#makes it harder for us to get help

[live-love-laugh-lesbian]

I've seen a few people now argue that being neurotypical isn't an actual thing, and that we're all neurodivergent in some way. Generally I see this in regards to autism, as an evolution of "we're all a little bit autistic". A similiar evolution include (and I saw this on this website) "I'm neurotypical but I'm weird and geeky so does that count [as neurodivergent]".

So for the "we're all a little autistic" people.

Autism is a developmental disability. It is, I repeat, a disability. It's not being "weird and geeky", it's not social awkwardness or being shy or struggling with a 40 hour work week or otherwise not handling capitalism and our modern life. It's a disability coming from not developing in the same way as allistics.

That's why, as a small example, you might find a noise irritating whilst I might be screaming, crying and banging my head over it.

Obviously not every autistic person gets meltdowns, and mine are typically only that severe if a lot of other stuff is going on too, but the point remains. If you do not have this developmental disability then congratulations on not being autistic, now shut up about how teehee nobody's really neurotypical :)

#ableism #actually autistic #like yeah yeah there's issues with systems and getting a diagnosis and getting the right diagnosis #but some of you need to accept that for many (if not all of us tbh) autism is disabling in a variety of ways #and the argument of everyone being autistic #makes it harder for us to get help #disclaimer that yes of course autism is not the only neurodivergence but it's the one I am talking about #so deal with it

[the-meme-monarch]

seam’s light world plushie self has a tear in their leg so i think seam mobility aid user Real but also. the elevator in card castle doesn’t go down to the basement. incredibly unfortunate for that one time jevil had to be put in the basement

#unless stated otherwise seam uses they/them Casual Reminder #the art gallery #deltarune #feel free to tag as ship #edit: a person can get up and down the stairs w a cane but its just easier when you have help #they can get back up but itll be a little harder w their single point cane. and awkward w jevil Watching #theres like a lot of things working against seam on the way up actually. no handrail. single point cane(a quad cane would make it easier bc #bc more surface area) and ofc. no help making sure you dont fall and ofc. no elevator

[extra-somethin-somethin]

If nothing else Koenma is a Kuwabara stan and I'm right there with him o7 (I need to write the kuwameshi fic that goes with this fr)

#maybe one day i'll write that au i have sitting in my head #ever since the comment he made about making kuwa spirit detective instead ive been thinking about it #like...what if yusuke is still recruited same as canon but like #kuwa was already spirit detective? doing assignments for the guys upstairs and all #and they made yusuke help him after his resurrection instead of going solo #and it's hilarious because they still have the ''rivalry'' set in place so it's like #now i gotta be coworkers with this guy i was in a fist fight with last week? #yusuke is like you can't be serious you want me to fight DEMONS with the guy who cant even beat ME? lmaooo okay #kuwa would be more in tune with his powers atp in this au and super offended like hello #why would i use my reiki on a FELLOW HUMAN CHILD you DICK i can hold my own on my assignments just fine #but he's actually really excited to be able to spend time with yusuke doing something besides getting his ass handed to him #they're both genkai's students (she's endlessly annoyed but they grow on her) #i just think it'd be fun cos like #it'd be harder to exclude kazuma from shit if he's literally been involved in this shit before he even met #kurama and hiei #kuwabara isn't really told about yusuke's resurrection so things go mostly the same up til he's brought back #they're both called to koenma's office and it's the spiderman pointing meme 💀 #it's koenma's first time seeing kuwa in person as he usually just sends assignments with botan #yusuke has already seen him cos of the resurrection arc #and koenma is SUCH a fanboy ''kuwabara it's such a pleasure. you know you're my best worker 🥺'' #''um urameshi am i seeing things or is that a fuckin baby'' yusuke will NOT stop laughing #it fucks koenma up so bad he makes sure he's in his adult form when he's around kuwa next #cos he wants to be the respected boss but also guy that you can chill with!! he's so cringe #okay yeah i need to write this it's such a fun concept #kuwameshi #yu yu hakusho #kuwabara kazuma #yusuke urameshi #koenma

[fagitsukareita]

thinking about how in the manga aiura says she also saw teruhashi when she asked her crystal ball to show her her soulmate and was scared to learn that teruhashi would be her rival for saiki's love like... What if she mixed saiki and teruhashi up and misinterpreted. wouldn't that be so tragic? aiura also mentions that she can't predict lottery numbers because the karmic balance will strike back twice as hard. what if that's her punishment for using her powers in a self-interested manner by trying to find her soulmate? doomed to a life where no matter how much she may yearn for kokomi, she will always deny herself because of her ultimate belief in the truth of her own predictions?

