#im lost for words w this one

[raepliica]

tristamp post-S1 mashwood sillies and tri98(?) merylwood :]

#trigun #trigun stampede #tristamp #trigun 1998 #trigun 98 #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #meryl stryfe #mashwood #merylwood #stryfewood #the comfort of mashwood spending days together without much happening. just eventless days together #also i know i know meryl and ww barely interact in '98 but #who cares when i can just put two of my fav characters together like playing with dolls #after the fifth moon incident ww trying to leave w/o a word to go look for vash #and meryl having none of his shit bc she already lost sight of one of them so shes not about to lose the other one #*SLAPS VW AND MW* THESE BITCHES CAN STORE SO MUCH UNSPOKEN THINGS #i also just really like ww getting flustered and manhandled by a three-apples-tall woman #merylwood is yuri to me. im not explaining #my art #raepliica_art

[luxsea]

i heard karlachs monologue was rlly good but holy shit i genuinely dont think i'll be the same after that

#olive.txt #bg3 spoilers #spoilers in tags !! #samantha seriously deserves an award that was soul wrenching #i think back in interviews where they talked abt karlachs trauma and how she reverts into a scared child #the whole encounter w gortash was very much that #and he speaks down to her and calls her a brat #imagine saying ''what do you know about the greater good'' TO THE LIVING EMBODIMENT OF GOOD #he doesnt care what he did to her at all but she does care!! he betrayed her and stole her future and there is no closure! #well i felt pretty satisfied i casted a dancing scroll on him and let karlach go to town *youre gonna go far kid plays in the distance* #her pain and anger is so understandable no one deserves this especially not her #the delivery of ''my heart. it was mine. and they took it'' is so incredibly natural and heartbreaking. this scene gave me actual heartburn #shes seemed pretty confident abt dying but i guess in her own words courage isnt fearlessness :( #ugh the part where she just wants you to tell her everything will be alright and that you can save her!!! so cruel larian! #for a character that lost their heart she sure as hell didnt lose her soul </3 #''THANKS FOR LISTENING. FOR EXISTING. LOVE YOU.'' #yeah was not prepared for what im guessing is the romantic version of her scene back at camp #idk why i thought they wouldnt address it but wow when she asks if youll stay w her when its her time to go. im in shambles #might take back some of my opinions abt her endings. its still cruel she doesnt get a Happy ending but its being handled rlly well so far

[ladyimaginarium]

i swear to g-d im& not even the jealous type but jfc i HAAAAAAATE this feeling when im& just lowkey like. who's :)))))) this :))))) bitch 👀👀👀👀🔪🔪🔪🔪 :))))))

#arcana.vents #& its like. kinda irrational bc we're just friends & just vibing & we're not even together but like. i cant help it so fuck me ig lmao #like obvi he can have friends & shit & w/e so im not gonna like. tell him anything bc i dont wanna like push him away or push anything yk?? #& he said he missed me & everything but like. damn. why arent you talking to me like that. i wish you would talk to me like that. #i miss you too & i wish you would tell me you loved me more :< #im just like bitch chill he aint even your man. but he's sweet & good to me & he's deadass one of the funniest ppl ever. #& we have literally so much in common & he said i was a miracle & resilient since birth & that sb should make a documentary about me ehehe. #& we're both autistic poc4poc & have a lotta solidarity between our communities & he makes me blush & giggle & i love his curls & his smile #& the color of his skin's so pretty & he said that it'd be neat if we just. played videogames in a pillowfort #& he makes spongebob refs & he likes anime & horror & buffy & ethel cain nicole dollanganger & lana del rey & he got a nasty ass vocabulary #& he said it'd be cool if we explored abandoned places together & go to concerts together & he has the cutest name ive deadass ever heard #when nicole said ''when i see you i cant find the words to speak my cheeks go as red as two big cherries'' & ''you're so cool''... YEAH. #im gonna start fuckin chewing on the fuckin walls dude. im GNAWING at the bars of my cage. i need him to firmly grasp it. #i wanna feed him the world's sweetest strawberry!!!! #we have lost the entire fucking plot besties lmfaoooo #& i rarely if ever feel like this for cis dudes & my mind is blaring sirens like he gonna leave me im just. getting war flashbacks to. yeah #the red sirens be blaring like HE'S GONNA ABANDON ME!!!!! its so irritating #ill be goddamned if i EVER feel replaced to that degree ever again. id actually rather get hit by a car & throw myself into the sea lmao #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BPD SPLITTING I HATE YOU #this was from a few hours ago but i forgot to post it so lmao

