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tariah23 · 2 months

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The manga industry, especially JUMP, needs to hurry up and do away with weekly scheduling for mangaka. There needs to better regulations put into place for their health and safety because this is pitiful. Two weeks - monthly updates should’ve already been the standard for the manga industry at this point. These money grabbers will only continue to put the lives of these artists at stake for the sake of capitalism unless some serious changes are implemented.

#it’s just???#at the end of the day all these people want to do is draw and write their stories and share them with the world #why is death from stress the end game for so many of them #this should not be part of the package when finally deciding that this is what you want to do with your life #rambling #I still never got over miura’s passing man #and Togashi is still here but he’s been suffering from the consequences of overwork #it’s just… all so bleak #fans just need to learn to be patient if these changes are ever made and to be respectful #your fav series is not gonna die just because you can’t get it right now #I’m glad that gege does this now like he takes a break every 2-3 chapters and that’s good #this should be normalized

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happyheidi · 4 months

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I'm turning 29 this year and regret not being where my parents were at my age. They weren't rich or well off at all, but they were married and had me and their own place. I don't think I'll ever have a relationship that doesn't end with being cheated on, or my own place, let alone the stability to have a BABY. I see my high school friends on facebook having babies and travelling and getting great careers and feel like I missed all my chances already. I'm almost 30 but I'm still doing the same shit I did 15 years ago. The only difference is now I'm hyperaware that life is fleeting. I don't know if I have a question to wrap this up, I just needed to tell someone that and I saw it was therapy hour so I might as well tell you.

Ok this is every girls way of thinking when they reach that 30’s spot. I did it. You did it. They did it. Its programmed in us PLUS we have our biological clock ticking away as well. If I were where my parents were at my age I would have a kid and a math degree. It’s a totally different time so we can’t see ourselves in that light. I’m a victim of it too. I’ve thought of taking out a loan so I can freeze my eggs but it costs like 90k for 3 eggs so yeah but I digress. I turned 33 this December and yes it sound cliche but I don’t feel a day over what.. 24? I’m stunted. So I’m not the person to answer this as I’m kinda in the same boat.

What can we do? Think about how it should be… “how far we should be" by now? Doing so doesn’t change anything other than our moods. I’m actually getting kinda queasy as I’m writing this cus it’s this weird innate feeling that I have no idea how I turn of..

But remember that not all that glitters is gold. And it’s not always greener on the other side. But let’s try to break the fence anyway.

but hey let’s use lots of money on skincare and makeup in the meantime so we help capitalism and ruin ourselves slowly 🎉 (oopsies..)

#hope this makes sense to someone #sorry I’m just rambling over here #dr high-dee in full effect #ask #this got bleak 😂😅

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lesbiangracehanson · 1 year

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yeah .... i love this silly show thanks

#olivia watches voyager #star trek voyager #i will say tho that this episode actually got very bleak

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bogkeep · 9 months

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honestly at this point i'm just fascinated how terms like 'grimdark' and 'hopepunk' are perceived differently by people because i'll be like. "yeah no i'm not into grimdark stuff, you really do get fatigued if something is too bleak all the time" while reading something a lot of people would consider grimdark. "wait what do you mean this is grimdark, it has that lil shimmer of hope and resilience, surely that's not grimdark???"

something something one man's grimdark is another man's hopepunk

#back when overly sarcastic productions did that video on grimdark and how thers actually very little media that qualifies for True Grimdark #but i think it gets used colloquially a lot #and maybe i can read asoiaf and be like this didn't feel grimdark to me #but i will ABSOLUTELY understand if someone else goes Nope at the sight of it #everyone's got different bleakness levels probably #i remember seeing n k jemisin criticize the term hopepunk on twitter years ago #and i was like huh but the broken earth trilogy feels like the epitome of hopepunk to Me #it's probable that term has a whole host of associations im not very familiar with tbh. who's to say

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wizardnuke · 2 months

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do u know how insanity inducing it is fr me to be able to sing all but like the two lowest notes of take me to church

#my lovers got huu. she's the at a funeral. knows everybody's disapproval. shoulda shipped her sooner #if the heavens ever did. she's the. true mouthpiece. every sundays gettin more bleak. fresh sin each week

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tinylilemrys · 8 months

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Omg so my mom's usually been so weird about queer scenes in shows and movies. Like she won't say anything bad about the characters, but you can see she's kind of just willing the scene to go to something else.

