#late on this since I was out on a trip

[the-final-sif]

As someone who like, actually knows shit about internet security, I just feel the need to comment on the whole "omg dream's asking people for their birthday to send them a card!!!" thing.

The amount of information that you provide to a website just to get an order shipped to you (ie address, name, and payment info depending on how you pay) is more than enough info for anyone with ill intentions. The birthday is ultimately irrelevant given the other information you willingly provided to use this service. That is how online shopping works.

you can just. lie. you can literally pick any date you want and say that's your birthday. They aren't asking for ID or anything. If you're bothered by providing that info out of everything, literally just lie and give a fake birthday. nobody will stop you, I promise.

Anyways, please stop freaking out about an extremely normal thing, and redirect that energy to like. Facebook's horrible data practices. Lobbying senators/local government to improve digital privacy. Maybe go check out what the EFF is working on and see if you can help out, it's their 32nd birthday! Go do literally anything productive to help bolster online privacy to celebrate!

#sif speaks #dreamwastaken #dream mcyt #mcyt #internet safety #internet security #internet privacy #late on this since I was out on a trip #but like #oh my god this is not only totally normal #but like we have so many larger fights #magic how some people start caring about internet privacy only for this one specific thing and then never again

[tearlessrain]

seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident #I straight up forgot #and just didn't show up to the session #my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked #I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up #my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january #I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted #like mentally and spiritually #all the time #my memory and sense of time are both shit #my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason?? #I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me #I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir #and yet #idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason #fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly #due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me #aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory #it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever #like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype #but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here #doing whatever this is #maybe I should drive out to the coast #maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long #I mean it can't make me worse #I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark #everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone

[seenthisepisode]

i need help to manage my budget... by help i mean 3 million euro sent directly from heaven i guess

#this is not even about The Economy and Housing Crisis this is like. my life and choices lately lol afjsahfjk let's see: #1. christmas gifts - i don't even know how much i spent on them because i had the flu and wasn't really thinking but let's say 1000 pln #2. trip for new years eve to the mountains - 2200 for hotel and then let's say 300-350 for food and stuff #3. bills like the internet and phone is 90; rent is 1100 #4. trip to warsaw 100 hotel 180 food and drinks 200 ? #5. meet and greet with simple plan 800 .... i will never recover sfshdfsj but it was kinda worth it - won't do that again tho #6. groceries since i am back 120 #7. and now i need to travel back home and it's like a cumulation because it was my dad's name day + my mom's birthday and their wedding #anniversary adsfhgsdjhsd so i need gifts again i mean i want to buy them something nice i already spent 180 pln but i will buy something #extra for each of them because i kinda want to because we see each other so rarely #8. public transport ticket for another month is 80 #9. i will have to pay rent again soon and the internet and phone #10. i have a wedding coming and like 37 concerts #to sum up. i am Fucked <3 but writing it out helped a little ;_; #i will eat concrete and drywall by march <3 #personal

[miodiodavinci]

good news: we have water again ! ! ! a pipe had burst somewhere up the street so the city came out and fixed it today (we still need to run the tap to get rid of the air and muddy water but. it's something.)

bad news: i had to go to my partner's to do laundry and shower so i missed out on work time today (bad) (anxiety inducing) (i don't need this right now)

worst news: i have a killer headache and my throat is suspiciously stiff 👁 👁

#please please please for the love of god ; ; ; #i am begging and pleading do Not let this be a repeat of last semester ; ; ; ; #this is exactly how i felt last time i got sick with covid and i Cannot afford another late start ; ; ; ; #i am. suddenly stuck by The Unwelcome Guest last week cryptically asking me when you're supposed to test for covid #and then saying 'hmm. okay. good to know.' and then refusing to elaborate #i swear. to god if she got me sick i'm #i. can't even say. i'm suddenly struck by such helpless grief thinking about how little i can do to keep her from being in my life ; ; ; ; #we literally Evicted her she all but threatened my older sibling into letting her visit weekly to take care of her potted plants #and then in october last year she was like 'my roommate has covid and i don't have money for a hotel i have nowhere to go :'(' #so the agreement was she could stay for One Week #and basically she has been. on and off our couch since then. #like. only going back to her apartment for 1 to 3 days at a time before spending another two weeks in our house. #with new excuses every time. #and literally Every Time I Say No And Put My Foot Down older sibling begs on her behalf because she's busy hounding and guilt-tripping them #so like. what can i even do if it turns out she infected me with covid because she didn't care to disclose that she was feeling sick #(and decided to come over anyway) #i'm just. overwhelmed ; ; ; #i feel like crying ; ; ; #i'm already busy pre-mourning the loss of my mental health and down time with my internship starting back next week #i don't need to worry about whether or not i'm going to be bed ridden for 2 weeks #and suffer Even More lasting lung and brain and blood and fatigue issues on top of that ; ; ; ; #a a a a a i just. feel like crying a lot ; ; ; ; #i'm already behind ; ; ; #i should ; ; ; try to work more tonight before the inevitability of it all hits me tomorrow ; ; ; ; ;

