#maybe it’s all ohio

[kfedup]

Please and thank you, calling in all positive thoughts, juju, magical vibes, and support around 3:00 eastern as I have my first zoom interview for my dream job at the artists residency program in Vermont.  I applied Wednesday, was told on Thursday that they’d be in touch with candidates who will move forward at the end of this week, then had an email yesterday asking to meet today. WHAAAAT???!! 

#holy shit #was on the road all day yesterday #was hoping for the week to prepare #but i always make magic under pressure #so i'm cramming all morning #I'm leaving ohio #I can feel it #maybe sooner than i'll be ready for #but that's just logistics #i'll figure it out #i always do

[springlock-suits]

I like to hc that William has some memory issues

#not to the point where he cant remember killing the kids (though i do think aus like that can be fun) #but like. just casually #like yknow he can barely remember his childhood n its all kinda blurry #maybe he has a tendency to remember negative experiences over positive ones bc i do that #its hard to describe exactly what i imagine his memory is like but basically all you need to knoe is im lovingly giving him my own problems #and i once forgot i went to ohio #thats a whole ass state and i forgot #my memories i just thought that i was like. at a midpoint between where we live and ohio. but not actually there #even though we literally ate their awful cincinnati spaghetti/chili whatever . we got souvenir cups #also one time i forgot i have my brother an shirt of mine and then when he wore for the first time in awhile i was like #'oh hey is that a new shirt?' and he just looked at me #william afton #darlingsfnafau #i dont have a headcanons tag. i am realizing. ah

[wrixie]

my boyfriend got his new job!! it's a $3 pay increase too ;A;

#his drug test and physical are today #he hasn't smoked weed in like two months poor lad #it's been legal for one day in ohio and im like come on smoke with meeeee i miss youuuuuuuuuuu #BUT he's the responsible one so he declined politely and said maybe after he starts working #however if he fucks up and breaks something he'll get drug tested and if they find weed in his system they could fire him' #if he can't smoke anymore at all we'll both be so so so so sad #it really helps him unwind from his day and relax #he's been so stressed out because of the change and he doesn't vape anymore so he's like AHHHHHHHHHH #he literally just texted me saying he was leaving work to go take his tests hehe #nonsims #dl

[borealhauntings]

every day i think about how the states of virginia and ohio both claim the title Mother Of Presidents and that they both had "the most presidents from their state." and literally both of their claims come down to William Henry Harrison (born in virginia but lived in ohio when he became president).

i just think they deserve a little petty rivalry over it. for Me <3

#also theyre both a little bit gnc to me. you know how it is #“listen if youre going to call yourself the mOtHeR oF pReSiDeNtS maybe all the ones you claim should be actually *born* there?” #“virginia this is why he left you and came here. hes not yours if he didnt even want you” #petty bitches <3 #wttt #welcome to the table #wttsh #welcome to the statehouse #wttt virginia #wttt ohio #ghostie's posties #i feel like i should have a headcanons tag at this point. should i

[dionysus-complex]

anyways I think I'm warming to the idea of the Midwest in general

#colorado or new mexico is still very much plan a after this phd is done #but the front range metro areas are all very expensive and albuquerque is affordable but has limited job opportunities for me #and idk maybe the midwest wouldn't be so bad? #i don't vibe with the east coast and the political climate in the south is too generally fucked up #and granted ohio is also fucked up politically but it at least voted to protect abortion rights in the state constitution #but there's also michigan and illinois and minnesota

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#there's something really beautiful about experiencing the weather patterns of a new place #where i live now. its not like where i grew up. not like the foothills of Appalachia but its more familiar than the Chihuahuan desert was #when i go home to ohio everythings so green. so green. unimaginably green and the towns are in the woods. the hills roll #and trees billow deciduous and packed so tightly the treeline is like a wall of plant matter. here there are trees but they are tall and #evergreen. patchy in places like shrubs in the desert. the grass grows green but also pale tan and dead. houses are routed in valleys #between mountains. they're made of wood and not stucco but they still look strange and the landscape is crumpled together tall. and there's #water. it rains. days can be dreary and gray with drizzle. i forgot what thats like. when a single low stratus cloud blocks out thewhole sk #and fog clings to the trees. my school bus used to drive by a lake where thr fog was so thick i didnt kno how the driver could see the road #but somehow i forgot how much joy suspended water vapor gives me living in a place where when it rains it pours so hard the streets flood #and the greedy ground drinks the landscape dry. but there are new things as well. here smoke rolls up over thr mountains and gets stuck in #the valleys so that the weather forcast reads: Smoke for days on end. im used to tornado warnings and heat warnings and dust storm warnings #but ive never expected Smoke as a type of weather. and im sure there's more to experience. ive only been here like 3 weeks. its not as gree #as home. the storms dont seem to get quite so violent. the woods are so full of bears that its an active threat. but its not the desert #and while ill miss the shapes of desert plants and little lizards. when i look up at the pine and spruce trees i feel like i can breathe a #little easier. well see how i feel once the long cold winter sets in haha #but i dunno. part of me still longs for a violent thunderstorm. one where u can feel the temperature drop and u csn feel it building all da #one that bends the trees and smells like ozone. it was never like that in thr southwest and im not sure that happens here #but maybe thats just a desire for chaos and violence as a product of my pathological internal control. i cant be spontaneous so let nature #bring the fear to me. some of my favorite memories are watching lightning strikes #so it goes i suppose #unrelated #listen. is it fucked up to have ohio nostalgia? maybe so. but in my defense i grew up in the pretty part of ohio lol

