#i got 2 and a half more years to go

[savage-rhi]

✨️Magenta🔥

#looking at the mental health and therapy positions open in my area #therapists are leaving left and right that a clinic i used to work at that treated me like utter shit is almost offering 140k in salary #to keep folks retained #i remember just a few years ago the max a therapist made there was 75k #seeing other places too where its like 67 to 85 an hr with sign on bonuses upward to 5k #its not a good sign professionals are leaving in droves #but damn it do i wish i had my license already so i could hop on and not live in poverty for a hot minute #im not fooling myself based on how inflation and the economy is running if you make over 100k its gonna be like making less than 45k #cause we getting gutted #but still god damn it #i got 2 and a half more years to go #fuck if i made that much right now i could get out of debt and spend a good chunk on people that need it #cause i don't need much else to keep my ass happy #this is the little flag that gives me hope #I'll be able to make a living doing something i love and helping people and getting my damn fucking bread #if i could make a living full time writing tho that would be fucking amazing #same thing with my voice over stuff too #god theres so much i aspire to do i got the ambition for it alright #but i got the disability that makes me take ten steps back and i live in a capitalistic hellscape that wants me tired and exhausted to where #i can't accomplish anything else but keeping the machine going #i feel like my writing sucks lately thats probably just burnout but god damn #this got bleak #k magenta can go fuck itself lets reword this jay #you're gonna get your license you're gonna have SOME FUCKING STABILITY you're gonna help people you're gonna be content and #you're gonna get your mother fucking bread that you've been promised #magenta mother fuckers magenta

[starry-bi-sky]

i made a rough timeline for the clone^2 au, just for my own convenience sake when dating things. some things might be out of order from the episode date, and thats also for my convenience.

September 3rd: Danny, age 14, has the accident in the lab that turns him liminal

September 10th: Danny is discharged from the hospital and given two weeks leave from school

September 24th: his sick leave ends, and Danny returns to school

October 14th: Danny sneaks into his parents' basement and releases the ghosts they have trapped in cages. Official birth of the vigilante, Phantom

November 27th: Danny fights Pariah Dark, and wins

December 24th: the Ghost Writer torments Danny

February 12th: Danny's 15th birthday

March 3rd: its been six months since Danny's accident

March 7th: Danny fights his evil future self

May 8th: Danny meets Ellie [age 15] and they become twins

December 14th: Danny finds out from his parents that he's a clone

February 12th: Danny's 16th birthday

Early-Mid April: Danny meets Damian [age 6] :)

Mid-Late April: Damian runs off for the first time, damages Danny's hands the first time

May: Damian runs off two more times in the span of three weeks, he damages Danny's hands both times.

Early June: Damian runs off one more time, damages Danny's hands again, resulting in permanent nerve damage.

Mid-Late June: Damian finally gives up on the League coming to get him and joins the Fenton Family.

July: Damian finally coaxes Danny into letting him come along with him on patrol: Wraith is born.

#danny fenton is not the ghost king #dpxdc #dpxdc crossover #clone^2 #danny fenton is a clone #this only focuses on the earlier parts of the au because those are most important imo. figuring out when danny's accident was. when he #became phantom. when he met damian. etc. is all pretty important stuff and helps me figure out ages beyond '10 year gap' #not super important stuff to much anyone else i think but its nice to have it written down as reference #i usually put danny's accident as happening at the beginning of the school year. tis convenient that way #me: hmmm when do i make danny find out he's a clone. beginning of the school year makes the most sense right??? #me:....or.... i could ruin his christmas again :) #thought about increasing the amount of times damian runs off but... thats a LOT of time he's run off and i didnt want to go overboard #same thing with danny's hands. thought about hurting him more frequently but honestly taking a blade to the hand is already damaging enough #on its own. catch a blade with his hands four times would be enough to cause permanent nerve damage and also he would have learned his #lesson if it happened more frequently. #so damian runs off 4 times in the span of essentially 2 months #and four times danny catches his blade. three times he got cut. one time he needed stitches #anyways thats the timeline for now. made totally for convenience sake and no other reason #totally dont look at my google docs there’s nothing there but half forgotten wips and cfau master doc

[chiropteracupola]

historically accurate trip to clifton's cafeteria!!!

