#it’s all just empty entertainment

[jewishbarbies]

how did we go from marvel actors and execs really caring about the fans and what they thought of the movies to every actor for a new project facing criticism telling off “toxic nerds” and not giving a shit if those same fans like it anymore?

#g talks #really disappointed in charlie cox #it’s all a show #gotta look like you like the project #even though the people who loved the Netflix series #hate this one #there’s nothing to marvel projects anymore #it’s all just empty entertainment #there used to be character development and comic references #and everyone cared how it was received by fans #bc they were making it for the fans who loved the characters #now if you complain you’re ‘toxic fandom’ #and need to shut up #fuck disney #fuck marvel #fuck the mcu #mine #/mobile #/okay to reblog

[shesmore-shoebill]

spitballing pining amangela + disaster amanda thoughts for my own perusal later:

When it comes to pining amangela unfortunately my brain is so enamoured with the concept of the rpf au Amanda who is SO down bad and is Not Making Good Decisions About It. I think the more composed/well adjusted/well reasoned Amanda is about things normally/is about other things happening the better it is for her to be a goddamn wreck about this. Like she can be deeply, wildly, hilariously in denial for a while, realize, and then handle the realization terribly. And it can be a trainwreck the whole time!

She can be HORRIFICALLY undercommunicating! She can be straight up lying! She can be lying poorly! Avoiding Angela! Avoiding people who would ask her about it! Fumbling other shit because she's trying to regain equilibrium. Doubling down in the worst ways possible: going on bad dates, avoiding conversations more after being called out, lying and then double lying, etc.

(I'm just a sucker for the trope of "character who normally has their shit together becomes a complete and total disaster about their feelings regarding a specific person".)

And like disaster Angela is fun- DUAL disaster Amangela is fun- but for me there's an extra layer of satisfaction of an Angela who also has a Lot of feelings about Amanda but is actually more at peace with/better at handling her emotions about it in comparison. Love a development to a relationship that unveils/highlights extra depths to both individuals, and I think the sort of fandom assigned roles of "responsible one/chaos gremlin" are VERY fun to flip in this scenario.

Like specifically the dynamic being "Amanda, normally competent and put together, absolutely putting her foot in her mouth during a regular convo with Angela/avoiding Angela blatantly and badly bc she JUST realized her feelings and is Not Fine About It, vs Angela who spilled her coffee in her car on the way over and is late for work, but has generally accepted she loves Amanda being very ????? about whatever weird gymnastics Amanda is doing."

(This also opens up for either angst OR comedy). (Or both!! ideally both. if i write it, it will probably be both, because i wont be able to resist.)

(Or, if the feelings are unrequited... even more opportunities open up.. ALL angst for sure, then. But more opps.....)

#smosh rpf #amangela #the more i brainstorm about this the more clear it becomes that the empty space fic was very much a version of this lmfao #theres an interesting line to straddle with making amanda a disaster for this rpf dynamic where i do want it to feel. in character. #and true to life bc i think it carries the most weight/entertainment that way. but this IS RPF so like. #being in character is not. the end all be all lmfao. technically this is all out of character. #but for this specific dynamic to work i want their regular dynamic to still be super clear so that the inversion. Hits™. much to think abou #smosh hcs #my fic #(in theory) #amangela angst au #pining amanda #theres a nonzero chance that i just write multiple versions of this dynamic/scenario bc my brain is soo stuck on it #if i get around to writing that is #amanda lehan canto #angela giarratana

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Weird AU idea: Crossover AU between Minecraft and Welcome Home. Those bitches gotta kill some dragon to get back home IDK. I can see many shenanigans with this concept

Mainly made this up because I had a dream the Warden from Minecraft and Julie Joyful met (Julie was not enthralled for obvious reasons) (tbh it was more a nightmare DX)

bold of you to assume their Goofy Asses could get anything done, let alone kill the ender dragon