#something something powers always making life harder #tori can see ghosts but he cant help them move on or help them help the living. living a life surrounded by spectors of what once was #saiki's powers too. can see through things but cant NOT see through them. can hear too many thoughts all the time. #and so for aiura her power is dangerous in 2 main ways outlined in canon #either the human threat which saiki articulates in the chapter where aiura gets attacked by gangsters #or the inevitable downside. she uses her powers to win free ice cream and is hit by a car. #and isn't searching for your soulmate the same as using your powers for your own gain? #idk i think it would be fun i think it would be tasty #aiura mikoto #saiki k #the disastrous life of saiki k #mikoteru

[ride-a-dromedary]

On a completely different note, thinking about Halsin's point 'n click line if you have him pickpocket: "Perhaps I missed my calling as a thief," and this other point 'n click sneaking around line: "Unnoticed? *snickers* Good."

And relating those with no good reason to Halsin's snippy observations in Thorm's tomb : "To seal away that which a person no longer needs is to lessen the Oak Father's bounty for all." And "Such hoarding of wealth. A tomb for riches that could be put to better use [...] This gold may never see daylight again while others go cold and hungry."

Because it brings to my silly little mind Halsin getting to a point of frustration where he's yoinking coin pouches from wealthy elites in Baldur's Gate, "accidentally" spilling the coins on the ground for the refugees and children to take - whoops how clumsy of me - and looming over those same elites with an unsettling, even smile asking if there is a problem if they start screeching about thievery.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin #Halsin Posting #stereotypical flanderization of robin hood's MO this SOB #you've been robbed you say? how terrible - perhaps your clockwork friends can help? #halsin stop that 'i will not actually' #good is not always moral and moral is not always nice #like he was about to knock out that racist high elf in wyrm's crossing i don't think he'd be against petty thievery to feed the homeless #considering when kagha uses the 'she stole the idol!' bit on halsin he's like 'and explain to me how that fucking justifies #anything you did or were planning to do' #do i think he'd actually do this? probably not but i wish he would #(also those clockwork coppers would make it harder for the refugees likely and i doubt halsin wants that) #he approves cooperating and going quietly when necessary but jokes on you he won't let anyone get caught - if ya'll can do crime #i can also do a lil crime - as a treat #there's only one thing to do - rob graves and redistribute the wealth - NO

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

On the subject of gotham county line and batman noel and so on and so forth it’s pretty frustrating (from a watsonian pov) that anytime Bruce hallucinates Jason being loving/ caring/helpful/compassionate towards him it’s always as robin and never as his current self

#it's ironic because Jason as robin never got the chance to become as obedient & devoted (malleable) to Bruce as he currently is #which is a result of being abused/manipulated for a more prolonged period of time #“maybe if I try harder and do it right this time he'll finally see the truth” #classic abuse tactic #no matter how well the victim fits the mold set by the abuser they’ll never acknowledge it #rather if they see you trying they’ll push harder and tell you you’re not perfect #the small shreds of affection here and there are important for motivating the victim to keep trying #kelseethe #Jason initiating the hug in rhato 27 after Bruce insinuated that those beatings will be a regular occurence bc he deems it a necessity #continuing to support Bruce even after Ethiopia and sticking around to help get Damian back #eagerly cooperating with Bruce + co in event leviathan then getting surprise pikachu faced/hurt after being betrayed #making a conscious decision to comfort Bruce in gotham war after Bruce fucked him up and left him behind #having undying conern for Bruce's wellbeing while Bruce regularly endangers his life #ex. Bruce's weird habit of committing vehicular assault on Jason whenever they're on the road demonstrated both in tfz and gotham war #point being: Jason was much more psychologically fit to be defiant towards Bruce when he was robin compared to now #he's more of a “good son”™ now than he was as robin Bruce is just too used to thinking whatever he wants and never being satisfied #the only times Jason got mad/upset at Bruce during one issue and continued to stay mad until the next #other than lost days and utrh was batman 410-411 and early in aditf before Bruce helps Jason find Sheila #so much worse has happened since then and all that just magically became water under the bridge off-panel