[progress shots under the readmore]

#em draws stuff #SEND HIS ASS TO THE CLIFTON’S CAFETERIA! #I have been working on this image for More Than A Week and I feel like it has taken years off my life :] #look sometimes you get possessed by enthusiasm about fun comics you read and also nostalgia for bizarre novelty restaurants #due to the fact that clifton's no longer exists I cannot go there. but I can send the blorbos there by force if I so choose. #there's just something about old southern california restaurants with strange gimmicks and themes. take me away to there. #since I am very proud of this I will be using the full proper tags just this one single time [lying through my teeth] #swapping my usual format so there’s not just an absolute deluge of organizational stuff right off the bat #I think I said that the madness would probably go away soon but as you see that has not been the case (it's only gotten worse) #this is the most people I’ve put in a picture since I don’t know when #actually after a quick look-see through my files this might very well be the most people I’ve put in a picture Ever #the madness will do that to ya I guess. also the sheer raw clifton’s energy. #(altho' I got so tired in the end that about half the background is a very crunchy photo of The Real Clifton's...) #this is why my header is what it currently is and also why I posted that horrid 70s jello drink a week ago #many thanks are owed to jon dxppercxdxver for chatting with me about outfits and drink orders and such! #this is fanart for the weirder forefather of a rainforest cafe just as much as it is fanart for a videojame #I do not know what the typical tagging etiquette for this is but by golly I'm going to guess #clifton's cafeteria #team fortress 2 #spy tf2 #engineer tf2 #soldier tf2 #sniper tf2 #demoman tf2 #medic tf2 #heavy tf2 #pyro tf2 #miss pauling #scout tf2 #why yes I am tagging clifton's Like It Is The Piece of Media. what of it.

[sovonight]

why is so much of sewing just tracing and cutting and tracing again q_q i see why people get projectors and use adobe illustrator now

#drawing up a design that i can easily pattern from my sloper: 😊 #actually having to make the pattern by tracing and cutting ad infinitum: 😰 #piecing together printer paper to get a big enough sheet of paper and doing this ten million times: 🥲😭 #not to mention the IRONING.... prewashing the fabric and having to iron 8 yards of fabric???? excuse me???? #and then distorting it as i iron bc it has a slight stretch and i got so tired i stopped being careful 2 yards in #and the way that you're supposed to press every seam... excuse me... am i just supposed to have my iron heated and on standby at all times #AND THE STEAM??? i just got stay tape the other day and thought it'd be a neat alternative to stay stitching #BUT IT NEEDS STEAM TO ACTIVATE (which okay makes sense) BUT long story short i'm too afraid to use the steam function #on my iron because none of us are sure if water should go back into a tank that's been in disuse for 30+ years #so instead i get this water spray pen and delicately spray down the length of each piece of stay tape #before i cover it with a piece of gauze and iron it. and then i have to iron it extra so all the water actually evaporates #oh and the spray pen holds as much water as half a pen so i have to walk to the kitchen every 10 sprays to refill it #and i have to do this for every curved edge on my pattern pieces #i mean the alternative is just stay stitching but then i would have to calibrate my settings for a single layer of fabric instead of double #which means i have to switch my needle out more and i'm still new enough that sometimes i install a needles wrong despite going through #all the same exact motions that i usually would. i'm LITERALLY suffering out here. anyway can't wait to sew or whatever #oh and did i mention i went to a sewing meetup recently? yeah... #everyone there bought like $30-$100/yard fabric and i was there awkwardly knowing i only buy like $12/yard fabric #honestly though i have the opposite problem people usually joke about. i find it So hard to find fabric i actually like #it needs to be the right fiber + right color + right pattern/texture + right weight + i have to know exactly what i'm going to make with it

[blissfali]

hey guys. wasnt able to be on tumblr because ivr been busy building this he-man castle grayskull mega construct (knock off lego) set for the past 36 hours. doesnt it look awesome

