#im going fully insane over it

[nounaarts]

It's everybody's fav !!

#whats funny is that because of atsv i would of gone full spiderman mode if the english version of the s4 special didnt come out #lmao even if it was an accident #im going fully insane over it #it just dragged me back into the hell hole #twitter is recieving nothing but delusions from me #had to balance it all out with some art heh #lmk #lego monkie kid #lego monkey kid fanart #monkie kid #macaque #lmk six eared macaque #lmk macaque #lmk s4 special spoilers #lmk season 4 spoilers #lmk spoilers #lmk s4 spoilers #lmk s4 english special #art #doodles #nounaarts

[possamble]

realizing im kind of a weirdo about laios and marcille

#possramble #ignore this im just babbling but #the thing is that like. i don't ship laios and marcille together. their relationship is so so important to me in that laios comphets himsel #and THINKS that he might be in love with her but he isn't and that's my insane obsession #platonic soulmates for real but they're so sweet together that i fully expect them to be shipped together #like i get it. that's almost the appeal for me. if dungeon meshi were any other series there'd be an epilogue where they get married #convention dictates that they're meant to be together as the male protagonist and his beloved female deuteragonist #but dungeon meshi DOESNT do that and i love it so fucking much they're the comphet besties ever for my strange little brain #like if i ever did an arranged marriage au it would absolutely be laios and marcille having a platonic political marriage and then just #the most insane mutual pining with marcille and falin while laios and marcille struggle their way into becoming best friends #the imagery of the king and his beautiful court mage being tender to each other and everyone thinking they're in love is like catnip to me #like yeah they'd be like that and have no idea people think they should be together and the subversion makes me so obsessed #the more people ship them romantically. the more i enjoy their platonic dynamic it's like some sort of weird comphet fetishism idk #people think they're in love and im outside the window like YES... YES!!! #but also the second i see stuff of them kissing on the mouth or fucking im like oh god no i went too deep in here i gotta get out #don't wanna see that. i'll go feral over the idea of laios and marcille being arm-in-arm like king and queen but they would not fuck. #i want marcille to be his default comphet beard and dance partner/plus one at official royal events but they're not kissing. #she's there on his arm because he's scared of the other noble women tryna get him and being a baby about it #and people see them muttering to each other and laughing and generally being very sweet and think that they're dating but they're not. #she's actually covered in hickies from falin underneath her dress and is gonna get dragon dicked right after the party is over #like she's in her bedroom and falin's helping her take her ridiculous dress off while listening to her complain about politics #and falin is the person she goes home to the person she falls asleep to and wakes up with #they're a triad of utter devotion to each other but only farcille's side of the triangle is romantic #it's almost like an open secret because they're not trying to hide it at all but people assume and are surprised to find out #like people are so right about her relationship with the toudens but with the siblings' roles switched #love of her life & irreplaceable life companion. does anyone get it #anyway. i don't know what's wrong with me #it bothers me that they're not the undisputed most popular het ship for marcille on ao3 #it's unnatural. marcille being paired with any other man should be a fringe case.

[thekintsugikids]

i noticed the similarities between fnowae and pavlove about a year and a half ago?? something like that. and quite frankly, while i could panegyrize fob’s entire discography till the end of time, specifically hearing those songs back to back, hearing, “i’m the invisible man who can’t stop staring at the mirror,” followed by, “i’m just the man on the balcony, singing ‘nobody will ever remember me’” made me absolutely spiral. like…both songs feel like they’re about this heart wrenching, soul crushing loneliness and just wanting someone to understand, to feel the way you do, to just fucking get it already, but the difference is in the way they see that. the different perspectives.

to fully explain this i think it’s important to fully understand the amadeus of it all for which i cannot recommend enough zero’s post about fnowae.

to use some of their words/phrasing, the quote itself as the title…fascinates me. it is salieri (in this instance, pete) repudiating god, declaring him to be his mortal enemy from here on for having the nerve to bestow upon amadeus (patrick) such brilliance (and i will be referring to him as amadeus because that feels like it might be a little cleaner than calling him mozart throughout this whole Thing etc etc etc). to mock salieri’s mediocrity. he is so envious of amadeus that he feels amadeus’s gifts are a divine punishment from god himself. “from now on we are enemies, you and i.”

