#ive said that many times though

[cherishsscene]

"I absolutely LOVE BEASTARS!"

The reasons:

50% The incredible and impactful twists in the series with a relatable and dynamic cast of characters that make the series feel unique

The other 50% Lougosi, just lougosi

#beastars #legosi beastars #legosi #louis beastars #jack beastars #juno beastars #haru beastars #gosha beastars #yafya #ibuki beastars #lougosi #legoharu #thank you paru for blessing me with this #i love beastars so much dude #lougosi has my heart #i think i love them more than i love myself #ive said that many times though

[tubbytarchia]

gg buddy am I right (ethubs doodle that I don't know what to do with)

#ethubs #Ive wanted to draw ethubs angst for so many days but art block is still hitting hard and this thing has been sitting around for awhile #hey ethubers how did you. survive #last life ethubs upsets me so much make it end #The way after Bdubs dies Etho is trying to justify to himself not having given him a life to begin with rather than #telling him to prove himself #its like he expects the others who are with him to comment on it but they dont. Etho's all "I couldn't have just given it to him you know.. #without them asking about it or anything. And Etho just keeps going. god damn it Etho I feel so bad for them #dont even get me started on what Bdubs said to G about Etho grrrr GRRRR I saw that for the first time not long ago GRRRRRR #I still wanna draw proper ethubs though. someday #also the damage to Bdubs' face is supposed to be from the rocket Lizzie shot #does it make sense? No probably not but its an excuse to make him look more dead #tubby art

[jenna-louise-jamie]

oh my god. a detail i just noticed trying to search for screen grabs during episode 8 season 2 of alex rider: yassen, after shooting damian cray, his right hand was trembling as he was holding the gun up because he'd just been shot. he offers up the gun to alex. alex takes it, points it at back at yassen, but his hand is also trembling. not as noticeable at first but as soon as yassen starts explaining alex's hand shakes as bad as yassen's did and he throws the gun down, then gets on the floor to try and help yassen.

#oh my god i need to rewatch the whole show i said i would but ive been so busy 😭 #theres probably so many details i missed the first time around cause i wasnt familiar with the story!!! #and i was watching it for fun #i need to rewatch now like immediately #i dont know why this struck me as much as it did #possibly because it reminds me of the book when alex couldn't bring himself to shoot yassen even though he killed ian rider and alex #promised he would do it? #but he couldn't #aughh its not even that big of a deal but wow!! these two are something else #alex rider #yassen gregorovich #alex rider tv

[forestgreenlesbian]

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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad #we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic #was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though #it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything #also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't #tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer #both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first #time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been #making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said #i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly #implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me #bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication #we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked #& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol #which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't #even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around #a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins #literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww #am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely #concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know

[kafkaguy]

character wrapped 2023 💥

tagged by @davidtennantpussytulpa ^-^ i didn't know how many to do so i copied tara and did top 10. i know the severance guys are Four Of Them but i can't separate them theyre all equally important to me

will graham (hannibal), em haywood (nope), aziraphale (good omens), mark & dylan & helly & irving (severance), hawkeye pierce (mash), martha jones (doctor who), ivan karamazov (the brothers karamazov), kim kitsuragi (disco elysium), stewy hosseini (succession), ruescott melshi (andor/rogue one)

i will tag... @fagician @britomart @libraryfag @roadwhores @majorbaby @globuspolski @hadleyfraserfaggot @tenderscience if u want to ^-^

#and now i will explain them all in detail #cos i started watching hannibal back in like. january or february and will immediately set up camp in my head and started to settle there #*I* pay rent to *HIM*. he lives there permanently. sweating and monologuing constantly #em was not only the character of 2022 but also of 2023 and of 2024 and the rest of the decade and all decades to come #she had such an impact on me keke palmer's performance will live with me forever and i love nope so fucking much #i almost didnt include her because nope was more of a last year obsession. but she lives on #aziraphale.........no comment #severance.......i love them all so much and at first i wanted just irving and then just helly and then i realise i cried over mark this week #and then i realised i couldnt possibly leave out dylan when hes probably my favourite character. so then i settled for all of them #hawkeye is my fucking wife. enough said #martha... well i knew i had to have a doctor who character. i thought maybe the doctor but then i thought their companions mean more to me #sometimes at least. i did have a fourteen icon for a while but then i was like but Donna..... and then i thought. well #these past few months at least martha jones has been eating away at my heart. i go batshit insane when i think about her #her impact. her grace. her power. so she had to go on the list.it was a toss up between her and donna for sure though #then i figured i had to include a karamazov since reading that book took up half of my year. and ivan was my favourite of the 3. so <3 #kim goes without saying. literally nothing to be said hes the character Of All Time. to me #stewy also goes without saying ive had so many Stewy Save Me moments since the beginning of season 4 all the way to the end of the year #i miss him every day. he is the moment. i wish there was more of him all the time #and the last one is a bit of a wildcard cos all my insanity abt melshi has been on my andor sideblog. #but rest assured ive been thoroughly Not Normal about him. he literally side appears in 4 episodes and has 11 total minutes onscreen #but i love him. so much. and hes occupied most of my thoughts since september. once again his impact his power his grace. his homosexuality #enough said. that's all. thanks for reading. this was a great year for autism and madness #tag game #🍪