#The most grueling fucking set ive ever built #i know its not OFFICIAL LEGO but by god you couldve tried a LITTLE bit #for starters #iT DOES NOT FUCKING END. YOU CAN NOT STOP AFTER EACH BAG LIKE WITH LEGO YOU EITHER STOP IN THE MIDDLE FOR NO REASON OR YOU GO UNTIL YOU DIE #(my route) #Like. why #why would you do that #secondly #idk. it was just annoying #it looks awesome from the outside the inside is mid but i like the characters #my mom got it for me like. 2 years ago. Um #Tbf she got it for ME because SHE likes he man (i never liked he man cause every road trip she would play the same he man christmas special #dvd in our dvd player for like hours over and over) #i was a she ra girly. And now im a reboot she ra girly #<- she hates the she ra reboot but thats fiar bc she grew up with the og… she doesnt know true #This is number 2 on my list for worst building experience lego set idc that its not lego #number 1 is the big millenium falcon #number 3 is the titanic #this one is worse than the titanic and i literally worked on that bitch for 6 and a half days straight #That was more enjoyable than this.

[icewindandboringhorror]

I found socks with my favorite flowers on them (nasturtiums!), but they literally don't match anything I own, so making an outfit with them is difficult.. just all black with the bright shoes and a random stuffed animal for accents lol

#self #ootd #still unsure if I should do the like.. 'saying where stuff is from' section at the end of outfit posts like I think it's popular to do #but it just feels repetitive because basically for everything is just 'it's all thrifted' occasional 'shoes from ebay 10 years ago so I don #t remember the seller' or 'socks from a random sock store in the mall 2 years ago' etc. #even the stuffed animal is from the bins lol #Shoes and tights and wigs are the only things that it tends to be harder to get from the bins. Though I still find some #except wigs. I wouldn't really wear Bin Wigs since half the bins have like mysterious wet stuff and mold in them or etc. #I've gotten some shoes and stuff there though. But most of my shoes are from online. It's just that theyre also not from #like.. brands..?? Like 'converse' or something. It's more.. some random ebay seller in 2017 or something #so then that feels weird too because I thought the point of that being popular is so people can go find the things you're wearing and #buy them or whatever. but in my case that would never be helpful ghjbjk #since I also keep things so long. I have shoes and stuff Ive had since elementary school #good luck tracking down where I got these tights on ebay in 2011. good luck going to the bins or a thriftstore and finding the same #exact dress or etc. So then in that case does it even matter?? eh #The only sense I could see it being useful in is like. people seeing that they could make looks without spending a lot of money. #since I have had some comments on costumes or makeups before like 'omg I would love to look like this if I had the $$ for clothes *sad emo #ji*' or whatever. and I always want to message them and be like.. this entire outfit cost like $2.. you can do it. Don't get discouraged #I mean depending on the resources available to you. I know not everyone has a bins type place near the #m. but still. and all of my makeup and wigs are cheap as hell. Probably full of terrible chemicals. but I wear them like. once every 5 mont #hs or less since I dont do full costumes that often so hopefully wont get an infection or something. etc. etc. #ANYWAY. I could see it being useful I guess in just letting people know most of everything is secondhand #if that's meaningful to them for some reason. but also I feel like thats obvious since I talk about it. so #still just seems repetitive to me. ANYWAY. Love nasturtiums... aaaaaa... even though it's not my colors at all and I never #wear black or anything that would match them #I had to do it. I also normally would never ever pay $12 for socks but.. it's SO specific to my tastes and I had never seen anything #with nasturtiums on it before since they dont seem as popular as like roses or sunflowers. One of my once every 2 years #impulse buys at a mall ghjhjb.. (I never go to malls and also just rarely buy stuff in general since I'm evil miserly penny pincher etc.) #Kind of like how once a year I allow myself to have one steak from a restaurant or something but that's all. Once every few years #I will go to a large mall at a not busy time of day so I can avoid crowds. just to look around for fun. and will maybe buy like. One thing

[krash-8]

ok so I get the schools football team is great and you can afford to spend thousands of dollars on signs that glow when they play and shit but can you go back to not charging kids for pads. or at least stocking the dispensers that do