what does all of that have to do with pavlove, though? amadeus is the gifted one, whom salieri finds to be insufferably annoying, but staggeringly brilliant. indescribably so (the fact that they do eventually befriend one another, and when amadeus dies, it essentially drives salieri insane and many years later he even claims he murdered amadeus, despite the fact that amadeus was sick, having worked himself to exhaustion and death……all of that is another can of worms i don’t…i don’t have it in me to crack open right now). “nobody will ever remember me, rejoice and fall to your knees.” “i want to make you as lonely as me, so you can get addicted to this.” bone crushing loneliness clawing at the door like a dog just begging for companionship. i need someone, please be that someone. i don’t know what to do if i don’t have someone. but maybe it’s for the best. but i can’t leave well enough alone (historically, “i don’t do too well on my own”) so i need you to feel what i feel. empty. isolated. lonely. then maybe you’ll need me the same way i need you.

“their faces are dancing till they can’t stand it.” being the outsider, the wallflower, the lone observer, because what else can you do? what else is there to do? it’s three drinks too late to talk to anyone but myself. who even wants to be there with the lunatic on a downward spiral entirely of his own design, who has faded so seamlessly into the background that he doesn’t even know who he is or if he even exists anymore. getting worse till there’s nothing left.

from now on we are enemies is pete vs patrick. two brilliant artists duking it out because one is so enamored with, but absolutely cannot stand, the brilliance of the other. pavlove is…different. more distanced. it’s the realization. and if pavlove is the realization, from now on we are enemies is the final showdown.

pavlove is misery with the life he’s cultivated, with the parties and the tabloids running rampant in the 2000s. the drugs he’d been doing that his best friend didn’t even fully realize the severity of because, in his mind, drug abuse was this abstract thing that he couldn’t quite comprehend. fnowae is the culmination of isolating oneself from those which he loves and cares about, because he’s so lost in his misery.

“what good comes of something when i’m just the ghost of nothing?” because progression in any capacity is a threat to your self preservation. creative integrity, personal growth, whatever it is, it has begun to feel like it’s unattainable because the risk is too high. so what’s the point? it’s a three-and-two pitch to walk to anywhere else. so stay where you are. don’t bother. patrick is brilliant, patrick is gifted and he doesn’t even know it and i’m just a painter looking at the walls trying to finger paint and he’s the only one who has been able to finish these half-baked paintings i throw at him. if this thing is breaking down, what am i good for?

trick question. stalemate. stay right here. if anything, move back.

but there’s a wife to try to make a life with and a child on the way and if i do move forward, who’s to say i don’t just find new ways to make it all worse? my anchor has started to completely detach—get engaged, make a solo record, make himself a life, eventually…soon, even—and i’m let out to sea all on my own and i don’t want to be here, i wanted to go back to land. i wasn’t prepared to still be here. but somehow, i am, and i don’t know what to do. i’m the just the man on the balcony, singing, “nobody will ever remember me,” because amadeus over here is doing the things that are worthwhile. he’s the one people will revere, and i will fade in the distance as the blurry shadow whose features have smudged and disappeared with time, because my contributions pale in comparison to his genius, because i wasn’t blessed with the ability to sing or write music or do so many of the ten billion things he is capable of. because who knows how i’ll be remembered now that the ship i’ve spent the last 8 years manning is possibly about to sink and maybe that means that will be my legacy, if i even have a legacy. if anyone remembers that i was ever here. but that doesn’t mean i don’t want to be remembered. that doesn’t mean i like what i’ve become, how my meaning has become dependent on the twin skeleton beside me. i’m the invisible man who can’t stop staring at the mirror. begging to be remembered…because that’s the point of it all, right?

i said it at the beginning, fall out boy had to be fall out boy and leave the world on a cliffhanger for three years. but it’s been 14 years since believers never die vol 1. we know what happens next. we’ve read the next chapter, watched the sequel, seen how it all pans out. they get to be happy middle aged men playing these songs, reclaiming the trauma and horrors and pain within them, making them into newer, happier memories, because they’re not about that pain anymore. and they haven’t been for a long time. they haven’t been theirs in ages. and so they can finally let it go, with their spouses and kids in the audience cheering them on (well, maybe not the kids. they’re dads, after all, they can’t think they’re cool). with stronger bonds between them and a stronger sense of self in each of them. because they’re not defined by each other anymore, no, this is their fun little art project. patrick composes for a living now (a composer but never composed, who always saw himself as a composer first, now literally a composer by trade), joe and pete each have multiple different ventures they explore in their free time (the symphonies of the overdosed, now being sung by yourself because you don’t need someone else to do it for you anymore), andy is in a million different bands at any given time. they don’t need each other—they don’t need to be defined by each other—they want to be with each other now.

no amadeus, no salieri, no jealousy, no enemies in sight, just four dudes who love making music together. who can make music on their own, who do make music on their own and/or separate from fall out boy, but can’t make their music without all of them together. at the end of the day, “no matter how obsessed you’ve been with your own vanishing, there will always be someone who still wants you whole.”

