#i want to live in summer all year

[astranauticus]

the rwd season 4 qna inspired me to start thinking about college au headcanons except a lot of these are gonna be really specific to my school and y'all are just gonna have to deal with that <3

Kyana feeds some of the school cats. she would feed all of them if she could

Dani smuggled Plug (the scrawniest black cat you've ever seen) into her dorm room illegally and somehow management hasn't caught her yet (based on a true story) (Kyana visits to see Plug all the time)

Finbar keeps an updated tier list of every canteen in the school with breakdowns of the best stalls/dishes for each

A senior from the school of engineering once said to me 'all the engineering people dress like rats cuz our classrooms don't have aircon' (context: tropics) anyway that's Dani

Kyana would probably be involved in a lot of freshman orientation events from second year onwards. she just likes talking to the new kids and giving them advice like she would be the kind of orientation group leader who'd get messages from her freshies asking about all kinds of random nonsense because she's made sure they know they can always contact her with questions

VR-LA is The Guy you go to for textbook pirating resources

(this is more of a 'wouldn't that be funny' but VR-LA is just Veerle's discord handle)

Docent is the name of VR-LA's old laptop that broke down so he gave it to Cassimere (computer engineering major he met once at a networking event) to fix except Cassimere got everything off the hard drive and then somehow managed to fuck it up Even More so he had to get a new laptop (and named it Emi)

Roy has gotten food poisoning from his dorm meal plan at least once (based on at least one true story)

The heap trio + Mandy would be those friends constantly playing majong in the dorm lounge and if all the majong tables are taken they just play in one of their dorm rooms on a towel to dampen the tile shuffling noises (it was Mandy's idea)

Every morning Dani goes to the drinks stall at her faculty and orders one iced coffee to the point where the stall owner starts preparing an iced coffee whenever they see her approach (based on my true story)

Roy would be one of those people who goes clubbing every other week and every time he tries to drag the rest of the heap trio and Egan almost always goes and Dani would go if she didn't have a good excuse but always begrudgingly. anyway Roy would always be the only one having a good time until Egan gets drunk enough to start having fun

Finbar actually uses the dorm kitchens instead of just buying canteen food and it always makes the hallways smell really good

Vhas also uses the dorm kitchen sometimes but like. one time i walked into the pantry on my floor and someone had left cut sweet potatoes and 2 eggs in an inch of water in a pan on the stove. that's Vhas

Kyana's constantly applying for overseas exchanges and international summer/winter school programmes. the world is large and she wants to see it!

Maxim's the definition of a hall phantom. you know he lives on your dorm floor because you pass him by in the hallways sometimes and literally nowhere else. sometimes you're not convinced that he actually exists

VR-LA and Maxim's friendship stems from them being from wildly different faculties (VR-LA's in STEM, Maxim's doing anthropology so arts/social sciences) but also having lots of weird interests they cant really bug anyone in their home faculties about

Elyse is in student government and every once in a while Finbar receives a series of angry texts about the newest idiocy she's had to put up with

MR-SN and AS-TR start a stargazing club together. other notable members include AS-TR's girlfriend E-DN, MR-SN's friend C-RA (the one who always volunteers to carry the heavy ass telescopes) and MR-SN's friend K-LB who he pestered into coming to fix one of the wonky scopes even though K-LB's actually in electrical engineering but he's the only engineering person MR-SN (an arts student) knows

oh and of course VR-LA joins because he genuinely just likes space (developing a crush on his club chairperson was not on his bingo card)

Kyana and E-DN were MMA sparring buddies at one point which is how she found out about the stargazing and joined immediately