#rant in tags sorry lol i hate it here #anyways #I don't generally take change with me when i go to the bathroom mid class #believe it or not #and half the time the dispensers are empty or broken anyway #“but then kids will just take them all” 1) how would anybody casually walk out of the restroom with 50 tampons #2) i think youd live #use that money you're always bragging on for something thats NOT showy sports gear or a fucking ten thousand dollar chandelier #hate rich schools because they have so much money they dont even bother spend it right #dont even get me started on the band #i like band !!! band is cool !!!! however my former high school had a great band #and they didn't BEG THEIR MEMBERS to sponsor THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS EACH FOR #on top of what they already have #AND THEY HAVE A LOT. #tbh ive never met more spoiled kids than the band ones at my school in my life #“we didn't get to have 5 field trips to amusement parks this year. just four. of COURSE im upset; they dont fund band enough” #that kid got jumped on by three art kids and a teacher when that came out 😭😭😭 #they just expect this shit #do they notice what its taking from everyone else #i have a teacher whos worked with this school for like 25 years. which is remarkable as this school isnt very old. or this town #compared to my other schools at least #and every day she goes on about How Much She Hates what theyre doing #but she wont leave because she likes to teach #shes watched the school slowly transfer more and more of its budget to showy extra things #and give less and less to necessities #more money does not help. #not only is there nothing more they can take from some families without driving us out‚ but they'll just keep wasting it. #theyre spoiled fucking rotten and you can't give them anything because itll never go where you want #out of tags but yeah i hate them and something needs to be done about the district #school problems

[mrpenguinpants]

YOUR DOTTORE FICS ARE SO YUMMY IM LOSING MY MIND FROTHING AT FHE MOUTH OH MY GOD GOODNESS GRACIOJS ME OH MY FUCKJNG GOD IM

but uh yea i think ur like cool or whatever

pspspsps you're too sweet anon. I'm glad you like the Dottore fics because he keeps my foot inside the Genshin rabbit hole. I like him a lot and I will convert as many people as possible over to my side.

My biggest weakness is having someone say that they would kill for me. The dirtier, the better. My favorite AO3 tag is psychopaths in love if it wasn't obvious. I tend to write fluffier and lighthearted fics, but Dottore is the one character I can actually go hard on. That's probably why I don't write him very often (unless asked for, ahem ahem), even though he's my favorite character because it'd be really out of place. So it makes me happy to hear these things.

So if genshin makes him into a redeemable character, I will weep in my grave over what could have been.

#please...give me more dottore asks...i beg of you.. #this anon single-handedly made me update my masterlist #you know that thing that I haven't touched in 2 years? #half of it is because I forgot to link the dottore fic but I cleaned it up a tiny bit after 0 progress #im telling you im making it my lifes mission to get people to like dottore #this spiteful feral racoon of a man #whose a bad person and deserves no rights #but wow do i love that kind of man #fun fact that fic was going to be wayyyy more light hearted #i was gonna write zhongli saying that he'll fuck up hades #then i got slapped in the face with dottore #and here we are #super duper big mwah #lovely anon #anon ask

[shleemies]

Just did a T shot for the first time in years!! I was so brave!!! Used a bluey bandaid too :-)

#i started t in 2017 but after a few weeks i started having an allergic reaction to the cottonseed oil used in it #started getting it compounded with a grapeseed oil suspension and it was fine! until 2019 i moved cities #the new compounding pharmacy would only fill a 6 month supply. id previously been getting 2 month supplies. it was way more expensive #but i was able to get the 6 month supply #2 or so weeks in. the vial fucking fell and shattered. T is majorly regulated and i wasnt allowed a refill for 5 and a half months #when i was able to get back on T i opted for the topical and was on it for years #it was great it worked great #a couple of months ago though my ocd got extremely bad and the contamination aspect of the topical just got to be too much to deal with #so i stopped T for that reason and another reason i wont go into. not important or transition related but i had my reasons #tried to convince myself to start the topical again but when i tried i just got way too anxious wbout the contamination still soooo #i found out theres silicone sleeves online you can get for vials to prevent breakage if they fall so i got an appt with the clinic #told them about all my concerns and stuff #tried to get the pellet implant first but they said i have to go somewhere else for that #may or may not follow up on that #but they were able to prescribe me the sesame oil suspended T and stuff so i cant do shots again #reason i did compounding before was the sesame suspension was more expensive for me at that point #but now its way cheaper for me than the compounded T #so ya this is the context for why i wasnt doing shots for years but now am doing them again #suprisingly enough i had a needle phobia before starting T #but it subsided pretty quickly for the most part when i started and the needle aspect of it all was never a factor for stopping injections #just the price and risk of losing months of T in an instant #i dont have my silicone sleeve for the vial yet but its in the mail. rn my T is safe and sound in a jjk pencil bag :) #tw needles #just in case #didnt expect to write so much in the tags lol

