#let me live in my own little world

[lunarharp]

What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this. #wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it... #some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself... #maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts. #orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little. #certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'. #i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

[stompandhollar]

i’ve literally just decided that the timeless child is the master & not the doctor. 🎀💗🌷like what’s chibnall gonna do i’m just choosing to live in the better timeline in my head and the man can’t stop me

#doctor who #anti chibnall #doctor who opinions #russell t davies 5ever #i’m half joking but really i’m not #timeless child arc #timeless child #i’m not even anti timeless child bc honestly like let people enjoy things but just personally i’ve decided to live in my own little world #personal #rosey rants #if anyone wants to tell me why it’s a good arc pls do i’m open to it #but like lowkey #would the master have not been so much better of a choice #i also just don’t know about living in a world where hartnell isn’t the first doctor ?? idk canon changes so much it truly doesnt matter but #something something it’s special being apart of a story that has so many variations #across generations #and can keep going and going because of how malleable it is #…still

[honestlydarkprincess]

Seven Sentence Sunday!

tagged by my loves @hippolotamus, @heartbeatdiaz, @spotsandsocks, @prince-buck-diaz mwah!

so the lutalia/dollenato brainrot has truly taken over and im going insane! have some of the kinktober fic that started it all, yes yes its way more than seven sentences shhhh counting has no place here

“I might,” Lucy murmured, her eyes flicking down to Natalia’s lips for a moment. Natalia felt her heart skip a beat, wondering if Lucy was about to kiss her. But then Lucy was easing off, taking a step back and saying, “It’s your turn.”

Natalia was flustered, a blush darkening her cheeks as she tried to get her heartbeat under control. Dammit, why did Lucy have to have such an effect on her? She took her turn and missed, badly. She glared at Lucy who merely gave her an innocent look. “You did that on purpose.”

“Did what, sweetheart?” Lucy asked, tilting her head and regarding Natalia with a soft smirk.

“Made me miss!”

“And how did I do that?” Lucy said softly, once again coming closer. She backed Natalia against the pool table and smiled when Natalia swallowed roughly, tilting her head up to look at her.

“You made me nervous,” Natalia said, the words spoken softly between them.

“Aw, I’m sorry,” Lucy teased, unable to keep from looking down at Natalia’s lips again. “Do you want me to stop?” She asked, and this time the question was genuine. She would stop the second Natalia said the word.

Natalia bit her lip. “No. That’s not what I want.”

“Good,” Lucy grinned, shark-like. Her expression turned thoughtful. “Y’know, the last time I was in this bar playing pool, I ended up kissing Buck. We were actually standing exactly like this,” Lucy gestured between them, referring to the way Natalia was sat slightly on the pool table, her head tilted up towards Lucy.

Natalia stared at Lucy for a second, contemplating her next words. “Are you going to kiss me then?” The second she said the words Natalia’s face felt like it was on fire.

no pressure tagging: @bigfootsmom, @lovebuck, @monsterrae1, @housewifebuck, @mysteriouslyyounggalaxy, @alyxmastershipper, @barbiediaz, @911onabc, @morganofthefairies, @rainbowtartt, @swiftietartt, @roy-kents, @folk-fae, @oliverstaark, @useramor, @wolfnprey, @panbuckley, @firemedicdiaz, @paranoidbean, @transbuck, @translasso, @devirnis, @wikiangela, and @shortsighted-owl !!

#HEHEHEHHE #if this sucks don't tell me just let me live in my own little world #seven sentence sunday #jess.writes #my writing #my wips #lutalia #dollenato #otp: life and death #lucy donato #natalia dollenmeyer #911 natalia #911 lucy #911 #911 fox #911 abc #911 on fox #911 on abc

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things #out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever #all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever #or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc. #especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple #and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already #done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and #all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you. #who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3 #my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster #talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo #I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache #or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop #e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all #sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef #t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of #way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I #think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i #gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!' #like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant #mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain #or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right #now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like #most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once #that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY #Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth

[valoale]

I wanted to take a cute picture of me and my dog today but somehow it didn’t go as planned

The queen goes rogue

#hello from an undisclosed location in South Karelia #also known as the underworld #I have never loved anyone or anything like I love my dog #and she deserves the world #and her own post #my soulmate #she’s getting old and it makes me sad #wish she could live forever #also crazy how I was able to go to the forest with my dog earlier and now I’m having one of the worst crashes my chronic illness cooks up #never let them know your next move right #anyway look at her cute little face #aino the dog #Vee talks

[severefartoholic]

stalker? I hardly know 'er!!!

