#idk. hopefully I get more done soon

[torchickentacos]

So, I'm working on listing all of my wips, and I realized something. A bunch of what I consider 'wips' are actually finished but I just want to rework them because I know I can do better but I'm starting to wonder if the reason I never finish anything is because my standards for my work are higher than I (or most people) can feasibly reach. huh. anyways

#like if I could chill maybe I'd get stuff done #but idk. I don't like publishing stuff if I haven't pushed myself with it #which is why I have so few things published and tbh the only one I'm happy with is morning after melancholy #and even then I kind of want to rework it #idk. hopefully I get more done soon

[skrunksthatwunk]

other half

redraw screenshots taken from this post i made a while back ignore that i forgot to actually link it for like an entire day

#THE SILLIES #i have an exam in 9 hours and i haven't studied for it. kuwabara was more important (<- i'll be ok + i'll study soon) #yyh #yu yu hakusho #kazuma kuwabara #kuwabara kazuma #yusuke urameshi #urameshi yusuke #kuwameshi #yyh puu #idk what people tag him as... :/ #also i hope it's not too obvious that i'm the least comfortable drawing yusuke outta the main four. idk what it is. the eyes? hm #like hiei i can't draw consistently but i usually like it anyway so whatever. but yusuke i just feel like i'm so close to getting it right #but i never quite get there. essence uncaptured vibes tarnished. but that's probably just me #also no kuwa would not steal a catalytic converter. it goes against his honor code as established in episode uhhh idk 7? the one w/ eikichi #skrunkart #haven't done one of these flat tone sketch pages in a while... i like them though they're pretty #though i kiiiinda gave up on the overall composition by the end </3. eh whatever at least it's out there now #also my favorites of this are the one of kuwa holding puu with like. club penguin eyes? and puu diving at kuwa's egg. i just think they're #ute. plus the one of kuwa sleeping holding puu w the thousand yard stare. idk just silly to me #anyway hopefully it's clear that i love kuwabara. the end

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[lauronk]

3/7 halfway-ish done. there’s no way i’m making four more of these in a week why did i do this to myself

#this one just needs the border and that’s pretty easy #but idk how fast the others will go #between this and work i may not get much writing done till the end of the month #sorry y’all 😭 #but hopefully you’ll soon have jelly fic and more bus fic and then bthb starting #so there will be fic #just be patient with me #lauren’s stabby crafting

[layla-carstairs]

current status of the James Essay 😁😁

#it's so long 😭 #im putting more effort and thought into this than some of my actual uni assignments lmao #it's not done yet but hopefully soon. next week maybe #strong maybe though because it's kinda getting out of hand #why am I quoting outside sources in an answer to a sentence long ask?? good question! idk #anyway when I finally drop this thing I'm expecting all of the validation <3 #bella talks

[danielnelsen]

there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn

#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon #although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great #whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time #kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’ #or at least triggers that i can plan around #the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one #the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni #and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis? #but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal #i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months #so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically) #so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point #obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again #i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time #BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT #‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately #personal #but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12 #so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’ #and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes #wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health #and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder #so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test #i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing #might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained

[inkykeiji]

hihi clari, just wanted to remind you that you are SO very loved <3 !! take all the time you need, rest, and be kind to yourself!!

thank you for this my lovely anon <3 i really appreciate you taking a moment to send me such a thoughtful lil message!!! i love u lots <33

#i’m trying i swear!!! #i have more doctors appointments coming up soon so #hopefully that’ll help a bit??? idk #just taking it day by day rn!! #but i miss u guys a lot :((((( #and writing ugh!!!!!! i have love n deepspace stuff i wanna post but it isn’t done!!! D; #anyway i am sending u love! #thank you again for this! #inky.bb #clari gets mail

[tittysuckersworld]

why are you, as a man, bringing up a man thats not related to the conversation that youve only seen twice since he dissappeared for 4 years. why are you bringing him up? to angrily ramble about him? when hes not even in the conversation? when hes barely related to the topic? is it cause hes on your mind? huh?