[deus-ex-mona]

when you can never forget… _(:3 」∠)_

#mad cringe 3am rant incoming pls stand by— #…so i found my enstars screenshots from 2018 and i don’t even remember half of them happening h e l p #there’s stuff like spamming for repayment fes event nazuna niichan till i had 0 dia left… #…and making ship birthday board things for the 2019 birthday events. i made leokasa and subahokke ones s o bs #and i think i saw a makoizu ss from the librarian event? the outfit + blushing seaweed head sure looks like it’s from that event #(tfw you’re the only one shipping this problematic ship lmao) #also speaking of enstars hi are there any other hokke recasting rejectors out there👀👀👀 #hokke’s current va has been voicing him for much longer than his previous va ever did and i *still* can’t get used to his ‘new’ voice lmao #i remember benching his 5☆ so fast the moment i heard his ‘new’ voice post-recasting. sad times. initial hokke was my first 5☆ too… #but the most cringe memory i have of enstars is… downloading it thinking it was a haikyuu game bc subaru lowkey looks like hinata. #in my defence i couldn’t read japanese back then ok. i was so confused when they told me to pick an idol unit bc ‘where my volleyboys at???’ #i really should’ve realised something was up when i saw hokke (or as i thought he was back then: haru from the swimming anime) appear smh #it took me like 2 months to get through the tutorial bc i was so confused. 0/10 experience; should’ve quit enstars on the first uninstall #but lmao i still have the og enstars app unupdated on my old phone. it still has the dumb 4th anni thing on the icon. time flies… #and well if you read this for some reason or other… go listen to ‘crush of judgement’ or ‘sei shounen yuugi’👀 they’re the best songs (imo) #also nazuna niichan is the bestest boy and prettiest boy and the cutest boy and have you seen his frozen ice card it’s so cute and aaaaaaa— #also now that that’s done can i talk about my 3.5 year long love live phase— #ok i think i got enough cringe out of my system for now. #tune in in a few hours for (maybe) more cringe tag blubbering about shin jidai this time (provided my dvd comes in today dhl p l s—) #it is suiyoubi my dudes #inedible blubbering

[lordiavolo]

to be like frank here, redemption is an ever going cycle. when youve been the problem, the toxic ex, the abuser, you have to know you will have to apologize for that for the rest of your life. you will always have to live with the guilt and conscience of knowing how you hurt that person, or mutliple people. and you have to constantly CHOOSE to not repeat that behavior, and its not easy.

when you meet a new friend the topic of who you used to be will come up eventually, and if you have changed youll be honest with who you were. you cant run from it. you cant try to round the corners and make it seem like the other persons fault, or like it wasnt as bad as it was. its really really scary. because everytime you open up about it, its not just the wound of guilt but its also the fear that theyre going to look inside and not like what theyll see.

but you have to keep moving on and you have to keep being honest. and you have to remember that everyone is applicaple for redemption, you just have to work for it and admitting you were wrong with no buts is the first step.

