#just good professional work friends

[nyansequitur]

commissioned some self indulgent batteryacid and windflit art (from @ Solkatterasu on the Show By Rock discord). the collie doesnt get enough love from the community. so i have to make up the slack

#they arent dating #just good professional work friends #i would never do a cishet ship dw #i dont ship windflit w/ anyone tbh. his only other canon character interactions are w/ ethan. friston. and closure #and like yeah he's roommates with ethan and thats the easy ship. i could go “oh my god and they were roommates” but it doesnt work for me #also windflits tail. severely underrated. not the biggest but excellent texture. 11/10 hand feel. #arknights oc #oc x canon #windflit #batteryacid

[stuckinapril]

i think i officially set my sights on a therapist and i'll be contacting her very soon?? therapy was legitimately not on my 2024 bingo card (or in the cards for me at all) but here we are????

#this blog always had a focus on social science and detangling feelings and experiences. like it's basically been serving as my diary #bc this blog has always been my main outlet for it. i hate talking feelings to anyone irl. it's a bad habit but i hate it #so it was a game changer and helped me grow up sooo much. esp supplemented w other people's experiences. #being raised by a stoic engineer mother who's very much warm but also not very good at feelings at times has caused me to suppress SO much #compounded w being the eldest daughter. like that is a damning sentence in and of itself #tumblr just gave me an outlet for stuff like this. and every social media is essentially a highlight reel of ppl's best moments. #tumblr is the opposite. i've always loved that too whether it was in the form of humor or more earnest posts #could i work through my own issues by myself? yes probably #and my blog will always have that facet even if i get a therapist #but a therapist's input. just a professional's input. will expedite a lot of improvement for me i think #this has been a critical time period for me anyway bc i'm budgeting my whole schedule for once vs being handheld by uni deadlines #and it's just gonna keep getting more and more intense from here bc i'm truly pushing my comfort zone more than ever before #it just feels like the right call even tho i'm lowkey nervous ab it bc i HATE talking feelings in person. #this therapist will not fall for my trying to deflect by asking her about her life. which. usually works on my friends <3 #we will see. a therapy arc is coming very soon basically #p

[youdontneedhenry]

Random thought but I miss Patrick winking at Eliza (3x3) and generally being mischievous (all of season 2 and episode 3x6 with William.)

He’s way more professional with her in season 4, for obvious reasons. He’s still fun, and they have fun, but it’s different, which is a testament to how respectful Nash is, contrary to how he’s sometimes talked about by viewers who are simply not paying attention. Also, I don’t think it’s JUST that she’s his employee. I think he caught feelings and is trying to recalibrate how to act with her (less schoolyard teasing and even more sincerity).

In Season 4, Eliza softens and teases Nash more than he teases her (after she wins at the races, the end of the telephone episode). He lets her lead, really, in that regard, because he's not going to cross a line given the power dynamic in their relationship when she works at Nash & Sons.

So we've seen rivals (season 2 with the shift in 3x3) to friends and colleagues (3x6 and Season 4) and now LOVERS (Season 5) ????

I really wonder what Season 5 Nash will be like.

Edit: to add: the natural chemistry and attraction that’s been there didn’t lead to romance yet because they’ve had really clear boundaries: being rivals AND then being colleagues meant really clear lines they didn’t or couldn’t cross- even if they toed them sometimes. There were rules of engagement. Those boundaries will be gone session 5- so their friendship can flourish into something else.

#scarnash #eliza x patrick #msatd #miss scarlet pbs #miss scarlet and the duke #i love them your honor #ps did I just figure out how to make basic gifs?? #not as good as our wonderful gif makers #but I can try #season 3 Nash you will always be famous #since the new inspector won’t work with any private detectives I hope Nash trolls him too #also you know I am so interested in the angst of the situation where Patrick hires her and it creates a barrier to romance #like he had to have some disappointment with that but he did what was best for Eliza and her career #what will they be like when they don't work together AND are friends??? #patrick nash consummate professional #sorry I’m posting this instead of writing more of Sweetest Con yikes #let me know what you think

[talentforlying]

tbh i think the coldest and most shocking thing that can happen in an argument with this man is if you call him "john" and he corrects you to "constantine". biggest red flag you can find on the play. sounds pretentious when you're not experiencing it. means he's absolutely fucking furious with you.

