#need me a repeat this weekend

[run-towards-something]

France last year was very special for many reasons, but none as special as the fact that after they got out of of the car, Checo expected Max to shake his hand and instead found himself wrapped in a hug, and he was so surprised he had to stand on his tippy toes

#they’re ADORABLE #need me a repeat this weekend #max verstappen #checo perez #sergio perez #chestappen #red bull #perstappen #redbull racing #formula 1 #French gp 2021

[deancaskiss]

me agreeing to go into work on my day off to assist with a spay: what a great learning experience and an opportunity to show my boss im willing to put in the extra effort because I love surgery

me right now at midnight knowing I have to get up in 6 hours on my day off: why did I sign myself up for this when I could’ve been sleeping in and enjoying my day off after an intense week so far????

#me repeating to myself: I love my job I love my job I love my job #of course I am excited to get to be in the OR tomorrow helping with the big dog spay #but oh boy have the last few days been intense #last week I was seeing like 3-5 patients a day #this week I’ve been seeing 8-9 patients per day #which has been a massive shift in workload and stress and anxiety #don’t get me wrong I’m loving every day and enjoying learning and being a doctor #and I’ve loved my patients and meeting clients and people have being saying such nice things about me #but oh boy. I need a day off to reset and relax #begging crying screaming for the weekend to just let my poor brain melt into a puddle #dr sexy’s veterinarian journey #baz’s babbling

[kevin-sedai]

The vibe really deteriorated as the day went on, and now I'm sitting in bed, awake, feeling like garbage

#it was an okay weekend but i was jittery and numb for most of it #tried to write christmas cards for the first time in 2 years. cried while doing so and then had to lie down after i did 5 #i got frustrated with the story i'm writing and considered dropping it or deleting the whole thing #spent friday alone pretty much all day which normally i'm fine with but for whatever reason made the loneliness really hit hard this time #spent all thanksgiving day waiting for a familial confrontation #got asked by my 6 year old nephew how old i was and then he followed up with 'well why arent you married what are you doing' #which i'm pretty sure is something he heard in a conversation someone else was having and he repeated it bc he's 6 fucking years old #which btw i don't hold against him or am mad at him about bc he's an innocent kid #but that made me feel really shitty #spent an hour today panicking about this dog virus #and in between all of that i was self diagnosing myself with mental illnesses #which made me feel awful bc it made gaslight myself in thinking maybe i wanted one? #which is so fucked up to the max and i'm so sorry for even putting that here #but i put this all here bc i could never have this conversation with people irl #they'd get too worried or they'd think i'm overreacting or i need to date or need to do something with myself besides read #i'm so sorry everyone #i'll try to be better #i just had to put this out somewhere #and i didn't put this in a journal bc my last entry sounds so teenagerish out of context i don't even want to look at it #anyway i have to try to sleep i have to go into the office early tomorrow #i'm sorry guys #i really am😔

[born-to-lose]

FIRST SHIFT AT THE BAR NEXT FRIDAY SHE'S REPORTING ME TO THE ACCOUNTANCY FIRM TOMORROW

#it's the night after the h.e.a.t concert so that could be a bit stressful but i already had to push it a week further away #she originally would have liked me to start this friday because she would be alone or with only one other bartender i don't remember exactly #BUT I PRETTY MUCH GOT THE JOB IN THE BAG HELL YEAH NEXT WEEKEND I'M OFFICIALLY POURING DRINKS AT FUCKING PAUNCHY CATS #AND GETTING INTO CONCERTS FOR FREE IF I DON'T WORK THE SHIFT ON THOSE NIGHTS ANYWAY AND GETTING DRINKS ON THE HOUSE #MEETING ALL THOSE COOL BANDS AND PARTYING WITH THEM AND HAVING A FUN JOB #now my mom is a annoyed/mad at me because i'll have to use her car or need someone to pick me up but idk i think it's doable after a while #and in case i can't get home afterwards because of the weather or nobody can pick me up again after driving me there or i'm sick #the boss offered me to sleep at her place next door or at her son's second house he's partially offering to the bands to sleep #which i hope i won't need but how sweet is that 🥺🥺🥺 #well actually her son is the boss but she does the administrative stuff and all and works as a bartender too #when i came in she said i look fancy and before i left she hugged me and repeated over and over that she'd be happy to have me in the team #mel talks

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Feeling slightly better today because I finally cleaned up the last worst part of the mould so now keeping everything clean should be a lot easier

Also recieved $30 (thank you!!) bringing the total this month to...around £90, after exchange and processing? Currently sitting with £40 bc my phone bill came out and, yeah, we're generally short a couple hundred and we got less in this month to begin with. Currently trying to decide between electricity and being allowed to work lmfao