#theyd get to the nether after 85 years of trying #only for wally to kill them all & destroy their progress by placing a bed #howdy would somehow have Everything They Need but he refuses to sell it unless they have reallly specific stupid items to trade #he's like a wandering trader but 100x Worse #frank would see something flying and go to look #frank: omg is that a butterfl- *Frank Frankly Has Been Slain By Vex* #barnaby would dig himself a dirt house and refuse to do anything more #eddie would be busy building an elaborate garden #julie'd collect every animal for funsies #sally would master redstone to create elaborate Entertainment Devices #poppy wouldn't leave her house or her 58 furnaces all of which are in use #wally would just sit at a loom and make pretty banners #and Nothing Would Get Done #even if they Tried to accomplish goals you and i both know #it would derail Immediately #theyre too silly. #rambles from the bog #welcome home au #If i get the motivation ill definitely scribble something for this #currently head is empty on what i'd doodle hence the Lack Of Art on this post #i just thought of the effort it'd take to like #scribble minecraft armor... tools... environment things... ouagh too much Too Much #tonight has tired me out :/ #but yes... many shenanigans... feel free to share the shenanigans You have in Mind

[mrpsychokiller]

#i finished it #i.... feel empty #i dont know what to do with myself now #i loved the game but i feel weird about the ending #it felt... strange and sudden and kinda unsatisfying #i dont know if its just like that or if maybe i missed something here and there that could lead to something more #but just. i dont know #i didnt expect it to make me feel bad but i feel bad #i loved it and devoured it all in a week and now... what am i gonna do now #guess i cant make myself feel better out of shucking down pure entertainment alone #i dont know. im sad. i dont want it to be over

[soldier-poet-king]

Got emotional about thara again this morning and it's not even 10am. Weepy but also maybe peaceful and things can be kind and good and gentle even as they are terrible and full of despair. Idk. Makes no sense, but it's true.

#actually just thinking alot about thara and ulis #and how ulis isnt reallt a god of mercy #but a god of silence and death #and how maybe that amounts to thr same thing. sometimes #maybe that emptiness is also fullness. maybe it's all peace #dont look at me im having thoughts again. about silence and terrible grace and unnamable unknowable peace #also i am thinking of iana. and his infectious joy. and of thara being kind to himself #and maybe he can be called to Ulis without killing himself. he can. be treated gently #and its not some undeserved kindness. it is not an affront to his calling or his god #he can value himself beyond his usefulness. be loved by iana. and still. #ugh. ugh. literally i cant stop thinking about thara. i cant stop. #my insides have been scooped out and put on display #the most terrible conflicts of my soul and my heart #it is not my favourite series wrt entertainment. but it is. the most important. the closest to some ineffable truth

[hauntedpearl]

rereading ttwoat because I was feeling some type of way and ngl this kinda slaps. TO ME. like the beginning of the first chapter is whatever. when he's waking up in the empty. boring. but when he meets nur? "The vessel that was meant to be his was a child — wild-haired, gap-toothed, sharp and sunny, she still fit in the curve of her mother's hip. " is still one of my favourite things I've ever written. like. "fitting in the curve of your mother's hip" is like. it's literally the most straightforward sentence ever but the image it invokes in me is so. SO SOFT. AND MATERNAL. AND LOVELY. anyway. I know the dean pov chapter's next and the actual empty rescue which was so much bullshit non-plot cobbled together it FEELS awful in memory but maybe it was not maybe my brain just hates me as per usual.

#haven't been able to string two sentences together in MONTHS #reasons for this:1) destiel is going in the back burner ans 2) i feel like i am very stupid all the time which is just making me not write #like i keep telling myself the point of it all is to entertain the self and also just have fun but i keep feeling like. hollow. and like #i have nothing to say really. #which i shouldn't have yo have anything to SAY per se yk? not for destiel fanfic. but like. EMOTIONALLY I MEAN #like i feel emotionally kind of empty and inarticulate and that makes me feel stupif and then i can't write bc i gwt in my head about it #HUH. #SORRY SORRY I DON'T MEAN TO RANT LIKE THIS #anyway #ANYWAY

[kyungsein]

can't post about orv anymore

have too much to say and nothing to say at the same time which results in me shutting down

awful absolutely awful, 0 stars

#orv side stories #FUCK THERE ARE REALLY 0 STARS #telling myself to fuck off #you ever want to discuss a part of a book but the only thought you have about it is a 'mood' and an incomprehensive block of letters #totally get your not-trauma lee hakhyun. totally get it #being distraught about not having the colorful experiences like other people and lying about them just to not be laughed at or dismissed or #thought to be a boring person. #lying in itself is telling a story too #so why should one be authentic anyway #you don't feel the writer in their stories but would you even want to. people are nothing like the stories they tell #are you not entertained #you are empty there is nothing in you and at the same time you can be anything - you are an abyss and it stares back #in a world where nothing has happened there is neither joy nor sorrow. #confession time i am a compulsive liar just because my life is so uneventful #and now every time i tell anything at all i tend to '''decorate''' it automaticaly or reimagine it just not to seem boring #i don't have a story to tell but i can invent one #build it from scraps of ordinary things #that's a lie too.