#i dont know if snyone has made this joke before i don't know if ive seen it before #do NOT tell me if youve seen someone say it before let me live in my own little unknowing world #its four am im so h #joyful as fuck man im frollicing #this is what nikita said in execution BTW #when yura accused him #pafl shitposts #nopanamamaman

[socialfilter]

everybody shut up a minute I’m having a vision ✨

#I just think #it would be nice #natalie berzatto #sydney adamu #the bear #natalie x sydney #let me have some fun and be delusional #I live in my own fun little world #natalie berzatto x sydney adamu

[amorremanet]

Man, I realize demanding that someone execute their own brother is pretty fucked up, but He Xuan asking that of Shi Qingxuan still gave them more respect than Shi Qingxuan ever got from Shi Wudu [gave them the ability to make their own choice after finally being given the full story and enough context to actually have the capacity for informed consent, something that Shi Wudu spent centuries denying to Shi Qingxuan] and also, He Xuan did nothing wrong and should be allowed to do all the atrocities he wants, thank you for your time

#this bitch told me shi wudu loves his brother more than anything; i said 'bitch where' #she said 'under all his bluster and overbearing bullshit'; i said 'BITCH *WHERE*' #like………all tea all shade: shi wudu is actually the person who jiang cheng antis think they are hating #selfish? check. never listens? check. disrespects everyone's agency? check. no self-reflection on atrocities? check. learns nothing? CHECK. #i wish all jiang cheng antis a very 'please read tgcf so you can at least meet a character who actually does all the things you're saying' #literally every decision he made was fundamentally fucking selfish & he just gaslit himself into believing #that he did it—all of it—out of love for shi qingxuan #like how do you look at shi qingxuan—finally in the loop after centuries of being denied that chance—telling their gege #'no please let's pick the first option i would rather be a piteous wretch driven to madness by my own suffering than #live in a world where you died unnecessarily; we can make things right with he xuan AND both live; a miserable life is better than DEATH' #and shi wudu going 'lmao denied stop being a whiny little bitch and come chop my head off already you'll thank me for this later' #and walk away from that genuinely believing that this is a man who loves his brother. it's pretty clear to me that he does not. #love looks like a lot of different things and as far as i'm concerned this ain't one of them #also he xuan should be allowed to do all the atrocities he pleases thank u #kassie hush #mine: text #opinions for ts #wank for ts #idk? maybe? i'm being a hater so it probably counts

[callixton]

my theatre taste has gotten exponentially more particular in the last two years and yknow what i think that's a great thing

#could elaborate on this. a lot. but it really comes down to like. that's what getting to see more theater does for you! #it lets you make more decisions about what you like and think is good quality! #i was gonna say more pretentious but it really isn't that bc like. that has far too many associations that i don't share #and also a lot of my favorite theater is the grittiest kind #but idk. if you only have access to a couple of proshots online and then live theater suddenly becomes much more accessible of course your #- tastes will change #that said maybe it is a little bit of pretension bc sometimes my classmates opinions on theater make me insane. #mostly just what they think is boring. holy shit grow up n mature n see the world thru eyes besides ur own. sorry <3 #ted talks

[m00ngbin]

i lied. i dont actually like sex. put your clothes back on. im going to explain to you how one weird little kid changed the lives of tons of people for the better and at the end of of the series everyone he's helped and changed comes back to help him and return the favor. Let me explain to you the parallels between each of their arcs with the last few episodes. Let me tell you about how his brother finally realizes that it was all him. Every part of that kid is him and they all need to learn to live with it and accept and love him and help him not repress himself because that's what caused the problem in the

first place. Let me rant about how his friend/one-sided rival uses what he said when they first met back to him. (about not using powers to hurt other people) Let me scream about how the friend's first fight with him and last fight are direct parallels. Let me scream about how he shows how much that boy has changed him by opting to protect civilians instead of himself. I'm going to tell you about how after the former terrorist he saved finally realizes that instead of sacrificing himself to save the city he should survive and be there for his son and try to make amends and continue to be better. Let me talk about how even though the people he works out with KNOW that really they're no match for him and they don't really know what's going on, they still try to help him anyways. Because they're friends. That's what friends do and they love him. They just want to support him in every way they can. Let me scream and cry about how his mentor, the man he's known the longest, the man he trusts the most in the world finally admits that he lied to him and he's been lying to him and he finally tells the truth and that's exactly what that boy needs. He needed the truth. It shocked him back to reality, and everyone he's talked to up until that point, INCLUDING HIMSELF, shows him that everyone loves him, and they all accept him, the only problem is that he's unable to accept himself. He's been refusing to forgive himself since he was a little kid for something he didn't even mean to do, and he's been repressing and hiding important parts of himself because he's afraid. And he doesn't need to be afraid because he has people that are there for him and they all love him. LET ME THROW THE BIGGEST FIT YOUVE EVER SEEN WHILE I EXPLAIN TO YOU JUST HOW IMPORTANT THAT TALK BETWEEN HIM AND THE PART OF HIMSELF HES BEEN TRYINF TO REPRESS IS AND HOW MUCH IT CHANGED HIM. HE FINALLY ACCEPTS HIMSELF FOR WHO HE IS AND HES FINALLY ABLE TO FORGIVE HIMSELF AND MOVE ON AND GROW

