#i need to find a new job anyways

[what-wait-why]

if i were not on T I'd be on my period right now

#tmi i know but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #i was considering why i had such an intense craving for chocolate #and my (abnormaly) fucked sleep schedule and the increase in feeling like my skin is too small for my flesh #oh. yeah it's around the middle of the month #i had to miss like a week and a half of T last month while waiting on my new insurance #and i missed a few days at the beginning of October bc i was sick #so now my hormones are all fucked up #anyways. I've been up all night and i don't have go into work until 2. (it's 5:19. i have a four hour shift.) #i think I'll just bite the bullet and stay up because I'm off tomorrow #and obviously i need another day to sleep in because i have the past two days #see this is why i think i dislike night shifts now #yeah I'm not a morning person (store opens at fucking EIGHT. we have to be there at 7:45) #and it's a good two hours before you can expect me to be fully functional #but at least i have something i need to wake up for #otherwise I'm easily sleeping until eleven #i need to find a new job anyways #because I'm getting increasingly annoyed with this one #and i need something that pays better #(ive already gotten a rent notice from my landlord. if we don't pay the back-due 1020 and change we'll receive a 3-day on November 3rd) #but the only fucking things actually hiring around here are either jobs I'm incredibly not qualified for (nursing/trucking) or like. cashier #wich i HAVE been applying for even though i really don't want to #because i was a cashier for four and a half years #and while I'm not fond of being a floor/dept. associate i hate being at a register #(in large part because i can move around to mediate the pain while working the floor #but at a register i just have to grit my teeth and bare it) #this has turned into a vent / life updat now. I'm going to make coffee. #if you know like. online jobs someone with only a ged can do please send them my way #crow.txt

[tomboyyyaoi]

cutlery

#cutlery is. maybe my fav song ive discovered from proseka its very nice.LOVE the 2dmv #was gnna do miku from it too but im tired n i start a new job tomorrow so maybe later #wish i could draw stuff like this for vamery i think i just need to find time to build up more ideas.. #playin around w the idea of illustrating some scenes from kind..........that may be time consuming tho #but i wanna so bad....... im having post trimax vamery withdrawls..... #anyway this is about kanamafu.... #proseka #project sekai #pjsk #prsk fa #nightcord at 25:00 #25 ji nightcord de #kanamafu #kanade yoisaki #mafuyu asahina #my silly art

[somegrumpynerd]

When you find out years later that you accidentally named one of your henchmen

Image ID: A multi-panel comic featuring au sanses. Panel 1: In Killer's original universe. A dark figure stands in the foreground while Killer is sitting back in the snow, covered in blood. Killer says "wh-what are you?" Panel 2: The dark figure is Nightmare but only his smile is visible. He says "I am Nightmare, guardian of all negativity in the multiverse ...and I have a proposition for you, Sans." Panel 3: Nightmare's hand is outstreched, he says "Come with me willingly and I'll take you out of this desolate and barren universe and let you loose on many others." Panel 4: Killer is looking back at Nightmare warily, a thought bubble shows he is thinking "other universes...?". He says "...in exchange for what? What do you want with me?" Panel 5: Nightmare's tentacles are reaching out towards Killer. He says "I feed off the fear and misery and hatred in this world, stirring these up will keep me powerful enough to fight against the guardian of positivity. In short," Panel 6: Nightmare is looming over Killer now, his tentacles surrounding him. He says "I just need you to be a good little killer." The word killer is in red text. Panel 7: Killer is grasping Nightmare's hand, having accepted his offer. Panel 8: Now in a different au, Nightmare stands beside Killer as he taunts Dream, who is out of frame. He says "You're outnumbered now Dream, I have a killer with me this time." The word killer is in red text again. Panel 9: Dream is lying on the ground looking hurt and ruffed up. Killer is standing in the background, looking ready to continue beating Dream up. Nightmare says from out of frame "You should know better than to turn your back on a killer by now." The word killer is in red text again. Panel 10: Nightmare is standing by Killer again, looking smug. He says to Dream, who is not shown "You'll need more than that pathetic bow next time you meet with my killer here." The word killer is in red text again. Killer is looking towards Nightmare, pleased with this. Panel 11: We are now in Nightmare's castle, present day. It is revealed to be Killer telling these events to Dust, who looks bored. Killer says "-and the name stuck, so that's why I'm called Killer now." Dust says very quietly "did I ask" Panel 12: Nightmare is standing in the corner behind them, he looks very surprised and concerned after hearing all this. Text with an arrow pointing to him reads "Didn't realise he had done this." Killer from out of frame says "he doesn't really call me his killer anymore tho" with a frowny face. Dust, also out of frame, says "that's nice now shut up" End ID.