[cheekblush]

i wish i could just turn off my thoughts like a light switch

#i have a day off why can't my brain just let me relax in peace #no i have to contemplate and reevaluate my entire life & every decision i ever made #i'm laying here thinking about how i let my childhood self down how empty my life is how i went to uni in vain etc #instead of just enjoying my day off 😭😭😭 i really wish there was a turn off switch for my brain it needs to be unplugged!!! #this is a mentally ill thing right bc i feel like healthy people don't question their entire lives just bc they have a day off?? #they actually enjoy their down time & pursue hobbies or meet up with people & are productive instead of spending the whole day in bed #i was such a lively creative excited kid.. where did it all go wrong 😔 #i need to stop entertaining these thoughts but ultimately i'm unhappy with my life & it's my responsibility to change it #but i'm barely getting by i don't have the energy to uproot my entire life #and at the end of the day we still live in a capitalist society that doesn't let you thrive unless you're already rich #god.... where's the turn off switch???? 😭😭😭😭😭 #☁️

[miss--river]

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#sometimes i feel really good about my OCs and other times i feel like they suck #all their personalities are just stolen from other fictuinal chacters and/or real people who i find entertaining #im not creative enough to come up with something by myself #there's nothing about any of them that stick out and make them memorable #they hardly even have backstories #if you can even call them that #i feel like theyre empty #if that makes sense #i could think for months about what makes them interesting or even something to make them interesting #and id come up with nothing #and then i when i read someone elses backstory for their OC and its really good i get jealous and discouraged #because i didnt come up with it #and i feel thats really stupid and toxic of me #i have no idea what jori does for a job #and yeah i have jobs for lottie and phoenix but i have no idea how to go about them

[vvitchering]

I’m at the point in my creative block where I can’t even imagine my fun little scenarios anymore. It’s like trying to start a car with no gas in it. It won’t turn on, won’t turn over, just zip. Nada. Nothing. Do not pass go, do not collect $200.

#I absolutely despise this #all I want to do is create and I CANNOT #I can’t even entertain myself in my own head anymore #the thoughts just won’t thought #really truly thought this vacation I just took would help a ton to refresh me #but I still feel wiped out and empty creativity #just have too much else on my mind I guess to support anything frivolous #life

[raksh-writes]

I have a small birthday celebration planned for today, really just a few people, some cake and pizza and then we're going to an escape room in the late evening, but of course Im So Stressed about it, ughhhh. Im excited too, but my anxiety is having one hell of a field trip rn 😩

#personal #vent #Raksh vents #still a couple hours until they're here #and I have to go pick up my two cousins from the train station too before the other two guys arrive #gotta get some chips on the way there and then stop to fill up my tank on the way back #bcs I forgot it's pretty much empty and Im prob gonna end up being the driver this evening #so Im not even buying any alcohol #no use when we're gonna be sitting around for like 3-4 hours before we'll have to leave for the escape room #and when we're finished with that it's also gonna be very late so Im fully expecting the 'party' is gonna end there #which -- good #I really wanted to meet up with them and do the escape room but Im not that good at entertaining people #and prefer smaller and shorter gatherings so I hope this will all work out well #I don’t have all that much to do at home too #just tidy up the table get the cake and the likes #but other than that Im not doing anything big or whatnot #we just gonna sit down to catch up and maybe play some board games #I really want it to be just a chill nice time #also the drive to the escape room is prob ine of the things making me nervous #never driven to that town on my own #and the weather unfortunately got fucked ;/ it was so nice and sunny yesterday but now its dark and gloomy and raining hard 😔 #plus parking is never not gonna make me nervous #hate that part of driving ughhhh #anyway I guess I just needed to ramble out some of my nerves 🙈 #I still have like 2.5h until I gotta leave and all so its plenty of time to prepare #but also plenty of time to stress over everything 🙈 #ooof #okay anyway #gonna go try to distract myself until it's go time #hopefully it'll be a nice time for all of us 🤞

[feralattentionwhore]

Anyway we've reached the point where once again my kinks have taken a turn and are getting significantly darker every day. So uh if you see posts seriously talking about getting chained up in a basement and getting beaten until bloody uhhh sorry??

