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drawnfamiliarfaces · 2 months

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Would Jenny allow Danny to tinker with her? I know robotics isn’t exactly the same as aerospace engineering (and I do be headcanoning that my boy chose this as his major since he wants to be an astronaut), but with all the experience he had from handling his parents inventions I believe he can be trusted with fixing something as complex as a robot. I like to think that Danny was really impressed with how Jenny was made and secretly wanted to take a look at how she works, but was too shy to ask because he knows how it’s like to be treated like an object and not a person (with the whole “ghosts are non-sentient globs of ectoplasm with post-human consciousness” spiel he heard so many times) and didn’t want to make Jenny uncomfortable. I believe it took Jenny some time and getting to know Danny and his engineering skills before she let him fix her when she got something badly broken. It was like a show of ultimate trust from Jenny’s side and Danny was flattered, humbled and very respectful. And super careful of course, constantly asking how Jenny’s doing or feeling while he tinkered, mindful of her. I bet she was touched.

Not gonna lie, this is one of the more fascinating asks I got - if only because its incredibly interesting to read about your take/interpretation of Danny & Jenny's relationship! I hope you don't mind me saying, but it feels like you adore both characters and it's very cute!

Well, now, in HoM AU, both Danny and Jenny are close friends and indeed Danny is one of the few people who Jenny trusts with - well, herself - her mechanical self. Like you, I headcanon Danny as quite mechanicaly gifted - in HoM AU he actually graduated college/uni with engineering degree, so he got education to polish his raw skills! He is one of the first people who would help Jenny in and out of the field, if there is a minor malfunction or an injury of some sort!

But even for that to happen it took a couple of years and a few adventures together.

So to answer the original question, I would have to say that in HoM AU specifically, neither Danny would ask to 'tinker' with her, nor Jenny would probably be totally comfortable with that question if asked. 'Tinkering' would imply a degree of casual poking around, and in this case, both Danny and Jenny have certain life experiences that gave them... boundaries when it comes to their own and others' autonomy. Jenny especially.

(a bit of random background info dump here to explain the reasoning, but feel free to ignore it, since i basically answered the ask xD i just got bitten by a writing bunny, so its gotten a bit long - be warned!)

When Jenny was younger and only just acclimatizing herself with human world and amongst teenagers, she was rather blaze at times with how much access to her body she gave to her human friends and acquaintances.

After all, her mother was rather frank about it - often poking around in Jenny's mechanics and code. But it was her mother, who created her (sort of 'why are you covering yourself, i made you i already know what you have' mother attitude, which is a bit over-controlling and invasive to other's autonomy, but well, Jenny is a robot after all) and it a completely different deal from others.

So, despite her mother's warnings there are instances when Jenny was not very careful. Like when she allowed Brad, Tuck and Sheldon to literally remove and rip out her stuff in pursuit of fashion goals. Or when she dropped her guard around Todd Sweeney and got reprogrammed for her good deed.

And during the events of the last episode, she was once again controlled, by Dr Locus. While not exactly her fault, it still left a lasting impression that any mechanically gifted person could be dangerous to her.

Now, this is where we venture into my personal headcanons for MLAATR that are tied into HoM-verse:

Another aspect of Jenny's developed caution to giving access to her body - is the fact that she is not considered as a real person in the eye of the government/world. She is a thing, a weapon created by Dr. Walkman. She does not have the same rights as a human, and on paper she does not even have rights to her own body. It's all patented Nora Wakeman technology, (secretly) founded by the government.

And she has been fighting it ever since she was a teenager and refused to be called an IT - XJ-9 - and became a HER, a teenage girl Jenny, who also just happens to be a robot.

At first it started as a simple teenage rebellion and she went to school and started to hang out with other kids, but what about later after she graduates? Will she be even allowed to? Sure, maybe her school will give her a diploma, but how legal will it be to give something like that to someone who is legally not a real person? After all, its not like when other kids will turn 18 and can be their own people, not under the legal control of their parents. Jenny is her mother's property, intellectual and physical. For her to be considered a real person in the eye of government, it would require a law being passed about recognizing sentience of Artificial Intelligence.

And sure, she could probably be made an exception, being a hero robot and all, but the problem is, she is not the only human-made robot in existence! What about her sisters, who are prototypes and are not as developed as her? Her brother, who seemed to develop sentiency to the point of turning on humans?? Melody and Killgore?? And its not only in her world (cartoon), but in others (since its a crossover). So the question about AI/Robot sentience, no matter if they are good or bad or how developed they are, would not concern only her, it would be a global debate.

And we all know how the governments of the world would feel about passing laws about sentience of artificial beings that were created to serve the human race. It would be a struggle one way or another.

So, as she grows up and sees the world refusing to aknowledge her as a person, she doesnt have legal rights to finish school and go to college, to get a job, to get married, heck she cant even have a legal documentation that doesnt says 'Dr. Wakeman's creation'. The government says: your body belongs to us, because we paid for Dr. Wakeman to make you - you belong to us, we control you.

That, on top of several unpleasant experiences with other people disregarding her autonomy, will equal to Jenny trying to get some sense of that control back. So she starts to be more cautious about how much access others have to her physical self; she starts to build and reinforce boundaries with other people, starting with her family and friends.

It was one of the darkest days in Sheldon's life, when Jenny started to firmly say 'no' to whenever he asked her about her inner workings and casual access for poking around. xD Tuck was not a happy camper either, that his favorite robot friend became very stingy with all the cool stuff. But Brad got it. And after gentle (and sometimes not) reminders, others became more understanding.

