#idk if this is Emergence specific?

[toxictoxicities]

do you have headcanon voices for any of the iterators? :o

The voice for Pebs I was talking about here It's legit so perfect DRFTYGHI

I have thought about Suns and Moon tho about how they would sound- I think I'm on my own here but I feel like peeps give Suns either a too deep or too high voice, there's no sweet spot- which is why I imagine Suns to have a more caramel voice, not too shy nor too confident- but bold enough to be reckoned as they are one who demands respect (not demands but- surely radiates that vibe) - kinda like the fella in lala land who sings City of Stars I reckon! But I'm still looking around!

For Moon I'm still trying to visualize it, but 100% gentle, not sweet, but gentle and a bit oldish and mature. I don't like the whole- high pitch voice some have given her, to each their own of course! But like- Moon is old SERDYGHUIJ

Though this is all just my own opinion or well- Headcanon

#QNA #qna for Vic :D #ToxTalk #Emergence #idk if this is Emergence specific? #I guess this would apply to all #headcanon #opinion #rw #rain world

[justaz]

okay but have we considered morgana x freya?? two women who believed themselves to be monsters, hunted by the same man and his loyal followers, cursed, doomed to death the moment someone finds them out, alone. they wish for freedom, somewhere where they can be themselves, where they dont have to hide, where they can embrace their power and who they are without fear or without harming anyone.

#morgana pendragon #morgana le fay #freya #bbc merlin #morgana x freya #freygana #fregana #morya #moreya #??? #idk but listen #they just. it works. #morgana finding freya and helping her while also finally having a companion in camelot to talk about magic to #specifically HER magic #they have their dream of running away together and living peacefully with one another on a lake in the mountains #they run away together before morgause can get her claws in morgana #uther begins to mentally deteriorate from his daughter- cough i mean ward's disappearance and morgause's reappearance #in this au...morgause is the one who is constantly fighting against camelot bc she blames them for her sister's presumed death #and their persecution against her own kind #but since morgause was never fated or destined to kill arthur......HE LIVES #meanwhile. morgana is being a cottagecore lesbian with her sick werecat girlfriend #damn i actually might write this LMAOOO it seems fun #mordred. uhm. idk. is cool?? #he is fregana's adopted son who is also merlin's adopted younger brother and percival and arthur's adopted son #and when his little gf is brought before arthur. everyone is kinda like 'ur not rlly gonna murk this kids girl? are you?' #and while arthur is debating it heavily...BOOM magical gfs emerge and bully arthur into letting her go #then idk magic ban repeal and everyones happy #yippee

[shima-draws]

My chiro: You should ice your back for 20 minutes before you go to sleep tonight :)

Me: Yeah okay that’s probably a good idea!! I have been having really bad flare ups all week

Me now: Bad idea BAD idea this is so fucking COLD 🥶

#ALSO IDK if I’m even doing it right LMAO #I should have asked him for specifics #I’m laying on my back with the ice under me #But maybe I should be lying on my stomach and just have the ice sitting on my back?? #IDK. I REALLY DON’T #Anyway I tried direct skin contact and bailed after like 20 seconds #I have my shirt as a barrier now. But it’s still cold #EVEN SO!! Hopefully it will help with the tenderness and swelling in my spine #Fucking sciatica man. Shakes my fists #Shima speaks #For realsies tho I’ve been in SO much pain this week I’m desperate. I’ll do just about anything to make it better #I even broke out my emergency Percocet Super Pain Killers 😬 #I needed em. Bad #I’m still waiting to hear back about getting an MRI soon so?? #But I know it’ll be absolutely butt fucking expensive. UGH #Maybe I should just walk into traffic. Then they’ll HAVE to fix me #Anyway I’m counting down the minutes. 20 minutes he said I can do that…I can do that…

[drivemysoul]

😐

#taylor.txt #my one thing is i hate people calling me without letting me know first #idk what it is but it just makes me panic thinking something is wrong and it’s an emergency #my girlfriend calls me all the time and every time i panic she’s hurt and every time she’s just missed me #which is cute!! but like. dude. i was just about to start crying thinking you were hurt #she knows this by the way she’s promised me to let me know before she calls and yet #also i’m just. sorry i have specifically asked for a little space because i felt overwhelmed and suffocated #seeing eachother nearly every day and then constantly needing to text or call all the time #and then after our last fight she said something that really hurt and bothered me and i needed some time to like get over it #and i’m just. i love you!!!! please stop doing all this that you know worries me!!! she thinks it’s cute i’m panicking!!!!!!!

