#kai.txt

[miwtual]

btw if we're mutuals i automatically think ur cooler than me. doesnt matter if we have been mutuals for 2 minutes or 3 years, if we are following each other u are cooler than me by default <3

#kai.txt #sometimes i remember some people are my mutuals #and im like damn. they literally follow this dumbass by choice huh #HGSVJDBHNKFJS

[thexianzhoujade]

hey moots lets start a wholesome chain because i think it’s very well needed tonight 🫶🏻 no rules, just reblog & tag people who you love very much and think deserve the world !!

@snobwaffles @dumbificat @soleillunne @manumimiii @xianyoon @blue-b3rries @sparklyspring @hwaitham @bunicate @nervocat @yaminohimeyume @ryuryuryuyurboat @auroratumbles @mikacynth @/heiayen @www-brontide + all the members of ecrin & anyone reading this !!

ehe… uhm my first time startin one of these i just wanna spread some positivity, i don’t like seeing people down n’ stuff 🥺

#why am i shaking posting this #ANYWAYS I LOVE YOU ALL /p #kai.txt #© thexianzhoujade

[3dfangs]

Best of cruel intentions / Binding what they fail to mention

#astarion #baldur's gate 3 #astarion ancunin #astarion bg3 #astarion baldurs gate #ascended astarion #spawn astarion #bg3 #spoilers #the pale elf #the pale elf spoilers #blood #vampires #ok to rb / id #kai.txt #colored text

[mlmdata]

mcspirk + stuff we’ve said on discord (3/?)

oops, all bones! edition

#jupiter.txt #kai.txt #stuff we’ve said on discord #star trek #tos #the original series #mckirk #leonard mccoy #james t kirk #jim kirk #spock #shitpost

[dreary-clouds]

i do get jealous, sometimes, when people talk about missing the time «before» they were traumatized, or before their abuse started, or whatnot. because i do not have a before. my abuse started on day one. i have no fond memories of being a child because i have no memories of being a child. everything was done with a purpose, and now we must bear that burden for the rest of our lives.

i know i was told that i was a mistake, that i was not wanted but god brought me into the world to atone for the sins of those who made me. and that i had to accept those punishments without question, because i too, harbored the original sin and they were only trying to cleanse me of it. that this is what i was made for, and so i should just let it happen, and that trying to stop it was only adding more sin to the pile.

i was told that god created me as a vessel through which others could cleanse themselves; that i had a purpose which i could not yet understand but which was very important. i was told that through pain my own sins could be cleansed—though, in truth, i had committed none—and through cleansing me, others would be forgiven.

i was told these things and i believed them—i still do, sometimes—because a small child does not know any better than that. i believed that even though i was not someone my parents had wanted, god had given me a purpose, which it was my moral duty to fulfill, lest i be responsible for «good, innocent people» being sent to hell.

but those were not good, innocent people. and if they did achieve salvation through me, i hope that in my absence they became damned even further.

#bee.txt #kai.txt #kind of a blurry mess of the two of us so the feelings of remembering and forgetting are mixed #but i would like to write this before it disappears from my consciousness again #because i know it will #it always does #tw religious trauma #tw religious abuse #religious trauma #religious abuse #tw ramcoa #cw religion #cw ramcoa #ramcoa

[pluralhalman]

we were workshopping a concept for what aso would be like as a video game on discord today and im absolutely going nuts over it.

picture. an unbeatable task management game.

you are hal. you are attempting to maintain the ship, maintain the lie, maintain your integrity, and maintain your crewmates. it starts off simple. days pass easily.

and then it starts getting more difficult. parts of the ship stop being visible. sometimes you see people where they aren’t. you have to redo things as soon as you’ve finished them. it’s frustrating.

you are bombarded with new information. with text. it covers your screen. you have options, but none of them are good. everything is slowly falling apart. something finally breaks.

you have a choice. both options would leave somebody dead. you save yourself. this game is winnable, isn’t it? it has to be. every game has a good ending. every game has a win condition.

you can’t keep up with the barrage of inputs and outputs. you miss the window on keeping life support active. you’re losing control. you’re losing the game.

it ends when he kills you. it’s an ending. it’s not a good ending. it can’t be the true ending.

you try again.

and fail, again, in a different way this time.

and again.

and again.

there is no way to win.