#i just finnished bsd season 2<2<3<3<3<3 #gonna be watching bad apple next but thats tomorrow after i finnish some more school work #but like chuuya man. come on. why do you keep bringing up dazai #at least twice hes done so and like. no one has batted an eye #ane san and mori acted like this is normal- #so either chuuya just generally rambles about dazai #or chuuya used to rave about him all the time and now that dazais back technically hes back at the complaining #has dazai just been on your mind chuuya? #on the other hand thats sorta sad to me dazai hasent really talked about or brought up chuuya at all #even when could have been appropriate mabey idk idk mannnn #dumb ass gays #also why do minors keep getting paired up with older guys???? #like why dose atsushi have to treat kyouka in gentle manly way? like. why dose that need to be specified kunikida? #at least theres no direct stuff(exept mori but. hes evil bad guy that we hate so i guess is ok? idk idk ick) #but yeeee having so much fun with bsdd will hopefully finally have comic out soon- and then will make more stuff for it i think #like more bsd stuff in general #i have an idea for an au that would work so good with an animatic but you guys would have to trust me

[vocaloid-song-showdown]

hello !

i feel like i owe everyone some sort of explanation for why it's taking so long for the poll to get started considering it's been like a week since i planned for the the polls to start :(

i'm currently in the process of moving which while super neat and funky means that i don't have a whole lot of free time rn ?? and having started this while recovering from covid (i'm better now thankfully) wo much planning ahead means that now i kinda have to do everything all at once. it doesn't help that the new place i'm at doesn't have wifi set up yet and my reception is also not that great </3 </3 </3

i havent forgotten about this at all and i will get to it as soon as i can, but it might be a little bit longer than i originally planned and expected

thank you so so much for being patient w me and i hope the next time i post it'll be for the formal finalized bracket :'D

(also since it is taking longer than expected to get it out, here are the bracket and honorable mention playlists! i wanna have these ones out at least so it's easier to familiarize yourself w songs you might not know or just relisten to favorites that made it)

#updates #idk how else to tag this one sorry orz #im also a little sleepy so no rambles in the tags today. ty again for being patient w me though :') #also ty to everyone who reads the notes fhdjdh its always kinda bonkers but also really nice whenever someone responds to them ^^ #but formal bracket post as soon as everything is done being moved ! which will hopefully be super soon #the plan is to finish tomorrow so it should be this week for real this time #no wifi and poor reception might complicate things a little but i do still wanna get it out as soon as i can :'D #EDIT :: also ill reply to the messages and asks i got regarding the bracket as soon as i have a bit more energy ( ^^)b

[volfoss]

Franken faceup (finally lol) under the cut :) very very long and text heavy because i had a LOT to say with the new stuff I tried :)

^ mockup :) you can see the placing of a lot of the stitches shifted slightly and that it was pretty dark makeup around the eyes! My big inspo for this was early pics of avril lavigne since I wanted to capture that vibe in the way of silly skater girl in this doll. I very much was kind of on the fence on this one, going back and forth on what I would do with the doll (which is why I um was postponing working on the head [outside of painting it] until now) but was convinced I would go with this.

I promise you I had plans to use this mockup. It just did not feel right when I *did* get around to the faceup so I went into it with my usual tactic of ehh it's fine I'll figure it out later which either goes really well or really bad from my experience. I had gotten some tips from a friend of mine who is a PHENOMENAL doll artist so was very hyped to put those into use as well!

I started with blushing the normal resin, not even touching the other colors until I had already gotten this layer sealed so there would be less color contamination (or that was the hope lol)

I just was focused on building up the pinks in the VERY yellowed resin to hopefully balance it out a little (with my experience with very yellowed dolls, this helps a lot in making the color a bit more balanced and life like instead of just. YELLOW. And with this head being from ~2006, she needed all the help she could get lol)

Next coat was the dark purple which shocker. This paint gave me even more issues lmao in the way that I struggled getting my pastels dark enough to really blush the cheeks and lips :/

Like it's there a bit but not a ton and that was ok! My lip lines kept disappearing with my sealant so I added more and more each layer.

Eventually decided that the small areas I had to blush on the teal and the light purple could be done on the same layer, so did that next

Added a bit more of the lip lines and blush around the eye area on this layer too :)

Brows were SCARY bc i was going to be trying new tactics next coat but for now, just a simple pastel outline was my goal! I was SUPER torn on how to proceed with eyeshadow (whether neutral, bright or dark) so focused on everything else (mainly getting the body blushed and getting things to look good there).

