#its too fucking hot out for anything

[cheshirecuffs]

Its been a odd month or so .

Buying concert tickets is filling the summer void 🤷🏻‍♀️

#dirty heads in august #fame on fire in October #its too fucking hot out for anything #florida summer #like yeah we have the beach #but the sand is lava cuz its 110 out #send help

[the-kipsabian]

#lemme barf a little in the tags but like. the way he doesnt notice anything until trent actually touches him #at that point he becomes aware of not only his surroundings and his friends but also his pain. see the hand going for his jaw and the wince #the minimal celebrations. how the best friends. who are known for hugging. only fist bump him. i'd expect this from hook #but not from chuck and trent too. also also the look they exchange behind ocs back? YEAH #and as someone pointed out oc came in with the backpack but left without it. i'd say thats normal he usually does leave with just the belt #but also. hes so fucking enthralled by that thing that he doesnt wanna hide it. he needs to carry it away in his hands himself #hes not right and its intriguing and hot tbh lmao #anyways thats all. im just thinking a lot right now mmmm #orange cassidy #trent berreta #chuck taylor #rocky romero #hook #aew #all elite wrestling #aewedit #wrestlingedit #wrestling #night gifs #best friends #trent? #my beloved #shitposter greg #sweet little clementine #(rp blogs dont reblog; saving and other personal use with tag credits is fine)

[quietwingsinthesky]

if supernatural was any good, they would have had mary and lucifer sleep together in the apocalypse world. this would have solved zero problems with the show, but it would have created a hundred more interesting ones than they already had.

#they could have done this. for me. #it should have gone really well too. for mary and lucifer i mean. #because that would be 1000x worse for everyone else involved. if mary enjoyed herself and bonded with him. #doesn’t even have to be much of a bond but like. just enough that when sam and dean are there. it’s so incredibly uncomfortable. #sam like :) this is the second time my mother has slept with someone complicit in torturing me. i feel normal about this and its not #messing me up so bad im going to scream. this is fine. #dean would freak the fuck out about it though. openly and loudly. it’s *lucifer*. #which. of course. trying to tell mary that she’s not allowed to do what she’s already decided she’s doing because dean doesn’t want her to. #yeah. im sure that’ll go well. #lucifer doesn’t even have to do anything to drive a wedge between them besides sit there look pretty and eat mary out until she screams. #easiest job in the world #and most importantly: it would have been hot. literally just let someone walk in on mary pinning the devil himself to the floor. #why not give me this one thing huh

[cheemken]

Yeah

#like thats basically their dynamic in the villain au #phaesporiashipping #villain diantha au #phaesporia in the villain au is so funny to me tho fr like fhmdne #its basically cynthia simping for her bestie's older sister #said sister is basically satan incarnate shes very cunning #but damn she do be hot #and cynthia's like tall yknow in my hcs shes one of the taller champions #and dia's like 5'9“— #imagine your celebrity crush pinning you against the wall #and shes there looking up at you bc youre 6'2“😭 #and youre too much of a fucking bottom to actually do anything #despite the fact you cn easily carry her out or pin her instead #like homegirl really is a power bottom fr fr hahahah

[sodrippy]

being on vacation and going back to your hotel room at 10pm like seriously they should execute me

#sorry that im young and single and hot and i want to go OUT this is fucking LAME #i spent money to be here for what #at least i didnt pay for this room or anything lol #whatever. i shouldnt be so cranky its not a big deal im just like. i had such a good time last time i was here. alone. lol #anyway whatever whatever i had a nice time this time too its all fine #goodnight besties hope u had good weekends mwah

[wabblebees]

im like if the most useless boytoy twink was also an incredibly handy butch lesbian

#this post is about me collapsing as soon as i got home from work #where i used a garden hoe i sharpened myself to hack down+tear out a truly impressive thistle 3× my size while 3 of my coworkers watched #swung it overhead like an axe until the centre stalk (almost the size of my wrist) was felled. then hoed around it until the roots came free #& i could grab it with my hands where there werent any thorns. turned around and all 3 of em were lookin at me like 😳😳 lmao #but now im sitting in my bathtub bc i cant stand long enough to shower anymore hdksgsk #knew this morning it was a bad pain day but pushed thru it anyway bc!! there was work to do!! but now im gonna be totally useless for 24hrs #cest la vie i suppose #after the thistle was properly disposed of just kept tilling+weeding+fixin tomato cages in the fields. came home & felt sooo dykey+hot lmfao #was like ''fuck yeah man idk what was up with me this morning im feelin fine now! great even!'' #then took my knee braces off to get into the shower & almost busted my ass on the tile when both of em gave out🤦 #my shoulders are now reminding me that i Dont Have the muscle mass to use a bigass hoe like anything but a hoe w/out Paying For It later #its a good thing i have the day off tomorrow bc im going to turn into a slug as soon as im done steaming meself like a little dumpling #definitely thinkin about using my pathetic-wet-cat-charm to get someone to bring me food tonight tho... hmm #anyway. wheres that post #''im not a butch but i believe their beliefs'' #its my exectution thats lacking lmao. but in any case #mwah. mwah mwah mwah #<-for all the butches out there. ily tysm youre wonderful #and to all the useless boytoy twinks out there: o7 <3 #godspeed fellow hopeless fags. ily too. keep doin what yr doin lmao #bee speaks