#i have gone fully insane im sorry #this has been festering for SO LONG and ive had so much to say but always felt super worried that my analysis was like #somehow Not Good Enough (despite the fact that any interpretation of art is valid i somehow believed mine would be the one wrong one) #and now with the collective insanity over fnowae after they played it #felt like as good a time as any to go crazy #besides who’s gonna read the whole thing atp skxosoxkskdi #whatever. going insane etc etc what the fuck everrrr #but yeah. pavlove and from now on we are enemies are a matching set do not separate!!!! #analysis.txt #fall out boy #patrick stump #pete wentz #joe trohman #andy hurley #fob #from now on we are enemies #pavlove #believers never die #folie a deux

[bengallemon]

top 10 images that make me go insane

#lemon time #isat spoilers #in stars and time #god..... im going back through the image files. because im insane. #i am a bitch for subtle little details. the minor changes during the inn hug sequence and the door opening are fantastic #i am not exaggerating when i say this is probably the best game ive ever played. im insane about this. #now let me go feral over this one image in particular. they have LOST IT #i mean siffrin never had it in the first place. they lost it when they lost their home. but HERE. you can see it. #because hes done this already. hes been with his family already. he was loved. and now he is again. even at the literal ending of the world #he thinks he doesnt deserve to be helped. he wants someone to help him so badly it broke time. #theres still light in his eye when everyone reaches out for him in this moment. before he breaks fully. #despite everything hes happy that his family is seeing him. reaching out to him. trying to help him. in this moment he is loved.

[unknownarmageddon]

Killer and Cross dyiesing in a tragic plane crash (they wanted to make their aircrafts kiss)

BAHAHA WAILING killer like says to cross over coms like “hey wanna make our planes kiss lmao” and then all cross’s guys on the ground see is them flying directly at each other and then an explosion

#answering asks #justanidiotartist asks #jaa!! #im gonna go on another insane tangent here cause i gotta say it or im gonna go insane #i feel like when cross and killer would actually meet face to face is like. #when killer’s jet gets damaged and he’s gotta abort it (jump out with a parachute) or crashed or something so it’s like. #whatever happens is Not Good. killer ends up kinda rough #cross finds him in the woods around where cross’s stationed and has to take him back #and make sure he doesn’t fucking die cause he’s all beat up and not fully conscious or whatever #and he’s absolutely kinda smug about it like the first thing he says to killer when killer’s conscious is “i finally beat you” or something #and then they start flying again but Together and their dogfights get more playful #ANYWAY. tangent over. hadda get it out of my system /silly #no idea if that’s anything it was just my first thought

[astranauticus]

ok i like rushed through the whole orv webtoon way too fast so now i have thoughts going in like 5 different directions but ep121-123 drive me so fucking insane actually. every time i think about those two conversations i have to sit down

#orv #orv liveblog #like i feel like depictions of childhood abuse in fiction tend to depiction the relationship as some version of #'the one evil violent parent and the one good parent trying their best (it wasnt good enough)' #see: the twins parents from lc s2 is the obvious one but also like #going back to my roots lol but enji and rei todoroki? or hell even fire lord ozai and ursa #yknow theres this idea of like theres the one who was trying! and the one who fucked it all up #well yeah rei's the one who scarred her sons face but thats so obviously framed as like a trauma response outside of her control #like its not something youre reeaally meant to blame her for yknow #the WHOLE idea with kim dokja's conversation with yoo sangah is whether he's supposed to blame/forgive lee sookyung #wait ok those conversations drive me so insane like im feeling the alevel literature urge to fuckin close read quotes #that one line where he thinks like this is the vilest form of violence he can use against sangah goes by SO fast but it hit me SO hard #the idea of asking her to put herself in this nightmare situation she has no frame of reference for understanding or empathising with #and then asking her as someone who she rly cares about! to be the judge in this situation she cannot possibly fully grasp #and all of that being framed as an act of violence towards her. like asking her to do this knowing she cant possibly do it #but also 'did you want me to seem pleased to see you' 'a little (lie)' and 'do you think of me as a mother' 'a little (lie)' #like the pretense of a normal relationship over the yeah we know our relationships fucked over the #unfortunately we still talk and think in the same way and we understand each other way too well #ok wait but circling back to the original point. i saw this fucking incredible fanart on twitter that sort of goes into the like #how do you?? handle?? not knowing if youre supposed to blame your parent for something that they did that hurt you #like its this little animation thing thats all in kdj's internal monologue except for one line where its him saying #'im terrible. i deserved what she did to me' #and its like. yeah that would be easier huh. like the self loathing is easier to handle than the confusion and cognitive dissonance #full disclosure i saw that fanart literally a year ago before i knew jack shit about orv and the sentiment hit me SO HARD i just #havent been able to stop thinking about it for a whole year. like as soon as i finished 123 i immediately went to look for it in my archive #i checked the artist has a tumblr but that art is not on it and it bugs me so much i want them to know that they somehow like #managed to make art so painful it defeated both my non-orv reading self and my lifelong severe memory problems #i mean in comparison that line (that also went by alarmingly fast) about how without twsa back then like kdj would not be here today #like not so much to dig into just. Yikes #and him telling ysa all of this with that fucking smile on his face like thats the part that really gets to me just his *fucking expression

