#i like my hair so i shouldnt shave it!!!

[undyinglantern]

the amount of surprised pika “wait people actually shave their arms?” comments on posts about body hair are so funny like I unironically am so happy for you that you weren’t laughed at by a classmate for having hairy arms “like a man” in like 4th grade this is why I wish body hair conversations would stop centering around armpit hair

#okay that’s the tldr but the way I actually remember it is that the classmate (a boy) pointed out my arm hair and ask why so hairy #and I genuinely was so confused I was just like idk??? and then later at home that day I asked my mom about it and she was like #It’s bc your dads side of the family is hairy so then I later talked to that guy again like ‘I take after my dad’ or whatever #And /then/ is when he laughed and was like ‘but you’re a girl’ about it #Granted I’m non-binary but like I didn’t know that in elementary #Plus I didn’t stop shaving until around mid 2010s and was still self conscious about it for years #Like I remember feeling embarrassed during college (2018ish) if I had to use the rest room and someone else was in there when I would roll #My sleeves up to wash my hands #Anyways I eventually stopped caring about it sometime within the last year or 2 but see how long that took? It really shouldnt #Like some of us just genetically have more darker thicker visible body hair than others and we shouldn’t be shamed for it #One thing at a time though because even I’m still working through leg hair shame #I don’t shave them anymore but I also haven’t worn shorts outside of my bedroom in years #I’ll literally switch into shorts if it’s too hot right before bed and switch back into pants before stepping out of my room in the morning #I’ve been feeling cute the past few days and it’s starting to warm up again plus also had a convo w mom recently so #I might change that soon but only within the house still bc baby steps <3 #Anyways I’m just rambling now so I should stop. Good night !!

[beforeyougo-turnthebiglightoff]

tiktok feminists r some of the most insufferable and stupid fucking people dont be obtuse you know exactly why plastic surgery is wrong gtfo

#“im doing it for me tho...” no you arent actually! because would you think that without external opinions? OTHER people's ideas? NO! #like girl omfgghhhh #“you shouldnt have to feel the pressure to shave” “i do it for me.” DONT BE THICK. YOU WOULD NEVER HAVE THOUGHT TO DO THAT OTHERWISE????? #“but my sensory issues!” aside from wearing tights ive never once felt the hairs on my legs. jfc. and if you dont like wearing tight clothes #cos of leg hair...... dont wear tight clothes....... or just shave your legs and stfu about it omfg #like they all feel the need to shout about it 24/7 like omfg shut uppp no one cares about youuuu im sorry but its the truth like #literally no one is benefitting from your addition to this convo. #people need to use their critical thinking skills just a little bit more online! #a lot more actually because why r 90% of Internet users just so fucking stupid #blah blah! #not 75 stuff

[its-a-hil]

waxing my arms is literally so good i just wish my left arm was stronger so i could actually do both in one go

#this shouldnt be construed as me supporting shitty beauty standards #just i enjoy it when my arms look and feel like this #plus the pain of ripping the hairs out is really cathartic #and ive given up on my legs they are such a nightmare to wax or shave or anything so just let me have this pls #lifeblogging

[bingobongobonko]

hankering need for a menudo right neow, that would help a lot. gotta figure out how to make it, my dad used to, idk how though. he always made it wayyyy too salty, so maybe i can teach myself how. i also kind of miss the farm, its not my farm mind you, but a lot of cool stuff over there. once i found a goat skull in the back, i actually have pieces of the horn because i wouldnt be able to take it back on the trip with me. i forgot how long ago that was, maybe when i was around 18? i hate how bad my memory gets sometimes. im just reminiscing

#fool's monologue #i prolly shouldnt but it was real nice #little stray kittens too #day i realized i wasnt allergic to cats as badly #i picked them up and i carried them around #goats also let me pet them. one of them came up to me and let me #i think abt that a lot cuz i really like goats. theyre sweet #scratching my beard #i swear im experiencing normal behavior i realize i might be coming off as strange out of nowhere with the rambling #im just thinkin yk how it is #oh speaking of which my beards more noticeable now #thought about shaving but figured against it #i dont quite want to just yet #same with my hair #i havent brushed it in a while but ill try tmrw #brushing teeth too #theres a lot of things i keep neglecting cuz i forget but i pick it up here and there #i havent gone outside whatsoever today so thats really bad but i gotta try more. cant be at home in my room all day yk. unhealthy #bad for me n shit #vague shrug. not in a bad mood mind you #just lack thereof. bit uneasy #but thinking about random silly stuff ive seen has helped #or things i notice in my house or funny conversations i have #no exaggeration it keeps you sane #havent even had to draw. usually thats my way of dealing with things but i havent done jackshit and it feels kind of nice #I WILL NEVER DRAW EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!! #<- lying #but it is nice to just not draw at all sometimes. i conflate myself with my art too often. i have other things i can do. it doesnt just nee #to be drawing #i have broken my own expectations.... i am just a guy

