#i technically know that i was very sick

[foxaoxarts]

BEE KISS TOMORR- *dead* /j

If anyone wants to watch me drawing this like a little victorian child then the timelapse is below the cut 🤣

(FLICKER WARNING. It's all through out so be careful!👍 )

#RWBY #Bumbleby #Blake Belladonna #Yang Xiao Long #Foxarts #YOUR HONOR I HATE THEM (that's a lie actually) #I'VE BEEN STARING AT THIS FOR 3(?) DAYS NOW AND I'M SICK #Technically this doesn't contain spoilers but let me know if I should add the tag! #In reality I think cloud scene will happen episode 7-ish BUT being delusional is what being a bee fan is all about- #This is the first time I've actually tried drawing a kiss sooooo hope it turned out ok xDD #I am the one who looks away when anyone kisses for more than 2 seconds so. #Kisses aren't very photogenic that's all I'll say (I had 3 tutorials open and 5 references pulled up) #This was so messy- I forewent line art because I hate it and I thought it wouldn't be bad to just clean up the sketch. I was kind of right. #Watching back the recording is funny because I've always known I'm disorganized but just watching it play out is hilarious. #Enjoy my little notes and doodles 😌😌 #They're so soft I want to scream. #I SURE HOPE I DIDN'T FORGET ANYTHING 😭 #Risking my livelihood for these stupids since 2020 *strikes pose* #Anyways that's enough of my rambling. #HAVE A NICE DAY Y'ALL!!

[imflyingfish]

shout out to all of the artists who just dont really have ocs or blorbos. literally what do we even draw most of the time.

#ughh #bro i just felt shakey and sick because i contemplated drawing #its the same feeling i had when i did maths in school #i feel bad because i should be good at this i should draw everyday and i should be constantly improving #and while im not really improving my art at home i am certainly improving technically for work #so weirdly enough although ive done the least amount of art in the last year or two that i have ever my improvement has #has been very oddly massive. #but ive also stopped improving in certain areas and god knows my rendering hasnt improved #but i also... hate rendering a lot #so :/ #well no. not completely #anyway whenever im like 'i should draw' the only things that i can draw #are either from reference or its just my own sona in many different styles that i cant decide on #ugh

[calamitys-child]

FUCK. I hate having to make adult financial decisions.

#the problem is. TECHNICALLY I've been saving to move out #but until my monthly pay is 1. stable and 2. a lil better that is simply not a sustainable achievable goal #and now . i have enough money to actually afford lasik. #which i want very badly bc i hate wearing glasses cause it inhibits me doing activities i love and enjoy #but equally i fucking HATE spending money like i cant comprehend things being more than like. £100 #and this would be a 4 figure sum of money #thats. too many figures. and i feel like i shouldnt ever use it for something that isnt life threatening #but also it Would enable me to like... go to gigs. perform. work out. manage my migraines. #i just cant bring myself to spend money on a large scale. i remember not too long ago when i had less than £60 to my name in the world #having the ability to spend money on something just For Me thats more substantial than. say. a £30 gig ticket #is absolutely foreign to me #and it makes me sick with fear that if i ever spend it ill be two months from risking homelessness again even though #logically i know im in a stable home right now #anyway!!! poverty is traumatic as fuck and if jobs paid a real living wage for a weeks work maybe i would be able to be normal about this!!!

[breadsticckk]

Amazing job coming out to Crypto Apex Legends

yeah. coming out to kill him—

#I HAVE (very much one sided) BEEF WITH THIS GUY (crypto) #it’s kill on sight. I’m sick and tired of his drone watching me get killed at the time AND HES ACTIVE ON HIS DRONE THIS BITCH IS FLYING #anyways that’s enough ramble </3 #anyways cackling how I liTERALLY KNOW WHO SENT THIS I SENT IT BACK TO YOU IN DMS AND YOU WENT HEHE #after crypto You’re Next (/lh) #for plot convenience we’re ignoring that I main crypto #I have more kills on seer!!! #technically I’m still a seer main! #breadsticckk answers

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

You’d think that with all this bike riding and lifting children off the floor that I’d be even more hungry, but no; I have the appetite of a little tiny bird???? The fuck

