#not a huge fan of the whipping kids thing. but killing his abuser and burning down a manor was so cool of him. based

[mccromy]

In regards to why Yue Qingyuan is like that when it comes to Shen Jiu, I have some thoughts.

To begin with, I always interpreted their relationship as purely platonic/familial (though perhaps with potential to turn into something else had things been different. I think their personalities are compatible in that way.)

Because of that, I empathize with Yue Qingyuan from my place as the oldest sibling, and because of it I think I can understand him when it comes to his behavior regarding Shen Qingqiu. (Because of that, I admit I'm not objective, so don't take this as a serious analysis and just my thoughts)

And for this I feel that Yue Qingyuan, more than allowing Shen Qingqiu to do what he pleases because he feels guilty, feels responsible for Shen Qingqiu's actions. He doesn't let Shen Qingqiu abuse his disciples, be hostile towards their fellow peak lords, and "engage in debauchery" just because he doesn't want to further strain their relationship, but because all of this is his fault.

When Shen Yuan first transmigrated and Yue Qingyuan asked him to stop punishing Luo Binghe, it didn't feel like he was making an attempt to stop Shen Qingqiu from further abusing the boy, but like the admonishment of an older sibling telling their little brother to stop acting a certain way. A "why are you doing this? You are not getting anything out of it, there's no reason for this other than you being cruel, stop it." Had Yue Qingyuan been making an attempt to stop him from harming his disciple, he would've actually put an end to it. He's the sect leader, he could just take Luo Binghe to another peak if not outright order Shen Qingqiu to stop.

There was a time my younger sister started bullying a classmate, she didn't see it as such, and I know she's not purposely cruel but she was young and thoughtless. In that situation I didn't take the other kid's side and reprimanded her harshly, yelled at her for being mean, ordered her to stop. I asked her why she did that (boy was annoying/everybody else was doing it too (and so it couldn't be wrong)) and told her that what she was doing was cruel, that everybody was being cruel to that boy, explained to her how bullying works, asked her how would she feel if she was annoying and everybody made fun of her, and asked her if she wanted to be a bully.

Yue Qingyuan said something along the lines of ''that boy hasn't done anything wrong, he tries so hard, aren't you tired? Hasn't it been enough?" He didn't take Luo Binghe's side like he should have, but he appealed to Shen Qingqiu's logic. He knew Shen Qingqiu and had an idea of why he was doing it, and addressed it calmly, tried to convince him to stop because there was no point, he was only making himself angry. He wasn't assertive either, only coaxing, because he also felt all of this was his fault. And not only that;

I believe Yue Qingyuan genuinely loved Shen Qingqiu, but he didn't like him anymore, and he felt terrible for it. He cared so much for him, yes, Shen Qingqiu was the only person he actually cared about and he couldn't be objective when it came to Shen Qingqiu. But he was constantly exasperated by him, he was so disappointed, and he knew he could like him again if Shen Qingqiu just stopped acting so caustically. But what right did he have to dislike Shen Qingqiu after how he failed him? If Shen Qingqiu acted like this it was because he was hurt, and whose fault was that?

Love and like do not always go hand in hand.

Think about a parent, a friend, a sibling, an aunt or an uncle. Someone you loved so much as a child and who was good to you. Someone who gave you gifts and played with you and heard you ramble and rant for hours, who defended you from others, who always had a smile for you. Now think about the time you realized they were a bigot, or that they yell to waiters, are cruel to animals. That they hit their partners or their children. You felt disappointed (and even betrayed) but you still loved them, you just didn't like them anymore, and you could no longer trust them, but if something happened to them, you'd be inconsolable. And you just know that if they just stopped you would like them again, you'd be so proud, you'd be so happy. In many cases like this what actually happens is that people feel guilty for loving someone so awful. In Yue Qingyuan's case, he felt guilty for not liking him.

Shen Jiu was not a good man, but he was hurt and the world had never been kind to him, so Yue Qingyuan took it upon himself to be unconditionally kind to him (even if he didn't realize that the way he chose to be kind also hurt Shen Qingqiu) and Yue Qingyuan was also the reason why Shen Qingqiu was so hurt, if Shen Qingqiu was cruel or violent, the blame fell on Yue Qingyuan's shoulders. How could he even dare to side eye Shen Qingqiu for how he behaved, when he wouldn't be like this if it weren't for Yue Qingyuan?

