#izzy thoughts :

[izabelfeenix]

Does anyone else ever like, get all ready to do something unpleasant, like leave the house, and you don’t wanna do it but you’re ready, and then your told you don't have to go anymore and you’re just kinda… mad?

like I put all that effort into mentally preparing myself and now I feel relieved but also put off

#looking for a friend #i dunno maybe this is just me #What do you even call this feeling #izzy thoughts #I’m weird lol

[painful-pooch]

Took a bit to reflect on myself today while at the psychiatrist's office and for some reason there was a question she asked me that made me think back to a lot of the stuff that had happened to me. "How come you're scared to write and create stories?"

Honestly... a lot of people hurt and used me as a way to just... further themselves along and in that, it was killing me on the inside. I had gotten rid of so many characters that I still loved because my stories weren't enough and they needed more problems and plot. It drove me insane and I realized I was injecting my own life into those characters. I never fully got to explain myself, but whenever I saw them, I couldn't write something just about the characters themselves. I *had* to push myself and have interactions with people I felt really didn't care much about me.

Most of my fear is worrying that others won't like it or someone would tell me that they think they know my own characters better than me. Has it happened? Yeah. I don't know why, but it did and it scared me. It scared me to think those very same friends I trusted in the past did that to me, that it affected how often I write now.

With the stuff that happened recently in the community, it made me realize no matter how much a few members caused me anguish and pain, I still love whump and I can look forward to creating stuff with my own flair. I even opened up my own server to try and accommodate to those who were sick of people not listening to them or giving them a chance to fit in just so we could all have fun.

My mental health has never been first for me, but after getting diagnosed with PTSD, Anxiety, Depression, and dealing with my own medical issues, I realized how much I look to this community to try and feel better. One of my bestest friends is from this community and they came to my house and honestly made me happy to be alive.

I never get to thank this community enough for helping deter me from a darker road that I don't want to think about. I look forward to making stories and having fun with my characters the way I want to have fun with them. I'll get over my fears eventually, but thank you to the few people i can call friend that have the patience and love to still read my works. I just needed this off my chest. Don't mind me rambling lmao

#not whump #izzy bullshit #izzy thoughts #mental health #whump community

[orchideon]

oh btw requests r open! I’ve had a lot of steam for writing cookie run stuff as of late, so feel free to drop requests!

#Cookie run X reader #Cookie run #cookie run oven break #cookie run kingdom x reader #Cookie run kingdom #izzy thoughts #izzy rambles #Orch talks #orch rambles

[that-one-frog-enjoyer]

calcifer is so orange cat

#howl’s moving castle #txt #izzy thoughts

[izzyizzyizzyizzyizzyizzyizzyizzy]

OK so today I was a Trotcon and I had so much fun and I got to meet so many cool ponies and people in creachurs and Things and I did the cosplay contest but I didn't win but it was OK because the guy that one had a really cool cosplay and I felt weird about saying that I was proud of him but I wanted to tell him I was proud of him so if you ever see this I'm proud of you because your cosplay was really cool and you deserved to win

Also the judges really liked my cosplay and that made me really happy because that's literally me im izzy I was just me being me and they said I could definitely just go out and about wearing the outfit because it was really cute and looked really good on me and I'm still happy about that

Oh and also in the morning I went to the bathroom and when I got out of security guard called me over because he was wondering what I was doing in the women's bathroom and I unknowingly rested my tits on the counter as I leaned over to talk to him and I showed him my badge which has Summer's name on it so he was still a little bit skeptical but he called me ma'am so I guess that was fine

I also got to wear my platform sneakerboots all day long and that was awesome and I had a lot of fun and I really should do things in public one and I wish my close friends (& significant others) were able to join me but they will next year so I'm really looking forward to that

There was literally only one bad thing about today and that was when I got back to my hotel room and I was making mac & cheese and I snagged one of my kandi bracelets on something and it broke and spewed little rock stuff all over the floor but I guess that's OK because yesterday Garnett found one so I came here with two and I still have two so I guess that's okay

There were so many cool ponies and so many cool people and so much cool stuff and I was really glad I was able to go

Anyway I'm almost all the way out of breath so I'm going to go to bed soon goodnight

#izzy thoughts #TrotCon #amzamig

[strawberrydykke]

yes all my favorite characters are desperate to be loved. no i don’t think that says anything about me

#personal #sorry i thought too hard about izzy hands and now i want to throw up #also obviously it does say something about me but i'm in denial <3

[beatricenius]

La vie en rose 🌹

#ofmd #our flag means death #gentlebeard #izzy hands #beatricenius art #thought i'd post this now considering #:(

[5ftboy]

"...I appreciate that you're trying to be on my side." "I am on your side."

BONUS REACTIONS:

#dimension 20 #d20 spoilers #d20edit #burrow's end #burrows end #izzy roland #brennan lee mulligan #rashawn nadine scott #jasper william cartwright #lila #tula #mine ** #the *ever* understandable thought process of lila going : mom has been upset ever since dad died . #and thus i blame dad because things are sad now . things are not as fun now . #it's *so* heartwrenching and also *clearly* enunciating how much kids REALLY see . they can Sense it #and Yes the entirety of this convo broke my Damn heart . #1k **

[acianoh]

Small ofmd collection <3

#ofmd #our flag means death #gentlebeard #renew as a crew #ed x stede #ofmd edward teach #ofmd stede bonnet #izzy hands #ofmd blackbeard #thought i'd collect some of my faves in one place #2022 #2023

[artsyhamster]

Calypso knows how to throw a party

#ofmd #ofmd s2 #John feeney #izzy hands #just the thought of tagging the rest of the crew makes me tired sorry- #anyway take this mess of values and colors i dont want to work on it anymore #maybe i will try somethign related to this ep again in a while #should restrict my color palette then #i threw so many gradients and overlay layers over this you have no idea lol

[izabelfeenix]

We’re all just a piece of toast burnt on one side. Like we show everyone the nice golden brown side, but on the other side we’re burned and ugly.