It was a little harder with her mother. Dr. Wakeman truly loved her daughter, but she was a scientist first and mother second. She was so used to casual access to Jenny, in order to keep maitanance that it was hard for her to break the habits. Its still a constant struggle, but she has gotten so much better.

Now, when it came to her new friends amongst HoMies, she already has built a set of boundaries that allowed her to feel more secure as a person, despite how the world sees her, but she is much more reserved to opening herself up to others, at least compared to how she first approached people when she was younger.

It took a few missions and getting to know them better, for her to start trusting with them with her mechanical self. But now a few years later, she feels comfortable enough with most of them to give her a helping hand when needed!

Of course not everyone are capable of helping her though: Danny, Kim and Zak are three of more mechanically oriented people who can help. Though Danny is the one with actual education in that field, while Kim and Zak learned more by necessity, from Kim's various jobs and Zak to operate the Saturday's equipments.

When Rex joined them, he actually became the second best person for her to come to if she needed help. Not only because he has unprecedent skills in mechanics, but also because of his nanites. (but thats info dump for another time, lol)

Jun has some basic knowledge in mechanics, but nowhere near enough for her to feel comfortable poking in Jenny's insides. Jake is perhaps the least capable of helping, when it comes to engineering, followed by newbie Randy (tho we really aint counting him tbh xD).

Ben is a complicated situation - he has some training and knowledge in engineering and robotics because of his Plumber training, but Jenny has heard horror tales from Gwen about how he treats his stuff (the whole hacking/playing with Omnitrix settings), so she flat out refuses for Ben to touch her. However in emergency/battle situation she would allow Ben to use one of his aliens to do so (like, Grey Matter or Upgrade).

So, we talked about Jenny's experiences and why they would contribute to her feeling uncomfortable if someone asked to 'tinker' with her.

Now, let's talk about why Danny would not ask to 'tinker' with her in the first place.

Like you said, Danny is all to familiar with the struggle of being part of something tat is hardly recognized as a sentient species - he had to listen to his parents dismiss ghost sentience most of his younger life. Of course, they have gotten much better since the... 'finale' of DP, but this sort of racism? xenophobia? (im not rally sure which term to use tbh) prejudice against ghosts would have left a lasting impression on Danny.

So I dont remember if I ever implied it, but in HoM AU - events of DP finale happened very differently and the resulting consequences of it diverged a lot from Mr ButtHurtman's 'canon'.

(Also, I had ideas about it, before a Glitch In Time came out, so events from there were not taken into consideration. )

I don't want to reveal much, because it is kinda one of my planned flashback for HoM, but the events that happened reinforced Danny's ... well lets say regard of people's autonomy? It's kind of hard to put into words.

Ok, let's explain it like this: Danny would not ask Jenny if he could look at how she worked and if he could tinker with her, because it would be like if his Mom and Dad casually asked if they could perform a vivisection on him to see how different he is from a full human.

And while sure, the comparison might sound a bit extreme, since there is a difference when it comes to robots and humans about 'poking around' in their innards. But to Danny - it would be too close of a comparison - because of the whole 'recognition of sentience' thing.

After all, wasn't it just some years ago, his parents cried that ghost are nothing more than lump of malicious energy that have no feelings? They changed their mind after Danny's reveal, which allowed them to actually listen and look into evidence proving otherwise and learn. And here is Jenny, struggling to be recognized as a person, since she is considered nothing more than a lump of metal with no feelings - just a weapon to be pointed in a certain direction.

And Danny would feel like asking Jenny if he could casually poke inside her, is a bit... hypocritical? And not to mention insenstitive. After all, he knows how she feels - she is basically still living his worst imagined life in some ways.

So, I don't think he will ever ask to study how she works by casually poking inside her.

HOWEVER -

At some point, after they became friends, Danny would feel like he should know at least some basics on how Jenny works, just so he could help her in an emergency.

I imagine it happened after a particularly rough mission, and Danny had to help Jenny back home since she was unable to do so herself, so Dr. Wakeman could fix her. After some time thinking, he would sit in front of both Nora and Jenny and ask them for permission if he could learn how Jenny works - from Nora.

After all, Danny does not need to poke inside Jenny to learn how she functions, when there is her mother right there - the creator, the maintanance and doctor all in one package, with access to blueprints and all intricate knowledge, who can evaluate what Danny needs to know in accordance to his passable engineering skills. She could teach him the basics - but of course not without Jenny's permission.

So he asks her, if he could learn, because he is tired of looking how she gets hurt along with them, but unlike most of them she can not be easily fixed with bandages and some time. And Danny, since he is one of the few of them who has the skills, would like to be actually able to help her with those skills. But it is her body - it is her choice, to trust him or not.

And Jenny would be speechless. It would be the first time someone asked her like that. Not even Kim, who is one of her closest friends, asked before (but mostly because Kim was perfectly aware that she is nowhere skilled enough to even think about it).

And you would be right. It would be a show of ultimate trust from Jenny, to agree for Danny to learn. And maybe at some point, simply learning, turned into more on hands learning in some small ways. And Jenny's trust was never betrayed, and Danny always stayed humbled and aware of that.

so, i hope the answer was satisfying, or at least entertaining for you! thank you again, your ask was delightful to read and allowed me to explore some of my own backstory parts for HoM a little bit more!

