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zhao-tianyou · 5 months

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edit: 12/8/2023

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the yakuza games

genshin impact

honkai star rail

obey me

a3!

resident evil

red dead redemption

cute animals

zodiac

graphics

shitposts

cinderella phenomeon

xoxo droplets

the ikemen series

the soul calibur series

wrestling (wrestling only page is @hyo-watanabe)

fanfic (fanfic only page is @kristenssinbin. all reblogs of smuttiness will come from there)

romantic shit

personal shit

digimon

castlevania

persona 5

far cry series

food

flowers

fashion/jewelry

nopixel!! (nopixel sideblog is @nicholas-simone)

twisted wonderland

court of darkness

dead by daylight

the call of duty reboot from 2022 (gaz is kind of a babe)

aes stuff such as flowers and sunsets

stimboard / stimming gifs / satisfying gifs

ikemen prince

onx (rp server)

newday rp

my tags

yakuza

genshin

obey me (lately have been using just om)

rdr

fave

ref

cinderella

xoxo

ikesen

ikevamp

ikepri

ikerev

rasslin

rom

shut up kristen

replies

messages

digimon

castle

personal blahness tag retired due to it bringing back bad memories

shut up kristen (general post / venting posts)

my edit

my edits

my icons

my gifs

my lockscreens

discourse

sova

hanzo

fc3

fc4

fc5

fc6

fcnd

twst

cod

nopixel

newday rp

newday

onx

hsr

i tw sensitive content. i either go tw: (sensitive thing) or tw (sensitive thing)

i also try to tag spoiler/spoilers. i do a general rule of after 1 month of me seeing something or it being out for 1 month+ , i don’t spoiler tag then

what i need tagged

insects

spiders

body horror (a little blood is ok because i play m rated games)

the arcana, fuck that stupid fucking game

ships!!! (please tag your ships. i don’t ship anything, but there are some ships that i am super uncomfy with due to age difference and things bringing back bad memories and whatnot)

dni if

fujoshi

pro shipping (especially incest and adult x child ships)

DDlg/CGl(re)/any related age play kink blogs

MAPs/NoMAPs/PEARs/lolicon

maga/conservative

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if you see nothing wrong with rpf

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thinspo

animal abuse

LGBT-exclusionist

overwatch league blog; fuck harryhook and fuck everyone who didn't believe me :3

xqc fan; dude is a piece of shit with a gross fanbase. dude has been banned from like 4 different games and owl because of how awful he is

cg/st/hydra fan; fuck em and the toxic vibes they bring to the np community

old scu fan; what they (a large chunk of scu) did to jakka re: their chats is super fucking shitty, fuck em

serval x gepard shippers

jing yuan x yanqing shippers

brian knight fans, only because i talk shit about him a lot and it's for your protection, not mine :3

pro AI users - your precious AI steals content from artists and writers in the fandom, and you should feel bad :3

empty or untitled blog - this is always going to lead to at least a block. i will likely report you for being a bot

#before you follow

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magpiewritingthing · 5 years

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where the girls run

Series: flowers

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Summary: With her twin missing in the Henbane, the second Junior Deputy steps foot back in Faith’s domain.

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Warnings: mentioned past child abuse & sexual assault & harassment, nongraphic violence, canon character death, one use of the c word

Other notes: not entirely sure on Faith's voice here tbh lmao 8);;;;; concrit would be welcomed in that area mostly

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Jemima remembers nothing of prayers, only the fear she used to feel when the old man used to rant and rave and the old man’s wife would only sit with indifference (or fear, she doesn’t know, and doesn’t care, anyway). Mom and Dad are agnostic, and raised her and Jason that way, instilling a sense of polite scepticism; at the very least, they were polite with Jerome and Joseph equally -- before they’d left to see Mom’s sister in Indiana for the week. Thinking of them now, as she steps a booted foot into the Henbane River, she hopes they’re still there, and didn’t return early to this hellhole.