[hazlelnoot]

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#been really struggling lately because idk I guess now that I’m in therapy #I’m thinking extra about all the things that have made me this specific fucked up #and it really just boils down to feeling unwanted #I wasn’t supposed to be born my grandma told my mom to abort me #I spent my entire childhood hearing my mom say that she’s not parent material but I insisted on being born #like putting the responsibility on me even tho it was her choice??? #and then they idk just didn’t take care of me good #like I had to have my teeth taken out at 17 because they were literally rotting out of my head and like coming out in chunks into #my food while I was eating #and when I finally got to the emergency dentist I had to pay for it #and I’m broke but I don’t want this job I just started I’m so scared #but we need money #I just feel like I can’t do it anymore I just want someone to take care of me #I want my life to mean something to someone #I can’t type what she said somewhat recently because I alresdy cried about it yesterday #but idk I just feel like dog shit and I can’t reach out to any of my friends because they’re all busy rn #but it’s been really really bad lately I won’t lie I don’t feel like I can keep going anymore

[recapitulation]

been having the strongest fucking food cravings recently its like ive been possessed by the spirit of spaghetti or whatever

#from what i can gather i dont think its a side effect of any of my drugs? #although steroids can make you hungry in general #but its not even that im generally hungry like i have my little emergency stash of saltines and im like meh dont need it #but then im craving something really specific harder than ive ever craved something in my life #idk at least i have an appetite. damn

[daz4i]

saying "I've been pavlov'ed into unhappiness" is such a weird sentence i hate that it's true

#i wish i could go back in time and murder these psychiatrists who misdiagnosed me and gave me the wrong treatment #it's been 7 years and i haven't recovered from it lol. i still automatically stop myself whenever i so much as feel good #or my brain will switch to emergency mode bc that's what they forced me to do for a few months 🤨 #how the fuck do you even unlearn it. every time i feel good i start panicking and it's gone. i can't even take a break and enjoy it #this is such a specific problem too ajskflglh idk if any therapist out there would even know how the fuck to deal with that 😭 #man sorry. had a psychiatrist meeting in the morning and we talked abt therapy and it made me panic and it's only now fully hitting me #vent #negative // #boo not to sound like a broken record but i should just die 😒 i will never have a fulfilling life anyway like that's already gone #just a pathetic miserable existence no matter how you cut it. we're just prolonging the inevitable. i should end it already 🙄

[fawnnbinary]

Someone tell me not to hop directly from Sanji Angst to Ace Angst (<- is listening to Stick Season and Dial Drunk on repeat and thinking about Marineford)

#miles.txt #loooooook just #dial drunk as being from Ace's pov specifically #'i dont like that when they threw me in the car/i gave your name as my emergancy phone call' #'it rang and rang/even the cops thought you were wrong for hangin up' #ITS ALL ABT GARP BABEYYYYY #but stick season being from Luffy's pov... post marineford......... #i have so so so many ideas and feelings and Sanji needs a break from being traumatized by Me #but also....... maybe i give us a little zosanace as a treat first idk idk

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i was supposed to spend the last 2 days prepping and relaxing for the start of this big project tomorrow #but ive spent thr last 2 days frantically coding as fast as i could and focusing v hard to get a lot of bullshit done #and ive fixed things since yesterday. the changes i had to make were too too bad bc the thing that went wrong was so fucking weird #but it should be okay by tomorrow. knock on wood. but this does mean ive done fuck all to prep for tomorrow #so we r winging it bby. ugh. just gotta fucking pray that everything goes ok. pls let nothing b broken and let everything seal properly 🙏 #i was also supposed to meet with my boss today. probably for her to make sure i dont fuck up this project but apparently their safety hood #was having an emergency... whatever that means. so im sure shes having a week as well. and im free to fuck everything up for everyone #ugh. im so. theres a certain point in burning out where youre not really in pain anymore. you dont really feel anything all your joy and #hope dissolves away and u just exist to be useful. and i feel like its easier to maintain that than trying to b happy #i do not advise that bc its a fucking miserable. wasteful way to live but i dont really have time to try for anything better #god. i really hope my measurements friday dont take a full 8hrs. i dont know if i can handle that. literally i would have stay intensely #focused with my brain being Interrupted every 5min so i can manually record data points. its gonna b agony #so that fun. but maybe it wont. maybe itll be great and fun and ill have a wonderful time. seems unlikely but ya never kno #lets not think abt the fact that having to rush all this is preventing me from being able to do all thr other bullshit i need to get done #to prepare for the future. future? what future? hard to imagine from the bottom of this pit im digging myself #sigh. in a few months i can leave this place and never come back. soon but not soon enough #lol i was literally crying listening to cold play earlier bc idk thats the type of music my parents would put on at parties in summertime #so it evokes a v specific mood. which is i guess me hiding away from ppl at parties haha #back when i didnt have to worry abt things so much and i could just listen to the frogs chirping and watch the fireflies #oh god. now my boss is asking if i reached out for help tomorrow. no. lady i would rather drink bleach than have to direct an undergrad #tomorrow. its 10pm im fucking tired. just let me be sad. did i reach our for help? no my brain is on fire #tomorrow is gonna b a long day ugh #unrelated