honestly i can probably think of more but this post is fuckin long LMAO

#rolling with difficulty #'do not let the internet turn you into an american' i say as i make posts that can be understood by me and me only #i mean im not sorry about it this is my house #like my experiences are just gonna be extra incomprehensible because my countrys fuckin tiny so the target audience really is me and me onl #too bad! you think its hard to read my posts? i gotta live like this! #if i sound extra confrontational i got 5 hours of sleep for the whole week unfortunately so just know its all /lh more or less #really tempted to make some kind of business major joke for roy even though obviously the heap trio would all be in engineering #bc its just common knowledge in my school that business majors are the ones with the most free time to go clubbing all the damn time #and *also* theyre the faculty that dresses the best which also tracks?? #didnt really nail down specific majors for everyone (besides the obvious ones like food science for finbar and mech eng for dani) #but i kinda like the idea of cs for VR-LA because of that 'programmers are real world wizards' joke and also.. projecting #cs with focus area in AI would even make sense bc of docent and emi. if i want to make the projecting Even Worse! #also if i ever do human designs for the old crew (doubtful cuz i find drawing robots more fun than drawing humans) #look up sally hansen hypnautical nail polish bc i wanna give human AS-TR that as a nod to her original design #didnt really get into the fashion of it all bc again i live in the tropics so nobody really dresses well here #the goal is to dress to not sweat more often than it is dress to look good #hands down my favourite line in the cqna was noir's i thermoregulate through my forearms #so in the middle of summer i still wear all black and just roll up my sleeves #like thats ME. except its summer ALL YEAR ROUND #walao #asto speaks

[commsroom]

eiffel's sense of insignificance in his own life makes me so sad, and there's something about knowing he grew up with his birthday overshadowed by christmas, and the obvious resentment he feels, mixed with the expectation he'll never be anyone's priority, that just encapsulates that. mission launch for the hephaestus project was in march 2013; pagliacci is set in 2013; there's no exact timeline for events before that, but with such a narrow timeframe... eiffel thought he'd ruined the rest of his life before he even turned thirty. he most likely spent his 30th birthday in jail. and then no one wished him happy birthday on his 31st.

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #he's turning 40 this year. i don't think he ever expected he would live to be 40. #he makes me so sad. i want to hold him #and yes. his actions are his responsibility. #he's also a person who bears the weight of a lifetime of disappointment and the belief that his mistakes are all he'll ever be seen for #and i think a lot about the idea that the opposite of addiction isn't sobriety; it's connection #i think that understanding is very present in wolf 359's treatment of eiffel as a character #on a happier note. not that his 32nd birthday was great (for other reasons) #but hera got him a gift... the next year minkowski and lovelace wished him happy birthday too... #so. i think that's nice. even if he does still have the buffy summers birthday curse <--- a reference he would understand and appreciate

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #he is welcoming you inside :> #I want to get to the part where both my partners live with me sooooo baaaaaad ;n; #(I've lived with my wife for 7 years) #(but our other partner stayed put up north when we moved last summer) #(cuz they hadn't been with either of us that long and we knew from the beginning this was a 1-year move) #(they've come to visit us three times now and every time we all love just. existing together.) #(getting groceries. they took my wife to the urgent care the first time we were here. food prep. just. existing together.) #(also by the time we move again they'll've been with us a whole year longer than last time we moved ofc :v ) #(so hopefully they can move with us this summer wherever we go.) #(don't tell them this I don't think they check the tumblr but we reeeeeally like them) #(we both want to keep them forever if they'd be okay with that) #(like. rings-forever.) #(though you can only have one legal official spouse in the united states.) #(and I get dibs on the legal protections due to my disability.) #(and. like. already legally married my wife lol) #(and we want to actually live with them for a little bit before we actually bring it up) #(just to make sure everything's as worth it as we expect) #(which is why you can't tell them :v )

[an-assortment-of-forks]

there are doctors there are hospitals there are specialists there is medicine there are systems in place so people do not have to suffer and be tortured under their own chronic pain daily and yet. they're all fucking inaccessible to the people who need it most!!! to what I would argue is most disabled people!! I'm so fucking done with the medical system.