#anyways cna u tell im kinda going thru it LOL #ive always been a toxic person thats why ive sort of secluded myself from society i avoid human contact w non household members as much as #possible bcuz i feel honestly like im a ticking time bomb that just hurts everything i touch #i dont think its fair to have to have someone deal w my shit when its such an emotional turmoil so even though i want friends im making my #peace w the fact that i like honestl dont really deserve rhem? ik this seems MOPEY but its like this is my geniune non like baiting thoughts #i was an abuser in high school and in an abusive relationship where for the first half i was the perpetrator. i hit my ex and u know i dont #even have anything to add to it other than it was fucked up. i was selfish in bed and sex addicted and sometimes did anything for my fix. #i will and cannot lie about my past as being a shitty person. its scary to say and post but i have to be honest thats who i was that IS a #part of my history as much as i wish i could i cannot erase. #i dont rly even know what to add here honestly. just watching mias vid got me thinking u know #there is more to this story ofc the same ex i was abusive to was also abusive to me it was just split into segments. like i was the problem #for the first year and a half then it switched to them but its not rly rhe best place 2 share that story when im talking about my mistakes #im not trying to detract here i just want 2 get this shit off my chest again. ive talked about it before but not since remaking a few times #anyways i dont have any excuses well i mean i can pull a bunch out but im not going to cuz at the end of the day i shouldve known better #than to be a bitch when i knew i was being a bitch u know? #being the bad guy is a constant struggle where u will have to really really fucking fight yourself tooth and nail to change and i want to be #that person. i want to be someone who can be 100% honest about how shit i was to myself and others (which i do already do to my friends) #hopefully this makes sense idk anyways if ur struggling with being abusive or toxic im here for u. u can get through this and you can be a #good person it is within ur hands i promise u #ok love u goodnight #personal

[meringuejellyfish]

the music for the colgera battle is quite delightful (wow i just need to say i like it. goodness) its a shame i couldnt really properly hear it while actually playing on account of having to sit right next to a loud ac but listening to it fully the other day was nice. took me a few weeks but i can appreciate it now - and listen ... im a simple guy, the rito village theme being incorporated into a section of it is just wow :-( ....... big leitmotif fan. walking into zoras domain is going to kill me

#music is the only thing important to me actually. #when i played botw i spent a lot of time dilly dallying as one could say. basically just splorin. and riding my horse around in literal #circles #it took me years to do more than 2 of the divine beasts ... LOL. #anyway. in botw i always did mipha first but as of late noted to myself that when i replay botw sometime in the future im going to head for #vah medoh first .... revalis gale is my best friend #i sort of took that over to totk and after a few days i was like okay im going to rito village im curious #i think im going to have very fond memories of that in the future. i really enjoyed doing all of that :-) #i want to say - totk very much so has had the ability to give me new ''wow'' moments that i had in botw #and gosh .... thinking about how ive played these two games at very different points in my life ... ahhh #in my totk playing i have been very much spacing out the main objective stuff. i did get around to rito village somewhat quickly #like perhaps a few days after i got the game (finished the tutorial area on the first night and just went to towns and explored yadada #for a few days after that #and then i did gerudo town a little while after that #so far i have not ventured to goron city or zoras domain. ive explored a little bit in each of those regions but have not yet gone and #committed. although goron city is next #ohh i did a labyrinth the other day. wicked fucked up man they put half this shit in the sky also randomly The hands were there #scary. no more elaboration #back to music. i learned to play miphas melody on piano a few years back #i really need to get back to piano ... learning to duet kass' theme with my sibling but ive been slacking on my half #hyrule warriors age of calamity was insane purely for hearing a version of miphas theme but for battle #like duude. are you hearing this? dude........ #just remembered sidon. dont even get me started .......... sniffle #so crazy when there is music

[serendipitous-mage]

not that ive had anything near a 'normal' year in well over a decade but thinkin about how proper fukt and hectic thiis one has been

beginning of year was working for one of the most insane managers/companys i ever have

middle of march i put in my two weeks, because in addition to a Lot of other reasons that i had already been struggling to not leave over, my manager straight up DOXXED a coworker(/their family member) on linkedin--and on the company linkedin as well no less--and some other drama that was just the last straw and i wanted some scrap of sanity back and to avoid that happening to me

end of march, hear that its not just possible but likely current roommate is moving, and while i *couldlve* gone with, it was an area i didnt want to go to

uncertainty from march-august, and not much progress made on job apps in that time because that is Such a huge/panic inducing process for me anyway without being unsure of living situation on top of it

roommate moving confirmed, i try and find someone who could take their spot where i already was but a lot of my friends had literally *just* moved in the last few months, so missed my chances

move in with some friends who already have so little space and money and now they have to share with me

finally hear about a job in like november

the job changes .. many times. first its a call center gig for this company, then they call back with 'the same thing but for a slightly different thing under the same parent company', and it actually does sound a little less hellish, so i go with that. all of the paperwork/emails i receive have the name of the first company on them, but when i asked about it they said it was just because of the parent company thing it was all good. they have me pick a schedule... all of the options are 40 hours, i had not asked too many specifics because i dont have the luxury of being picky rn, but i have never worked full time and am already always exhausted and cant stay awake all day, so this is going to be absolute hell. also there are 12 days where additional hours are Required, 4 of which i wouldve otherwise had off

