#its too important to me i cant let it GO!!!!

[haunted-xander]

So. Fatebreaker, right? Ryne's biggest fears made manifest, daddy issues personified, yes?

He's an amalgamation of Thancred and Ran'jit, his face, his voice and his weapon is Thancred's, but his body, his fighting style and his words are Ran'jit's.

Throughout the fight Fatebreaker constantly makes comments about how only he can protect Ryne, only he can provide for her, only he has even the right to so much as stand beside her, to be in her general presence. He's possessive and obsessive, repeatedly asserting that she is HIS and his only. Which is exactly what Ran'jit says basically every time we encounter him.

But this time it's in Thancred's voice. This time it's with the voice and face of a man she actually cares about.

Ryne isn't scared of Thancred, she never has been. Even when she first met him she was barely even nervous (as clearly shown in Thancred's short story). There's a lot of different feelings happening between those two, but fear has never been one of them.

But now, after things have gotten so much better, she is scared of Thancred becoming like Ran'jit. Because if Thancred was just a little further gone, if he was just a little less compassionate, he would've. It wouldn't be hard for him to go down the same path as Ran'jit did, to be incapable of letting go of the ghost of that girl he loved so so much to the point he'd stubbornly grip anything close to her he could. He didn't, but the fact he could've is terrifying.

It makes his final words, words that are Thancred's, so very important. This is her deepest fears made manifest, but he still says he wants her to be happy. Her happiness not only matters, but is important to him.

#Now we -the audience- ofc knew Thancred was unlikely to go down that path #bc if theres one thing hes been consistent in even in his darkest moments its living up to his loved ones' wishes and legacies #the only time he even speaks against it is his conversation w minfilia in amh araeng #and thats more a case of all his (poorly) repressed grief and stress exploding than him actually meaning what he says #and trying to control rynes life after minfilia literally told him to just let her live her life goes directly against that #i think about fatebreaker a lot. as i do all things related to ryne & thancred #and to me its so important to note that hes more or less ran'jit with just enough thancred in him to be *too* thancred for comfort #its so. her greatest fear isnt even the thing thats been haunting her her whole life (being forced to fill in for minfilia) #its having her free will taken from her by the person she cares about the most (thancred) #and for him to be trapped in endless suffering because he cant move on #just like ran'jit did and was #its not even necessarily that shes all that scared of ran'jit himself #what shes scared about is caring about someone like that #because then she wont say no or try to be anyone but minfilia #(thats also why this fear appears specifically after things get better) #(because she was already ready to forsake herself if it eased thancred suffering) #okay im gonna stop now i need to sleep gnight everyone #ryne waters #thancred waters #ran'jit #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #at this point i should make a tag for ryne ramble posts i make so many of them #tomorrow. maybe. if i remember #edit: i made it #xander being insane about ryne

[luck-of-the-drawings]

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saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[angellurgy]

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#AAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCKFUCKFUCK #CONDTANT UNENDING SILENT SCREAMING #NO WORDS BUT FORCED TO UNDERSTAND STILL UNESCAPABLE I CANT I CANT I CANT #ill never be anything ill never be anything ill never be anything at all to any of you #too fucking tired to go out of the house for so long no way to stop being tired its all wearing down on me like a fucking curse. too much #CANT CANT CANT take 10 more days of this waiting itll just go back to normal after #TRIED TO LIVE BUT WHAT IS THE POINT WHAT IS THERE EVEN FOR ME NO LOVE NO CARE NO IMPORTANCE NO PLACE #FADING MEMORY REMNANTS OF MY SOUL DRIPPING OUT OF MY HEAD LIKE A GUTTER. NO ONE WILL REMEMBER. EVEN I CANT. #AAAAAAAAAAA rotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrot wish i just had a fucking dad to hold me wish i had a brother to show me the loving care noone will #please. llease. please. nothing left nothing left everyone wants me less with every single post but icant stop #cooped up inside. tumblrs knly good when you have a life outside of it. i cant fight it tho bc of this fucking EXHAUSTION #caused by the emotional pain and exclusion. eternal loop. let me.out #NOT LIKE IT MATTERS TO ANYONE BUT THE FEW WHO CANT HELP. THE FEW WHO CANT MAKE MY SITUATION BETTER. I JUST WANT A GROUP. #I KNOW COMMUNITY ISNT REAL BUT I FUCKING WANT SOMETHING. PLEASE #LET ME OUT. GIVE ME LIFE. INSTEAD OF THIS CONSTANT FUCKING VOID GROWING BLACK MOLD ON THE CREVICES OF MY SKULL #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nothing is giving me life right now i want sometbing i cant create anything i dont wanna die but i have no choice #FIGHT THROUGH THE TIREDNESS WALK INTO THE FOREST IN THE NIGHT AND ROT. #SLIT MY WRISTS EVEN THOUGH IT WONT DO SHIT. LAY ON A BLANKET AND LET THE COLD TAKE ME #WOULDNT BE THE FIRST TIME IVE BEEN CLOSE TO IT. LEAST I CAN GO ALL THE WAY. GOD WHY DO I TRY. I WANT TO TRY. I HAVE NOTHING TO TRY FOR. #NO OTHER CHOICE.