[penciltopbear]

I made the jli into marketable plushies again except different this time

#my art #blue beetle #ted kord #booster gold #guy gardner #green lantern #tora olafsdotter #beatriz da costa #stacking then was way harder than anticipated but i couldnt fit them in frame nicely otherwise #im torn on whether i like the guy plushie but i dont feel like changing it. so. #ted is my favorite. thats why i put him in the middle #hes also the first one i made months ago (it took me a while to finish all of them) #ive been using him as a model whenever i made stuff for other plushies #i have a pic of him in the ghostface hood. he looks better in it than danny does #i should make another one to finish the pyramid. obvious answer is j'onn but the funniest answer is g'nort #cant make max because you wouldnt be able to tell its him. worlds most generic white man #i have a list of ten million characters that i need to make eventually and getting into dc did not help #plushies

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[trans-cuchulainn]

lmao okay yeah hard no on taking advice on sustainable activism and social media practices from a 22-year-old actually. that's a block

#maybe i feel this way because i have spent the last eight years watching every idealistic 20yo burn the fuck out #you could not be missing my point harder if you tried #maybe you are in fact the person i am talking about if you really don't get what I'm saying!! #'taking breaks' is not about giving up responsibility for activism #it is about TAKING responsibility for using your energy in ways that are actually constructive #rather than wallowing in suffering because it feels good #if you're the designated person to collect your friends from jail after a protest #you do not go out there and get arrested with them bc it feels more exciting #you do the helpful thing that makes more progress. you stay out of jail and you bail out your friends

[fortune-maiden]

Finished the Main Story of Teal Mask :D

Ogrepon is very cute and epic boss battle was epic!

But I think we broke Kieran 🥺

#pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon sv #i underestimated the dlc #it's a lot more fun than I thought it would be! #I loved the story boss battles :D #they were challenging but not unfairly so #of course the level 75 steel tera milotic i caught helped a lot xD #but how do i get a Sinischa #i want a matcha ghost for my party ;w; #(even though all the cool new pokemon i want to use are grass types which is making team building harder than it should be xD)

[wraenata]

Hi Wren how have you been?

Hi Koi! I hope you're doing well! Every beautiful art and comic you make touches my heart!

I'm doing ok. I just have really low energy. It's really frustrating because I don't have any energy to do the things I enjoy doing, and it feels like every day it gets worse 😔 I finally made an appointment with my doctor to see if anything is wrong, but it's not til October 17 sadly. Things have just been going downhill for a long time.

I'm just really sad that even after unfollowing a lot of blogs, which I hated doing, I still can't muster the energy to get through my dash and leave the tags I want to. It makes me sad. I've missed and will continue to miss amazing things and I don't like that.

I've also been worried about my cat Sally's weight and appetite lately, though the last couple days she's been eating better which is good. I just worry a lot.

Umm, I need a positive. I ordered the build a bear bulbasaur for my birthday which is in a week. He makes me smile. His name is Yarrow 🌱 Not even 5 pound Sally for scale <3

#wren askbox #thank you koi you are so wonderful #yarrow is my first pokemon plushie #also ive been having a lot of bad headaches lately which sucks #and all i want to do when i get home from work is close my eyes #amd i saw my gi specialist this week and she told me my nausea is all in my head so #i mean things could be better #tw vent #yeah this was venty im sorry #im just very open about my problems sorry #but i have amazing friends who help me feel better #all you on tumblr are so wonderful to me i appreciate you all #also i want to do so much art #today i worked on my 2al collab comic panel #trying hard but art has been so much harder than it used to be #anyways sorry koi #i appreciate you and all the amazing art you make

[reliquiaen]

For anyone wondering:

- the eternal wakestone you get for killing the sphinx is VERY misleading, it is a one time use only NOT reusable like the name suggests

- it costs 120k to get it duplicated BUT

- the copy doesn't work

So be careful when you use it. This is not a solution to the dragonsplague, so do watch out for signs that a pawn in your party is sick.