i pick a schedule. they write back that some things changed here are some other schedules to pick from, i pick a new schedule. when we had initially talked on the phone for the first company i was told a setup day end of november and starting in december, but because of returning people/potentially from moving to the other, now im not starting until the end of january, which fucking sucks because ive been at $0 and owing friends for covering me for months. get a call saying some people dropped out, do i want to start a week earlier? yes ofc i do i need the money. get a call again saying the same thing, so now im starting the beginning of january instead.

equipment arrives: it is.....one small box......with the tiniest dinkiest little laptop with a whole entire one USB port and one USB-C port...great, perfect, this will work so well considering my monitor is VGA, and all three of my headset, mouse, and keyboard are USB connections. i do happen to have a USB to USB-C adapter for other things, but thats still only 2 of the 4 things i need plugged in. i tell them this, they through a series of CC'ing other people into the email find someone who knows where my Other equipment is. theyve sent me another monitor that has a USB-C connection and a (extremely chintzy) USB splitter. ok, technically everything can be plugged in now, whatever

we have a setup teams meeting: the lady running it mentions they just wana make sure our mics/cam work and then we can have them off for the meeting, 'because youre going to need both of them right? :)'. no. no i had bETTER not need both of them you are NOT having me ON FUCKING CAMERA for 40+HOURS A WEEK i will SCREAM.

but then. oh, oh boy howdy, and then...

the meeting was for both of the roles id been offered because the initial setup for both is the same, people for both the assignments are present. last i knew, i was on company B. i already have 15 pages of notes for company B from things i could find on the website and in manuals because i am an anxious bitch and wanted to make the first few weeks as painless as possible for me, im not confident, but i do have a fairly decent start and a basis understanding of the software already, so im a little less nervous about it

then the lady mentions...that....if youre with company A, you were sent one monitor, and if youre with company B...you were sent 2...

......i look up at my Singular monitor

and type in chat like 'hiiii um, so im with company B but was only sent the one monitor ?'

lady has someone else present double check my assignment

and they send

"youre with company A :)" legitimately with a smiley face

and when i tell you i am losing my shit-

15 pages of notes useless. company A is going to be higher call volumes and for a more generalized people which means more stupid questions and more confused customers. from what i can find on the website, their only support option seems to be phones, so there isnt even the possibility of having emails or chats which i Greatly prefer to phone calls, the other one had email at least. NONE of the emails they sent me said ANYTHING about the change, i can only assume it was one of the phone calls where they asked if i wanted to move up a week in the schedule, but it was NOT made clear i was changing anything other than the start date, just "theres an opening in the other class", and in the follow-up emails each time they only said "Thanks for your quick move to this new schedule" and "I'm excited for your earlier start date!", which does NOT imply i have been switched assignments

yall..im devastated lmao. i can never just Find A Job it always has to be some fucking batshit insane garbage like this

i start next week and im ......not excited to say the least ;w;

it only goes until april...but its going to be 40+ hour weeks (and i *doubt* any overtime pay, its technically a contractor role), on exclusively phone support (i fucking hate phones they make me mad anxious), i still havent been able to get solid notes for this one because their website is fucking unhinged and its taking me Forever to dig through it all, the laptop is tiny asf and there is no space in the shared room ive got rn to set it up in a way thats good at a desk or something im probably going to be sitting on the edge of the bed and using my shelf as a table which i Know from experience is going to kill my back and neck esp with the longer hours, they potentially want my camera on while working which is Not happening i might get fired for that even if i can keep up with the hours, and if i do get fired or quit? this job came through a recruiting agency which had got me one of my last remote jobs, and i dont think theyd be too quick to help me find something else if this one ends badly, so im really kind of forced to continue even if i didnt have such a pressing need for income asap

and all of this.. for a whole entire $16/hr :'D

happy fucking new years ;_;