[echoesofadream]

i need him oh my god everyone i need him

#LISTEN #I started watched kinnporsche #which ive avoided bc one of the mcs is fucking ugly #OH BUT PORSCHE MAKES UP FOR IT #OH MY GOD EVERYONE. EVERYONE. OH HES SO ATTRACTIVE OH MY GOD #HES SO HOT I CANT BREATHE VERY SCENE IM JUST STARING AT HIM AND HEALING MY CHAKRAS OF SOMETHING IM JUST LIKE HFHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #AND HE REMINDS ME OF MINGYU #PERSONALTY WISE AND APPEARANCE #IM GONNA DIEEEE #GOD I WISH HE COULD END UP WITH VEGAS #KINN IS SO OUT OF HIS LEAGUE AND NOT ONLY IS HE UGLY HIS HAIRLINE IS REDECING AND I DONT LIKE HIS VOICE #STILL ITS HOT WHEN THEY FUCKED #I WAS LIKE R THEY DOING BOTTOM PORCHE OR IS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR SINCE WE SAW HIM FUCK A WOMAN #BUT THEY CAME THRU #AND HES OHMYGOD OHYMGSJGWHGH #IM SO ATTRACTED TO HIM #HES SO ANNOYING AND I WOULDVE HATED THE DRUNK ACTING IF IT WERE ANYONE ELSE #BUT HES SO HOT HE CAN SAY ANYTHING OR DO ANYTHING I DONT EVEN CARE #IM LIKE OH FUCK HES PERFECT NO MATTER WHAT HEDOES #THE CRINGIEST SHIT IS SUDDENLY SO HOT #SCREAMINGSCRAEMSIGNGNNGNGG #HES SO MY TYPE #NOT AN OLD DRAFT I WROTE THIS LAST NITE

[savage-rhi]

✨️Magenta🔥

#looking at the mental health and therapy positions open in my area #therapists are leaving left and right that a clinic i used to work at that treated me like utter shit is almost offering 140k in salary #to keep folks retained #i remember just a few years ago the max a therapist made there was 75k #seeing other places too where its like 67 to 85 an hr with sign on bonuses upward to 5k #its not a good sign professionals are leaving in droves #but damn it do i wish i had my license already so i could hop on and not live in poverty for a hot minute #im not fooling myself based on how inflation and the economy is running if you make over 100k its gonna be like making less than 45k #cause we getting gutted #but still god damn it #i got 2 and a half more years to go #fuck if i made that much right now i could get out of debt and spend a good chunk on people that need it #cause i don't need much else to keep my ass happy #this is the little flag that gives me hope #I'll be able to make a living doing something i love and helping people and getting my damn fucking bread #if i could make a living full time writing tho that would be fucking amazing #same thing with my voice over stuff too #god theres so much i aspire to do i got the ambition for it alright #but i got the disability that makes me take ten steps back and i live in a capitalistic hellscape that wants me tired and exhausted to where #i can't accomplish anything else but keeping the machine going #i feel like my writing sucks lately thats probably just burnout but god damn #this got bleak #k magenta can go fuck itself lets reword this jay #you're gonna get your license you're gonna have SOME FUCKING STABILITY you're gonna help people you're gonna be content and #you're gonna get your mother fucking bread that you've been promised #magenta mother fuckers magenta

[todayisafridaynight]

me and my sister went to the mall today and we ran into hot topic so fucking fast it was unbelievable. me and my sister are literal opposites when it comes to fashion. she picked pink, pastel shit like she was trying to be all uwu kawaii meanwhile im just standing here with my arms full of emo and goth shit, i legit felt like daigo and masato with all this emo drip i had walked out with. (p.s. they should put yakuza stuff in hot topic if they havent already because i have yet to have any yakuza related things in my room </3 also hot topic is like the only store i will shop at)

im so sorry to say these words to you but reading this reminded me of my immortal

