#im jst kinda sick of it here

[erial-c]

my top ten redacted boys (because i am but a bandwagoner of trends)

1. sam - took me a bit to like him ( haven't even finished his playlist yet) but god his character hurts me, he and darlin have gone through so much shit . the video talking about the future with your vampire mate basically sealed the deal on him being my favorite character, and after reading one of the bright eyes series transcripts, it makes me even more interested in his character . (and his southern accent may or may not have awakened something in me)

2. avior - is it obvious i like tragic characters yet . his series is one of the first ones i've listened to fully, and the chokehold that the plot twist had on me was insane . the realization that he had loved starlight so much that he deus ex machina'd them out of the hellscape, and then was silently YEARNING when they were pulled back . i was sobbing you don't understand officer. also love his early sarcastic personality (despite it being a facade) and his constant need to wax poetic, i wish we still saw a little bit of that in his newer audios though

3. guy - ohh the love of my life . the only comfort character ever . babygirl . he does exude millennial cringe sometimes but i can gloss over all that because i love him  🫶🫶🫶 also love his dynamic with honey they r so cute together . his flashback audio is so good AUGGHH the tension . personal favorite audio of him though is his first sick video , because i am THE guy angst enthusiast and it's the closest i'll ever get to it . he is sooo silly idc i always binge his playlist when i can't sleep (ironically i always listen to the one where he attempts to help honey sleep and it works 🫶)

4. lasko - babygirl #2 🤞🤞🤞 love him he is just an overall sweet character . i've also said this before but, him being labelled early on as submissive irked me because i usually found those character tropes annoying and they tended to be infantilized . but the thing is with lasko its not his entire characterization , he's still a very good professor at the academy and ughhhqhh i know how 2explain it i jst love him (also. his slip up in the hot boi summer audio. he is freaky .)

5. geordi - his and cutie's story is so interesting . i love their storyline so much even if it hurts to listen to the audios . they're both flawed characters in a relationship but they're still taking the necessary steps to be better. additionally, while i definitely don't stand for the shit cutie did, i can relate to them in the sense of needing to know what people are thinking to function properly, which is probably another reason why geordi and his storyline hits so close to my heart . (is that corny. maybe)

6. asher - one of the reasons im in the fandom tbh !! he's one of the first characters i got into, specifically his valenweek flashback audio i ate that shit up . . i don't listen to him that much now but still !!! i owe me being here to his character lol

7. hush - creature/babygirl . i was kinda intimidated to listen to his playlist (for god's sake his title is "mysterious stranger") but ohhhh i love him he is so strange. tying doc up in one video and then asking them to hold his hand a few videos later??? love that . him showing up in carpe deus and fucking wrecking vega kinda sealed it for me . love theorizing about him too, if that's not obvious 🫶

8. porter - when i heard the voice that this character had. i can't even explain to you what my reaction was . he's such a fucking diva i love it so much , this guy is like 80% snark, and he just fucks with vincent for no reason .(when he said he was gonna bring treasure to the summit but didn't 😭) he's also so interesting . while ya he was sent to go to the summit and assassinate a clan king (which he succeeded in) he told sweetheart about the bennets discussing their partnership with closeknit so they could get necessary info, he provided an alibi for vincent, he also stopped grilling sam when darlin told him to . (also his 2nd video with treasure . killed me tbh)

9. marcus - not proud to admit that marcus is the first character i came across on erik's channel . marcus is weirdo number 1 (derogatory) and i just find his storyline so interesting. yeah its sad why he did what he did, but overall he knew what he was doing , he fucked everyone else over, and compromised a project, of which the failure could mean life and death, just because he wanted to get freaky with the robot . his obsession and little impulse control being overrun by the asset's obsession with him. GOD . . the satisfaction i felt when he was taken away 🫶

10. caller - weirdo (compliment) . again as a horror enthusiast i love this guy . he's like ghostface but if ghostface could phase through walls/was already in your house (and also weird and obsessive) . his audio made me have the same reaction when watching horror content : "holy shit i love this but also i hate this" 10/10 . he's only last because he has one (1) video . 💔

honorable mention:

gavin - GAVIN LOVE OF MY LIFFEEEE . i really did wanna put him on my list but i haven't listened to the freelancer series properly yet!!!! this is not a matter of him being my least favorite but rather not knowing much about him in depth yet !!!!

#this took way to long #but i had to #i have a few hot takes #because i am interested in the weird characters #is it obvious #redacted audio #redacted asmr #redactedverse #redacted fandom

[jun1sb0r3d-af]

Why have you stopped writing?

I personally really enjoyed your little drabbles and found writing inspiration in them.

For whatever reason it is I hope it was on your own accord and you enjoyed your stay while it lasted!

💐

I stopped writing cause of my schedule and because of my health, ive been participating in a lot of clubs, competitions, event, etc. While still being kinda sick. That i couldn’t keep up with writing here but im thinking of posting my drafts cause its jst gonna rot there hihi

#jun’s — general #jun’s — randoms!! #jun’s — thinking ‘bout?? #jun’s — rants #jun being stressed bcs of schoolworks. #jun’s — skl’s #jun answering anon :))

[hoofpeet]

urgh stupid vent in the tags or whtv

#//god #i really try not to be petty w these sort of things but like. #i have increasingly no idea what people want from me #like ive been on tumblr for a little over 4 years now #but my notes are almost completely stagnant at all times #it just feels like nobody gives a shit about the drawings i actually like #when my most popular posts are hs drawings that i dont care about #but i literally DONT WANNA be a hs blog #i wanna make comics and shit??? #and i know notes arent super important but like. those posts get 3 notes max #and its at the point where i feel trapped by tumblr #cause i just dont know how to balance these things out #i dont wanna put days of effort into a little comic to get ice cold reception from people waiting for me to draw karkat again or whatever #im jst kinda sick of it here #tumblr kinda makes me feel clausterphobic

[kristalpepsi]

So I'm a singlet and idk very much about systems, I've been following u for a little while but I saw ur drawing of Chara coming back on New Years and I got the impression that it was a depiction of an actual event? Like, a literal memory, not a dramatization or a metaphor or w/e. When y'all aren't fronting are you just straight up chilling and interacting in like a... perceivably physical place?

HLLO srry 4 gettin 2 thise L8!! Ur talkin abt thise post!