Yue Qingyuan's guilt doesn't come solely from not getting Shen Qingqiu out of Qiu manor, but from every single consequence that followed his failure. He's at fault for any and all of Shen Qingqiu's sins. He is also the only person who will ever be good to Shen Qingqiu, who knows he isn't the monster he made himself to be. He has no right to be disappointed in Shen Qingqiu's actions because they are his fault, he would never dare impose his own will above Shen Jiu's because hasn't Shen Jiu been subjected enough to the whims of others? he will never use his authority to stop him, he's the only ally Shen Jiu has, and he's also the only person in the whole sect with power over Shen Qingqiu, not only because of his position as sect leader, but because of how well he knows Shen Qingqiu, his secrets, his past and weaknesses. This puts him in a position to hurt Shen Qingqiu in ways no other could, to damage beyond what any other would be able to.

Yue Qingyuan's regrets are way more complex than what people make them out to be. Yue Qingyuan is aware that his silence about the fact that he did come back but was too late wounds Shen Qingqiu deeply, and the longer he doesn't explain himself the more Shen Qingqiu hurts. But this is also the only way he has of punishing himself, and he also feels guilty about it.

Imagine how he must see his own situation, Yue Qingyuan is respected and well liked, rich and powerful, he will never have to submit to other's wishes, he is free, untouchable, his brother is alive and healthy and close by. He has it all and more than he ever dreamed of, and deserves none of it, how could he ever allow himself to be forgiven? When in the end he's the person who has hurt Shen Jiu the most.

There are more reasons why he keeps quiet about the Linxi caves, most stem from trauma, and I believe his own need for punishment is one of them.

So when I see his behavior being reduced to ''he doesn't want for sqq to hate him more'' or ''he's just ashamed and guilty'' I feel sad because, Shen Jiu might be the most misunderstood character by other characters in the story. But Yue Qingyuan is the most misunderstood character by the fandom.

#yqy loving hours continue #Yue Qingyuan #svsss #yqy #mip #i was like. if my sister acted like that and I had the same baggage as yqy. would i act any different? 🤔 #and the answer was: I don't think so #a consequence of shen jiu being so mischaracterized by fandom is that people mischaracterize everybody else as well tbh #''if Shen Jiu did nothing wrong but everybody acts like he did then everybody else must be wrong!'' ma'am he did some things wrong #the whole plot of pidw stems from the things he did wrong #did he do everything he was accused of? nope. did he do some of those things tho? oh hell yeah #not a huge fan of the whipping kids thing. but killing his abuser and burning down a manor was so cool of him. based

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Facts about Lolly,Lell,Loveheart,and Darkheart

Lolly is the most energetic in the Underlevel Gang.

Everytime Lolly introduces himself to you, he will ask you what your favorite candy is

Instead of drinking ketchup like the other sanses, Lolly will drink honey straight from the bottle.

Lolly will say "You're the devil himself!" if you say you don't like candy or eat bitter candies.

Lolly likes fluffy stuff.

Lolly will always and I mean ALWAYS hug somebody, even if it's someone he doesn't know.

Lolly actually used to wear slippers before, but his Papyrus bought him "Cozy Boots" because he thought Lolly's slippers were worn out.

Lolly enjoys baking.

Whatever you do, make sure Lolly isn't cooking in the kitchen, he will always burn something.

If you give Lolly a giant bag of sweets, he will get excited and devour the whole bag in a second, he will then have a MASSIVE sugar rush(this is useful in battles), once the sugar rush wears off, Lolly will throw up rainbows and become extremely tired.

Lolly's scarf is actually peppermint scented.

Whenever you are sad, Lolly will either tickle attack you, hug you, say a very funny pun, or give you sweets.

Lolly's favorite animal are cats.

If Lolly is super hungry and is craving sweets, but there is nothing sweet in the house, he can food-hallucinate easily, next thing ya know, he'll think you're a chocolate bar and will start to bite your arm.

Lolly once chewed on his scarf before.

Lolly uses a giant lollipop as a weapon, his gaster blasters shoot melted chocolate at you, blinding you, Lolly will then greet you with a smack in the face using the lollipop.

Due to his love for cats, he actually has a cat headband, a fake cat tail, and fake cat whiskers in his room. He didn't wanna tell Loveheart because he thought she would tell everyone.

Lell will sometimes poison brownies and give them to unsuspecting victims.

Lell likes to drink chocolate syrup and will add it to EVERYTHING.