#today is an absolutely wretched pain day that makes me want to not be here anymore but guess what! #wasted a whole year trying to convince my doctors I was in significant and disableing pain daily and the best they could do #is tell me to go to PT and to wait 6 months and tell them if it gets better #to prescribe some shit like gabapentin or otc pain meds and write me off #tell me they'll get new X-rays to see if it got worse by the summer #disability exists!! specialists exist! good doctors fucking exist!! somewhere!!! I'm sure!! #but here I sit. in excruciating amounts of pain unable to convince any fucking doctors of anything #and that year I spent pushing myself to the limit is wasted bc at the very end of it all only one guy listened to me #and he said no one in their giant ass facility could diagnose me #so I'm back to square one bc I got a new job which means new insurance and new doctors to try and convince again #I just want to be on disability so i can want to be alive again #I'm so frustrated and in pain constantly #what are people like me who have to work 40hrs to afford to live but don't have any family to rely on supposed to do?? #just die? am i supposed to continue to work until im too disabled to move and be profitable unless i get lucky? #bc some fucking doctor finally decides to actually listen??? #ive tried ALL THE DAMN TRICKS TOO. telling them a friend has it and thats how i found out. that my previous doctor was looking into it #etc etc #I'm SO done living like this i am exhausted. #and to know that i COULD BE HELPED. RIGHT NOW. is the worst fucking part #these systems are in place so people like me dont have to fucking suffer. #but i cant even do anything about it bc i have a cat.

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

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#easterners on tumblr acting like the smoke from canada is something new and horrific for whatever reason #are SO funny to me?? like girl try living in the non-coastal western US for a few years it literally happens EVERY SUMMER #it is NOT the end of the world it's NOT anything new due to climate change #it's NOT going to shrivel up your lungs and give you cancer or whatever to put up with it for one(1) summer #like obviously you don't want to be out in that air quality but it's not as dire as these people seem to think it is #and it's literally VERY VERY NORMAL for most people in the places I grew up #so it's sorta funny and puzzling to see people all worked up over it. idk.

[autisticlancemcclain]

Jackie, you haven't published a fic since the 4th. Are you ok?

i am so sorry everyone 💀💀 idk how many of y’all were here when i was originally writing eighteen (crazy), but what essentially happened was that i didn’t get a full fic finished on lance’s bday, so i tried to update every day to get it finished as quickly as possible while still being good, and i wouldn’t let myself post anything else or think about anything else really, and at one point i was getting dms and asks from friends and moots that were like Hey Bitch What The Fuck Are You Doing To Yourself and i was like yeah wait hold on wtf am i doing?? so i took a break from the fic and the stress went away pretty much immediately.

now. since i don’t learn from my mistakes, i did the exact same thing basically with the time loop fic, only this time i pushed myself farther AND i feel bad as hell because i said i would finish it for once 😭😭 unfortunately that fic compacted with the fact that it is march and i struggle in march freaked me out so bad that felt like i was going to explode so i ditched tumblr for a bit. i needed to Take A Breather so i dipped.

anyways i’m sorry for freaking you guys out, i def should have posted something. that’s on me. i promise i’m fine and i’m sorry to say that i will be pausing the time loop fic for a bit. but on the bright side, i’m gonna have a different fic for tonight!! i waited to come back until i came up w something bc i didn’t want to come back empty handed :))

#no one asked but like also it’s been a Time 💀 #finals are coming and my roommates broke the lease so i have to move out and i hate moving and also i can’t accept the job i was offered bc #i’m moving so that’s stressing me out and idk if i’m going to get a job this summer and not only do i need a job but also i’ll be going home #this summer and my parents are not cool with unemployment so i don’t have an option lol and also my mom has been trying to get me to switch #my degree from an honours ba to a regular ba bc it will be cheaper and shave off a year and it makes sense but i don’t want to do that and #idk how the hell to say that and unfortunately since i’ve been living on my own this semester my anxiety is at an all time high and #generally just like ninety things hit me at once lol. so i had to drop writint for a bit #but i’m back!! so all is well #personal #ask

[razzek]

I'm starting to feel about artistic depictions of trans scars the same way I feel about artistic depictions of blindness: they suck.

At first the art of all the jagged lined scars I saw for trans characters seemed neat. But then I started to remember that I have those scars and they don't look like that. At all. And it's kinda shitty to draw all these trans men and nbs in such a way that they look like someone took an axe to their chests. Mastectomy/top surgery scars don't look like that at all! Even when you have a slash and dash quick surgery like I did, the results are much nicer and most trans guys you can't even tell.

This is like drawing people with white/pale, unfocused eyes as a shorthand for blindness. It's a shitty stereotype and I think in the long run it causes more harm than good. Just like with real trans folks you may have to just say out loud that your guy is trans instead of giving him a design that's kinda shitty to the bros out there who went through some shit to look really good.

