not checking their own implicit biases so now not only is the doctor racist but like. egregiously so bc #theres so many more opportunities for him to be racist? like just #and if youre sitting here like hes not!!! how dare you: pay attention to the difference in how he treats characters of color vs white chars #he hates soldiers. okay fine thats been fairly consistent. okay but 12 RLY hates them. he hates them so much he cant stand Claras bf Danny #who should be the doctors like ideal soldier bc he was a soldier who didnt want to be anymore and just wants to chill and do good in the #world and for ppl to be safe so hes just a nice math teacher and the doctor calls him stupid and treats him as if hes fucking rambo? but #the doctor is largely fine with: kate lethbridge stewart? hes fine with ogood who may not be a soldier in her own right but shes actively #participating in UNIT as a scientist in a way thats way more ~soldiery~ than anything Danny is doing? and like they clearly wanted that to #be a point of tension to point out the doctors hypocrisy of how the doctor is like a high ranking officer/general whatever #and like thats fine and fair to point out but it just sucks that they do all that and dont seem ti realize how fuckijg racist they wrote #him? he was fucking besties with winston goddamn churchill but he refuses whatshername. journey blue? as a companion bc #shes a soldier. well bro you could make her not a soldier by removing her from the fucking battlefield maybe instead of getting morally #outraged about it? not to mention noticing how when he goes from '900 yrs of space and time and ive never met anyone who wasnt important' #wandering around being fine with UNIT apparently declaring him dictator of earth in emergencies (HELLO?) but dont worry he'll let us know #he disapproves by picking some random UNIT guy to be a really condescending asshole to. pay no attention to the fact that this UNIT #guy happens to be another character of color. ~the 12th doctor is too faceblind you cant call him racist~ well for a guy who cant tell #humans apart from sontarans his accidentaly racism beam is off the charts. its crazy. god #god i wish he'd gotten written better than this #when they do write him good they write him good. but godddddddd its so #doctor who