Lell will try his very best to stay away from Lolly due to his fear of Lolly hugging him.

Lell has a soft side for dogs but is too embarrassed to show it.

Lell will always and I mean ALWAYS get scolded by Lolly and Loveheart whenever he swears or does something bad.

Lell enjoys listening to rock music.

Whenever Lell and Darkheart encounter with each other, things start to get pretty heated.

Lell's reasoning for not being on Darkheart's side is unknown.

Lell once stole a piece of furniture(a couch) from another AU.

Lell carries a huge Lollipop on his back, it's red and it has black stuff on it, it may be edible and tasty, but he'll smack the shit out of you with it.

Lell is known as the 'psychopath' in the group due to his actions and behavior.

Lell hates clowns and dolls.

Lell is a master at setting traps, he's positive they will work, some don't work while some do.

See that suspicious floating trail of your favorite candy leading to the very dark woods? Yea. Lell did that.

Lell and Lolly ALWAYS get into fights.

Lell once told the human a swear word and told them to say it to Loveheart to get a kick out of her, what happened to Lell was not pretty at all.

Lell is a sleeps the most out of everyone and will always stay in his room.

Lell  was once abused by his Papyrus and got treated as a pet, he killed his Papyrus by stabbing him to death, every time he sees a Papyrus from a different AU, he'll have flashbacks of his trauma, but for some unknown reason, he keeps the collar his Papyrus gave him.

Lell likes to make fun of Cross!Sans for his fear of cows and will dress like a cow and will chase him around just to scare him.

Loveheart is the most caring and innocent person you'll ever meet.

Loveheart can turn herself into a tiny vampire bat, making her go through cell bars easily.

Like Lolly, Loveheart will do just about anything to make you go from sad to happy.

Loveheart loves kids.

Loveheart will always try to befriend a human, but if the human is trying to kill her, she will have no choice but to kill them herself.

Her LOVE and EXP are low, meaning Loveheart is the most weak in the UnderLevel gang.

Loveheart can just simply roast somebody without even knowing it.

If Loveheart swears, let's just say she'll be quiet for the rest of the day.

Loveheart can get corrupted if the "Rose of Hope" is corrupted or destroyed, she can also get corrupted if she falls into despair.

Due to her height, Loveheart is the shortest one in the gang.

Loveheart will ALWAYS get judged on by her appearance, people mistake her for a human often.

Loveheart will get called a "Shortie", "Munchkin", or a "Kitty"

When she was AU traveling, the first sans she met was Blueberry!(Underswap)Sans.

Loveheart likes puns.

Loveheart will not go to an AU that has negative energy.

Loveheart is given the ability to AU travel in order to hide from her sister until she gets back to her own AU, Lollytale.

Loveheart is a little overprotective towards others and will freak out if one of her friends gets hurt.

Loveheart has arachnophobia(fear of spiders),this was caused by a spider landing on her head and crawling on her face.

Loveheart will say "SON OF A BISCUIT" or "WHAT THE FUNK?!" whenever she gets super mad(this is her way of swearing)

Don't let Loveheart catch you smoking or drinking.

Loveheart has two weapons, her wand and her "War Fans", (the war fans are traditional Japanese fans with very sharp blades attached to them)

When her magic is low, Loveheart will use her War Fans, when she pulls them out, they'll be closed and Loveheart will use that as a threat to make the enemy go away.

Loveheart will sometimes hit the enemy with her wand.

Loveheart has a cute British accent, some people like to tease her about it while others say it's adorable.

Loveheart has the ability to summon her little helpers by simply saying "Tenshi" which is Japanese for "Angel".

Darkheart will accidentally call her boss "Master" and will be super embarrassed.

Darkheart is a smartass.

Darkheart sleeps. ALOT.

Darkheart actually has a crush on Mute!Sans and will always blush whenever she's too close to him, she tends to call him an "experiment gone wrong",but she secretly has a plushie of him.

Darkheart has a "Rose Whip", she normally uses it to tie up people by wrapping it around them or to get someone's attention by cracking it, it has sharp thorns on the actual whip part, so it's gonna hurt like hell if she hits you with it.

The first Sans Darkheart met was Killer!Sans, they ended up fighting each other because Killer mistaked Darkheart for a human.

DON'T make Darkheart angry. She can get super violent and agressive towards you.

Darkheart prefers to go alone in missions because she feels like her teammate will screw something up.