Kofi as always, just in case anyone is still up to helping <3

#to be absolutely clear bc these are things i think and worry. #i am not repeating things and bringing up our exact problems bc im looking for pity or trying to guilt trip for money #please please whatever else you may think reading these posts please know that has never been my intention #i hate. h a t e. how much we've been relying on generosity #but i am trying to be clearer about the exact state of things for us for the sake of clarity and transparency #like...i feel awful knowing ive taken nearly a hundred quid from people this month and im still stuck here trying to pick #what is less painful to sacrifice #its work lmfao i gotta get that paid today or else i dont get to actually earn my own money but the POINT is #i hate it. i hate it but i dont see other immidiate options. #right now we'll most likely lose power over the weekend but we're both working so. eh. #we're also out of a few groceries and if we DO lose power we cant cook what we have and will lose a freezer full of stuff #so. ugh. yeah at the end of the day thiscis me begging for even more money and i hate myself for it #we just. we gotta get through this month man #i need to believe things will be easier next month. ive been saying that for over a year now but i gotta

[eskawrites]

y’know, i was wondering why this installment of the raise dead au was taking me so long to write, but i just finished it and it’s uhhh 12k words. so like. that would be why.

#i say as if it didn't write like the last 25k of the celebrity fake dating au in one weekend #this took me months #but still! it's so much longer than anticipated lmao #raise dead #rdau #writing things #anyway turns out all i needed to finish this fic was to listen to farewell summer by abby gundersen on repeat #i should've known that would've been the trick it's such a good soft scene writing song

[tangerinesour]

i know i said it before, but thank you for all being here and for enjoying whatever the hell it is i'm doing with tange. it means a lot to me that you want to hear my opinions abt another of my funky lil dudes.

#000 ( ☿ ) ─── ( ooc ). #i know we had the alex(knife) fest over the weekend #and i've been sitting on lucas' ask that made me Cry bc i felt so loved. #but it just bears repeating. #i'm happy you're here with me. thank you for being my friends. #feeling a way abt something that's neither here nor there so i needed to spread this out to you all.

[truethes]

i am completely normal in my feelings for slee.py ash: (proceeds to have a breakdown over a song because it was merely titled 'if i never see london again')

#❛ ♡ › jupiter : 𝐨𝐨𝐜. #i discovered it on friday and literally ive had it on repeat for a lot of this weekend #when its about leaving london but also having to stop letting the past catch up to you and how the singer needs someone else to be strong #and tell them everythings okay because thats the only way they can get free #(screams) #another song in the album has lyrics along the lines of: #we can't change the end because it's been written. im trying to take the last chance that ive been given #stars never FAIL to give me ash thoughts his playlist is so long but now im emotional all over AGAIN

[mayonakano-archive]

i need it to be the weekend, please

#leoposting #vent in tags #i guess #if i disassociate so hard i forget what day it is the weekend will come faster... #<- cannot actually do that #i hate trudging thru the days. pls. let me rest. i hate my gym teacher and im already tired of my classes #can i just fail this yr so i have to repeat it; get kicked out; and then disappear pleaaaase? #<- doesn't actually want that just doesn't know what to do #i need to live in a cave somewhere. or something. i need to not be expected to be a real person thanks <3

[kylewalker-peters]

I have managed to find a group of friends that I love so dearly and deeply but also they wanna do things so rarely that it’s genuinely pissing me off

#like I’m lazy as fuck don’t get me wrong #and in many ways I love that there’s not this expectation to hang out 24/7 because I do need time to myself #but when I’m the one who keeps asking to do things in the group chat and they’re all wishy washy about things like holidays it’s like 🤬 #and it’s not just one group of friends I’ve managed to repeat this multiple times! amazing! #like i wanna go on holiday with my mates anywhere for even just a weekend but they won’t like come on man

[xekstrin]

One of the most memorable interactions was Saturday. Into our booth strolls a small family, tempted by free samples of freshly brewed tea. We chatter and give them the spiel, that the tea is character merch and we’re a cozy health-based app called Forage Friends.

The young girl zeroes in on our pride pins.

“They have my pin!” She says excitedly. “They have my flag!”

The dad blinks. He is surprised, but also calm and positive when he sees it’s the lesbian flag. “Oh. That’s… different from what you told me.”

“That was months ago, dad.” And she rolls her eyes. Definitely a teenager.

I turn to him and say, “Yeah, dad.” And we share a little laugh about it.

He says, “No, it’s great. That’s amazing, honey. It was just news to me.”

“Well, I guess I just decided to stop lying to myself. About liking guys. Like right now.”