#snap chats #I ALSO HAVE NO ROOM TO TALK THOUGH CAUSE I LITERALLY JUST GOT BACK FROM HOT TOPIC AND SPENCERSLKEAKVJA #rubbing off my fucking eyeliner as we speak im no better than a goffick and im sure the stuff you got was actually real fire and im jealous #i actually wore my hakuho pin out today- i pinned it on my back jean jacket. not to flex on you or anything 🥴 #i remember the day my college friend said something about me being goth and i looked like a dumbass saying 'im not goth...' #when all i ever did was wear black. and tbf i toned it down a LOT while i was at school. i wanted to be normal-passing 😭😭 #that aside i only went in to get jewelry and a new belt chain. also a kirby keychain and nail polish #but like it was that Blackheart brand so you know i just wanted it for the skull container and the name. also i was running out #my hot topic really doesnt have any clothes- or at least clothes i fuck with like its mostly skirts and puffy-sleeved shirts #and yeah those are epic and awesome but they're not my style yk. love it on other people just not on me #i usually get my clothes from like. express or skate shops. very different fashions as you can see LMAOOO #like today i got this really pretty crane shirt and then like. i got a black-and-white striped long sleeve with a skeleton hand patch LMAO #UGH im pissed i didnt get the red and black variant too but i didnt think bout it til i already left #i want to get new boots- the ones i have now are great and i love them but i want something chunkier #my 'goth' fashion is really lowkey honestly like i hardly consider myself goth cause of it- its very casual ig #ignore the fuck-you amount of rings i wear ok. theyre pretty..... also they have certain meanings sometimes #like i wear an owl ring cause it reminds me of my sis since she loved owls growing up and went to a uni with an owl mascot #i wear a dragon ring sometimes cause dragons remind me of my dad. for whatever reason. #idk its cause he tried to convince me i was born year of the dragon when i wasnt ?? idk funny guy lmao #and then i already said i wore snake stuff and crosses cause I Hate My Mom. also i was born a snake #also my dads a christian so :] i will wear two cross rings and a cross necklace tyvm love you pops i wish you were around more #uhhh did i want to say anything else. idk im just dumping about my emo bullshit thanks for reading ☠️☠️ #if this wasnt my yakuza blog id actually just show the haul i got today BUT i will spare you lot from my emo bullshit #ok ill kill the tags here now im SILLY

[catastrxblues]

good morning it is now 4 am and i have just finished watching atonement good night

#atonement #next tags are just going to be personal rants ignore that #i couldn’t sleep at all so i tried reading s&b and then fanfics and then the bell jar but it just didn’t hit #so then i tried writing but i just kept crying so i thought i’d watch a romance movie because yes #should’ve gone for four weddings and a funeral or pride and prejudice because what the hell is this #i didn’t know anything about this movie i just remember having it on my watchlist and saw ONE clip so i picked that help #and yes i ended up crying and the tears are still here but i’m also starting to think that that’s not entirely because of the movie at all #i stripped my bed off its sheets because the bright color annoyed me and it was already peeling off anyway and i was too lazy to put it rig #and when i pulled back from the screen after the movie finished and just look at how bare my bed is and how i’m in the middle of them #i just started crying again #and my legs are aching and i hate myself and i think i want to take a shower but maybe i’ll wait later on #i don’t think i’ll sleep at all honestly i’m not sleepy anymore #besides i’m thinking of going outside today just at the park i don’t know doing something #i always sleep really really late lately because my parents are out of country right now and no one is keeping me checked and i apparently #still can’t take care of myself. cried about that too it was something. why am the eldest daughter i’m so not fit for it #and then i always wake up at like 9 am and it’s already too late by then that i just never do anything productive #and it’s like i’ve been living in a simulation and i’m kinda going crazy and insane but it’s okay because today is going to be better #i hope because i’m not getting any sleep and i can finally go outside at 7 in the morning instead when it’s already way too hot #damn this is supposed to be one of the best years of my life??????? fuck off #also i can hear the azan subuh from the mosque by the neighborhood and i miss praying honestly #it’s so funny because i was happy to get my period because that meant i wouldn’t have to wake up so very early on in the morning #but i miss it now #hopefully my period will end soon #nadirants

[vitiateoriginator]

Birthday keroppi time B)

