#i need to do some stuff and i don't have the energy for it now but i'll ad alt text later trust me

[bottledupcomic]

Can't wait to see the new comic! Although I'm quite curious, by reboot, will it just be a new version of the first comic, while the rest remains, or is it a complete restart and every previous comics should be viewed as non-canon now?

Good questions, and I will make some sort of Q&A post at some point. But the main reason I'm rebooting is that RGB (the shopkeeper) became way more important to the plot than I originally planned, and thus I'd like to redraw the first chapter (technically I could introduce the stuff now too but it's much more smoother to just redraw the first chapter)

Chapter 1 is the only one that really NEEDS to be redrawn/plot. But I also wanna redraw chapter 2 as it was super short originally and I got way better ideas for it now.

After those, I'll see what I do. Since the comic will be in Black/white style like HOI comic was, thus I'll likely wanna redraw the others too but in terms of the plot, they don't necessarily need a redraw as badly as the first two. (The reason I'm moving to grayscale is to save time. I don't have as much time with a full time job on the horizon nor energy)

I would consider the old chapters canon and not. Pretty much same things happen but there are new scenes and some stuff is introduced sooner. Chapter 2 is the only one that will very significantly change (even if it ends in same situation as old one)

Puh, I got rambling. Hope this made some sense, haha. Glad people are excited the comic is reviving. Me too

#ask tammy #not art

[doodle-girl]

So what're we thinkin, girlies? /gn

Side note: You will probably have to click on the image and zoom in

Side note 2: we still do not know where the hell Jack and Klaus come into this

#dreams of an insomniac #doai sitcom au #timelines #i need to do some stuff and i don't have the energy for it now but i'll ad alt text later trust me #my stuffs

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye

#cats #love the second picture... skrungly sleepy well rested boye face... #since he's an elderly boy now sometimes when he wakes up from a nap he looks a bit scruffy and squinty eyed #Hard to beleive he's like 15 though.. he still looks like a kitten to me.. due to his giant round creature eyes and childlike demeanor #I think it's interesting that like... baby cats are babies. kittens are kittens. and you can tell a cat is like 'young adult' phase #looking from like a few months to maybe 1yr or 2yrs.. but after that they just always look the same to me #a 5 yr old cat is a 10 yr old cat is a 15 year old cat. unless the cat in question is particulalry aged or youthful #I still have so so little energy... it's been icy here this week. like not even FUN but just scary icy even thoguh i lOOOVE the cold #and its my favorite weather. I think it'd be okay actually if I had a woodburning stove/fireplace/hearth thing. literally thats my only #concern with the power going out. I genuinely don't mind stuff like having to go to the bathroom in buckets or cook over a fire or do other #less conveninet things. Its just that if eveyrhtng is electric then you have no way to cook and all of that. well.. and I literally need #background noise to go to sleep lest my ocd sprials become so loud I am slowly driven into maddness.. but a few battery packs or something #and a phone with one downloaded video I could play on repeat is fine for that. I dont need internet. ANYWAY.. so so sad that my fav #orite season ever (winter) is here. and the first cold of the winter is like... just an ice storm that you cant even walk in. I #love like 4 feet of snow where you can play in it and stuff. But just a thin flat sheet of a few inches of ice over every imaginable surfac #is not really playable. the wind speeds are so high and so many trees fall it's actually not that safe to go hang out outside anyway unless #you were in a totally clear open field. which is SAD also because i love ice and high winds. i love to stand out there and get whipped in t #he face with ice crystals and feel like I'm in some dramatic movie or something. but alas.. the threat of being attacked by a falling tree. #I did go out some but again it's like. literallyyou cant walk on it. so I just squatted and dragged myself along the ground lol #One of my stories has a whole section where the main characters are trapped in a deadly cold environment for a week and have to use magic #to survive and etc. etc. so I'm always like.. ouuu.. I should go in the ice.. it's Writing Research actually.. *foolishly gets frostbite* #THOUGH yesterday I went on a harrowing evil journey down a bunch of icy hilly roads to go check on some person's cat because the cat #had been left in the house for like 5 days at that point with nobody to check on them and nobody else seemed to want to do anything #about it (like call all of the neighbors or try to get someone out there) so I just went myself with a roommate who agreed to drive me. #It seemed acting totally normal and I gave it more food and water but.. I am still worried about it.. Apparently the person will be able #to get back to their house tomorrow but.. I dont trust them. But I couldnt take the cat with me because it's like.. a stranger's cat #basically and also no carrier + very skittish.. so I feared if I just tried to carry them bare handed they'd definitely leap from my grasp #and then it'd be like.. sliding on a sheet of ice chasing a cat and so on.. I still think they need to be watched for health issues tho >:| #ANYWAY.... many cat adventures lately... and strange weather... I wish for a normal week without always so many Things Happening.. augh