The sickly-sweet stench of the Bliss irritates her nose. She sneezes, and does her best to wipe her nose, keeping her eyes beady. Hallucinations are likely, which she knows well, Solomon’s image outlined with hazy and glittering green imprinted on her brain for the foreseeable future, as long as her memory never starts to deteriorate. A baby’s cry hurts worse, of course.

She knows that Jason came here not long after returning from the Mountains, blood having formed patterns on his shirt. The Resistance had trusted him to take care of Faith, after having dispatched the Whitetail region of Jacob (despite the deaths of several Whitetail Militia, and especially their leader, Eli Palmer, staining his shirt and his hands just as much), and Jemima had to focus on John, and getting Hudson out of that rathole bunker. Jemima had finished with John (and would’ve taken the Baptist’s head -- for herself, for Mary May, for Nick, for Kim, for Carmina, for Joey, for the entirety of Holland Valley, for her brother, and God, if there is a God, she’d swear by that cunt’s hypothetical existence that she would’ve taken Jacob’s head, too, if Jason hadn’t told her to stay far away from the mountains), and had immediately set off in search of her brother who no-one had heard from in two days. Complete radio silence conjured up nightmares of Jason as an Angel, and more of him shooting himself in the head.

A Bliss bullet hits her in the leg. Natch!

Faith scares her. Joseph does too, in a way, with his hold and influence, a human epicentre of doom and disaster. John -- oh, John enraged her more than she could be scared of him, but she was, and was scared of Jacob although she never met him. The potential of their power (those that were alive) was something that gave her pause, made her think about wanting and wishing to turn back, redo this arrest business, get the National Guard involved, for fuck’s sake -- but one has to be brave, be very brave, to fight evil things. Oh yes, like a knight in shining armour fights a fearsome dragon. Of course, of course, Jemima is that exact kinda knight, isn’t she? Delusions of grandeur! It was a toss-up between PRIDE or WRATH on her chest -- the latter won out. At least later, if she survives long enough, she can turn it into something cool. Easier to minimise these horrible things rather than to face them with real bravery, she finds.

“Hello, Jemima.”

“Hey, Faith. Girl time?” Just two young women hangin’ out in a bunker, ya know.

“Sure! That’s why you came back, right?”

She doesn’t like the way that’s phrased, but then again, Faith scares her the most out of the Seeds. Ah, your would-be sister. She needs to stop thinking like that, in wistful would-bes and coulda-beens, but it’s difficult with the Bliss starting to take a real hold. The after-effects, the way it still lingers after the initial shot.

“I guess.” Playing along, and slurring just a touch. She’d come here for that? Or to kill Faith? And upset Joseph some more? If he even gives a flying shit about Faith, and not just what she means to the Project. But then the same might come into question about his brothers. Her mind’s going to fast to pin these thoughts down and pump them full of that sweet-ass coherence juice, though. Shame. If she weren’t drugged up to the eyeballs, and drowning under it still with every minute passing, she’d probably be able to outline a neat little essay-style thing about it all. Arguments and counter-arguments and all.

Faith seems to be enjoying this, of course, kicking her legs off the desk. Yeah, of course she’s the kinda girl to sit on desks. Jemima would to, if she weren’t tied to a rather sturdy chair (without wheels!) and starting to slouch in it. Does this Bliss shit just jellify your bones? The fuck?

The sister laughs. Faith (or Rachel?) or Jemima or both (all three), it’s not immediately clear, but Jemima is smiling because she heard it and it sounded good. “Did I say that out loud?” she asks.

“Yes, you did. And you should know already,” Faith says, slipping off the desk and booping Jemima on the nose, which is kinda annoying because now it feels like she has to rub it but she can’t because she’s tied up and wow! that's annoying! But Faith keeps talking, like her brothers: “It doesn’t turn your bones to jelly, but it can do that to your mind if there’s too much.” Angels. Ah. For a moment, she’d forgotten about the real horror of what can happen, having been lost in a good ol’ laugh with Funny Faith.

“Oh yeah,” she says quietly, then asks, suddenly panicking as a spark of memory stabs through green fog: “Where’s Jason? And Sheriff Whitehorse?”