[transmascpetewentz]

so frustrating how so many radical feminists will be so close to understanding that enforced genders and gender roles are harmful and difficult to live with, we shouldnt force someone into one role and expect it to suit them, and then…. act like trans people dont live with that?

im a masculine trans man. i was a feminine child and it got to be suffocating when i realized i wasnt comfortable seeing myself as feminine or a woman. and when they say “just be a gnc woman!!!” they mean like. have short hair and dont shave your legs. which is cool and all but i… already do that. i dont shave, i have short hair, i exclusively wear mens clothes, but that’s not what makes me a man. being a woman, gc or gnc, simply isnt who i am and im uncomfortable being both. and youre a feminine trans man. but suddenly the complexities of our identities can be reduced to womanhating or self hatred.

but to my origonal point: i live with the weight of being a gender conforming man. one one side, i am not masculine enough for a man and on the other i am too masculine for a woman. and even if these feminists SAY they’d prefer me as a gnc woman, that woman has to keep her breasts and uterus and vulva not take hormones. there is still a point where gnc women become trans men in their eyes and the gender non conformity isnt enough.

my point is: if youre going to bitch about gender roles and gender steriotypes, why try to fit me into your gender boxes?

^^^

#asks #long post

[mirukutchi]

Attempt 2 at writing this lol bc the first one got deleted by accident

I wanted to add my experience to that last post I rbed, bc it resonated with me, particularly the first part where men will call eachother 'girl' or 'feminine' as an insult(this is the only part im commenting on as i am not a transwoman so i have no input on that part of the post. )

I have pcos. I always have. I have a very strong masculine face/jawline. I always have. Ive always had a deep voice, as someone who was born a girl and identifies(at least in part) as a girl. I want this to be known bc its context lol

Guys are not the only ones who misgender as an insult, or to dehumanize others. Girls do it too.

When i was in elementary school i didnt have female friends bc all of them would laugh at me and say they didn't want to be friends with an 'ugly boy'

When i would go to the bathroom in-between classes, other girls would push me out, or yank me out physically and say that 'ugly boys' are not allowed in the girls bathroom.

My mom always made me have short hair, and she always made me wear jeans(and boy shirts bc they are more durable than girl clothes. This part was. Okay. I guess. I liked pokemon and ben 10 so my little brain didnt understand.) I was not allowed to have long hair and i was not allowed to wear dresses or skirts(ever since i was little ive wanted to wear only dresses but i was not allowed to...)

I talked like a baby(high pitched voice) for a good part of my childhood bc i knew that my voice was ugly and deep. When i started to go to speech therapy, i started speaking ""normally"" and my voice got so deep... i remember one of the last times i used my baby voice it was with a teacher and another student, and the student said "hey teacher, listen to (deadname?)'s REAL voice, she sounds just like a boy!"

That was a defining moment in my life.

In middle school, when i still wasnt allowed to have long hair and dresses, girls in my health class would look at me and laugh and whisper about how im actually a boy, and that i shouldnt be there. My face started changing too, my jaw got stronger... my voice got deeper.

I think in highschool people were too focused on other things to really bother me too much, plus people *generally* by that time knew me as a sweet and quiet person, not to mention i was the 'art kid' so that gained me some friends lol, also by highschool i was allowed to grow my hair out, down to my butt almost! And i was allowed to wear dresses and skirts and leggings(mostly leggings at that time bc i was still super skinny lol)

After highschool i had a crisis and shaved my head and tried out being a guy(ftm) but it was, personally, an identity crisis. I didnt know who i was, i had been abused, emotionally and sexually, all through high school by a guy i thought was my friend(i wish i had left sooner...) so i was struggling with what was 'me' plus i thought to myself 'everyone calls me a guy anyway so fuck it' but it gave me advanced dysphoria to be a guy :/

My hair is long now. Past my butt, i can sit on it. I only, exclusively, wear skirts and dresses. I wear a skirt to work bc i begged them to let me(i have autism and pants are a sensory nightmare but also i hate the way i look in them also i will look more like a guy)

Do you know how often i get misgendered? Admittedly not often, but it still happens. Usually its kids, but sometimes i get people calling me 'sir'. I want to scoff and be like 'how can they mistake someone with long braided pigtails and a dress for being a man' and then i remember my childhood.