[lucalicatteart]

Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 10: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

Yesterday's poll decided that The Adventurer should join the travelers on the larger river boat for a short lunch ...

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"Before he even fully musters the courage to shout a 'hello', the large group on the boat initiates contact first, gleefully waving at him, whooping and shouting as they near his tiny raft in the water. Apparently, some of them were betting over whether they'd actually find any other travelers out on the river today.. He fumbles over his words a bit, as always, but somehow manages to successfully get himself invited onto their boat for a quick lunch..

After safely securing his raft to the side of the boat with some spare rope, he climbs aboard, stumbling into the excitement of some sort of celebration. A few of them explain that they're traveling for 'kahesallei', an old elven holiday recently re-popularized in some of the larger cities nearby. Whatever it's true meaning and origins used to be, the current significance (at least to those within the city walls) seems to just be mindless feasting, drinking, and gaudy decor. Most of the traveling group are strangers to each other, only brought together by catching a ride on the same tour/party boat, but the mood is light, quite friendly between them, and perhaps a bit drunk.

While the boat itself is relatively plain wood, it's been strewn with gold and orange banners, flags, shimmery tassels, beads, and bushels of dark green ivy braided with fresh herbs and wildflowers. There are flat round tables of food and drink, plenty of cushions to lounge on, and one random guy perched precariously on the edge railing of the boat, gently strumming a lute for background music..

The elderly ship captain hobbles over to The Adventurer, sternly explaining that, no matter what the 'silly' passengers say, he's only allowed to stay for an hour because he didn't pay for a boat ride ticket, and thus really shouldn't even be allowed on board. By the time The Adventurer has mentally processed this information, the captain has already returned to his little steering room, slamming the door shut with a displeased grunt.. It probably wouldn't be a good idea to confront him or question the rules...... But! Hey, at least he has one hour at the party.. How should he spend his time? "

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Additional Information

the adventurer's current main goal: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has

#paventure posting #polls #poll #choose your own adventure #LATE AGAIn I know.. I'm still in my weird unproductive spell. literally I've had the same 5 to do list items on my list #for 2 weeks now. I can't even do five simple things in 2 weeks lol. I did start some new supplements and change my diet since #my doctors are still trying to sort out what health issues are going on or etc. so maybe it's something with that #like accidentally on the new diet I'm not getting enough calories or not getting enough of some vitamin or something so it's made me oddly #brain foggy and just really tired and unable to focus well for the past few weeks or something..? ANYWYA. not really sure what #it is specifically but my functioning in terms of actually focusing on and completing tasks has been a lot worse . thus #chronically behind on things. which I am always chronically behind on things in some sense since I always have like 7000 projects #I'm working on at the same exact time and etc. lol. but like.. even more chronically behind than usual .. ToT #ANYWAY.. I'm suprised that the 'try to get a ride on the boat' option didn't get that many votes actually lol #Like.. treveling down a river in a tiny handmade raft is probably.. not extremely safe or efficient lol #But at least he gets to have lunch there. Just the hour that he's on the boat doing whatever will get him a lot further because the boat #is moving faster than his raft would be. It should still get him out of the river and back on track sooner. Because he still has a long way #to go to get to the abandoned castle. I know it's been a lot of days since I'm not keeping up well with actually doing these #daily or every other day - but technically in the story it's only been a little over a day since he left the Inn #The first day he just walked. the second day he saw there was a barrier in his path. then spent half the day building a boat. and now he'e #*he's where he is now. The trip is roughly 4 days and he's like.. a little over halfway through his second. Not counting any detours or #distractions he might run into. But at least at this pace he should be off the river before it starts to get dark #Thate the main thing. you want to get a good rest on solid ground. ideally. So long as nothing strange happens on the boat #but yeah! day 10.. of little elf man adventure... ALSO he is like early 20s I imagine. so he can drink hbhjbjh #I know the 'very quick simple ms paint style' is kind of chibi-ish so it makes people look young but he's not a boy #don't worry. I didnt want it to seem weird like some 10 year old kid walking into a party of drunk 30 year olds #like a toddler hanging out in a night club or whatever. It's safe and okay for him to be there. just for the record. lol #I mean maybe not SAFE safe. it's still a boat of like.. rowdy party goers who could easily fall over the edge into the water or whatever bu #but like.. safe in the sense that he's not a 6 year old being offered vodka by strangers at a party. etc. #despite his goofy nervous demeanor and chronic baby face syndrome he is indeed an actual adult somehow ghbj

