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many-but-one · 1 day
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Recently saw a post about folks feeling upset about CDD systems saying they are endo-neutral yet also not wanting to see endo stuff on their dashboards. I’m not reblogging and adding to it because I feel like it would kind of be beating a dead horse because a mutual of mine said basically the same thing I’m about to say and I wanted to make my own post about it. I rarely make posts about syscourse for a variety of reasons but I do think this is something that is important.
I’ve been endo-neutral for a long time, a couple years at least. I’ve openly stated that I find endogenic plurality plausible and interesting. I’ve made a video on tiktok about this subject that got me a plethora of vague posts and made people despise me for having the take that I did. I’ve gotten both hate anons and positive anons on tumblr thanking me or hating me for taking the stance that I did. I’ve met endos who were lovely people and I’ve met endos who were really shitty people. And the same for anti-endos. I’ve been watching the syscourse battle rage on for years and the fact that the same stuff keeps coming up over and over with no “winner” (because it’s a discussion that doesn’t need to have a winner imo—endos can believe what they want and so can anti-endos) makes it feel like the two sides are constantly battling over a fictional no-man’s-land that has only ended in people being hurt, people being hurtful, and just so much fucking negativity.
However, as a CDD system, I don’t think it’s completely implausible to not want to see endo related stuff on my dashboard. I personally believe that the two groups *should* be separate. Because clearly the two groups trying to blend together is what *causes* this discourse to get so bad in the first place. Even if you believe you have a traumagenic system but identify as endo because you don’t think you’re disordered, then the resources and experiences talked about in the CDD tag won’t apply to you. Folks who have a CDD have childhood trauma and therefore their experiences are going to center around being traumatized. I shouldn’t have to want to see stuff from a non-disordered/endo system on my dash if our experiences don’t align at all. I shouldn’t have to preach my neutrality or support for endos day and night for me to be able to say that I am endo neutral or endo supportive.
The main reason I identify as endo neutral despite having a general support of endo systems existing is for a variety of reasons. The main ones being 1) I cannot police other people’s personal experiences 2) whether endogenic plurality is proven by science or not doesn’t matter to me because I’m not endogenic 3) I hate participating in syscourse and taking sides or disclosing sides openly is by nature partaking in it but Gods Forbid I don’t declare what side I’m on or I’m somehow betraying one side or the other 4) both sides can and have been incredibly toxic to each other and I don’t like that kind of negativity in my life, I’ve had enough of having to take sides who are both shit in my life 5) I think the fact that we are STILL fighting over this shit and have been for years with no leeway one way or another makes the fight pointless and should just Stop and 6) I do believe in a separation of the groups because I genuinely believe many if not most systems on either side will refuse to exist in harmony, not to mention the experiences of each side are completely different and non-comparable in exception to both sides having alters present—whether formed by trauma or other means.
I support the views of some endos. I support the views of some anti-endos. I understand why there is animosity on both sides. It is not possible for me to even take a side. However, because I’m a CDD system who has A Lot of trauma, my experiences are not comparable to that of endos and I don’t want to see their content on my dash. I don’t follow the plural tag, I don’t follow the syscourse tag, so I don’t often see endo stuff on my dash because those tend to be spaces in which both are present. And that’s fine because I can curate my own tumblr experiences. But when I see endo stuff in the DID tag or the dissociative disorder tags, that’s when I do get annoyed because endogenic plurality is not comparable to a CDD. And if you’re a traumagenic system who identifies as endo, I feel like that means you should make your own tags and stay out of the ones meant for one side or the other. Or stick to endo only tags. Mixed origins tags exist, don’t co-opt the traumagenic tags when you have distanced yourself from being traumagenic by identifying as endo. You know? Traumagenic tags, DID tags, dissociative disorder tags—all those are for disordered systems, systems who have a complex dissociative disorder. We HAVE made our own tags and our own spaces, they just semi-regularly get co-opted by endo users.
And the same goes for anti-endos. Stop freaking tagging your endo hate with endogenic tags. If you don’t want them in your spaces so badly, don’t invade their spaces either. Fucksakes.
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ind1c0lite · 6 months
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Also some people seemed to not have known that Hbomberguy is Bi and if ur one of those people I highly recommend this video
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He talks abt it here! tis a very good video
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ex0rin · 8 months
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sparky-is-spiders · 5 months
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More thinking about the Jonder (Jon Gender). I imagine Jon discovering it/its pronouns and just being Drawn to them. Jon meets somebody who goes by it/its and can’t stop thinking about it (pun intented) but can never work up the courage to admit it even to themselves so they use they/them in their head or with close friends (read: Georgie) and he/him everywhere else. By the time Jon is ready to use it/its for itself it’s already at the Magnus Institute, a place where they feel a constant need to come off as Professionally As Possible and nobody ELSE is using Neopronouns (for the same reasons as Jon, although it doesn’t know that) and is it even safe to be out as any shade of queer at all so it continues with business as usual pronoun-wise. And then it discovers that it’s turning into an eldritch inhuman monster and its gender feelings get 5000% more complicated.