[totentnz]

if johnny only sees what v sees, does that mean he cant see them? it does right? or does he see them the way they *think* they look like? does johnny see who v sees in the mirror? in photos?

#sammy says shit #listen i still dont fully describe to 'i only see what you see' #HOWEVER #if any of the above does apply imagine the first fucking time he sees them for real #aka happy au #does johnny ever comment on vs apperance? aside from the not my type comment #im thinking about things and this just crossed my mind #is johnnys pov just him in a world that doesnt see him? doesnt react to him? #ofc sometimes people stop to look in his direction but they arent looking at /him/ #in the beginning does he reply to questions directed at v bc he thinks that person is talking to him?? #MY GOD someone send help him going insane over this #been thinking about johnny having no autonomy #nobody to talk to besides v #and how v knows this and tries to give him said autonomy as best as they can #see: the sharing meals post my queue spat out earlier #anyway im raving in the tags again... old habits do die hard huh #also i do think there is a difference between what own body johnny sees compared to what engram johnny sees #(talking about what v looks like) #but if my above thoughts are true... GODDAMN the potential

[deus-ex-mona]

goodnight~~~~~~~~~~

#moment of thinking about otp (nghy) over; time to rotate manhwa characters (seyoung and sangjae) in my mind instead— #g o d. isekai manhwa are a different kind fr #i can’t believe they reverse isekaied character(s) out of [insert manhwa here] and bodyswapped the character(s) of [other manhwa here]— #and the way they prioritise their happy endings above all else is just!!!!!!!!! auaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #the way how they reset the timeline so that they don’t lose their fallen pals along the way is just!!!! so!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!! #and!!!! the characters who both go along with ✨a n d✨ go against the protagonists’s desires in pursuit of their own self-interests is just!! #characters who prioritise their self interests over romance and stuff my beloved <3333333 #aND!!!!! WHEN THE SIDE CHARACTERS GAIN AGENCY AND BECOME FULLY FLESHED CHARACTERS IN THEIR OWN RIGHT!!!!!!!! AAAUAAUAAAAAAAAAAA #//slams head into pillow// so much for ‘insanity over’ h u h . . . #im. too far gone over these two series i swear. g o d i need to reread them again bye

[nazurabbit]

hey guys has anyone ever noticed that in earlier mvs nazuna doesnt wink at all and even seems to have less expressions compared to more recent mvs where he is a lot more free with his movements (rather than sort of robotic, like he was just doing what he was told) and he has more expression in his face which could symbolize how he slowly grew and realized that he was a part of ra*bits and belonged with them rather than just doing movements and being the perfect idol on stage, the one that shu always pushed him into being to the point that being perfect on stage was all he ever knew how to do

or maybe im just delusional

#i went insane over this earlier and like its not that other characters dont wink or have extra expressions #see this is exactly what i meant earlier #was this intentional by happyele probably not they arent looking into all of that #but i am so im fully accepting this now because its so cute #like if im overthinking why are the dots connecting yk #please say im not insane it makes sense to me #fully expecting someone to see this and go ‘oh enstars fans are insane’ and ykw ill take it atp #enstars #nazuna nito

[teteminne]

Just finished Hannibal.