And now Faith looks disappointed. It makes Jemima want to shrink into a ball. Reminding Faith about Whitehorse brings up what he’d said before, and what everyone else had regurgitated before him: that Faith was a liar and a manipulator and nothing she said could be trusted. Tracey, she thinks, is the only person closest to the truth about Faith, but even then, that was more about Rachel Jessop from before. A manipulator and a liar -- Jemima believes that, but it can’t be about everything. Not when she knows about that kinda truth.

Not personally. Or at least, not close enough to count it as such. Or is it? If it were anyone else who's heartrate spiked up when someone had presumed enough familiarity or boldness or confidence to not face consequences of any kind, Jemima would argue so. A hand on the hip -- what is that? Just flirting. It’s only ever “just flirting”. It’s the only most-dangerous thing anyone had dared try with her. College: what circle of Hell is that? Jemima counts herself lucky that she could choose, that she chose Solomon. Sweetest Solomon, too good for her, too kind, too understanding, and he would’ve been all that still if she’d chosen the other choice. She might’ve still had him.

“They’re elsewhere.” Short answer, and she worries more about her twin than about her boss (a girl is a liar only, and a girl is dispensable, it’s only trouble not worth getting into, only lies and manipulation and attention-seeking from a little girl with glaring bruises in a nice house and a nice town and a nice fucking county), but Faith’s recovered with a smile that Jemima will pretend she’s not questioning. “I heard you were coming to see me,” her voice is sickly-sweet, the sound translation of the smell of Bliss, “so I made sure they weren’t in the way so we could have our little girl talk in peace. Boys, you know?” Hands clasp on the arms of the wooden chair, and the stench of Bliss is so strong this close-up it makes Jemima’s eyes water, and she turns her face away to avoid looking the other girl (woman, she’s an adult woman now, she’s older than you for fuck’s sake, barely but still) in the eye. “They take up your time, they waste your time, they want to make your time all. about. them.”

Is this Faith? She is so angry. It’s not very Faith-like to be angry, is it? Not so viscerally.

“They do,” Jemima agrees, finally meeting Faith’s eye again, knowing and remembering several who fit the bill from school and college. Some of the guys at the station, too, come to think of it. Then she blurts out, “I believe you.” It seemed important to say, because Faith knows what everyone else is saying, and has said, and will continue to say about her, from way back then until the day she dies. Faith is not blind nor deaf to this.

It makes Faith lean back, looking more like Rachel might when faced with someone taking her side for once (Tracey did, Tracey tried, you must remember this, you are not unique to knowing Rachel and Faith), before it washes away again under a plaster smile, pearly teeth on display. “I know you do,” sounds like I knew you would, and it sounds like relief, but not quite trust. Forehead-to-forehead, she repeats, “I know you do.” Jemima closes her eyes then, leaning into this physical contact that Faith's allowing, because Faith might need this, something soft even if momentary.

Peace is spoiled by a baby’s crying, and Jemima whips her head away, this way and that, raw panic strangling her as she pulls and rattles at the rope that’s tight around her arms and torso. “Where is she?” she shouts, starting to cry and thrash in her chair.

Faith looks at her with odd fascination, like watching an insect. Then there’s more noise outside -- gunfire -- and Jemima howls because she can’t find her, and then Faith is gone yet again, and Jemima is left with Rhoda’s screeching cries in her ears, and fear for Jason's safety.

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Jason couldn’t bring himself to kill again, not even now when he was still wearing the same clothes unwashed. Not even a smart remark would seem to snap him out of his seemingly lasting stupor. It’s the shock, she tells herself. So it’s Jemima who takes to drowning instead. She’s not sure it’s worked, because when she turns to look back at the body, it’s disappeared. She has an hysterical thought: maybe Faith was never real.

She decides it doesn’t matter, since Joseph releases two barrels full of Bliss in front of the church.