[noecoded]

If you could have any Asmo/reader fic what would be the things you would want from it? like an ideal fic would contain what tropes or AUS or situations or whatever

uhmm anything wellwritten that characterizes asmo similar to the way i do ! i rlly like character exploration , both more serious stuff & just sillycute...anything where asmo is a little cunning and toxic and also gets railed into oblivion.anything where hes a vampire. ill write a tag essay about the specifics

#xreaders are too unrelatable for me usually .. im aroace and the only relationship dynamics that r rlly interesting to me r likee #toxic or tumultuous...i think in many asmo fics hes just very one note or like not a complex love interest .which is fine because hes like #that in the game but i am especially drawn to fics where the author has their own kind of unique take on it. nuance. etc #it's really interesting to see situations in which asmo kind of reaps the consequences of shitty behavior or struggles with parts of himsel #f he doesnt like. not just in like ohhh im insecure sobsob but like deeprooted issues & patterns thought processes that come with being a d #demon that maybe clash with human morality or ideals...like what if he sees human lives as generally more disposable because hes lived for #so long?? what would a fic be like about him wanting a fling with a human that ends up taking apart their life but to him its just a fun #little romance without any real consequences or commitment?? even if he was obsessed w them professing his undying love etc etc he could ge #t bored and drop it anytime and outlive them by millions of years and forget...& how does a human love an entity like that? how could the r #relationship look anything close to normal ever...anyway i like fics that touch on questions like this theyre kind of rare though #this all being said i def dont think asmo is completely evil💭 nuance #at work so im literally just wasting time by thinking about this rn but this was like the asmotoni dynamic its too interesting to me #asmotoni is like this in my head but on papwr i just draw them fucking witj bunny ears sorry #this doesnt even answer ur question really. if i could write a fic rn it would be like 200k word emo band au that isnt xreader or a romance #fic it would just be asmo beel belphie as humans starting a band and their rise and fall etc ive been thinking abt that plot nonstop

[sonknuxadow]

ready to see fuck this post and happy birthday sonic on my dash 500 times tomorrow

#and also screenshots of the post that are edited to say sonic even though the original already said that ??? #idk why that always happens but ive been seeing people do that for the past couple years #every other fanbase on this entire website has stolen that post from us so many times that you all forgot what the original said i guess #< the part about people stealing the post wa sa joke. its literlaly just a post it doesnt matter

[hella1975]

this isn't meant to like. make you give your opinion on Discourse™️ or anything I just wanted to ask, but I keep seeing people upset about taylor dating mr. 1975 and I can't figure out if it's bc he's a terrible person or just a greasy alcoholic 😭😭😭 do you know what's up with that guy??? like on one hand I like not knowing things about celebs and I should keep it that way. but also

i, unfortunately, do know what's up with that guy and it's that he's said something problematic about every faction of society at least once. for me i have some weird, reluctant fondness for him because he is just a train wreck and he's such a twat all the time that at least it's nondiscriminating, and i also like that when he sings about mental illness it's bc he's actually BEEN THERE and been publicly a mess bc of it and been addicted to drugs and acted like a dick, and he ACKNOWLEDGES THAT, but also at no point am i gonna jump on the 'he's an amazing person' parade bc generally he is just a sleazy idiot. it is weird watching people suddenly dragging up every single thing he's ever said to be like 'look! this is why he's bad for our tay tay!' when the running joke with matty healy is that he's just a prick. like u dont need to expose his moral fibre. u can just say he's a prick. and also as funny as the jokes are she's still a grown woman who's been around the block a few times when it comes to dating. i think she will be okay maybe