#screams #my birthday is next Friday holy shit I'm gonna be 25 #can't believe its that time of year again #and not me blanking about what I want to get and do for my birthday #wtf could I ask for that I can't get or go do myself #anything I would want is out of the question because of expense (like a new pc. I still haven't gotten one) #I guess I could ask for pokemon legends arceus. I've been meaning to buy it but haven't been able to justify spending $60 #on a game I might take my seeet ass time playing thru cause I hate using my switch lite (the screen is so fucking small its annoying) #but its an idea at least #as for what I want to do? man idk #we'll probably go to olive garden like most years which Im cool with #although nowadays my datemate and I go there often for dates (we were just there yesterday for instance) #but I love olive garden so I won't say no to going #maybe to that historical township thats a half hour drive away? #datemate and I were supposed to go today as part of my vacation #but he talked me out of it (like he does with most big trip plans I make 😒) #the reason he did so it because its hot as balls today and sunny with a hogh uv index #we'd be outside for most of the trip and her reckons being in the heat will make him miserable and a killjoy #because he's heat sensitive. I am too so I can't really argue with him on that #so maybe it'll be cooler on the 15th so we can go #if not I don't really mind waiting til October because that township is better in the fall #but anyways those are the ideas I have rn #I'll probably ask for a pokemon plushie as a gift #I'd kill to get a new stufful plushie but those are rare and expensive thanks to scalpers #I'd be down to get another Vaporeon like my datemate bought me last year. or another of my favorites #Im not gonna be too picky this year even tho its a big birthday (my brain is fully developed) #because a lot of my birthdays turn out to be shit. last year was really nice tho #but I don't want to get my hopes up for anything and then be depressed that day like what often happens #so I will just be grateful to get some good tasting cake. that's literally the bare minimum of what I want without question #sam's rants about life

[scarletcomet]

2 weeks clean from self-harm. 11 of those days i was in the hospital though

#i've been home 3 days and haven't relapsed yet... #idk what im doing #its getting so fucking hot out and i have so many scars on my arm #many are like the red puffy kind so they're very noticable on my extremely pale skin #im sick of covering my arms all the time. all my scars are healed and just scars (no scabs or anything) #i dont want to trigger anyone. in the hospital they made me cover my arm but no one else with self-harm scars had to #and i think that kinda fucked me up and they way i see myself and my scars #im too afraid to even show my arm around my parents because i don't want to make them feel sad #i am going to have very noticable scars the entire summer #honestly showing my arms would probably make me self-harm a lot less #maybe i should just say fuck it and stop caring

[sweater-equestrian]

[vent/ only rb if commenting]

having a full mental breakdown because of my shitty horrible family / barn. Romeo stays at my family members barn free of charge- this is because my dad has always helped them build their equestrian center, even before we had Romeo or planned to have Romeo. This free board has been our saving grace during tough financial times (including now) and is why I can “own” a horse in the first place. But they suck! they schedule farrier and vet visits without asking me or telling me in advance- I get a text the night before if I am lucky. My phone has been on the fritz and not receiving texts. I had no idea the farrier was today. I also have schizophrenia- this is key because between it and ptsd, my memory is HORRIBLE. I have always been forgetful, but at this point I have full memory loss. It also means I am prone to being nocturnal- due to certain symptoms, sleeping is hard for me unless I am like, eyes hurt levels of exhausted. I did not sleep today until 5 am, and as a result, slept through the farrier. Now I have my barn owners (and dad) calling me all morning- are they concerned about me, a known suicidal and severely mentally ill person? no! why would they be! I am instead met with hostility and shaming. This is a historical pattern- “why don’t you have a job????” “why are you working minimum wage and can’t hold down a job? you are too smart to burden your father like that” “excuse me??? we told you to water the flowers why we where out of town!!! if you can’t help us out, maybe Romeo should find somewhere else to live and someone else to live with” (that threat was a long sit down in which my aunt and uncle cornered me and cussed me out for not remembering to water flowers- I have memory loss. I had remembered to, by myself, take care of the four horses we had at the time and carry bales of hay out every day. My family was also doing poorly due to my dads alcoholism- something they encourage, fyi. They knew this fully and where more or less threatening to rehome Romeo on me, over two planters of $60 flowers being wilty. Mind you, they are top 1% of income. This family makes more in a year than my father makes in 10. They make more in a year than I make in 100. I was not doing it out of hostility. It was not about the flowers.). In response to me daring to talk back or defend myself, they go straight to threatening my horse- it has gone so far as for them to threaten to kill both Romeo, my dog, and my other animals, any time I say an opinion they don’t like- be it political, me trying to stand up for myself, me standing up for other family members, or even just like, me being quiet. I’ve had times where I see them doing yard work, and wave to be nice, only for them to come over and tear into me for not working or helping out more or for doing something ‘wrong’ (I recall one time when I was walking Romeo in hand around the arena, and he pulled me over to a weed. I corrected him by holding out treats to get his attention back on me, which worked. I got yelled at for not ‘teaching him a lesson’ and ‘giving him vices’ and ‘ruining [co-owners name] horse’. Because..... I didn’t instantly give him a bruise on his nose for being a horse and wanting to do horse things). I am equal parts mad at them (and dreaming of the day I can cut ties), but also feeling like the shittiest horse owner alive. I daydream of future horses all the time, but I don’t think I ever will- both financially and because I don’t know if I’m a good pet owner at all.