We got to the scene in the last episode of Ted Lasso where all the fans stream onto the pitch and Colin is looking around for his boyfriend, and my mom, crying says "don't worry, bud, he's on his way". When I tell you I wept. Like that's huge. I've never seen my mom emotional about a queer moment in a show.

She was telling me later how much she really enjoyed Colin's whole arc and just... I'm just so emotional. This is huge.

#i really feel like she's unlearning a lot of the bullshit we both got taught growing up #and i'm so hoping it continues 🥺#tiny mom #i know it's bleak that this is something that i'm excited about #but you don't understand how HUGE this is from her #colin hughes #ted lasso

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fireladybuckley · 4 months

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I’m just so sad today. It’s been just under 3 days and already it feels like an eternity, but also like no time at all has passed. I can still feel him in my arms, smell the wonderful scent of his fur when I buried my nose in the back of his neck, still feel his purrs reverberating off my collarbone, his gentle paw pads on my arm, his soft fur brushing my skin. And then he was gone, just like that, tearing out a chunk of my heart as he went.

The ache he’s left behind in me is almost unbearable. I feel like people seem to think I should be farther along in my grief already but he was my best friend every day for thirteen years. This pain is not going to ease so quickly. I haven’t told anyone at work yet because I can’t bear talking about it.

I just feel very alone, sitting here quietly in my sadness

#rambling #tw pet death #Leo the cat #got the morbs #it’s a bright sunny day but my mood is bleak

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heartbeatbookclub · 3 months

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There's a lot of ambiguity present in DDLC, and although + does elaborate on a lot of it, it presents some new ambiguity, too. I've already discussed the Protagonist and his entire existence, but I think something people don't even really think about is Natsuki's home life.

In case that doesn't make it obvious, CW: this mini-essay is going to talk a lot about abuse. Take care of yourselves.

Within the original Doki Doki Literature Club, there's an inherent uncertainty in the actual degree to which Monika is personally manipulating the other girls. It's somewhat unclear whether or not Monika is directly manufacturing unappealing traits to give to everyone else, or if she's just exaggerating problems that were already there to the point of catastrophe. In other words, it's unclear as to exactly how much of the game from its outset was something which would happen naturally, or an element of Monika's manipulation.

I think that Plus simultaneously plays into this ambiguity and clarifies a lot of it. There are definitely gray areas left, but the Side Stories in particular answer a lot of questions.

I think what the Side Stories are intent on doing is showcasing all of the girls as characters independent of any potential 4th wall/Monika meddling, and it answers a lot of questions regarding the true depth of each of the girls independent of that manipulation. This includes Monika, actually, and I think what it displays is that Monika's manipulation is far reaching, but she worked with material which was already there.

I've already discussed how the Protagonist is implied to exist within the Side Stories, but vitally, the Side Stories indicate the raw personality (and problems, motivations, etc) of every one of the girls. This includes Monika, and I think makes for a very interesting character study for how Monika became who she is in the main game. That's something I played with a good bit in Coil, if you haven't read it. Monika isn't aware she's being watched and in fact isn't aware of any of the nature of her reality, and thusly puts significantly more of who she actually is as a flawed person on display.

I'm digressing, but only a little bit. Something else this clarifies is the question I asked earlier regarding whether or not Monika was explicitly adding negative traits to the other girls, though it isn't an exact answer: Sayori does have a lot of the same mental health issues displayed in the main game, though clearly not to the same degree. Yuri clearly demonstrates a more obsessive personality, but it's in more of an autistic hyperfixation "I am incredibly passionate about my interests and will talk about them for hours if you don't shut me up" kind of way. I think there's definitely still some factors which are up in the air about Yuri (knives...that's all I'll say), but I think it's clear to see the basis of what was done to her here.

And Natsuki is, well...still pretty ambiguous.

I should be clear; Natsuki's raw personality is still very readily apparent here, and it does do a great deal of exploration of her character, showcasing the real depth of who she is and why she acts the way she does, but there is one critical question which isn't explicitly referred to.

The obvious thing you're thinking of, probably because I mentioned it at the start. Any reference to Natsuki's home life is absent, and it was all I could think about throughout the entirety of her story.