#we're romanticising and sexualising toxic behaviours and im not sorry about it #i cant pretend like im not thinking about knives 24/7 #why is it so hot when they're mean #why can't they own me like property and occasionally murder me for funsies #why does my brain think all the unrealistic sex things hot #not into pet play but don't want to be person #just pet for her to keep around for entertainment and play with when bored #no freedom just hers #would do anything for her #whinesssss #my brain just needs to be lobotomized please #its embarrassing having to be apart of this #✨this✨ being my body and existence #why is everything i find hot unrealistic and possibly incredibly dangerous and will get me killed??? #don't want to exist without their permission #want so much but don't want anything #would burn down the world if they told me to #would do yhe same to myself #anything for her #no thoughts or opinions head empty let her fill #*not going into space writing this* #< lying

[aeide-thea]

tfw you're reading a review of a book you haven't read (when we were sisters, by fatimah asghar), and can't tell whether the way it chooses to gender one of the characters—which is in tension with what's suggested by every quote it features—is justified by however the story ends, or whether it's just plain old cissexism…

#'a' review i say but actually i read multiple reviews that were like this #which did not clear up the question #although the second one misgendered the author in addition to misgendering(?) the character‚ which seemed suggestive #like really the thing that gets me—or‚ well‚ the thing that gets me in addition to the transphobia— #is just like. the fundamental refusal to entertain the ideas presented by a book even for the space of a review #like—i don't necessarily need a reviewer to have exactly the same views as i do #though of course all my views are perfect and correct so they should! :) #but i do feel as though—it's good to cultivate a certain amount of openness‚ as a reader #to empty out the space of your self‚ in order to provide a theater for the story to enact itself #and if your review doesn't feel to me as though you ever even bothered to shift your own stuffy upholstery out of the way… #idk‚ man #just seems like an intellectual failure even separate from the gender stance #bookblogging

[tiixij]

this might just be the "i grew up with buffy and am biased" talking but i feel like joss whedons writing style has gotten increasingly emotionless and sterile as time has gone on. like its actually fun in buffy and firely but with the mcu everything is just so completely flat and dry, which i think also definitely goes down to the directing but idk the mcu turns everyone it touches into a talentles hack

#not claiming that joss whedon was like extremely talented or whatever btw but buffy and firefly were fun and entertaining #and pretty much everything ive seen of the mcu makes me just. SO bored or im just thinking baout how terrible the delivery of everything is #op #like there are some people i Know can act in there and theyre all just giving the flatest delivery possible #i know theyre all being kept in little jars only to be released to stand in an empty room with a green screen

[picavecalyx]

                  it's creeping up on you                                         it knows your name

                                all that you left behind   will never be the same

#musing ;; lost for words empty head #i cannot describe to you what my brain is doing rn. #silva muse is yelling; lysandre muse is about to snap MY neck; AZ muse is just watching it vaguely entertained. #viola is staring at me expecting SOMETHING to happen; mairin is tempted to start fuckin yelling too. #and everyone of my muses wants a hand on my spotify so i'm just SJFIDFJOSIDF #i'm being pulled in SO MANY direections rn SEND HELP. #so if you're wondering that's my i'm suddenly posting musings. #my muses got a handle on my spotify and they keep switching songs #verse ;; pokemon ;; beyond destructing and falling petals #this is what happens when you have 400+ muses and they all wake up in the span of an hour

[esyra]

After the hospital bombing, I finally heard back from my grandmother and confirmed that several of my relatives were murdered by Israeli bombing. Seven of them, to be precise. Three are still going, including her. We've been talking constantly ever since.