#idk sorry for the pitty party #i just keep fucking failing everything!!! I cant do anything right!!! #Not to mention I cant ride. both in the sense that I am talentless but also in the sense that I am literally too heavy to ride #im now over 27% of romeos weight- a weight that was last taken nearly 10 years ago when he was in performance shape mind you so #likely more than 27% #not too many horses can carry 300+ lbs once you account for me and tack #like that leaves me with beefed up stock horses in prime shape (out of budget and I don't know enough about horses to keep them #in that shape) #and then drafts #which i cant afford because they eat too much and our farrier doesnt trim them so like #id have to pay both for a farrier who does drafts (preferably barefoot) and the drive out fee #and considering I doubt i would find a farrier super close who agrees to trim a barefoot draft like #hachi machi that sounds like a 80-100 farrier visit which is just not money my family has #not to mention like the doubt that im even a good enough handler to handle a draft! #like I click with horses and have been able to handle some spicey horses but its all been like #ponies and arabian stallion yearlings and then like #just our hot headed quarter horse whos a push over once she trusts you #I have never once handled a horse taller than me nor ridden one #I dont know shit about biomechanics or how to do dressage #like frankly compared to yall on tumblr i feel like a stupid hick #but not even like a cool one who can do cowboy stuff like #it would be different if i could say dressage who? I know how to sort cows and lasso cows and do cool rancher stuff #but instead im like. hi i am too fat to ride my elderly horse so instead here is some stupid little clicker training with stupid tricks #that no one cares about or is interested in #idk i should stop deluding myself that im an equestrian and not just some idiot giving an old horse bad habits and failing to take #good enough care of him #if I cant remember vets and farriers and deworming reliably I shouldn't have the horse #i ruin fucking everything

[peejsocks]

I now must know the aesthetic

oh its just the popular impeccable glamorous party girl aesthetic

#it has infested all my friends and im so sick of it #i mean like expensive clothing on point make up exclusive hang out spots (clubs and restaurants) #a constant need to reaffirm to oneself and others that you have access to ‘finer’ things idk. that real ‘exclusive’ shit you know? #and there’s a huge concern of ‘other ppl need to know we have fun’ #idk how present this is for everyone else but its all i see on ig/twitter (which is why i dont have ig anymore) #and the people they ‘look up to’ or like the most are other ppl who fit into this aesthetic too #i love my friends but when i hang out with Their friends too it feels like it’s just about taking pictures and looking perfect. #not a single thing is out of place. it feels alienating and dishonest as fuck and its v uncomfortable idk #maybe im just unhappy but idk like i just dont have fun hanging out anymore. it feels like theres a pressure to look ‘cool’ #and in reality most of the time its just very fucking boring #there’s a party i really want to go to next week but its the company that’s bothering me lmao ik its not gonna be carefree #i promise its not a pick me thing i am the biggest supporter of my friends feeling hot and confident bc they truly are fucking gorgeous #i always mention to ppl how ny friends are all pretty lol #but its just . they all have a LOT more than just that except when we go out its like none of that matters and its all about Looking #Interesting and Unapproachable #like there’s such a big concern of looking like you have fun that most of the time is spent crafting perfect pictures than actually fucking #doing something. anything. lmao. #dont get me wrong i LOVE dressing up and feeling good about my looks but its maybe 30% of the fun for me. or should be anyways #im just like we dont even LAUGH people what the fuck did we leave our houses for ?? stand around and try to look attractive to strangers ?? #and talk shit about those strangers ??? #its like when we hang out its not about us its 100% about others #like i said i love my friends theres a lot more to then than that but i dont feel like hanging out anymore in certain scenarios bc of this #and its shit bc i want to go out and party too but like damn u motherfuckers are BORING obsessing over this shit. #all these people feel like fucking robots and its boring as shit #now whenever i want to have fun (in the partying sense) idk who to go to #thats all i mean when i say i want the jackas teenage dirtbag aesthetic back. i just want to be able to hang out in shitty cheap places and #dress however i want to or put as little effort into my looks and have ACTUAL fun. live a little jfc #and i feel ??? why am i even here then ??? #sorry about venting its just been bothering me for months now #not jackass