Yea bro! So if we draw comics of ourslvs, they’re prtty mch like us documenting whts happnd! I think i cn sy 20-30% of wht we drw is us jst journaling inspce stff. Its 100% NOT a mtphr, tht comic ws me quotin exctly wht hppnd n wht it lookd like inspce :^0

As an explan8ion, sniff, Christmas absltly SUCKD like it ws so bd, id sy it ws trmtzng 2 bc nw we associ8 christms w wht hppnd, i dnt wnna explain wht hppnd bc i dnt rlly hav 2, b it wsnt gr8 n we get rlly sick thinkin abt it. So like THAT day, dec 25-26, e realized every1. Dissappeard. Like the whole MFC+ ws unavailabl n missing? 4 half a month they were gone n i kno it dsnt snd like a long time b i promis it ws a long time bc everyth ws kinda uoside dwn

Time skip (n skippng all the cryng bc it ws just me and Sal left here n we missd thm so mch, wew ere so worried abt them if thy were safe etc) 2 New Years, I was crying next 2 ENA, we recntly split her the day after Christmas bc of the Stress™️, I rmmbr i ws even thinkin “i hop i get triggrd by the fireworks so mayb itll scare me so mch Peter wld front” n thats a VERY unhealthy thought, do not Do Tht

B yea tht ddnt work b an hour after New years,,, litrlly that comic happnd n i was SO EMOTIONAL they rlly said “im gnna surprise Kris while he’s cryng n make it like thos movies wher the loved 1 comes back 2 life” /j

Idk wht else 2 sy aftr tht! It happnd in the headspce, i ws crying bith irl n inspce, n in the headspce i heard “teleport noise” they hd this jst rlly calm happy expression n it ws so,,,, good :,^)

I ws so hppy 2 c them again tht I HAD 2 drw it so i cld rmmbr it n i CLDNT exPLAIN the feelng of wht it lookd n felt like so i hd 2 drw it so i cld sho ppl!

ANYWY 2 answr ur OTHR qstion, ys we hav smth calld a headspace (thers diffrnt ways 2 call it; innerworld, mindscape, “the inside”, etc)

In our systm, whn we’re not frontin , were in the headspce! It’s prtty big 4 us n afaik we all hav our own rooms :^0 the MFC lives in 1 area inside the mansion tht weve startd calling The Dorms, b its knda like hotel? Even tho we ddnt,,,,, build higher n lower floors thers an elevator 4 som rsn? Skjlh,snjsidk y its ther b i think thats new n if u take it down it can take u 2 Jamie’s floor, yea she has an entire floor 2 herself w fake doors excpt 2 hers if u turn 2 the left cornr . Its also an old elevator like thers no actual doors, its the cagey door thts fancy n floral dkdjsk

We hav a meadow, a huge forst, a ruind city, etc! We hav a frontin room that has no walls, its litrlly jst a Void i guess? b thats not even the REAL void

We call the real void the Void-void or Real Void, the real void is like the 4th wll if u hav the power 2 clip thru the headspce like a vidya game OR if its an accdnt

As far as i knw, the ONLY! Ppl who cn do tht is Chara and Asriel (UT) (im nt sirprsd)

Alven also had tht power b hes in a lng sleep rn,, or hes 4gottn hw 2 do it. Jaiden im nt sre b he is abl 2 swim thru it

Tho i rcmmnd not stayin int he void-void 4ever bc Twilight ws stuck ther 1nce n nw has problms KHSKS ok im done infodumpin

#ask #SRRY 4 INFODUMPIN #talkn abt headspce FUN b also its WY 2 mch we hav wy 2 much histry 2 put in 1 ask #o we 4got we need 2 burn dwn n destry so mny thngs in the hdspce #so nw our map is gnna b innaccur8 b its fine skhdkd #anon #SRRY #headspace #chara #about us #singlet #singlets #taggng thise so u cn find urself lol

[hypmic-info]

Pursuit of the Flowing Hair Dollar Chapter 3 - The Stolen Collection

We’re in pursuit now. This event lasts until the 10th of June 10:59 JST. We switch scene to Samatoki and Jyuto on another kind of pursuit - and Samatoki’s going to make this thief regret it.

JYUTO We wouldn’t have been able to arrest all these drug traffickers without your intel, so you have my thanks.

SAMATOKI It wasn’t trying to give you lot a tip. You just happened to appear at the same time I was gonna take these guys out.

JYUTO I managed to get something out of it, so there’s no problem. No matter. … I know you’re always irritated, but you seem even worse than usual. What’s wrong?

SAMATOKI It’s the boss… he left me with a pretty annoying job.

JYUTO My my. Not the sort of thing you can turn down, hm?

SAMATOKI I wanted to, but I’ve never seen him so depressed...

JYUTO And what sort of job did he give you?

SAMATOKI His collection got stolen.

JYUTO Hoh? A collection? What sort of things was he collecting?

SAMATOKI I dunno much, but he was into collecting old coins ‘n stuff.

JYUTO Not a bad choice, if I do say so myself. So then, what kind of coins were stolen?

[ Samatoki takes out a coin ]

SAMATOKI This.

JYUTO Hm….Ah!?

SAMATOKI … What. What’s up with your face?

JYUTO No wonder he was depressed, with THAT being taken from him.

SAMATOKI You know what this thing is?

JYUTO I’m not expert on coins, but even I know what it is - that’s a ‘flowing hair dollar’

SAMATOKI Huh? Fu… Follow…? [1]

JYUTO The flowing hair dollar… is an extremely rare coin, known to be one of the most expensive in the world, valued at over 10 million dollars.

SAMATOKI Y-You serious… This thing’s worth that much?

JYUTO Why didn’t he report this to the police?

SAMATOKI Dumbass. What kinda yakuza leader would go to the cops? There’s no honour in running to the cops about it. 

JYUTO Well, that depends.

SAMATOKI Besides… he might’ve gotten it illegally anyways.

JYUTO … I’ll just pretend I didn’t hear anything. Well then, have you gotten any leads?

SAMATOKI I guess. Some punks hanging about our turf’s got somethin’ to do with it apparently. 

JYUTO Then you can go find them already, right?

SAMATOKI Yeah but… the thing is, they’ve already moved on from that place.

JYUTO That so…

SAMATOKI ...I know they’re gonna be having some gamble rap battle soon, but I don’t know where…

JYUTO Gamble rap battle huh… Could it be that you’re talking about the ‘HANABI’ group?

SAMATOKI Yeah. You know somethin’?

JYUTO I’ve some intel on them from another case I’m working on… Should I tell you?

SAMATOKI ...What do you want in return?

JYUTO Nothing. Just think of it as thanks for leading me to the drug traffickers.

SAMATOKI Then hurry up and tell me what you know.

JYUTO Ah, alright alright… They’re at…

[ The screen fades as Jyuto recounts information ]

SAMATOKI ...Shinjuku, huh?

JYUTO Yes. I heard that battle starts tonight. You should head over there quickly.

SAMATOKI Just you buggers [2] wait... Imma teach them to regret picking a fight with us...

JYUTO ...Go a little easy on them, won’t you?

SAMATOKI No promises…

[ SAMATOKI heads out. The scene shifts to a shady parking lot. ]

RAP THUG A Right. Which one of y’all is next? I’mma beat you so bad I’ll rip the hairs off ya assholes! 