#mine #my writing #mw: far cry 5 #mw: rp related #wc: 1000 – 2000 #series: flowers #ch: jemima flowers #ch: faith seed #sft #/ again;#/ it's not a series yet but yeet lmao

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hibiscoplots · 4 years

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` &. tag drop !!

#/ . + ° personal #/ . + ° resources #/ . + ° mw plots #/ . + ° mw male #/ . + ° mw female #/ . + ° ask meme #/ . + ° inspo #/ . + ° mw ships #/ . + ° non rp related

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noxtms · 4 years

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mw characters?

so many ! canons : dean thomas, daphne greengrass, gabrielle delacour, theodore nott, nymphadora tonks, lee jordan, charlie weasley, seamus finnigan, millicent bulstrode, percy weasley, neville longbottom, minerva mcgonagall, rubeus hagrid, lavender brown, george weasley, blaise zabini, cormac mclaggen, katie bell, oliver wood, viktor krum, susan bones, arthur or molly weasley ! there’s even more options with canon surnames, though, since our diggory oc is looking for a sibling, one of our slughorn’s wants more relations and i wouldn’t mind some mckinnon descendants ! umbridge, trelawney, ollivander, crabbe, moody, lockhart and dolohov would also add something to the rp, in my opinion !

#hp rp #harry potter rp #appless rp #new rp #canon rp #answered #anonymous #admin r.#Anonymous

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the-lost-river · 2 years

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I need to remake my ugly ass pin, so new one?

First: I make my own lore and worldbuilding, none of this blog will ever make sense.

Second: Tag system, somewhat easy to learn so now that rundown

mw; (name): Wolf from my Wolvden pack

sm; (name): Wolf from my legacy Wolfquest Challenge (seripixelbiologist style).

sr; (name): Wolf from my RP Wolfquest pack.

saga; (name): Related to Sunlit Meadow pack, whenever I play and livepost

Lastly: No bigotry of any kind allowed here.

#rambles

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carpstove88 · 2 years

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#Encorafenib #Gemcitabine #DNA

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dayslily · 2 years

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hi nic! i'm a little tempted to join your rp but i'm nervous since it seems to have a lot of muses and it'd be my first time rping on discord..i saw you said tumblr half so does that mean the actual threading is done on accounts? also any mw wcs in particular, specifically familial or romantic hehe? thank you! i might return back with a few qs too!

hi omg <3 we would be super happy to have u around! by the tumblr half, i just meant i haven't been promoting on the main as much as i should be FAJSDOFIJADS everything roleplaying wise is done on discord !!

the number of muses can definitely seem a little daunting but when u consider how it's broken down (heroes, villains, civilians, hero students) it's a little less overwhelming!! because there a little pockets of people u can assume connections with no matter who u bring in hehe <3

i will list a few different wanted connections below the cut for u !! we're also dropping a few more skeletons soon <3 i could talk ur ear off about chevalier so pls feel free to ask whatever u'd like!! u can im me also <3

familial:

jade hwang (hwang yeji fc) is seeking their older sister who is a pro hero. the pair are estranged now that jade is affiliated with the villains since they come from a hero family. they have a complicated relationship because jade was always in her shadow, but they were also close in their own way. preferably, they look like kang seulgi or any korean fc and are 24-28 years old. you do not need to contact lottie before claiming this connection.

gia lucci (olivia culpo fc) is seeking their younger sibling who is the 'golden child' of the illustrious luccis. someone who can push gia to be better for and one of the reasons they're on top now. preferably, they look like any fc, could be adopted and are 23-27 years old. you do not need to contact mina before claiming this connection.

elias yu (jung wooyung fc) is seeking their cousin. the only family elias has left, after his parents estranged themselves from him after his sister’s passing. they don’t talk much, but occasionally check on each other. preferably, they look like any korean fc and are any age years old. you do not need to contact hannah before claiming this connection.