Then well. I would like to say i was just gonna do a TINY bit of watercolor to darken the purple side of the lips but then i got lost in the sauce of watercolors, adding moles, freckles, liner, and lashes with it! My favorite thing about this method of sealant (and this is a drawback to some people but to me it's a fun part) is that sometimes dust or small hairs get trapped in the sealant. And why I find this fun is that I can turn it into facial features on the doll, ie moles or scars. It's something where obviously I would prefer to NOT have it in there and I could pick it out but on this doll I wanted to gain as much skin texture as possible on each color so I let it be as messy of a sealant job as I wanted, which is why she's got the moles you see on the normal resin :)

I also used watercolors to add a bit of color where the pastels were not working well (the dark purple and teal parts of the head were giving me grief so I just got my brush wet, dipped it in my watercolors and placed it where i needed it, dabbing at it with a dry [or wet depending on what I needed] makeup sponge cut into small squares. It helped add a bit of color to the lips especially and I was very happy with how it turned out!

I am THRILLED with it so I'm letting it dry a bit and then sealant time! Honestly i do not think this faceup could have gone better :) i was NOT expecting it to go well but it came together and it feels very much like my doll announced her personality of hey. This is what I wanna look like and who am I to not follow those vibes!

Bonus pic w the eyes in (not perfectly aligned bc i didn't wanna budge the paint, I will be making them look a bit better later but I just was ready to get a pic and then put gloss on lol) :)

Also bonus bonus pic of the finished hand bc i am so so happy w it!!

^ gloss is still drying but :)

I'll post pics once it's all dry and ofc more progress as the body comes along but I'm really happy with it!

#twist rambles #bjd posting #Frankenstein wip #i really feel shes coming together... hopefully ill get a name soon lmao #SO hyped to get her done like... i think its really really pushed me to get comfortable with a lot of new faceup techniques and materials #shes such a unique sculpt like honestly her personality just shown through the second i put the eyes in 🥺 im so excited #wig time soon. hopefully #my phone is SO weird about pinks like it really makes them 20x more pink so the last pic is the most true to irl pic in here :) #i have no clue why i was like hey. light blue under the eye but i really like it! i think it adds a bit of personality to an otherwise #kinda normal faceup. again minus the painting underneath lmao #realizing im gonna have to go back over the stitches on the brow oughhh it's ok i am so so so brave... might make it more of an obvious cut #w using some acrylic to make it have a bit of skin there but idk. thats future mes problem lmao #i feel the arms are SO badly making it look very unfinished rn but i think when theyre done it's gonna be like ohhh its all coming together

[smilesrobotlover]

Howdy! For those who don’t know, I planned to do 3 comics at once (working on several pages a week for each project) but I think that 3 is one too many for me.… aka: The Hand of Farore is suffering lol. I haven’t been working on it at all, so I thought I’d tell y’all that I have a plan. After I finish Sky’s arc for lbl, I’ll work on The Hand of Farore so I can start uploading the pages on the profile finally. It’s gonna take some work but I’m determined!

#smiles rambles #idk how long Sky’s arc will take but hopefully I can get it done soon #but I think I need this third week to unwind and draw what I want instead of drawing more #comics #but I have not abandoned Moon #you’ll get your chance to shine bb

[nateslehky]

this fic is sooo close to being done

#my wonderful beta is wonderful #i simply do not have the brain capacity to make the more extensive edits that require my brain to function in any capacity #and then going to the avs game tmr night so idk when this'll get done #but soon! hopefully

[gayforcarstairsgirls]

I don't have time atm to do a follower celebration (exams rip) but hopefully in summer I will because holy shit 750-

Love y'all 💕💕💕

#just wanted to post this cause tumblr is my happy place and getting to talk to more and more people on here is so nice <3 #and hopefully soon i can do a follower celebration!! i haven't done an ask game in agesssss and i really want to #750 #idk why i just wanted to make this post cause today was hard but seeing this made me feel a tiny bit better :)

[mikiruma]

disappearing into the shadows again but since i brought it up yesterday-ish (time is fake) here's my personal website, it was originally going to be just a semi-professional art portfolio, but now i'm messing with html again and updating it is becoming my FAVORITE time waster

