#im still gonna try maybe we'll see

[jimimn]

dearest, darling, my universe 🤍

#btsgif #park jimin #jimin #bts #userbangtan #btsedit #* #*jm #230331 music bank. #scheduled. #cleaning drafts. #this is the last of my drafts hehe theyre finally over <3 #i had made all these jimin sets that i posted for a series that i later decided not to do lol #i haven't actually giffed since the beginning of november and idk if im gonna anytime soon dhjdhsjz #i WANT to but i don't want to.. that doesn't make sense but it is what it is #im still gonna try maybe we'll see #idk why im writing all this #oh well gshjhsjdhjs

[itsjaywalkers]

guys i got home really late and . kinda drunk . so my friend convinced me to call in sick tomorrow (i've never done it not even when i was actually sick) so i texted my manager, the one who's on shift tomorrow and i'm hoping for the best........... wish me luck?

#i'm gonna set my alarm at like 8 . just in case . #bc i was supposed to do the open tomorrow #thats the only reason why im calling in sick #any other shift i would've done without much issue #but theres no way im going in at 9am when its almost 3am rn and im still trying to sober up #just so i can go to sleep #this one manager is lovely and we get along well so im hoping she'll be fine with it #she probably knows its bc of the hangover and not bc im actually sick but #im not the first one whos called in sick bc of a hangover and i wont be the last #my other manager went out with us tonight and she also got super drunk and im her favourite so im hoping she'll back me up #WE'LL SEE #i just wanna rest properly tomorrow and SLEEP and maybe write too.. #is that so much to ask for..

[charmac]

Just a small unasked-for update, since I said I'd update in a week and it's been almost two

Because this is how I have spent the majority of my free time last week

Not even done, re-written 5 different scenes, haven't done a re-read over half of it. I'm so deep in the trenches with this one there is so much baked in here... I hope you guys like a million random scenes that don't *have* to exist, but do.

(Also like 3 hours of that Firefox time is "research" aka watching baseball for this chapter)

#im starting to grow concerned that im overwriting #i mean i should have been concerned awhile ago #but. idk its not like theres any actual rules #i can have fun with them right... #im guessing most people just enjoy the dynamic and arent like. eager for this thing to have a climax and a conclusion #but if im wrong maybe i should stop writing chapters this long lmfao #cos a chunk of it really can just stay in my head...or i can cut #but i kinda assume people just wanna read it all #i guess we'll see! #ok im gonna try and finish this thing now #i est. i still have like 2k words to add... lol #what was i saying about overwriting? #ok it will probs get easier when im not trying to write scenes alongside a 4.5hr baseball game #ok bye #sugar daddy au

[altruistic-meme]

2300 words!! yay!! now THATS more like it. i haven’t even quite reached the end of the opening scene, but i need to go do laundry so i’m going to have to set it down for now :( hopefully i can write more later ;;;;

#i still need a name for it also but i'm TRYING to not RUSH that #since i always end up with names sooooo early in writing #i want to hold off on naming it until i've gotten somewhere with it #we're currently in the beginning - the armistice. then we'll have the middle - the peace treaty. and finally the end - the friendship treaty #im aiming for the end part to be twice the length of the other two #so it's like. first act is the beginning. second act is the middle. and then acts three and four are the end. #not quite sure how the end is gonna go exactly but thats the current goal anyway #idk how long this fic will end up being but i was also aiming for it to be a oneshot..... #so it's either gonna be a very long oneshot or probably ~4 chapters to match up with the acts #we'll see how it goes #i'm gonna try not to post it at all until it's written also #i think maybe around 20k-25k ? would be my current guess on length #so #shrug #gotta go do laundry now tho #shh ac #wip: laurent stabs damen

[todayisafridaynight]

twitter having 'national girlfriend day' trend tonight is so funny like how did they know i was thinking of masato