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one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t
#and that you’re a terrible writer and that no one cares aaaaaaand imposter syndrome kicks in and you just feel like crap#bc all your friends have been wriying recejtky so why can’t you??? cause they’re bETTER THAN YOU#lol idk why my head is so bad today#the feelings of inferiority and emptiness and idk worthlessness are strong and i hate it but i can’t stop it#i just wanna write!!! and like what i write!!!#but i Can’t and i haven’t liked anything i’ve written in Months and ugh i hate not being able to d something i wanna do#oh and now i’m crying??? why the frick am i cRYING litetally why is typing this making me Worse#sorry guys needed to rant#the inadequacy was strong today#something something students keep telling me how much they dislike me or how i’m whiny for asking them to be respectful and like#i Know i shouldn’t compare myself to my friends but gosh it’s hard when they’re all like. so much better than me.#and i don’t have a lot of time to be on tumblr bc of work so i just feel like i’m watching everything from afar and it’s no one’s fault but#my brain’s like no one is Doing anything it’s just my brain being dumb and i can’t stand it and I want to stop feeling empty and like i’m#missing a part of myself and like the words i write don’t matter gOD why can’t i just feel happy with where i am and not care what the kids#who hate me say or realize that no one cares that i’m not on much like i’m still Here and trying to interact it’s not like everyone hates me#for being busy or for liking side characters more than the main characters and just—#sorry#that felt good actually#idk what came over me#imma just. imma shower. then maybe delete my tags#sorry if anyone got this far aT ALL grace is either asleep or trying to sleep so i don’t wanna bother them since they slept poorly last nigh#okay done now for real sorry delete tags later sorry if you saw this and how freaking messed up ky freaking brain is
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achairwithapandaonit · 10 months
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by any chance does anyone have any demon slayer fic recs where nezuko is actually more of a proper character and gets development and is allowed to grow? cause honestly the further i've gotten in this manga the more disappointed in it i've been with the lack of meaningful development, especially in nezuko
#no idea if this is actually a controversial opinion on the series cause i've not come across much criticism#but i do think it falls short on every character. the concepts are great and i enjoy the characters and had a lot of fun watching and#reading this series. but i do think that it fails to do much that's actually meaningful or impactful with any of the characters#ready to be disagreed with but i feel like the only development nezuko ever got was when she went to attack those humans and had to#be restrained by tanjirou. and it falls incredibly flat when she never really has any other struggles other than at the start of the series#i thought she was meant to be a main character but she's more like a set piece#maybe i'm just missing something cause i'm still about 50 chapters from the end. but i just got so disappointed after they did nothing with#her becoming sun resistant except pull a gag that i didn't want to pick the manga up again#like that was the chance to do more with her and finally give her development and let her relationships develop! and the fact that they did#nothing kind of highlighted to me that the series really hadn't done much with any of the characters#there's beats where it feels like there's growth but i don't actually know what about the characters has grown??? apart from getting a new#power and being stronger because of it#they don't grow as characters. and supposed development only ever happens during fights or off screen#anyway i should stop criticising. i'm just very disappointed cause i really enjoyed the manga and then that happened and it was like what's#the point#criticism#demon slayer criticism#<- so you can block the tag if you don't want to see this stuff#it feels very negative for the fact that you really can't expect much from shounen. and i DID enjoy it. it's just disappointing#(the shinobu thing is also annoying. like i like that she can't decapitate demons and that she uses poison but the reason for it being that#she's weak and small is bullshit and FEELS like it's written that way because she's a woman)
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dreamyprinx · 1 year
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would y’all like be interested in seeing more like crafts/jewelry from me since I’m taking a break from love digital art for the most part?
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the-acid-pear · 11 months
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I have yet to keep inspecting the sweepstakes, I need some air and food first, but I might as well share what I've been thinking about Mike today, because I heard of an interpretation saying Mike was a camera man for Spamton which ... Is very interesting. Like for me this makes me think of Mike as someone who admired Spamton, someone way smaller than him, definitely younger imo, who simply excitedly followed along with the orders given. I mean, up to a certain point. I mean this feeling is reinforced in the q&a when asked about Mike, that makes Spamton get very defensive, almost protective. In my eyes it almost creates this almost platonic familiar bond dynamic whatever. But like this is just a shot in the dark, bc what we know is, 3 lines, period. But if when chapter 3, 4 and 5 come out and Mike is there and I'm right about these things then I'm gonna feel like a god tbh.