[oveliagirlhaditright]

This whole train derailment thing in East Palestine, Ohio is so horrific.

And those toxic chemicals got into the Ohio River!

And I heard people saying that there was danger that it could possibly get into another body of water?

Apparently, this is going to affect 10% of the country's water supply, as things are? (According to one comment I saw, anyway.)

The place really has become the next Chernobyl, and everything has been handled so badly! (I feel if this had happened in a bigger state, that wouldn't have happened. And I strongly feel they should have evacuated everyone on day one.)

And no one's talking about it! In fact, at first they were covering it up and tried to arrest at least one reporter on the job of reporting the truth (finally more people are starting to discuss all of this, but still not as many as you would think. Especially with the massive ramifications this could have for so many!)

And why hasn't the president or any of the big wigs talked about this or done anything about it? Why didn't people in hazmat suits knock on the people in East Palestine's doors to tell them to evacuate when they finally did give them that order, instead of acting so blasé? You know if it was a place that people actually cared about, people would do so much more. I'm disgusted with my country.

#and it sounds like the whole thing might have happened because the railroad workers had gone on strike because they wanted safer worker #conditions and sick days. something that the president denied them. which in turn led to this tragedy #and also because. like. the railroad lines/tech is really ancient stuff that hasn't been updated since the civil war? #basically. as always. greed won out over safety measures and now we have this to thank for it #i guess people are also worried that acid rain could come from this. from that massive black cloud that's still over east palestine ohio #you know what? i wasn't going to admit this for many reasons. and maybe i still shouldn't. i might come back and delete this tag #but i'm from ohio. not from this city. but guess who still has to worry about all of this now affecting her (like the water not being safe) #and is furious about it and how everything's been handled? this girl #at this point there's a good chance i may die from cancer somewhere down the line from the water i've already ingested (that was #contaminated) since the derailment happened. before they were upfront about just how bad all of this was #and now i'm even MORE mad. in some ways. upon rewatching this one video i had before and realizing i'd gotten some of the context of it #wrong before. like apparently they've let some people come BACK to live in the town if they have nowhere else to go. being like 'carry on. #there's nothing to see here!' when that is NOT okay. when the town is still SO VERY TOXIC and hazardous to their health. and. tbh. the #government should probably be flipping the bill for them to be staying elsewhere for their safety at the moment

[uzu-hime]

So like legit how does one make friends when they are

-too adhd for normal people

-too depressed for adhd people

-poor (no money to do things or go places)

-25 on the outside, single mom for 10+ years on the inside

-so so lonely but so so afraid of adding anyone else to the "only want to hang out with me when you need free therapy" group that includes everyone I know

#i want friends #but i don't know how to make them #or where to find them #im too weird for a lot of people and too introverted for others #and for some reason everyone i do befriend always ends up being basically my therapy patient #or they only ever want to hang out on their terms which... don't exist #side eyes my friend who always says 'i miss you guys we should hang out' in the group chat but then turns me down #for her boyfriend every single time i try to make plans #'he works night shift i have to clean during the day' girl are you his girlfriend or his maid?? #if you don't want to hang out with me just fucking tell me instead of playing cinderella all the time #my mom says i should get out more and do more things but honestly i live in bumfuck ohio #what things???? #rural america is a nightmare for being social if you don't have money and also don't want to hang out at your local high school #i can't even go to the park in town by myself because too many women have been abducted there #im not making this shit up #i just want someone to sing silly songs with me and try on stupid outfits just for fun and go to new restaurants #no one has ever heard of and sit in the woods in silence for a while and maybe take a nap together and compare grov #*grocery lists and just. #why is it so hard #what is wrong with me that the only friends i have only like me sometimes #even my mom who likes me all the time won't even go shopping with me anymore #she's too burnt out from working #maybe it's not me #maybe im just another victim of capitalist america's isolation #even then i don't know what to do about it. my cat helps but im still just. lonely. #im tired of being lonely #vent post #ignore me