#que?#hom au #hom au q&a #danny fenton #jenny xj9 #long post #i do apologize for length. im not even sure how coherent my ramblings are but i do hope it was fun to read at least lol

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kim-woonhak · 1 year

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i wanna be your best friend ever 🌈🧸❣️

#nctinc #itsnctsworld #useroro #mklnet #mark lee #lee mark #lee minhyung #mark #nct #nct 127 #nct dream #superm #*ambiv.art #ugh i've never worked so hard on a background before so this definitely deserves all the close up shots #im not even gonna apologize for the length of this post #me slipping in leebit and pink and green pipis = a win for stayzens everywhere #also ofc mark heart eyes. ofc <3

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funnyposts4friends · 4 months

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imagine being so miserable to the point have to go to the lengths of insulting people for making content that involves women and trying to justify it as being ‘anti man’ when it so clearly isnt.

its not inherently creepy to like women. it is not inherently predatory to like women. people are not inherently invading spaces by liking women or acknowledging their existence. media including women is not inherently lesser it is not inherently taboo it is not something that needs to be exonerated for the crime of having women in it.

telling people not to make content about women is misogynistic, inherently. it is not feminist. ask yourself why you think people should jump through hoops to prove their content about women is valid when people get to make art and stories about men all the time.

why do men get to be the default but you need to justify art and media having women? why are you making people justify including women in their art? because that’s what youre doing and all youre getting out of this faux righteous reactionary tirade is making sure there’s less for women. rot.

#negative /#this infuriates me this is jocat 2 #’this innocuous content being positive about women is misogynistic!’#say you hate women and are willing to throw them under the bus for the sake of being righteous.#you do not like women you do not center women you do not prioritize women if you do this bullshit #you’re a run of the mill misogynist even if its internalized misogyny and I loathe you if you do this #also yes im aware this is being reductive about the gender binary #I apologize but also this is an issue where it would take double this post length to explain how ppl outside the binary fall in this on #both as subjects and creators #sorry I am fuming #ppl are free to rb this though

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entriprises · 26 days

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buck & names

for the majority of buck’s life he’s been evan. the last 7-8 years of his life have fundamentally changed him, they define so much of who he considers himself to be and they mark a period of constant growth and understanding of himself. he hasn’t been buck for his whole life, although it certainly feels like it some days because of all that he’s gone through.

he grew up evan. should he ever return to hershey, georgia, virginia, arizona, florida, oregon, and the other million other places he’d at one point or another stayed in then they’d only know as much to call him evan. it’s how he introduced himself back then, even when his last name came up as a nickname one time or another through sports or any other culture he’d inserted himself into.

buck comes with his career, with firefighting. it’s not even meaningful when it comes to him, it’s just a way to separate him from the other evans in the academy. it’s not new, it’s not strange, and he slides into it quite easily. he’s been called by his last name before, and naturally it just shortens to buck. firefighting as a whole is something new, and a place where he truly starts to feel comfortable, even though he’s not taking it nearly as seriously. he associates the comfort with firefighting, and in that everyone calls him buck so when he gets to the 118, he corrects bobby. he tells him right there that everyone calls him buck. it’s not that he’s attached per se, it’s not quite his whole identity, he just likes who he is as firefighter buck.

the identity bit comes over time, and somewhere along the way firefighting is more than just something he’s doing, it’s very much his life. he cannot deal with a reality where he isn’t firefighter buck, and he refuses to accept one. he pushes through all of his recoveries because of it, and with that also comes the attachment to being buck, not evan.

when it comes up again, with his parents, they go for the obvious answer when addressing him: they call him evan, because why wouldn’t they? it’s part of the distance between him and his parents for them to call him evan, something not even his sister calls him anymore. when he tells her that he won’t have anything without firefighting, she assures him, “you will still be buck.” and when his parents call him evan he specifically says “buck, that’s what people who know me, that’s what they call me.” because fundamentally who he has become in his time as a firefighter, the people in his life, his found family are all things that are entangled with this identity as buck.

evan isn’t who he is anymore, and buck, being someone who has always seen himself in extremes and his own rigid frameworks (buck 2.0, buck 3.0), casts evan right into the past. still, it doesn’t leave him completely. his parents still slip up, he responds to evan, it’s still something that’s around, it’s just not how he carries himself. he’s buck, the firefighter, the guy who has grown and survived so much that sometimes it’s a little easy to get caught up in the jokes of being untouchable.

and then eddie goes and calls him evan once, and it’s like something else entirely. it happens just once, but it reaches through to buck in a way more than buck ever will because there’s this extreme idea of who buck is right? buck’s the strong guy, the survivor, the big tough firefighter. evan? evan’s the lost guy, the hurt kid, the side of himself he left behind, the one who didn’t ever feel like he mattered. evan’s the one who won’t brush aside what eddie’s trying to get through to him.

but then it really begins with tommy, and most importantly, buck doesn’t correct him. there’s no moment where he says to him at all that he prefers buck— and there’s been endless opportunities to do so. he welcomes it, turns his head at every call, and feels warmer from it. there’s someone who not only offers him a chance to explore a new side of himself, heal, feel relief, but also sees him as evan, and wants to know him as such (outside of the firehouse, because ultimately while it’s what introduced them and what gives them a lot to bond over it’s not what their relationship circles around/centers on/etc). evan is a reconciliation, at least the start of one. it’s a coming together of two extremes that buck has built for himself and hasn’t really tried to do before. more than just figuring out his bisexuality, realizing that piece about himself, buck gets to explore now with the whole of who he is.