Darkheart despises Dust, Cross, Error, and Horror, but is good friends with Nightmare and Killer.

Darkheart was once friends with a human, but ended up killing them because Darkheart found out the human was trying to turn Darkheart from evil to good, however, the human reseted in order to live another day, but Darkheart would remember them and would always attempt to kill them again.

When Darkheart was still sweet and innocent, she never wanted to be a Despair Princess, she wanted to be like Loveheart, however, the villagers would try to kill Darkheart in order to become immortal.

Darkheart is the second deadliest in her boss's gang.

Darkheart's favorite animal is a panda.

Darkheart has the ability to summon demons just by saying "Akuma!",which is Japanese for "Devil"

NOW HERE ARE SOME SIMILARITIES ABOUT THE VAMPIRE TWINS.

Darkheart and Loveheart both have cute British accents.

Loveheart and Darkheart both have giant sweet tooths.

Unlike other vampires, Loveheart and Darkheart will not die in the sun, but their skin will start to have red burns if they stay in the sun for too long, so they often keep an umbrella with them whenever they are in the sun.

That's all the facts I could think of guys, anyway I hope you liked them, follow my Tumblr for more! It helps me alot, feel free to ask me questions about my 2 AUs!

#lollytale #loveheart #darkheart #Lolly!Sans #LollyHell!Sans #character facts #ask box is open #LollyHell

[aion-rsa]

Preacher: The Most Shocking Moments From the Comics

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There are plenty of differences between the Preacher TV series and the comics, but the commitment to shock value remains the same.

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This article contains major spoilers for the Preacher comics and probably the TV series, too. It's also completely unsuitable for younger or more sensitive readers.

In the world of Preacher, horror is the eleventh commandment.

TV fans are now in on what countless DC Comics and Vertigo fans have known for years, that when it comes to shocking moments, no comic on the planet can hold a candle to Garth Ennis and Steve Dillon’s Preacher. When Preacher began in 1995, from the very first page, it was clear that this was a comic that knew no boundaries, a comic that pushed the envelope on good taste and social taboos while testing the limits of the comic book medium. But make no mistake, underneath those gorgeous Glenn Fabry covers beat a huge heart, because as offensive and nasty as Preacher usually got, the comic book epic also delivered a very human and often moving story of love, hope, and friendship.

But we’re not here to talk about that sappy stuff. We’re here to talk about the exit wounds, flayings, contusions, atrocities, sexual deviancy, depraved rednecks, incest, murders, mayhem, chaos, compound fractures, buggerings, cranial trauma, mass killings, food sex, regular sex, animal sex, fish sex, sheep sex, S&M, and decapitations that Preacher delivered on a regular basis.

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An entire church burns to death, and that's just the start.

Ennis and Dillon’s Preacher opens with a church full of parishioners horribly burning to death. In the opening pages, before fans met Cassidy, Tulip, Arseface, the Saint of Killers, Herr Starr, or any of the major players of Vertigo’s magnum opus, they bore witness to Jesse Custer becoming possessed by Genesis, a metaphysical entity with the powers of God. Genesis gives Jesse the power to compel people with his voice (think a way more dashing and less creepy version of Jessica Jones’ Killgrave). And when the powerful entity possesses Custer, the joining kills everyone currently listening to a sermon in Custer’s church.

This moment of horrific blasphemous atrocity set the tone for Preacher, and it was seared into the minds of Vertigo’s faithful. 

TC Buggers a Live Chicken

TC and his pal Jody were Jesse Custer’s childhood tormentors. They worked for Jesse’s evil Grandma Custer and kept order on her sprawling estate. TC was a clearly inbred redneck whose sexual proclivities were just as disturbing as his ghoul like face. TC and Jody made young Jesse’s life miserable as they enforced grandma’s rule with iron handed efficiency, administering beatings to Jesse on the regular.

read more: Why Sandman Was the Essential Horror Comic of the '90s

Things took an even more twisted turn when, one day, TC decided he was going to fuck a live chicken. Yes, Preacher went there. Sadly, Jesse’s best friend witnessed TC choking his chicken and was killed by the enraged poultry violator. This childhood trauma was one of the main reasons Jesse walked his path of righteousness and when Custer ran into Jody and the chicken-violating TC years later, all hell was coming for the animal buggerer and his evil pal.