Asked if it was possible to head south, and was told they did but were also bombed there. So they decided to go back home, in Zeitoun. Their home was bombed and they were pulled out of the rumble, then driven by ambulances to the al-Ahli Arab Hospital. There were people in every corner. Gazans sheltering, sleeping on the floor. Gazans dying on the floor, waiting for beds.

Four were declared dead on arrival, three were in need of surgery and other three were just bandaged. Then, a bomb was dropped in the parking lot that made parts of the ceiling collapse, like Dr. Ghassan Abu Sittah reported in that horrific conference/interview. Those in need of surgery died.

By the way, just in case you didn't know: the Church of Saint Porphyrius, the third oldest in history, bombed by Israel a few days back, was located near the hospital.

When looking for new shelter, they saw schools with signs hanging outside, "We can't take any more families." They met families, sympathetic but already sheltering too many people. They're now staying in an apartment building they found empty. Sleeping in the corner of the living room. If the family comes back, they'll apologize and leave.

Told me she was saving her phone battery for when the bombing stopped, and she had to ask for help to rebuilt the neighborhood. But she doesn't think it's gonna stop anymore. The ones still with her are mute most of the time, like they're saving energy, but she feels lonely and wanted to talk. There's no internet and to connect to WhatsApp, people are buying "a card from the supermarket, there's a password and username." Not sure what she meant. Still, the internet is inconsistent and won't load neither videos or images nor pages, so she doesn't know what's happening on the outside world.

Told her there were a lot of people protesting to stop the genocide, she replied, "The bombings are getting worse by the day." The bombing yesterday was the worst she ever witnessed. The entire neighborhood is infested with the smell of death, of decomposing bodies. Bodies are piling up in the streets and she's not sure if it's because they ran out of places to store them, but most of them are in bags. The smoke of the bombings hide the blue sky—she hasn't seen the clouds for a while.

Asked if I could share their pictures, names and dreams with people and was told, of which I partly agree, "they're not entertainment." If anyone genuinely cared, they would be alive—I'd argue there are people who do care, but I'm not gonna lecture her pain. And they don't deserve to be used to fulfill someone's sick fantasy. Told me to remember what some Israelis do with pictures of dead Palestinians. And I do.

For those of you who are not familiar, many times before settlers got together to celebrate the murder of Palestinians. For one, in 2015, Israeli settlers set a house in Duma, West Bank on fire. An 18-month old baby, Ali Dawbsheh, was burnt alive. Both parents later died of wounds and only a 5-year-old, Ahmad, survived, although severely injured.

Two celebrations of their murder are widely known, one at a wedding and others outside the court in which two were indicted for the terrorist attack. In the wedding, guests stabbed a photo of the toddler, Ali, while others waved guns, knives and Molotov cocktails. Israel's Minister of National Security, Itamar Ben-Gvir, was present.

That's what happens in an apartheid. Palestinians are so abused by authorities that their "innocent civilians" come to accept the brutality as necessary or are desensitized by our suffering. After all, it's been 75 years—get used to it!

So I won't risk the image of my loved ones, in fear they are used in these kinds of depravity. I will say, though, the world lost a young footballer. Lost a female writer and an aspiring ballerina. Lost a kind father, who was also a great cook, and a loving mother that enjoyed sewing and other types of handicraft art. Lost a math teacher and a child that wanted to become one.

People think Israel is testing new weapons on them. There's civilians arriving at the hospital with severe burns, which they thought was from white phosphorus, but apparently the pattern is different from the one caused by white phosphorus. It's widely believed Israel tests weapons in Palestinians.

Jeff Halper, author of War Against the People, a book on Israel's arms and surveillance technology industries, said: "Israel has kept the occupation because it's a laboratory for weapons."

They've ran out of drinkable water and the "aid" Biden sent was only for the South of Gaza and no fuel, for hospitals, was allowed in. Many shelves in the supermarket are empty. She said many are convinced that if they don't die from the bombing, they'll die from starvation or dehydration, or whatever disease will develop from the dirty water they're drinking.

Told me all people do now is pray, cry and die. Told me she hopes West Bank is spared. Told her Israel bombed a mosque in West Bank and dozens of Palestinians in West Bank are being murdered by settlers, so she bided me goodbye.

#palestine #free palestine #gaza #free gaza #may allah protect them #may almighty allah see our pain #hopefully she'll message me tomorrow