[princekirijo]

Something I didn't really notice until replaying Royal but Ryuji really doesn't let the past hold him down? Like in the rank 2 scene he tells Akira that he doesn't want to focus on his past and he's more focused about the future.

I think that's kinda neat tbh he doesn't wanna let the stuff with Kamoshida or his dad drag him down, he just wants to keep going forward.

#not gonna main tag this lol #it's interesting idk i never noticed this before #look ill be honest with you all im specifically thinking about this in context for my au #i think the contrast between dont let the past hold me back ryuji #vs i will never escape my past and i cant bear the future riku is fascinating #ive been thinking a LOT about their friendship lately i wont lie #i think they could really balance each other out well #riku would just listen to ryuji talk about his struggles with his past if he needed it #and ryuji helps riku let go of a lot of his burdens regarding his and the groups past #riku is running away from the future ryuji is running towards it do you see my parallels #or is this me going “ive connected two dots. you havent connected shit. they're connected” or however that meme goes #idk i just think they would make great friends :'] #it would make sense too considering captain arcana is the chariot equivalent of its deck lol so there's bound to be parallels #captain au #<- might as well tag it lol #idk if any of this makes like sense #because im refreshing a lot of what i remember from p5 with this playthrough #but i think ryuji's drive to keep moving forward is really cool and fits well with his arcana!! #ANYWAY DO Y'ALL GET WHAT IM SAYING ABOUR RYUJI jesus i feel like im tripping over my thoughts #but riku/ryuji (platonic mostly but romantic works maybe) is important to me.... #hope my ramblings make sense to someone<3 live laugh love <3

[craycraybluejay]

Codependency is underrated

#and kinda overrated also #bc when the ppl i love do anything my brain is like 'u dont matter to them' #i always talk ab how jealousy is not hot but im genuinely so full of envy and jealousy #like WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO THEM they talked shit to you about me ARE THEY STILL WHISPERING IN YOUR EAR #i get so mad! #its not FAIR that when i meddle in other ppls affairs im obliterated over it and cut off #but then when someone else meddles in MY relationships that person is forgiven and im expected to forgive them too? #no! #cut them off like you'd cut me off if i ever pulled that shit! #its not fair its a double standard #'its not going to happen again' i dont care they should actually just be dead but im willing to compromise #even compromise isnt enough for ppl they want to break ur heart and know u will let them #its an UNBALANCED codependency bc i know i would get rid of someone if that person asked me to instantly #i would especially never try to defend someone they dont like for good reason to them. wtf. #i just feel like such a doormat bc im always loyal and other ppl just arent #cant u see this person doesnt care ab u!! theyre using u for their image! theyre a parasite! why are they more important! #vent post #vent in tags #delete later

