#i rly wanna believe that

[mourninglamby]

ive said this many times to friends but i feel like the owl house is one of the most special animated shows in that it makes the adult cast, who are all middle aged/in their 40′s or older, just as interesting if not more interesting than some of the main teenage cast. it really makes the story feel much more relatable and grounded in reality. It communicates the sentiment that your life doesnt become boring or perfectly mundane once you reach a certain age or even have kids, and that you can still learn new things and deal with new/resurfacing issues well into adulthood; there is no age where you are expected to be completely stable, and thats fine. they write every character so well and theyre all fantastically complex, regardless of their ages, and i will never stop singing praise to this show for that.

#as someone in her early 20's i know i cant entirely relate #but it makes me feel less shitty about dealing with certain issues later than the teenagers turns adults i grew up w/ #we are all just going at our own pace and that doesnt make us any less or more important than one another #i rly wanna believe that

[skunkes]

About to drop a bunch of money on some good quality gouache

#MAYBE....i need a push. idk im a believer of both #''buy cheap products to play around with em before upgrading'' AND ''you deserve high quality ones right out the gate'' #im going with the latter this time and i rlly wanna do it idk why im just very nervous. #rly funny how every purchase I've made for the past few weeks has been ''its fine its my bday gift to myself'' #this will be bday gift to self number 5 at this point 😭 #talkys

[slavhew]

always covered in your tears and their blood.

#homestuck #hom3stuck #home2t4ck #jake english #blood #admin draws #fanart #not pointless angst vent doodle mind you this one is specifically about him. but im not gonna overexplain i trust the caption says enough #jake is fascinating bruh i cant believe how i just ghosted over him on the first go #i have so many thoughts on this guy. primarily wanna saddle him withh aromanticism woes and also feigning ignorance to everyone #including himself to evade responsibility. adn the avoidant attachment type. and th #hes just fun. if ur seeing this and you dont care about jake bc he seems shallow give him a shot you might like what you find #you should all rly read borzoi's jake metas theyre. theyre really good i cant even paraphrase it here #ok my eyelid twwitching again im gonna wrap up tags and idk go write sum stupid shit. toodles.

[azidoazide-art]

love hard, play hard(er)

#oc art #band oc #lovecore #goth #bassist #i sat for like 5 minutes trying to think of a caption. happy OC-tober lol #i rly wanna draw something more halloween-themed with her but idk if i'll have time #tnts #listened to a new band i found called starbenders while drawing this and i cant believe how well their music fits her vibe

[detransraichu]

okay y'all this summer i'll make a youtube channel with a series where i just play videogames while high and try to talk abt deep feminist/activist topics and somehow make sense. it'll probably be a mess but a fun mess :3 i also want a series on that channel where i do feminist & sapphic media analysis, mostly of anime and old school cartoons bc i feel like there's way less media analysis vids abt animated media than abt other kinds of tv/movies! i want to make them about older kinds of animated media and compare it thru feminist lenses with animated media made these days!! i'm just very curious to see how they compare by delving deep into them. and i mean... it's an excuse to binge cartoons :P i also want to do it anonymously so i can get a little bit radfem without fearing abt my safety yay /s. i'll start off with just a series of clips of the shows i'm talking about in my vids but eventually i want to commission a little drawing of smtg that'll represents me with different expressions/reactions and use it on my channel hehe. i also want to put vids of my bunnies every now and then! and eventually some let's plays too. I'M SO EXCITEDDDDD

I'M SORRY TO BE CRINGE BUT BEING A YOUTUBER IS MY DREAM

#lay text #IT WOULD LITERALLY BE THE MOST PERFECT JOB EVER BC I FUCKIGN LOVE VIDEO EDITING AND WRITING SCRIPTS AND RAMBLING ABT MY INTERESTS #i obviously will also focus on other stuff that's more likely to pay me #BUT I WANNA DO RLY GOOD ON YOUTUBE!!!!! i know i can do it i truly believe in myself like i just know i'd be great at it <3 #if that's delusional or narcissistic or whatever then fuck off i literally do not care i shall still chase my dreams hehe #it'll start off as a hobby but i will work really hard and eventually thru hard work turn it as a job even just a small side gig!!! #if anything i'll be gaining video editing & writing experience!