RAP THUG B He’s already beaten over 10 people…

RAP THUG C Betting on him seems safe.

BOSS Hahaha… We’re gonna be hella rich after this.

SUBORDINATE Yeah. They’re so stupid not to realise this shit’s rigged.

RAP THUG D Gyaaaaaa!

BOSS ...What’s going on?

[ SAMATOKI walks onto the scene ]

SAMATOKI Time for some pest control…

RAP THUG B Ah! Samatoki Aohitsugi!

RAP THUG C Wh-Why…

SUBORDINATE W-What should we do…?

LEADER ...L-Let’s sick them on ‘im and split while we can…

[ SAMATOKI actives his mic and- ]

RAP THUGS GYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

LEADER No way… He took them all out…

[ SAMATOKI walks closer ]

SAMATOKI You the one in charge here?

LEADER Hiih…

SAMATOKI Where’d you put it… the coin you stole…

LEADER I’ll get killed if I snitch…

[ SAMATOKI hits him ]

SAMATOKI You wanna get killed now then?...

LEADER Hiih… I-I get it…. Nio-san of the Shoujou Family has it…

SAMATOKI ...His name’s read Kaitsuburi

LEADER Y-Yes… Kaitsuburi-san told me to do it…

SAMATOKI Tch… That little maggot…

- - - - - - - - - -

[1] Flowing Hair Dollar -  The Flowing Hair dollar was the first dollar coin issued by the United States federal government. It’s worth a lot. A lot.

[2] Buggers - The actual word used is ‘carrion beetle’ but it didn’t fit the tone.

[3] The kanji above Samatoki’s desk reads 不撓不屈 ( ふとうふくつ ) which loosely means 'indomitable' or 'tenacity' i.e. to stand up to adversity, hold your ground, not give up etc. [ From Mod Nile ]

< Chapter 2 | Chapter 4 >

#hypmic #hypmic arb #samatoki aohitsugi #jyuto iruma #flowing hair dollar #mod thia

[emikangarchive]

my student debt: you should find a job :) my dumbass: what if you.. rejoined pinkyswear.... and brought a new muse? jk! unless...

hellooo it’s mar ! i was in pinky the first run with niko & jane and jst couldn’t resist coming back bc this truly is a special place uwu anyways ! i’ve brought a new muse this time who i’m dying to write and develop -- fun fact yeri is my ult bias and the fact i haven’t ever played her is ridiculous ? so i hope u like her !! cue quickfire facts under the cut -- link to her pinterest board here

* kim yerim. she/her. cisfemale. ╱ i am pretty sure i saw emi kang at manon’s party that night. the twenty year old is in their third year at west bridge studying theatre. i hear they were at manon’s party because she wanted to know why manon unfollowed her on ig. i wonder if they got the same restricted call as us. will they comply? + laughing until your ribs hurt, impromptu dinner dates in stolen hoodies & dainty clips holding unruly hair. ◜ mar. 22. est. she/her. ◞

BACKGROUND

- she’s from a decently well off family bt that’s mostly bc her parent’s were v frugal so when she was younger she would wear knockoff brands to ‘fit in’ 

- has a twin brother named elio that’s doing a year abroad in england this term and they’re exactly how you would expect twins to be -- hate each other 90% of the time, actually love each other 10%  

- wants to be an actress !! has always loved stories and playing different roles. used to entertain herself with putting on small skits for her family tho only elio would end up paying attention 

- her first choice for college was actually tisch in nyc but she didn’t get in sadly ;( bt no one rly knows that bc she tells them she picked wbu bc she wanted to have ‘humble beginnings’ lmao 

- she’s a social butterfly both in person and on social media -- she’s got a pretty decent following on twitter and ig & def keeps up with the latest memes. can keep a conversation with anyone unless ur dry and boring then she’ll jst leave 

- she can come off kinda fake or rude sometimes bt that’s prob bc she has a cynical sense of humour and will make fun of you in a loving way (this is one example)

- has feelings of inadequacy bc of her parents and wants to prove to everyone who she can become. bit of an inferiority complex too

- rly comfortable and affectionate with people like hitting arms, holding hands, falling asleep on someone’s shoulder is just in her nature, and sometimes she is unintentionally flirty 

- can’t handle her alcohol like at all. rly needs someone to teach her how to drive. hates her small program of theatre kids 

- on the debate team ! bc girl loves to argue 

- has a collection of stuffed animals that live on her bed bc.. emotional support . 

- likes to ‘borrow’ stuff from friends and jst conveniently forgets to return them. also always inviting herself to other people’s plans or homes. can’t rly keep secrets well ??

“yeah i’m a BRAT --  Busy Reading All my own Tweets bc they make me laugh”

MANON 

- manon and emi were kinda of like lowkey rivals ? or more like emi was always trying to get herself up to manon’s standards or whatever and wanted to be a part of her inner circle and at one point they did become friendly but then manon unfollowed emi and that threw her off. thus she went to her party out of spite lmao and look where that got her

- right after that she jetted off to england for her brother’s move in day -- she initially wasn’t gonna go bt after the party she was like ok g2g ! and only came back a week after school had started. not a good look em, not a good look

- thinks this whole blackmailing thing is some sick joke, rly wishes it would stop and she hates that she was involved in this -- she does feel guilty that manon died bt thinks she’s innocent in all this

and those r the basics !! i’m still figuring her out and i don’t want this to get too long so i’ll leave it there but like this if you’d like to plot something ! no real connection ideas... bc im trash bt anything from romantic to hateships to dream teams to roommates to obscure ways of meetings lol im down for it all !! we can brainstorm ! im bad at checking my discord bt if you prefer to plot there jst lmk ok luv y’all uwu

#pinky.intro #Messy™

[lovemesomesurveys]

What’s your name, baby? ;] Ew the “baby” made me cringe lol, but anyway my name is Stephanie. And how are you doing on this fine day? It’s been a typical meh kinda day. Alright, enough of that. We all know how boring that shit is. So, do you believe in any conspiracy theories? lol. Some of them made me question and wonder, but mostly I just find stuff like that fun and interesting. Do you prefer actual books or those weird devices like the Kindle? I use the Kindle app on my phone and it works great for me. I have access to thousands of books at my fingertips.  Is there a certain social networking site you just can’t stay away from? Tumblr, apparently. 10 years and going strong, ha.