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#let me express to u perhaps The frustration of my life #i like to learn. it is perhaps my favorite thing. new information. more more more constantly #but. my fucking brain is the fucking worst. because im not fucking stupid if i can focus and process the words being said i can understand #many things. i like to learn about math and physics and chemistry and biology and anatomy... ect concepts #but the focus and the processing of words is where we have problems. because i cannot focus for more than like 5min #i blink and suddenly ive been spaced out for a sec and need to reorient. i cant prioritize what to do 1st and im constantly bouncing betwee #tasks so nothing ever gets done and im too intimidated to start learning things. and when im trying to learn we habe the processing words #problem. like my reading comprehension is so fucking bad. like i will read a book on paper and maybe retain 25% of the info if im not #hardcore trying. for a class where i had to do a ton of paper reading. i had to read everything out loud to myself. highlight important #info. write myself a summary based on the highlights and then read the paper again before i could even begin to feel comfortable in #discussions. it was so fucking frustrating and miserable. ppl will give me physical books and im like thanks i cant fucking read sorry #too fucking dyslexic. read and listen they say. u have to read and listen at the same time bc i cant pay attention and i cant read #so if i do both then maybe the info gets in. thats y i have to read aloud but i hate it and still get distracted #i mean. i probably just have an attention problem. its also really annoying that my short term working memory is so awful #bc in order to make things make sense i have to draw or write them out. i cant judt go off the top of my head or i get stuck saying thr sam #thing over and over and over. its like my ability to think is extremely shallow. but thrn i read papers and recognize concepts from classes #i took years ago and im like. fucking y cant i know what i know? my head feels so empty but info is in there somewhere #its just so fucking frustrating that i love understanding systems so much. complex annoying little systems that fit together like a puzzle #and my fucking brain refuses to accept the information im trying to get in there. so i return to a remark left on my dyslexia assignment: #intelligent when not constrained by language or time. thanks. unfortunately language is how ppl communicate #also i freak out under time pressure lol. anyway ive just been reading papers for fun this weekend and remembering y i dont: bc its agony #but also i fucking love the concepts so much and i need a good understanding of photosynthesis before August when i join a photosynthesis #lab lmao. ugh. i love learning but my brain was not buildmt #built for it. if only if only someone could podcast about the obscure things im interested in while reading directly from the source #unrelated #also its like 105 degrees plus. its too fucking hot out #thats like 40 degrees C. the sun is like a death ray

[todayisafridaynight]

STOP I OVERPLAYED ODE TO JOY WHILE LEARNING PIANO 😭😭😭😭😭

However! I am happy to share and am so glad you see the vision. Sorry In Advance to you and all your followers for the spam but here is a (mostly corrupted) office tour (please note the "Mine Power"-brand gym equipment):

P.S. I recall really liking The Wings of the Kirin, please enjoy!

EVERYONE OVERPLAYED ODE TO JOY GROWING UP IT CAME WITH YOUR PARENTS FORCING YOU TO LEARN THE PIANO LERKJALEKJ

BUT OH MY GOD NO DON'T APOLOGIZE THIS IS LITERALLY PERFECT I thank you again for my life this is so important to me you have no idea

#fave #snap chats #'parents' more like my mom. #BUT YEAH I PLAYED ODE TO JOY ALL THE TIME GROWING UP TOO ITS WHY I HAD A STROKE AT THE END OF Y7 VLKALVJLK #getting the sims just to make mines apartment brb. fr tho why the fuck dont i have the sims thats Architecture Simulator #but more importantly i have a sick obsession with having the layout to buildings #i havent posted any of them but i have a bunch of sketches of various rooms/buildings in the RGG series #i dont imagine many people would want to see those so thats why i have them hoarded #obvi i ref them when drawing stuff but theyre also just fun to draw.... #THIS type of stuff is BEYOND valuable to me tho this is my crack. my cocaine even. i live for shit like this #my dad used to be involved with architecture and real estate so i'm gonna blame him for that #BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY im saving all of these theyre so so so important to me i cant thank you enough #im sure others will greatly appreciate these as well #even if it's a bit 'corrupted' i can definitely DEFINITELY salvage these #im going to laugh if he has his own gym equipment brand. is that what his company's done this entire time #was his 'research' just gettin fuckin yolked Cant Believe This #i wonder if mine has a bedroom somewhere though i cant imagine it being in the same room as the piano. unless rich people do that. #theres just so much dead space in that area aside from the piano and it looks like to be a pretty sizeable room.. PURELY just The Piano Roo #like its fuckin luigis mansion over here. not impossible i guess. very strange thing to have. esp if its connected to the GYM #its not even in connected to the main part of the office where you can realistically be like 'lets go into the next room for piano' #you gotta cut through the gym first bro what the fuck is this #but what are those closet-esque bits behind the piano? unless im blind. what purpose would you have to put a closet in a piano room #if its sheet music you keep that under the chair or something #even through the mesh it still looks like those lead to a skinny hallway... idk im rambling #ill study these more in depth later BUT THANK YOU AGAIN #OH BUT i'm about halfway through the movie so far and im def enjoyin it ! #i always like it in crime shows/movies where the answer seems Obvious at first but then as the case goes on its like #Oh God Wait. Hold On Let's Double Check #again i'm halfway through the movie but i always love it when i feel uncertain about the situation ☠️☠️ #it's just fun watching all the pieces come together so yeah im def enjoyin !