[friendlifyre]

avoiding my chores for an hour or so by trying to see what combination of path/element we might expect sooner than later.

some fun observations:

destruction and nihility are the only paths with every element covered; no element has all seven paths covered

the most popular path is destruction, the least is preservation

the most popular elements are ice and physical, the least are imaginary and wind

the only combinations we have two characters for are lightning erudition, ice preservation and physical destruction

we are still missing a handful of combinations -

btw i know a bunch of upcoming characters probably already got their paths/elements leaked, please dont mention that or any leaks on this post or i will block you ✌️ thx

#hsr #star rail #honkai star rail #honestly thinking of making a dedicated hsr blog to do this sort of thing more often eheh its fun #im 99% sure i already know what paths/elements black swan and misha are but #just out of principle i wanna stay away from leaks #i still cant believe we have so few preservation characters sdfhdsfhfd #ive been actively using march and preservation mc for forever. it never occurred to me that those are like half our options #and the only rly accessible ones LMAO

[eff-plays]

Hmm. Proposal: Astarion dislikes or is at least made uncomfortable by genuine PDA. Like giving him a little kiss for luck or calling him something sweet in front of everyone else. When people are watching and he's expected to respond. That's none of their business frankly. He'll accept it but he won't love it. At best he'll think it's kind of cringe.

BUT! Pro gamer strat: He fucking loves obnoxious PDA that makes everyone else uncomfortable. He'll call Tav his sweet little shmoopsy and nuzzle their nose just to watch everyone in the party squirm. They'll reenact a heartfelt reunion across the battlefield and start making out sloppy style just to bask in the groans and complaints.

#have been thinking about this #i believe it to be true in my heart but i am open to suggestos #if u rly wanna boil it down it's more like 'don't make me do weird shit unprompted' vs 'i will do weird shit on purpose like we agreed'

[aphsillyos]

his default recall is so cool..........

#not me arts tag #ive never used his default skin so i didnt even know what it looked like until now....ough #i wish u could mix and match sounds or recalls with skins................ #i honestly forget half the time hes supposed to be like. Cool and Suave and a Competent Badass #because my brain is always like. god hes so small and floppy and will die if you breathe on him wrong #also hes always crying and breathing heavily in my ear so im just like. poor guy #he should be at the bed taking a nap not fighting....... who made him fight.... stop that he doesnt belong on the battle field #he might be a badass hitman or smth but my brain is like #this is just a sad theatre kid who took gymnastics #''aphelios how is your assassin training going'' aphelios who has only been reading the acrobatics textbook: my what #is there anyone still reading these tags. hi there #i have a lot of thoughts on him. im very obsessed with his animations #like he has a laugh animation for every weapon....... #all the various weapon animations... #maybe the real reason we wont have a legendary for 10 more years is all the animating they have to do #i mean his base animations are so good id honest be like OK if they reused them #cant rly do much better than already Top Tier animations #unless we get an alune legendary..... #hope alune is super awesome and badass and all the aphelios voicelines are a really shy awkward guy or smth #like you look so cool and awesome fighting and the whole world doesnt know ur listening to a lil guy in your brain the whole game #the contrast would be very funny methinks #if anyones still reading this. yes i know riot made up some reason about budget or whatever for voices #but i choose to believe aphelios is head empty no thoughts and thats why he doesnt talk to alune #(STILL GOOFY OF A REASON... lots of VAs can do both genders of voices.... like. what about kindred and kayn....) #then again wouldnt be surprised if they were overbudget on the animations but still smh my head into oblivion #can relate to a guy who simply doesnt wanna talk #(said after 10000 tags of talking to myself) #i should really put my thoughts onto a separate post or blog or something #anyways have i mentioned i think hes really cute

[koskela-knights]

So right after Jaakko is brutally killed, the player is basically forced to immediately move on lest they'll be killed too. But I was watching some playthroughs of this part and I realized that you can still hear Ilmo in the background (mainly subtitles becos his voice is overruled by Saga and Scratch) It's not many lines and very repetitive (which is totally understandable), but they're so sad nonetheless

And then this one is said again after you confront him about the cult and he just stands there alone 😭

He says it in such a soft but devastated tone of disbelief urghh.... 😭😭

#alan wake 2 spoilers #jaakko koskela #ilmo koskela #the feels man #all the feels man #the whole scene if you play it yourself is so hectic so it's rly easy to miss #but pheeeew ILMO MY POOR SON #i also wanna believe at some point he gets his brother's jacket back #my posts #my ramblings #all the shit of emotions that must've gone thru him and rly mourning wasn't possible yet becos there was still a threat and all and omg #They were separated by bars so he coudln't even get to Jaakko's body immediately to maybe see if he were still alive or smth #aaaa making myself sad by thinking about them

[cinna-bunnie]

why is it always the forbidden fruit that entices me the most (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠)