#kill me #pLease fucking kill me i have been begging for 6 years #also the entire back and forth with emails for paperwork the person In Charge was incapable of writing sentences longer than 2 words #without it being riddled with typos and not making any sense #i hate being so poor i dont have the luxury of being able to chose what my job is #i really kind of just have to take whatever i can get #cos for a variety of reasons im trying to find something remote #and SO much of that shit is healthcare or lawyers or super advanced coding #almost everything else is call centers/adjacent #im going to be so incredibly dead #my last call center job sometimes got to 37 hours and i was so damn tired #and they werent even that busy half the season #i am......Concerned about what theyre expecting for call volume #hoping and praying to a god i will shoot on sight that the 'youll need the camera' is more geared toward company B #cos i just cant man #that adds so much extra strain from having to be aware of what my face is doing constantly #ill disintegrate #fuck this #just me #rant #also i fuckin hate new yyears in general this is Not a good fuckin time #hhhhHHHSeokafnjdhULJDKLFANSBHjnlkhbjnBFNAKFLGAH;FGJNAIR #A #long post

[transgaysex]

amount of people ive had a hand in getting kicked out of a college gay club: 2

#wind howls #um. its not a goal of mine its just surprising that its happened twice #the first time was half for racism accusations and half for transphobia ? and also bc the girl didnt believe women were oppressed anymore ? #which is worrisome considering she was also in the feminism club. but not my business i guess that was like 3 years ? 2 years ago #but anyway remember last week when i was upset out of my mind and liveblogging racism live from gay club. #i talked to an admin and after they talked abt it with the other admins the person is likely getting the boot + theyre bringing in- #the schools social workers to make the rules against racism more strict (or at least enforce those better) #in the first case i wasnt the only one who witnessed it (a big argument happened in the messenger group and then miss girl decided- #she wanted to be transphobic towards me specifically so she got her ass kicked out after i talked 2 the admins) but this time around like #i wasnt the only one there ? but i guess im the only one who reported it or smthn idk. either way i dont go around telling admins- #'hey man kick this person out. heres all the shit they did and i want them out' i just tell them what happened and leave it in their hands #i guess im not used still in people actually taking me seriously and the other party actually like. gettinf a serious consequence #im always expecting them to just get a slap on the wrist. anyway #i hope this makes white people in the gay club more afraid of what theyre gonna say next when it comes to race ! #because im sick of them getting too comfortable ! you wanna act racist ? do that outside and stay there. anyway #this was just an update on that whole thing. leaving it to rest noe

[bidokja]

"han yoohyun sucks as a younger brother" i have not said this phrase in years, like literally years, but how about you meet me in the fucking pit

#ky speaks #ANGER. RAGE. #EITHER THAT PERSON HAS ONLY READ LIKE HALF THE FIRST ARC OF THE SERIES AND HAS A STICK UP THEIR ASS THINKING THEYVE GOT IT ALL FIGURED OUT #OR THEY KNOW ENOUGH TO KNOW BETTER AND ARE BEYOND SAVING (AND DEFINITELY STILL HAVE A STICK UP THEIR ASS) #'yoohyun is a bad person' he never did anything wrong ever in his life actually #listen i know i also didnt have a favorable first impression of him but 1) that was legit years ago and im so much more fun about media now #2) him coming off as a willful crazy ass is like. that is the POINT *and* the APPEAL you need to fOLLOW THESE CHARACTERS ON THEIR JOURNEY #AND ACCEPT WHEN STUFF IS REVEALED THAT RECONTEXTUALIZES LITERALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM #also even when i thought he was horrible 1) i didnt hate him 2) he was STILL one of the most compelling characters in the whole series #die mad about it hyh haters #EDIT: LMAO APPARENTLY THEY DROPPED THE SERIES 100 CHAPTERS IN NO WONDERRR they'll literally Never get it #tho imo 100 chapters is still enough for you to understand hyh is the most little brother ever if youre paying attention but :^) whatever #like. idk theres plenty to go off of to Know he's got more going on than some surface level fixation come on now #also bringing up if hes a 'good' little brother in a poll that is not about whether the younger sibling is a 'good' younger sibling or not. #Okay. *rolls eyes* #tbc im not faulting them for dropping the series its not for everyone im being a hater cause theyre acting like they know our boy smdh