#UTDR #UTMV #My Art #Truce au #Killer Sans #Nightmare Sans #Remember when I said I wouldn't have that comic done? Sike I finished it earlier #Anyway you ever accidentally name a guy and don't realise until years later when he brings it up #Killer loves it because he feels special for getting his own name that's not just his au #(and also because he wants to be Nightmare's favourite and this is his evidence) #Nightmare hates this. He did NOT mean to name his henchman like a pet he feels awful #Maybe down the road Dream can convince him how much Killer loves it and he'll let it go #Killer absolutely hates being called sans he doesn't want to think about his old life #So the new job and name were kind of just what he needed at the start #Anyway I'm rambling. I just thought it was interesting Killer was one of the few to not be named for his au #And given the name it might be something Nightmare had a hand in #He also helped him find his signature look with the inverted clothes colours but we'll get to that another time this is already too long

[bigothteddies]

I *am* going to cause problems for myself at this job by spreading a countless amount of fibs over my relationship status

#unimportant thoughts #its none of your business ! #one person I told I have a partner #one person I told i went through a long term relationship ending last year #one person i told i had a hot date last friday after work and thats why i needed to leave early (i didnt) #that person told another person whom decide to give me a pep talk on how to get and keep women #and now thinks that I am single and mingling out there #(he was interested in knowing if it was a ‘new girl’ or an ‘old girl’ i went on the date with #(i told him new and then sat through him telling me how to be confident with women in order to keep their attention) #anyways this is fun and will surely have no consquenes on my life whatsoever :p #cant wait to take meatz to the company party in 6 months :p #genuinely hate people irl knowing ny relationships though like its none of your business #I know uou wont understand and I know if you find out im dating someone youll start assigning us monog traits #which feels so gross #and i csnt be bothered explaining polyamory to people its not my job to make them okay with that

[magicaldreamfox1]

are u anxious abt the thing bc u have anxiety or are u anxious abt the thing bc u just don't have any experience with it and also have anxiety

#inspired by me unlocking my ability to make phone calls #today i got annoyed bc a store didn't have a customer service hotline and only communicated thru emails #bc i was like a phone call would be sm quicker :( #anyway im very proud of myself i used to get anxiety attacks just thinking abt making a phone call #and now ill just push thru mild nervousness and then make the call #if u guys ever need phone call tipps. hmu #im an expert basically #also im not saying Everyone can master it bc well i just don't know that #but like a big thing for me at my new job has been finding out that by gaining experience with things they make me less anxious #dreamy talks

[minnow-doodle-doo]

This week has been so long and hard. I knew what I signed up for at my new job, I just don't remember being so tired all the time from it.

#rant #personal #my sleep schedule is off too since I'm used to a 720 start time but now I start at 930 and I still wake up at like 630 every day #I just need to adjust my sleep by like 2 hours so I'm not nodding off so early #but I also blame how exhausting this new position is and that I'm going to school 2 times a week till 9ish right after work #even at my old job I would stay up late since I like to so I thought it would be a better time for me but so far it hasn't but hopefully #it will be in the future #Its not like I havent encountered the behaviors and stuff before its just very intense with a child I'm with so much and how many times #I've had to remove them from situations since they started to get violent (multiple times a day) #good thing the kid likes me and he's talking to me Ive had so many convos with social workers phycologists the partents teachers but still #anyway if I feel like this still by December I might have to find a different job while I go to school #its not like the school I work for isn't helping me its more that its a hard job and I'm tired

[crimswnred]

writer brain is ON

#i know i NEED to post new chapters for a few fics I still have up #don't worry ill be posting them #i was waiting for the new season to drop so everyone would be here again #and then i started at a new job so #anyways #i wanted to write something for s8 #like this episodes left me like this #👀👀👀 #let me write!!! #ill try and find some time on the weeked

[soldier-poet-king]

I love my Nonna dearly but I also just got my first real "here's how you should find a man" advice so truly 2023 IS my Charlotte Lucas year