[lovelaceisntdead]

i think i just need to rewatch lost.

#that will fix me i think. #because i am doing. bad. i know i have not been keeping this a secret but i feel very stuck and i don't really know what to do. #my general anxiety levels are much higher than they usually are and um. i don't really know why. which then just makes it worse. #and i feel so down and hopeless. i can't make myself feel excited about things. i have hardly any motivation #and no energy to do anything even if i did #like yellowjackets s3 starting production and i just don't feel excited about it and it's making me really sad #and I'm getting upset about things that i feel silly for getting upset about and i can't say anything because I'm embarrassed #for being upset in the first place #i feel so incredibly disconnected from everyone around me it's so hard to talk to anyone #I'm running on autopilot most of the time at the moment #and I'm finding it so hard not to push people away. but at the same time i feel so out of place and I'm dissociating a lot so. #idk whay I'm saying with this #i just feel like i need to get stuff out because i feel so anxious i might explode #and with the weather getting warmer a lot of my physical symptoms are flaring up. anf being in this house is so suffocating #i feel like i can inly exist in this perpetual state of fine. can't be any worse can't be any better #I'm just constantly pretending that I'm just Okay because it's easier than having to deal wirh anything else. but i know I'm really just #causing myself more harm. #I'm done now. just trying to relieve some of the pressure i am feeling in my whole entire body.

[demigod-of-the-agni]

Art vs Artist 2023!! 💥 I didn't expect the year to be so colourful... but there is a Severe lack of purples. Anyway, it was a literal struggle trying not to add Pavitr art because he keeps infiltrating every month T-T

Happy to say I'm proud of the art evolution! Thank you Spider-Verse for pushing me outside the box and really embracing the fun and whimsical style of Mumbattan. Who knew mimicking old timey comics would be so much fun?

high quality versions of the above images under the cut!!

i fuckin love this clip i want it tattooed on my soul

#i'm so very grateful for spiderverse giving me such a boost in terms of art style #atsv came along and i tried to cement myself as “you're that guy who draws pavitr all the time” and like. mission accomplished? #been up to my eyeballs with so many things in my real life and feeling pretty low all the time. but im glad i still had the energy- #-to pump things out every now and then. the art and its evolution is more or less a sign im still doing stuff #in fact i think a big reason for the departure from my old style was simply because the new one encouraged me to have fun #like “it don't need to be perfect. messy lines are a part of the charm. bleeding colours and imperfect inks are what makes art cool” #so in a way i think changing art styles made ME feel a lot a better about myself and what i do to some extent #but yeah. other than that... if you told me to name anything interesting that happened to me this year i couldn't tell you #it's just not that kind of year for me #i got chalice of the gods for my birthday tho! so that was a real blast to the past #might post some doodles i've made of some scenes pretty soon #happy 2023 yall!! manifesting that next year is a good one #art vs artist #artoftheagni #art vs artists 2023

[ragnarokhound]

"reading under the red hood and it's pretty good i think" - jason todd fan who has only seen the cartoon adaptation of under the red hood