Also im not writing this to detract from trans experiences, im writing my own experience as a woman-thing with pcos(if you dont know, it basically means that the cysts on my reproductive organs cause me to produce extra testosterone and not enough estrogen) who has frequently been misgendered by other girls

I want to clarify that im also only responding to the first part of the post, im not trying to say my experiences are in some way comparative to trans experiences!

Terfs do NOT touch this post ill shoot you on sight!!!!! Pew pew!!!

#pcos #my nyas

[notahorseindisguise]

"... to bugs"

last time a bee stung me was over 3 years ago. i laid down on the grass and accidentally crushed a bee with my left earlobe. she was just laying still there, and i, the big fumbling giant i am, accidentally put here into a dark, crushing situation, and she lashed out. she stung me on the ear, and she died because of it. it hurt me for 3 or 4 hours at most.

last time a human stung me was a month ago. we were sharing a family dinner, and my dad told me that the way i was sitting on my chair was impolite. i had my left foot up on the chair, the knee resting against my chest, and the other leg crossed between my foot and my body. this came out of nowhere, because i always sit like this, but my dad said it was impolite, and i didnt understand how. i asked him why it was impolite. he said you know why. i replied no i dont. he said i dont believe you and yes i do and stop lying and sit properly. i said dad im being serious i dont get how this is rude and he said something must be really wrong with your brain if you dont understand. i put my feet down and i ate my dinner in silence and i went to sleep early that night. i still think about that every time i sit that way in a chair. i think about how wrong my brain is.

last time an ant bit me was last year. i was at my grandmas house, where my cousins and i would have a yearly water bomb fight. running around, chucking water balloons at each other, at one point i squatted on the ground to avoid being seen, and didnt realise my toe was in a green ant colony. dozens of ants began climbing my foot, and i was desperately apologizing out loud and gently knocking them off so they wouldnt be hurt, but i didnt want them on me or else they would bite. someone heard me talking to the ants and threw a water balloon at me, which exploded on my face, and so i ran after them, to retaliate, not knowing i had left an ant on my foot, and had run away from its home with it, and so it bit me, to let me know. i dropped my balloon and i put the ant back at its home. that was the only bite i got from disrupting the whole colony. it stopped hurting about an hour later.

last time i was bit by a human was a week ago. id had a hard time recently, and was determined to make this day count, especially since i was home alone all day and had all the free time i wanted. i showered (which i normally am not motivated to do), brushed my teeth (which i normally am not motivated to do), shaved (which i normally am not motivated to do), ate (which i normally am not motivated to do), cleaned my room (which i normally am not motivated to do), cleaned the bathrooms (which i normally am not motivated to do), did the dishes (which i normally am not motivated to do), vaccuumed (which i normally am not motivated to do), and then pulled out my laptop to work on an assignment (which i normally am not motivated to do). at this stage in my long hard day, i was feeling very proud of myself (which i normally dont have a reason to do), when my mum came home, saw me on my laptop, and said of course you sat there all day and did nothing. all my pride vanished and i felt worthless (which i normally do), nodded my head, and closed all my schoolwork tabs. if thats all im thought to do, why shouldnt i do it.

the last time a bug hurt me in general was 2 weeks ago. a simple housefly was buzzing around and it accidentally flew into my mouth. i accidentally swallowed it. it became caught in my throat. i had a huge coughing and retching fit because of the obstruction, and i didnt feel better until the next day, when i had forgotten the feeling. but im sure the fly got the worse deal.

the last time a person hurt me was just the other day. i had done my hair in a different way which i thought was really cute. i showed it off to my siblings but before i could say anything they laughed at me and said i looked like an idiot. kt was all jokes. they thought i was joking about the hairstyle. i smiled and laughed with them. i went away and put my hair back and decided to never change it up again.

maybe if people were a little bit nicer i would treat them more like insects

#half vent half poem ish??? i know its long but a poem can be that long #insects #bug #bugs #insect #corntent #title is part of something my dad said to me which really set me off #ill probly talk sbout it more later

[thinkingnot]

HIIII. This is aurhisaurelio this is my main blog idk if ive said it. I keep forgetting to tell ppl. Dhkdbdjdjd NEWAY HIIIIII. Do you believe in lots of superstitions? Like the one with the hair and nails stuff. Here in my home we have a supersttion where u shouldnt sweep the floor at night cause it sweeps away bad luck! I follow that.