[flamboyant-king]

I’ve been hearing different kinds of art advice and I’m torn on them.

Should you go through and finish something even though it doesn’t look good and is flawed in many ways OR scrap the piece and do it a different way/abandon the idea altogether?

#im a person who doesnt want to waste resources. If im unsure of the outcome then i dont do it #i dont know how to sew or bake because i dont want to waste fabric or ingredients on a fuck up #but i want to have fun DOING SOMETHING. Like haha baking cupcakes would be fun haha oh no its burnt #i havent gone through with ANY STORY IDEA ive had because i dont know how it willbegin all the way to the end #and im hearing advice like make that shitty make that shitty game but i cant bring myself to even start it #like i CANT make things without a purpose. If i dont have the finished product in mind #im too afraid to mess up im too afraid to fail #but like doing nothing is worse than failing no? #the other advice i saw was just leaving things as sketches. Not everything needs to be finished and not everything needs to be seen #and thats another issue i have. Not only will i not do things unless i know the productis good #i wont show you guys anything unless its appealing. And combining those two..li just dont make anything anymore #like…i cant take either advice because of how embarassed ashamed and afraid of failure i am #i want to let loose. I want to be free. I want to create nonsense from the heart rather than thinking everything through and through #every meticulous detail. Every sketch upon sketch upon sketchto deliver on something no one will see #i get that. I get that im not hot shit. Im not big or important. I have nothing left to bring to the table and #i guess knowing that stops me from doing anything because i think that the only thing im allowed/forced to do is make things worthy #i dont display my art in my room anymore. I dont doodle random things anymore. I open commissions because my drawings need a purpose #and thats stupid because im nobody. I have no purpose. My purpose is just to enjoy life. And being like THIS isnt enjoying life #its not even drawing its just anything. Socializing being with friends or family. Watching movies or playing games #i cant enjoy myself. Because i dont know how its going to GO. Thats not living. Life isnt fucking planned. Its spontaneous #but i cant DO that. And I dont know how to fix it. #but thats enough about me. What advice to you go by? Just going with it or redoing it?

[bumbleblurr]

I gotta hold myself accountable to when I'm making content that's not really based on canon at all, so I remain self aware & whatnot, but I still occasionally think things like "but blurr should be arcee's number one fan 🥺.... bc i said so........"

#🐝 could you repeat the last part? 🟦 #i make a good effort to stay self aware bc i dont want to lost in fanon delusion. i cant let that happen to me #also it would be hypocritical of me to go ''i dislike this fanon it has no basis in canon'' #when i also like making up shit if it's interesting #so i make it clear that im just picky abt hcs and stuff like that #for me to enjoy them they gotta contribute something interesting to the source material but not come out of left field #and i dont rlly care for edgy stuff if it doesnt rlly serve much purpose #so i dont rlly care for hcs like ''bee is ACTUALLY megatrons great nephew once removed !!!!!!!!!!!!'' #they do nothing for me i just go ''man i dont care'' and turn around #like thats just personal taste though and im a notoriously particular & picky person so. who cares what i think u get what i mean #though u should care abt arcee fanboy blurr bc its good and awesome alright /hj #IT THINK ITS FUN AND CONTRIBUTES AN INTERESTING TAKE ON CANON ... #bc blurr admiring arcee 1) makes sense bc arcee is genuinely a badass & literally worked in the same division he does #2) brings more focus to the parallel between them about how they got seriously injured in ways that impact their most notable qualities #(arcee having her memories wiped when her mind is one of her most important qualities as a school teacher & intel agent) #(blurr having his body damaged & handicapped when speed achieved by his physical athletic ability is a defining part of his character) #3) solidarity in that trauma baby. and arcee can be blurr's gramama (applause amazing brilliant we love to see it) #and also who doesnt love to see blurr having girlbosses idols. arcee inspires him to be a girlboss too #see this is how ridiculous i am i have to have these detailed thoughts abt hcs i cant just go stupid #no i cant change this about myself btw #i am pretentious at heart i have to be like this with media i enjoy #but still i always try to indicate that i am aware that my hcs are just fan interpretations of stuff so i dont like #accidentally come off as me forcing my ideas of canon onto other ppl like. this is just my lego city that im building i know of my bullshit #though i still do draw deep lines for things like . blurr being social (shudders)