#getting my hands on the comic for utrh is cracking my entire brain open about werewolf fic like you don't understand #the cartoon movie was pretty tight but the comic is more robust. and yall the themes for werewolf fic...they're all coming together #now if only i could write the girls fighting FR I'M TOO SOFT YOU GUYS OTL #i'm just feeling insane over the first confrontation with bruce and how Jason tells him that 'gotham is evil' #and 'you have to fight her where she lives' and 'i live there' LIKE #it's only fueling my crazed impression that the end to Jason's philosophy has only two ends #when he's done what he's set out to do and rid the world of evil by cutting it out (which is futile; blind and toothless etc but details) #either: he changes his philosophy and becomes the very type of villain he hates or he dies himself. because he also deserves death #'i live there' ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? #sorry if this is Not News to people or if Jason has had some serious growth vis a vis this entire mindset but like. #I'M INSANE ABOUT IT. I'M CHEWING ON IT FOREVER #and bruce is the wrong person to try to sway Jason off this path. theres way too much baggage too much history too many complicated feeling #but...tim...? >.> #tim i think has enough 'this is not my philosophy this is company policy and i'm the worlds okayest employee' energy to eventually do it #like obviously stuff would need to Happen for it to be possible lol but you guys. this is what made jaytim so tasty to me in the first plac #tim being capable of meeting jason halfway like bruce can't; tim being able to hold the conversation with jason without it collapsing #tim having rebuttals to jason's arguments that might actually get somewhere with him eventually... #i'm not saying it would be fast or easy or even make sense in canon lmao but think there's a lot of fic potential there owo #like tim's vicious streak is something jason would appreciate. :3c #local jaytim fic author rambles about jaytim in the tags once again more at eleven lol anyway #jason todd #dc

[lyxchen]

There needs to be like a thing where you can send a text that you have to read for school or uni or whatever and then there's real life voice actors recording themselves reading that text for you and then they send you that recording back so you can then listen to it while reading your text

#this is something that i want for me specifically #because i can not for the life of me read a 15 page text for uni and understand/remember any of it without somebody reading it to me #if i try then that will take at least a few hours and much mental pain for me and i don't have the energy to do that right now #y'all we need to make audiobooks more common so we can get audiobooks or recordings of schoolbooks or stuff like that too #pleaseeee #lea's random thoughts #i'm tired #my brain is tired #and i can't do this right now #but i have to #if i send somebody this (german) text will you read it out loud and record it and then send that to me? (this is mostly a joke question but #also only because actually asking somebody to do this gives me anxiety for some reason) #hey uh david tennant if i give you money will you read this text to me?

[gillianthecat]

Hello, world.

#I haven't watched any ql recently #but I've watched and read a bunch of other stuff. which is great! #i have thoughts on many of them that I've been wanting to write up. which i may or may not end up doing. #but for now i need to focus on getting myself and my house ready for the semester. which starts wednesday #anyways I'm still not sure what my presence on tumblr will be like going forward. but i don't want to disappear entirely. #I've been wanting to write but also making posts has been feeling like a Project. and I need to save my Project energy for school stuff. #so i may just end up popping in with posts like these every few weeks 🤷🏻‍♀️ #rambling in the tags #which for some reason feels like a better fit for my thoughts right now #gillianthecat's life

[missshame]

I hate studying I just wanna create stuff and see the world I hate how little control I have over my life

#Let's make it clear I know I'm lucky to get higher education and I'm grateful for it + knowledge can be the greatest tool #It's just that medschool is killing me and there's just too much stuff to learn and I'm struggling so badly with it that at the end of the #day it feels like I'm not learning anything and I'm completely dumb and uneducated #I'm not even a good student but it takes all my energy and even when I'm not studying I rarely have the energy to do anything #The only thing I sorta do consistently is working out because it makes my brain shut up for a while and it helps the muscle pain I got from #All the stress and sitting at my desk/working long days at the hospital #Anyway I love complaining sorry #I just feel like I had /have a very creative artsy nature and I'm really suffering from the lack of it like not in a I don't have enough #time for my hobbies and to relax #Which is already bad enough btw I don't think it should be considered normal for anyone to be too exhausted to do anything outside of work #But I really feel it in a I'm not myself anymore it's hard to move forward and build confidence and a sense of self while having a life so #far away from what you love and feel like you need + denying yourself what you desire the most can't be good to your brain let's face it #Anyway long story short first thing I'm gonna do when I finally get my degree is by me some drums learn the guitar and paint on the walls #And in the meanwhile Idk do I keep living this way? If I do will I go completely insane? #Or do gift myself the right to give up on the idea of being a slightly less bad student and do I say fuck it and start living my life now ? #Idk! Idddkkk !!! #Oh my god

