#ignore meee

[cheolism]

something that's so interesting to me is the juxtaposition of seventeenth heaven to fml to face the sun. face the sun was a dark album but in the sense of it talking about ambition and loneliness and it felt as if it took place in an entirely different world. it built a story, a universe. fml was a dark album in that it lacked the feeling of youth to me, which is something svt always seems to radiate. it was dark and felt mature compared to their other albums (not in that its maturity is a bad thing or that other album's lack of maturity is bad; there's just a sense of youthfulness that seems embedded in svt's albums and fml seemed to lack it. to me!!!). seventeenth heaven is a return to youth, i think, but it still maintained that maturity fml introduced.

looking back, i think the definite shift in svt's discography can be seen in your choice and attacca. henggarae feels like one big goodbye to their younger selves, semicolon being them shutting the door. your choice and attacca were the introduction of a different svt. henggarae is shutting the door to the "golden years" of childhood and young adulthood; your choice and attacca were opening the door to adulthood. the albums all very much feel like they're growing as svt does, and i think this hugely has to do with woozi (and bumzu) being their producer. 26 year old woozi never could have done aju nice; 20 year old woozi never could have done god of music or super etc. and i really think woozi and the rest of the boys having complete agency (as much as they can have) over their music is what sets them apart from all other groups

#ignore meee #just putting my thoughts down lol #i have more. and it will come. #katie: talks #svt #seventeenth heaven

[housecow]

im tipsy so it’s time to ramble!!! i want a big family and i want to be a fat ass mom with a specialized folding chair for fat ppl at her kid’s soccer game. sonic shake in hand arm fat wobbling when i wave like literally what could be better

#i want a simple life u see #talk #ignore meee

[changelingsandothernonsense]

2002 was a time for the Nerevarine

Fuck no!

#Cassius wants that dick out apparently #I don't actually do Hlaalu quests so he's never had this in game but..... #It's gross but kinda funny #but seriously gross #on my dumb shit again #ignore meee #morrowind

[ughreallywtf]

Trying to complete a national pokedex in pokehome, I started with 432 in april 2023.

Current pokedex:

✨1023 of 1025✨

Remaining:

•Volcanion

•Zeraora

#pinned post #pokemon #pokedex completion #ignore meee

[lion-sensei]

hey lesbians otherside picnic is on sale on right stuf if you want the omnibuses. omnibi. two-in-one books

#Otherside Picnic #almost posted this to my sideblog this new post editor is going to be the death of me #I just glanced in the tag and didn't see anything about this but maybe someone already posted about it in which case #ignore meee

[nerdyneko6373]

don't you love it when everything seems to be going wrong, one after the other?

#ignore meee #:]

[lastoneout]

Steam cloud? Uh yeah, that's what does.

#ignore meee

[penaltyboxboxbox]

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#im like. trying so hard to get back w my ex rn but neither of us will just SAY IT and its making me insane and deranged. #and its long distance so we cant even be stupid and like hang out and hook up and just see what happens everything has to be so #FORMAL AND IN WRITING AND JUST....UGH............... #we talked about moving to the same country today and about careers and kids and i was like yeah were really just. having this conversation. #huh. just two guys talking. kll me #IGNORE MEEE

[chipadequeso]

i found a 2022 spanish production of falsettos. um here's comments because i don't like it!

IT'S NOT FULLY SUNG-THROUGH?? why!!!

jason's too over-acting and whiny i don't like him.

trina's amazing!! her voice is godly . every trina i've seen is so well-casted... whizzer is in my heart too and marvin is pretty good

they broke mendel's character into ... two separate characters..... i dont understand why they chose that??? i dont really like it

took me very long to realize but THEY ARE NOT JEWISH!!!! WHAT!!!!!! I HATE THIS PRODUCTION SO MUCH BITING AND KILLING

1. mendel like the psychiatrist that appears from song one is a woman?