I don’t like it

#Maybe the bike riding is jostling my stomach too much… if my stomach is jostled I don’t want to eat #Or it could be the ADHD meds #idfk at this point #like yeah technically I’m hungry and know I need food but I don’t feel like eating. I’d just rather not. It’s weird #because I used to be the opposite: I wasn’t really hungry but I’d just keep eating until I got sick #eating mention #appetite mention #Maybe I’ve just been eating too much all my life. #Because the only two times I’ve had serious nausea or gas pains was after I ate the amount of food I used to eat #And it’s not like I’ve lost any energy; if anything I’ve gained some energy #(not right now because I stayed up until 12:30 AM after riding and walking 9.3 miles total— on my feet all day long) #I used to eat a LOT; like a 6’5” 400 pound lumberjack or something #uh Paul Bunyan type portions… like a big BIG man #of course I’m 5’4” with kind of a slight build so that was always very weird to me that I was able to do that #How I am now makes more sense; but at the same time I don’t like being like this at all #Because I’ll inevitably go from “slight” to “sickly” and I would really like to continue fitting into my pants #because pants are expensive and it’s extremely hard to find ones that are of good quality and feel comfortable #food discussion #food tw #weight mention #Here I am telling the kids “You need to eat! Take a bite!” and then I get home and act like a total fucking hypocrite #Maybe it’s burnout

[thatchaotictiefling]

Id in alt text

You wish you were me, with my FIGHT SONGS: THE MUSIC OF TEAM FORTRESS 2 vinyls.

#so hyped #it came with a poster too #just an sfm shot but its nice and big. idk if i will hang it up yet. lemme know if anyone wants to see it #tf2 #team fortress 2 #chaotic lore #it slightly bugs me that the red and blue colors aren't quite right; but i will concede that they look sick as fuck regardless #this makes me very happy. the reprint of this is technically the most modern merch tf2 has that's physical and original #oh i got this through band camp btw. idk if they still have it in stock but knock yourselves out

[waywardsalt]

theres a lot abt post-ph ive never really mentioned. grants theres also a lot i havent figured out

#i only have a handful of arcs and scenes properly figured out i need to get my shit together with this. im def deleting this later #anyways. i dont think ive mentioned anything abt linebeck being more or less immortal #in the sense that like. he cant be killed through combat means. its some weird healing magic shit #specifically started with the intent that it lets me tear him apart repeatedly but its fine bc he heals anyways #with the limits of like. poison and sickness and certain things CAN kill him. but he can like. get disemboweled and its fine #im gonna delete this later im jsut thinking sbt it #i remember while talking to it with a friend he asked ok so how does it work if he gets torn evenly in half #cuz my logic is like. say he gets an arm cut off. the lost arm decays like normal and a new one kinda just slowly grows in bones first #so his question is one ive been thinking sbt since i need to come up with a good answer #anyways linebeck is fucked post ph hes got insane healing shit due to uhhhh reasons (i know the reasons) but hes still made of papier mache #so its like. bellum is more or less indestructible so hes the only actual immortal #while linebeck is just. prone to being a little more reckless. i need to tweak story stuff. hes the worst in combat #so hes very down to like. cutting a hand open to give bellum some of his blood. its fine itll heal in like an hour #the idea is that the healing becomes faster the longer it is since he gets that ability but there is a ceiling #its like a mixture between technically having phantom blood and some other god-ish deity interference i need to zero in on it dw #look i need it so that he can be covered in his own blood and in agony several times without like. him actually fucking dying from it

[nicosraf]

do u have a pet

thank u for asking this!!!!! I have 2 :))) a little dog and a big dog! big one is named Kronos and the little one is Monet. They r my pride and joy

#technically they belong to my brother and sister but #my sister was very sick for months and my brother works a lot so i look after them a lot #i love them sm yall dont even know #imgnsjd <33333 #mine #ask

[blood-mocha-latte]

sleeping in hospital

#rie talks #i know i sleep at hospitals a lot TECHNICALLY #but this is different and i am harrumphing severely #the beeping………. on all sides……….. #della may push me off the bed she is very sick of the Chair

[nomaishuttle]

its also like . ok sry im going on bc im tired and ive upset myself lol but its like. to have somebody who knows i grew up in poverty call me greedy and selfish bc he pressured me into moving up here when i didnt have the money so i Had to rely on him financially. and then i couldnt pay him back while i was literally unemployed. to have him call me greedy and selfish and entitled and lazy was. insanely upsetting

