#it’s been 2 hours since my last post

[jessieren]

Good morning…

#shaun evans #itv endeavour #endeavour morse #anything goes #sunday free for all #aka Sunday Shaun special #aka Sunday confessional #forgive me father for I have posted #it’s been 2 hours since my last post #but he’s too damn sexy #i can’t help it #or should that be #I have lusted #ahem #hot damn evans

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[laugtherhyena]

3:23AM, time to post Hatamori fankid and retreat back into my hiding hole

#this is what i was referring to in my last post #sometimes ideas will just pop into my head and i will be unable to resist the urge #i missed sprite editing. it had been a while since i last made a person's sprite #anyways her name is Akira and I haven't decided if it's Akira Tomori or Akira Hatano yet #i like both of their surnames a bunch #thinking of her from a scenario where Ayame and Kizuna survive the kg and get together a while afterwards #Akira is adopted. obviously. Her biological parents died in the tragedy she was adopted at around 4-6 years old #doesn't remember how her bio parents where because she was like? 1-2 years old when they died? #being with them in whatever happened that led to their deaths she may have some form of memory problem from the accident(?) #Akira is pretty forgetful and slow on the uptakes. but it's nothing too worrisome #she doesn't actually care that she can't remember her bio parents because the family she has now is much more important to her #she takes more after Kizuna especially in tems of personality (tho definitely not as bad as she used to be in Dra if you know what i mean) #put them in a room together and they will gossip and talk about random shit for hours #she loves Ayame too! they just don't talk a much? Akira used to follow her everywhere when she was a kid but now that she grew up #Ayame being the awkward-ish person she is struggles a bit on how to talk/interact with her #they work out together sometimes and Ayame will always volunteer to listen to Akira play some new song she's writing #and give her opinions on it #as you can see she is a musician. aspiring rockstar specifically #this came to her as a way to vent about the tragedy and all that mess sorta #may ramble more some other time i am getting sleepy #dra #danganronpa another #fankid #hatamori #sprite edit #edit #hyena scribbles #Akira Tomori Hatano

[doodleodds]

July random art dump!

#first art dump in a while lol. hi y’all :) #me? posting at a regular hour? never. 2:24 am or bust #in other fun and exciting news: recently got myself an iPad to see if it would inspire me to draw more often! so that’s been cool #and yeah! kinda! I still prefer the computer obviously but it DID give me the will to animate for the first time in ages! #and like. me? actually DRAWING my own ocs??? more likely than you'd think nowadays! lol #(this post featuring a yiga oc based on a dream i had based on the crit role zelda campaign; a mermaid shopkeep from my own campaign; #a spidersona; and an oc who's slowly become more bitter as i too slowly grow more disillusioned with life!) #anyway thanks for stopping by! hope yall have been well since we last spoke :) have a lovely rest of your day/night! #also oh my GOD i hate this new post editor. holy shit. what fresh hell is this #and to be safe: #tw: flashing #tw flashing #flashing

[girlcrushau]

#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/ #but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to. #until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you) #and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text. #i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in. #just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me. #im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest. #and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

[zevrans]

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#so i finished my 4 out of 4th 12 hour shift in a row last night and i'm literally so exhausted and i was glitching mid simple tasks 🤡✌️ #my coworker asked to change shifts so he could have that one specific day as off #and he managed to do some very critical mistakes in his 4 days prior and that's considering his gf is often with him there #and i was the one suffering the consequences even if it's literally not my fault #ever since i've got this job i've been fixing so many mistakes of his i kept wondering who's the newbie here?? #like i try to leave my shift as good as possible i clean everything check everything and do all my duties #and when i come here after his shifts it's.. a fucktonne of work mistakes and literal dirt like dude!!! #4 shifts in a row never again man never again i am so tired my brain is nerfed and i can only rest for 1 day today because tomorrow i'm #going to a doc; #my social battery is not just dead it's nonexistent at this point #i just want to lay in bed and not be percieved or interacted with for at least the same amount of days 😫 #i really thought i could take a socially demanding and rather multitasking job without it taking hugest toll on my mental state huh??? #and i had such a bad sleep too i had a very graphic and sickening nightmare which woke me up 2 hours after i fell asleep #and then i woke 2 more times after that and i feel so exhausted and not rested at all and so fatigued i can't even do anything #man for me my sleep being interrupted is the worst like i function better if i have a smaller amount of sleep but it's uninterrupted #than longer in hours but it gets interrupted and i wake up even once #sorry i come here once in few days vent post and then dissapearvckfkv 😭 i miss tumblr but have no energy currently to even rb anything 🥲 #tbd

[aviangrian]

thank god chappell roan didn’t release good luck babe in summer 22!