[perenlop]

oh also we watched the mlp g5 movie yesterday and i really liked it tbh ^^ it was very cute and vibrant and all the character designs were pleasing (in fact i really prefer looking at these characters in cgi), and izzy was my favorite, tbh i kinda just love every character kimiko glenn voices

#racism metaphor was very clunky and i cant really say too much on it but like i didnt have much hope that it wouldnt be clunky #so i just focused on the characters and yeah i think theyre all really good ^^ #but like. we talked abt this a lot but man i REALLY wish this wasnt in the g4 continuity #not just bc it doesnt make sense but bc conceptually it feels like such an insecure decision #like this world wasnt good enough to warrant being its own thing. it had to be a continuation #even tho the lore and such is clearly different from g4. like i feel like they wanted to make it standalone like the other series #but they panicked and thought ppl wouldnt care if twilight wasnt there. but i feel like all it does is hinder both series #bc no one wanted this to be where g4 ended up and it keeps g5 from doing its own thing bc it has to connect to g4 #like im not opposed to the wind creatures (not saying their name) not showing up bc they suck in the first place #but writing wise its weird to not even mention them at all when it was important to the worldbuilding #did the ponies just love being racist that much that they killed the wind creatures?? #if it was me and i HAD to make it the same continuity id probably have put this in the past instead of the future #but then we couldnt have ponies on phones ig #or epic g4 references #im gonna try out the show but im like hmmmm bc lex said the show was a lot worse abt this #i swear the movie itself was good and i liked it! but i can see easily see the lost potential #and how g4 is going to keep holding it back and refusing to let it be its own thing #echoed voice

[chaos-coming]

Ugh my family here is so unreliable

#theyre all the literal biggest flakes #and allergic to communication #let me just not tell you about these important documents you need to register until after youre in trouble with the govt #and lets not give you the letter until the very day before you leave for vacation sp you get 8 business hours to collect signatures #and get an appointment with the govt office #even though we all knew this was A Thing because we did it for your sister 2 years ago. but just decided you dodnt need to know #thanks guys i cant rely on yall for anything #now i wont have time to go to work and get a haircut and do all my packing/shopping tomorrow #because i have to spend the whole day doing got bs that could have been entirely avoided if anybody had told me this document #fucking exists #this so frustrsting and its like the 8th time theyvd done something like this to mr #the people in this country are too coddled they dont know the concept of proactive action #just wait till youre on fire before telling you they had flame resistant clothes you could have been wearing this whole time

[be-good-to-bugs]

crying shouldnt cause headaches, thats just cruel honestly.