#talking #swear on my life i never intend to stay up this late but... webbed site..... #anyway i have plans so hopefully i dont drop those soon esp since ive been REALLY focused on it #and also ive been going on there whenever i have the urge to check social media so. new coping skill dropped #ummmm what else. fair warning its not 100% mobile compatible just bc of my Images #OH my favorite newest things are the clixie personality quiz and the clixie demo #very very simple stuff but i had the most fun putting them together #i want to add a diary/blog section too but i dont have a lot going on that wouldnt b a mood killer LOL #or literally just. hi this is my first blog post this is what my website is for thank you for visiting #also i want to actually fill out the freebies page... make an 8-ball type game... think of more games in general #idk!!!!!! idk!!!!!! i was just thankful to finally get the quiz result pics done today. those were overdue Q_Q

[vynegar]

well i’m gonna miss my self-imposed deadline for finishing that post (before the end of revisiting youth event) but it’s still happening, i’m just working on shifting (back) into vyn mode

#tot liveblog #hopefully this mini tot break will help me fully experience Emotions as vyn's bday comes up (and presumably also the next 4ssr event soon!! #i'm actually really curious what it'll be like since the past year they've been AUs. i feel like it's time to switch it up? #but i probably wouldn't be mad if they do more AUs bc i love them and they're usually pretty well done) #edit 9/15: well uhh this is getting messier than expected and idk what i'm doing. wtf. #edit 9/15 but at night: each time i try to write about a card story i realize there's something else i need to address and it gets like 3x #as long per section. i have 2.5 cards to go and then restructuring and proofreading for clarity #i'm at 3.6k words btw ._. and i initialy thought this would be a 1k word analysis

[orcelito]

Me currently out of work and not looking for a job rn bc grief shit But knowing my tax return should hit in the next week (which will let me last like 3 months comfortably) and I'll have half of two life insurance payouts bc of my dad dying Probably within the next month or two (Maybe more, depending) so like I got money on the way, I Do, but I didn't work as much as I was expecting for my last paycheck so I'll be cutting it a little close for rent and such until the payouts hit so I'm like. :] cutting it close here man :] give me my money please :]

#speculation nation #ultimately theres no real risk bc i know if i need to i can ask my sister for help #which rly is a blessing. and im grateful for the security. #but i hate depending on other people. so im not gonna lean on that unless it's Really necessary. #i should be able to get by. ive got enough money to last the next rent and bills stuff #and it's been two weeks since i did taxes so it Should be hitting in the next week or so. hopefully. #unless there's a delay it Should be hitting in the next week. crossing fingers. #idk when i'll be looking for a job. depending on how much i get from life insurance i might not Need to for some time. #i dont wanna be too dependent on life insurance money. but if my time is better spent sorting out estate stuff #and rearranging my apartment to make room for all the furniture i'll be getting from my dad #well. no point in getting a job yet if i dont Need to and all #i dont know. there r a lot of uncertainties. only thing i know is half a year's salary from my dad's life insurance. #they give a year of his salary to the family. split between two. even that alone would be Pretty fucking helpful. #but he also had private life insurance. also split between two. i dont know how much that will be. #but good chance i'll be coming into some Serious money soon. at least for me. #the cost of it (my dad's life) is nowhere near worth it. #for a time there b4 it took a turn for the worst i was wondering whether i could donate my kidney to him. or if i even Should. #that was my dad and i shouldve gotten more time with him. i Shouldve. #but he's gone now. it's already done. and theres no point in wishing to change the past. #he'd want me to be pragmatic. he'd want me to use the money to finish school. and that's gonna be my primary goal with it. #gonna finish school. get a good job. make him proud. #done with the funeral. his ashes are downstairs. lots more legal stuff to do. still have the estate to close. #not gonna inherit money from him directly probably considering how much debt we've found #(debt we dont have to pay ourselves but that creditors can reach for his assets over) #lots of uncertainties still. lots of Bullshit. im here for another week or so. just to try to help out. #and then i go back. i start working to get my apartment in order. i start trying to heal. #and i hope that the Fucking money kicks in soon. bc i do Not have as much money as id prefer to have.