[airbenderedacted]

I have college assignmrnts to do for tonig💥

#I DIDNT GET A LOT OF SLEEP BC I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO SLEEP BEFORE THE SUN COMES UP FOR MOST OF MY SUMME R BREAK AND STILL NOW OFF OF BREAK #AND ON TOP OF THAY I WOKE UP EARLYISH BC THERE WAS CRAZY THUNDER AWHAHDBVDBBS #today's challenge: Survive #i landed the president's list for last semester again i wonder if I'm just burned out an need more of a break than just. a week </3 #bc my abilities 2 focus on work and get started on all my studies asap asap like usual has not been. happening anymore #for a few weeks Before the end of the semester too (esp since a lot of irl obstacles tripped me up BAD the last month of last semester agh) #so um #girl help lol! #the ADHD has been ADHDing bAD SO BAD lately and it's only the first week aaaaa a a a aaaaaaaa #(and yes im on meds i just keep focusing on the wrong thingms on them rn. + bad skin picking bc sadly my meds always make that Worse aieee) #dodes it sound like im tired. my mom says i must just be tired. um. mmaybe. #i think right now specifically i certainlly am tired but lbr that's largely bc of Situation (horrible at goign tf to bed all the time alwa #a #so crazy bro i suddenly become like a top student (straight As for days and i fr feel like im REALLY GOOD AT stddying what im studying) #and th4n suddenly boom . category 5 consistent executive dysfunctions event (triggered by so so many big assignmennst last term) #..ok when i phrase it as category 5 consisten dt executive dysfunctions event THAT DOES SOUND LIKE. WHAT BURNOUT PROBABLY IS oh no! #girl HELP haha hel p

[isfjmel-phleg]

🧳

#random personal stuff #it's been months since the England trip got canceled #and I thought I took it reasonably well at the time #but nope the Disappointment showed up out of nowhere #I need to find something to look forward to #once the convention in March is over I go back to just sort of existing #but life has been nothing but plot twists lately so planning anything doesn't seem feasible at the moment #and I don't really know what I want #besides a vague need to run away from life and have adventures #which is of course ridiculous and not possible #anyway there's no point to this thank you for putting up with my nonsense

[cinewhore]

Sunday scaries have arrived so it’s time to sit on my balcony and contemplate what the hell is going on

#been on Instagram too much lately #seeing everyone hang out with friends #go on vacations #and just generally look like they’re having a great time is not good for me right now lol #i soooooooooo desperately want a fucking break and a nice trip to the beach #it’s too late to plan a trip for my birthday but i really want to go on vacation at the end of the year #I’m thinking Guatemala or Mexico since I’m closer to the border #need a cold cold cigarette to ease the pain #anyways Instagram is gone good riddance #gonna do my best not to isolate myself cause this is a time where i need folks the most

[cinematicnomad]

i’ve watched glass onion three times in the last 24 hours which is a little much, even for me 😂