#queer #transgender #trans masc #mastectomy #like for real #I am five or six years post op #can't actually remember anymore haha #and the only way you know it is cuz my bones are kinda messed up from the weight I had to drag around #also no nip nops XD #but otherwise all the scar tissue is internal #my surgeon was an awesome lady who actually had to operate twice #cuz shit was that massive and she missed a huge chunk of it on one side o_o #that was a hell of a summer XD #I kinda envy all the boys who get to see doctors who do this for trans folks #it sounds so cozy and nice #I spent about a week total in hospital and lived with my sister for weeks after to recover #it got done though and everyone who played a part made my life so much better <3 #I will tell you my funny horrible top surgery stories if anyone wants XD #razz rambles

[proteusolm]

I think this is the first time in like 4 years where I haven't been either looking for housing in a panic or looking for a job in a panic. It's nice.

#Nothing exciting #I just reached out to a landlord I'm on good terms with and he had a room available #Normally it's a whole horrible process trying to find somewhere in my college town #Rent prices are rapidly inflating and there's fewer rooms to rent than there are students #Going back to tree planting for a summer job #It isn't wildlife work but it's fun and profitable #I'll be a barely-over-min-wage wildlife tech next year #Right now I want tree planting money to keep me comfortable #And the peace of living in a tent and having all my food provided for a few months lol

[aceofthegreenajah]

Thinking about Mountains of Mourning got me rereading it again for the millionth time. Every time I think, 'surely by now it has no hold of me? I know every turn it takes, can damn near recite parts of it.' And here I am, sobbing.

The story itself is beautiful, the language is gorgeous, but there is also something in the setting that speaks to me personally.

Our family farm is in a community smaller than silvy vale, and has been in the family for at least a couple of centuries. It's in the least populated and most backwater part of the country. And my country itself is small and insignificant, sparsely populated, mostly wilderness. In the eyes of some we may be backwater forest folk, tough as our land and just as stuck in our ways.

And I am a very tied-to-the-earth person. I am at home barefoot in the forest, fishing in the lakes, foraging in the swamps, working with animals, chopping wood. These forests are my forests, this land is my land. I was born on it and if I have to be buried, I want to be buried in it. I've never wanted to leave for better pastures. I've wished I could hold my home and my people up.

So though I cry for the beauty of the language and the message, and the grief of the plot, I also cry for the happy ending that Silvy Vale receives.

#Ah I miss our family land #I remember staying there for months as a kid and never once seeing an outsider #the community has been bleeding out people longer than i've been alive #when my mom was a kid there was still a school and a general store in the closest town now those are gone too #no-one wants to stay where healthcare may take hours to get to and there are basically no jobs #catching/gathering our own food during summer was what we did when i was a kid because we were poor #(mom and me in spesific not all of the family #but none of them were rich) #but doing it year-around is a shortcut back to starvation times #anyway i get why people wanted away - i don't live there for several reasons - but i wish it was different. i wish i could move back. #i wish there was someone still running our family farm. it's still our land - though some of mom's cousins own it now - but it's abandoned #(it is also a place where once upon a time #hurts and crimes could only be committed by family #and could go unanswered just like in the tiny Dendarii mountain towns. Mom's therapist knows all about it.) #vorkosigan saga #mountains of mourning #mountains of mourning spoilers #vorkosigan saga spoilers #probably

[lem-argentum]

artist boyz will draw for 24 hours for school n then go “yaay free time :D <3” and draw for 24 hours for fun

#lem text #i do stretches but ​my hands are absolutely going to suffer in the future because of me living like this ekfndn <33 #helloooo i have been drawing n painting nonstop for the past few days <3 …. #also my siblings all got l.ethal company n that’s fun :) #i’ve never really thought of myself as reckless in games but i guess i totally am. i’m just easily bored hfndjn <33 #*siblings discussing which way we should go* ‘BYEE <] *runs off*’ ‘THIS IS WHY WE WOULD DIE IN A HORROR MOVIE’ #doug would like the game. and prom n noct <33. #OH SPEAKING OF PROM N NOCT ONE OF MY FAVORITE FF.XV ARTISTS RESTOCKED THEIR CHARMS OF THEM.. REMIND ME TO BUY THOSE SOON <3 #and umm that’s all i wanted to say i think. <3 i’m very glad it’s almost winter my summer depression should be fading off soon :’) <3 #it was the most difficult it’s ever been this year. BUT I LIVE FOREVER !!!!!!!!!! 💪💛 #AND UMM. YEAH :> <3 GOODNIGHT WORLD HKFND <333 💞💞💞