There’s a Kid Whose Face Looks Like a Puckered Ass

Ah, poor Arseface. Ennis and Dillon introduced a hapless soul who botched a suicide attempt and ended up blowing off most of his face. But he lived, and the results aren't pretty.

read more: How They Create Arseface on TV

Preacher fans will never forget the reveal of the abused boy who would come to be known as Arseface. Dillon really went to town rendering the ruined visage of this poor soul, but despite the most horrific wounds, somehow, the boy’s eyes still shined with a total innocence. The always cheeky Cassidy the vampire dubbed the boy Arseface and the character was mostly played for laughs as the series progressed. Ennis had a blast telling Aresface’s side story as Preacher rolled on. Most of this tale was slide splitting as the poor earnest butt face tried to survive and thrive in a world that would collectively puke at the sight of his poor ruined face. But it was the first reveal of Arseface that balances that perfect blend of horror and humor fans came to expect from Preacher.

Face Off

Early in Preacher’s run, fans were introduced to Si Coltrane, an old pal of Cassidy’s. Cassidy met Coltrane at Woodstock and the two became fast friends. Coltrane became an investigative reporter who, when readers first met him, was on the trail of a serial killer known as the Reaver-Cleaver.

read more: Complete Guide to Preacher Season 4

When Ennis and Dillon first introduced the Reaver-Cleaver, the killer was hard at work on one of his victims. The moment was an instance of absolute terror as readers were forced to witness the Reaver slowly slice off a man’s face and then nail the removed skin mask upside down to the still living victim. It was a masterful splatterpunk moment of pure body atrocity as Preacher proved to fans that it would not pull punches when it comes to a liberal application of gore and violence. 

Jesus DeSade

The character of Jesus DeSade probably epitomizes the Preacher experience. DeSade is an unforgettable character who leads a cult called the Gomorrah People, a group famous for throwing legendary sex parties where nothing is taboo. What starts out as a humorous romp through fetishism and strange eroticism soon takes a truly dark turn.

After Cassidy’s girlfriend overdoses on heroin, the vampire, Custer, and Tulip try to find out who sold the poor girl the drug. Their investigation takes them to one of DeSade’s famed parties and what the trio finds would make the Overlook Hotel blush. The whole building now, not just the weird Nazi bartender and the guy in the teddy bear costume. Every room in DeSade’s crib was brimming with titillation and depravity, from guys buggering sheep, to whippings, floggings, and BDSM of every shape and size.

read more: 30 TV Shows to Watch Now That Game of Thrones is Over

Anyway, everything was erotic and a little strange (well, really strange if you’re the sheep), but nothing horrific. Until Jesse stumbles into a room where De Sade is filming...well, we're not going to spoil it here. But this is where the mastery of Ennis and Dillon comes into play. Just a few panels before this reveal, the book was a laugh a minute parody of eroticism, but in an eye blink, Ennis and Dillon took readers to the darkest of places. What has been a very funny scene got very real, very quickly. It's terrifying stuff.

"Wub"

Poor Herr Starr. Starr is Preacher’s main antagonist, the leader of the Holy Order of the Grail, an ancient religious society meant to keep the blood of Jesus Christ pure (more on that in a bit). Starr is a master strategist and needs Jesse Custer to complete the Order’s domination of the world. Starr pursues Custer all over the US and what begins as a classic tale of good versus evil, ends up an X-Rated Road Runner cartoon for poor, poor Starr.

At one point, Starr is horribly injured and left for dead in a desert. Fortunately for Starr, he is rescued by the Chunt Brothers. Unfortunately for Starr, the Chunt Brothers are a family of inbred cannibals. By the way, inbred villains are kind of a motif in Preacher. The Chunts plan to nurse Starr back to health in order to fry him real nice and have themselves a Herr Starr banquet.

The youngest Chunt, Cyrus, has issues (see what happens after generations of inbreeding?) and keeps uttering “Wub” whenever he sees Starr. One day, Cyrus comes to Starr alone holding a gun and a roll of toilet paper. It turns out “Wub” means “Wipe,” because no one has wubbed Cyrus in a long time. So Starr has to get in there and clean Cyrus’ neglected Sarlaac Pit in order to distract the dirty bottomed young man so Custer’s arch nemesis could grab the gun and free himself.

Now, let’s dissect this. Cyrus is a cannibal with a butt that hasn’t been wubbed in perhaps months. So basically, Starr is forced to wub little bits of human remains from Cyrus’ nether regions. Have fun with this one AMC! wub.