#im so sorry about the length of this #i have a normal relationship with my name #that’s why this is eight paragraphs #also i apologize if this is full of typos and things that just don’t make sense im writing this during lecture & mid headache #i have been thinking about this a lot #e. buckley * headcanons #if youre here from fandom pls no reblog pls do not look at me

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so-very-small · 2 years

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as someone who’s lived with varying critters in the wall of some of my varying homes, you do very much become desensitized to the noises. like at first hearing scuttling from the walls is scary, but after a while it’s just like you hear a loud crash from your wall and without looking up from your phone you say “bitch you good??”. a bean who has borrowers in the walls, and are under the impression that its mice or whatever, will ABSOLUTELY succumb to talking to the “rats” all the time, after they realize and accept their pest problem isn’t leaving. they’ll be banging on the wall to get them to be quiet and striking up one sided conversation with them in no time

#the current place im staying has mice in the walls which is. idk i try not to linger on it #but they r so loud. im taking a bath and they keep SQUEAKING in the wall by my ear and i have to tap the wall to get them to be QUIET #im not squeamish abt them either theyre just fuckin guys in my home ig #sometimes i have to race my cat to catch these little dudes bc she is NOT a fan of them #little dudes r then released promptly far far away from my home #anyways i do talk to them sometimes if i hear em. ask em abt their day. comment when i can hear them thud down the entire length of the wall #maybe theyre borrowers i dont know #i hope not bc i feel like if i found out borrowers were real and i just wasnt one id be mad #cannot shut up tonight lads i apologize

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devon-sinclair · 5 months

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When Devon's feet had first set down in Tonopah Valley for the first time in over 25 he had almost immediately gone to where she was. He wanted to see Nellie more than anything but he had been certain that he wouldn't be staying. And then he had learned of Eddie's passing and there was no way he could leave now. He had spent the entire night beating himself up, crying as he looked through old photos and listened to some of Eddie's favorite songs. He knew he had to go see his parents but he was taking it a moment at a time. It was bad enough his nephew had to break the news to him, had to relive the trauma for his sake. He was only back a few days and he was already fucking up. So he sought out the one person who had always made this place worth it.

He had thought about this moment so many times, more times than seemed humanly possible. He kept all of her letters with him, split between his bags and his apartment in Cambridge. But her words were with him always. So was the feeling he got in his chest whenever he thought about her. A feeling that increased the closer he drove to her home. It was easy enough to find her and as he drove the familiar words all he could think about was their youth together. The dreams shared, the time spent with Penny and Elliott, all of them doing anything they could to not go home.

He took a deep breath as he got out of the car, grabbing the alcohol and flowers he had brought for her. He took a few more deep breathes as he walked the path to her door, knowing he'd need the extra oxygen. Because when she opened the door and he looked at her, he felt the same way he had all of those years ago. "Hi Nellie," he took a beat and looked her over, his smile undeniable. "God, you haven't aged a day, huh? Bet you could still beat me in a sprint too. These are for you," he told her. "I know you haven't always been a flower gal but someone taught me recently that everyone deserves flowers sometimes. You can stare at em for a little bit then throw 'em out." He cleared his throat when he realized he was rambling. "I uh brought alcohol too if that'll get you to actually let me in." @nelliedecker

#c: nellie #death mention tw #id apologize for the emotional length but we know im not sorry LOL

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sneezydarliing · 1 year

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hellohello sorry i don't engage a lot i used to just lurk until recently :] but godhsb i love b/s/d

wails in fu/ku/za/wa enjoyer w NO content

hcs would be nice ily ty <3333

Hello!!! You are perfectly fine <3!!!

Also omg another fuku/zawa enjoyer?? I didn't know there was another. I will gladly share

Smaller fits of 3 or 4. Hear me out. Big man quiet sneeze.

Usually stifles [it's mentioned in a LN that he walks completely silently so naturally he sneezes as quiet as he possibly can as well] but will sneeze naturally if he's alone

Most often into his lap or stifled into the back of his wrist, but he will cover with his elbow in public [he's a very polite man]

Pollen allergy. Awful pollen allergy. You can tell when it begins because he comes into work with his nose tinted pink and rough already from using so many tissues at 8 am. Nose runs like a faucet. Sniffly man

His natural snz is very like. Breathy and wet. Sometimes the deepness of his voice comes out though

Mutters little curses after every fit <33

He doesn't bless people but if ppl he's close to bless him he'll hum a little thanks

Tries to talk through his fits

Gets a lil embarrassed when he sneezes during like a meeting and people notice

Not much for buildups,, they usually come very suddenly

Itchy nose all the time and he's constantly rubbing and pawing at it

"hold on plea-hIh'nGXt! hiH-ngt! christ.."

I'm the worst at snz spelling please have pity

If you have anything I'd love to hear it!!!

#this is absolutely making my day ily #snz stuff #b/s/d #trying to spell them is so embarrassing for some reaakn #i apologize for the length im just very happy somebody else likes him 😭

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crowdsourcedloner · 5 months

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2. What was the first moment that they knew they were in love with their LI?

13. How do they react at being away from each other?

26. How important is the romance in your OC’s overall story?

these are going under a cut for length, but thank you!!!

2. What was the first moment that they knew they were in love with their LI?

There were a lot of little moments for Nailah, but if one had to be chosen as the moment... it'd be the one they shared before scaling Mount Gulg. She pieced together who the Exarch was shortly before then, and though she still didn't know why he was doing what he was, hearing someone she deeply trusted speak so warmly to her after some of the worst experiences in her life set her heart on fire for him.