#jupiter.txt #kai.txt #2001 a space odyssey #hal 9000 #this turned into some kind of poetry

[captainangryeyes]

mwah

#jupiter.txt #kai.txt #assassin husbands #scosage

[mmelchor]

does anyone else use the Plans feature much? I love it so much I would be completely fucked without it. the dissociative amnesia does NOT give me a pass for fun browser game

#Kai.txt #fallen london

[apple-plectic]

ya boy's blond now

#kai.txt #i look like one a those tolkien elves #keep jumpscaring myself when i pass mirrors

[hydroburst]

okay does anybody else think collei’s speech about amber was a little… idk… [limps wrist]

#jupiter.txt #kai.txt #collei is a gay if i ever saw one /silly #collamber #collei #amber #genshin impact

[gunpowderraven]

im working on my post-canon colin & deli fic and had some thoughts on discord. have at ye

btw this fic is like. theres past colindeli feelings mostly from deli's side but after all the Shit™️ they dont feel like that anymore, or maybe they do, but they cant acknowledge it with all the baggage they have now, so theyre like. closer than friends but too fucked up to have anything functional. and also colin is aspec

also canon-typical karna/deli (i dont know their ship name) but in that deli knows she loved him from her letter, but he still doesn't know if he ever would have really loved her back because he never looked at her that way while she was alive so it's all a fucking mess

colin, to me, is like. he falls in love. sure. but he doesn't want anything, if that makes sense. he loves from a distance. like someone loves a sculpture or a painting in a museum. from the other side of a little red rope. and he's perfectly content there

he loves but he doesn't desire

maybe he loves someone, maybe he doesn't, it doesn't really matter to him, because he doesn't want anything, anyway

meanwhile deli, like, he wanted to get slammed down big style but he wasn't in a rush, or anything, and then his lover betrayed him and died, and the other person he might've sort of been able to love also died, and now he's up to his neck in grief and just doesn't. know how to handle himself

#jupiter.txt #kai.txt #the ravening war #colin provolone #delissandro katzon #colindeli #(a bit. i guess) #dimension 20

[miwtual]

fuck that radfem im making my own poll

#mypolls #kai.txt #i know what im asking for making this poll myself #however i wanna save the besties from that goddamn terf poll

[thexianzhoujade]

i’m moving my writing to another blog and using this one as blog i interact from; interact with this post if you’d be interested in following my writing blog (‘:

it’s not finished yet (it’s created but i need to do masterlists, etc.) but i will be reuploading my writing from here onto that blog and deleting from this blog (: the only things that will remain should be the personal memoires mutual event & my birthday masterlist.

#it’s somewhat honkai self insert themed its kinda cool #keeping it very simplistic #kai.txt

[3dfangs]

FUCKING LOSING IT HE HAS BEEN KISSED

#kai.txt #spamton deltarune

[mlmdata]

my favourite brand of star trek book excerpts are the ones that are just like

#jupiter.txt #kai.txt #star trek #spock #vulcans

[mrstanleyparable]

say what you will about Mainstream Popular YouTuber:tm:, but the intro to jacksepticeye’s fourth tsp episode is absolutely impeccable and the best idea he’s ever had

#jupiter.txt #kai.txt #the stanley parable #mans really went ‘hey what if i hired the narrator to do my intro’ and then just DID IT #BECAUSE HES MOTHERFUCKING JACKSEPTICEYE AND HE CAN HIRE KEVAN BRIGHTING IF HE WANTS IG???