To be fair, I'll give them credit, this is one of the first times my family has pulled this shit on me. I suppose my "I'm too busy focusing on school" excuse that I used through all 8 years of undergrad and grad school doesn't really work now that I've been working full-time for a year. And she also didn't bring it up in front of everyone or out of the blue, it came up because we had been discussing how insane my motherhas been about babies lately and my Nonna said "oh it's BC she's waiting for grandkids"

And like??? Just because my mother got married and had kids by my age (which may have been the right decision for her, this isn't judging even if I think her life went to shit bc of it) doesn't mean it's the right decision for ME

In fact, it is the ABSOLUTE WRONG decision for me. Theres a whole long list of reasons why I'm not getting married + or having children, including but not limited to: the trauma of my parents marriage and my childhood, my own ongoing health stuff, the whole religious queer anxiety guilt complex I've got going, the fact that if I were to get pregnant the resulting mental health crisis and dysphoria would undoubtedly make me *** y'know not soemthing that is frequently a source of nightmares for me or anything, my inability to take care of myself let alone CHILDREN, and the anxiety of raising children religious when I don't even know wtf is going on with me, CHILDREN??? IN THIS ECONOMY????

Ofc I can't exactly say any of this to my Nonna who, while incredibly sweet and loving and Good, is also like. Not at all exposed to these concepts and would probably freak out if I was like hello yes I am a big fat queer and I rlly hate the concept of gender and societal ideas of womanhood :) it also doesn't help that rlly the only single, middle aged woman my Nonna knows is this lady who works at the church who is DEFINITELY a badly closeted lesbian but also she's super fuckin mean and condescending and no one likes her BC she's a bitch, on top of the whole being a badly closeted lesbian in a conservative heteronormative religious environment

Like even IF I were to get licitly Catholic married to a man. You wanna find one for me??? My Nonna was like "go to church more to find a man" HELLO??? WHERE??I GO TO MASS EVERY WEEK?? Every religious man I know irl is a radtrad women can't wear pants type or is a manchild. Even if I COULD find a normal man, he'd have to get real cool about some stuff real quick. In that forever dilemma of too leftist queer for the religious and too religious for the leftist queers. (Obvs your partner doesn't have to be your duplicate but I'm like. Generally being on the same page. The same BALLPARK. is probably conducive to having a healthy relationship, y'know?)

Besides a significant part of my having 0 social life is because I am living in my parents basement which is in a shitty not-a-suburb of mostly immigrant families with youngish kids or super old folks from when the neighborhood was built, so it's poor and run down but also super fuckin far from anything To Do, so it's the WORST of both worlds of urban sprawl. And I have no car. And I already spend 2.5 hrs a day commuting for work. And I'm chronically tired. And joining a fencing club or taking art class or whatever costs MONEY y'know the thing I'm trying to SAVE by living in this hell place???? She literally said in the same convo "live here as long as possible to save money" like??? YOU CANT HAVE UR CAKE AND EAT IT TOO as long as I'm living here I'm NOT going out and meeting ppl BC there is literally Nowhere To Go. Big box stores like Walmart? Yet another strip mall? The highway??? THIS IS SOULLESS HELL of neither nature NOR accessible city amenities

And anyway, I would rather be in a long term marriage for tax benefits relationship anyway. Not platonic, not romantic, but a secret third thing (jk but also serious). Like. Mutual devotion that blurs the lines and transcends labels. It could be completely chaste. It could not be. It's not a dealbreaker really. It's about trust and devotion and companionship and love. But also I'm insane and I KNOW how insane and obsessive I sound, and society prioritizes nuclear family relationships and not the weird ass shit I crave, and I feel too much too fast and would ruin any relationship I had even if I WERE to somehow find someone who prioritizes those things too

So like. It's fine. Most days (not all ofc, but I'm trying) I'm okay with this and being on my own and learning to cultivate my own peace and Goodness and I know who I am and what I believe and what I trust to be Good and I'm working toward that and I'm not sacrificing it for anything. But also. Can you give a bitch a break. Please. I'm so fkin tired