#i unfortunately had a homoerotic female friendship that ended abruptly and tragically #she was my best friend for YEARS like we met when we were 11 #i knew i was queer pretty early on but it’s so painfully obvious in hindsight how badly she was repressing everything #we fell asleep together she liked every guy i liked she was invested in every female situationship i had #like it was so painfully obvious what we were but we were just an undefined weird tension homoerotic pair of besties! #she always wanted to know every detail of my sex life w women refused to hear about the men i was w #she would hold me when we watched movies she wanted to do everything w me and she hated me after we graduated hs! #last conversation was on her birthday haven’t spoken to her once since #this song has sent me into a 3 day spiral session if you can’t tell 😭 #never fully gotten over her but i see her post w her new friends at her school 6 hours away like cool cool okay #you’re going to ignore i ever existed instead of confronting your feelings okay! don’t know why she wants nothing to do w me anymore tho #crazy stuff it’s been a year and a half since we stopped being friends but i think about her a lot and i wonder if she thinks about me #i have 2 playlists about her she still follows me on spotify but she didn’t even wish me a happy birthday #at the end of the day i hope she figures everything out. you’re nothing more than his wife and all that #this song THIS SONG SHE WONT LEAVE MY MIND #probably delete later. we’ll see cause all my friends are sick of hearing me talk about her but i can’t stop she’s been in my mind since #this song dropped so thanks chappell 🥹🥹🫡

[emmebearpaw]

my lab partner: hey i know we are meeting up on friday but do you also want to meet up on Thursday to work together me who would rather do literally anything else than schedule even more time to do work for this stupid lab: yeah sure when do you want to meet

#my post #i've literally never had a lab class that had me and my partner calling or working together outside of lab class 2-3 times a week #like the lab is 3 hours long and the last few weeks i've been doing like 3 hours of work outside of lab by myself #and then working with my partner for 1-2 hours a week #and he is working on this lab more than i am since he keeps having to do rewrites of the lab report #yes i will be complaining about this until the work subsides

[alexxgaskarth]

#girl he's still going #he posted this seconds after i uploaded the last video lol #i thought i was safe since it'd been 2 hours since the last video #alex gaskarth #he's so funny that's my best friend #and yes i do have his ig notifications on thanks for asking

[outlying-hyppocrate]

(:

#random thoughts #i'm back now. sort of. #i am. not entirely. well. but i think i will feel. better. soon. #i don't know. why i said those things i did earlier. sometimes i say things like that and i come back in the morning and just delete them. #and everything is fine. because i was just tired. and that's why i was saying all of those things. #i think that i was more than tired when i was. like that. if that's anything. #i'm going to go. take care of myself now. it's been. a while since i had something to eat. i will consider it. #take a shower and put on more comfortable clothes. #don't stare into the mirror too long. or do. whatever is pleasant. #it's been 18 hours and 2 minutes since i last posted which. isn't very much. but considering how active my presence is on here. #it felt like a lot longer. #how silly!

[hotspurpercy]

the end of askoh: 15/08

words written so far: 3,313 current word count: 80,772

just like i did two years ago, i've given myself a stupidly tight time frame to finish ASKOH in. that time frame? today. i've already surpassed the last draft's word count, but two years ago i only had 10,000 words to write. this year i'll have to write 12,000 words to finish at my target word count today!

my game plan: write for two hours, then change location to keep myself focused. i've already finished two chapters, so now i'm going to have a shower, then maybe go to a coffee shop to write for another two hours.

#judith.txt #bloopers: a strange kind of hunger #askoh 2023 #wild that i finished the last draft in 2021 #ik it was the end of 2021 and i started the new draft at the end of 2022 #or very early 2023 #so it hasn't acc been 2 years since i was last drafting #but god! has it really been that long??? #the how hard could it be gene is my fatal flaw #so we shall See how today's escapades turn out #i'll keep updating this post with my word count every two hours!

[thethingything]

the sun's started rising around the same time it does in late spring so now I've got that weird nostalgia for when I first showed up in the system and I'm also stuck thinking about when Lucy was like "September is the March of the year" because while that's kind of a ridiculous quote, I do get what they meant with it

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #something about the sun rising at the same time and in the same location as it did in those first 3 months of me being in the system #makes me really nostalgic for that time period and it's simultaneously nice experiencing the same vibe #and kind of upsetting when I think a little bit too hard about the passage of time and not being able to go back #I think there's something I miss about everything being new #and a relatively small group of us showing up at around the same time and being in the same situation #and all just kind of working together to figure stuff out #on the one hand suddenly being in the system was upsetting and confusing but there was a kind of novelty to it #whereas now it's just my life. which isn't a bad thing per say. it's just that a lot of things have sunk in since then #about being stuck here and having to deal with certain things permanently #plus a lot of the people I used to hang out with all the time (mostly other people from my source) aren't as active anymore #although I think a lot of them were less active last summer but then more active over the winter? maybe that'll happen again? who knows... #I should have been in bed probably 2+ hours ago and I think that's making me feel weird emotionally #and now I'm thinking a little too hard about being stuck in a body that doesn't feel like it's mine #because I looked in the mirror for a little too long earlier and got freaked out about seeing someone else's reflection

[crispysnake]

