#if someone breaths on me I will explode

[layerie-star]

UGH fuck roosterteeth so hard because imagine how hard a reprise of “(When) Your Middle Name is Danger” (the evil meta music) would have cooked if Trocadero and the full music gang had been invited back for the final season‼️‼️

#rvb #red vs blue #rvb restoration #red vs blue restoration #trocadero #I am feeling so much right now. #if someone breaths on me I will explode #rvb restoration spoilers #rvb spoilers

[aniraklova]

Well, these days are some real mess. I've received health issues and my pressure is going up fast whenever I become nervous. I always tell myself I won't react to stupid people, but I just can't ignore the shit I have to hear towards me it hurts... Well anyway now I try to stay calm most of the time so my heart won't explode and gonna try to visit a doc when I will have free time. That's the tea yall I have.

#kari stfu #kari mumbles #it's actually hard to me stay calm but I must to #because I explode really fast when I hear someone's being nasty to me #doing my deep breaths in and out

[avelera]

Listen, I don't think HBO Max was ever against Our Flag Means Death as such, but during the months of waiting for the renewal news, stewing in the fear and disappointment of past queer or queer-hinted shows being canceled or ignored by their distributors just because they were queer, I was passive-aggressively checking the likes over every single HBO Max tweet that came out, smirking with vicious delight every time an OFMD tweet went out that invariably got ten or even a hundred times the attention than any of the other shows they were trying to push at any given point, and part of me just hopes that there was someone at HBO Max who didn't want the queer little pirate show to succeed and they had to pick their fucking jaw off the floor when they saw the renewal announcement got 80,000 likes when most of their other tweets barely broke a couple hundred

#our flag means death #don't mind me being vindictive towards a most likely fictional executive at HBO Max #thing is I even liked shows like Winning Time #but I still seethed with hatred when they pushed it SO HARD on twitter when all I wanted was OFMD news #the ptsd towards homophobic executive decisions is still painfully real #thing is HBO Max actually hasn't canceled almost any shows #and with Taika attached even the initially lackluster reception probably never doomed it #quite the opposite I think the delaying the announcement after the popularity exploded WAS because it was doing so well #so it would have its own space to breathe #and clearly with filming in NZ they're going to get a lot of love from HBO Max going forward #I just like to think SOMEONE there who wanted to push stupid sports biopics over a queer little pirate show is pissed right now #and the money and popularity of OFMD is just twisting the knife into the wound of their wrongness #for verily i amst a spiteful bitch

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

guess who has covid 😆😆😀😀

#covid in november 2023 is just embarassing tbh #i feel AWFUL #i cannot breathe without having a coughing fit and my head feels like its gonna explode help #i have things to do and i feel like im actually dying i cannot- #its 6am and i have barely been able to sleep even though im so so so tired god dammit #im awake now for good i can tell #theres no more sleep for me 💀 #i feel like im waking up the neighbours with how much im coughing omfg #someone put me out of my misery please 😭😭 #so im not gonna be very responsive on here cause looking at my phome screen hurts! #😆😆😆😆👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

[wantbytaemin]

good god.. been dealing with THINGS. very many of them

#i worked from home this whole week and only went in today and it was expectedly super exhausting and not productive #but i also worked the whole weekend too and i am so totally spent like burnt out emotionally and on every other level LMAO. anyway #i came home to roommate and she was like oh I was hoping you’d want to go for a walk and i was like listen my love i am not in shape to #even breathe-in breathe-out right now without falling apart and she was like ok got it! and went for the walk herself and she brought back #my favorite sour candies and my favorite watermelon cider and . oh my god get this i’ve been meaning to replace the battery on my AirTag i #keep in my car bc I always park it where the fuck ever and forget #and she actually got me the AirTag as a bday gift but i digress. anyway i always forget which battery i need and she went and bought it for #me and said this is to ‘refill your battery hehe’ and i’ve also . been told some other things like borderline incredible things (positive) #(not by her but well. someone else. shan’t say it and such) #and it’s just sooooo much all at once i feel like i’m exploding i need to decompress for one thousand years #like this is mostly positive trust me i just have not been shown love for so direly insanely long and now im receiving it in a genuine way #and idk how to even deal with it or how to express my gratefulness like how do you. how do you begin to give all of that back im dizzy