beom-seok ‘ joshua ’ im (choi san fc) is seeking their half brother. they’re related on their dad’s side. josh never really had much of a relationship with his father, so he feels some resentment for the fact that they were “chosen” over him. i imagine them to be sort of like tetsutetsu, but that’s not a requirement at all! overall, josh has a rivalry in his head with his older brother whether they’re actively participating in it or not. preferably, they look like any at least half korean fc and are 22 - 24 years old. you do not need to contact snooki before claiming this connection. (skeleton coming soon)

sebastian moon (song kang fc) is seeking their twin sister who is a notorious villain and passionate about villainy, they are the only reason he currently stays affiliated with villains at all . preferably, they look like any korean fc ( some suggestions : lee hi, im nayeon, han sohee ) and are 25 years old. you do not need to contact jack before claiming this connection.

trey paras (evan mock fc) is seeking their half sister who is affiliated with the heroes and doesn't quite realize that trey exists; they share a father. preferably, they look like kelsey merritt and are 23-25 years old. you do not need to contact nic before claiming this connection.

romantic (including past romance)

winter sansurin is seeking their almost something. they would have had feelings for each other during her chevalier days prior to sun's death. i imagine they were close to getting in an official relationship but his death caused winter to shut them out completely. they'd be the closest thing to romantic love that winter has experienced with the possibility of lingering feelings . preferably, they look like any fc and are 22-26 years old. you do not need to contact jack before claiming this connection.

dohoon kang is seeking their friends to almost-lovers to enemies (to a friendship resurrected with lingering love and lingering wounds that can either be carefully bandaged or left to fester). from being friends with romantic feelings for each other, circling each other without ever speaking their minds, to their falling out, to now a very complicated relationship with basically just a lot of conflicting feelings. preferably, they look like any fc and are 26-29 years old. you do need to contact hannah before claiming this connection.

lydia solomon is seeking their rekindled flame, who she met during her schooling at chevalier & they were largely a "right person, wrong time" situation. preferably, they look like any age appropriate fc and are 27+ years old. you do not need to contact nic before claiming this connection.

sage grimn is seeking their ex who is now a villain and part of the reason sage was forced into retirement. preferably they were are part of a well known family and their relationship would have been pushed on them via sage's parents. they would have started as hero and / or hero student before falling into villainy at the end of their relationship.. preferably, they look like any fc and are 31 + years old. you do not need to contact mun name before claiming this connection.

hayden park is seeking their ex. this person is the one hayden had fallen for. they ended their relationship because either (1) they felt hayden couldn’t/wouldn’t open up and trust them or (2) they felt that they couldn’t trust hayden to not become a villain just like the rest of her family. preferably, they look like any fc and are between 25-27 years old. you do need to contact alex before claiming this connection.

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zhao-tianyou · 2 months

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edit: 2.14.24

thanks for taking an interest in my page! before you follow, here is a general overview of my page and some stuff i ask you to tag if i follow you

if you have any issue with these, especially my dni list, please block me

if you need anything tagged that isnt tagged, please let me know! i want to make your experience as comfy as possible

note: my blog runs on a queue that is at 1000 about 90% of the time. if i like something, odds are it is in the queue and will eventually post

link page can be found here

this is lengthy, so more after jump!

(general what i post, what i tag, dni list, and what i need tagged included)

what i post

the yakuza games

genshin impact

honkai star rail

obey me

a3!

resident evil

red dead redemption

cute animals

zodiac

graphics

shitposts

cinderella phenomeon

xoxo droplets

the ikemen series (ikemen prince, vampire, revolution, sengoku)

the soul calibur series

wrestling (wrestling only page is @hyo-watanabe)

fanfic (fanfic only page is @kristenssinbin. all reblogs of smuttiness will go there)

romantic shit

personal shit

digimon

castlevania

persona 5

far cry series

food

fashion/jewelry

nopixel (nopixel sideblog is @nicholas-simone)

twisted wonderland

court of darkness

dead by daylight

the call of duty reboot from 2022 (gaz is kind of a babe)

aesthetic stuff such as flowers and sunsets

stimboard / stimming gifs / satisfying gifs

onx (rp server)