#like here's the thing: he's not going to correct you if he doesn't know you or like you. he won't give anyone that power over him #he won't ever let some random jackass know they've gotten under his skin. it's just not worth the effort to him. #so if he's correcting you? it means you know him on a personal level. it means you're at Bare Minimum good friends #and it means he's so fucking angry that he's rescinding your place in his life until the argument is resolved. the castle gates are closed #you are now on professional speaking terms until this is resolved and the professional constantine is a real nasty piece of work #who will not spare your feelings or try to salvage whatever you've built with him. professional constantine wants the job Done #i've talked before about how little effort his father put into naming him after his mum died and how unemotional john's been about it since #and how unique it must feel when someone says 'john' to him with love or care or compassion after a lifetime of hearing it in anything but #like his first name doesn't usually mean a lot to him! its use is not a closely guarded privilege! #but if he cares about you then calling him 'john' can feel as intimate to him as a kiss #and if you burn him he will snatch that level of access away from you for Months. sometimes Years. #so! yeah!! if he ever corrects your name choice in an argument then you've Really Fucked Up Buddy!!!! #( also. hypocrite that he is. if you're on 'john' terms and you call him 'constantine' in an argument FIRST he will be absolutely WOUNDED ) #( and he will cover with that professional veneer. that cold uncaring mask of anger. but it's trapped-cornered-animal anger ) #( it's let-me-cover-this-injury-before-you-can-really-get-your-fingers-in-it defensiveness. and he will be cautiously distant afterwards ) #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE.

[dogwhizzer]

falsettos characters ranked by what they call weed and how much they partake

#marvin does on prescription but only calls it cannabis to sound smart #mendel does because. Fucking obviously and he calls it every funny name in the book #mendel you would love to say penjamin. #trina does but not very often it's mostly to help he unwind when she's stressed mendel'll roll her somethin or she'll go over to delia #whizzer does not. He tried it once or twice and was like. Eh. not for me. He strikes me as a guy who'd just say pot #delia does and she grows it also but it's not that good. I think she says bud because it's like it's her friend #char did frequently in college and med school but doesn't anymore because work but trust me there are days where she's like hooo boy. #she just says marijuana professionally but i think a fav of hers socially is aunt jane #garfs barfs

[snixx]

it's not that i don't believe in therapy it's that when i NEEDED it no one cared. so I figured it out myself. I know how to handle myself and my (increasingly infrequent) breakdowns and I understand myself and know I'll be okay no matter what and I self reflect and process my emotions and am very emotionally open and I'm so proud of the person I am every day. but I do have low days, and that's what pisses me off: I'm ALLOWED to be sad sometimes. it's a part of how my brain works, and the important thing is I know how to handle it effectively in a healthy way. and swooping in and forcing me to pay an insane amount to sit in an office when I DID ALL THAT WORK MYSELF is so aggravating. therapy has only ever made me feel worse. I'm a survivor, I've survived so much, and therapy is literally just a scapegoat for empathy for people these days. it relieves you of having to engage or care about other people. and LISTEN I'm not anti therapy by any means. as the Therapist Friend ™️ even when I'm mentally ill asf and when I was a literal kid myself I know that sometimes you can't do anything. professional help is necessary. it's the only way. but it doesn't!!! fucking!!! work for everyone!!! if someone isn't actively suicidal and trying to get better on their own and they don't WANT therapy because it doesn't WORK for them maybe don't be a condescending dick about it! therapy isn't a magical solution that makes everyone okay SOMETIMES people have external problems and are justified in feeling the way they do!!! therapy can be helpful yes but a lot of the time it is just a soulless void of practiced regulations for something that is not black or white because guess what everyone's different! and assuming the same thing works for everyone and that YOU know better than them (unless they're clearly obviously not doing well and are beyond helping themselves) is condescending as fuck!!!