2. after im breaking down this guy appears (he's mentioned in everyone tells jason to see a psychiatrist) and he's trina's new boyfriend ... it's an interesting choice i guess?? i just really dont care about him during a tight-knit family reprise like who are you!!! your conflict with marvin makes no sense you dont know the guy you just tell him it's your family now without no previous stuff the obc gives you!!!!!!

marvin at the psychiatrist bad bad hate it. part one turned into a conversation . like literally practically word by word . part two is replaced (bc this mendel is not trina's gf ...) with a two sentence thing about gay sex ??? part three is ok . it's not a mini-opera if you only sing in 1/3 of the thing!!!!!!

"just because you failed as parents" ".....GET THEE TO A PSYCHIATRIST" became "BECAUSE YOU ARE BAD PARENTS!!!!" "you will go to the psychiatrist!!!"

also they dont say psychiatrist they say psychologist . those are two different jobs guys

in the this had better come to a stop coreography marvin is fucking going through it man he's suffering it so bad . it's expressive and all but i like the more subtle "im repressing it because im stubborn" things c borle and michael rupert got going on

AGAIN ... "smile trina ill help you mend!" BECOMES "trina, live and let live!" where's the psychiatrist having a relationship with his patient soo disappointed

no jason's therapy . THERE IS NO TRINA'S SONG / MARCH OF THE FALSETTOS. you just go fucking straight from i'm breaking down to tight-knit family (reprise) to trina's song reprise. huh

after the chess game it goes directly the games i play. i genuinely really like this whizzer

marvin hits trina is fine? no i am so dumb. also NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU NEW BOYFRIEND!!!!! STOP COMMENTING ON STUFF!!!!!! after the hit there's like ONE second and there's no tension and we're already starting with i never wanted to love you.

act 2 starts with "2 years later" and miracle of judaism. huh!!!!!!! and they dont tell us who the lesbians are!!!

there's some cheerleader girls in miracle of judaism cheering for jason he's distracted by them

the pace in the act 2 is all off!!!! there's missing songs just like in act 1 but here there's no high building up that breaks when whizzer falls sick . it's just uhhgh

no bar mitzvah . just a birthday. hate hate hate

the you gotta die something coreography is amazing ngl . there's a guy in black acting as the death and he dances with whizzer and throws him around leaves him on the floor when he tries to grab him just woahg . it's similar to the thrill of first love one too ..

marvin carries a crying whizzer to the hospital bed and what would i do? is him sitting down to him next to it .

no jason's bar mitzvah though bc no jewish people no bar mitzvah...

someone threw roses at marvin and whizzer and i agree

thats it i really really dislike this. good voices and all but the story is all over the place and it's by far the worst production i've seen bc of EVERYTHING they removed..

#falsettos #ignore meee

[paperlovesadness]

Oh yeah. This is a thing that is worth a post.

Yes - Miles staying over at Alex's flat when he's gone on tour is (/was) apparently a thing. That happens. Happened more than once at least. And yeah - it's flail worthy, I don't care what you say.

I think there were times when he was inbetween two places/moving so he'd just stay at Alex's?

But also... Do I have to say what type of fluffy/longing fanfic-type images come to mind when you hear something like this???

Goodbye.

#ignore me #ignore meee #I'm... I'm just #... It's increasingly hard to not just straight up write about them like they're an old married couple #I'm sorry #hashtag theories hashtag speculations and all that #but really...... #like ... #staying over at his place sorrounded by his things and clothes and sheets annnnnddd #... I'm such a romantic fool #oh but was I a sucker for having something that smelled like the person I loved whenever we were away from each other for a little too long #sleeping with her hoodies... all that shit. #so yeah - SUE ME for flailing over this; when it just sounds so familiar #// #my posts

[ofovertime]

"I don't know, Geto-sama, always wore baggy pants like a clown. Though Gojo always acted like one. It's a perfect performance act."

#dash commentary #ignore meee

[sukaruboy]

in the femdom tag reblogging away rn.. 😮‍💨

#txt #ignore meee

[soccerpunching]

Okay but full disclosure, as im watching ares i didnt feel concerned abt inakuni in relation to the ares program bcs it doesnt feel like the danger is anywhere near them. The lack of main threat to them is really not doing it for me. It feels like theyre not attached to the plot of the story... something that should have been established within the first 10 episodes btw (im being lenient).