[soup--enjoyer]

Nobody really prepares you for how heartbreaking high school actually is. You’re in a transition period for four years of your life. If you have friends in different grades, you have to watch some of them leave you every year. You mourn things that haven’t happened yet. You grieve for things you haven’t lost yet. You’re stuck perpetually in private melancholy while you try to figure yourself out. You learn things about yourself that you feel like you can never tell anyone. Your life is constantly changing in irreversible ways that change things forever. Everything is leaving, everyone is going their separate ways. You watch yourself walk away from the way things have always been knowing that the comfort of childhood will never come back but also knowing that staying where you’ve always been in life will kill you.

#thinking this evening… #I’ll be okay but for now I will be caught in emotional turmoil for the next few weeks #I don’t want my friends to graduate and leave me #but I am also so proud of and happy for them #and I hope they all live good lives #and I hope we keep in touch and see each other occasionally #that would make me feel okay about it I think #I will miss them but i know they’ll miss me too #high school #end of the school year #growing up #it’s time for my coming of age movie I guess #maybe this summer

[silverislander]

people smarter than me have said this before but jesus christ why does every job seem to require at least a year of experience and a degree in some hyperspecific field. where did the entry level positions go? how am i even supposed to get experience if none of yall will give me a job without it?

#theres already almost nothing related to my field being offered but even the unrelated things that i think i could try are out bc of this #most of the stuff id actually care abt doing actually require 3-5+yrs! in a field that i cant get into without experience i cant get! #and people talk abt how 'nobody wants to work' i am BEGGING you for a job. literally begging (cover letters). #im coming to the horrifying realization that its possible Nothing i have done w my entire life matters. i have nothing useful #i really feel like i made a mistake. that cant be the best five years of my life i wasnt even happy during most of them #i applied to six jobs weeks ago and ive heard back from one of them and it was a rejection. and theres nothing else to apply to #my degree isnt helping and all of my hobbies are useless. why am i only good at/passionate abt arts. why not math or smth instead #i should have just done ece like i was planning to instead of my honours. what was even the point #and im watching other people in my year get great jobs right out of university. watching my BROTHER get offered work on a silver platter #hes 19 and got five different offers + didnt apply people just asked him to work for them. second year in a row this has happened #hes never had to work for minimum wage. hes always had a good job in his field lined up anytime he wants to work and it always pays well #and i finished five years and ive had to beg for everything ive ever gotten and its still not enough to count for anything #im proud of him but fuck it stings a little #levi.txt #vent tw #oh right i forgot i should just walk in and shake the managers hand. /right/. and they will simply give me a job on the spot bc of this #if people whove been working the same job since before 1990 dont fucking stop giving me bad advice istfg #and these same people say nepotism isnt real and in the same breath talk abt giving their nephew a summer job at their company #literally all i want is work i can be decent at that i care abt and making a living wage. it doesnt have to be fun i dont want to be rich #i just want to do an ok job feel like my work matters and make enough to start my life. thats all

[big-tees-and-short-skirts]

ah, so the misophonia is part of the sensory processing disorder + etc. of course.