#🚶🏾‍♀️ not that it impacts the way i feel about anyone else but i actually do fr love my manager and it's crazy bc idk how or when this #happened. like i have fun by myself n i love my friends but i rly am at my happiest when I'm next to her huh (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) ♡⁠ #and that is a wild way to feel about someone i work with let alone who supervises me akdkaka #i still can't believe how naturally and affirmingly “i love you” jumped out of me the other day without thinking about it #and i do??¿ after thinking about it??¿ i would literally do anything for you #and she said she loves me too 😵‍💫 and we've never articulated that before. and now our talks feel more personal than before but it #was a much bigger conversation for sure (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) she's out of work this week though and I'm thinking about her. #🚶🏾‍♀️i wanna show her my knife throwing but idkk...... struggling w where the line between professional and personal needs to be 💀 #i treat my work friends and my real friends very differently lol. i don't know (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) aaa #now that i said it it's like a dam of feelings burst ૮ – ﻌ–ა girl... #she has a husband. but he's a scrub. but she's my boss. but we're already so sweet to each other. but i shouldn't. but i want to #aaauuugghghfhfghhghkhkjltlskxkvofjw !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ignore me and my pining (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠) ♡⁠ im crazy about that girl. i really am huh.. 🚶🏾‍♀️ #if you got to hang out with her u would get it.... i can't believe her man ain't shit... pls let me give u my attention #u don't have to be mine nor am i wanting that but let me take care of you (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) ♡⁠ u work so hard for everyone else #she's fantasizing.... ......... wanting.. contemplating...?..?? no. no....??¿......? ......... 😐 hm #lmao

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[stuckinapril]

might have a parisian girl era soon. we’ll see

#uncle who lives in belgium knows i graduated a year early + currently studying for the mcat #and he’s practically begging me to visit him in belgium and study there #and belgium is only around 2 hours away from paris so you best believe id be taking the train there every day #the thing is i study full time & only have a minimal part time job on the side so he and my mom would have to foot that bill #and idk i’d feel so bad. i’m already so spoiled. like i never had to work a day in my life but im 21 #it’s very much in arab culture to spoil the daughters like this but still !!! #it just feels like i have to put my big girl pants on and start saving + relying on myself more & more when it comes to that #so that’s probably what i’ll be doing. plus i have research + my neuro internship here and i cant just drop that #but once i get a research publication in a few months + save up my own money im seriously considering j putting myself on a plane & going #i’m sure he and my mom would have no problem paying but it feels wrong. this is one thing i rly wanna pay upfront myself i think #but if i do manage to pull it off it’d be so cool bc i rly wanna see him #and i rly wanna bust out the 8 years i have in french #p

[tuituipupu]

yt pushing tommy cash content @ me left right and centre & tho this fit is very sus… i just thought this part of his colors show for WINALOTO was so… cute ?? 🤐

i love how he gets so into it and his smile is nice when he does smile LMAO

#weird man i love uUUUU *eaugh* #he vibes so well #he said he thinks he’s a great performer and i believe it #rly making me wanna see him live i think it would be fascinating #will he feature on the käärijä euro tour? probs not but it would be sick #tommy cash #winaloto

[lorephobic]

you guys are never going to believe this but the mota finale was bad and they didn’t even bring curt back

#cannot believe i actually sat thru all nine hours of that just for barry to get thirty minutes of screentime #also can the ‘mota isnt war propaganda because we were the good guys in wwii’ crowd come back i wanna fight #mota #sry u will probably never see me talking about this show again unless i actually commit to that curtbucky make-it-worse fic #which im rly thinking about just because i want to prove that i could have written this show better than john jackoff ever did

[spectralpooch]

an underrated funny bit from a christmas carol is when the ghost of christmas future is taking scrooge around to see everyone's reactions to the death of this unnamed guy (later revealed to be himself ofc), and it turns out that pretty much no one cares. scrooge, increasingly distressed, is like, "can you please show me someone who feels any emotion about this person dying?"

so the spirit takes him to the home of this family. the husband walks up to his wife like, "babe. youre never gonna believe this. that old asshole who we owed an insane of money to just died" and theyre both like YAAAAAAY THIS IS GREAT!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

this bit is like. darkly funny but also so poignant:

[...] and it was a happier house for this man's death! The only emotion that the Ghost could show him, caused by the event, was one of pleasure.

#which is parodied so well in starkid's vhs christmas carol with 'ok spirit funny joke. but that's not what i meant.' #and then scrooge gets more desperate like. ok. can you show me ANYONE who feels SAD about ANY death. please. #and then he finds out tiny tim is dead and its like ohhhh. ough. ooohhhhhh. #the thing is. its a rly good story just like. narratively #the existential horror is really effective i think. like it's not hugely scary to the reader but you fully believe that scrooge is terrifie #a funny part right before this bit is when the ghost takes scrooge to this dark room and points towards a sheet #under which is ostensibly the man's corpse #and scrooge is soooo scared and hes like 'ummm can we go....' and the ghost gestures a lil more insistently #and scrooge goes 'ok you see i really really would look under there. i wanna do this for you.' #'but i am simply not strong enough! soooo lets uhhh go ok <3'

[janitorjuliann]

no one:

me re-listening to the finale of taz balance even though I've heard it seven times before:

#i went back and listened from stolen century onwards bc i wanna write some fic #and you would not fucking BELIEVE how much i cried in almost every ep holy shit #which is a feat! bc now that im on T i rly dont cry that much anymore #but the power of podcasting will have you sobbing aloud in the shower at midday i guess #taz balance