[hide-your-bugs-away]

Thank you to the state of Ohio and English record producer Mickie Most for giving me a wonderful eclipse day, yesterday 🙏

#maumee ohio thank you your dr pepper was good #seeing the eclipse was sOOOO COOL. SO COOL. I LOVE ASTRONOMICAL EVENTS I LOVE SPACE ROCKS. #brought the animals with me of course because i always bring them with me to ohio #I WANTED THEM TO SEE IT TOO!!!!!! #my mom and i went to an antique store as well and gOSH THE HAUL WAS GOOD!!! #got a couple of herman's hermits albums because Mickie Most Moment (thanks peter noone for talking about him in your shows) #and ANIMALS!!! OHHHH WHENEVER I FIND ANIMALS I CRY. #i didn't have the 'bury my body' ep yet or the '73 'best of the animals' album yet!!!!!!!! #love how barry doesn't play on a single one of those songs on the larger album b u t he's on the front picture 😔🙏 #and i found..... 'take it easy/i'm crying'....... ooohhhh PRICE-BURDON HELP ME #i had to snatch it... i'm going to give it to my friend in england!!! 😭🙏 since i have two copies already aaa...... #i also found a copy of 'o lucky man!' and i was sooo tempted b u t again #i own two copies already so ..... i left it so someone else can enjoy alan for the first time 😭😭😭😭💞 ALAN PRICE SAVED MY LIFE. #...going to listen to 'o lucky man!' as i finish his birthday drawing eeee...... #almost got a donovan album too b u t all of the donovan albums i've been finidng recently are soooo expensive 😭😭 maybe later... #saving up for london part 2 and magazines.... also a convention next month #anyway. THANK YOU MICKIE MOST. #the seviper card too eeeee one of my favorite pokémon #FOUND A SHINY WIMPOD IN TOLEDO HASHTAG WIN #the animals #eclipse 2024 #herman's hermits #things i said today

[tiktaaliker]

thinking about johnnyboy aster again

#howling #like. fuck man #youre a mediocre player on a mediocre team #you're brand new but some of your friends are not #you've always been in ohio and so has everyone else except some of them used to be somewhere different that doesn't exist anymore #youre all desperate to get better at this but nothing changes #and then a different team draws a curse and now you're on fire and a stranger stands in your place #you're dead and they say your name and give you an identity unlike all who died before you #and then it's all over and you're the last to ever die because of it #and maybe it meant something but it happened so fast that there's nothing left for it to mean something to #riv johnmyboy aster. the last incineration in all of blaseball #oh and don't even get me fucking STARTED on luis baron

[juliasimongf]

Caro Garcia winning a tennis match? Truly unprecedented and shocking news

#Honestly it made me so happy to see her playing aggressively and succeeding at it #tennis #Maybe Ohio isnt such a bad place to have tennis tournaments after all #caroline garcia

[when-did-this-become-difficult]

me livestreaming the ohio senate in the minutes leading up to a vote that will determine whether or not gender affirming care is outright banned for minors: this is the bad place

"It also prevents doctors from prescribing hormones, puberty blockers or gender reassignment surgery before patients turn 18" per the Cincinnati Enquirer.

#j.2023.all #ohio #us politics #wow cool another new flavor of hopelessness amidst the enshittification of everything!!!!!! we love to see it!!!!!!!! #'parental rights' except if your kid is trans then no rights for you. #i kind of want to do the usual tumblr thing of imagining creative violence to let off steam but it does nothing i think. like it doesnt eve #do anything for me in these circumstances i just feel that dread of #we're in that part of the horror movie where we're watching people get picked off one by one #i have no weapons to speak of. cool #im watching this woman's face twist with emotion as she talks about trans suicide rates and i think she knows what i know #which is that she may make a valiant effort but it will mean nothing #and tomorrow the sun will rise and the legislation will have passed and the world will be a worse rates #and in ohio that suicide rate will tick up #and #idk theres nothing else to say really is there #this winter of 2023 has been really a uh. a time of political participation for me which is not unique #but what sets it apart is that each time i engage #the feeling of uselessness increases #the more i do things to try to help the more i sense that in fact it will all come to nothing and that the loss has already been secured #maybe really all i can do is either end of the spectrum. either get in there with the protesters or double the soup kitchen efforts. #because this democracy shit is severely not working #on the things which we need the most #the most basic. the most basic shit #sure yeah we kept abortion and all the clinics werent forced to close #but quite frankly what good does that do a trans kid who isnt pregnant #no im serious idk how much more of this i can handle #biden got some green funding through the inflation reduction act oh cool but literally what good does that do to the kids getting pummelled #from every side with starvation infection trauma and actual bombs. nothing. they don't care about that at all #and i dont know...if i can pretend to myself that i should care about that at all #im watching this guy read out the senators last names now