It's a similar story for G'raha - several smaller moments rather than one big one - but the through-line of all of those bits was seeing Nailah let down her walls and just be herself. He fell in love with each glimpse of her gentle nature, each quiet chuckle he heard, each shy smile he caught... it was a slow, inevitable love for him.

13. How do they react at being away from each other?

If he's not kept busy, G'raha falls into wistful pining pretty quickly. His thoughts regularly drift to thinking about (or worrying over) Nailah, and he writes letters when his yearning becomes too much to bear. The letters rarely get sent - apparently postmoogles don't accept 'nondescript Eorzean wilderness' as a valid mailing address - so he stores them in Nailah's annex room for her to read when she returns.

While Nailah likes having time for herself, she doesn't like staying away from G'raha for too long - he's one of very few people she's comfortable being herself around, and going back into the public eye alone isn't something she enjoys. Tiring as it is, she retreats to her colder, distant professionalism, fighting off her yearning with her poetry in dark inn rooms or secluded camps while collecting stories and trinkets as gifts for her lover upon her return. The longer she's kept away, the colder she comes across to those around her - though admittedly, it's hard for strangers to notice the difference.

26. How important is the romance in your OC's overall story?

it's important, but it's not the be-all end-all if that makes sense? it's the culmination of lessons she learns through her journeys, but it's not the point of her story. the romance is supposed to represent Nailah finding her own self worth and choosing to pursue something for herself, even if that something is as small as loving someone else. she needs a space to figure herself out and just... be Nailah, and G'raha gives her that and more, while she gives him just as much support and encouragement in his own choices - choices that he also is starting to pursue for himself.

...i think that's as good an explanation as i can give without incoherently rambling tbh.

#answered asks #thank you for the asks!!! im sorry they took so long!!!#oc: hrothwol #ship tag goes here #lil more context bc i cannot stop myself and clearly dont understand formatting #nailah held a candle for g'raha since the very end of the crystal tower raids #but she was in no state to recognize those feelings or do anything about them at the time #(the first spark here was hearing him talk about his dreams with such conviction and warmth -#- she wanted to hear him speak of her like that one day... but didnt understand why)#so she chalked it up to missing someone she was unexpectedly attached to #g'raha was convinced nailah hated him at the start of the ct raids since she kept him at arms length #and she kept wandering off to be alone (her echo was acting up and she needed a lot of breaks)#...it was a whole thing but they eventually talked it out and she started opening up to him #the whole 'century alive with only stories of the Warrior of Light' thing did mess with his memory of her #so there was a little culture shock(?) when he sees her again in shb #(nailah was pretty frustrated during early shb so he got a pretty skewed first impression again lol)#he fell in love with who she actually was over the shb story and as he fully remembered their time together #...holy shit thats a lotta tags...#i appreciate any of y'all that read these #and apologize for exploding your dashes it will happen again ;-;

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slaygentford · 1 year

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it's finally time.

#im not going to apologize for the length of the post you are about to see.

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mymelodyisme · 1 year

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hello I love your writing and i just wanted to ask if you have any tips when on a writer's block?

😭 is this really meant for me?!!! Hi!!!!

Oh gosh I don’t know if I’m being honest. I just kind of go with the flow of it all. Literally writing the words as I think them and then go back to adjust when I need to edit. But !! But! If I could say anything that might help get your creativity back on the treadmill

I would suggest, depending on what you��re writing of course, put yourself as the voice of the character for a bit. How would you react to what’s going on. I embarrassingly do a lot of facial movements and hand movements and play out a scene. Sometimes it’ll unlock an “oh wait something like this could happen next” moment

If you’re stumped entirely, move ahead!!! Don’t allow yourself to be fitted like a typewriter! If a scene isn’t scening put a letter or mark and press enter. The fun part about this is that you can come up with ANYTHING now that there’s no connection to the former line and if you go ham enough with typing you can find a new point and reconnect them. Writing seems like it should be point A to point B to point C but you really could start anywhere within reason. Sometimes i think about the end result and then work my way there :)

Sometimes I also just like looking at things. Art, people, words, and I get little snippets of dialogue or action and I think “hey I want to stick that somewhere” here’s an example from my notes app (speaking of notes app use the heck out of it)

When I was writing Drink for your First Kiss this was literally all I started with :) that and the vague movements and feelings that would have come from being kissed for the first time.

As for the notes app, I recommend making it a widget! I like to write down my silly little ideas. Sometimes something really dumb happens to me and I’ll mark it as something that can be used for character development

Here’s an example! I take my siblings to school. Well at the start of the year I was driving, right? Well there’s this hole that you have to curve just right to avoid.

Dear reader I did not do that.

If anything I saw something black fly across my vision. I freaked out for a bit, dropped my sister off, and made my way back only for it to have been nothing (I should have known that realistically). And as I was shaken, driving home, I thought “ah what if it was my guardian Angel? Oh! What if he was cast down from heaven because he fell in love with me. Oh! What about a story about a girl who hits her guardian Angel, disguised as a bird, with her car and takes him in only to find out he was cast out for falling deeply in love with her and doing absolutely everything in his power to protect her. What if his love was the driving force of the story. He already fell from heaven, what wouldn’t he do for her?”

All that from me hitting a hole and all within the span of ten minutes lol!