newday rp

my tags

yakuza, judgment games may be tagged with judgment too

genshin

obey me (lately have been using just om)

rdr

fave

ref

cinderella

xoxo

ikesen

ikevamp

ikepri

ikerev

rasslin

rom

replies

messages

digimon

castle

personal blahness tag retired due to it bringing back bad memories

shut up kristen (general post / venting posts)

my edit

my edits

my icons

my gifs

my lockscreens

kristen's stuff (main tag for my stuff i made like icons)

discourse

sova

hanzo

fc3

fc4

fc5

fc6

fcnd

twst

cod

nopixel

newday rp

newday

onx

hsr

i tw sensitive content. i either go tw: (sensitive thing) or tw (sensitive thing)

i also try to tag spoiler/spoilers. i do a general rule of after 1 month of me seeing something or it being out for 1 month+ , i don’t spoiler tag then

what i need tagged

insects

spiders

body horror (a little blood is ok because i play m rated games)

ships!!! (please tag your ships. i don’t ship anything, but there are some ships that i am super uncomfy with due to age difference and things bringing back bad memories and whatnot)

dni if

fujoshi

pro shipping (especially incest and adult x child ships)

DDlg/CGl(re)/any related age play kink blogs

MAPs/NoMAPs/PEARs/lolicon

maga/conservative

TERFs/Radfems

Bigots/supporters of hateful viewpoints or ideologies (racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, fatphobia etc)

pro-life

anti BLM

if you see nothing wrong with rpf

anti-vaxxers/anti-mask

thinspo

animal abuse

LGBT-exclusionist

overwatch league blog; fuck harryhook and fuck everyone who didn't believe me :3

xqc fan; dude is a piece of shit with a gross fanbase. dude has been banned from like 4 different games and owl because of how awful he is

cg/gg/hydra fan; fuck em and the toxic vibes they bring to the np community

old scu fan; what they (a large chunk of scu) did to jakka re: their chats is super fucking shitty, fuck em

serval x gepard shippers

jing yuan x yanqing shippers

brian knight fans, only because i talk shit about him a lot and it's for your protection, not mine :3

pro AI users - your precious AI steals content from artists and writers in the fandom, and you should feel bad :3

hazbin/arcana fan - the creators are pieces of shit and their creations are shit, stay the fuck away. i post a lot of anti stuff for both creators too. just best to stay away

empty or untitled blog - this is always going to lead to at least a block. i will likely report you for being a bot

#about me #took out some repeating stuff

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magpiewritingthing · 5 years

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we could’ve made worse mistakes ( you might imagine we did )

Series: leigh crain has powers au

Summary: Steven has ideas about the future. Children factor into it. They do. Truly.

He just didn't think it'd be this early on in his life.

Warnings: mental health issues, suicide, implied child abuse/neglect, death, one ( 1 ) use of the C slur, ableism, menstruation mention, mention of skipped meals & weight talk in the beginning

Other notes: for the discord chat (especially charlie bc ur ocs are Canon Now to me) and also myself because i have headcanons for Leigh; might rewrite the reveal-to-Shirley scene because she does seem wildly... not into it, idk

Two months have passed since they’d first slept together, two months since and she’s not seen blood. It might not mean anything, just stress over this semester’s workload, and cranky from skipping meals from time to time (not often! maybe she should snack more, at least, because she and Steve and Shirley have a little rota system of sorts so that could work out, right?), and... it doesn/t mean she’s pregnant, necessarily. They’d been careful -- birth control, protection, the works. Maybe it’s just her body being a little wonky even though she’s not underweight (not severely enough, or at all, not really), and she doesn’t feel stressed. Better than being at home. “Home”. An aunt and uncle and cousin do not make a home.

Leigh checks the test again. Checks the box to make sure she’s reading it correctly. Beside her, Steve looks them over as well, and her stomach clenches when he hisses through his teeth; she pulls her knees up to her chest when his brow wrinkles into a frown. A small noise (fear) climbs out of her mouth when Steve stays silent.

“I’m sorry.”