This is the most brilliant shit i've ever seen in my entire life wtf

#hannibal #im still scared shitless to go out of my apartment to take a smoke #but it was so so worth it #omg this is insane how was this acrually produced #from time to time i just stare off into the nothingness and half gasp half laugh cause like #wtf #they were insane for this #bryan fuller was insane for this #and mads and hugh omg #this was so #i cant i cant #the way that hannibal knew that will knew he was in love with him #and will knew he knew that he knew #and there was just this implicit understanding between them #fully wordless #that carried the whole chapter #omg i am going insane over this i will never be normal again #my friends will all desert me I already got drunk af a couple days ago and said that 'sex is like cannibalism' #they wont be able to handle me now #omg omg omg

[moonsidesong]

i think its kinda funny that ibis paint is regarded as the Broke Artist App or whatever (as opposed to more mainstream programs like csp or procreate) because its free and because of how popular it is with phone + finger artists while im jusg sitting here having used ibis for a cool eight years on purpose.

like i have an ipad and an apple pencil and all theyre very nice and i absolutely could move to a more powerful program i have the resources to do so but my change averse brain has decided they like it here a lot and im not leaving

#not talking smack on phone and finger artists btw. some of my mutuals use their fingers and their art goes crazy i respect that so much #even when i did use my phone (most of 14 crush was done on a phone!) i still had to use a cheap rubber stylus hahaha #anyway maybe ill try procreate someday but also i hate learning new programs and i like ibis's brushes too much #fingers crossed that they add fully custom brushes someday though #like id love to be one of those artists that makes really cool art with ridiculous shapes and nobody even knows until they tell you #younger artists might not know this but modern ibis is STACKED compared to how it was in 2015 #like i remember when clipping layers were first implemented. and they sucked. like they didnt fully go over the lower layer #so it just left a gross tiny outline around the shape #and there wasnt any border or text tools either #and there was a hard cap on layer count depending on your device's storage and the canvas size #modifying brushes wasnt even a thing HAHAHAHAH you just used what you had #anyway okiku reference window unrelated shes just there for something else im working on<3 #bri talks #for the record all this is to say i think the smack talk towards ibis is pretty unwarranted #like yeah maybe its not as powerful as a lot of these fancy paid apps but i honestly think its insanely good for being a free program #i think getting rid of the ads costs more now than it did when i paid to get rid of them but i mean #free with ads is still a lot more than csp's ever gonna give you!!!! #(psst. secret from me to you! you wont get any ads if you disable the app's data usage and turn off wifi when you use it) #(alternatively just use airplane mode but you can still get texts and stuff the first way)

[ruairy]

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#had theeeee worst battle of my whole bg3 life yesterday when i went to rescue halsin #hadn't saved for a billion years #had no short rests left #didnt think that maybe i should go and long rest before entering the worg pens bc i maaaybbee had none of my good spells or healing spells #instead i ran in and got stuck in a battle where my guys kept eternally dying over and over #rinsed most of my potions and revifys trying to Stay alive #halsin was the Only reason i got through the fight at all #and then after the fight i had two dead party members no healing spells to get my guys enough hp to get out of turn based #and go to camp #astarion was stuck on like 4 hp woth necrotic damage and kep Dying as soon as a switched off turn based #shadowheart kept stepping in fire surface and caustic brine that i had no way to get rid of #had to rinse More revify scrolls toget to a point i could get to camp #left gale behind so i could do his silly revival quest and hes the only reason I didn't go insane bc hes adorable #i am Only on balanced mode i cant believe how bad i am at this game #i am Dreading the fight in the house of grief and vs orin i had soooooo much trpuble with them in explorer #and im using different builds so idek if i can use the tech i ended up using to beat those fights #i was going to take shadowheart down a mixed cleric druid build #but now im like no........maybe i need a dedicated healer actually...... #luckily i was then fully healed to take on dror ragzlin #and it was mostly an easy fight #but lmao

[achilleslyre]

H.HELLO ????

#i need a fucking moment #this is the most impulsive purchase i have literally ever made #i am going THRU it in the most excited way possible #on the floor screaming crying wailing #FUCKING ITACHI AND SASUKE........... #THEYRE BOTH JUST BOYS 😭😭😭😭 #THEIR SMILES #and omfg.... ame trio and team taka...... #im going insane rn #i can’t even articulate how i feel rn…….. i’m so everything…… #THEYRE SO EVERYTHING #i’m never gonna get over this ever. btw. #RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #(we're NOT gonna talk about how i used money from my saving to get this. ok we're just not gonna mention it) #(to be fair my saving was mostly incase i couldn't get surgery covered but it'll be fully covered so.... a treat) #anyways. might just pass away.. #naruto #jitter bugs u

[nomaishuttle]

now heres the thing is my rule is i have to live on my own for a year before im allowed to get a pet but also consider what if i had a little friend .