#luly talks#not gonna put this one on main tag bc its a bit too vague and speculative and shit but im leaving rbs on in case some1 is like hm ur into#something here nemo im which case i will wag my tail and bat my eyelashes#but am i making sense anyway?#like just to make sure: my idea of mike is a camera man younger and smaller than Spamton who admired the guy#and spamton out of idk fondness bc he reminded him of his old self kinda took the guy under his wing in a way#that's why he's so protective and shit#although unrelated to this bc just. putting that there and NOT touching it but it's interesting what Spammy says right after name dropping#mike if you believe in the cameraman interpretation (which i saw in a video i then stopped watching bc i wanted to explore that shit myself)#bc he right after says to not believe anything you see on tv but this could easily imply mike did do his part but the editing team changed#shit. but its just very curious what involvement Mike could've had because. why would he be as targeted as he appears to be?#and what caused him to also abandone spamton? is mike even fucking alive? judging by Spammy's q&a dialogue you'd assume he is#but i mean that's official but not canon right so it's a bit hard to judge?#but Mike seems to be the only one he isn't really resentful towards for leaving him almost implying it wasn't Mike's choice?#i just can't wait to see more of this bc it's gonna reveal a whole side to this little puppet previously unknown#in fact i think that after breathing some air im gonna go look at the snowgrave neo fight flavor text and cry and piss and etc#I'm still not over spamton begs the audience to stop taking the furniture i can see the poor guy being evicted as he tries to plead not to#so vividly wugh. my poor little guy of questionable morals . . . 😢#also don't get me started on the commemorative ring man what on earth is going on there.........
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gible-love-nibles · 2 years
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Good morning gamers, why does a two-minute shoe commercial released 7 years ago give Marvin more respect and credence to him being a basketball player than a full-length film about Toons playing basketball that was released last year
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isa-ghost · 2 years
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ok no i need to get smth outta my system rq, dont rb this or i’ll block you
#people who might relate can come to my askbox if they want#but anyway.......#me watching some fuckos who i KNOW were supporting tea blogs and spreading bullshit with them about Sean back a few years ago--#--crawl back into the community bc IRIS dropped#me staring at how much fucking pain and stress and rage they caused me and all my friends and now theyre all back and sunshine like they--#never shit on Sean in their lives or nitpicked anything about his behavior or friendships#me watching them have the gall to follow me and interact with my friends and a bunch of popular jse blogs like they never did anything--#--to hurt this community in their lives. me watching them flaunt how long theyve ''enjoyed'' Sean's content as if they werent being absolute#pieces of shit to him and spreading bullshit in the MAIN TAGS and calling him problematic for every breath he took back in 2019#it might be water under the bridge to some of the community but you are NOT welcome back to me. and certainly not on my fucking blog#the absolute HELL that was the tea blog era permanently scarred me and a lot of people i know#fuck you guys for having the audacity to slither back to this community just because hes finally able to work on a project you were--#RELENTLESSLY bitching about him ''abandoning'' and shitting on him for not doing it on your terms. fuck you ESPECIALLY for pretending like--#you werent saying the most vile garbage about him with other people who turned the tumblr jse community an abandoned WASTELAND
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bumblingbabooshka · 2 years
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Was trying to design a telepathic alien child that is the embodiment of ‘kills you with my mind’ - and I succeeded! So here’s my daughter, Jeepers!