#can you tell that this show actually means the world to me #and let me just say that while i understand that she wouldn't have been able to do anything i wish Tome had been there #shes also super important to the story and i wish that she'd been there too #AND LET ME ALSO SO HOW UTTERLY UPSET I AM THAT SERIZAWA DIDNT SAY ANYTHING UNTIL PROBABLY AFTERWARDS #SERIZAWA WAS THE FIRST AND ONLY PERSON TO TRULY UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING SHIGEO HAD GONE THROUGH #HE WAS THE ONLY ONE TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THE MOGAMI INCIDENT #HE WAS THE ONLY ONE AND IT BREAKS MY HEART THAT THEY NEVER HAD A MOMENT #anyways i get why it didnt happen but i wish they had gotten to have a little moment together #anyways special shoutout to the seventh divison guys i didnt mention that were working at the store #sorry to sakurai and koyama i would have absolutely mentioned you too but my hand is getting tired and you werent there for very long #but i will say something now #i love how seriously they take protecting the store. even if they werent able to save it from destruction #it really goes to show how they took what reigen said to heart and tried as hard as possible to live normal average lives #they were willing to protect that store at the cost of their own safety just because they were so thankful for the chance to be normal #so sick over everyone in this show #sorry guys #had to get this out #AND I COULD WRITE MORE #but my hand is getting tired again

[pastel-rights]

And then I finally end it off with some doodles of them… they make me feel things.

#ringmaster doodles #sona art #( they’re very much the theme of. love in the face of the neverending march of time. ) #( being immortal and knowing you will outlive the man you love because someone else deemed he unworthy of eternal life. ) #( he may still have tens of thousands of years left. sure. but you know that those will go by and he’ll disappear in the blink of an eye. ) #( and you’ll sit there on his death bed. wondering why did things end up like this? ) #( wondering what you did wrong. and if you could have done something different. you’ll always ask yourself. ) #( if he lives a life of happiness and comfort or did he live a life as gruesome and miserable as the wars on earth? but you won’t know. ) #( and the more you think about it. the more you realize it. how nihilistic he was. and how he never seemed to smile even in the good times. #he always seemed to have a frown or a scowl on his face. he always seems bothered and unhappy. ) #( so you wonder if it was something you did. because you know you aren’t perfect. you’re hardly good. ) #( you wonder if he’s mad at you. maybe he was. but he doesn’t have the heart to stay mad. ) #( and that’s love in the face of adversity. knowing that no matter how bad it gets. he loves you as you love him. ) #( and you wonder why he never smiles. because he truly never does. and so you ask him. honest and true. ) #( and he tells you there isn’t anything worth smiling for. nothing in this whole world. ) #( but he smiles at you. it’s always small. and it’s always brief. ) #( but that smile. that smile means love. ) #( that hug. as flimsy as it may be. that hug means love. ) #( of course. he isn’t affectionate. if anything. he detests it. he hates physical contact of any kind. you’ve noticed. ) #( which is a shame. you love your hugs and your kisses and your hand holding. ) #( but even if he doesn’t like it. he lets you do it. because it makes you happy. ) #( and you learn that when you’re happy. he’s a little less miserable. ) #( of course. not all love is equal. and not all love is fair. ) #( the love from a lover and the love from the father can never equate to one another. ) #( no one will love you in the same way a father or mother loves you. in the same manner. no one will ever love you the way I do. ) #( because my love will remain with you. long after I disappear. ) #( and as bitter as the idea of my own existence coming to an end is. knowing I did all of this for. essentially nothing. ) #( that I’ve gone through all this pain and suffering and hardship just for it to all amount to nothing. for it to be fucking useless to try. #I get to die knowing that you’ll always love and be loved. and that’s enough for me… ) #( … maybe there is something worth smiling for after all. )