Neway its rlly fun to talk to u abt food and now this !!!! And ESPECIALLY the mythical beast thank u so much for sending that to me i saw pictures in the Google AND THEY ARE SO PRETTYYYYY!!!,

:O i thought the accounts got a similar vibes XD *puts down in my notes that this is the same person*

so we got a similar one that like the first day (or was it three days?) of lunar new year you cant sweep or its equivalent to sweeping new year’s luck out of the house :o! we do clean the house mostly at night tho XD (at least my family does)

superstitions to me are like suggestions, i believe in them just in case 👀 like if there sre no risk &/ inconvienieces to following them imma follow them to prevent whatever bad things that could maybe happen!

yo theres one tho my mum told me about when i was really young so it stuck with me, ‘do not comb your hair on the car - or any vehicles’ cuz like when you comb your hair some strands will fall out and that meant like a separation of sort and seperation and being on a vehicle could be bad omen to an accident :O! <- also important note that i strictly follow this due to going by cab lots and idk if the driver was really superstitious they could get realy mad and even drop you off in the middle of the streets :0!

one that i choose to not believe is like shaving your head = bad omen (cuz my mum told me ancient people - modernly this superstition is specifically referring to to women - only do that when something life changing/in a bad way happened to them like having a big loss usually like being widowed)

ikrrr such pretty mythical creatures, with a similar appearance, leading to my next thought the stone lions!!

i also love stone lions that guard doors and entrances to places they are so cool, literally once i saw two made of some sort of stone (im guessing maybe marble) but they were so cool to the touch i hugged one (i was but a small child at the time) they were so smoothly carved i think they belonged to a temple (hence the dedicated shaping)

my old school also got two but they were rough on the surface and i kept picturing being slammed into one (definitely would rip skin they were made of like gravel and cement poured into a mould or something so the texture was that of the road’s asphalt 😔)

#hoodie’s ask #hoodie’s thoughts #hoodie’s moots #sirius-bus1ness

[molluskzone-moving]

furry tattoos are always so fascinating to me because i love seeing all that you can do with them. most people just draw the tattoos like fur patterns that have been stickered onto the body without taking into account how that wouldnt really work on fur (which makes sense bc tattoos on skin look cool so it also looks cool to just stick that onto a furry) but i personally really love seeing variety in tattoo applications and thinking about how it would work in real life... what i do personally is that if im designing a world in which all the characters are anthros (there are many ways to do this but ill imagine its something pretty generic for simplicitys sake), i will have a few different kind of "tattoos" that are popular.

the first is literally just bleaching + dying the fur in fun patterns (or just dying it if the character is white or tan to begin with). this would probably be seen as similar to having brightly colored dyed hair in our world, but id imagine its slightly more "extreme" depending on the styles. this is obviously not permanent and it will either fade or shed out. this is one of the more realistic options, as its something we do with our pets in real life! maybe kids and teens too young to have proper tattoos would do this to their fur, along with adults whose jobs prevent them from permanent body modification.

the second is having tattoo parlors specialized for tattooing on naked animals such as sphinxes or xoloitzcuintli (which may or may not actually exist depending on how you build your world and justify domestic dog and cat breed existing but thats a different discussion)... i think they could also probably tattoo other animals if they first shave their fur completely off and only leave skin: maybe punks or people really into body mods keeps parts of or all of their fur shaved off specifically to show off the tattoos. the third option (which is my personal favorite, and also the most unrealistic) is a sort of fantasy tattooing where the tattoo gun is somehow able to inject dye into the fur root and permanently change the color of the fur as it grows in. while this really couldnt happen in real life i love justifying it as something that has somehow been invented in furry societies... id imagine the tattooing procedure would be pretty painful and expensive, but would look very cool. and since this procedure would change the fur colour completely, if the character has long fur they would need to keep the patch of fur where the tattoo is shaved down to keep the design clear (kind of like people who "paint" onto their buzzcuts with hair dye: the dye looks weird if their hair grows longer, even if the dye itself is still in the same design). id imagine there are some people who would keep their entire arms or legs shaved down to show off tattoos, and leave certain parts of their body fur long for aesthetics. im actually unsure as to how realistic this option is, as my "research" (aka googling "is it possible to tattoo a dog) did not yield any results (all the photos and website articles were about either people shaving and dying their dogs fur or saying "YOU SHOULDNT TATTOO A DOG ITS CRUELTY" which is true but also i just wanna know if its *possible*)