“Hey.” No judgement in his voice; an arm wraps around her shoulders, pressing them both together even tighter than thigh-to-thigh on the bathroom floor of their shared apartment. “It’s not your fault. It’s not...” She hears the smack of his lips as he struggles to find something comforting to say, something that sounds natural and not just scrambling to keep Leigh as calm as possible. It doesn’t seem possible right now, or even in the future; still too young for children, still too Markey for this new life, still too tied to Victor and lightning and ghosts for a real life. “We’re both in this, together, no matter what happens. If we keep it, or if we do something about it, or if... we give it up.” Pressing a kiss against her temple, stroking her hair, he says, “I don’t think I’d want to give it up if... if we don’t do something about it.”

It, it, it. So sure “it” is not a “them”. Funny how one’s genetics can mess with stuff like that. Twins, nature control, ghosts. She’s surprised there isn’t a spot of necromancy in there, either.

She has to squash it all down and pray her children (more than one, she can feel it like the night when Victor left, the traitorous shitstain) will not be infected.

Leigh doesn’t dare ask Steve. She knows what he’s told her.

It’s been a month since the test proved positive. They haven’t made any more to do something about it (them); they’ve talked about it (them), and safety nets.

“So.”

“... Yeah.”

“We’re keeping it?” He sounds excited about it. Barely, but the undercurrent is there in his voice, the shine in his eyes, the hopeful clasp of his hands around hers. The way his eyes keep flickering to her barely-there bump. He fucking should be, too -- she is.

“Yeah.” She laughs, exhaling long-held breath. “Yeah.”

Shirley is less than impressed when Leigh breaks the news over a later dinner. It starts off as a joke, “Oh I’m eating for two,” when Leigh really means three as she scarfs down a bigger helping of food. Shirley, looking between her now wide-eyed brother, looking as though he’d been caught out and wasn’t really trying to keep it a secret, and Leigh, looking like the cat with the canary and the cream.

“What the fuck?”

Leigh’s cheeky mood dips, sours. “Don’t be like that.”

“No, are you seriously--?”

Steve tries to placate his sister, reaching for her hand. “Shirl--”

“No!” Shirl whips away, hands to herself. It’s a miracle she doesn’t leave the table, calling them both careless idiots. “What’re you thinking? You can’t be having kids now!”

“Shirl.” He tries again, standing his ground; he knows where Shirl’s coming from, he does, because he’d react the same if she was in the same position. “Me and Leigh have talked about it, and we’ve decided to keep it.”

“Have you?” The question's a sharp wheeze. “Have you considered--”

“Yes, Shirl! We’ve talked about how we’re gonna be able to support our kid, with or without our family’s help.”

Leigh’s thankful there’s no mention of her own family, although she’s not sure if Shirl’s caught on yet. She hopes not.

“Oh Jesus, Stevie--” She's pressing the ball of her palms into her eyes, like the picture in front of her might change and this conversation will cease to be real, as though a the thing (the baby-to-be) in Leigh’s belly will simply disappear. “You’re actually serious about this?”

“Yes.” Joint answer. Shirley just shakes her head, but says no more about it.

When summer break rolls around, Leigh’s stomach is rounder (four months into it now) and she’s debating on whether to beg to go with Steve and Shirl (might as well meet her kids’ other aunts and uncle and great-aunt, right?), or whether to suffer under the eyes of her uncle and cousin and the fretting hands of her aunt. At least Cathleen means well. It’s not enough.

The night before leaving, before her ultimate decision, Victor slips into her dreams again. She’s tried so hard to keep him out while wishing he’d stayed and it’s only worked to make them both upset.

“This wouldn't have happened if you hadn’t killed yourself,” she says, more sulky than all the other times she’s told him this same thing. Her beloved brother, her idol, her hero, her sun-in-the-sky, her do-no-wrong posterboy, her motherfucking protector from all things wrong and evil in this world -- made her watch as he killed himself with that triangle of lightning.

Don’t look away, Leigh. Don’t look away. Don’t look away. Eyes on me. Eyes on me. Eyes on me, Leigh.