#franposting #my bday isnt even til JUNE #im going to bitch anyway #im genuinely really upset but part of that is bc my headache has come back #and its worse than ever #i might cry but my head already hurts too much #i got really good news at work and only the men in my family made a big deal #the women were just. meh. and ofc none of them have careers so why should ot be important to me? #as the only granddaughter ofc :)))) #i am going. to crawl into bed. hair washed. lavender candle on. #do a lil meal planning. and then read or maybe just sleep. #tmrws goals after church are gym and grocery shopping before dnd #have to make my body hurt so much i cant think again #ofc bro 1 has claimed the car. so maybe i cant go #god. gos. i fuckin need to get out of here #but i literally cannot afford even studio apt rent in the city #and moving to one of the boroughs doesnt gwt me any closer to anything esp without a car #literally. just like. fuckin kill me #or find me a decently paid not soul killing job in a smaller city or even a town #where i could have a garden #or a porch swing. sit in. the sunlight

[montanabohemian]

soooooo this afternoon i found out some devastating news about my current financial situation and am basically screwed. if ANYONE can help me out with rent and some recent medical and vehicle emergency bills, i would so greatly appreciate it. (or just sharing this helps i guess i don't know.)

paypal

#mutual aid #mutual aid request #donations #donation request #basically i've been receiving unemployment and was told one thing way back in july *BY UNEMPLOYMENT* #and when i called today because my benefits are almost up they told me THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE #so for six months i was operating on one set of instructions only to find out at the end of those six months that it was bogus so i'm fucke #like super fucked #so absolutely fucked #i know it's the end of the year / new year / holidays and nO ONE is financially able to help but i just need to put it out there #ALSO IF ANYONE HAS ANY LEADS ON ANY FUCKING JOBS #I WOULD GREATLY APPRECIATE THAT #cuz i've been applying for jobs like crazy and FUCKING NOTHING #happy new year TO ME #(like i knew this new year was gonna suck but WOW COULD IT SUCK EVEN WORSE SINCE IMMA BOUT TO BE HOMELESS WHEEEEEEEEEE) #(i'm literally still so mad after that phone call and gurl was AWFUL and like 'welp nothing i can do you're on your own') #(and i'm sitting there (after being on hold for well over an hour) going YEAH BUT THIS IS *YOUR* SCREW UP. NOT. MINE.) #(anyway i feel like walking into traffic for real cuz what's the point) #(YES I'M ALLOWED TO BE UPSET AND SCARED OKAY) #signal boost #aid #signal b00st #happy new year

[miabrown007]

a minute of silence to my skills to estimate how long a project is ever going to take

#my google calendar and Carl bot (and my friends) have been kind enough to inform me today was the estimated posting date of heist au #suffice to say that is not happening #it would have been rad to make a habit out of the co-occurrence of starting a new job and starting to post a finished WIP but alas #that will not be happening for a while longer #I have no idea when will I find the time for writing between two jobs and the big bang but. we'll work something out. #but hey it's good to give your projects breathing space so your brain can do the work in the background and solve the problems for you #I'll probably need to go back and revamp the whole last chapter I've been working on #but I'm still too sick and jet lagged and sick to be thinking about that so I'll consume some more media in the meantime #and complain about how bad the fic I'm listening to is. like god it's supposed to be so romantic and cute and he's literally #depriving her bodily autonomy and her friends support him I want to leave a strongly worded comment so bad #I will not be doing that but god it's so awful I should have stopped listening to this fic long ago. so that's a lesson learned. #put the fucking fic down there's plenty of stuff that's going to be better #hot take I sure no one saw coming sometimes things that are popular are actually bad #anyway have some stream of fucking consciousness /ref to another fic I'm fighting hard to keep discontinued #I know I won't like it why is this so hard #heist au should have been posted today based on maths btw. maths I did wrong for the first time which means it should have been posted #a year ago really #not like I have the proper structure to do a heist au daily #but it would have been fun to post the first chapter on the exact day it takes place. idk just for flavour #does all this make any sense? hardly. this is a diary entry and my two braincells are firing random thoughts at each other #that's fine though. it's all fine. here have some popcorn to go with all this nonsense 🍿🍿🍿 <3 #(and also all the drama in the new shadow and bone season. ugh it's so good I love Wesper SO. MUCH. or just Waylan. and Nikolai. #he's my blorbo assigned at first relevant information. relavant information: he's my friend's blorbo #but gods he's so my type it's scary. of course I'll have him as my blorbo. of course of course! #*puts him on a shelf next to Adrien Draco and Hunter* #*steps back to think before putting Waylan there too and sitting Zuko on the far end* #war crimes look so good on them :3 #miaing #heist au

[lilybarthes]