[kath-artic]

ohhhh my god if this fight is about what i think its about im gonna lose it

#my mom was all upset last night out of nowhere and kept muttering shit under her breath at me and my dad #and then she exploded at him this morning (its his birthday weekend btw) #accused him of cheating AGAIN because 1) its her default comeback and 2) he replied 'STOP' to a spam text and shes convinced it was his ex #but also the thing that set her off was me and my dad 'making fun of her' for mispronouncing something? #which is kinda bullshit regardless bc we all do that to each other and it isnt grounds for all this #but the thing is. i dont remember doing that #and i have a very good memory #i remember doing almost exactly that a few days ago with a friend too so its weird that i wouldnt remember this #which isnt to say that it didnt happen #but the thing is. i DO remember talking about an actor in the show we were watching #he was playing a different character but u could still tell it was him bc of how he rounds his vowels off w an r sound #and i kept pointing it out whenever he did it and my mom was sitting kinda far away when we were talking about it #and after that is pretty much when she started acting all weird #so i stg. if she misheard me dissecting an actor's accent and decided it was an attack on her intelligence im gonna kill someone

[hotgirlcoded]

*deep breath* they want to give the police 20!! MILLION!! DOLLARS!! while the city has a huge housing crisis and food shortage (+ many other issues). yes there's an increase in crime, but i wonder if there could be any connection here? just a guess? that removing lots of social/community support would also have something to do with that? again, just a guess.

#hasnt been approved yet but it probably will be because the govt sucks #all this money and still can't do shit #more money for the police to abuse people!! yay!! #*explodes them* #if someone is shoplifting essential items from a grocer store who cares #the ceo isn't gonna fuck you and also i hope galen weston also explodes #people in the govt literally take tax dollars to go on vacation like. why don't we talk about THAT more. #*explodes them again* #god this makes me so... #*deep breath* #lisa.txt

[boycannibal]

nothinggg hurts more than thinking about universes in which you are not fucked up

#world if i could genuinely fall asleep and wake up next to someone without wanting to put a pillow over their head #for now my live seems like it will be restricted cuddle time in the communal space with some type of music or filim and then ill be #retreating to my personal chambers. or whatever the fuck #because hearing peoples breathing makes me explode

[dirt-str1der]

Boys were invented for me to chase around the nightmare woods with a big knife and blunderbuss

#Yakzua loveblog #oh kiryu ... really want to see how fast a guy can run in the darkness and how many scrapes he will accumulate just from being scared #lets roleplay bloodborne youll go crazy and lose your humanity and i spray your flesh everywhere with a hacksaw till you die #i was gonna be like guess who this post is about then i took a sip of diet coke and realised how good it was. like i wish i had a lemon at #my mercy so i can cut a slice and drop it into my coke ... this would taste so good with a lemon #literally want someone to run and i chase them like a serial killer it would be so good for the both of us if i let him get a little furthe #and then when he thinks hes safe he crouches behind a rock and then i blow a hole into the stone beside his head and he feels the shot #explode over his face and he reels back blind and in pain and crawls away and i grab another fistful of gravel to reload #i chase him till he doesnt want to run anymore he collapses on his stomach wheezing and then i come out into the clearing and aim my gun at #him and he grabs it by the barrel and wrenches it out of my hand and it overbalances me and i fall hard on my side and he gets on top of me #but i whip my knife out and stick it in his flank and he yowls and we roll again and when im on top i twist it as i pull it out and then #slam it down on his face and he redirects my strike with the back of his fist and my knife lands in the dirt beside his head and he #attempts to throw me off while im pinning his shoulder to the ground and i use the motion to pull my blade out the soft dirt and #drive it into his ear but he kicks me away and the knife misses and swipes under his chin instead barely an inch from his throat and hes #taking the opportunity to roll to his feet while im on the ground disoriented and he gets on top of me again and i take another swipe at #his chest but he grabs my hand and twists it and im forced to drop the knife and we're both panting like hell and hes holding my wrists #above my head and we're really close breathing on each others faces then we start making out sloppy style and on the train ride back i tell #him that a small blunderbuss is called a dragon and he says hm ... pretty cool

[iamfabiloz]

Chaos is a thing now?? Umm, firestick and bowling balls.

chaos was always a thing here it just becoming more relevant these days BAAHA

one day i will take u bowling and only one of us will walk outta there alive

#i get arrested bc i killed someone by throwing a bowling ball at their head and in my fury the building collapses on me and w my last #breath i push u out and then u watch as the building explodes and you are left the winner of the terrible day #idk i like saying word BAAAH #ask #thecatspasta #and then the only thing u have left of me is a fire stick with my iniatials

[yamikawas]

yoomtah feels so strongly about you, when she stares into your window at night all she wants is to be with you, sometimes she finds a way into your room out of desperation to look at you closer, she loves you more than anything and shares your obsession entirely