Do you prefer female or male vocalists? I like both. How do you feel about the oil spill in the Gulf? * I dont know which oil spill ur referring to exactly, but its obviously not a good thing. Is there anyone (w a SOUL) who actually thinks that oil spills or environmental catastrophes are a positive thing? Like, it jst rlly MAKES THEIR DAY to hear abt nature being destroyed? <<< HA, right. Like, “Oh, I feel pretty great about it!” Around what time do you start feeling tired enough to go to sleep? I mean, I’m fighting sleep all day if we’re being real. But I usually go to sleep around 2ish or so. What trends do you refuse to give in to? * Im not a vry trendy person to begin w so its not like Im sitting here trying to resist giving into something, lmao. There are plenty of trends that dont interest me whatsoever, tho. I only partake in something if it suits me, not to be up w the times or relevant or whatever <<< I’m the same way.  What types of perfume/cologne do you like on your preferred sex? A lot of colognes smell pretty great. I really like cedar wood and sandalwood. What subjects in history interest you most? A lot of it does.  When was the last time you went bowling? Back in 2009, I think.  Are you superstitious in any way? I sometimes don’t like to say certain things out loud out of fear of making it come true. Oh, and I do the “knock on wood” thing, but that’s really more out of habit.  How do you get rid of anxiety? Ha, I’d sure like to know. Do you find it easy to express your feelings to someone? Nooo.  ^How about when you really, really care for that person? Expressing my feelings is something I really struggle with in general. Are there any items of jewelry you never/rarely take off? Nope. Has a song ever made you cry before? Yeah, many songs have. ^If so, what about it brought you to tears? Memories attached to it or the lyrics. Some songs just sound sad, ya know? Are you a more of a homebody, or someone who’s always out with friends? I’ve become a total hermit crab over these past few years. I don’t have friends or a social life anymore. What’s the title of the book nearest to you? There’s several books on my bookshelf nearby. Are you materialistic? No, I wouldn’t say that. I mean, I do like my MacBook and my iPhone I admit, but that’s like the biggest thing. Describe the person you like/love in five words. I don’t like or love anyone in the romantic sense currently. Would you consider yourself open-minded? I think so. Is there anything in your life right now that needs fixing? Everything? I’m a mess. Are you old fashioned in any way? I feel like I am with some things. Do you find yourself correcting people’s grammar often? Only mentally. I don’t call ‘em out on it. When was the last time someone gave you a massage? Never. Reese’s ice cream: Yay or nay? Yay. Tell me something about yourself that I might find interesting. I share enough in surveys. Would you say that the simple things in life make you happy? Some things do, like my first cup of coffee in the morning. Aren’t cinnamon rolls downright heavenly? :3 They are quite delicious. When was the last time you were in an amazingly awesome mood? I don’t even remember. Do you come up with your own words or sayings often? No. Have you ever been on Fmylife.com? xD Yeah. I used to go on there often back in the day. It was pretty entertaining. Which holiday do you dislike most? There isn’t one I really dislike, just ones that I’m not as into. Were you ever into that gel bracelet craze? Yeah. Do you have any scars on the palms of your hands? No. What’s the first thing you think of when I say ‘pearl necklace’? I think of the really nice one I used to have that broke. :( How do you handle stress? Not well. Have you ever had jury duty? I’ve received the jury notice summons or whatever a few times, but I always get excused because of health reasons. Gummi worms: Yay or nay? Nay. I don’t like gummy stuff. What do you do when you have 'me time’? I have a lot of “me” time and I do the things I’ve listed countless times now in surveys. What’s your opinion on Weird Al Yankovic? I liked some of his parodies.  Have you ever met someone online that you wanted to meet in real life? Yeah, several people.  Is there something you need to get off your chest at the moment? Blah. What would be a clever name for a giraffe? * Who’s that guy from Kiss w the long-ass tongue? Lets call the giraffe that <<< Gene Simmons? Hahah. Do you always mean it when you say 'I love you’? Yes. Those aren’t words I just throw around. When was the last time you got your car washed? I don’t have a car of my own, I don’t drive. Give me an example of a sick death metal band. I don’t listen to that kind of music. How often do you listen to bands from other countries? I like some artists from Sweden and the UK. Do you tan easily? No. I used to when I was a kid, but probably because I spent like all day outside back then. Now cause I very rarely spend much time outdoors, anytime I spend a significant amount of time outdoors (like at the beach) I burn. When was the last time you entertained yourself with shadow puppets? :3 Not since I was a kid.

#personal #text #survey #surveys

[roseamongroses]

Antithesis: “what do you have? “ I have a kNIFE” “NO”

[Specific-Summary]: They should expect growing pains. For not everything to feel right or make sense. That doesn't mean it'll always hurt, nor does it mean they can't have fun along the way. It's senior year. Everything may be different. It won't be senior year for long. Everything will be okay.

[General Warnings]: Implied Emotional Abuse, Implied Physical Abuse, Bad Parents are Bad Parents, Mild Sexual Content/jokes,Mentioned Homophobia, Mentions of underage drinking (backround), Some Catcalling,Cursing , Self Hate,implied pregnancy talk/inability to become pregnant, adults arguing where the “kid” can hear it, adults drinking,

[Tags/mood:] highschool au,  fluff and angst but its all good, chat fic, teen stress, its flordia no snow we die like men [Pairing:] Roceit (Roman Sanders/ Deceit Sanders), hinted future/possible logince/roloceit/loceit [Characters]Roman Sanders/Deceit (Dmitri) Sanders, Virgil Sanders, Logan Sanders, Patton Sanders, Remy (Sleep) Sanders, Nate Sanders, Dragon Witch (Diana) Remus “The Duke” Sanders (minor/brief)

(Ao3) (Previously)

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L: I May Have Lost Roman

V: nice

P: not nice :)

V: i feel vaguely threatened

Rem:@L how the fuck did you manage that Rem: nvm i know how just give me details

L:I don’t know ? One second we were at check out L: Next minute he was Gone and Nieve is looking suspicious

L:Hold on lemme ask Dmitri

V: why is he there

L: I mean he’s actually pretty chill L: But he dropped Roman off and Nieve got attached L:I’m...not sure if she’s planning on letting him go?

V:logan, my friend, my buddy, V:the only person in this chat with basic reading comprehension

Rem: that’s pretty fair

P: it really is tbh

V: Send. Pictures.

L: Okay L: Slight Issue

V: you lost the snake too

L: I lost Dmitri too and Nieve is not spilling

Rem: oh they’re defeinately fucking

L:...Where? The bathroom?

Rem: Don’t knock it till you try it ;)

V: not to be that guy but im vetoing this discussion V: cause thats a Yikes even for you Remy

L: Alright time to find them

Rem: check ;))) the;))) bathrooms ;;))))

L: Remy.

Rem: alrighlright too far ill stop

L: Thank you.