#idk that's just what i think though. like he's been cancelled more times than he has songs and yet a lot of us are still here #and he acknowledges it like there's a running gag at his live shows where he goes to say a very explosive sentence and then he gets cut off #by the band with a random song it's so funny. like he'll go 'i just think that immigrants- *LOUD GUITAR*' & i think that's a part of it too #is that a lot of people don't get that sometimes he's being ironic? he takes it too far and these days he's annoying #but idk ive seen certain instances where im like. that went over so many people's heads #idk i just dont think he's Evil and Malicious i think he's just a prick. like people can just be pricks even if they're super famous. wild #he's so fucking pretentious but he got famous for being REAL and his music has helped a lot of people because of how real it was #like i made a post a while ago about his song 'give yourself a try' and how the concept of it is literally #'life is a little bit shit to be quite honest with you and you WILL get fucked over by it and fuck yourself over but you're here anyway #so you might as well give it a go' like???? so many mental health ballads are like 'the world is So Beautiful and So Are You' #but matty healy ALWAYS has gone actually it isnt and you arent. whatever though #and i just really like that #ask #also big disclaimer that i dont have an encyclopedic knowledge of all the dumb shit matty healy has said ive just been listening #to the band for a while and have picked shit up along the way. if it turns out he's done some actually reprehensible shit that ive missed #then that's literally bc i do not actively run in 1975 circles and do not intend to ever start <3 so dont yell at me LMAO

[munamania]

having a moment. it's like. something else to have someone be so genuine and openly interested and swoony im not um. very easily accustomed to this yk it's like cognitive dissonance unfortunately. as much as i want to be with it

#and im trying! #and ive communicated like an adult that i have some things i need to work on #but it's truly............. waugh. #also guys. um. big moment for me! something i am trying so hard to be chill about #had my first lil kiss. in a long time. and i was so nervous all day and there were so many moments where i meant to just go for it and ask #like one time i set myself up so perfectly it could have been cute. and i literally said. Give me one second im short circuiting. and #walked away into the kitchen. like when i say losergirl #um. yeah. i dropped that ball several times. AND when i so super casually suggested a lil gn kiss #i literally backed up cause they leaned in to the left and i was like Omg and they were once again so chill #like ok you kiss me however you want. i literally like. had to step back do a full 360 and then went for it #and got soooo nervous and jumpy that i stepped away after like one second with an Okay gn see you #not my hottest moment let's be real.... i guess everyone be so proud of me but like. Ugh. #im hoping and thinking they just found it endearing but i was so geeked and scared lmfao #overall though i cant complain or self obsess they were so sweet and silly and patient #abby talks

[srkgirlblogger]

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#the day was going so well until my mom decided to be mean to me for no reason in a piblic space where i was already feeling scared and over #stimulated. i wanted to try out the skateboards in decathlon but there were too many people and i got scared. and my mom suddenly said that #the skateboard that she was going to buy for me after/on my birthday. she had decided to buy now. since we were alr in theshop and i said no #way bec i hadnt decided which one i wanted yet and i was soo panicked. and then after some time when id calmed down a bit and was gonna try #to skate anyways she started questioning me abt when i planned on peacticing and where i was gonna do it and i obviously just started saying #things that i thought she would approve of. and then she told me i didnt have the time management skills or resolve to make it work. and she #just kept on passive aggressively bullying me until i just couldnt do it anymore and i told her i wanted go leave the store bc she was #spoiling the mood. and then she started bullying me louder and she told me to stop blaming her bc she was only asking me a question and she #didn't want to waste any more money on things that i wasnt gonna do even though ive wanted a skateboard for years now and have been actively #asking her for months. and i just lost my emergy and my appetite and i wanted to leave the mall and go home but insteaf she gook us to a #bagel place that ive been trying to get her to take us even though i felt like throwing up before we even left the mall and i told her i #didnt want to go there. and my brother even told her that she was ruining things for everyone. and he still ended up blaming me in the end. #but whatever. i kept getting flashbacks to insanely traumatic moments where shed yelled at or bullied me or cornered me or tried to #embarass me in public. and this is most likely my last year at home. and my last year of childhood. and its all going to be remembered in my #brain as underwhelming and depressing and mostly horrible. and im going to leave home and never cone back and my last year at home is going #to be just as shitty as every other year and ill just have to deal with that and try to build something good and new and kind when i leave #she shouldnt speak to her own children like this. she shouldnt be looking for reasons to make things miserable for me all the time like this #i should study. my head hurts. my entire body hurts so bad #delete later