AJSHWJDJFBWJCJVDJJCDJFJBFMDJFNGBJFFB??!!?!!!!+@!!?#??!,+?+?+?@?!!?!?!?+??+?+?+!?,+@?@??!?!?!!@@??@?!!?!!!!!!!!?!!?!<3<3<÷&4^&&÷_3&3<3<<3<33<3<3<3333÷<33*÷><3^3<4<<33<3<3<3<333<<<<3333<<3*4<3<3<<3<4<333<3<33CUTE OF HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#SORRYIM SO LATE TO THIS I JST GOT BACK NOW #IM LITERALLY&3<3<3<3<33333<3<3_<÷3<3÷<3<3<3<3AAAAAUAAAUAAAUUAUWHAUAAUAUWHYAYAYYHAHSHAHDYDFHEHDFJDIFJDJDBF;GNBFBCBJVBDBDBEXDMBCNVBSJWODNDNBX #IM GONNA EXPLODE I LOVE HER SO MUCH MY HEART IS GONNA EXPLODE INTO A BUNCH OF TINY HEART EMOJIS #IF IT WERENT SO COLD ID LEAVE MY WINDOW OPEN SO SHE CAN COME INTO MY ROOM WHENEVER SHE WANTS<3............................ #I WISH I COULD JUST WAKE UP TO HER STARING AT ME AND STROKING MY FACE GENTLY AND BREATHING HEAVILY AND SMILING DERANGEDLY #SHES SO ADORABLE AND LOVABLE AND WONDERFUL I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HER TO OBSESSS OVER ME LIKE THIS #I DONT KNOW WHY SOMEONE SO AMAZING WOULD CHOOSE SOMEONE LIKE ME BUT IM SO HAPPY AND GRATEFUL AND I HOPE SHE KEEPS LOVING ME FOREVER........ #FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER IF SHE EVER STOPS LOVING ME I'LL DIE I COULD NEVER LIVE WITHOUT HER #I'LL DO ANYTHING IF IT MEANS SHE'LL LOVE ME FOREVER I SWEAR I'LL DO ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING #ME AND YOOMTAH TOGETHER FOREVER..............PLEASE.............................. #I WANT HER TO HOLD ME CLOSE AND LISTEN TO MY HEARTBEAT................IT BEATS ONLY FOR HER<3 #GOD I NEED HER MORE THAN ANYTHING🍋💛🧡💌🌠💓💫👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩❤💖💞❣🌈💗🍋💜💘🧡💘🌩💝💗💝⚡✨💙✨💚💫🌠🌼💞🌈🌻🌠🌼💙⚠️💓💟💛💋⚠️❣💌💗💕❤🧡 #I WANNA CLING TO HER AND NEVER LET GO AND FEEL SAFE FOR ONCE BC IM WITH HER AND I DONT HAVE TO THINK ABT ANYTHING ELSE #IF I COULD JUST THINK ABT HER AND ONLY HER AND NOTHING ELSE I WOULD BE HAPPIER THAN EVER TBH<3 #LITERALLY I WANT TO INJECT YOOMTAH THOUGHTS DIRECTLY INTO MY BRAIN #I DONT NEED ANYTHING ELSE I NEED YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH YOOMTAH #IF ONLY I COULD JUST BE IN HER ARMS FOR ETERNITY.................IF ONLY<3

[marnz]

obsessed with how we discovered that i have mysterious wide spread arthritis and symptoms of an autoimmune disease and my neuro referred me to a rheumatology clinic for further testing/treatment/a formal diagnosis and they are refusing to see me because I have fibromyalgia, aka pain for no reason. probably because they are nervous about pain management due to harsh opioid policies! we love it! incredible stuff! god forbid I get treatment and pain management! yesterday I realized after 20 minutes that a crying melt down gets nothing done, and no one was going to fix this for me. so i fixed it and found another rheum! who is booked out until july! whatever! I’ve had pain my whole life, another few months will not kill me! i have shit to do! 

clean bathroom

clean kitchen

trash

recycling

laundry! 1, 2, 3

morning walk

walk thru

meal planning prep!

lunch walk - park?