#Im hiding in the tags of my own post cause im a COWARD #anyhoo im RANTING #Im staying home today cause my period cramps are obliterating my insides (hence the gif) #and I was trying to figure out what to do cause now my schedule is rearranged #and my first thought was 'oh I have some time I should reblog one of those prompt ask memes and just do a few drabbles' #and straight up stopped walking cause ???? hello???? #hmm what a strange thought for someone WHO HASNT WRITTEN ANYTHING ON HERE EVER??? #I mean I did like once 4yrs ago but the I got so stressed out I deleted the app for an hour so #like why would THAT be my first casual idea😭 #THE URGE TO CREATE (the urge to write vaxleth) is STRONG in this waffle house tonight boys #and for a moment I was like 😏 I could do it but the more I think about it the more daunting it feels? #I feel like Im not well versed enough in c1 moments cause its been a year since I 'finished' it and lowkey dont remember a lot #and despite 2 seasons I feel like there isnt enough room in tlovm to write something that I feel would be og enough #and because im a little pab and spent the last year sending every single au idea and every hc to other blogs (i am my own worst enemy) #i think any au i would write would just be straight up plagerism cause I have no self control in other ppls inboxs😭 #ANYWAYS look whos getting worked up over literally nothing #off to google docs I go! #mira talks

[viulus]

Finally restarted DE, and... This man is a *disaster*. I love it

#vu's posts #disco elysium #so like i've said on here before... i originally tried out the game on my b-slur's computer #i only played for a good hour and a half though. and that was all the way back in last april #i didn't *properly* start de until early november last year #ever since i finished my first playthrough i've been telling myself that i gotta play the way that i originally intended to- #back in april. and by that i mean that i gotta just be a *monster*... and maybe a bit of a disaster #(harry is both of those things to an extent no matter how you play of course. but i'm gonna *really* lean into it this time) #it's so interesting because my build is essentially the same as it was in my first run (4 int 2 psy 3 phys 3 mot) #and yet because of the choices i'm making things are already playing out totally different than they did in my first run #i could gush all night about how meaty this game is but i don't have the energy rn 😂 #long story short i'm really interested to see how things will play out this time around

[punk-raphaelite]

I hate being misinterpreted 🫠

#my post #m #scheduled a second studio meeting with my prof and he told me I don’t work hard enough and I shouldn’t wait for a big idea #that is literally the opposite of who I am and how my practise works but alright #if you had spent more than 45 minutes collectively talking to me about my art practice since the start of the semester you’d know that #god I’m upset #I’m a process and research based artist! my ideas come from research it’s what I’ve been doing! #I may not be the first to arrive but I am definitely the last to leave!! #like all I’ve been doing is research and execution of that research #I haven’t seen friends in weeks I work through my lunches I get home around 10 #I do school work at my job I read theory walking to and on the bus! what more do you want #If I watch a movie it’s in the background of me painting or sketching #I’m stopping in the middle of conversations and getting out of bed to write down concepts for my work #almost every waking hour is spent on my practise what more do you want from me #I’ve made; stretched and gessoed five large canvases this week; be approved to paint a mural on campus and submitted my work to a show #that was only in the last 2 days #fuck

[rainbow-sparks]

woah improvement???? :00

these are redraws of these

top ones are from Nov 30th 2022

old Greg is from like Jan 4th 2022 and old Beth is from like March 27th 2022

#I actually used a reference from the resent Beth picture #she looks a lot less happy because of how my hc have evolved #(what I mean by that is Elizabeth gets tormented by her brothers; Micheal's just an teen who never learned how to express emotions unless #through violence *YES I'M PROJECTING STFU D':* as for Crying Child; it's because jealousy *Mom loves her hates him* and just because Mike #has been doing the same to him since he was able to crawl :// Mike; William; and Lora*Mrs.Afton* all despise CC because another hc I have #*SA mention in this hc* CC was conceived from Lora's ex fiance assaulting her :/ he was arrested but CC looks like the pathetic man so... #constant reminder :/// oh well) #PROBLEMS WITH THE OLD DRAWINGS WHOOO; Gregory's face shape is a fucking circle and his hair looks like scribbles #SOME OF THE LINES DON'T EVEN CONNECT??? Same with Beth!!! I mean the face is a bit better but that's it #the bows don't match the shirt; cold colour warm colour; doesn't fit #also the shade of red looks horrible in it #I mentioned in the original post that she looks like Glen; Chucky's kid; I still think that #Gregory's old shirt is so ew #just ew #:/// #why so many bandaids? I like the stickers though snickers are cool I like stickers:))) #wait wait wait why does he old have one ear??? :$ #I don't remember the time for the old ones (probably about an hour or so each) but foe the recent they took like 2 hours :// yaay :/ #I spent most of today drawing or trying to get enough of those stupid star things so I can do the last level on world 4 for super mario 3d #world (idfk know why the things are called; I haven't read much and haven't bothered to look it up; probably should though ://) anyway I #need 50 of them by only have...28? 20 somethings maybe 30 if I forgot to check becfore I turned the game off last time...idk man #I have been to school in 2 days which I'm fine with tbh but my dad is probably gonna make me go tomorrow (it's 10:44 as I type this so it's #not December yet; I don't have to say today; it isn't 12 yet) #I missed a while week once like the first week of November #:// anyway #the thing in redraw Gregory's picture is the panel of botton you use to repair Freddy #gregory fnaf #elizabeth afton #gregory fnaf sb