[unityrain24]

does anyone know any epic (gender nuetral) k names. bc i miss having the letter k in my name and so i was going to make one of my middle names start with (or at least have) k but i can't think of any so it just a plain k and my name basically looks like this now:

[rock] K. [plant] [not just a noun but it has "rain" as part of it]

#at one point thought about doing a japanese name/word bc i'm learning japanese and really enjoy it but it's just feel too wierd bc im. #not japanese. #tried looking at icelandic k names/words once but i'm not really familiar w/ icelandic so was just skimming through but none really stuck : #thought of making it “kweldii” after the language i was creating #but seeing as how it all got wiped with my ipad and i haven't been able to recover from that #it'd be wierd bc a) it was never finished so naming myself after a nonexistent language would be strange #and b) it'd make me sad :( bc then hearing/seeing that name would remind me of what i lost #also yes i want two middle names #also yes i am changing my last name. #i actually wanted to change all my names even before i started questioning my gender (mainly bc of bad religious + family ties) #the gender funky was just added to it #but no you don't get to hear them. #only like. 2-3 people on this website do. #<-and two of those i am related to. from real life. #unityrain.txt #trans #name change #queer #they/she #<- thass me baby

[piplupod]

shoutout to the time i thought juggalos were just a random type of clown in the same way rodeo and pierrot is, and I off-handedly mentioned them in a conversation about clowns to one of my DQ managers when I worked there, and she fucking lost her mind laughing and I was like. damn. I didn't think my joke was THAT funny but okay. and then I never looked up what a juggalo actually was until just last year, like four years after I'd stopped working at that place 🧍

#when u dont have internet access very often u don't use ur small bits of time to look things up #esp when u dont have any unmonitored internet access fjdkdl #i was scared to look things up at school and i couldnt look up very much on the home computer #and my mobile had net nanny installed on it lmfao it was set for like... 12 yr olds #NOW GRANTED. I ACTUALLY DID MANAGE TO BREAK NET NANNY ON MY OWN COMPUTER. u have to move some files around inside the program files #and then u can basically break and un-break it as u please #so i could have it on to keep up the charade that i had it installed and it was monitoring and reporting my good boy usage #but then when i wanted to do stuff like... go on tumblr. or look up slang or whatever fhdkdl i could break the program #until i was done and then fix it so it'd go back to normal #this didnt help v much though bc i couldnt lug my laptop to school v often #and i wasnt allowed internet at home fhfkdl unless I was using my mother's laptop for looking up piano music LOL #eventually i also figured out how to break the program on my phone too but that one was more luck than anything else i think #anyways. all this surveillance made me good with tech stuff but im not Good w tech djdkdl i just know how to look things up #and i learned a bit how the backend of programs work or weird tricks for hidden folders and stuff on laptops #hey why tf am i rambling abt this in the tags fjkdl I've lost the plot #anyways good morning everyone please look up words that u may not know the meaning of before u use them #i do this too often now fhfjld. i have to look up words that i DO 100% know the meaning of just to make sure i dont have it wrong somehow #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[versadies]

hi,,,,,,, idk how to explain myself 😀😀😀

#i hope yall are alright while i was gone 💞💞💞 #i havent touched tumblr in weeks and i feel like im a dehydrated man stuck in the desert #im not dead yet thats for sure #im not in jail either thankfully #and no one died as well #my body decided it was an incredibly good time to feel fatigued #and so here we are #chap 14 is stuck w cobwebs and dust but dw its at 12k words and almost finished #as for other fics….. honestly my google docs for tumblr is just a graveyard /hj #i honestly lost touch of time so i rlly dont have an estimate time for when i can bounce back w my fics #but lrts hope by the time its xmas chap 14 is out #ill answer asks once i arrived to south korea later 💖💖💖💖

[snekdood]

idk who needs to hear this (vaush) but being a skilled debater and being Good With Words does not make you correct.