“I know,” he says, ever-regretful as all the times before. As much as she wants to hurt him (but God, no, not really, no no no), she knows how sorry he is, how much he regrets it. How he regretted it at the time, at the terrifying need to make something stop but having no other option he could see--

He lays beside her in the dewy nighttime grass as the eternal nighttime sky of their shared world rolls overhead, stars speeding past their eyes; the trees circle them widely, like nature’s earthly crown. Victor rolls over to his side, grasping her forearm in his hand. “You can’t go back there. You know that; if you want these kids to see the world, you won't go back to those assholes.” She shouldn’t be surprised that he knows about them since he’s never wholly left since that night, but it still makes her skin crawl. (Why didn’t he do something about it, as she knew he did with so many other things? With the playground bullies? With the teachers? Did he fear her falling into the foster system? What’s to fear now?)

Leigh's throat clogs; everything is thick with tears. “I know.”

“It’ll kill them. It’ll kill you.”

She’s not sure whether if it’ll merely hurt her, or if she’ll join him here. She doesn’t ask for clarification.

Steven, the oldest brother, the most responsible of the Crain siblings, returns home with Shirley and his pregnant girlfriend. His girlfriend of a year and a half, who came home for a couple of weekends over that time, who chimed in on calls home, who is known by name and middle name and surname and age and hobbies and prospective career. Theo doesn’t shake her hand, instead going in for a hug (and if Theo were to be asked, and if she were to answer honestly, she’d confess that she felt that beat of preternatural in Leigh's blood), and Leigh is relieved that she’s got at least three out of six on her side. The twins hug her, too, before they pay attention to their own siblings. Janet is much the same. A home run; six outta six. Not bad, kiddo, not bad.

Later, during a quiet game after dinner, Leigh offers to clean up with Janet, insisting on it despite everyone saying she should rest. C’mon, she's only four months along, give over.

“Have you told your parents you're not going home?” Janet asks. It’s an innocent presumption, but the weight of everything -- of her brother’s death, of her father’s death, of her mother’s unravelled mind, of her remaining family’s pewter-cold regard -- is suddenly crushing her shoulders. She takes a chair out from under the table and slumps down, leaning against the back of it. Her hands are clammy.

“Sweetheart?” Janet's hand curls around her shoulder, and this tenderness, this genuine care that’s freely given to her, shatters that last wall of preservation: she weeps. Collected into Janet’s arms, she weeps harder, howling into her shoulder, snot dribbling freely as she cries aloud how her father is dead and her mother let herself lose her mind because why stay sane for her only daughter and only surviving family? And it was all Victor’s fault that she was stuck with her stupid frail aunt and boar of an uncle and cunting bitch of a cousin and she hated them all and that's why she’s here instead because the babies would die and she would die and it’d be the end of her because all the love she’d had had been swept away when she was only eight years old.

Janet tells her she can stay. She’s home.

The twins, Diane and Michael, are born on a Monday. Twenty-third of October. Janet has promised to look after them along with Theo, Luke, and Nellie. It’s almost too good to be true, but it’s perhaps the one thing that’s worked out for Leigh and Steven so far.

When winter break swings around, Steven proposes to Leigh, down on one knee in their shitty green-carpeted living space, short fibres rough on his knee and shin. They’re both still sleepy from the late night and late rising, and they’ve only talked about this since August, but of course Leigh says yes.

It’s all too good to be a fairy tale.

Two years later, they’re on their honeymoon, and Leigh is positively pregnant again. Nine months later, Robin and Eleanor, “Nora”, are born, and it’s still too good.

Fifteen years later, Nellie’s dead. Steven sees her in his hotel room.

At home, his children see her too.

#mine #my writing #mw: the haunting of hill house #mw: rp related #wc: 1000 – 2000 #series: leigh crain has powers au #ch: leigh crain #ch: steve crain #sft #/ it's not a series yet but yeet lmao #/ also only tagging leigh & steve bc it's About Them

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