the fourth option is also a realistic option, as its something we do in real life: freeze branding on animals with dark fur! people do this to horses and cattle in order to identify them, and the freeze brand makes the hair that grows there permanently white. like the previous option, this one would also require the fur to be shaved or trimmed down to make the design more legible, especially if it was more detailed. id imagine this would be a cheaper and simpler option that the fantasy idea of permanently dying the hair at the root, but its very similar in that it would keep the hair that grows there permanently altered. i think this would be pretty popular due to it being cheaper and quicker than other options. also, if you regret the design you could just dye your fur regularly to make the brand not visible any more. one downside of this method that i could see is that maybe its seen as less special because artists might have a few different brand they use on multiple people: maybe some groups see it as a poser thing. custom designs may be possible, but it would either require the artists to have a few different pieces they would arrange in different positions, or for them to create a custom brand for a specific customer which i imagine would get pretty expensive. also, while i was researching freeze brands for this post i discovered that people have actually attempted freeze brands on all sorts of animals, including sea lions and scaled animals which is very interesting (though the brands last significantly longer on animals with fur compared to fish or animals that shed their skin)

#i loveeeeeeeee thinking about worldbuilding and body mods #furry #anthro #might add some art explaining what i mean later #if i do ill delete this post and repost the text #imght change the order to dying + freeze branding + tattooing + fur tattooing

[i4ksm]

and pubic hair anon here (god this sentence sounds ridiculous)

BUT . i just had a thought . what do the heroes think about YOUR hair like.. do they care at all . do they like it smooth . do they have a preference . how would they react to "i didnt shave" . who would think that you having a heart shaped landing strip is the coolest/cutest/hottest thing . (im just spewing words out

but . i do think that if you say "babe i didnt shave :(" to jiseok he'll just say something stupid like "its ok baby i know how to beat around the bush" with the straightest face

lmao no worries!! if u want to become a regular anon u can pick an emoji if you’d like!

and for me of course i’d like to believe they wouldnt care. because in my opinion you shouldnt, now if you personally care then thats fine. so lets say you did, maybe its been a while since you have shaved, or anything. gunil and gaon would be the most reassuring if you were to try apologizing for it. and for the landing strip.. jungsu, gaon and ode would think its cute and tease you for it. but not in a mean way, they would think its cute that you put effort into something like that <33

#i4ksm #xdinary heroes smut #📂anon files

[videostak]

ugghh well actually shouldnt preface this w/ ugh since im in a v happy mood :) anyways i shaved and cut my nails i hope 2mrws cool but kinda annoyed cause i have SO MANY ingrown hairs on my leg T-T tho not super annoyed since i realized i can get rid of them individually w/ nail clippers but i have to do it 1 by 1 and it hurts when i miss if any1 has any more convenient ways to get rid of them lemme kno. i get them so often... anyways excited to go record hunting in the near future rn im listening to rock animals by shonen knife :) am currently on catnip dream i love the guitar solo on that song ^_^ cleaning out my room has gone well and im excited to see where it goes. rly need to just rearrange EVERYTHING like just have a whole new look my room is such a clutter rn tho im bad at planning where to put things n stuff...

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

I get your internalized homophobia and dont want to down talk it or anything. But I think a lot of your issues have something to do with something that women of all sexualities struggle with. And thats not accepting or perceiving themselves as complete human beings when they are without a partner. I know so many downright miserable women in het relationships but they cant break up bc then they wouldnt be fully human anymore. And very sadly some lesbians who cling to the same thought just without an available partner. The longing for romantic companionship etc is valid and natural! But it shouldnt destroy your self esteem, your sense of self and your ultimately your life. The notion that a woman is an incomplete human without a partner is something a sexist society and sometimes trauma trained us to be and to feel. Being a lesbian doesnt free us from that societal training. It just makes us feel like we failed as humans and as women.

I disagree with the notion that whoever hates themselves cant find a relationship or love. But there is some truth to it in a way. And that is, if you are truly and completely content with being your own companion for life, if you are fine and happy alone, then you will be able to find a partner that IS a true and equal partner and not only a substitute for that hole in your self perception. It's ironic really. And I know it sounds discouraging because your first thought might be that you will never be able to come that far. But its one step at a time, slowly and surely. I started this journey when I was in my early to mid 20s and absolutely miserable and filled with self hatred. I am now in my early 30s and I feel like settling down in myself and becoming secure with my own company. I wouldnt call myself completely happy because well who is truly completely happy? But at least I am happy with being my own company, care taker and friend. How to go down that road is a highly personal thing. For me it was a combination of trauma therapy but also a coaching with helped me get to know myself. Sounds silly but most of us really dont know ourselves because we are so repulsed by ourselves. Having someone focus on YOU, just you and not only your trauma or what makes you miserable can help wonders. And therapy tends to only focus on the miserable. Which is also important but can drown you.