[trans-cuchulainn]

okay i've finished rewatching pride now i will stop having feelings all over your dash

#this film is just. god. it means so much to me #it's such a well-made film but also it came out when i was 18 and like. idk. #i saw it 3 times the first year it came out #the third of them at a screening with one of the original members of LGSM doing a talk afterwards #i saw it at a time when i was just moving out of my conservative hometown and discovering queer community for myself #so it's like. formative. you know??? #this is My Queer Movie #i have now seen some other Iconic Queer Movies thanks to undergrad queer film nights and stuff #things like But I'm A Cheerleader etc #but this one. this is mine. #i think because it's a queer movie about friendship and solidarity #it's about community rather than about romance even though it's about being queer #and for me as an aspec person that speaks to me in a way that romance-focused stories don't #so it resonates on a deeper level #to use a quaker phrase: it speaks to my condition #i wish i had more energy and could be more active in organising though #it's really hard to protest and be political when you're disabled and barely coping with life as it is #i can't go on a march because i won't be able to walk for four days afterwards due to pain yunno. so i feel useless a lot #ah well. i know there are things i can do they're just not glamorous #i do need to write to my MP some time soon about. everything. #personal

[onocleqs]

can't fucking believe vent is still down. where else am i gonna yell about being ill

#anyway it is Day Two and. i feel better in some ways but worse in others #had the worlds most disrupted night of sleep and now i'm coughing a lot more than yesterday and it sucks #but my throat feels less sore for sure. feels like my body is fighting this thing off super hard 💪💪💪💪 shame about the full body aching #and overall lack of energy. ooouugghhh and the lost voice of course. but this always fucking happens #i'm gonna have to pass on games night tonight if i'm still coughing a lot and/or still missing my voice #but aaaauugghhh the love of my friends will surely heal me like nothing else. unless they make me laugh and send me into a coughing fit #rambling #my god yeah thats one of the worst parts of being ill. cant watch anything that makes me laugh. im fucking dying of boredom here #sure there's other stuff to watch but no funnies and no video games when that's all i want rn. havent watched any more flapjack in DAYS #it's nowhere near as bad as covid so this is entirely unnecessary but i am once again getting thr urge to document my symptoms #with a god damn spreadsheet. but it's not as complex at all so eh. #i can't say too much about how much better i'm feeling just yet tbh bc i'm still back in bed hfkdhgkdh i can walk sure #but i need to go downstairs and make breakfast soon which is the REAL first hurdle #also the question of am i ready for toast again or do i need to stick to porridge just to be safe #not gonna lie. i didn't love the noodles i had yesterday so i'm wondering if i'll have the appetite for something else #i want a sandwich so fucking bad but i don't want to eat dry bread at the same time. aaauuggghhh #my sibling offered me a hot chocolate last night and i had to turn that down bc chocolate plus cold for me is a big no #but aaauugghhh a nice warm drink probably would’ve been rlly nice #i return once again to announce that got damn! i feel notivesbly better than i didn an hour ago and my voice is like 30% back! #which means that by tonight i might very well be at a functional enough level to hang out with friends after all #i can always dip if my energy levels tank again or whatever but like honestly hanging out with them is like. i need that #the last two days havent been great and i miss them and we have a lot to talk about so yeah i will do everything in my power #to be there tonight. but i will not force myself or push myself too far. bc i am the king of self care 💪💪💪 #god sorry back again but. it continues to fascinate me how any kind of illness affects me in the same ways consistently regardless of what #kind of illness it is??? right now i have whats mainly a cough which is honestly rare for me when i get ill #it's usually more in the nose department and sometimes the throat but rarely the chest #and yet 9 out of 10 times i lose my voice. i Always struggle with low energy (altho thats a problem outside of being ill too jfdjgdhfhd) #have a hard time falling or staying asleep and i get nauseous if i sleep laying down enough #but also i am the king of hard and fast aka i get like 24 terrible hours and then recovery is super quick. i'll be back to 100% health in #less than a week. my poor fucking step dad has been in stage one for a WEEK it's really awful. but i have the power of youth on my side 💪

[sysig]

My brain: Nooooo I can’t talk about doodles made two weeks ago that’s so loooonnnnggg agooooo