#anti therapy #not really but i guess #anyway today my psychiat said i can quit therapy and that's finally someone my parents will listen to #good day #anyway therapy is really important and i think it's necessary to give it a sustained shot if you're in a position #where it either helps you or you don't have faith in yourself to get better #you need someone else an unbiased professional third party #you want a feedback loop and don't trust yourself #but it is NOT an all fit #i have friends who really didn't want to go to therapy and i kept pushing them even when it didn't work at first #and now they love it #but that's also because they NEEDED it #now it's just. oh you're sad i don't want you to be sad but i don't want to hear about your problems so go to a therapist #x am rambles #also therapy only works if you put in the work #you can't force people into it

[mememan93]

Life. man.

#I don't want to go back to college tomorrow. i don't even think i hate the school it's. #i think i hate what im studying. I'm so sick of it. I'm so sick of media and radio work. So so so sick. #i'm sick of journalism. i'm sick of hearing the word 'storytelling' or 'storytellers' in sick of dealing with media students. #some of the most vain assholes i've ever met. and i'm sick of watching my best friend become one. (an asshole). #I want to do something else but this is what i did in high school this is what im good at. but i don't know if i can do this for the rest o #my life. but im too dumb to do anything else. I want to try compsci. i want to learn coding. but i have no background experience. #i could be an IT guy. i want to learn how to build computers and stuff. but i'm not smart enough. #i screwed myself over in high school by taking media. why did i do that?? #i should've taken compsci. or law. or SOMETHING. #i liked what i'm doing but now im just so fucking sick of it #if i hear someone say 'radio professionals are storytellers' one more time im gonna bash my head into a wall #of course talking to my dad is no help. i don't even know why i bother anymore. #raven croaks

[anaalnathrakhs]

btw my mom said it. she said it to me looking me in the eyes. i told her about how difficult it was for me to get through those family reunions, and she admitted it was very important to her, important enough that she was just going to do it anyway.

#i know there are compromises out there #and i'm not going to live w them my whole life so i'll be out fairly soon all things considered #and i'm trying to be understanding when people's priorities aren't the same as mine #but i uh. would be lying if i said it doesn't hurt a little wittle bit. #i'm gonna keep handling it because i've been an asshole to my parents for long enough #i largely owe them that. cooperating and spending time with them and engaging in what matters to them. #but then she's says things like ''but whenever you move out you'll still be part of the family and invited if you want uwu'' #it's just ?????? okay thanks ???? perhaps you could also try seeing things from my point of view perhaps???? #it's all circling back to that. they have a very weird way to ''help'' me #throwback to them trying to cure my depression with amusement parks #when i would have liked a little less of that and a little more help and understanding #it feels like they're trying to put bandaids on a cancer #''you don't ask for help'' okay no help is coming. i am not being helped. #the system can't help me cause there's no damn beds no damn professionals no damn time to help everyone #the people around me can't help me because it's not their job or within their wheelhouse to help me #and they've got their own shit to deal with #on that note #i was discussing stuff with my mom #and i mentionned it was indeed pretty difficult to manage your time when you had to deal with school and friends and your parents #and she was like ''deal with your parents???? what do you have to deal with????'' #oh i don't KNOW maybe that i'm officially an associate of my dad and i have to help out w events and some accounting #or maybe i have to pay back the fucking years i spent being an ungrateful child now i do everything you expect me to and it's exhausting #maybe that you constantly remind me i am living in YOUR house by touching my shit instead of letting me deal with shit at my own pace #maybe the fact that despite everything i care about you and i want us to have a good relationship and that takes WORK and i'm exhausted #maybe the fact that you keep giving me advice that is unproductive misguided misunderstanding etc etc #and cold comfort after you did something you knew to be difficult for me #how you keep encouraging shit that i don't want and am unhappy with because it's the ''normal'' way #how you raised me from childhood to be an empty shell in a family of empty shells #broadcasting my misery #vent

[teabookgremlin]

iris and i had an adventure (went to a children’s theme park with a bunch of other service dogs in training) today here are some pictures

#she did so well too! #like better than i thought she’d do #bc there were lots of other dogs and kids and new noises and new things to see #but she fucking nailed it! #even around some farm animals she could focus on on me (with lots of treats but still) #very proud of my pup #irisposting #oh and the dog behind her in the photo with the panda boat thing is her friend innova #i also was able to get some good advice from a professional trainer based on what she observed with me working with iris #which was really helpful bc training a dog is hard #and i got some updates on justice (sdit i worked with before iris) and she’s apparently doing really well #and building confidence so just very proud of both my pups today <3