And the vast majority was choosing over and over again to not hate myself. Thats hard work because self hatred is cozy after some time. But choosing to eat properly, to go for a walk to see some birds, to clean up the kitchen and to read a book that just makes you happy and nothing else is already such good work. And pausing a situation when you slip into self hatred. Your hatred of yourself is your little inner child but you are an adult. You can pick it up, listen to it, acknowledge its worries, hold it and soothe it. And then take a deep breath and be the adult your inner child would need.

One of the things that also made me calm was Tove Jansson who found her life long partner and love in her 40s. There is no rush for love. It made me ask important questions: do I want a partner who loves me right now? Right now that I am starved, that I am sad and I hate myself. Now that I hide a lot of myself and bend over backwards to be loveable? Do I want someone who loves this version of me? Do I want to put so much hope and trust into someone to see the hidden, sunken, tiny part of me that I really am? Do I want to risk that this person actually loves me when I hate myself?

Or do I want someone that loves me when I eat properly, when I snort laugh over stupid jokes, when I am comfortable and dont bend myself to be something i am not?

Its not that we become the happy person we are meant to be through someone else. We have to become content with ourselves so someone who feels attracted to our comfortable self can find us. When I was extremely skinny, shaved my body hair etc and tried so hard to be loveable while hating myself... Would a woman who likes me when I am confident and content even find me and be attracted to me? This doesnt mean "when you hate yourself you are to blame for not finding a healthy partner". God no. It means that if you focus on yourself and on being content with yourself you can be more calm and secure when you meet someone. You can trust yourself and ultimately trust that person. You can make a healthy choice for yourself and not depend on luck and chance.

And please dont understand this as "you are doing something wrong and its your fault you are miserable". Its not your fault. None of which I wrote is obvious or easy. This society wants women and especially lesbians to feel like you feel. To break free of that isnt easy so dont beat yourself up about it. I just want to encourage you to try and to take your time. Dont beat yourself up and again, take your time.

No no anon you are fully right 💕💕and I really appreciate you taking the time to write all of this out for me 💕💕

Honestly I think I’m just horribly childish. Because this is all true and I know that, but all my brain can do is go “but I still want it now”

I think everything you mentioned is fully part of the problem for me but I also think it’s an accumulation of smaller things as well. Like romance is my favourite genre so I consume it the most, my sister has like a textbook romance with her bf who she had been with since she was 13, I don’t have an awful lot of friends or people around me in general so I’m very lonely and I think that loneliness seeps into my desire to have a gf. Two birds one stone sort of situation. And genuinely I just feel better when I have someone to love. I like loving someone. My main problem is I don’t have anything in my life at the moment, I think. Having my life consist of seeing those the same age as me move out or get jobs or get partners or heck just even drive , all while I’m getting money I feel so guilty having from them government, 90% of the time the only reason I leave the house is to go to an appointment. I feel so unbelievably stagnant in life. All the avenues people have to meet propel just aren’t available to me at this time. And I think it makes me long for a relationship even more. And having to go through the trauma of my sexuality sometimes makes me feel bitter that I went through it for “nothing” if that makes any sense. Like maybe I would have been better off never figuring this part of myself out.

Sorry I’m probably rambling and not making any sense aha.

But genuinely and wholeheartedly thank you so so so much for taking the time to send this to me 💕 it’s truly beautiful. And I’m going to save it so I can read over it when I need a good reminder.

You have a very kind soul and I hope you have an absolutely wonderful and amazing day ☺️💕💕

#asks #anon #answered

[feing3ist]