So if you take anything away from my silly little rambling it’s that you CAN and you WILL come across a motive to continue that you haven’t hit yet!!

Mark it down, mark it down, mark it down!!

I’m sure you’ll get on eventually and if worse comes to worse, be dramatic!!!! Kill off a character for a few minutes in the drafts 🫢 nothing to get you worked up than imagining they’re not there and how does everything else move on.

Oh also add lots of spaces in between thoughts. That’s something that just works for me!

If there’s a space it can be filled during the read over :) [act out your scenes it’s so fun]

Plus, you might just hit a hole and meet a fallen Angel idk life’s full of surprises! (Like your words will be ♥️)

PS: dreams are also a good way to take ideas :) they’re already the unfiltered insanity that happens in your brain maybe take a pinch of it for your writing !

Pss: do not compare your worth and skill to others. That can be the death of creativity. We are all trying and we are all doing as we should. You’ll get there :)

#I hope this helped if even a bit !!!!#i love you!!!!!!!#I believe in you!!!!!!!!#i apologize for the length #IM SORRY THERES NO ORGANIZATION TO MY THOUGHTS #i really do hope something I’ve said might help 🥺#btw my angel’s name is Thielo/Theoriel #haha I really should write a story for him #mys mail 💌#that last message definitely is for myself as well #Im not perfect :) I have doubts! i get stuck!!!

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cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga · 1 year

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Hope things get turned around and those intrusive thoughts take a hike. Shit never gets any easier but I’m hoping life gives you plenty to smile about soon

To be honest I'm actually much better happy the attack lasted only a few hours, have been stuck in them for months at a time. End of November is always a hard time of the year for me as too many traumatic things happened in such a small time all layered on top of each other that looking back at it is like looking at the sun for me.

Things do get easier, not over night and not at all fast enough to notice but eventually you wont remember when things transitioned away from being a constant hell to just your memories and the ptsd scars as the only things that eventually let you enjoy a normal life more than most as you know the answer to "how much worse could things be"

But as a person I smile at the joys people have told me this Tumblr has brought them I smile when I get the chance to follow and talk with great people like yourself and slowly analyze their taste. Ended up scrolling thought many of my mutual blogs while trying to get a hold of myself you were one of the first ones I searched for as I always get a kick out of scrolling though

Now in terms of things life gave me to smile about?! I put this under a read more due to its length but I constantly was smiling and laughed as I typed it out.

The main thing I get to smile about everyday is that living through 23 years of daily abuse never having even one moment of peace constantly being abused or paranoid about when it would happen next, I never let him win. No matter how badly he tried to make me want to die I never gave in and the last time that bastard saw me he tried to get one more round of abuse in before I was gone plastered on his fucking face was a vile shit eating grin he before he could say one bit of his abusive manipulative shit I pried that arrogant smug smile off slamming one good punch into that fuck knocking every bit of air out of his lung stripping him of his capacity to abuse me. Yeah I still get a massive smile on my face as this shitty little fuck that had so expertly manipulated everyone and everything against me even so far as to get me arrested dispute I was defending myself against him which is why I couldn't have just beat the hell out of him to solve things. This cancerous lech of a person now doubled over on his hands and knees pathetically trying to gather himself gasping for air his racking heaves and barely understandable horsed pained ranting and screaming of expletives between each attempt to gain his composure. That beautiful image in my mind of his face just before he doubled over a mixture of surprise confusion and most of all just for a brief moment his eyes were alive and wild nothing but the fear of not being in control at least once a week for the last 3 years this memory just pops into my head and It makes me smile and laugh.

#I apologize for the length #im a madman who need to make sure I explain myself properly #If I dont I feel like Ill be misunderstood #and no one should sympathize with my brother #he is a nut job who actively is happier when he is watching someone in pain

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grapecaseschoices · 1 year

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hullo!! 20-25 for all your twc ships, for the otp asks!! 👀

Ty for the asks!

[Kat = Kai/Nat, Valdam = Val/Adam, Kate = Kendis/Nate, Keva = Kendis/Ava]

20) Choose one song that perfectly describes their relationship.

Hehe, I have playlists for most of them. Except Kendis x Ava [and Tareq x Ava]. I don't know about PERFECTLY describes but these songs come to mind almost immediately when I think of them.

Pierre x Felix: Dandelions [slowed + reverb] by Ruth B, slater

Kat: The More I See You by Nat King Cole

Valdam: Counting Paths by Matthew and the Atlas

Andy x Mason: I Ain't Never Loved No One by Donovan Woods and Tenille Townes & I Walk The Line [cover] by Halsey

Kate: Without You by Ursine Vulpine, Annaca & Waste It On Me by BTS, Steve Aoki, Slushii

21) Who would get into a fight to defend the other's honor? Who tends to the other's wounds?

Fighter: Ava. Nate. Val. Pierre. Mason. Nat.

Tender: Kendis. Kendis, lmao. Adam. Felix. Andy. Kai.

It isn't that Kendis wouldn't fight for them -- but Kendis is more of a smack talker for "honor" fights. If Kendis is fighting fighting that fight for honor is usually someone's life is in danger. Andy is similar -- though he'd step up if Mason was like betrayed or tricked. Felix would try to fight for Pierre's honor, but Pierre would stop him.

22) What reminds each of their partner?