#like he knew that a lot of the money i earned went directly to paying my families bills and literally feeding them and he still. said that #to me. and then when i got upset he spun it as me being irrational and playing the victim and always guilttripping him like. idk. idk. #i try rly hard not to think abt that bc it just makes me feel horrific but like. i was already so insanely paranoid about spending money #any Non essential purchase made me spiral and then that just made it. so much worse . i told him from the start i didnt have much money and #he said it was fine and i told him from the start id pay him back as quickly as i could and he said it was fine and then he just #he completely ghosted me he never talked to me he slept downstairs and he spent more time with one of our roommates than he did me #and now i. know why he did that lol #but whatever. but he iced me out and the only time he ever talked to me was to tell me i was being greedy for not paying him back #or if i literally fuckjng. begged him to do skmething with me #and then hed spend like 1 hour completely checked out but technically sitting in the same room as me and i just. idk. that relationship #genuinely like. fucked me up. and now i reakize it wasnt Just since i moved here and a lot of the like. stripping me of.my identity and #pressuring me into doing. certain things when i wasnt comfortable with them and guilttripping me if i did try to stand up for myself. now i #realize that had been going on nearly since the start but it fucking. rly hurts. basically #and to top it all of he knew i struggle with very severe depression and i have since i was a kid and he knew i specifically struggle a lot #with hygiene and he knew how gross that makes me feel. and he still called me disgusting for it. and in every argument he had he would #hold the fact i owed him money over my head and i judt. i dont know what i was supposed to do. and i realize now there was jothing bc he #was already. yk. and probably had been for a while but it just. rly fucking sucks basically. #like even now a few months out i get genuinely nauseous when i buy something that isnt Absolutely essential. #and i try to force myself to buy like. a small nice thing for myself every once in a while i buy 1 coffee and 1 breakfast food every week #on saturday to try n like. make sure i know its ok 4 me to do that and it doesnt make me selfish but like. it still makes me feel sick

[spacelesscowboy]

sorry but i still think it is so so crazy and insane to look at a child—ANY child, any teenager, ANYONE, but especially CHILDREN—and hit them. as a punishment or warning or whatever. that is so crazy to me. how could you ever look at a child and bring yourself to hurt them in any way shape or form??????????? that’s insane to me.

#emyrs.txt #tw childhood abuse #????? idk if this warrants that. but if i should more tags lemme know !! #YES. EVEN THE ANNOYING ONES. #spent. a great deal of time w my cousins’ friend the other day and she’s. technically 11 so. not a child in the technical sense. but anyone #under 17 to me is so so so young. (YES. i’m only 19. this isn’t bc i’m incredibly old and wise or whatever. it’s bc i’m old enough 2 see how #young i was then. if that makes sense. anyways). #and she was. SO INCREDIBLY annoying. and i have SO little patience and even less tact into how to get her to Stop. so i just smiled and #nodded and pretended that i wasn’t losing all of my patience. bc she is 11. and i remember being 11 & annoying. & being a kid means being #annoying anyways so whatever. #anyways. i hate thinking about my cousins and the kids in my family it makes me sick to stomach. #not bc their parents r abusive or whatever i just don’t think they’re getting the care and attention they need & i don’t want them to grow #up w as weird and fucked up feelings as me and my older cousins have. #also this whole thing is bc i was reading atla fanfiction and got sad about zuko. NWWNNDNDFN #literally i just can’t comprehend the idea of ever physically hurting a child. how do u live with urself afterwords. #i’m tired. this made me very sad. ok bye.

[digyoman]

thinking about earlier this year and even last year when i was so deeply hyperfixated on lloyd & he was all i could think about and yet i barely shared any of my thoughts on here. i kind of want to kick myself about it now actually because i know i had so many things to say and so much i wanted to do but i never made it happen. why was i a coward.