Kind of nice that we share that with everyone I think

#izzy thoughts #we’re toast #literally #just toast #human nature #burnt toast #bel babbles

[painful-pooch]

Kind of having some bad thoughts today so I wanted to kind of follow what my therapist said and make a list of all the things I'm grateful for and thankful to have. Well... here it goes!

I'm thankful for having @ocean-blue-whump as my best friend and look up to her so much, from both her writing and her ethos. She's always there for me and I have always loved the AUs and skits we write whenever we need a moment to breathe. She's allowed me to truly be myself and without her, I wouldn't be able to have Cas and Star, Bruno and Marlow, Lukas and Ray, or any other of our ships and stories. Love you, bitch <3

I'm grateful for the loving and caring advice I get from @whumpopology and @sableflynn whenever I'm in a rough patch and need guidance. They were honestly some of the biggest factors for me seeking out some mental health support.

I'm thankful to have gotten the time to spend it with @for-the-love-of-angst Vee and @justplainwhump Sara, both who have given me a lot to think about my characters and how to better write them. Although I can't bring myself to write a specific character(s), I'm glad to have had at least a chance to explore that and learn about myself.

Super thankful for @actress4him , who got me to find my spark again in writing, especially using Bruno and expanding both of our writing worlds. Thank you for making Kamaria and thank you for one of my most favorite ships. Also am so happy to have our pinterest board break 400 pins for Brumaria. That was one hell of a feat if you ask me lmao!

For my nonhuman whumpee lovers, @emcscared-whumps and @shapeshiftersandfire both have given me so many ideas and thoughts for Cassiel, and without them, I would have been too scared to show him off to the world. I'll eventually bring his full story to Tumblr.

I have to thank @inscrutable-shadow and @actress4him for helping me create a whump discord server and giving me the motivation I needed to be able to open it up and share the love of whump to those who want it.

@technom0ose and @straight-to-the-pain both absolutely helped awaken my love for military whump again and even though I haven't gotten far in it, I still have a passion for it and I'll do my best to write what I can. I'm thankful for you two having seen something worthy in me to even talk to me lmao.

Thank you @evilwriter-originals and @whumperofworlds for both getting me back into some of the Fandoms I had loved since I was a kid. To see some of the characters I recognized or having seen the world it was set in made my heart warm up and I am so happy I get to read your works and get to know yall.

There are so many more I want to thank, but for now, I'll cut it short since I'm about to make me some needed self care coffee and food. Again, this year has been a rough one with my surgery, healing, and military life all controlling my happiness. But even through the darkness, yall gave me a glimpse of light and happiness, and I could be more thankful to have spent at least a moment with each of you. I'm grateful to have been in a wonderful community of whumpers, and I hope to get to know more in the coming future. Happy holidays and happy new years. Stay whumpy, folks.

- Izzy (The Little Borker)

#not whump #just a thank you letter #izzy thoughts #i just wanted to show some appreciation #and learn to be happy with what i have #these people are amazing

[orchideon]

It’s also really a shame that magician’s quest’s other games didn’t get translated to English due to. Y’know. Them not being as popular over here

there’s a 3ds game that I thiiiink currently is being translated? But like. The other two ds games don’t have translations and were ever only released in Japan.

anyways I’m playing my hyperfixation life sims via google translate

#izzy thoughts #izzy talks #Orch talks #Izzy talks #Izzy thoughts #Magician’s quest #Girl help I’m hyperfixating

[thinkingaboutbones]

SCREAMING love this for tula

#i fully thought izzy said that in character LOL #dimension 20 #burrow's end

[ulgapodatkowa]

you know what I find interesting about stede's fight with zheng in the bar? it mirrors the fight stede had with izzy in the first season. in the way that stede is standing in izzy's place, he harbours the same feelings.

before the fight we see izzy approach stede and try to console him. he's saying that he understands how stede feels after ed left again, he says that he knows that ed is a complicated man. they sure as hell cope with their 'ed situations' differently but on the fundamental level it's the same type of being brokenhearted.

and then zheng does the same thing that stede did to izzy: she takes his crew, family. and stede reacts in the same way, he challenges her to a duel.

during the fight we see that the camera pans to izzy a few times and we see his thoughts. that it's a bad idea, that it's futile. but we are also left with a notion that this is what has to happen - stede has to lose in order to realize where he's been wrong and accept it later on. izzy knows that and despite the fact that he could step in he doesn't. but he stays at stede's side when the crew sides with zheng. he fucking stays.

#looking at everything through izzy lense #i'm plagued with thoughts about this pathetic middle aged man #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers #izzy hands #ofmd meta #con o'neill #stede bonnet

[pagesofkenna]

I haven't seen anyone post this yet and it was my favorite bit about the latest Stoatal Recall

#burrow's end #dimension 20 #di20 #flashing back to. was it a tiktok izzy posted or something? of brennen just fully staring off into space #while in the middle of trying to hang something on the wall or something. because he had an interesting thought and got distracted #and she was like 'hes been standing there for five minutes i swear'