Pierre x Felix: This is cheesy but light, Pierre associates Felix with light -- specifically light peaking through a shadow makes him think of Felix. Not ALWAYS but when his made wanders? And he catches that? Yeah. Also rainbows. Especially those cute rainbows drawn on concrete. For Felix it is old books and museums are no longer Nat, lmao. Stray cats. And he will find himself thinking of a joke he knows will make Pierre that slight smile and soft chuckle [he will be right].

Valdam: Val says broken pottery. But Val, I don't think looks at something and is like oh, that is Adam. But more it is moments like: Adam would get what I mean here. I wouldn't have to waste time on crap with Adam. For Adam, it is leather jackets qweer4re s lmao. Imagine Adam getting war flashbacks over the word 'greaser'. Also certain scents have become SO Val.

Keva: Ava associates post-its with Kendis. Kendis has introduced highlighters and colorful post-its to her life, Ms. Paper Can't Be Hacked. For Kendis, cargo pants -- mostly because Ava has allowed them to make use of the pockets. I think it is that 'Ava is so dependable', but it is easier t say the pockets.

Andy x Mason: IDK. Is it a cop out to say quiet? I need to ponder. I also think each other's 'vices'. Mason sees alcohol on the rocks and thats Andy

Kat: Everything. IDK, my dude. Kai and Nat balance each other so well, it arguably be like 'oh, if they were here tehy would handle this taht way' ... though I feel Nat would think it more. I think Nat is slowly starting to look at tech with less disdain, tho, bc of Kai. And Kai is more likely to consider trinkets and such, bc he knows Nat would like it ---he's not a big sentimentality dude [outside getting his fave coffee and pastry,lol].

Kate: Kendis has introduced post its into Nate's life too. I think music and the kitchen have become Kendis. Kendis definitely introduced Nate to more modern music, also she hums when she bakes. And Nate loves watching Kendis cook or bake. LOOOOVES it. The leather of Nate's jacket pings for Kendis --- and steadiness.

23) Who's more likely to convince the other to stay in bed come morning?

Convincer: Kendis [though it is barely, lmao; as Kendis is probably up and ready to go --Ava is trying to convince her to get more sleep]. Nate. Val. Nat. Felix. Mason.

Trying to leave: Ava. Kendis. Adam. Kai [though I fee he has surprising moments]. Pierre. Andy [tho, I feel twc!Andy has ... moments].

24) Who's more likely to give the other a massage?

I feel Kat and Pierre x Felix would be the only ones down for this, mutually. Nat for Kai and Pierre for Felix.

Kendis is very particular about touching -- I wouldn't say she is touch adverse [at least not in twc verse, at least not strictly speaking] and certain touches makes them feel closed in and/or clausterphobic. I feel Nate would cue in and would never ask. Ava would never ask either, but I feel it started out as a teasing thing about Ava's tenseness and then became a thing Kendis did sometimes for her.

Val is too awkward for this for this shit -- Val is intimacy adverse, lmao. No ... but it would make them jump out their skin if Adam tried and if they tried it on Adam and it went wrong, they'd just skitter up the wall like a frightened spider.

Andy would fucking never -- though I feel for twc!Andy the thought might occur, so he might do something ... like if Mason got a charlie horse maybe. And IDK if Mason would? Actually maybe ...

25) Do they have any hobbies they share?

Kat: Reading -> Learning.

Valdam: Cars.

Pierre x Felix: Does snuggling the cats in Pierre's building count? Making each other smile?

Andy x Mason: Smoking and Sex. Quiet. They're both fucking lurkers. No, for real.

Kate: Shopping. Cooking.

Keva: Being workaholics? I feel both would enjoy a quiet day organizing. Freaks.

Obligatory OTP Asks

#wanted to do drabbles for these but jury duty left me pooped #and i forgot my oh and l are mostly gone #meet my ships #twc #kendis x nate #kendis x ava #val x adam #andy x mason #pierre x felix #kai x nat #long post #grapecase answers #not gonna apologize for the length - resisting - as you did ask for all #but dang ... lmao #i guess its nice im tired

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omg ok so ive had like lots of just okay kinda encounters? like i havent done much hookups tbh but my most recent one was like a fucking trip

the night of it was like,, okay they werent super hot and they were both dudes doing like casual makeout cuddlefucking sex?? it was rly boring but it was fine enough, but the morning after i remember i woke up at 6:30 or so and had to go to the bathroom cuz i felt rly bloated and the fucking bathroom was right across the hall, the closest room to their bedroom, and it had no fan to offer white noise to block sound??? so like i had a bunch of lube leftover in my butt, and ive got a weirdly tight ass cuz i got GOOD ASS GAME but in this moment it was ruining my life for like 5 minutes straight it was like just every 5 seconds the loudest fart imagineable,,,,, so embarrassing

but that wasnt the end of it, after i finished up giving myself a bachelor shower, i open up the door to head back to them, and one of them is giving the other a breaking bad handjob???? and i was like ?? so i lay down next to them cuz im like whatever and the one giving the handjob is like "are you gonna need a ride home?" and im just like so taken abacklike BRO UR GIVING UR OTHER BRO A HANDIE LMAO and eventually the handjob giver leaves to take a shower so i snuggle up to the other guy, and when hes really sleepy/horny he can only talk in noises so he kept going "mrp? 🥺" at me to give him a handjob and im like,,,, not horny at all, but i start doing it anyways cuz whatever and its just very quiet, im not rly thinking abt it much, but eventually after enough time has passed my hand starts to get kinda tired and i just kinda stopped for literally 2 seconds as i was readjusting my hand to keep going and as soon as i stop THATS WHEN HE STARTS TO CUM AND IM LIKE "OMG WHAT" and i start like laughing in awe and then im like "did i just give you a ruined orgasm???" and he didnt know what that was and i was like "its like,,, when you stop right b4 the person cums yanno like when its not that good lmao" and he just didnt get what i was saying at all but yeah wow it was just mildly insane thing after another i felt like i had just had clown girl sex

6/10

#apologies for the length im on caffeine rn #long post

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clone-bar-79s · 2 years

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selam!