#raaghhh i’m just so disappointed in myself :( #it would’ve been so cool to have those posts to look back on now!!! #technically i still can because it’s all rotting in my notes app. but that’s not as fun. #and it’s not even really about that it’s more like. knowing there’s so much that i’ve missed out on #i never shared any of my writing here (despite saying that i would like. 5 million times!) because i was so so scared of it being perceived #so i never got to experience what it’s like to get feedback!! #and then there’s the lloyd roleplay blog that i’ve wanted to make since very early 2021…. #i got so close to doing it last year and i put literal hours of effort into the blog but then i just. decided not to use it. #and i think that makes me the most sick because like. how many interactions do you think i missed out on?? #maybe it wouldn’t have gone anywhere. maybe it would’ve sucked and died immediately but i’d never know unless i tried!!! #and now i’ll never know. #‘just do it now’ well you see. I Am Still Scared :) #idk i just find it so difficult to put myself out there #even in a fandom that has a grand total of five people 💀 #but i am thinking about it!!! and that should count for something #anyway wow i can ramble! #if you read all this…. hi :) #i’ll probably delete this later but it was good to get it off my chest!

[soldier-poet-king]

My great grandmother passed away last night. She was old, and very sick, and she lasted months longer than the doctors expected, but it's going to hit my father hard, esp because he just had (minor-ish) surgery and couldn't travel to see her before she passed / won't be able to make the funeral

#im not upset really. i barely knew her #shes technically my step great grandmother #but she was very dear to my father #since the only dad he ever knew was his stepdad and this is his stepdad's mon #mom* #she was so sick + dementia and Alzheimer's. but still hes gonna be so upset #guilty i am more distressed by the fact that im going to have to manage his moods #im already managing his shit bc surgery recovery #and my mother hates him #so im trying to keep everyonein a good mood #but be subtle bc they get upset if im obvious about it #and now im gonna have to be therapist again bc no one else is #its horrible and selfish of me i know #but my allergies are tearing a new one in my throat and palate #and it's friday. and i rlly just wanted to go home and nap in the sun or read more rote #or video games

[askamnesiamoonjumper]

Concept stuff for possible designs for beta kid and janitor as Elias (electro kid)s family (already drawn him before but decided to still include him in the art why not lol)

#I know beta technically is already in the au as Beth BUT SHES more hat adult then anything so why not have two #I realized I’ve not talked about Elias much oof but yeah #Gonna name them bea and Jessie electro probably #(Electro is their last name lol puns but it’s sick as hell that too) #Love betas hat I’m very happy about that idea lol #Uh but yeah concept stuff #I might talk about the ideas for them more later but I don’t feel like typing much lol #a!au #amnesia!moonjumper au #amnesia!moonjumper #ahit a!au

[edgelordfucker]

i don't write for fun i write because i'm compelled. don't even like it that much just gotta do it.

#screaming into the void #i have something thats technically done and complete but i know the words that its supposed to have and i have to put them in there #i dont want to but i have to i dont know how else to explain it #sleeby #i want to be playing minecraft right now but i cant #and also i cant bully anyone into playing it with me right now and single player isnt as interesting to me #hows your day been? im coming up with more tags to add to this so i dont have to work on the thing that i was working on #i was out too late purchasing items and im really tired #went to the michaels and the combination home goods and tj maxx and it was fucking sick #theyve got a lot of halloween there #finally got a container thats perfect for all of my perfumes which means that im going to buy more perfume because im Unsatisfiable #had an egg dinner very light to keep it sexy #what the fuck am i talking about

[sysig]

I have just realized a problem if [baby] turns out to be male;

I already have a Scriabin tag

#Spider #And I can't just delete it there's still a lot of backlog over here! #How would I differentiate them uhhhhh #Scriarachne?? I'll workshop it lol #I don't think I've mentioned that I also picked out a name if they're female :D It's still a Vargas reference but it's less obvious lol #And it still fits the spider theme! #Technically it could be a gender-neutral name but I just jdslafd I'd want to name them Scriabin if they're male okay lol #It's Yarn ✨ It's just such a cute name <3 #Plus the thought of introducing little Yarn like ''This is Yarn :)'' ''Oh 'cause of web-spinning! I get it'' ''Yeah :) Just that :)'' lol #I really love both ahhh I don't know which one I want more! #As long as baby keeps living healthfully that's the important thing ♥ #They're so fat right now haha #I feel a little bad since while I was sick I wasn't able to go out and get them crickets ouq #Mealworms aren't bad but they're very fatty and I want to make sure they're getting a good mixed diet #Plus my darklings don't seem particularly keen on having a second generation hmm :| Hopefully soon I haven't actually looked it up #I'm definitely gonna have to go around looking at feeders at the next creepy crawly convetion #I wanna go so baaaaad I wanna tell the tarantula people how baby's doing ahhhhhh #Hopefully soon