Practice good pawn care and regularly toss them off cliffs or into rivers.

#dragons dogma #dragon's dogma 2 #eternal wakestone #what a horrible name for it #i wonder if its a bug? #or if its a troll name #(the second seems more likely tbh) #good to have #but yeah not a total fix for the plague #was fun to get the plague ngl #i enjoy engaging in mechanics haha #(maybe i let my pawn go on a murder rampage? its what she deserves) #but it does feel sorta pointless #like a punishment for using pawns #which is silly #i get the risk reward of it #but the options are #get some meagre rewards from online pawn swapping #or an entire town dies if you didnt notice the very small detail of red eyes #camp outside which is fun and new and good and helpful #or make a checkpoint save in a city and everyone dies #its so weird #like whatever you do #youre making something harder #maybe thats the point #i redid the sphinx quest like three times #to figure out how the eternal wakestone works #so now i know #personal #dragon's dogma

[kyouka-supremacy]

Does anyone know where I can find the good quality version of this image? It's so frustrating because when cross searching on google it'll tell me the original quality is 850x478, but I can't find a way to download it in that quality. This is another version of the image (I'm guessing it's Mayoi promo art):

But I liked the clean white background one...

#It's cute... #It's got Akutagawa stealing glances at Atsushi #Thought asking was worth a try ;;;;;; #Google cross image search has changed and as someone who used it as I use breathing it's been absolutely heartbreaking. #It makes cross searching images so much harder it's awful #Because before when you looked up an image it suggested you the best quality avaible of that image. #And the search got worse every year but it was still functional you know?? #But now there's not that anymore. There's no “large” “medium” “small” and instead it only gives you “find image source” #Dude I don't want to find the image source. I've downloaded the image I KNOW the source. What I want is ANOTHER SOURCE with better quality #And I used to get it when I was 10 and I used to get it when I was 15 and I sued to get it when I was 20 #And now I don't have it anymore?? It stripes away one of the most powerful search tools on the internet from the public???? #It drives me insane. Like why does internet get worse every year that's not how humanity is supposed to work #Sorry. I needed to rant. This makes every quality-freak media archivist (like me) job harder beyond comparison #Btw if you're looking for an alternative Yandex images still does the work... It's not as powerful search engine as google #and it's often going to miss the particular hidden media (y'know- super niche Akutagawa merch from 2018 and stuff) #But for the rest it does a pretty good job. If anything there's still the best quality avaible option #But seriously looking up stuff for aktgw-daily has gotten so much harder ever since this fucked up change to google lens #and it makes me hate the world. I haven't been able to find a way to reverse it but if anyone more tech savy than me who has any idea- #what I'm talking about can help me. Please please hmu I'll be grateful forever #Sorry for the rant I have a lot of pent up rage over this. Stop making broke people's lives harder challenge #random rambles

[frecklystars]

i know nobody is online rn to read this but ;-; i gotta get it off my chest i love ken so much he means everything to me he's making me so happy and i've needed him so so so bad. he's brought me comfort when my ptsd has been so fucking unbearable and every time i'm having a crying fit over losing my tf f/os or every time i'm having a flashback i ALWAYS immediately IMMEDIATELY think about him rushing to my side, holding me and saying "hey hey it's okay, i'm here, i'm right here" and it's such a relief because i haven't been able to genuinely wholeheartedly believe any character would be willing to do that for me the entire time i've been struggling this year.