[skyward-floored]

Going back home, please pray for my sanity on the seven hour car trip

#especially since we’re all tired and have less patience #also my dad’s knee which bothers him sometimes #rambles from the floor #I’ll be gone probably all day again but we’ll see #back around 7? if I’m lucky #since I’m leaving I feel like I can say this now: #Kentucky has the MOST boring stretch of interstate e v e r #also Kentucky in general is a tad lackluster #maybe it’s cause I’m used to mountains and not just hills and stuff #the river between it and Ohio is neat at least #I’m rambling. I need to go finish packing. #see y’all on the other side

[girlwithfish]

5am instagram stalking ppl i used to go to hs with. its crazy bc some people are still friends with other ppl from our hs. i guess crazy to me bc i dont talk to anyone at all from either hs i went to nor anyone from the same school district i was in from 4 grade-8grade. i hvent mantained friendships or anything w anyone from any place ive lived. thinking its me. . ...

#the realjty is i was just really shy when i was a kid. the ppl i went to school w from ages 9-14 i didnt really have lasting friendships #i follow like 3-4 ppl from that time in school on Instagram but thats it rly. ive never kept a friendship #then fhe school i went to for under 2 yrs in hs I follow several ppl from cuz i guess i was somehow a little more social where i followed #some classmates on instagram but yeah no contacg w anyone and yeah. i really doubf anyone from either of those schools remembers me #i just wasnt rly close w anyone ever to remain in contact w. and i didnt reallly make friends at the hs i graduated from #and i follow a couple ppl from my last hs but thats it i havent talked to anyone from any of those times in my life again rly #Which is crazy like #I guess ive always just been standoffish. never unfriendly to ppl but i never really connected w anyone #beyond school and stuff. nd i doutb anyone remembers me anyway. i really was a nobody in hs without even my own circle of friends #crazy how rhat wrks out nd not thay i have many relationships atall rn besides family and my s/o but like its crazy cuz #sometimes my bf when were in his hometown will run into someone he wnt to school w cuz he stayed in the same school district #k-12 nd theyll recognize him and talk to him and its ctazy cuz ive movd twice so i just never stsyed in a place where that would happen. #i like dont know anyone from my high school here in nc nd have never seen anyone barely #LOL #sometimes i wonder what itd be like if i had stayed in ohio and gone to hs with all the ppl i had known a bit for all of middle school #Cuz i just really do not know anyone maybe my life seems a little lonely bc of that. idk.. #its hard when a lot of ppls friendships r built on the fact that theyve known each otber for a long time or since x grade and are childhood #friends or something

[freebooter4ever]

wait fuck its my birthday weekend i    F O R G O T ??????

thats actually a good sign, my birthday was when my grandpa landed in the hospital and i had to hold his bleeding head in my lap while grandma freaked out calling 911 so i havent ‘celebrated’ since. but forgetting is better than dreading this time of year

#this helps explain why ive been spontaneously crying all week though #Journal shit #progress?????? #my friend called and was like we are gonna celebrate right #my answer was noooo im gonna enjoy thinking this was a normal weekend maybe next year i can think about celebrating #i already called grandma in ohio crying this week once lol

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#christ. i feel like this is gonna b where i end up for school #it just seems like a really good place and i think it could help me be less intense lmao #more close access to the wilderness and all that. the ice driving is gonna stress me the fuck out but maybe not more than city driving woul #and i mean who wouldn't wanna live in a place with with moose and bears and mountains and snow #assuming they give me an offer. but the guy said it would prob b an easy conversation so im hopeful #sigh. ive done so much interacting this weekend. i fucking hate house parties. im so awkward #i mean most ppl r a bit but i tend to b the person sitting alone in the corner not quite knowing what to do. like we were xc skiining and #after the group was all huddled up talking and i was climbing around in the snow by myself trying to decide if it would b super weird for #me to roll around in it. i didnt bc i was abt to get in thr car but i shoudl have. whatever. i hopefully didnt leave too terrible an #impression. also everyone i meet with adhd @ me: ur problems sound like adhd. me: ok i hear u but also i refuse to listen until i have a #diagnosis lol. i think im just gonna white knuckle it until i start my program so i can use uni counseling bc im abt to get off my parents #insurance 😭 so just a few more miserable months. or like idk the timeline. hhhh let me leave the southwest. lol there were 3 fucking ohio #ppl on this recruitment weekend. were everywhere. everywhere but ohio rip #unrelated