[thehardkandy]

answering this medical questionnaire was so silly cause theyre like "have you ever been xyz" and it's like honestly dog i dont know what counts and i dont want to be increasing my insurance cost due to random transient shit

#paranoid theyll come back like 'we talked to your doctor and they say you lied through your teeth bitch;' #because i did not mention any anxiety stuff but also notably idk outside of gender stuff a doctor never sat down and said like #'hey this is your specific disorders' mostly because i dont believe the doc i saw had that ability #so i am probably technically correct and tbh my mnetal problems are a real chicken egg that some qualified doctor #could chew over for months if i am being honest #like i saw a psych at the uni for an emergency session once and she said yeah you definitely got problems but fuck if i know what exactly

[snyrtch]

a lot of people when writing modern aus for da2 make Justice like, a cat, or Anders's internet persona? I would be super interested in a fic where Anders who has, understandably, endured a lot of trauma in his life, developed DID/OSDD and has this protector alter named Justice. it always seemed like a natural take so I'm surprised it hasn't been done more than a handful of times?

#i understand it may be hard for people to write an AU like this in a respectful manner if Anders is the main focus ofc #bc they might not feel comfortable without firsthand experiences/references #but i've always thought it just like Makes Sense idk #anders #the author speaks #protector alter justice having extremely staunch morals & not understanding anders's body needs things #emerging to deal with perceived threats (which already happens in game) #maybe this is more an obvious take to me bc of psych work & specifically being interested in DID & writing papers on it #still I think it's a Good Idea #dragon age

[ukulelegodparent]

It is also my firm belief that any exhibition on 19th century politics and/or the leadup to WWI should be accompanied by circus music BC it's all complete and utter clown shoes

#like of course it would be somewhat insensitive bc it is clownery that very much lead to a shit ton of suffering and death #but like omg all the stuff that is nice about 19th century literature and art and music also very much existed in politics #except there it didn't lead to great things but instead some of the stupidest decisions known to man #ESPECIALLY anything after 1848 like jesus christ why does nobody habe clown's makeup on??? you all should! #also any current leftover from noble families back then who think they still have absolutely any rights to the areas their families #ruled back then regardless of whether or not they still are monarchs or not #like re:my comments about the prinz dumm Episode from Neo Magazin Royale #bc like yeah. 'hi my family has been significantly involved in the emergence of the last two world wars #specifically the first one and also a number of genocides etc. can I please have back my castle that was built #by your ancestors from your taxes for my ancestors who then sent your ancestors to go to die in the stupidest war™ #and that was recently renovated once again by your taxes? Yeah that one can I have it back please???' #unhinged how is this man walking around freely and not in professional care for his dillusions??? #also like 'well obviously Germany is a republic now. I respect that. obviously. yeah. but also if you ever want a king again I'm here #I'll do it no problems. also plz call me your royal highness 😌' insane people behaviour #girl I'm sure if I dig deep enough I can find some relation to some noble can I then use that as a basis to sue the german state to give me #idk a nice vase or something? #bc i mean it this random guy can do that why shouldn't I?

[eggthew]

one thing I do hate in writing, fanfiction or original, is when a character is hurt or whatever and their love interest is the one providing medical assistance and it's made to be Romantic. idc if they're soul mates, no one is going to be checking someone for a concussion and go "wow their hair is so soft that's so cute tehe". no one who is actively going through physical trauma or on the verge of death will give that much of a shit about their love life. it irks me every time STOP it

#i can understand being flustered. its a stressful situation and taking care of someone vulnerable can be Intimate #in the sense that theyre placing trust in you and its easy to fuck up and hurt them #shits stressful even with the medical emergency part to it #but when the romantic part is added ESPECIALLY when its the caretaker it just. comes across as creepy to me #sir they are bleeding out stop thinking about their lips #taking care of someone in a more normal situation can be different im talking specifically about emergencies #idk #egg talks

[balteus]

actually re: fromsoftware politics. i do think it's very interesting that the anti-colonialist RLF, ostensibly considered the 'good guys' of the game, were initially explicitly called the communist faction. armored core always has been a series critical of oligarchies and hyper-capitalism, but it's... very interesting to see just how blatant that is in ac6 specifically

you'd think that fromsoftware would eventually drop the ball on the "the ruling class will kill you and cannibalise itself in order to stay alive" considering that they're considered elite AAA devs rn, but thinking about elden ring and ac6's narratives, they've really only gotten more obvious about it - the horrors of colonialism and genocide and the sympathy given to the rage of its victims is something that's actually insane to see, to me, from such a big studio - fromsoft doesn't even attempt to be centrist about it.