#snap chats #he's still my toxic girlfriend sorry #i was sitting by the road today and being emo As Per Usual and i thought about comin on here like #'maybe if i looked at pictures of my evil toxic girlfriend ill feel better' #maybe i should just draw him... idk im not really feeling like. EXISTING tonight #i keep hoping ill die from high blood pressure soon and its just not happening like cmon....... dont play with me like that blood pressure. #ok bye im gonna. idk. #drink matcha ig #i called my dad just to say hi because im trying to do that more and i just ended up crying like a BABY #and he just told me to eat cause he knows me and he knows i hate myself and that means i Wont eat 😔 #i mean he said a LOT more obviously but yk.. the eating part's relevant since im talking about just drinking matcha and calling it a night #prrroobbbabblyyy not the best hting to do.... not when thi smatcha apparently got creamer and sugar in it The Fuck #I DIDNT KNOW THAT my disappointment is immeasurable... i just wanted pure matcha tyvm... #maybe i should start odering it online since i know i wont find any locally... #but those are plans for when i have money and dont feel like lying on the side of the road #for now uhhhhhhhhhhhhh i GUESS i'll have tea... and quiche... so i dont disappoint my dad.... #he'd never know but i'll feel bad.... ok bye... #we'll see what i do in the next couple hours but one things for certain i WILL think of my evil toxic girlfriend <- masato

[bangcakes]

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#personal #lmao trying not to lose my mind NDJXJDJDNDNDNNDMDMD #thinking about the job fair and not the fact that im gonna see Him. yup. just the job fair !!!!!!!! #im like JDJDJFJDKDKD IDK. i dont think about him as much (thank GOD) and idk ive been like. ok ok hes my FRIEND #and maybe thats all we'll ever be. maybe we wont even be friends idk who KNOWS. GOD #i feel like a whole different person idk idk IDK #like i still like him JDJDDJJJZJZ #idk im just worried that the spark will be gone NDNJDJDJDJJDDJDD #FOOLISH. WHEN IT WAS STILL THERE AFTER NOT TALKING FOR 4 MONTHS BUT DJRJKRKKDKDMSS #AT LEAST WE TALK. IDK. IDKKKKKKKJKKJJJ #i think the issue is that i talked about it too much. like i had to explain the whole thing twice in 1 week to 2 of my friends out of the #loop and it was just... idk IDK #i also showed them what he looked like and NDJRJRJDKDKJDM IDK IDK #hhhhhhhhhh god.. .........whatever its fine. everything is fine. idk how to explain what im feeling NDJDJJDDDJDJDJDMD #APATHY?????????? #god idk. IDK. #our friendship is so weird. like sometimes stuff that happened will enter my head n im like...... kicking my feet twirling my HAIR about it #GOD..... #n e way idk idk..... #maybe i should have just kept it all to myself ???????? #idk idk... bc then i probs wouldnt have had the guts to pursue him as much as i did NFJFFFDD #anyway......

[fabulouslygaybean]

ohohoho..... bowling for soup is coming to my city

#gonna snag a ticket for that if the prices aren't too bad #im filling up my calender with live music wherever i can because christ i miss it #ive got fob in april and then ive got two other shows i still gotta buy tickets for (different bands ofc) #and im still gonna try to find resale ST tickets because. c'mon. i have to #2024 will be my fucking YEAR #maybe. hopefully. idk. we'll see i guess

[the-kipsabian]

..i have a plot for the soulmates as horror fic finally

the problem is i also have two other longer projects going on at the moment along a few others that ive already started ages ago so its like. i really shouldnt start another multichapter thing

but god im just so happy to have a plot

#i should really finish the other two first since they are in good progress and have coherent outlines #and then i should try to get immortal fears back in track #and maybe THEN i could start with this #the thing just is that ive wanted to write fucked up soulmates for so long now its just so tempting to start this now now that it has a plo #like an actual plot. i dont have an ending but i most definitely have a plot now that im really happy with #..i might poll this hmm. not only cause im indecisive as all hell about these three things. but also to scout potential interest #..which isnt gonna be a lot based on other factors cause lmao all three of these are orangekip. obviously #we'll see. at least things are a tad easier now that i have a keyboard i can actually type with #maybe i should post more about my wips so people can actually get interested and ask questions and stuff mmmmmm #(i just dont like talking about projects that are in progress cause i might still drop them and then its just sad lmao) #night is an absolute mess on main

[toastsnaffler]