#kat liveblogs her life #glass onion #a knives out mystery #basically i watched it late last night bc i saw it on netflix and i didn't think anyone else would want to watch it with me this trip #(my brother + dad saw it in theatres with me in nov and my mom normally doesn't like murder movies) #but then this afternoon my brother suggested we rewatch it together #and i was like 'well okay it's something to do sure why not' #AND THEN this evening my aunt and mom were trying to find something to watch and wound up on netflix #and my aunt asked what glass onion was about and my brother said they should watch it #and since my aunt and uncle are leaving early in the morning to head home to FL tomorrow my mom told me to stay and hang out #and that's how i watched it THREE TIMES

[supercantaloupe]

thinking abt getting myself a ticket to the met don giovanni in may but gd it'd be A Whole Fucking Thing to plan

#i don't have a problem going up to nyc alone though i prefer having company #but there's only really one performance that would work for me since my may is already pretty packed... #my mom just booked boheme in dc the other weekend i was looking at so the 20th is out #and i can't really do an evening show cause i'd have to stay the night. even with a matinee the trains would be. long and late #sigh. keeping it in mind. maybe if i go home that weekend i'm halfway already... #also have to find a way to justify the trip financially LOL. cause even if i get a shitty cheap seat the train tickets cost $ too #sasha speaks

[speedlimit15]

hi everybody i have 5 days to pay my rent or i get evicted and i’m $400 short because my hours at work got cut drastically after being trained

i fucking hate making posts like this especially since i’m not a Donatjon Post Reblogger so i’m not making it rebloggable. Followrrs Only type shit you know. but. i know it’s hard rn so no worries if you can’t/don’t want to, i’m just kind of flustered bc my family is also out of money and having extended health issues so i have uhh no options:))) jtenney94 is my vmo we could also work out a quick commission if you wanted to dm me we can figure out something!

#i’m embarrassed legitimately but i’m TRYING TO LEARN TO ASK FOR HELP WHEN I NEED IT!!!!!!! #anyway it would be dope if i could catch a break <3 i’ve been paying bills late with every single paycheck/student loan check for months #1 grocery trip $60 budget for 2 every 2 weeks etc i’m still paying my car every third month with my student loan right before they repo it #it’s been like this since i started school i’m like seriously considering applying for disability #i have a $20 monthly fun budget for goodwill but i’m gonna cut that out too for groceries #being an adult fucking BLOWS dude they LIED

[abby420]

i might….be….going…to..italy??? i-

#basically my child dev professor just sent me a study abroad opportunity for my minor and it is very tempting #it’s a 10 day trip in the spring traveling around italy studying the different school systems and since i’ve been eyeing school psych lately #she thought i might be interested #im guaranteed a spot i just need to apply before december but i’m really debating it help besties should i go #i would also get to go to conferences to speak to different education specialists in italy #and i just get to travel i think it’d be fun??? #but i’ve never gone out of the us and never been on a plane so i’m a little nervous #idk should i do it??

[philosophicalrocketeer]

desperately begging aether to finish trenton’s guitar duel w an mcr song

#recently realized i hadn't actually checked out mcr since middle school when my dad would put it on during road trips #found our black parade and danger days cds and well what do you fuckin know they slap #so i'm currently having an mcr phase one decade late #was this spurred by seeing pics of gerard way in his cheerleader uniform? yes. #oh by the way i'm going to the trenton nj ritual so if you see me say hi #cockatiel whistles

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

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#*lays head on table* #my brother asked me to pick up some parts for him since i'm in the city during the week anyways #and it's way down in the south east corner of the city #literally there's flat fields around it its so on the edge of the city #and it'll be at least an hour round trip from when i leave here and when i get back #but shark week started today and I'm just. so tired. #and i have a test tomorrow that i haven't really studied for #idk that there is much for studying for it anyways because it's basically just id'ing info from a pressure vessel drawing #but my only other option to get these parts is to try to get them on my way out of the city to go home tomorrow #which means fighting through the city during rush hour when it's already a pain in the ass to get from here to my place #UGH. even having someone to go with me would be better than nothing but idk where my roommate is or if she would even want to go #maybe if i take the route that islike one minute longer i can get a bubble tea and have a quick walk through the bookstore before they cls #but even then it'll be so close to closing time that there's no guarantee that they'd have the pearls on hand if it's too late #cause some places just stop making them at a certain time so that they don't have much if any left by actual closing #ARGH. At the very least i can get a Timmy's #kee speaks #we don't talk enough about how close and close are two different meanings but have the same spelling #english is bullshit

[mariocki]

Infinite list of favourite lyrics: 221/?