A little lesbian just came out to her dad and he was super cool about it.

I’m standing there in my tie-dye mask and my cheery blue apron pouring tea and making small talk and I’m trying really hard not to cry or compare it to my experience, the fire & brimstone, the disgust, the conditional acceptance as long as I never bring it up.

So as this beautiful bonding is going on, the girl’s even younger brother turns his gaze around. He’s in a snorlax hoodie and bored and wants to go look at the swords across the hall. But on the other side of our booth….

“WHY DO PEOPLE DRAW THAT?” He asks loudly, and we all turn to our neighboring booth.

Our neighbors were extremely lovely people. Every time we had a break we would talk, and we became good friends over the weekend. They kept apologizing that their booth was next to ours and we kept repeating that it was totally fine. Their booth was great. I even bought their merchandise.

The thing that was so contentious, that they felt the need to apologize for, was that they were selling explicit titty hentai stickers of popular characters. They were censored with little yellow R18 labels but the content was very clear.

So back to the family: I freeze and immediately go somewhere else to let dad handle this question. With adult customers I’ve been loud and positive about our neighbors. (“Man, how has it been boothing next to them?” It’s been great! They bring a lot of foot traffic and they’re kind and wonderful professional neighbors. If anything it’s a fun juxtaposition. We believe in artistic freedom. I bought a sticker too!)

But this is a kid, it’s not my place to explain anything…. But I was extremely curious about what this chill dad would say.

“Well,” dad says with a long measured silence between each word. “Sometimes people are horny.”

#IT WAS SO FUNNY #the kid was like GROSS #and dad was like its art :) #maybe one day you will feel that way too son #and he was like NO NEVER GROSS #and the dad was like you know what thats true :) not everyone feels that way #but maybe some day you will and you’ll see it’s totally fine and normal #A+ dad #dad of all time #dad champion #forage friends

[downfallofi]

I've felt for a while now that I don't think kids are in the cards for me, just because I don't think anyone is ever going to want to get to that point with me, but being there and watching them parent three kids between near college age and tween just constantly has me going "yeah, so definitely not that"

#I dunno there's a lot that goes on that I find it hard to unpack #Like with the youngest #And her steamrolling over everyone but particularly David #By getting her way through sarcasm or outright belligerence #But like #This weekend it's been the like #Repeated mentioning about how she relates to serial killers and how she wants to stab people at school sometimes #that gives me pause #Like #Most of the adults in this house ignore it #Pass by it #Or indulge it with a chuckle and an Ohh Mele! #But Im legitimately concerned the kid does not recognize the value of what shes saying #And might actually mean it? #what do you do when you can't chalk it up to aint the way I would parent #Aint my values #But do you homie #Like no #Yall NEED to be talking to Mele and paying attention to the media she consumes #And we all need to be working harder to ensure she understands like...... #Literally foaming about relating to fucking serial killers that stab people #Isnt........... good?? #Idk #This fucking house man #More and more wtf every single day #I dont.... know where I belong here

[thespookywoods]

Getting ready for work and once again all I can think about is why retail jobs and retail adjacent jobs suck so much ass

#my mostly night shift schedule for next week means I’ll barely get to spend time with my partner who has a 9-5 job #the fact that ‘it’s retail of course you HAVE to be available for at least one day of the weekend’ is just. normal #i heard my boss ask a coworker if she could just skip this class to come in for work and he’ll adjust the schedule starting next week #it’s not unique to retail but the way we’re just. not allowed to be people with lives and friends and social lives and needs drives me nuts #so many things are planned on weekends because it’s assumed you’ll have it off. and retail goes Why Would You Get That :) #i know office jobs and 9-5 email jobs are a kind of hell however I would like a new novel kind of hell like that. #i would like a schedule that’s the same and never changes I’d like to not have my feet ache at night I’d like to not feel cut off from my #social life and circle of friends #like all of us at work talk about how we go home too tired to do anything. wake up work home crash sleep repeat I hate this #tbd

[chika-nyan]

Hahahahahahahahahahaha

Family drama :)

#not even fresh family drama :) #The same family drama repeated once more :) #it’s super duper cyclical :)))))) #Sorry I’m very upset I don’t even need to talk about it I just #Need to say somewhere I’m frustrated and tired of it #throwing on top of that it is vacation time supposed to be a happy time #and it’s too hot for me to not be running angry as well 8/ #the cycle is always at an inconvenient time for me :) #Like omg idk a family birthday party coming up so excited! DRAMA!!!! #Nice long weekend to kick back??? DRAMA!!!! #I just……… want a break I can’t deal with this shit over and over