What it's instead "replaced" by in this instance is bullying from a toxic group of mean girls esque "friends". I put replaced in quotes because they are clearly what the emphasis is placed on in lieu of an explicitly bad home life, but I'm not sure I'd call them a one to one replacement. (I put friends in quotes, because...well.)

To be more specific, I'm not sure they're a replacement at all. I think what they are is more a suggestion of deeper issues Natsuki has.

I think Natsuki's behavior and overall attitude when talking about her other friends is very telling with regards to how she views relationships in general. Her immediate knee-jerk reaction whenever anyone says anything negative about them is to, in the first place, minimize anything they did or said as "just playing around", or "making fun of something stupid". Her next response is to immediately place the blame on herself for being so sensitive.

The way she immediately seeks to dismiss and push off any attempts to address any issues with how her friends treat her is heart-wrenching, and constantly blaming herself for responding poorly is doubly so. I think it's also behavior we'd commonly expect of people undergoing abuse, and I'll be frank in saying that I think that her relationship with these people isn't just toxic, it's outright emotionally abusive.

But being in one destructive relationship doesn't necessarily mean she's in another, does it? What is it about this entire situation in particular that leads me to believe there's something deeper here?

It's maybe a little bit of a stretch, but follow me here.

I think Natsuki demonstrates that she is attached to these people, despite their actions toward her. Her immediate defense of their actions, the particular way she chooses to defend them, and her intense fear to even the prospect of cutting them off tell me she doesn't want to let them go. Even further, I'd say her immediate response being to defend them when others attack them is multifaceted, and I think that one of those facets is that someone pointing out how her friends shouldn't treat her that way is probably giving voice to a feeling Natsuki herself has. I think one of the reasons she's so quick to defend them is in order to suppress her own urge to say something.

But why is she so hesitant to say something in the first place?

She doesn't want them to leave her.

This is something which, on the surface, might sound a little strange, but I think more than anything else, greater than any fear of the abuse she might endure at the hands of these heartless weirdos, is a crippling fear of being alone.

There are various things I think underline this trait, big and small (I mean, she outright brings it up when she talks about cutting them off), but I think her entire attitude regarding her friends is representative of someone who desperately wants attention from someone, anyone, whether positive or not. The reason she places all of the blame on herself and defends all of their actions is because she thinks if she brings it up at all, they won't want to hang out with her anymore. She's the problem, because she can't bring herself to put up with it, but she doesn't want them to leave her.

And I think that this, in conjunction with a lot of other elements to her personality, indicate that Natsuki likely doesn't have a very kind home life, either.

I think the biggest thing that illustrates this to me is her sheer willingness to treat the entire situation as normal. To everybody else looking at Natsuki's situation from the outside, particularly as she describes and defends a variety of their actions, it's blatantly obvious what's happening, and Natsuki finds herself confused not only over how other people respond, but how she herself feels.

The amount of time she spends excusing the emotional torment they put her through, and her constant insistence that this is normal, and that she's perfectly fine, she just needs to grow a thicker skin, demonstrate to me that Natsuki doesn't really have a good concept of what "normal" is. I don't think this is all just a conscious denial of reality; I think she genuinely has trouble understanding what's wrong with the situation, beyond that they're acting mean towards her.

"It's just the way things are!"

"I'm the only one who ever has a problem with it."

I think her ready ability to normalize this kind of abuse speaks volumes to how she views relationships in general. I think this is indicative that she doesn't have many good models for what a "normal", healthy relationship would be.

I think that a lot of Natsuki's broader personality, particularly in how she responds to the situation with her friends, and Monika and Sayori's attempts to connect with her, is a pretty fair indication that she doesn't really have a good space outside of her interactions with people at school.

I'm, rather ironically, finding it increasingly difficult to really express everything which showcases it to me in a way which all fits together nicely, but I think if nothing else, that's the point I really want to drive home. It really seems to me based on the way that Natsuki acts that at the very least, she doesn't have a good, safe space at home.

If she did, she would have a much better point of reference for all of this, and I don't think she would be so quick to trap herself in this situation. I think that a big reason she turns to the Literature Club and is so insistent on trying to be friends with everybody in it, despite herself, despite all of the problems and conflicts they have, is because she's desperately searching for a safe place where she can just be herself.