*

#me: looking for a new job i've been here a long time+i'm too cool for this place anyway i need new challenges aha #also me: *finds out work bestie got fired out of nowhere... panics... binge eats... texts and calls 3 people for reassurance*

[candlesoul]

vent

#i was work on my new projects then this emotional pain hits me #my chest hurting #im sitting and waiting to pass #i need to move forward fast and why god hold me back so much #literally my chest bleeding emotional pain is shit #i dont even want to live i didnt even want to anything from you just find job for helping mt sister and you dont even let me to do this god #agh anyway personal

[hellbatschilt]

Grabbed the Noir Hat on X last night (been using the Far Eastern Officer one for 2 years) so I updated some of his outfits!

I forgot how slim male Au Ra waists are though LOL

#x tag #<- new tag yippee!! #anyways side by side comparison to his waist compared to what i usually see since the jobs i play as has him wearing a coat lol #would have posted his gunbreaker glam too but i need to take a good pic of it... #it's very interesting how slim he looks in the crafting top tbh because his gathering glam has the southern seas shirt - #- and i don't remember him looking like that in it??? #ALSO GOD I NEED TO DO MY CUSTOM DELIVERIES ON HIM OH NO <- this is a reminder to myself #actually i can't remember if i actually did them or not lol... #anyways i've noticed in some of my older screenshots that his gloves weren't jet black like how i usually dye them #and then i find out that the leonhart gloves going into my armoire makes the dye go away #my expensive dye that i spent irl money on o(-< anyways they're in my glamour dresser now

[mildmayfoxe]

ok. today i did marketing (posted on instagram), set new toddy (coldbrew), signed & numbered stuff i printed last week, packed & shipped shop orders, packed & shipped july sticker club, designed carved & printed new block. success

#been trying to act like im unemployed instead of recovering from my work week. which means i am getting a lot done #tomorrow i want to finish the 8x10 eye prints i started last week. post stuff on patreon. #should check out job listings. do laundry probably #i was thinking this morning if i could find a rolling print drying rack that’s small enough i should get one of those #so i can print more than a couple things at a time. lmao #and when things are drying i can roll it into the living room & tuck it in a corner #doing shopping for that tomorrow would be good. i also need some new mailers & bags #and a FILE FOLDER BOX so i can get my prints OUT OF THE TOTE BAG THEYVE BEEN IN!! BAD STORAGE #ok anyway #chatpost

[toytulini]

i did do the things i was avoiding yesterday, for those keeping track

#toy txt post #scheduled a dr appt and a mechanic appt #hopefully both me and my car get fixed uwu #tbh itll prolly Just be my car. but. yea #idk. had the panic of realizing i have like 3 weeks of FMLA leave left and my wrists are not. going back to where they were before this #maybe that wouldve happened had i taken such a break like. right when it started 😔 #but alas i didnt realize how much of it was my job. and i had to go insane first. i really need to find a new job hhhhh #i was like oh ill take like a month off thatll fix me. it did not fix me. oh noooooooo #idk maybe if i switch to recieving ill be like 10% less insane? im filled with dread tho. whenever i go back theyll have the fucking robots #and ill have to miss my big renn faire bc i needed time off to rest and ill go back to being so exhausted #and ill probably freak out and quit on the spot and piss off my parents and get more depressed......anyway #i should. get out of bed. eat breakfast get dressed pot tiny plants clean the bathroom drop off tiny plants etc

[guinevereslancelot]

getting spam ads for online jobs....its that bad out here

#pic of a guy with money shooting out of his laptop labeled part time jobs!!! #pic of a happy smiling mom with her baby labeled remote jobs!!!! #i dont need to make a million dollars part time but its sad that the ability to be working from home is to hard to find #its so in demand but everyone wants to force workers back into the office even tho it's proven less productive then cry abt a labor shortage #bc they seriously think miserable employees must be better somehow despite all the evidence to the contrary #there's so much competition for wfh jobs except for the awful ones unfortunately i have given up looking for now #someday i will run a home business and be my own boss but rn i just need steady work that doesn't make me want to die #but im extremely limited in where i can commute to as a new driver with poor vision and anxiety in a rural area w no public transportation #anyway getting scam ads for employment......its that bad #i cant believe employers want to boo hoo pretend online work is impossible when its been known for like twenty years that its better #then got proven en masse during lockdowns #🤡 #this has been a shitpost