for example, the frenzy flame ending. the only thing melina can tell you to dissuade you from pursuing it, ie literally destroying the world forever, is that there's still beauty in the world, apart from the suffering the golden order had caused. at no point however is the sheer despair of the people that the flame represents villanized. if anything, it's portrayed as a self-fulfilling prophecy, it is a tragedy. the only villain is the order who slaughtered all of these people, the flame of despair is something that emerged in them as they were buried alive. and the flame isn't even intended as a revenge upon the world, it's simply a means to end the pain they feel for being subjected to this.

their grief isn't something for the player to judge, it isn't something they're forced to overcome, it's simply a physical manifestation of the reality that was forced upon them. and these people, the merchants, are still kind to us, even knowing the order that we pursue. (in fact, the true, considered best ending of elden ring, is literally just sacrificing yourself in order to achieve complete anarchism. and getting a cool wife to endure the loneliness of space along the way)

in ac6 then, ayre is so terribly forgiving towards us, knowing what we are, knowing what made us, knowing what we participate in. some of this undoubtedly is because of her narrative role, she has to be a sympathetic character. but we do get to see her rage at the end, her grief for her species being seen as nothing more than a resource to be exploited or burned fully vocalized. but the RLF is sympathetic too as resistance fighters who want their home back. the only criticism the game ever leverages towards the RLF is that they're actually not radical enough in their pursuit of freedom, and that criticism is made by a villain.

it's so... i almost want to say optimistic? other games would have tried to pull a "ooh but what if the good guys did bad things (poor attempt at moral grayness)" but no, the RLF is justified at every step of the way. idk it makes me feel things. i dont particularly want to portray fromsoftware as these bastions of political correctness or sth - they're not perfect and i don't expect that ever lmao, but it's so fucking weird that their games are this progressive and have been for a long ass time.

#armored core #armored core 6 #elden ring #fromsoftware #idk i got a little carried away

[muffinrag]

using the disco elysium skill setup to design OCs for a project and completely blown away by how easy it is as opposed to every other time i've ever tried to build a character

#idk man there's something about the de skills #i'm not saying it's a perfect system but goddamn does it work #i assigned numerics and skill points #then did a couple bullet points for each skill describing specific strengths and weaknesses #and voila! a character has emerged! #do i know what her coffee order is? no #but what i do know is how she perceives and manages the world around her #muffinrag blabs #text #it also naturally helped me develop a backstory which is nice #de

[whilomm]

EAS SYSTEM TEST FAQ:

"huh what"

theres a test of the emergency alert system (EAS) for the united states on wednesday oct 4th 2023, 2:20 pm est (with a second test planned on the 11th if this ones canceled). its the system they use for amber alerts, weather alerts (like tornados/floods/hurricanes), stuff like that. will be sent to TVs, radios, phones, even if alerts are muted as far as i know

"what why"

bc they gotta test emergency systems sometimes. this happens on occasion.

"what is the government planning this is suspicious"

no its not its just. a standard test. they happen. we just havent had this specific type of phone one for a few years, they dont gotta test it as often as like. physical tornado sirens.

"okay but like are they trying to instill terror this reminds me of the terrorism threat leve-"

if they were doing that they wouldnt have been warning people of the upcoming test several months in advance

"why havent i seen it anywhere except for tumblr"

bc u havent like. paid attention to news stuff.

"okay well how do i verify this how do i know this isnt a hoax????"

....search for the news articles pictured above and read them.

"okay but WHY this is ANNOYING why is it in the MIDDLE OF SCHOOL/WORK"

bc systems gotta be tested on occasion to make sure they aint broken when you actually need them, and probs the time with the least risk of waking ppl up and making ppl even more angry

"i completely understand the purpose and i dont think its a government conspiracy but i still dislike it bc loud sounds/secret phone/epilepsy/whatever other reasons ive seen ppl site"

yeah 100% fair, thats why i and others are trying to warn so that ppl arent caught off guard (even if my warning was missing info like the time bc im dumb), i set a couple of notifs to pop up beforehand so i dont forget and get surprised, do what u gotta do to keep urself chill. shut off your phone, wrap it in blankets, be in another room from all ur tech while the test is happening, wear earplugs, etc. hope you're good!

"that thing about phones still going off when turned back on..."

oh yeah idk if thats true or nah. but eh, better safe than sorry, assume ur phone may or may not still be loud when u turn it back on, and plan for it if needed. idk where ppl are getting this tho and havent seen it verified myself. just be careful if this applies to you. maybe shove it into a blanket before turning it back on.

"is it gonna activate my covid vaccine mind control nanotech"

idk man probably not

"YAAAAAY EXTREMELY LOUD SOUND WEDNESDAY!!!!"

omgg yayyy!!!!! 🥰🥰🥰

#buzzy #EAS #emergency alert system #emergency alert system test #FEMA #FCC #uspol #ish whatever #us govt #extremely loud sound wednesday