When I was a child people told me that I was beautiful and even though I loved the attention I got back than, I hate what it did to my mind. An eight year old girl, that just cares about reading books and playing with her friends, shouldnt be told that shes going to be a model someday. Because I didnt grow up thinking im pretty, I didnt grow up thinking I could be a model, I didnt even accept my body and I still dont. Instead people telling me that led to me hating the way I easily gain weight, hating the way I will never be one of those skinny Girls, because my metabolism just isnt built for that. I started hating my acne prone skin, that ive got big pores around my nose, that ive got a lot of facial hair that I need to shave in order to remain that girl, that people where complimenting back then. I am less perfect then I was. Because thats what Happens when you grow up, the scares on your skin will show, you grow more hair in places where woman arent supposed to have them. The beauty ideal for woman is to look like a child. And I find myself envying the child I was, thinking of the time when I didnt have to shave, didnt have to care about my skin, when I didnt care about my nose or pores beeing to big, or my teeth beeing to yellow. The idea of perfection, the idea of beauty got layed upon me very early, the pressure of staying that, of remaining pretty. And the worst thing was, that I learned that beauty was apparently the most interesting thing that people saw in me. I didnt get many compliments on my creativity, or my humour, or my intelligence and what are we teaching young Girls by that? Beauty is so unneccessary, beauty decays and its nothing that will get you anywhere. You cant build a house with beauty, neither can you solve formulas with it. The only thing that it will get you is superficial affection. Theres nothing wrong about telling your daughter that shes beautiful. But dont forget to Tell her that shes smart, funny and a good person too. Tell her that shes beautiful not because she fits into the beauty ideals of our society but because shes a unique human beeing.

#thoughts

[isnt-a-blog-blog]

Saint

Saint is an enigma, they have godlike powers beyond anyone's comprehension yet they only ever seem to use it to harmlessly mess with their friends and mildly convenience themselves

Saint was created to be "the triple affirmative" by SOS, for many cycles saint would train themselves with SOS to become worthy of wielding this power capable of granting the user temporary flight as well as being able to ascend any being (and some unspecified objects), however their final test was attempting to use this ability on SOS themselves, while saint agreed to this, when attempting to do so SOS's programming malfunctioned and would begin to violently retaliate against saint, saint's battle was fierce but eventually saint would come out victorious and SOS was successfully ascended, however after the horror saint was put through they immediately relinquished their duties, no longer acting upon their purpose of ascending all beings in the world, Saint now living but a mostly regular life, minus the powers they still have access to

Saint, despite their complicated aura, is rather friendly and also very hard to anger, if you tried they'd probably just walk away without a word, no one seems to know what happens if you do TRUELY anger Saint, some say it can be achived as easily as stealing their morning coffee

fun fact : Their lock of hair wasnt an intentional part of their design when being created by SOS, after shaving it many times to no avail they eventually settled on styling it the fancy style saint has today, their natural hair shape is an afro

likes : strolling, teaching casually, mind games, coffee dislikes : using their power for their original purpose, meat, getting upset, having their coffee taken away

relationships survivor : "nothing wrong with being average" monk : "he is very eager to learn about the world, im happy to tell him what i know" hunter : "poor thing, i hope his condition is cured some day, id hate to have to take matters into my own hands" nightcat : "her amount of fear towards me is concerning, i hope there isnt things about me she shouldnt know" gourmand : "gourmand is all around a pleasant slugcat to be around, sometimes i wish i was more like him" artificer : "she's always being mean to me every chance she gets, but i know she only does it as a means of venting her frustrations, besides, it makes good practice for keeping myself calm" rivulet : "i'll admit, i sometimes find it funny seeing how mad they get when i can fly faster than they can run, at least they're challenging themselves" spearmaster : "its such a shame seeing a contemporary purposed organism so upset at themselves for failing at their purpose, afterall i chose not to pursuit my purpose, but i cant tell him as i wish no one to know what i was created for" enot : "...while he is a menace iv put him through too much...im sorry"

#rw semi anthro au #rw saint

[strawberryseeded]

every time i check that post someone on here made critizising a woman who posted abt how she took her daughter to her laser hair removal appt so she learns abt "self care" its even MORE of a mess.. truly truly frustrating. idk how op hasnt gone insane w so many ppl misinterpreting their words to the point theyre talking abt another thing entirely

a BUNCH of ppl are in the notes trying to explain why THEY shave and why is THAT reason is actually Valid bc its different.. "its not bc beauty industry ! no one ever told me i shud shave, it was an idea that suddenly occured 2 me out of thin air. my trans friend does it! so ops saying trans ppl are wrong for shaving???? thats transphobic. i have sensory issues!! (long description of how gross hair feels 2them) so even then are you saying I SHOULDNT SHAVE ??? even tho i need it??? ops clearly neurotypical :/"

wow i wonder WHYY trans ppl feel like they shud shave! cant link it to anything tbh. just something that comes from their heart i guess

believe it or not no one cares if u shave or not, truly (and if they do they are dumb). thats not what the post was about. its fine if you dont want any hair on ur body for whatever reason.