tummy hurts my final message goodbye

#ive had mild pelvic pain for like. half a week now. its a bit like period cramps + in the same area but not as intense. idfk why #I dont think its bowel (<-no other symptoms and pain area is too low down) or bladder related (<- usually more painful + affects peeing) #sometimes I do get cramps a few days before my period but im midway thru my cycle and idk its not usually like this #not ovulation pain either bc thats supposed to only last a few hours. i dont fucking knooooww #im trying not to think abt it or complain abt it bc if i focus on it too much ill imagine its worse than it is. its rly not that bad #just consistent which is annoying. hopefully itll pass in a few more days. adulthood is all abt having mysterious random pains in ur body #sorry for tmi abt my internal bodily functions do u guys still think im cool. #eurghhh. im glad i went out to parkour today but man i rly wasnt feeling like it. another depression weekend :-( #but its ok im a bit tired of complaining abt being depressed. who give a shit. im doing all i can at the moment and thats fine #back to jobhunting tmr hopefully itll be more fruitful. im expecting to hear back from a few ppl. we'll see. rolling my rock back uphill #im gonna go get a hot water bottle i think... my hands are soooo cold and maybe itll soothe tummy pain too #and then read a little more.. finished giovannis room earlier (so fucking good but. devastating) so im back onto deaths end #just another 350 pages to go.. v curious to see where its gonna end up cuz so much crazy shit keeps happening. im just at the fairytales #hope my loyal followers are having a peaceful weekend.... farewell #.diaries

[vanillabat99]

It's 6:30AM and I just changed my bedsheets. I figured I should be nice to myself before calling the day done. Hopefully I sleep okay, but honestly I'm expecting nightmares.

#ive been using little medicine cups for my meds instead of my actual pill organizer for no good reason and i have finally paid the price #there are now some pills on my bedroom floor somewhere but i am too tired to care. #i did go back downstairs to get replacements but i just put em back in the cup. im living dangerously #also changing my sheets gave me an asthma attack 👍 #i have to wash my blanket nest blankets soon but thats not something i can think about rn. #i still have dance class at noon so i need to sleep ._. #its been a rough day. i feel like itll carry over. we'll see how i feel when i wake up. i might bail on dance class. #idk theres some stuff i wanted to do today that i wasnt able to do and maybe i can do them when i wake up. #anyways im gonna try to sleep but probably end up scrolling for awhile #batty blogging #text

[orcelito]

Certainly in an interesting mood, I think

#speculation nation #im trying to channel it into something productive #ive already changed out the cat litter bag and taken out most of the trash #still have a bit more buildup to get but im saving taking that out for after i cut the chicken #bc im gonna make curry. and id rather not have raw meat bits sitting in the trash for untold amounts of time lol #im hoping that finishing the cleaning ive long been putting off and incentivizing myself with food will be enough #blasting loud music and wishing it could be louder. unfortunately my phone wont let me :p #we'll see if the mood persists afterwards. it's a bit uhhh. well i guess i wont say too much actually #bc if anyone expresses worry for me im going to want to punch things lol #well theres a summary enough of the mood. maybe curry and clean dishes will fix me.

[welcometogrouchland]

local girl did work for three minutes straight without stopping to listen to music for 45 minutes. 15 dead 11 injure d

#ramblings of a lunatic #why!!!is!!!writing!!!so!!!difficult!!!rn!!!!!!!!! #im being VERY brave about it but still #its fine its fine im almost done with the intro to ep 3 (gonna finish the base of the scene today b4 tweaking and planning the part tomorr) #*tomorrow #well maybe not tomorrow. i have to be up early tomorrow. but u get the idea #and THEN when i have the opening all donezo i get to go redraft episode 1 to my liking (theres like. 3-ish? changes by scene count?- #-and probably just dialogue/characterization tweaks across the board. as much as i wanna im leaving the actual plot points in tact- #-bc if i dont i'll be here until i turn to stone!) #and THEN i get to do an actual redraft/iron-over of episode 2 #(one scene needs to be added for thematic relevance and i gotta keep it short then i gotta redraft one scene to have better dialogue- #-then i gotta fix up some ending bits and add a better thesis statement to the penultimate scene- #-and THEN i gotta redraft the very last scene so it seques better into episode 3!) #and when all thats done then im gonna try and knuckle down for the next few months to get ep 3 done #aiming for late december deadline...we'll see what happens #u guys hold me to that. if it's jan 1st and theres no 3rd enterprise script feel free to send me anon hate /hj