#just bc you can finesse your audience into believing anything you say bc you're good at convincing them STILL doesnt make you correct #on everything bud. #spewing incorrect shit just bc you know you can get away w convincing ppl of it makes you no better than the alt righters you hate #its like he learned he could convince everyone hes correct if he words things the right way and decided his biased opinions #was what everyone needed to be taught as fact. fucking wild. #'durr its not my fault if my audience uncritically believes everything i say' yeah it kinda is bc you kinda set it up as #'if you dont agree with me you're just dumb and dont know anything' #also even if you jokingly say 'im always right' doesnt mean 1. thats not gonna subconsciously effect you to make you think you Are #and 2. that doesnt mean everyone knows you're joking. #so fucking pissed at him for this. unbiased my ass #maybe he lost a huge chunk of fans all at once so hes doing everything he can to keep the remaining ones not sure #oh well. at least hes not as bad about it as keffals. though i am still starting to get culty vibes from vaushs audience now. #at least the ones perpetually in his chat. #also then again i wouldnt exactly consider keffals anything near a 'skilled debater' #and before any a yall accuse me of kds bitch idgaf about the noodles shit. its dumb. i understand nuance. #unlike yall who are devolving into b/w thinking where you think anyone critical of your faves is just a wokescold with #[enter name] derangement syndrome #only reason i stopped interacting w keffals shit is i realized she would never respect me as a person so yeah. same w vaush quite frankly. #keffals dismissing trans mascs. vaush acting like ppl who believe in shit are all mentally ill. yeah im over them for that shit. #like get fucked you up-your-own-asses elitist tools #ig that one applies to vaush more. keffals just doesnt care about anything but herself it seems like.

[jvzebel-x]

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#i have had to be very VERY careful when looking into anything about the lahaina fire #bc--&im glad someone else mentioned it bc there was no way i could w/o being extremely cruel w my wording lmao-- #i have seen more than one person mourning the vacation homes&tourism aspects of maui&truly #i would sacrifice every single one to the goddess of the volcano herself if it would even make her consider helping calm the flames. #i might never go home again lmao. unless i can stay there isnt a reason for me to go&waste all the money+risk my health; #even protesting cant take precedence if it would require me to contribute to so many other issues that impact my home. #&i mourn those facts. all the time. never seeing the beaches back home again was one of my huge regrets when my life was more precariously #balanced&i still deserve cosmic reimbursment for the amount of ignorant fucks that looked at me&went 'why not just go home? being homeless #in hawaii is obv the better move' lmao. #im so sick of ppl seeing my homeland as a fucking playground. even when they mourn its only for what they imagine themselves to have lost. #even when they give a fuck its only bc they can identify w losing a paradise they dream of continuing the colonization of. #there is so much violence in me lmao.

[lesbianstarlightglimmer]

really really stupid that laptops don’t have cd/dvd players anymore bc how am I supposed to play 102 Dalmatians Puppies to the Rescue

#meows #im thinking about that game again #the game i watched my f*ther play for me bc i was too...idk what the word is. ig the closest is scared #bc of the flying toys and the fast moving ones. but then i got older and ALMOST completed all the levels (not at 100% but idc) #but then one of my brothers saved their new file over it and i lost all the data #another sad thing is that we used a joystick that was connected to the computer to play it but it doesnt work anymore #and im not good w keyboard games so #wish there was a version for like the switch or something #im only good at switch/ds/3ds games im not great w things like xbox playstation etc. wii is 50/50 it depends

[win-inthedark]

hey lol

#yeah idk #this season was…..nearly a disaster you see I stopped posting cause wtf lol #s/o to the 45 on one hand tho #idk what to say #im assuming he’ll play again in December or January #i guess I’ll see y’all then #idk #lost for words #confusion also #is Nike still going thru w the shoe? idek #s/o to Tyus Jones #i’m disappointed #ngl #what the hell happened fr like listening to him on the pivot podcast this summer nothing could’ve prepared me for what was to come lol #it’s like…girl what #these r two different ppl? #DTAP is going to hell #ja dumb af but we gon figure something out idk #ja morant #nba #memphis grizzlies #offseason #unfortunately #prayers for JJJ and Des it’s their team right now

[inkyquince]

How to know you have brain rot for a character - you were paying a whole thing about mpreg or whatever and the only thing that stood out to me was the mention of my Halloween hubby Micheal 🎃🔪 are you...a fellow slasher fucker?

im so sorry but its gonna be a struggle to be normal about this ask

From 2019 to 2020, i Was OBSESSED, with slashers. And I still am, they're just lurking in the corner of my mind with the Halloween stalking music.

To this day, I follow 120 blogs about slashers. Art, Games, Writing, Just general reblogs. On halloween 2020, I got my projector and ran as many films as i could throughout the day. I made one of my bestest friends while in my slasher kick. Legit started talking about horror movies and we haven't stopped since. I fucking LOVE horror movies, like the weird lil rat I am, and slashers are a huge part of that.