...but to think it has NOTHING to do with the beauty standars in our society?? that equating 'beauty' to 'self care', 'confort' and 'hygiene' is not a actually a deeply insidious rebranding by the beauty industry???? please be a bit more introspective and honest with yourself and to others. no one is immune to propaganda. especially if its abt things that we have been told since we are children, which is what the original post is ACTUALLY about.

#di4ry

[goth-transmasc-demi-omni]

Warning: this is a very long post, and I'm sorry. If you wouldn't mind I do have a transmasc beard question here at the top I could use help with 😊

Question: How do you stimulate beard growth?

I know it just takes time and the proper dose of T, but also I've heard about using a comb/facial roller thing to...stimulate the follicles or whatver? Anybody have luck with stuff like that? Or any tips at all really? Maybe beard products for cis men to start the growth? I really want a beard 😫🥺

Ok! Update since it's been forever! I've been on T for two months now, and I'm so excited for all the upcoming changes!

The first thing I noticed was the anxiety going down SO MUCH! The confidence increase, the lack of anxiety, it was crazy! Suddenly walking alone in parking lots at night is not nerve-wracking 🤣 crazy right?!

Second thing: bottom growth. I might be on a low dose, so my bottom growth is slight but it's THERE and some days walking around feels REAL WEIRD cuz there's a THING down there that wasn't before and is super sensitive. But I'm so excited for it to keep going even though it was the one thing that was holding me back from going on T in the first place 🤣 I was like "ehhh yeah I don't really want that, I feel like I'd dislike it a lot," but now I pump several times a week to encourage growth 🤩 Should be every day but I'm lazy.

Hair stuff! I have always had some peach fuzz on my upper lip, more than what is considered "normal" so I've always shaved it to fit in (I'm asd and I masked HARD). Well I stopped shaving it, and it grew in nicely! About a week ago I noticed the growth is farther down closer to the corners of my mouth than it's ever been!!! I'm SO EXCITED!!!! 🤩😁🤩😁🤩😄🤩😁🤩😁🤩😄🤩😁🤩😄🤩

I'm very blond, so the "peach fuzz" mustache is basically white, BUT my brother's beard is red, and my mom's whole family is a bunch of redheads SO I could potentially have a red beard 🤩🤩 fun fact: my redhead uncles have super blond, basically white eyebrows! So maybeeeee the white mustache could be red once it gets longer!

I take after my dad in almost every aspect, so unfortunately I'll probably have a blond beard (if I grow one at all) but in that case I might dye it :3 I really like the red beard look. I'm also considering dying my hair red. It's all shaved on the sides, and long on top to braid, like a viking :D a red-haired viking is pretty neat imo. I have beard beads even, from back when I had dreads. (Don't start, i know white people shouldnt really have dreads, it's a weird issue. I made mine by locking a bunch of synthetic hair, locking my own hair, and attaching them properly with all the care and respect and everything but still. I felt weird as a white person with dreads so I stopped.)

Anyways beard beads are awesome and if I grow a beard I'm definitely putting some beard beads in 🤩

Transmasc enthusiasm!!!! We need more trans positivity out here, especially as the news gets darker and darker ☹️

Also fun fact: my dad is extremely anti-trans. Like straight-up thinks it's a mental disorder and that trans people should either get help or die. He doesn't know I'm trans, I just have to sit and listen to his rants when I'm home.

So I mean it when I say I need all the trans positivity I can get. Cuz thinking about if my parents ever found out still makes me cry. I love my parents so much and I have an amazing connection with them and I don't wanna lose that, but 100% would if I came out.

I fully plan on hiding even after my voice drops and I get top surgery. I'll train myself to speak higher around them, and I'll wear a stuffed bra when I'm home.

Anyways. Here's to you, the ones who can't come out, who might never fully come out, but still wanna live your life the way you were meant to: you are valid, and you are loved. I love you. Keep being your awesome self 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

#Trans Positivity! #trans #transmasc #you are valid #trans pride #pride #trans man #baby trans #bottom growth #beard growth #trans changes #trans update #taking T #so excited #can't wait to see my beard #when it finally grows in #also so excited #for my second appointment #cuz maybe I'll get a higher dose 🤩 #also might stop T gel? #it's hard to remember every day #and hard-ish to hide from parents when i go home #but so would needles? #so no good way to keep the secret from the transphobes #my parents don't believe in trans #I'm not out #I'm out at work #but I'm still misgendered A LOT #hence the excitement for a beard #which I'll have to shave to go home