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@jackthewoodchipper my skunkly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#looks at u with my autism eyes......... oh u are just so skunkly #SO skunkly my wife #so shaped..... so snugable and round........ u my babie............ #i am holding u SO close to me rn u ar my everything methinks......... #bro also tomorrow i think we shoul uhhhhhhhhhhh vc and play mc maybe? somtime tomorow nite? #or earlier in the day like after u get home form school or somethnin #or!!!!!!! somethin i was thinkin abt was maybe u could just watch me play? #u can watch me play and we can jus vibe togethr n talke.......... #and also i can rub it in ur face the fact that my pc can run mc shaders and urs cant hahahahahahahahhaha #SJDBLKUBLKGJBJKLGBLKJGL #*monotone laughter* #<333333 #BUT ALSO ALSO im gonna ask my sister to try n talk to my brother to see if he can maybe help me see whats going on with #the whole mc java server that i still cant get to work #so maybe he can help me and we can play togethr on java instead of STINKY smely bredrock.............. #idk i jus think thad b nice!!!!!!!!!! ebic mayb!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I MEAN idk if he'll be able to fix it but. yeah! we'll see wha happns........ #sorey this mite b a bit of a short gaypos am very snepy tired.......... so sweepy.............. #but yeag mayb we coul do that tomorow!!!!!!!1 u can jus sit back n watch me play mc while we talk abt gay thimgs <3 #mayb we coul even....... stay up late...... heehhoo........... #maybe we could even................... seep togethr in the vc................. #OR PERHAPS EVEN.............................. VIDEO CHATE? #IF U WANT TO i mean we dont gotta if u dont wanna #but also itd have to be on my laptop because. my webcam for my pc got thrown away bc the cord was mangled to hell n back #so like what we did last time where we were layin down and video chating ns tuff !!!!!!!! #BUT ALSO ofc we dont have to do that if u arent comfy with it !!!!!!! no pressure or anythin its jus a thought #i jus like seein ur face is all.......... ur very very prebby............. i jus get all !!!!!!! :] :] !!!!!! when i see ur face cause!!! #ur jus very very beautiful and i love u soooooo very much cali....... my belovd cali my wifey maria my BELOVED gf pepper........ #my so skunkly!!!!!!!!! awawawawaa i lov u :) :) #i kis u goonite......... a mwee......... a mwa........... kisys for gf!!!!!!!!

[gibbearish]

eugh ive never done new years resolutions before but ig if there ever was a year to do it itd be this one

#easy stuff is get a job get medical shit all sorted out #i guess i could take hysterectomy or top from the 'sometime in the future maybe' pile to the 'solid timeframe to aim for' pile #eugh stop being depressed i guess lmao?? #i guess i could try to start up the walking to the mailboxes every day thing again #same with building the catio finally #id like to make at least one more youtube video n i have a couple ideas floating around for it so i guess add that to the list #work on art more just in general #idk just. have shit not suck? ideally? find meds that work for me? #im so tired dude #still. i did am gonna madesed it through this year. and it killed me #i have died. badly #anyways. cheers ig i might pass out soon so im just gonna schedule this for 12 #im only making it at 11:42 tho so. meh #new years resolution #we'll see if thats enough to unearth this post later lmao

[brgrchld]

no ones awake some im gonna give myself a pat on the back

#ooc — *𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪'𝘮 𝘥𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘵* #i wrote soooo much #i still need to finish louise's icons but i at least have enough for some more replies :] #tomorrow im gonna try iconing rocket #and maybe write on him?? #idk #i have work so we'll see #goodnight

[todayisafridaynight]

maybe if i play y7 ill be normal <- played y7 four times this weekend, a decidedly not normal thing

#snap chats #'snap how many times can you play y7 in a week before youre tired of it' do you wanna find out together #i had a horrible night last night. ok not a WHOLLY horrible night but something trash did happen and i woke up still groggy bout it #i dont like sulking about the past but sometimes i cant help it and it aint fair to myself to act like i can help it. sometimes. #i gotta be candid just for my sake last night i got real upset with my friend because when i say she tests me She Really Does #and i hate getting angry cause then i just feel like my mom and at that point i figure itd be better if i slipped on ice and broke my spine #generally im good at controlling my temper but everything just testing me and i broke down and it was embarrassing as hell ☠️☠️ #so yeah thats gonna bother me for a few days LMAO #'snap it aint that deep' it AINT and thats why its so annoyin cause i KNOW it aint that deep yet i still cant argue away how i feel #all i can do is try to ignore it... like plying y7 for the 11th time..... #i cant ply it now tho i told myself id work on a commission a bit so. maybe later... #i already started another file yesterday- or was it two days ago ???? idk i just know im up to chap 5 in it #chap 5 always give me a damn headache its so LONG at the very least the benefit to having my friend over and raising my blood pressure #is that i start to remember things to do from a y7 speedrun. like i dont hound her on what to do obvi i just let her play #its just lil notes to myself. tho she does tell me to give her tips and exploits when i can LMAO #anyways.. im gonna go work ig and try to feel like crummy bye bye #i wanna stream.. maybe i will this evening before my evening class.. lol.. we'll see but probably not