finish/polish 1st draft of PP story

logic puzzle - 1 hour w/ notes

stretch: start A short story

#currently #to do list #this was originally a much longer post but you know what? whatever. fuck it. who cares. #did i get my shit together and wrangle a new rheum and get a referral and call 7 different doctors while working? yup! no choice! #probs good I did not see the rheum clinic if they are this skittish about having a patient w/ chronic pain #i don't want to be prescribed breathing exercises lmao #anyway everyone spends so much time discussing the horrible opioid epidemic but do u know what ppl do not discuss? #the suicide epidemic of chronic pain patients. this hasn't really made it into main stream discussion #anyway god forbid i make an actual serious post about this because if i did and someone tried to argue with me #i think i would explode! no one WANTS to be opioid dependent but also no one WANTS to have chronic pain lmao #when you say it's more important to avoid opioid dependence than it is to avoid ppl's suffering...that's the point of no return #anyway. whatever. i have shit to do. #if you are waiting on a response from me: i am sorry and i cannot do it this week but i love u all & i think of u all daily! #edit: WHY DOES THIS SAY BLAZE?.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#shout out to that tiny glimmer of focus i had Saturday before i dumped ants on my brain #now im stuck in. i have to be productive but i csnt focus but i csnt do anything fun loop #half of my brain: what if u just relax? the othet half: no. shut up. what i just agonize until i explode? #annoying. and im apparently on call for jury duty the entire month of January #which means i have to be back from home by jan 2. and i probably have to stay until at leas dec 20th here #so optimistically i could have 12 full days and 2 travel days. but we'll see what happens #my mum is looking at flights for me bc im a barely functional person and i end up in hysterical tesrs everytime i have tk buy plane tickets #everytime they call i feel like im talking to them from the bottom of a well. like hi! hello! nice to see familiar faces! #tell me tales from the outside world! oh not much going on? thats ok we can still talk tho. talk and talk and talk #i talk to much. because im stuck in this well and im sad and i want someone to help me but also the ladder is right there and im choosing #not to stand up. so the conversation ends and i go back to laying half submerged and crumpled up in my well water #slowly unraveling into my stagent little puddle #and i cant stop thinking about all the time im blurring away #my mum asked if i was even coming home for Christmas #and im like. of course im coming home. i dont want to be here but its so hard to get my brain to justify leaving #i dunno. i just have to get these stupid manuscripts done. and applications submitted #so i can at least breathe a little. and then hopefully ill get accepted somewhere and i can throw myself into something more wonderful #so i can at least see the stars from the bottom of my sad little well #ugh. the amount of time i spend paralyzed by all the things i have to do is infuriating #just start something. make progress and eventually youll be done. stop whining abt it #ay ay ay. mayhaps i should just quit today and hope for a better tomorrow #but then im just pushing back everything a little further. ay. it never ends #unrelated #srry for being so mopey :-P like i said i talk too much

[crowcryptid]

I know it’s just me™️ but at the same time I refuse to believe other people don’t take psychic damage simply by being in a room with another person

Not even speaking, just knowing there’s someone there is enough to make me want to rip the door off its hinges

And when there’s someone outside and you can hear them? Bad as well.

Worst of all? When the person you are trapped with tries to talk to you. Please. Stop.

#once again ‘social species’ my ass I cannot stand being near people irl #if you make eye contact with me I hope you explode #‘how are you’ I was fine until you spoke and now I want to #nevermind #slow breathing is not enough I need to push someone off a building #I’m normal. it’s everyone else who is weird. it’s true :) #ANYWAY this is not an invitation to talk to me please do not do that #unrelated (completely related) feeling the urge to delete all my accounts again yippie

[godforsakenbeast]

whoever or whatever made Scratch is the only thing that understands what life is really about. I too exist solely out of malice and communicate exclusively through snarling & swearing <3

#i. talk #i feel like my head is going to explode if someone in my family even so much as breathes near me. this happens every day btw #ideal life form for me would just b Scratch. #escapism is the only thing i have left anymore 👍👍👍 its not working 👍👍👍

[hecksupremechips]

I just like. Don’t love my parents

#whyyyyy cant i just be alone #christmas is shit cuz its like you gotta be around family and its ass i just feel nothing positive about any of these people #i hate it i hate everything about it i wanna rip my skin off when im around these people #i cant stand this anymore i cant stand that i cant do anything without my parents having to perceive it and make commentary #i want them to just fucking explode #nothing is mine anymore and i dont even do what makes me happy anymore i just modify my entire life #to fit around their needs cuz if i existed in a way that made me happy itd have to be seen by them #and ruined by them #im nothing but a damn baby i just wanna breathe i cant get out #im literally just gonna be here forever i think im too childish and incompetent to get a job #im so tired of being here and being here and wasting my life on these people i cant do this anymore i cant i cant i cant #can someone please free me just bust me out of here i never wanna be here again okay i cant do this anymore #im just gonna shut my eyes and when i wake up i wanna be somewhere else #okayyyyyyy okay