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#My main design influences were 50's sewing guides on pinterest - Jake Sisko - and The Jetsons#This alien telepath child with the urge to hurt others is me fulfilling a promise (by which I mean random post) I made a while ago#saying I wanted to give Tuvok and Lon Suder a violent girl ward - so here she is v_v#her race does not have arms! Nothing bad happened to her arms - she was just born like that as are all her people#My thought is that Jeepers was abandoned on a planet by her people and the shock/trauma of that abandonment + having no one to guide her#led to her basically taking over that planet and banning all adults from it as she views adults as untrustworthy and terrible!#When any ships with children aboard enter into the planet's air space she uses her powers to disorient/distract the adults and sends#her little army of children aboard the ship to cause havoc and bring whatever children were on it back down to the planet#the planet is full of crashed ships because if anyone tries to go down to get the children back she disorients them enough to crash the ship#I have an entire episode idea but long story short is that Tuvok - the ultimate dad - fights through all attempts to scare him away in order#to rescue the children - and when he sees that their attacker actually IS a child herself he wants to help her as well#and she desperately probes his mind for the hatred/anger/fear she's felt from all the other adults but finds none#and then she cries and he picks her up and soothes her like any good parent would v_v#I think they eventually return her to her people! Tuvok and his telepath daughters whom he has to say goodbye to v_v#Jeepers cannot actually telepathically influence people to do things - she can only make them hallucinate but she's VERY good at doing it#however as a child she often has trouble keeping the hallucinations realistic or logical#which works for fear but not so much for trickery#also she'll bite you! So watch out for that#bea art tag#star trek oc#Jeepers#Her eyes go spiral-y when using her telepathic abilities#her people also age very slowly so she's probably pretty old in human years but she's still a child if that makes sense#like - say her species lives to be a thousand years old. 200 years old would still be a small child.#she remembers her parents being 'really tall' and when you ask her how tall she says 'outer-space big'#her name is from Jeepers Creepers by the hi-los:#jeepers creepers where did you get those peepers? Jeepers creepers - where'd you get those eyes??#How did they get so lit up?? How'd they get that size???? <- it's a pretty disconcerting song
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wren-kitchens · 2 years
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hey hey hey guess who finally watched the videos sent to us from the hospital about chronic fatigue
this procrastinating motherfucker
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dearestagony · 16 days
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— ✿ TAG DUMP. › JILLIAN NAKAMURA.
— ✿ i'll bring you to life i'm a holy fuck. › jillian's main verse.
— ✿ she’s dropping out of school ‘cause she don’t need the grades the colors in her hair don’t seem to fade. › jillian's high school verse.
— ✿ and all you wanted was somebody who cared. › jillian's yugioh gx verse.
— ✿ you say i'm complicated that i must be out my mind. › yugioh 5ds verse.
— ✿ i’m your biggest fan i’ll follow you until you love me. › jillian's rockstar verse.
— ✿ step right up to watch the freak go crazy. › jillian's naruto verse.
— ✿ she's a novice a beginner i'm the sexorcist the sinner. › jillian's noragami verse.
— ✿ what's wrong with being confident. › jillian's ohshc verse.
— ✿ oh please let me warn them don't you come here don't bring anyone here. › jillian's ancient egypt verse.
— ✿ jillian nakamura. › in character.
— ✿ came from the trauma stayed for the drama. › jillian's aesthetics.
— ✿ i can guide you i can teach you honey this is just a preview. › jillian's headcanons.
— ✿ try to be sexy but don't be too sexual. › jillian's appearance.
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hclyfvckcd · 7 months
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— ✿ tag dump. › JILLIAN NAKAMURA.
— ✿ i'll bring you to life i'm a holy fuck. › main verse.
— ✿ she’s dropping out of school ‘cause she don’t need the grades the colors in her hair don’t seem to fade. › high school verse.
— ✿ and all you wanted was somebody who cared. › yugioh gx verse.
— ✿ you say i'm complicated that i must be out my mind. › yugioh 5ds verse.
— ✿ i’m your biggest fan i’ll follow you until you love me. › rockstar verse.
— ✿ step right up to watch the freak go crazy. › naruto verse.
— ✿ she's a novice a beginner i'm the sexorcist the sinner. › noragami verse.
— ✿ what's wrong with being confident. › ohshc verse.
— ✿ oh please let me warn them don't you come here don't bring anyone here. › ancient egypt verse.
— ✿ jillian nakamura. › in character.
— ✿ came from the trauma stayed for the drama. › aesthetics.
— ✿ i can guide you i can teach you honey this is just a preview. › headcanons.
— ✿ try to be sexy but don't be too sexual. › appearance.
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coles-scythe · 7 months
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Ngl ever since I watched TADC, Pomni has been rotating in my brain like rotisserie chicken. Feeling silly, might make her an F/O.
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hclyfvckcda · 8 months
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— ✿ tag dump. › JILLIAN NAKAMURA.
— ✿ i'll bring you to life i'm a holy fuck. › main verse.
— ✿ she’s dropping out of school ‘cause she don’t need the grades the colors in her hair don’t seem to fade. › high school verse.
— ✿ and all you wanted was somebody who cared. › yugioh gx verse.
— ✿ you say i'm complicated that i must be out my mind. › yugioh 5ds verse.
— ✿ i’m your biggest fan i’ll follow you until you love me. › rockstar verse.
— ✿ step right up to watch the freak go crazy. › naruto verse.
— ✿ she's a novice a beginner i'm the sexorcist the sinner. › noragami verse.
— ✿ what's wrong with being confident. › ohshc verse.
— ✿ jillian nakamura. › in character.
— ✿ came from the trauma stayed for the drama. › aesthetics.
— ✿ i can guide you i can teach you honey this is just a preview. › headcanons.
— ✿ try to be sexy but don't be too sexual. › appearance.
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