I sat through the stupid ass collector movie, the absolute fucked The Terrifier and Hereditary is a movie i watch to relax?

Long story short, yes. Dead By Daylight is my version of a dating simulator, have you SEEN how michael picks you up?

Another thing, maybe TMI.

I was severely sex repulsed up until I was 19. Legitmately, due to trauma, I was repressed and the idea of sex had be fucked up. The fact it was quarantine had me just as fucked up and so I was binging all these horror movies, and I watched the House Of Wax. Not only was it a delight to see Paris Hilton (I love seeing her in horror movies, its such a fucking treat) and then I laid eyes on Bo Sinclaire. I don't think you understand, I was texting my childhood best friend about this man and it remains the most entertaining thing in the world. I look back at the text messages and it still has me fucking cackling, she was so stunned by how freely horny I was for this man. Keep in mind, the actor for Bo reappears in Community, is basically the same character, but didn't make me feel a thing.

This man was the first person I actually wanted to fuck and he was legitimately gluing a woman's lips together. It's all downhill from there, and it leads us to now.

Yes, actually had to go to therapy, Bo Sinclaire didn't fix everything wrong with me, no, but idk my brain just kinda got me unfucked. I'm not minimizing how useful therapy was for getting me better in life in general but also unfucking my head when it comes to sex. But idk, that movie did kick a switch in my head.

So, everyone.

Give this man a kiss on the head, because he's the only reason Inky is writing such horrendous porn.

Sidenote: Favorite Horror Movie is The Autopsy of Jane Doe, its magnificent

#hot jesus just the gif has me giggling and going wonky #dw im normal about this man i just go a bit loopy #But honestly this ask had me kicking my feet #michael meyers and brahms and miss jennifer tilly and jason and carrie and HANNNIBAL LECTER <3 <3 and the trickster and the wriath and #eddie gluskin and the trapper and #oh my god #i did my 10k word dissertation on jennifer's body and i will kill machine gun kelly for megan fox's hand in marriage #ask #murielsimp #<3 thank you #well #everyone knows what a fuckin lil rat i am now #quinceyeasyspeaky #and bo and vincent sinclaire and mister bateman and leon kennedy and albert wesker and mister candyman ANd READY OR NOT W #and asa emory and LEGION i love the legion and ghostface #shout out to my childhood bestie we watched scream and im down bad for stu and she lost it over billy #and then we watched black christmas and fuck me that was fun #one thing i hate is when people think liking slashers is = liking real life serial killers #like get a fuckin brain cell #sidenote #there's an outlast blog following me #and it makes me giggly and kick my feet

[kirishwima]

anyone else have/need like. a social crutch when going out, especially in large groups or new interactions? said crutch is either a person (most often) or an item like a fidget toy something to ground you in the convo etc

#we had a big family dinner including my cousins and their wives #and i realised when its not ppl im 100% comfy with i lose track of. social cues? #i suddenly dont know where to look in a conversation drown out words etc #and the only reason i could shift back into the convo is bc i sat beside my sister who we r super close with #so i kinda mimicked her in gestures and esp eye contact and could bounce off of what she said to get in the convo #and she left early and suddenly i was so lost??? as if i had 0 clue how to communicate #and i realised i always have a social crutch #when im w my best friends i dont need it bc i dont need to force social norms #but w others ill take the person im closest to and bounce off of them #and if its one to one chats im v good at shifting tone and expression to match them #or ill use the 'customer service' approach lmao #idk WHY it all just clicked today and right now #literally stopped halfway thru brushing my teeth to write this #anyway yeah idk and i dont wanna think of what this says or means #burrito talks #delete later #social norms

[relativelyfvcked]

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#all i wanted to do was finish cleaning my room but alas i live w my mom and i cannot be loud when shes here. #i just need to yell along to songs and i never get to #only emotional outlet i have and i cant even go into the garage to do it anymore. so its rare now lol #i am a waste of space who cant kill themself. failure on every fucking level. idk if people understand how infuriating it is to be like thi #having your friend kill himself really complicates your relationship with your suicidal ideations and extremely bad anxiety disorder that n #one seems to believe could actually be that bad lol #also i lost a shirt i made and im pissed about it #im so. AAAAAAAAAA words dont do justice tp the shit that goes on in my head. im so angry and depressed. maybe theyre the same idk

[spacelesscowboy]

i love. i love feeling completely disconnected from my friends.