[eebie]

like 10 people now have told me i should start customizing jackets for After seeing all the painting and stuff i did on mine . 'd love to do that and all but it would be so stupid expensive to unless i charged people for all of the materials . they'd have to mail me the jacket + patches and shit to sew on But i could probably get the paint stuff myself

#my rambles #even my therapist was like #“ive never seen anything like this before. people are gonna want this" And wheni told her how many times people have said that 2 me #And she was like well then maybe that's a sign 2 start listening #i feel like there's a reason it hasnt done it though Like it's too inconvenient #also i feel bad charging what I think is a lot of money for things #even now i squint at my comm prices for when i open em again #i just like to dress in a way that communicates my interest 2 others Like walking around wearing a list of everything i enjoy #i feel nice in it !! #and hopefully likeminded people will talk 2 me lol.....

[louthelost]

O brave tarnished, O weary tarnished

Got gifted Elden Ring and have gotten way too into it, so here's my tarnished

progress shots under the cut

#elden ring #elden ring tarnished #elden ring fanart #elden ring art #tarnished #illustration #(yes I was still wearing the starting vagabond armour but with the addition of godrick knight greaves I picked up) #(I'm much further along now and this is basically what I'm still wearing) #(though I'm now rocking the Lordsworn Greatsword and the blue-gold kite shield which is just Gorgeous) #(Im like super proud of this piece. basically the first time Ive done a full background and illustration that I think turned out real well) #(it had SO many layers and I used SO many brushes. I'm a five layer one brush kinda guy normally so this was brutal. couldn't find ANYTHING #also i've said it before and i'll say it again: #average artist enjoys drawing armour: factoid actually just statistical error. #average artist fucking hates drawing armour. #artist LouTheLost who fucking loves drawing armour and would do it every day if possible is an outlier adn should not have been counted

[pepprs]

misery despair suffering etc etc

#purrs #delete later #two thoughts about separate things both causing the despair. thought / thing number 1 which i think ive talked abt on here many times before #but im saying it again: i am not good at being a friend in the ways my friends need me to be a friend. and in the ways friendship is thought #of societally i guess. i isolate myself constantly. i pull away from the opportunity to get closer with people i don’t know as well. i don’t #text back and then when im finally ready it’s been so egregiously long since it was appropriate for me to respond or reciprocate or #whatever it is i am so crushed by guilt and shame and embarrassment that i can’t bring myself to do it. i have so many unread messages and i #wont even let myself open them. and ive been like this for years. and i hurt someone very badly many years ago by being that way. and it was #more complicated than that but sometimes i remember it and how i acted and how i treated them. and i wonder sometimes if they check up on me #and i don’t want to be immature or weird or whatever for talking about it or wondering that openly. but if you do read this and you know who #you are: i am so sorry. i meant whst i said that i would never stop wishing you well and hoping the very best for you. and i hope you have #all of that and more. and im so sorry for not being brave enough to communicate with you or stick around. i really really am. and im sorry #to all the other people i have hurt by pulling away and shutting down and shrinking inside myself and not talking. ik it’s weird to post #that instead of just telling people directly but it’s the guilt. i am fully aware of how many people / groups of people i owe things to / #for but also just… miss. a lot. and want to talk to even though i won’t let myself. i don’t know why im like this and i don’t know how to #stop. but im sorry im not a good friend or even acquaintance or community member. and im talking to everyone now i guess including anyone #reading this bc god knows how many asks and messages i have on here. im sorry. i want to be a better friend. but i also never have spoons. a #and i also want to stay spoonless and cocooned on myself forever and never come out. and i hate that. i want to be a friend. i want to be #kind and giving and loving and generous in the ways you all have been with me. i want to hang out with people and send messages and be there #to lift people up and celebrate with them. but all i can muster is tapping like on social media and it’s horrific. i have gifts to make and #hello / checking in messages to reply to and roleplay starters to post and i just can’t do it right now and im scared i’ll never be able to #again. but it’s a self fulfilling prophecy. if i say i can’t do it then iwont. it’s not enougu to just be aware of it i have to act on it #and change it. but im exhausted and hurting right now and i have been for years and i need to heal first but what if this is healing. #idk. i rambled on that for much longer than i thought i would so nowim gonna say the second thing in a separate post. and it’ll be weird to #post about that in light of this and it’ll be weird to post this at all. but its been weighing on me so heavily today and i don’t want #anyone to think im ignoring them or not aware of being like this or whatever. and posting into the void is easier than telling individual #people to your faces even though i know it’s cowardly. im really truly sorry. i will try to get better once i have the strength to try. #actually yeah no not gonna say the second thing yet. it would be weird to say it now. this needs to sit a little first