V: keep me updated V: i only have silence and physics homework as company

L:Huh L:Found them

L: Roman….found a katanna…

V: im sorry WHAT V: Why The Fuck Does He Have A Sword

Rem: drop the location of that store man

L: 1) It’s a Katanna L: 2)I will certainly Not. L: 3) He’s trying to convince Dmitri why he should have it

L…..and Dmitri looks more amused then concerned

V: if I can't have a tarantula he sure as hell cant have a sword

L:I told him it was probably fake/ poorly made and that he should take the time to invest the proper skill in money in a real one

V: goddamit logan you cant logic roman.

L: It worked. He put it back. L: So I say I can do what I want with roman

Rem: some spicy takes from the chats only brain cell ;)

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“So you’re turning eighteen, in a few months. ” His aunt said, dabbing her cheeks with a napkin. She still managed to hold an air of prestige despite getting utterly shitfaced the night before. Her appointments have been going well.

Dmitri looked up, masking his surprise and holding his tongue.

Dr. Montag looked over, quieting the running water and placing the dish was he was cleaning down, “Really?” he said, brushing his hands, “You got any plans?” he asked, Dmitri.

“Oh we usually do something small,” His aunt interjected, “But seeing as he’s my father’s favorite grandchild,” Only grandchild, “He’s is flying from Paris to join us. And he was never a man of modesty so I’ve been thinking about doing something special for the occasion.”

Oh.

Dmitri fought the smile creeping on his face, ducking his head. He shouldn’t be surprised that she remembered after all if his grandfather was visiting. It’s how he got his phone, laptop, his car.

It’s probably why she puts up with him, to begin with. Cause it wasn’t guilt.

“--We should get your hair cut,” She continued, and Dmitri snapped out of his thoughts, “Maybe invite Diana--he’d like her,” she murmured.

“Diana and I a-” He closed his mouth, and his aunt’s eyes shot over.

“You broke up?” She narrowed her eyes, examining her nails, “Huh, makes sense seeing as...” she gestured at him vaguely, “So who have you been sneaking around with?”

“I’m not sneaking around with anyone,” Dmitri said, meeting her gaze. And technically he was right, it’s not sneaking if she just hasn’t been asking. And he’s given up on telling.

Dr. Montag’s eyebrows knitted together confused,” Well that isn’t true,”

Dmitri’s eyes went wide, stomach sinking.

His Aunt’s grin spread, “Oh really?”

Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck--

“He’s been helping me out, hon,” Dr. Montag set down a glass of water and pills beside her plate, “You’ve been so stressed lately,” he looked guilty and produced some tickets, “I thought I’d surprise you.”

Her face softened and like that the tension left the room. Those two got to linger in whatever lovey-dovey spell had taken hold of them in the last few months, but Dmitri was still on edge.

She still kept him on edge, but he could get her back. Even the playing field. Anytime he could leave this—Anytime he could flip this switch and put her on edge and make her—

He stopped eating, setting his plate aside.

He felt sick.

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R:helllloooo R:anyone up R: sigh R: allll by mySELLLLF

L: Roman?

R: the one and lonely yes hello human contact???

L: Are you alright? It’s 3 am why are you still awake?

R: why are YOU up mm????

L: My parents have newborn twins. What’s your excuse?

R: well fuck got me there

R: i was texting dee but he was rlly tired and i stILL can’t sleep

L: Any particular reason?

R: u m

L: Private chat?

R: please

- [TheTruthAboutTheMoon]

TheWalkingMouth: Okay shoot

Cowboy:it's stupid

TheWalkingMouth: I’ll tell you if it's stupid or not just say it

Cowboy: i just….like Cowboy: it's all kinda….hitting me a ll at once and i Really don’t like thinking about it but i cant bottle shit up either like you bastards so i feel like the human equivelent og a washing machine with too much laundry in it

TheWalkingMouth: Then don’t? TheWalkingMouth: Even if it's too ‘stupid’ for me I’m sure Dmitri wouldn’t mind

Cowboy: yeah but i feel like im going to say something shitty to him i Cowboy: like we should talk about it Cowboy: and i will Cowboy: but not now--later when it's not too stressful for either of us

TheWalkingMouth: Why would you say something shitty?

Cowboy: idk id jst get frustrated trying to explain it Cowboy: like hes smart as hell and probbaly get it without me saying anything but like Cowboy: I have neither the patience nor articulation right now to explain like a civil person and he doesnt need me being shitty about it

Cowboy:like,,,,,for example,,,,, if he fucks up in school, he’ll get recommended a tutor and teachers would assume hes doing his best and hes such a sweet and quiet boy

Cowboy: like he is sweet!!but hes a little shit too!! And gets away with it!!! Half those pranks he pulled on virgil, as Iconic as they were he never got in trouble for them!!!

Cowboy: when i fuck up i

Cowboy: god it's stupid

TheWalkingMouth: Might not get a second chance? Yeah I get it.

TheWalkingMouth:Remember when I first transferred here? None of the teachers would take me seriously bc of my accent and if they did, they were afraid of me. I could repeat something another kid said word for word and still be told I had an attitude.

Cowboy: god i remembered that Cowboy: you answered his yes or no questions in a fuckin montone, quiet ass voice and he legit called in the office cause he got scared of a goddamn freshman

Cowboy: But ye when i fuck up Cowboy: im suddenly the lazy ass brown kid who should spend less time corrupting youth with my feminine hips and curls Cowboy: like it's not like a lot of them say it outright but it feels like if im not perfect im fufilling all the stereotypes

TheWalkingMouth: Ah okay, rant away

Cowboy: OK like like like im not like virgil right?? in a lot of ways and it fuckin shows

Cowboy: he’s been planning on going into engineering since sixth grade meanwhile i only got my shit together in highschool

Cowboy: and like now that im here/???what now??? My mother expects me to have my shit together meanwhile im over here freaking the fuck out over whether not it's worth it to even try Cowboy: like yes mother i want to go to an art/or librel arts school that may or may not accept me that we may or may not afford to find a career in who the hell knows because if i have to sit in a healthcare class or a applied mathmatics class like you did i miight actually shank the professor????

Cowboy: that i dread the thought of not trying to explore my options outside of this fucking state but i dread the thought of going bc i cant stand the thought of being away from home but i cant fucking find a reason to stay cause everyone i love is leaving or planning their own life anyway???

Cowboy: like remys gunna fuck off to who knows where regardless of whether or not he has a plans or money, pattons gunna take care of his grandmother whereever the fuck a canada ,moms moving in with tia, virgils already mentally flipping me off ready to fuck nasa , and i only fucking hope dmitri even getss the chance to choose where he goes but hes g o n e and i die from yearning behind a screen like the gay victorian i am , and you….i actually dont know

TheWalkingMouth: Teaching for either biology or physics

Cowboy: huh it fits but what about chemistry??

TheWalkingMouth: Fuck chemistry.

Cowboy: oh thank god we’re on the same page

TheWalkingMouth: Anyway, I assume you’re more worried about whether you should apply rather then if you could get in?