i've never gone so long without comfort from f/os, much less being triggered by the ones who used to comfort me the most. so to have barbie and ken right now is like the biggest wave of relief every single day when i wake up and the hyperfixation is still there. sometimes i will literally close my eyes and sigh in relief when i hear a song and my first thought is sebastian or ken or six or... whomever. i love being in love again. i NEED this. i love waking up and my first thought isn't my trauma most of the time now, it's ken. or it's six. or it's barbie. or it's harley. or it's officer k. or it's... yeah you get it. i needed these characters so fucking badly. every time i see a gifset and get excited over it, i feel a rush of gratitude bc self shipping has always been the glue holding me together. it doesn't feel as intense or strong as the SB musical or TF used to make me feel but i am not picky. not at all. i will take anything and i'm praying this lasts for at LEAST another few weeks please

i may not be at a sense of peace right now and i dont know when i ever will be, it could be years, but im so. so. so. so so so thankful to have these characters right now when i've needed someone so badly for so long. i hope ken knows how much i love him ;-; i hope barbie knows how much she has helped me, has saved me from one of my major triggers and has helped me to love and feel safe around the color pink again. i wish they could see me when i'm not so broken but i'm glad they're here even when i'm at my worst, i'm glad they still love me even when they deserve to see me in a much better light

#it feels so fucking terrible not celebrating my bday with my starlight. i used to buy myself cakes and put his figurine next to them #i mean i still have... a little bit over one week... i cant... let it pass by without him being involved somehow #so i might make a quick vent doodle and queue it for the actual day of my bday #i refuse to not draw myself with him at least once for my special day #its not like we 'broke up' or anything but fuck it feels so bad #he's a literal fucking ptsd trigger. how fucking insane is that #im still in shock. im still in shock over what happened to me like i cant fucking believe it #wearing his necklace makes me cry so i just leave it on my dresser #that shouldnt be normal!!!! #but im hoping that shipping with barbie/ken is going to help me feel like i can reclaim control over my ships #bc my abuser made me feel like... i had no control over my TF ships whatsoever for a solid year #so now that i'm finally free of that toxicity i'm still shakily trying to learn how to ship again #i'll have moments where i'll worry ken will try to hurt me on purpose bc im so used to my abuser telling me how abusive any f/o would be #but then i tell myself 'hey what the fuck. this is MY story. NOBODY would abuse me i dont care WHO they are' #but it's so hard to unlearn several months of abuse 😔 #and even harder to look at a character who i invested so much time and energy and money into #my voice clips. my cameos. all of my steve blum autographs. my art for steve. all of it feels sad and numbing #not just stsc but everyone in any TF universe feels like... a threat and i get panic attacks when i see very specific characters sometimes #its awful. it hurts so bad. i love ken so much. but nothing compares to what i had with my TF comfort characters #but it's okay bc... ken is holding my hand and he might not understand ptsd at all but he can still squeeze me tight #and six HAS c-ptsd he GETS it. and he's there to hold me when my nightmares make me fall apart. he's my rock #vent #ptsd #sorry it's 5am i had a bad nightmare and now i refuse to sleep again #i fucking hate ptsd i fucking hate living like this i rly wish i knew how to cure myself #im exercising im eating and drinking often im sleeping as much as i can #theres only so much i can do #when does it get better?? when the fuck does it get better? im serious. not rhetorical. when does this finally heal #i dont even know if im healing or if im just distracted... but fuck ill take anything

[fishingmaster69]

thankful to have a body but God why did it have to be this one

#do you have any idea how alienating it is to constantly be struggling to keep up with people doing basic things #and everyone just expects you to be able to do everything they can & MORE they ask of you #ive pushed myself over and over and over to the point of making myself physically SICK for days on end #doing more doesnt HELP it just makes me SICKER #but when i ask for grace its like i just need to try a little harder #do a little more #get used to moving again thatll fix it #i just havent done enough i never DO enough #even when i do the ABSOLUTE MOST I CAN AND BEYOND i just havent done ENOUGH #i LIKE being the helper i enjoy it but i have limits #and i have more limits than the average person #and it feels like nobody cares #theyll let me work myself to death if it means i get the favor done #zephy speaks #vent #oops sorry