#the bin #i went through to figure out costs more and im most likely not gonna be abek to bring almost any of my belongings #i can probably manage to at least bring my pets. my sisters boyfriends cat cant tow and it doesnt have a lot of space in it so im not gonna #have much room for anything at all. i guess maybe its a good thing my sister wont be coming then :/ #honestly. im not actually THAT upset. he seems fairly chill and respectful of my boundaries. moreso than my fuckin sister is. not that thats #hard to accomplish. if i set a boundry with her she will most likely break it repeatedly and then also refuse to apologize #im still uncomfortable with it but not much more than i was with going with her anyway. i van just keep earbuds in the whole time probably #im really upset that ill have to leave my stuff here though. with her. i hate that. and im also probably not gonna have a bed when i move #and ill be sleeping on the concrete basement floor so uh. that sucks. a lot. my aunt probably has an air mattress i casn borror for a bit #im also probably gonna see if i can convince my sister to let me take one of her beta fish and the one tank she has for it. its a small tank #so i could easily bring it. its too smalm for the poor thing but its gonna be in that if it comes with me or her so. and i wanna get it #something better. ive become pretty attached to it after taking care of it for the past 4 months. ugh the fact she just ditched me with her #fish pissed me off so much too. not to mention the snakes were supposed to be a shared pet but she just stopped dling anything ever and it #became exclusively my responsibility to care for them and pay for all their stuff. she should not have pets of any kinda #im trying blt to be really upset. i can hopefully bring my most important belongings at least. his car isnt THAT small. and then ill only #need to pay for the gas and thats it and i can definitely afford that. hhhh. ill figure it out. i hate this :/ #my head hurts so bad from having a 2 hour long meltdown. im so upset over our whole relationship and everything #she just keeps doing selfish things over and over again and treating me like an idiot for not knowing things she didnt tell me #specifically treating me like im stupid for not knowing she isnt gonna be able do what she specifically told me she could #im im so mad at her for the ditching me and the repeatedly taking advantage of me specifically for money and fucking me over #wnd everything before that. our whole relationship. im seo stressed abt this. i have nobody now. #i hate her so much. im glad i can clearly see how abusive things have always been bug it doenst make it sting any less #and it doenst helo the fact she continues this behavior now too

[floorpancakes]

got my latest haul of japan purchases!!!! 🏵️🏵️🏵️

a crate of my beloved jagabata jagarico, chocomint ice miku, an akb48 live DVD set and photobook, 1970s rare fashion and uranai illustration books, my Emily Temple Cute baguette stripe jsk and finally usans merch aaaa

#i am a yu3 stan before i am a human being #the books also seem to be from ok condition from the outside too!!! #hopefully they survived 1970s child doodling in page urges #fingers crossed #the miku figure was rly cheap and easily available cause sweetsweets is a crane series #but i needed a good opportunity to get it combined w stuff due to irregular size #same with the jagarico #jagarico is my favourite savoury snack and ive never seen it imported to the uk in my LIFE it drives me crazy #theyre ideal and easy to import but i only get them irregularly cause of how annoying and expensive shipping is with large boxes #its best financially to spread them among big boxes w multiple items #but im so glad i have them now... #Ultimate Comfort Food #the lightstick is so glittery and beautiful #the ureis on the back are ADORABLE #and its cute how the font artist has been their favourite for years #the jsk was super cheap but its from one of my favourite emily series #their sizes up until recently were rly small but ive been prioritising casually getting shirred items that r easy wear #let me brag for a second MY TASTE IS SO COOL AND GOOD RIGHT???? IM A FUN LITTLE GUY!!! #I have collected so many cool items i just cant open or use rn which sucks #but its going to feel like 5+ yrs of Christmas when i can get better and move out and do fun things again #i hope i make it to that happy future #where i can be THE COOLEST MOST TRENDSETTING GUY EVER OF ALL TIME #haul #u san #lolita #hatsune miku #showa retro

[todayisafridaynight]

love all the real as fuck takes we're having today... snap and anons you're all great o7

also i can't not make a joke about this. "to understand and appreciate minedai you need to know nuance" you're asking wayy too much for the average rgg fan </3

I KNOW I AM THATS THE PROBLEM RAAAAAAAHHHH IT'S TRUE THOUGH AND I'M FORCING MATES BACK INTO A HIGH SCHOOL LITERARY CLASS this is no longer a funny game about shirtless men beating the shit out of each other. i am forcing people to understand subtext AND AT THIS POINT just ACTUAL TEXT before infinite wealth comes out lest i explode

#snap chats #you bet on your goddamn life this is a The Curtains Are Blue Because household #you're all going to read the great gatsby and write me a report on the importance of color i want your papers on my desk come monday #thats a simple enough assignment thats start in the right direction im goign to throw up #i cant find a perfect medium of fanbase lke #db fans havent read or even watched the show. kh fans read TOO much into everything #rgg fans just. just so yaoipilled thats it that's the best way i can describe it my main grievances boil down to That #jojo fans are the only ones that havent let me down........ thats so fucked up for me to say.... #but yeah.. its been a while since we've had a Real Talk day.. i kinda miss it... #it's a nice way to remind /myself/ of things that happen and characters and the sort #gotta make sure i still know what im talkin bout yk LMAO gotta keep MYSELF in check