[satan-is-obsessed]

me: i really wish i could be in a relationship and have this person who loves me and i love them and spend our time together and- and cuddle

also me: i can't be in a relationship for everyone is hot and i need to be available in case Pedro pascal or joseph quinn learn i exist also... DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME

#she's a little crazy ur honor #it's like I'm touch starved but at the same time i just want to be alone and sleep alone and have my own private bubble of no human contact #i kinda think I'd be a good gf but also kinda don't want to be cause there could always be someone better yknow #she has issues #joseph quinn #pedro pascal #let me live in my little fantasy world

[a11sunday]

TAG DUMP , pt. 1

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ this right hand bestows thirst. you shall shrivel and die ( crocodile ). *✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ sometimes it takes more courage not to fight ( makino ). ‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ if i forgo duty for family now ̗ what will become of justice ( monkey d. garp ).

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ i am the man who will become king of the pirates ( monkey d. luffy ).

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ take me out to sea with you ! a desire to live ( nico robin ).

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ primadonna girl ̗ all i ever wanted was the world ( perona ).

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ i am fire itself. you can't even touch me ( portgas d. ace ).

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ a man who has cooked on every sea in the world ( red leg zeff ).

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ looks like it was a little too spicy for you! devil of the blue sea ( sanji ).

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ they call him the dark king ̗ the pirate king's first mate ( silvers rayleigh ).

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ my sword will cut the blindfold from justice's eyes ( tashigi ).

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ i'll become a doctor who can cure any disease. a reliable doctor ( tony-tony chopper ).

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ to become a brave warrior of the sea ( usopp ).

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ passion bleeds red ̗ this eye of mine sees the core of you ( viola ).

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ fate may have paved the way but i will choose to walk it ̗ enacting my will ( clover d. iselda ).

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ pure lucid evil ̗ i'd sleep all right with all that on top of me ( nina liu ).

‧͙⁺˚･༓☾　⸻ and the sea has a beloved whose name all nightmares know ( otorobashi akai ).

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ let me go mad in my own way. let me live without abandon ( zhi hua ).

*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ member of the sogeking fanclub ( ooc ).

#‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ this right hand bestows thirst. you shall shrivel and die ( crocodile ). #*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ sometimes it takes more courage not to fight ( makino ). #‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ if i forgo duty for family now ̗ what will become of justice ( monkey d. garp ). #‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ i am the man who will become king of the pirates ( monkey d. luffy ). #*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ take me out to sea with you ! a desire to live ( nico robin ). #*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ primadonna girl ̗ all i ever wanted was the world ( perona ). #‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ i am fire itself. you can't even touch me ( portgas d. ace ). #‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ a man who has cooked on every sea in the world ( red leg zeff ). #‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ looks like it was a little too spicy for you! devil of the blue sea ( sanji ). #‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ they call him the dark king ̗ the pirate king's first mate ( silvers rayleigh ). #*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ my sword will cut the blindfold from justice's eyes ( tashigi ). #‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ i'll become a doctor who can cure any disease. a reliable doctor ( tony-tony chopper ). #‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ to become a brave warrior of the sea ( usopp ). #*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ passion bleeds red ̗ this eye of mine sees the core of you ( viola ). #*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ member of the sogeking fanclub ( ooc ). #*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ fate may have paved the way but i will choose to walk it ̗ enacting my will ( clover d. iselda ). #‧͙⁺˚･༓☾ ⸻ and the sea has a beloved whose name all nightmares know ( otorobashi akai ). #*✭˚･ﾟ✧*･ﾟ* ⸻ let me go mad in my own way. let me live without abandon ( zhi hua ). #tag dump.

[snowflop]

Happy new year from me and my beastie 🎉

#wishing you all a safe and happy 2024. #i know everything is kinda... horrible forever but we all gotta persevere okay? lets do our best to find joy in the little things. #last year was. okay for me i think #like. i really didn't get up to much but i enjoyed myself immensely #and i did a few little hobby things i've wanted to for ages. made an itabag that was awesome #got a pin press. did some embroidery. did some painting. started collecting everything i need for my bjd #next year... i want to get into sewing doll clothes (both for my bjd and for plushies) and knitting (i'd like to make my own leg warmers) #it'd be nice to do more painting to. like traditional stuff. it's gonna be so bad but its fun so i keep trying #hobby stuff aside i'd like to attend 1 (one) convention. it's scary and expensive but... ahh i really really want to #we'll see if i can budget it in -w-) #i don't think i have any particular resolutions... ah wait. gonna draw AT LEAST 1 thing a month #was diseased or something last October and fell into a slump. not this year. 2024 is MY year. for art at least #i've lost the plot with the tags because i'm typing it between reading subtitles but you get the idea. i lived. you lived. we'll be fine #WAIT!!! i forgot the cats. wah. #the cats are hands down THE best thing that happened to me last year I love them. #Haru and Christopher (pictured above) are my brightest light in this cold dark world they make me so so happy every day #snow blogging