#in my heart i want a wawa so badly it hurts but alsoooo i worry quite a bit bc like. i work full time... so el wawa would be at home alone a #lot and one thing about the beautiful adorable majestic chihuahua is they have to pee every 3-4 hours. so i would have to have some way to #let them out OR keep them outside while im at work but another thing is 1. apartments dont generally have backyards #2. chihuahuas get cold very easily .... i could do some ssort of doggy daycare but i fear that would be expensive .... and i hate pee pads #and would prefer not 2 use them so i dont rly have much optionn 😭 but i want a chihuahua so badly. #but ALSO. a kitty cat.... i love cats i think theyre really quite sweetsies and also i think they could handle living in an apartment bette #esp since famously cats use the bathroom indoors. u may know. #so... i could potentially get a kitty..... but also i dont want to get one until im absolutely positive i could take good care of it and i #feel like i could esp now that ive got a system that works so well 4 motivating me to do my daily tasks yk. and also i think if i had my ow #apartment id feel a lot safer just like. being up and around the apartment so thatd be good... but also pets r expensive. but also the apt #i just applied to is rly quite cheap (like 1050 a month) its income restricted but i qualify by like a lot LMAO... n this would be perfect #bc 1050 is likee. not even a full paycheck i could pay rent with 1 paycheck and still have like 150 left over and then my other paycheck fo #the month is fully mine... so i could save up lots #+ wsg is included in the rent whichhh is insane. adn the apartment is cute and Trust . alarm bells were going off a bit bc i was like maybe #this is too good to be true we all remember the 800$ scam incident. but its a verified listing and i checked the propertymanagers and theyr #legit... its even got a washer and dryer IN UNIT and also a fitness center which is good bc i wanna try n start doing more cardio... #IT EVEN HAS A FIREPLACE i dont particularly need a fireplace but its cool 2 have one i could make smores right in my very own living room #AND ITS NOT A STUDIO its a 1 br... #grahhh i rly rly rly want ittt ik i prolly wont get it but :[

[roseband]

a short list of how the rose are trying to nuke their idol image from orbit:

banana boys

the tour bus question (2 beds, 4 grown ass men)

smoking (sammy)

vaping and talking about wanting unlimited vape fluid (hajoon)

living off of sour candies (looking at you sammy =_=)

one of them wearing a fucking ring on his ring finger during backstage meet and greets (seen by 3 fans now, will not mention which member)

uploading a vid of dojoon yelling at a roadie (but like... guys sound has to work)

every single time ws flips everyone off

#im currently giffing the two banana boy incidents lol #personal #(i said i'd take a week break from giffing but nahhhhh even though my brain is literally melted rn lmao) #i still have to write for work tho ;_; (both the...'yes i do agree with the raise discussed in review' and the documentation #of my excel function sheet and the associated adobe automation process that goes with) #but my art vp and brand manager both praised me on my presentation (GOD i hope the raise my boss put me in for gets fully approved #(cause i got praised by ppl like.... 2-3 positions above him today lol) #it would literally mean over 3 years i'd have doubled my income LOL.... i got hired as an artist #but somehow (being insane) got pushed into this sorta hybrid role where i talk to factories a bunch #and go on the factory tours (while looking like...12 which i hate) and have to do the sales art presentations #and do automation of some of the art workload... but i am getting MONEY out of it lol.... gotta push for that lean-fi;re)

[ovaruling]

feral cat captured and neutered 💥❗️❗️‼️ he did really well and is currently in recovery and is sooo seepy-eepy. vet gruffly said he was older than we estimated bc it was “tougher to pull his balls out” than it would’ve been if he was young

#he also has what the vet called ‘the weirdest metabolism i’ve ever seen in a cat’ #even wjth the ketamine. he still wasn’t fully paralyzed in movement. it was so weird #we had problems trying to sedate him before where the vets gave up bc he WOULDNT go to sleep. it was insane. #this cat is a Freak i love him #im soooo relieved to have this done!!!! #he was so belligerent #and an escape artist #we have now officially captured & neutered 11 strays i think? #and we kept them all lol #3 have since passed on over the years #so he will be a great addition to the group once he stops wanting to testosterone-tussle