[bulkhummus]

spooke i did say that and they did and ill never forgive them for taking away my tall wife

#and making a male oc of sorts to be meryls role model when they story could have been not That and would have worked anyways #oh no she saw a man die and suddenly shes a reporter with conviction ? #BAD WRITING #she barely had any character development as is i would have loved her to grow just by proximity to vash and wolfwood #her conviction and passion was already there there didnt need to be a male character for her to be her senpai or whatever he offered nothing #like all of his lines could have been meryls #and i liked his character or whatever it was fine but like.. it just felt SUS to me to take away a female character and manufacture #character growth with a throw away character #when you could have been building s relationship between two WOMEN the whole first season #thst perhaps start as strictly professional and then become friends too #like ocme on….. #im sorry im in the grip of The Drink #spooke have u even seen trigun we shouod watch it when we r done with fmab #its a good watch #trigun #hi spookie

[boinurmom13]

i did draw lance and bo in party clothes

plus some other doodles

they look so could i could put them in a blender and turn them into a smoothie!!!!😋😋😋

Ivan (old colleague of bos), not recognizing bo: i dont think you two are sposed to be here

Lance: whose lost child…

Bo: thats a grown man with a multimillionaire business.

shirtless lance^^ i saw the poll votes. i added that one as a joke why did ANY OF YOU FREAKS PICK IT

its just a doodle but wtv

Lance: should i put a shirt under this?

Lance: i dont think this is allowed.

Bo: no, but you look damn good with your tits out

Lance: you should really stop drinking…

Bo: vomits

Bo: no lol

and, of course. lance and bo in a strip club while bos smoking a fat blunt

#lance sve #sve lance #sve #sdv #stardew valley #stardew valley expanded #art #i love their dynamic #cuz i feel like lance has never been to a party #let alone in a strip club #so when you pair that with an alcohlic/weed addict who’s been to more strip clubs than he can count #its pretty funny methinks #IM NOT SAYING LANCE IS INNOCENT BTW #just too respectful for his own good #hed rather put in the effort to see a person undressed rather than go to a club for it #bo would rather pull out his phone and look at corn with a p #so #very differing ppl #oh yeah btw the premise was a semi-professional holiday party with bos old work friends #thats my explanatjon for rheir outfits #lance is sooooo fine #SO FINE

[vigilskeep]

Do you think keir and anders had a threesome (foursome?) with Isabela?

they joke abt this happening so much that everyone assumes it happened but it did not and now they can’t admit that it did not because they’ve committed to the bit

#serious answer keir/isabela is the one pairing that doesn’t work in my head in any way they r just pals to me #like they r very very good friends i love their friendship sm #a lot of people even assume they’re together i think bc they’re v physically affectionate #but keir is always so intense and committed from the start in a way that i think isabela would avoid like the plague romantically #and likewise her lack of emotional involvement (or unwillingness to admit emotional involvement) wouldnt be for him at that point in life #also isabela is more cautious than i think people assume abt sleeping with people she spends a lot of time with esp professionally #i mean she waits 3 years for hawke 6 years for fen. she talks about how she has less sex than people think and never with her crew etc #and generally agdhsjdkdk i just think she has more sense than to get into the middle of whatever tf keir and anders have going on #keir is a fairly monogamous creature anyway like there are circumstances where that might change but not just for fun #thats why i can rlly see him with any of the da2 lis except isabela i guess #anyway that was a hopelessly long answer to a silly question so i have quarantined it in the tags for shame #hope u enjoyed #keir hawke

[melto]

i hate dating apps so much. but what else is a guy supposed to do when he just goes to class and work basically.