Also my brain: *happily talks about doodles from six months ago up to tag limit*

#Make up your fucking mind you fucking mind #Lol #To be fair there were more of the six month doodles than two weeks doodles so there's more to talk about haha #It's very weird :0 It's very weird! I'm feeling more energized to work on Vargas stuff even tho I have other things I could do #And Also With You definitely re-kickstarted some of that energy but this is proportionally more than that so I'm at a bit of a loss there #It's still only specific channels that my brain is really honed in on - The Sims 2 and some longform stuff - but still #Weird weird weird #I've drawn about 1/3rd of original stuff as I have Vargas stuff in the past? two weeks?? Or even just non-Vargas stuff other fanart and such #And I've got another Vargas idea sitting on the mid-back burner (because it's new lol) #I don't know why it continues to shock me I mean it's been officially over two years now but it still does lol #Tangentially related but I'm trying to work my way up to posting regularly again on DA #For the existentialism anon ♥ And for me lol #Started by compiling Vargas minis who could've guessed lol #It is nice to have stuff to work on - always #Got stuff I Need to do but it's nice that I'm able to reward my brain with Want to dos too haha

[fortunately-bi]

...... If I went on a hiatus for who knows how long again would y'all hate me....... 👉👈

#i just spent like an hour writing and rewriting a post trying to explain myself amd its just so hard to put into words #im bored here but not in a ew not enough content for the dopamine hit shit #in like a every time i scroll through I dont smile I dont see anything that makes me happy at all i dont get a laugh or anything #its just mindless brain rotting scrolling nothing wasting my time hoping maybe ill see a new artist to follow or something #and every time its nothing #so much nothing taking up so much of my time and space in my life and i already dont have a lot of time to begin with #ive made some awesome friends here ive had lovers from here ive had people who are no longer on this earth from here who ill never forget #i dont think ive really enjoyed anything on here in 7 years #ive left before for a really long time i think like a year or more or something #and i wont be totally unreachable of people message me ill respond but im so sick of this stupid app taking up my life #and all i ever get out of it is getting mad or getting depressed over shit that really is t worth my mental state over #all i ever feel on here is that the world fuckin sucks and theres not even anything here to make hanging around worth it #im not new to this site making me suicidal for an abundance of reasons and im luckily in a spot where i wont actually hurt myself #its just ideation and intrusive thoughts but its a pattern i cant keep ignoring #also im old tumblr im old tumblr and i think i will always be old tumblr im just not catching on to new shit anymore #the fact im even saying anything about a hiatus should show how pld tumblr i am no one does this anymore lol #i just don't want to be here anymore i dont really want to be anywhere online anymore tbh #its always something and i cant mentally keep up with it anymore i have too much going on in my life #my wife is having cancer removed on Tuesday im a lead teacher who has to take care of i think 8 babies now #i have problems i have actual problems that need me and need me to be as there as i can be #i cant be spiraling over stuff online on top of real world problems im in no position to do anything about on top of personal life problems #that are drastically affecting my life at home and hurting my family and loved ones #i have a mass in my thyroid which is so big i choke to the point i stop breathing if I dont have my meds i throw up all day #i have to see a neurologist because at best i have a pinched nerve at worst im having seizures and i might have to move states again #i dont have it in me to come on here and see stuff that makes me upset for the chance i might see something i like #and i can unfollow people and whatever but I dont have the energy or time to sift through people i follow on here #if you want to talk in dms or asks or you want to send me posts pls by all means continue to do so thats fine #but i think i need to take the app out of my line of sight again for a bit and just be in the moment again same with twitter #anyways i love yall i promise i am safe and not in harms way im just stressed af and i have got to start cutting things out that #arent doing anything other then making me miserable

[cesium-sheep]

if I'm ever well enough to bathe at a more reasonable frequency that will probably have a significant impact on how often I wear my nice clothes like my dresses and stuff. cuz I hate putting on the nice things when I need a bath but like. there's only a couple days a week when that's not true.