#misophonia #okay now that im where im coming from here: #does anyone else get Murderous when they hear lawnmowers/leafblowers/etc #like instant anger. not minor annoyance but This is about to Ruin the next few hours for me #like if someone was trying to get me to join the dark side or whatever but i was in firm disagreement until That Motor revs up #i want to enjoy the sounds of spring and summer but instead its fuck BRBRBRBRBRBRBRRBRRRBRBRBRBRBRRBRBRBRBRRRR #ALL THE DAMN DAY #its fucking night time rn; #its fucking RAINING #and i have a neighbor whos mowing her lawn #shes about ot get evicted out of this house w this giant ass lawn that only she lives in but shes MOWING HER FUCKING LAWN USING OUR POWER #i want all mowers and leaf blowers to explode forever #SHES FUCKING SITTING STILL ON HER PHONE RUNNING THE WORLDS LOUDEST SINGLE PASSENGER VEHICLE #AND I CANT FUCKING TELL HER TO HAVE A LICK OF SELF AWARENESS BC I HAVE FUCKING COVID SO I CANT LEAVE MY ROOM OR CLOSE MY WINDOWS #i swear to fucking god pls get me out of hereeeeeeee #my ears hurt so bad rn i wanna cry #thats all its been for htese days of isolation: mower after mower after mower after mower #i just wanna hear the wind! or the rain! or the birds! or the frogs! OR NOTHING!!!! #i cant fucking sleep thru it either ;;;;;;;;;;;;; #and whenever i describe this frustration no one in my family really sympathizes #they ask if ive tried my headphones which is would be helpful if i hadnt tried and failed w that for years #they just shrug and say 'well it has to be done' BUT WHY DO PPL 'NEED' TO MOW THEIR LAWNS EVERY FUCKING DAY #okay shes done now. at 9 fucking pm. ill be done now

[wefoundedrome]

"one thing about me is im the leaver" one thing about me is im the stayer im never letting go of anything i have boxes upon boxes of old exercise books and class notes and photos and hundreds of books i read as a child and i can't let go of any of them. i have old t shirts and gifts from friends from over a decade ago i have photos of the most day to day things i miss school and sixth form and everyone ive known ever and i wont let go of things until they're ripped free I will stay until the sun goes supernova I want to stay here

#are u going to get rid of some old things when ur back over summer NO #ill go back to the bedroom ive spent years in in the house ive lived all my life #i used to want to leave so i could have control but now I stay and thats probably also not good

[marz-likes-palaces]

if anyone thought i ever forgot about renga, you were wrong

anyway, in this essay ill describe why guapoduo is actually exactly renga *gets shot*

#no like actually. did you know that (irl) cellbit has birthday three days after langa and roier a day before reki #btw did you know that renga have birthdays exactly half a year apart with the dates also including the number 8 and #represnting that reki is summer coded and langa winter (their birthdays are 2/8 and 8/8) #i want to tear my everything out. i remembered all of that from the top of my mind #edit: i just looked at the notes in my guapoduo fic document (its never getting finished. it was awesome while it lasted) and the only thin #that is in those #is that their 7th ep is abueloier and i laudibly screamed because of that note (its the middle of the night where i live) #cuz YES! abueloier was their 7th ep i cannot make it any clearer. why did i forget about that for several months??? its literally it #marz rants #qsmp

[thehardkandy]

Travelling back home tomorrow hoping for a smooth groove

#i did have a really nice week last week but now im back to everything feeling busy #(its not really that busy) #and oh i miss being slow like idk ever since i was a literal child doing ONE excursion weekly #for an hour #always felt like such s draining burden #and tbh i would like to know why thst is because while it's easy to see as poor habit as an adult reinforcing itself #as a kid i was always made to do things. see people. #i did a summer camp every year at least during the day #i did sports i went hiking in forests #but i remember so distinctly like an age where i stopped asking my parents to try new things #because i would get so excited!!!! but then every week it would become this overwhelming presence #despite being something that i actively enjoyed #and it eventually felt so awful i was like okay no more wanting things you dont use them wisely #like ouch yeah actually that's a big one. wanting things usually wraps back #around to shame or guilt just about always #anyway how is this relevant to travelling? #it's just that i have to travel tomorrow and i have a doctors appointment Friday i have to go to in person #ive changed beds ive slept in 3 times in 5 days #and all i can say at the end of it is that even these little things are JUST enough to be on edge #to feel like im putting my hands over my ears and closing my eyes and pretend nothing bad is gonna happen #even thougu DEFINITELY something bad is going to happen #but of course it doesnt because this is all benign stuff ive done a trillion times before of no note #crazy how complicated it can be to be a person #it is why i dream of living in a small village where i am an apprentice tradesperson and i live simple house #and the house you can walk to anywhere you need to anywhere you need in an your #but no one is that urgent about anything anyway. #beautiful little place that has never actually ever existed for anyone in anytime #but i am still wanting to scream and pull my hair out just asking why why cant everything slow down and be smaller