Cowboy: i think so

TheWalkingMouth: Well if my opinion means anything to you

Cowboy: more than you’re assuming but yeah continue

TheWalkinMouth: Wait

Cowboy: nothing nothing continue

TheWalkingMouth: Okay-- I think you should go for it but you don’t need to dive head first into it and commit to everything 100% like virgil did.

TheWalkingMouth: You’re allowed to keep your options open, to have backup plans for back up plans

TheWalkingMouth: It doesn’t mean you’re not passionate about your art. Doesn’t mean you’re inevitably going to get a office job and abandon all your dreams. It means you’re being smart and not backing yourself into a corner

TheWalkingMouth:It’s okay to be scared. It’s okay not to have it all figured out

TheWalkingMouth: Nobody does.

TheWalkingMouth: Even if no one else gives you a second chance at least give yourself a second chance.

TheWalkingMouth: It’s perfectly normal to be afraid to fuck up and get fucked over TheWalkingMouth: That doesn’t mean you will everytime TheWalkingMouth: And it certainly doesn’t mean it's the end

Cowboy:

Cowboy:

Cowboy:

[...Cowboy is typing…]

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@daflangstlairde

@ace-anx

@cataclysm-al

#Roman sanders #Deceit Sanders #Roceit #ts sides #sanders sides #sanders sides fanfiction #ts virgil #ts logan #ts remy #Antithesis

[1rmono]

can I vent n kinda confess here just a good Ramble please okioki sO im 17 (in my penultimate year (year 12 in the good ol UK) of school) and so it all began when this Boy in my form class asked me to thProm and it was so lovely i want to Re Live the moment every day. we were in computing class and we sit next to eachother and he sais "hey are you going to prom" n im like "hm yea even tho idont want to" (bc i hate dresses and fuss and parties) and hes like "its okay rachel you cn go w me" {1/???}

n then my heart did this thing tht only ever happens when he talks to me cs hes so polite and he alwasys says my name like wOw thats so Intimate how could you abd i feel sick but i live it?? andd i PAnicked when he said tht like dhbj so i blurted out “NO” and the. n i kick myself so hard and apologise “bc i already arrange the o go w my friends sorry” and ye i do kinda like this boy i guess bc he likes anime too n he reccommened one piece n kuroshitsuji to me n i enjoy them and {2/??}

i just pretended not to care hahahhah a aha H so then Prom happened, i didnt say Hi to him at th prom bc HA me,,initiating a convo??then pigs can fly! and he looked so handsome when i saw him from afar in th e crowd i hate evrything and so he went to college and i stayed in my school and ive not seen him since bc were not close friends just former form classmates and anime conversationers in the computing class. i couldnt stop thinking abt him and Cue the period of crying and regret and {4/??}

and “what if id sais yes then or then or said hi to him” and i did that toxic thing of making up a fantasy world where i was more friendly to him so tht he would like me and smile to me more i actually drafted in my notes for ages a message to him that id like to send ,,, like"oh howdy long time no see yea im sorry i said no to you when you asked me to prom" trying to hint “hi shall we use Magic to turn the clock backward and go to prom tgether even if jst like fridns like you wanted” and {5?/?}

and we could be closer and shit agh i regret regret regret i actually sent the message to him i think it ws “hi sorry i didnt say hi to you at th prom” about twi months after the prom and as soon as i sent it i had to go to th bathroom because i was so close to being sikc an d my heart was doing a louis hamilton alexander mcqueen weeeeooooo and ge replied “its okay dont worry how are you” and he used th (^.^) emoction how Fkin cute and i was reminded of how polite and friendly he was {6/??}

and friendly i dont know how he does it bc i cant talk to people properly and So Yeah he saaid the words “ive missed people too” meaning,,,, he doesnt miss me and even if he ever did he doesnt now!!! and tahts it thats the end ive never seen him since aNd its been overa year? since thatDay and whenever i see him on my social media i hate everything ad i just i just {8/8} im so s sorry for spamming you like i would nt wanna read an essay on some sappy schoolgirls first crush (fck me i said it)

hi its Sappy Schoolgirl again did i mention me n this boy were also anime friends with this other girl who is now a close friend of mine,, he siad to me once we should all hang out sometime which hasnt happened yet and i wont forget that time in Computing class when we were talking abt Subway and i said id never been (since then ive been twice n thought of him) and hes like “!!no!! youve never been to subway! i will take you! this saturday!!” but that didnt happen yk he was only joking

tumblr ate your third ask but this was such a rollercoaster omg….,,,,not to be sappy but ur love for this boy is so pure u even get excited over his emoji usage omg that is so real n cute wow…..i feel so bad it didnt end the way u wanted to n i feel like maybe meeting up with him once just to hang out n tell him how u feel might be good just to get closure about the whole thing? but that’s just my point of view ofc ! i hope it turns out better for u ah this really was like reading a high school love story that needs 1 more chapter added about the happy ending :(

#anon #answered #oohohohoh i hope it ends well

[limenade-archive]

Mood: rambling in the tags of random posts that have nothing 2 do w what u r talking abt bc u r lazy 2 make ur own post

#this has been an exception my guys n guyettes #my cat is eyeing me weirdly ... mayhaps it is bc i blast fingertip by gfriend on max volume in my headphones ?? whomst knows #i ... like cant even talk abt anything on here wo me thinking im 1 of tgose Annoying tumblr.users #who r so boring n awkward that its jst annyoing 2 read shjsjsjsn like ive seen a few aepund n ... im kinda 1 of them now #i can see w my Spiritual Eyes when im typing smth that worm an annoying tumbpr user wld say tjis 2 !!! but honestly #tjis site doesnt matter that much 2 worri abt it 2 much im only here 2 dissociate anyway !!! ill post what i want so what if im a boring bic #ndjsksjjskekdjkdkdks thank u 4 listening 2 my ted talk #also i hate my brain it keeps obsessively recallimg what food i ate b4 i got sick n im constantli nauseous bc of it fuck her #sára.txt