#i had a making out dream the other night too...just never me a normal seex dream. that is so easy to handle. #but making out? falling in love? DESPERATE AND MISERABLE FOR ME #I suck at hitting on people irl bc i am so easily flustered so i couldnt even make a good attempt when i am interested. #and like pairing that with my anxiety disorder. Well i just cant until im given permission<3 #i fucked up so bad with the last person i was seeing. #esp sucks bc i ended up not even being able to really work professional theatre rn so i have free time. Well. you win and lose some. #just need someone to show that type of interest in me. past just like. i guess being a friend that wants to make out or fuck. #Guy poorly containing all the love in his body at all times.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i say goodbye to my boss tomorrow #not like officially officially bc im still employed into August so we have meetings #and hopefully we'll collaborate in future on projects and i have papers to write with her still #but like this is the last time ill physically see her bc shes not coming back until August and ill b gone by then #so its like. sad. bc shes my science mum. today she was complaining abt some stupid politics stuff #that went on this week in the department and she was like i kno i should b more professional but i feel like since ur leaving now #were more colleagues and friends. and im like 😭 god dammit ur gonna make me fucking cry #i came this this school to work with u and u were so great. i was so lucky to have ended up in her lab #bc i didnt kno wtf i was doing and shes not perfect but i learned a lot from her and ill b really sad to not b working with her so much #but thats how it goes. ill have to make her something cool as a parting gift #god. thatll b a fucking pain but she deserves something that takes a lot of effort #were meeting tomorrow to go over a protocol but im not sure if that's actually what were doing or if theres a surprise involved #bc she likes to do that and it stresses me the fuck out. she's been wanting to get me ice cream for the last 2 months so that might actually #b what's happening. or both could b happening. ugh. anyway. just me crying abt how im gonna miss my boss who im literally seeing tomorrow #im gonna have to giver her a painfully earnest letter abt how great she is and apologize for kinda having a breakdown #i mean i wasnt totally nonfunctional but like. it was not good and im sure i kinda sucked to b around #but whatever. god. the move it finally on the horizon. it finally feels like its getting real #unrelated

[random2908]

I started by telling myself I shouldn't feel bad that I didn't get all my planned chores done: Saturday is a rest day, and we've just finished three weeks of crunch at work. (Next week might also be crunch but probably not; the product ships at the end of the week but we should be in good enough shape already.)

But then I realized: I ran three errands in the morning, and did three chores in the evening--even if one of the chores was just "cook a healthy dinner" and two of the chores were banking-related on a website. (But one involved sending text messages, and one involved an actual phone call to customer service, so I can't even really say they were just on a website.) That's six things I got done on a rest day. I may have overscheduled by saying I'd do at least eight things, but still, six things is very good.

#the things I did NOT do all involve a hand drill so #I have about average upper body strength for a woman which means I do struggle somewhat with hand drills #although these chores all involve walls not metal so it's not THAT bad--except it's sideways rather than down so I can't lean into it #so yeah that's a level of chores I was not up to on my rest day #tomorrow is too booked up for chores--I told my friend I wanted to hang out with them this weekend #since I said no two weeks ago (I was fully booked) and they had to cancel on me last weekend #and normally we meet in the middle for hiking (we live 1.5 hours apart) but this time they suggested I drive all the way out #and I said yes before I realized that's what they were suggesting #so that's fine--but I can't do anything else beyond that tomorrow even just basic chores #which is a little bit getting to me because a house guest is coming to visit in four days #and I really need the shower curtain to be properly secured to the wall by then? #anything else is gravy--I already have clean sheets for her and everything--but THAT needs to be done #I've been living here almost two months and have only knocked the shower curtain down about three times so it's really not that bad #I even hang my towels on it and it's fine BUT I know how to do it? and I'm like professionally good at manipulating physical objects lol #like being a mechanic of sorts is literally a significant chunk of my job #whereas she doesn't pick up object-manipulation tasks easily--especially not involving gross motor skills #in fact when I mentioned it to her she was like yeah that was something she was not going to be able to handle #if I didn't have it properly installed by the time she arrived #so uh... well not today or tomorrow #and Monday and Tuesday I have work... and she's arriving Wednesday #ok realistically tomorrow night I'm just going to have to suck it up and get to drilling no matter how tired I am from driving and hiking

[xiaolumi-love]

no longer edgy i wanna be adored

#my landlord and i had a really wonderful communication just then and i feel. so relieved #she's genuinely trying #she wants things to be good for me here #she apologized for upsetting me and heard out each of my concerns #she will take action for everything i said (the ones that couldn't be resolved immediately anyway) #she even paid me back the 216 i literally do need from her ~raising the rent~ without a contract #like #get you a landlord that would #not everything is fixed #both of us still feel like we're being abused because of her asshole friend #but she has professional help and me and she wants to work on things #i'm really relieved #alice speaks