I think she constantly feels like she needs to be on the defensive--in my opinion, a big part of why she finds it so hard to just be nice, outside of something simple like baking for other people, is because her only experience is other people being mean to her, and needing to make a biting comment back. I think that's also why it's so difficult for her to accept others being kind to her: She is so used to just shutting out other people and ignoring them because they're mean to her, that when someone is nice to her, despite her desire to accept it and return it in kind, she instinctively snaps at it, because if she lets anyone in, if she shows any sign of vulnerability, someone will hurt her. Maybe she'll have to admit that the other things people said hurt her, too.

It's like a feral kitten instinctively clawing and biting at the hand of someone just trying to pet it. It's so unusual to them that someone could touch them for any reason other than to hurt them that they feel the need to strike first, until they eventually realize there's nothing to be afraid of.

I think that all of this, in conjunction with how everything else in the Side Stories is presented in reference to the original game, suggest that Natsuki likely doesn't have a very good situation at home.

I think it's vitally important to acknowledge that most people's perception of Natsuki's home life, if it's at all fleshed out, is based on fanon, not canon, similarly to how this whole analysis is really just fan theorizing, and not necessarily 100% accurate. While there are certainly some things explicitly said in the main game, we don't know all of the particulars which go into her home life, and I think this is another example of intentional gaps left by canon that I talked about in my blurb on the Protagonist.

In this case, from what we're able to glean about Natsuki's home, her father is the main parental figure in her life (At the very least, there is no mention of her mother {to my knowledge, it's been a while since I played it}), and from Act 1, he's implied to be extremely strict. Details here are actually one of the reasons I assume this to be correct, because explicitly, Natsuki keeps her manga collection in the clubroom because she doesn't want her dad to find it. In Act 2, this is pushed even further, which is where we get a certain famous line about him physically abusing her, but of course, it's more likely that this is Monika's doing.

I think it's virtually impossible to get an actual understanding of Natsuki's home situation in the Side Stories, because...well, they don't bring it up, but I think it's safe to say that there is reason to believe it's not good. I think it isn't as bad as it is in Act 2, but judging by how things play out in Natsuki's story across the Side Stories...well, let's just say I'm glad she has the Literature Club.

I think excluding any mention of this is probably intentional too, and not because it's an intentional gap being left. I think it would be incredibly out of character based on what we've seen of Natsuki here for her to bring it up at all, both because of her warped sense of normal, and because she wouldn't want everybody around her worrying about it.

This is a subject for fanfiction, I think. Is that foreshadowing? Who knows.

#cw: abuse #i think i should've spent more time emphasizing how Yuri and Natsuki are reflections of each other like how Monika and Sayori are #but i just really wanted to talk about this #when I say 'this is all i could think about' i meant it #my biggest initial thought watching them was 'natsuki's ability to so easily justify this abuse makes me think it's not her first time'#the impressions i get here are fucking BLEAK #i don't necessarily think i'm an expert on this or on abuse so i guess i'm open to further discussion of this #but i just got the vibes yknow?#doki doki literature club #ddlc #musings #ddlc natsuki

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yourtipsygrandma · 1 year

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I have recently started working at a law firm that deals with 99% car accidents and here’s what I’ve learned:

1. Since Covid, car accidents deaths have skyrocketed, particularly accidents with a DUI. It’s nice we can pretend to go out without consequence. Don’t be stupid. Also, wear a mask.

2. Left turns cause over 50% of accidents. If you’re taking a left turn, triple check there isn’t someone who has the right of way.

3. If you get in a car accident and you feel like you have been injured or a prior injury has gotten worse, DO NOT TELL YOUR PROVIDER ANYTHING OTHER THAN “[body part] hurts”. Do not speculate. Do not say “well maybe it was (insert silly movement like turning wrong here)”. They write that down and then it gets listed as a ‘chief complaint’ in your records. The lawyers see it, but so do the insurance companies. Be as vague as possible, unless you know whatever chronic pain you’ve been dealing with has gotten exponentially worse.

4. Once a lawyer’s involved medical providers will reduce their bills to PENNIES and thus you should always request itemized bills & dispute them if necessary

#this has been my ted talk #law firm #I’ve got a new job and I love it #except all the super bleak #americas the worst #and non-universal healthcare will kill this country #constant vibes #covid19 #be careful what you say #anything you say can and will be used against you

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