[choujiro]

ph

so i spent 3 weeks at ph and oh gosh

week one: 

the flight wasnt bad at all tbh i got to watch my kdrama & listen to my favorite music

scratch that was kinda annoying because my brother took a xan & instantly knocked out once we were seated, my mom and a flight attendant got extremely worried because he wasn’t really opening his eyes

i told them he was just really tired

he fuckgin drooled and it smelled

i couldnt sleep for like an hour or two because we saved his dinner but on my tray and it bothered me

incheon airport is so nice omfg !!!!! bought a macaron at a starbucks there & i wish we had that here at u.s

my uncles picked us up from the airport and our younger uncle (20 yrs old) got chubbier and said he got really fat so we were like no ur jst thicc

while we were waiting for my mom to fix her phone he was talking to me about kdramas because he saw the iu photocard on my phone LOL but its really interesting because guys arent really into stuff like that

found out his girlfriend makes him watch kdramas lol

found out the portions at jollibee were wayyy smaller so my uncle told me to buy two of the same food yah huge shock to me

the wifi was incredibly slow; we had to buy this portable wifi in which we bought 1gb of connection for idk 300 pesos??? wow first world problems for sure

my mom, brother & i slept on the same bed & it was just so hot i honestly could not sleep (we couldnt really sleep anywhere else)

the next day my cousins and i walked to our other cousins house & the aircon in her home was just fucgkin AMAZING 

we could not stand the heat tbh it ruined us

we went to the next town over to buy stuff at the market because we found out my uncle had fake gucci slippers

i bought fake nike slippers and some of us got the same along with gucci ones lol

went deeper in the market and found hella fake stuff like fake vans and addidas (i was planning to come back to buy them and when i came back to the market we didnt have time to get them so im really bummed esp since they’re cheap like 200 or 300 pesos only)

went to the local mall the following day & found this really cute shop that resembled h&m, i ended up buying this overall dress & used up 800 pesos out of 1000 & didnt have enough to buy anything else lol

went to the supermarket the following day inside another mall & ended up buying a bunch of snacks in BULK (my cousins bought wine & alcohol, ended up tasting really weird)

bought a LARGE ASS bulky bag of corn chips called bawang na bawang & when my auntie found out i called it “bah-wang” instead of “buh-wang” she kept laughing & told everyone else because apparently im saying town instead of garlic

met my other cousins’ family (they live in the same town, a 2 minute drive basically) and ate good food, talked to their uncle about palawan since we were going there soon

attended our parent’s high school reunion and watched them perform this dance line lol

we werent really interested in their reunion, i mean it wasn’t really for us anyways??

i actually got really sick the day before new years, i had a bad fever & had cold sweat. i told my cousins to move the fan away from me despite the weather being 80+ degrees :-(

i took antibiotics & got better several minutes before the new years hit lol

week two:

got sick to the point where i lost my voice 

went to pagasinan and ate rly good sisig & etc

went to the same supermarket from the one back in my family’s hometown and ended up buying more snacks in bulk

my skin got super worse & im just like fuck it dammit

on jan2 we were supposed to go to palawan but our flight was delayed, we were transferred to a super nice hotel nearby, free of charge of course

got a massage with two of my other cousins for the first time, the lady thought i was korean so they were like “oh !!! korean!!”

i couldnt speak so my manang talked for me lol

gosh the massage was both relaxing and hurtful LOL

i understood the lady speaking to her coworkers as she was massaging me as she said she felt sorry for me because my skin has alot of scars

i didnt mind at all, i felt bad that she had to see it tbh

she told me to turn my body facing the ceiling so i did and omfg she pulled the towel and massaged my ..... armpits and boobs (im so ashamed because i shaved before i left the airport and it grew fast oh my god)

my cousins and i were talking about how our butts hella hurt after they massaged that part because FUK it hella hurt oh my god i have never clenched my buttcheeks so hard in my life

my kuya said he was ticklish there so he let out a giggle

we boarded our flight to palawan the next day and went island hopping right away. i felt really bad because my skin got even worse so it made me uncomfortable & i couldnt talk to anyone so yeah bad time lol

island hopping was nice nevertheless, we couldnt explore the cave because the tides were high

my cousins, brother and mom got a massage at the hotel we were staying after finding out we got one in the other hotel

the masseurs come to the room instead of having a separate room

so i couldnt go to sleep right away since the bed was being occupied smh

we went to a place called bakers hill the next day & it was really nice idk how to say it, it was much of a hill tho. lots of places to take pictures there i guess??? theres only one bakery there and its small, the families bought alot of pastillias and hopia to bring back home, basically we left the store with a box full of sweets

went to bagiuo the day we returned back to our town and went to a place called mines view where we had an amazing view of the hills/mountains

its realllly nice and green and man !!!!! gr8 view

went shopping for gifts at the local market and bought a jacket & two wooden keychains shaped as a small ..... dicc

my brother bought a wooden flute and he really used it throughout the whole trip like he played in the house AND during car rides. i think the good part was that it wasnt annoying at all, he actually knew how to play and did some covered a bunch of songs that made all of us laugh (my cousin recorded it and has the videos on her phone so i cant show everyone here)

we went driving at pengbenga park, but not literally driving. we got to drive these plastic race car things and it was sososo fun!!!! i overtook some kids & adults but mostly kids on the driveway & i crashed like only twice

we were given the choice to use a bike/multi-seater bike, race car, & other stuff but yeah race car boi

ate really bomb waffles and pancakes at this pancake house and LORD !! GOOD AMAZING AAAHH OOOOO

went to a small mall the following day and bought 50 peso facemasks and i spent like 15 dollars worth of them??? idk i just bought hella without counting my money lol

drove to manila few days later and went to a place called greenhills (famous for fake brands like nike and gucci) and my cousins and aunties bought alot of gucci, ray bans, louis vuitton (wallet, belts and bags lmao). went to a store called miniso and it was so packed i wasnt able to look around as much, & i really wanted to go here ;___; it was okay tho

so there are basically two malls in one, one small one with a food court and market with the fake items and a REAL mall; they’re connected by a yard which is partially a church lol (there was a tv outside so we assumed it was a concert of some sort, found out there was a priest praying inside the building along with so many others)

next morning, instead of going to another pancake house we were accidentally taken to a coffee house but honestly, it was the best choice ever

it was so fuckgin AESTHETIC I LOVED IT they decorated the place with flowers and it wasnt like overwhelming full of flowers it was just right and the iced latte?? AMAZING and ugh man i loved ittttttt

we went to a museum after and learned so much about jose rizal and the history of philippines before and during spanish colonization and it was super interesting

darn u white ppl go away

it was really ironic to see white people check out the museum too like.. first u colonize us then u wanna check our museum hm

went to eat after at a place similar to pepper lunch, so basically hot sizzling food

i ordered a sizzling tapa and it was so fuckgin AMAZINg gattdamn ugh i love sisig

we went to the mall after hoping to check out another museum inside the place (an ice cream one) but we found out that it was opened until feb 

anyways we checked out the whole mall and ate some aesthetic looking ice cream which was amazing also

dropped off two of our cousins at the airport since they were only here for two weeks (the rest of us dreaded over the fact that we had one more week left when our trip here was originally 2 weeks)

went back to my familys town at la union and didnt do much

spent two days at baguio, day 1: found a kbbq and ate lunch there, it was only 300 pesos per person so we werent complaining

we went to the mall after and i checked out this store that had really amusing shirts, bags and pouches. i ended up buying a shirt with a bunny that said “bunnies like carrots but not this one. this one chose the jacuzzi” it was so amusing omfg

i bought a pouch that said “lechon is my lifeforce” aka pig and my friends were like “thats really amazing”

we left the mall to buy tea and i didnt have enough because i bought the bunny shirt so my uncle bought a drink for me LOL (i felt so bad tho)

watched netflix the whole time till it was time to sleep

the next day my other cousin was dropped at the house and we went to go out for a different kbbq place, it was much better (500 pesos per person too!)