I was just thinking about Aria and wondering - how does she process grief? Does she learn of Mace's death, or is she under the impression he died during O66? And while I know Aria survives O66, does her padawan survive too?

have a wonderful day/evening! (also in the future do you want me to send asks on this blog or your sideblog?) İyi geceler my friend

oh my god youre so cute for asking. and im not even updating anything about Aria because i am legit unable to find the time (or the motivation) but THANK YOU again for asking. (Tesekurler :D )

She only begins to deal with intense grief once the war started because a lot of it was personal. Not like the grief she had experienced before, which was mostly as a spectator, when she went with Mace on missions to other parts of the galaxy. People she knew all her life were dying around her at an enormously quick pace and then the added responsibility of clones and their deaths was so hard to comprehend as well. So... its just a lot of silent moments for her. She cant talk because her minds incapable of dealing with anything except whatever emotion she is going through, whether its shock, sadness, depression or whatever else. She also sleeps a lot when she's sad. Its easy to pull herself away from her thoughts for a while but unfortunately they're just waiting for her when she's awake. and then... a while later when things have piled up, she has a massive breakdown. Also, she talks to like one or two people about how she feels so well... idk how healthy this sounds.

And well, she knows something is wrong with Mace and the moment, when palps kills him, plays out almost exactly the way Ahsoka's does (and almost exactly the same time that hers does too). And before she can learn more, she finds herself with the Empire. But she learns about what happened to Mace though. Through the Ninth Sister. Idk if you've read much about her, but she's in the Darth Vader comics and i loved her. she isnt weirdly and characteristically evil (I have no idea how shes portrayed in Jedi Fallen Order). So she answers Aria's questions whenever she's... conscious. She tells her how Mace died. She also tells her that Rex and Ayla are dead. And she tells her they dont have updates on Kiera. Who's alive btw. And who actually rescues Aria months later.

She learns stuff but she doesn't get to process any of the information properly until after her rescue. From there on she's basically just a shell of her original self because she's learnt about EVERYONE's death in a matter of minutes when she's reunited with her padawan because she did not trust the ninth sister (she was convincing herself everything she said was a lie) but yeah... its the same.

And you can send me asks anywhere man. The fact that you're sending them and still thinking about Aria is so super cute, im crying.

#asks #jedi aria #im so sorry i answered so late... ive been framing my repsonse for the past few days and then i realized id read your question qrong #also... im sorry about the length of this answer #i legit cant write anything shorter than essays #i apologize

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smallesttragedies · 2 years

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viktor stalked down the road, eyes cast upon the church, ancient stone standing high against the rolling fog that’d begun to form at the base; a concealment of the heavy oak doors, attempting to mask the glow of light behind stained glass. it had rained only moments prior - the street slick with the rain, their boots ( steel toed and darkened with questionable stains ) stomping across every puddle; cigarette limp and half-broken, still hanging from their lips. it was early morning - early enough that nearly every other building was still shrouded in darkness, the approaching church a beacon of life aside from viktor themself ( who was anything but a beacon of life, their dark silhouette and tall, yet crooked stance a ward-off for most - they were a warning at most. a threat of what’s to come ). if they squinted - they could make out quick moving shadows behind each window, occupants either awakening or never having slept at all.

a chill shot down their back, a reminder of the wet shirt that clung to their flesh - and their amble quickened to what one would call a shuffle, hurrying to close the distance between them and what they now considered home.

it was ironic, maybe - to grow up in a church, only to be condemned from your very home and to renounce your so-called god, only to pray beneath a different altar; in the form of worship best familiar with, heavy breaths and dark bruises and a sharp sweetness on the tongue. but stepping into the threshold, foyer cast in a dim light, soft array of colors - it’s not their love of christ that drew viktor to the refurnished church.

a couple shared a cigarette between them, shamelessly at the base of the winding staircase - a moment of tenderness obviously meant to escape from the chaos further inside, and viktor only offered them a lopsided, sharp-teethed grin as they swept down and snatched the cigarette from them. “no smoking indoors - house rules,” they gave a small shrug before spitting out their own, limp cigarette and placing the considerably fresh one between their lips instead, bounding up the stairs without so much as a glance back. the faintest hint of cherry wafted down, the further viktor went - one story, two stories, familiar music growing louder with every step they skipped.

the door was already slightly ajar as they approached, light pouring out in spots of red, orange, purple - they hadn’t bothered knocking, just pushed the door further aside as they stepped in - “lana?” with no response, viktor simply sighed - wanting to toss themself atop the bed, but instead settling on dampening the shag rug as they laid back on the floor, head propped up by a floor cushion and one leg tossed atop the other knee as they prepared to wait for her to emerge from wherever she’d gone.

( @reversecreek )

#nai ive never stepped foot in a church or london i wont lie to u im so american and unsexy #but i tried. apologies for length.#KLFDHGLDKSGHLKSDHKL #not even sure if it makes sense ... havent written in so long ...#viktor vs. lana

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