Half Man Half Biscuit - Stuck up a Hornbeam (2014)

"I'm so desolate, I'm so all alone.

I feel arthritic in every single bone.

I've got a mynah bird -

It does nothing but moan.

For you, I'd lose

My self-esteem;

For you, I'd lose

My self-esteem;

For Crewe, I'd use

Junction 16."

#favourite lyrics #half man half biscuit #stuck up a hornbeam #nigel blackwell #urge for offal #2014 #post punk #I'm admittedly late to the party with HMHB‚ despite being dimly aware of them for the last decade or two I'd never actually heard #any of their work until fairly recently‚ on a trip to a second hand record store where the owner was playing their (wonderfully titled) #2018 album No One Cares About Your Creative Hub So Get Your Fuckin' Hedge Cut. after chatting to him and laughing at the lyrics #i went home and looked them up and listened to a couple of albums all at once (as an aside‚ just going to record stores is honestly #a great way to discover music you haven't heard before‚ I've found several favourites this way) #Urge for Offal seems to be recommended by several critics as a good introduction to the band‚ with its guitar heavy pop punk #tight 3 minute songs and more up to date pop culture references (all of HMHB's back catalogue is bulging with wry references‚ jokes #and nods to bits of british culture‚ film‚ tv‚ history‚ music etc etc but as the band has been going since the mid 80s some of these lines #have drifted into obscurity for newer listeners. sure‚ i appreciate the Chigley drug parody but I'm weird‚ and idk how well known the #worlds of Trumptonshire are in 2023). regardless of accessibility‚ the band (and it's surprisingly difficult to find out who exactly is #writing their songs but some googling suggests lead singer and guitarist Blackwell is the key lyricist) #have a genius gift for witty juxtaposition of universal themes of love‚ loss and depression with hyper specific cultural illustration and #genuinely very funny jokes. the first time i heard this the 'for Crewe I'd use junction 16' line made me laugh out loud

[rotturn]

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#negative cw #i am feeling. very not good #every day we go to restaurants where there's nothing on the menu i can eat bc all ive been able to manage lately is soup #or sometimes mash potato and gravy but like. its gotta be a Good day and i have not had good days in a While #so i just sit and have nothing while they eat then down an entire block of white chocolate as soon as we get home bc its my comfort food #and like. i dont mind not eating at a restaurant or whatever im cool to chill and chat while someone eats it doesnt bother me #its just when theyre doing it every day and getting annoyed when I say i dont want anything as if they don't already know #mixed w the fact that my sister has been constantly unbearable its just been Rough #esp since we share a room #and we've been having issues w our accommodation in new york but i think hopefully it'll be sorted #im just exhausted and stressed all the time and there's no end in sight #and this trip has just made me aware of how much i do not feel loved by the people who should make me feel loved #like i love my mom and she does her best and she does make me feel better but sometimes shes a part of the problem #and i have support at home my roommates are so good for me but. theyre not here #and i feel shit every time i tell my roommate how i feel bc this is a once in a lifetime trip that she may never have a chance to take #and it makes me feel so guilty and selfish to not enjoy this but its so hard to enjoy #that one week where we were on the boat and i could have multiple soups a day was the only time i was happy #and its because i wasnt constantly starving and we didnt have stress about luggage or where we're staying #but ever since its just been constant stress and anxiety and hunger #and like. theres nothing i can really do ab any of it bc seeking out something i need means they dont get to do something they want #and i cant take what my sister wants away from her bc she'll throw a fit #mum says the usa will be ab me more but i know it wont be. i know exactly how it'll work #i will not have a chance to rest and be happy until im home and even then i have to find a job as soon as im back #bc i have bills and rent and i only budgetted enough for a month after i get back and that's with barely any groceries #and i get the feeling my roommates mad at me or upset ab something but i don't know how to approach it bc im on the other side of the world #and idk i feel like its me i feel like i did something wront #im just tired and sad and hungry all the time #but that's just. kinda my life innit #i just wish. people weren't upset with me all the time. i try so hard not to upset people but nothing i do ever seems good enough #i just want to be good enough. but i know im not.