[weirdcat1213]

im loving this new "people take a random james somerton video and tear it to shreds" genre of videos that im seeing. good job everyone keep it up

#on another note im glad he never talked about something really close to me cuz otherwise i would have had to make a counter video myself #like su or pose #funny enough i asked him to make a video on pose cuz theres a HUGE lack of them #and he said no cuz it would make him too sad cuz its about the aids crisis #and yeah its sad as fuck and thats an argument ive heard many times so i let it go #but now im like #ofc you wouldnt give the show about trans women a chance #even though theres so much fucking trans joy there #theres so much love for femininity and queerness and life #watch pose pls

[angelfoodscake]

this dream is kind of on and off because of my decaying attention span but i wanna create cute mascots for companies

#like ….. i could do that !!! #designing something AND making something cute at the same time #i’m not sure how many companies need mascots though…. #unless i become famous and people want me to design for them so they can have that brand seal lolol #txt #and i realised ive literally never said this out loud before

[britneyshakespeare]

That manipulative, guilt-tripping, gaslighting and condescending ex-friend I've been subposting about every now and then for several months because his actions and words have made a paranoid wreck out of me, who suddenly stonewalled me three months ago after I set up my very first impersonal boundary with him, and then I just never reached out to him again because I realized what he was trying to do was get me to crawl on my knees and ask HIM for forgiveness for hurting ME... he messaged me today. With a laundry list of excuses and justifications in the form of an "apology" filled with fake compliments and self-pity and words put into my own mouth that I had never said to him.

I let him HAAAAAAVE it motherfucker. Well Mr. Krabs, do you wanna know what I think?

#tales from diana #i almost feel bad for him but i know i shouldnt!!!! hes a lying manipulating ass bullshitting bullshitter!!!!!! #he did this right before i had to leave for my brother's wedding rehearsal. asshole #still thinking even though it's been three months wo acknowledging him. he still thinks i dont have anything to do than attend to his needs #truly. he's a pathetic narcissistic little boy. #this is precisely WHY i knew i NEVER should've talked to him. bc i knew he was gonna be manipulative and guilt-tripping #and he'd MAKE ME SYMPATHIZE WITH HIM!!!!! AGAIN!!!!! I DO FEEL BAD EVEN THOUGH IM STRONG IN MY CONVICTIONS I NEVER DID ANYTHING TO HIM #until today when i had to call him out for burdening me WAY to much when i DID NOT fucking ask to hear from him #let alone with him bringing up all this bullshit ive been trying to move on from #fuck the fuck off!!!!!! fuck all the way off!!!!!!!!!!!! #leave my friends alone too stop dragging them into this #he is way too good at wringing sympathy out of other ppl if ive been self-aware of my problem with him #for at least three months not to mention he used me and manipulated me for MANY MANY MONTHS #EVERY SINGLE DAY HE WOULD NOT LEAVE ME ALONE FOR HOURS EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR MONTHS #and *I* felt bad for *HIM* and bc he made me feel like *I* could never look out for *MYSELF* #for MY OWN NEEDS #GO TO FUCKING HELL DUDE!!!!!!! GO TO HELL #the way im typing these tags is actually not representative at all to what i said to him #but i did assert myself that i was angry and he was approaching me on terms that were good for him not that were good for me #and that he knew i wanted to talk to him on my own time. #i was originally jsut going to tell him sternly but drily that i dont wanna be friends anymore i want to cut ties completely #oh but he made me be MEAN about it. WELL THATS WHAT YOU ASKED FOR!!!!! ITS WHAT YOU BEGGED FOR #go cry about you shitass motherfucker #ive wiped more than enough of your fucking tears for a lifetime. seriously go fuck yourself #(again this is nothing like what i said to him. i didnt even swear. but any truth i tell him is more than he wants to hear) #(to him there'll be no difference) #well :) i have to make peace w that fact... and i blocked him at long last. so. im just gonna have to be the bad guy #ill have to tell my friends about it over the weekend or... sometime i guess #MY BROTHER'S FUCKING WEDDING IS THIS WEEKEND and he does this to me. fuckkkkkk offfffffff. we love your considerate timing bro #i hate him :) i seriously fucking hate him