#plus just the actual physical energy required to put on and take off the more complicated outfits #that is also a limiting factor. #the past couple years have really just been like 'wow how many times can we put the same pathetic little cube back in the garbage compactor' #so right now I wear them uhhhhh not at all. #because I won't be well enough at the end of an outing to get back out of them. #and whether I'm well enough at the beginning to get into them in the first place is. yknow. debatable. #I also need to go through my clothes and get rid of some more stuff #cuz I still have like. a ton of socks that I do not wear and don't even really like #and some shirts that fit but are uncomfortable or ugly #but I'm also getting the whole underneath the bed so I can store stuff there if I might want it later #(getting rid of clothes (or of anything) is Complicated (thanks mom))

[medicinemane]

You know, it bothers me the way it seems like people have totally forgot about Iranians... thought we were all on the same page, wasn't it... women, life, freedom? (I legit don't remember, but the reason for that is it wasn't my slogan to say. Maybe it sounds strange, but that's how I felt, so I never actually wrote it, which makes it harder to remember)

Just feels like for a brief window there we were all talking big talk about supporting them, but then it all kinda dried up

I'll be totally transparent about one of the reasons this keeps coming up for me, russia is a major ally of Iran, Iran supplies the kamikaze drones russia hits civilians with... you know they're not giving them away for free... I worry what the Iranian government uses anything it gets to do... I don't really hear anything from Iranians anymore (though once again I fully admit that most of what I was hearing was second hand, I never had found an Iranian to directly follow... I don't know if anyone's still talking)

I just... I legit worry that people talk a big game about Gaza right now, but will they in a year?

I'm frustrated because a lot of the support people and causes around the world get seems like it's almost more self masturbatory than anything real... sure, everyone really well and truly means it, but then they get bored and it's on to a new cause

So I worry the support will be fleeting... and I see some people really getting down in the mud in ways... well, I'm not a people keeper, I don't get to tell people what to do, but I wouldn't be very pleased if I was acting the way I see some people act and my real point is I worry they're doing all this shit and they're not even gonna stick it out with the cause... seen people get bored and dip to many times to trust it

I'm not perfect... I have a shit memory a lot of the time, and I got a lot on my mind, but I still remember Hong Kong... at least sometimes... even looked into it from time to time and the news never looks good

I remember the Uyghurs, though my shit spelling always makes me look it back up. I think about Syria and how forgotten they are. I do actually still keep up with Ukraine... and then I see connections between russia and Iran and assad and...

I don't know... this stuff eats a me a little... not a lot, not more than the helplessness we all feel about bad things beyond our control usually does... I just worry about people, how they act with shit

Worry that you roll around in the mud too long it starts getting hard to wash off, and I worry that people sometimes get in the mud less cause they're trying to help anything and more cause sometimes it feels good to have an excuse to get dirty... righteous anger that makes any behavior permissible

I don't talk about current events that are on everyone's radar nonstop cause I don't want to burn support out by just overloading people with horror... but I generally find murdering innocent people to be a bad thing, so yeah... I want to see a fucking ceasefire already

Don't talk about it, but I actually do care quite a bit... and I worry... I worry that it'll be forgotten the second the news cycle moves on like everything else is

Worry that every bit of vile behavior I've seen that was for high minded goals will turn out to be dropped in an instant...

Almost like that's not a bug, that's just the point

#sorry; no reblogs for this one... I'm not letting someone 5 reblogs outside my sphere start going on about something insane #I don't like talking politics and I don't like talking discourse #both to keep things civil and cause frankly I don't need the stress of arguing with people online #not when I don't think it'll be a good faith conversation; when I don't think it's a disagreement in how to make things better #just that I need to totally agree with everything they say; and really they just like arguing #but certain things eat at me... the way people act eats at me #and seriously; I mean every word; it eats at me every time I think about how forgotten this stuff seems #I think people meant their support; but where is it now? #I don't think I've seen Iran mentioned in like a year #I don't know how to help... believe me; if I could play Captain America and save the day I would #if I could give Iranians the freedom they asked for I would in a heartbeat #I don't know how... not like congress listens to me or I'd change a lot #kill that kosa bill or whatever the horrible acronym is... sent one of those auto email things about it but.. just one voice #lot I'd change... wish I had energy to do more #you know; friend of mine often talks about this group in Iraq that's faced a lot of genocide; she's American but she's worked with them #love if I could do more to help there too... reblog when she says stuff though I know we all have limited bandwidth #I don't know... it bothers me though... it's like we're led around by the nose when the news cycle changes #not saying not to care about what's happening now; but when the other stuff didn't stop happening... #and then there's the fact that frankly even people I like a great deal; absolutely adore... #I see them... slipping... getting into some nasty behavior... and I worry #but I doubt they'd listen much... the times I try to nudge don't seem to get much results #and if someone won't listen pushing harder does nothing #...who's to say I even know a thing? that my morality isn't broken in ways I can't see? #but I worry... I worry about people... I worry how easy it is to manipulate good and smart people I know #and I worry about everyone that we seem to keep forgetting #worry a whole lot; a lot of the time... about policy and international relations and about who we're choosing to be as people #but would you believe this is just background stuff for my depression? #this is just the seasoning for why I should blow my brains out; it's rarely why I say I should #in spite of all that worry it's not even the main thing that makes me want to die... just stuff I can gesture to and be like... that too #I'm tired... wish I could... wish I could tell the people I see slipping to grow up... to step up... but I don't think I can