#emyrs.txt #vent tw #I KNOW. IM NOT A BURDEN TO THEM BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. HM. UNLESS 👀👀 #IDKKKK I JUST HAVE ALWAYS FELT LIKE IM THE ONE REACHING OUT. ALWAYS. IM ALWAYS THE ONE REACHING OUT. ITS MAKING ME INSANE. #i always feel like i’m the one who is desperate to keep a relationship going. like. i’m the only one who cares about it in the first place #and sometimes when i hang out w my friends / talk to them / etc. i don’t feel like that anymore bc i feel like they care about us being #friends but in the in-between of us talking/hanging out i feel like i am untethered and just. floating around. waiting for them 2 want to #talk to me. (hint: they almost never do.) #and it’s like. do i even exist to u outside of the times when we hang out. #bc i’m constantly every day thinking about my friends. like legit i am doing anything and i go. hm. what if i made my friend soemthing. #like. i debated making traditional korean clothes using traditional korean methods for my friend bc i’m literally insane and i want them to #know i cherish him and love him so much and think about them all the time and as a thank u for putting up w me etc etc. like. #that’s literally insane who does that. lol. NANDMFMF #idk. #i kinda lost my point here but to reiterate what i was saying before. #i always feel like i’m the one reaching out. and i understand that they’re sometimes busy or they forget to answer or something comes up i #get that !! #i just hate that months would go by w/o us talking if i didn’t send something every few days #and also i hate that they only respond w a keysmash or a few words like bestie !! #i am TRYING to start a conversation w u i am not just sending this for shits and giggles !! #me sending dumb shit is me trying 2 start a conversation w u !!!!!!!!! u r driving me insane !!!!!!!!!!! /lh #i wish. i was not mentally ill. NSNDNFNFM #also. i wish i could be normal about the relationships i have with other people and not need constant reassurance from everyone all the time #i’ve tried to tone it down a bit + as well as the self hatred bc it gets old and boring and annoying QUICKLY and i dont wanna push my #friends away even further but sometimes it’s all i can feel and it truly does feel like. #i’m just alone. floating along in space. untethered. #like. my life is inconsequential and no one would even really care if i just. disappeared. #or something. idk. #it’s 5 am and i haven’t gone to sleep yet it might be the sleep deprivation talking lmfao.

[29121996]

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#i live in this weird in between state of accepting that wrre over and this weitd hope that its not. #i cant fucming 3xpla8n it bc im atill coming to terms that were over #actually rhata a lie i have come to terms w it #i havwny come to terms w the pain i have internally bc of this and i sont Want To #i dont wanna ubpack all the ways this wounded me and left me feeling awful #i should . be more upset at this and more emotional #but for the most part im ok w it. as long as im not Thinking abt it too deeply. #i do think oncr this sets in that . i lost him ill breakdown actually bc i cant look at any photos of him #except this one video i took of him playing this riff i rlly liked. #i miss him . and i dont want to #idk its a clusterfuck up thete i need to squeegee my brain #i hate . the 1st mojth of a brealup while i try to figure out how i feel bc it then just geys Unleashed like a river or something #i fucking hatw it i hatw this i want him but i sont #altho i do know . if i didnt take him for his word that night itd be worse off and id be treated even more horribly.

[harrylights]

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#fhfjkdjdsss #i suddenly remembered all the videos i uploaded to youtube and put on private and fuckfkfkdks #i was such a funny weird little idiot #there’s one of me dancing like an absolute MANIAC to better than words by 1d #and then this q&a thing i did for my fb friends when i was like. 18 #and even tho i was so lost as a person i was so cute :’) but so fucking weird :’) #one of the q’s was how many marshmallows can i fit in my mouth but i didn’t have any on hand #so instead i opted for chocolate that were individually wrapped and i didn’t even unwrap them like???? wtf #and the LAST FRAME KILLS ME #THEYRE LIKE FALLING OUT OF MY MOUTH AND IM SO DISTRESSED #I WAS FUCKING WHEEZING LAUGHING AT IT WHEN I WAYCHED THAT LIKE U DUMB BEAUTIFUL LITTLE IDIOT #god. #also looking back i was so tiny??? but everyone treated me like i was huge #which ofc there’s nothing wrong w being big and i’m owning it now but like #damn shit was whack back then #wasn’t even that long ago like 2013 tops #fucking hell #anyway #rowyn rambles