[therampicncrew]

Tag Dump

#✨ • cinder | she had no desire to be queen; all she wanted was freedom • #✨ • kai | i believe it is the mark of a great leader to question the decisions that came before him • #✨ • scarlet | she did not know the wolf was a wicked sort of creature and she was not afraid of him • #✨ • wolf | i think i realized I would rather die because i betrayed them than live because i betrayed you • #✨ • cress | she was a girl; a living girl; smart and sweet and awkward and unusual • #✨ • thorne | maybe there is a little bit of a hero in me after all but really only a little • #✨ • winter | the palace walls have been bleeding for years and no one else sees it • #✨ • jacin | i serve my princess; no one else • #✨ • iko | that is the best idea ever; count me in • #✨ • levana | I am capable of choosing my own battles if that is what it takes to win the war • #✨ • myha | can you remember who you were before the world told you who you should be • #✨ • atticus | it is that heart of gold and stardust soul that makes you beautiful • #✨ • enya | and here you are living in spite of it all • #✨ • cinder & kai | i have to ask if you think someday you might consider being an empress • #✨ • scarlet & wolf | you’re the only one; you’ll always be the only one • #✨ • cress & thorne | i promise i will not let you die without being kissed • #✨ • winter & jacin | ever since we were kids all i have ever wanted is to protect you • #✨ • cinder & iko | you can help me pick out a tiara when we’re done saving the world • #✨ • scarlet & winter | you have been my friend; that in itself is a tremendous thing • #✨ • levana & evret | from this day forward you will be my sun at dawn and my stars at night • #✨ • levana & channary | come here baby sister; i want to show you something • #✨ • myha & atticus | because of you I have been changed for good • #✨ • enya & scarlet & wolf | i am still here loving you silently in the only way i can • #✨ • pinned post | even in the future the story begins with once upon a time • #✨ • headcanon | and they all lived happily to the end of their days • #✨ • verse info | maybe the princess could save herself; that sounds like a pretty good story too • #✨ • answered asks | what did you bring me today? delusional mutterings with a side of crazy? • #✨ • open starter | maybe there is no such thing as fate; maybe it is just the opportunities we’re given and what we do with them • #✨ • closed starter | you need a system debug if you think i would abandon you now • #✨ • mun things | writing is a kind of magic too •

[rainbluealoekitten]

i genuinely feel so bad for my ex's gf though because she's out here posting on her insta that it's their 3 month anniversary but boyo is making me playlists with unrequited love songs and posts stuff about being nostalgic about when we were dating, keeps complimenting how i look, and literally yesterday was telling me he still has the sticker we stole from the library where we held hands and cuddled like. he's such an important friend to me but really i guess i will have to cut him off (again) bc i thought we were both over this but apparently not and it's just going to hurt a lot of people if i don't

#also in all honesty i am scared that i will do something stupid without realising it or while in a not very lucid state #like once after we broke up i let him fall asleep on me around 4am then we watched the sun rise together until i finally left to find #my own bed #like i knew i shouldn't be doing that but i hadn't slept in over 24 hours and #he was so sad and so was i and i just needed someone but he just needed me. and we really did seem like we could but perfect #but yk what this relationship has taught me a lot and still does because to him? we should have been soulmates and i get why #i mean we read the same poetry and cry at the same music and he loves it when i infodump about greek mythology and i love it when he sends #pictures of his cats and our art is so desperate for another person to See Us and we danced in the rain once #and it was one of the most beautiful moments of my life #but it's never going to be right and idk he can't accept that i don't and never will and never have loved him. i'm sorry it seems perfect #but it's a good reflection moment for me too in all honesty yk #bc the boy i'm obsessed with also could have been someone fated for me i mean #what's the chance we live on the same street twice despite having travelled the world? #what's the chance he and i-both very private and solitary individuals-immediately felt we could confide in each other? #but apparently that doesn't mean shit to him #and idk maybe he's also just as sorry and as apologetic and maybe even a little #heartbroken over it #just like i am w my ex but. idk #i do not know #anyways once i get the motivation to write a full novel then it's over for everyone #until then you get my shitty journal musings #blue screams into the void