[touhoutivations]

Ringo, if available -

I recently took up a new job and it's been really kicking me. I imagine that's how you felt on the moon to make you come to earth, similarly running from this place to that, answering demands of your superiors. How can I obtain more endless energy our species is oft known for? I'll gladly bend down my antlers for you to stick some dango on.

In a similar vein of thinking to yours, sometimes the moon is a big bright orange pumpkin this early September and I thought I would share some sentiment with moon gazing. Especially after work, it's presence is quite serene. I wish there was a way we could hang out. It would be a nice load-off.

Sincerely,

A golden earth jackalope

"ACK- THEY FOUND ME!" [ahem] "Oh, you're from Earth, all good all good."

But man, I totally get it. If you're running about from place to place, especially if you were going along with a particular system- school, a bad relationship, a lack of self-regard- even if you're trying to treat yourself better or help yourself out you can feel MORE exhausted...I wonder if that's Earth's impurity... You're on the right track though! You gotta load up of fuel, not just any ol' food but stuff that'll keep you going, and listen to your body. Turns out sustaining yourself on just dango ain't that great for Earth rabbits, and it's actually the "impure" foods of fermented or pickled stuff that's helpful for fatigue.

Also, whilst it can sound counterintuitive and may even be more exhausting at first, you gotta prep yourself before you wreck yourself. I love me a good nap, but when winter's coming, it might end up counterintuitive to just sleep all the time. You gotta keep those bones limber and moving, we got all that energy from running, and we run cuz we got all that energy! And when you rest...how do I say this without being lame, treasure it? Not in a 'oh you should be grateful you're able to sleep' but paying attention to how nice it makes you feel, seeing a breeze or feeling the warmth of a blanket...really sink your teeth into feeling the positive flow of things. No feeling guilty for how long it's been or how long it takes allowed, you give yourself permission to ~mellow~

I think moon gazing is a great idea, at first I didn't like it because it was kinda sad, but...now I see the moon differently. I see it the way Earthlings do, a presence in the sky that shifts the tides and envelopes nature with its own subtle dark light, a Mythical being...heh, and the idea that seeing the moon that way would piss the Lunar Capital off just makes that bright orange pumpkin all the sweeter~

I'll skewer some dango on, but that's for a takeaway- so have some now and enjoy it, mmkay?

#mod yuyu #ringo #ringo touhou #2huv8 ask #fatigue #food ment // #current events // #i feel you anon- i hope you're feeling more energy now! it's hard to deal with fatigue and there isnt a magic bullet for it esp if youre #dealing with chronic illness- but don't give up! get some protein and probiotics into you and be kind to yourself #fatigue stuff is always tricky but i also really recommend that if you have any mental or physical conditions you know about try to examine #other potential deficiencies and ways it tires you out and how to counteract it- eg adhders need more omega3 and protein in their diet #or even mental conditions can give you fatigue just from existing or being in an overstimulating environment- and your spoon storage is low #work with your body and brain- not against it and all that- whatever funky tricks help you do those funky tricks! #also sorry for the late post ;v; #me in january: bright and round and orange like a pumpkin in september~ humans and the beasts alike are waiting for the clock to strike #fellow lyrica enjoyer hell yeah