The existence of their soccer club is a character motivation (really weird that they barely have sub-character motivations too) but not much of a threat bcs they can always just play together and theyre literally already playing together in the duration of the series.

I did see a good norika subplot that im excited about, i wish theres more of that I'll find. I'm disappointed that's too far in the series though

#im in half of the ares series now btw #and that is a very long time to not introduce the threat to your main characters #ignore meee #i literally dont care abt the ares program aside from a little curiousity #it does feel like there are no stakes at all since theyre just cruising in the other matches

[midnakoopa]

Vent Post About Anxiety

Past couple weeks have been pretty rough. Thought I'd post about it here. More for me to put my thoughts in order than anything, but if you wanna read it, go ahead. Long post, venting about trauma ahead.

So, near the end of February, I'd noticed I was tired a lot more, and sleeping a lot more. I'd thought maybe it was the weather shifting, maybe it was a bit of the seasonal depression. Who knows at this point?

But then I was getting a bit of a pain in my stomach. Sides? Abdomen? That general area. That with the usual stresses made me think of something I've dealt with before, and know how to treat. I'll skip the details on that; not so relevant. Anyway, I went to treating that how I usually do.

And maybe it would've worked out fine. Who knows? But I guess it hurt just enough for just long enough to kick my anxiety awake. And my anxiety just got worse over the next week or so. And of course, anxiety gets bad enough, it starts making existing symptoms worse due to stress and whatnot. And then the physical symptoms getting worse makes the anxiety worse. It just feeds on itself.

Now, I'm on meds for anxiety disorder. And one thing I've noticed more and more recently, is that they seem to work fine for that, for keeping me from being anxious all the time. But when things get super stressful, they don't do enough to stop an anxiety attack.

So, a little over a week ago, it got bad enough that I scheduled an appointment to talk to my doctor, about maybe adjusting my current meds, but also getting an emergency med for anxiety attacks, which wow I've been on anxiety meds for as long as I can remember how did I never have a rescue medication?

I don't know what it was about this time in particular, but this is the worst my anxiety's been in ages, maybe even the worst I can currently remember. In just the week before I saw my doctor, broke down crying four times. Two of those times were in one night (the night just before the appointment). It's good that I saw the doctor, but turns out an appointment to keep when your anxiety's making your sleep schedule a mess becomes yet another stressor.

Anyway. I saw the doctor. I got my meds adjusted, got an emergency med, and it's only been a couple days but my anxiety hasn't spiked up again yet. Fingers crossed there. Not 100% yet. I dunno if I'm 60% yet. But I'm better than a few days ago, I think.

On a slightly different tangent. Another main reason I'm typing this is to record how I felt while it's fresh in my mind.

The words that keep coming back to mind are "cold shock". It's like a cold shock that starts in the head and attacks a few different places. I say "shock", but it doesn't quite feel electric, so much as like it's sapping... something. It's gonna sound dramatic, but, it really feels like an attack on the mind, on the soul even.

Just this awful feeling that something is taking something from you. Something that you need to survive. And it takes whatever that something is until all that's left is "I just can't".

As for the more describable symptoms... Heartburn, of course. Or acid reflux, I forget the differences. A queasy or discomforting feeling in the stomach. A couple times, I felt like my legs were getting weak and shaking. That also could've been from not eating enough due to the other symptoms.

But it's that cold shock, that attack on the mind, that's the worst of it. That two-pronged attack of this overwhelming feeling of dread, and the sense that nothing you can do will help that feeling, so why do anything?

That feeling that you. Just. Can't.

To sum up, I'm feeling slightly better at the moment, and hopefully the worst of it's over. But, fuck, man. I'm just so exhausted from this, physically and mentally.

#personal stuff #personal problems #vent post #cw anxiety #trauma vent #ignore meee #i'm doing a bit better #take easy y'all

[rewrotethestars]

sometimes i just want to fall asleep and not wake up ya know? :)

#tw depression #ignore meee #delete later

[sanjisblackasswife]

Omgggg I just wanted to say I love your art and writing style 😍😍❤️

awe thank u !!!

#im replying to all my old asks tonight so i can post tomorrow✨ #ignore meee