went to the mall again and watched jumanji

watched black mirror when we came back

left the next day & went back to the mall since it connected to the other large buses to go back to town

week three:

next morning i met a faith healer who looked for the cause of my eczema, she cured my mom the day before because someone had cursed her food (she had stomach cancer several months back but she’s better, she occasionally has stomach problems tho)

one of the amazing things i have heard from her was that when she was cleaning my moms body with a white towel, she squeezed out the remaining water & black sand came out. she says the curse has been removed & that she’ll feel better soon

she looked at my skin and proceeded to put a special oil everywhere and said it mightve been the burning of a dwende outside the house when i was kid (when he was hurt, he probably hurt me too)

the next day she came by again and lathered a special oil again and came to the conclusion that when i visited the house when i was about 4-5 years old, the dwendes decided to play with me (which actually hurt me so)

she said to only have faith and keep praying, virgin mary will come by to heal you in the form of a sudden breeze with a nice scent

i know that alot of people might think this is crazy and all, but since i come from a spiritual family and had actual experience with something like this, its really easy to believe 

it seems like the dwendes dont like modern medicine so everytime i put on my creams or ointments, the healing effect didnt last long

the next and final day, she put on oil once more and concluded that the dwendes have been playing with me since i was a kid so it was the root of my eczema. she had personally asked them to stop yesterday so she said they wont play with me anymore

as she was lathering oil on my skin, she said that i had nice legs and hands, the dwendes had played with me because i was “pintas” or pretty

so that kinda shocked me like me? pretty?? lol

but after that she said i will get better, i need to have faith and pray all the time. once you believe, it will happen (i have great faith in both the faith healer and myself healing, my wounds are slowly closing so im really determined to recover from eczema)

the thing about faith healers is that they DONT ask for money. you could donate, but they dont ask for anything at all. i believe that they heal people in the form of good will

my mom & i gave money and clothes, and soap as a payment for her time and faith healing and im sososo thankful for her

she also did this thing where she could figure out things by putting oil and water in a plate and picking out rice grains and letting them either sink or float in another bowl

3 rice grains had floated while the others sank and she concluded that there was something wrong with me, both spiritually and physically?? i couldnt understand quite well since they were speaking in ilocano

but something along the lines of that, she had called me soul in order to protect me so i can heal. and that kinda boggled me like soul? is that always with you? is my soul somewhere else? why was it that my soul had to be called? so yeah interesting

she also found out that my grandpa had visited (he visited last week too, along with my grandma) and he’s just watching the family in the living room

also odd thing but last week a white butterfly came inside the house while my cousins and i were just doing whatever and it landed on the couch my manang and i were sitting on

my kuya said there was a butterfly behind me and i was like fuk imma move couches cuz i just dont like bugs in general (my cousin had entered the back door the other night and felt something crawling on his head so he slapped it away, turns out it was a HUGE spider so yeah FUK that lol i wanted to throw up when i saw it)

so i switched couches and the butterfly followed me and went on my head so i shoo’ed it away

the next day after it had happened a lady who had a third eye/some sort of spiritual power said my grandparents visited last night and i guess i shoo’ed my grandpa away lol

anyways, going back to the rice grain thing, the faith healer knew i couldnt sleep well because my body has been burning for the longest time, so she put those 3 rice grains in a cotton ball and safety pinned it to my shirt

my mom said that her mom would often do the same thing to her sisters back when they were kids, it was really effective in to protecting yourself

i think its really crazy how theres so many spirits and the like in philippines, and also in vietnam and other asian countries as well. i thought it was because it was 3rd world countries or countries that had been colonized

i searched it up and 1) when PH was colonized, the conquestors often scared them with stories about spirits and 2) when the angels had fought lucifer and his army out of heaven, alot of them fell on earth, landing on the islands of PH

we all packed our stuff last minute and my mom was having a hard time since everything could not fit in the luggage, i told her just to put everything in our large balikbayan box and she refused, she eventually gave up (even the stuff barely fit inside the box). we left at 1am that day for the airport at manila and man, i guess i’ll miss ph

our stopover was at incheon again and this time we had more time to buy stuff at the airport. my mom bought her starbucks mug in which she was excited about. i bought another macaron and planned eating it on the airplane but my mom misplaced it & once we came back i found out it was smashed lmfao

i went to the duty free store and looked around for some snacks, the ladies were rly kind in helping me, i tried speaking in korean but had no luck at all lol all i said was kamsamnida after they had helped me

while waiting for our flight, my mom and aunties were telling us about stories about our other auntie since she’s really mean and all lol we were all curious to why she had treated everyone so unkindly basically the their whole lives

my cousins dont like this specific aunt and i dont have a good judgement of her either but my other aunt told us to always be kind despite that. 

i had planned to watch the rest of my kdrama on the plane but i knocked out for 9 out of 11 hours of the flight

the men at the airports where they check our passport were so handsome omfg. the ones both at manila and san francisco like... so... handsome. i told my mom that they’re really good looking and she assumed it was because they were light skinned but even if they werent light, they were SO handsome like i dont discriminate against color man if youre handsome you are HANDSOME

arrived back at SF at 2pm and my manang welcomed us by making us cajun shrimp and it was literally the best meal ever ugh i miss american food

i had school the NEXT day, and i had barely realized that i signed up for a class at UC DAVIS instead of sacramento and oh my god i was truly fucked up lol (ended up fixing it tho)

i checked up on my character on maplesaga and found out that literally everyone had outleveled me like ok fuk 

to summarize the 3 weeks there, my skin did not get better at all lol. although we were originally going to stay for 2 weeks, my mom couldnt fix our flight time and ended up staying there longer. despite it being dreadful at times, im really lucky that i had met a faith healer the 3rd week for my eczema. if i had left the 2nd week, i would not have been healed (the doctors here in u.s were completely useless so...) i was sick 80% of the time of the trip which made me feel bad lol but its my immune systems fault :-/// im really prone to extreme changes in weather, so coming from a 50 degree city to a 80 degree country took a toll on my body. it was the same back at home, during the summer the weather was often bipolar so that also took a toll on my body

anyways its so good to be back home except for the piles of homework stacking up ;__;

#i hope i can look back at my post and wonder oh wow i remember this happening #im quite forgetful #super long post but lots of stuff happened #the photos are on my ig if anyone wants to check them out