The Descendant of Jesus Christ

Guys, I’m going to try and explain this one without offending anyone, but it’s going to be hard. As I said, the Order of the Grail’s aim was to keep Christ’s bloodline pure, so they inbred the descendants of Jesus so as not to taint the blood of the savior. Well, science tells us what happens when people keep it in the family, and all that happened as the modern day descendant of the son of God liked to pee on things (a lot) while saying things like “Suffer the little children! humperdumper-doo." 

There Was a Villain that Fucked Meat

Smack dab in the middle of Ennis and Dillon’s Preacher run, Jesse Custer ran afoul of a corrupt meat packing industrialist named Odin Quincannon. During Custer’s quest to find God, the upright preacher loses faith and ends up in the small down of Salvation, Texas. Salvation is, in Ennis’ words, “the kind of place you ain't left by the time you're twenty-five, you're stuck."

It was in this atmosphere of hopelessness that gave rise to Odin Quincannon, a cruel, corrupt, hateful billionaire that ran Salvation with an iron fist. Odin was a creepy little man that allowed his meat packers to run rampant on Salvation, raping, pillaging and murdering whenever they felt the urge. Jesse took up the badge and became sheriff of Salvation and opposed Odin. Odin tried to kill Custer by sending the KKK after Custer, but our preacher stood tall and a titanic struggle for the soul of Salvation began.

Now, all that is riveting, but where does the disturbing come in? Well, I’m about to tell you and if you had plans to go to a steak house or deli today, you might want to start considering some vegetarian alternatives.

Odin would frequently go into his shed to relax. From there, readers would hear Odin saying things like “Spread the cheese” and other disturbing utterances. When all Hell came a callin’ for Odin, Custer found the man in his shed making love to a woman...made of meat. She had big turkey breasts, and a giant ham head, and sausage fingers and yeah, Odin Quincannon was screwing a meat woman.

The image was Steve Dillon’s most twisted visual in his entire run on Preacher. The page is haunting as a drooling, pathetic Odin Quincannon finds one last moment of solace by inserting his pecker into a woman made of meat. Pot roast pounding, veal-sturbation, turkey tumbling, ground beef insertion, sausage fondling, steak humping, pork porking...

The Saint of Killers

OK, imagine Lee Marvin, Clint Eastwood and WWE’s Undertaker coalesced into a Voltron-like murder machine and you have the Saint of Killers. The Saint was once a frontiersman and former soldier who happily lived off the land with his family. When his beloved kin were felled by a fever, the future Saint went to get them the medicine they needed to survive. The soldier’s quest was fraught with peril and he was delayed. When he returned home, he found that it wasn’t the fever that killed his family; it was a group of roaming bandits. Swearing vengeance, the soldier gunned down all the bandits save the leader. The lead owlhoot grabbed a young girl as a hostage and the future Saint, so filled with vengeance, shot her through the head. His gun jammed and the bandit killed the soldier, leaving his vengeance incomplete.

The soldier may have died that day, but the Saint of Killers was born. He went down to Hell, but the killing didn’t stop. He gunned down every demon and devil he saw. The Saint was sent to heaven, but the killing still didn’t stop, he gunned down every angel he saw. The afterlife sent him to Earth and made the soldier the Patron Saint of All Killers. And the killing didn’t stop.

This brings the Saint into Jesse Custer’s story. The Saint is charged with tracking Custer and...well. It leads to a moment that is the essence of the sheer blasphemous gall of Preacher, a series where not even the Almighty is safe from a vengeance driven cowboy.

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Anonymous Hate - Bruce Wayne x Reader

So, lately, a lot of writing blogs I LOVE (though I probably don’t say it enough) received anonymous hate...It inspired me to write this piece. I hope you’ll like it, and if I receive anonymous hate for it, oh man, I’m so ready for this...Anyway, hope you’ll enjoy (forgive me if it’s not great, I slept only 4 hours in those last three days, and drunk too much coffee) : 

You can find my masterlist here : @ella-ravenwood-archives

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Bruce Wayne’s heart is threatening to beat out of his chest, and he isn’t sure of what he’s feeling right now. 

Anger ? Worries ? Confusion ? 

Does he feel stun ? Or Furious ? 

Sad or scared ? 

Anxious or enraged ? 

He doesn’t know. 

And if there’s one thing Bruce Wayne hates, is to lose control over his own emotions. But he just couldn’t help it. 

He was used to it with you, and only with you did he not mind. 

When it was about you, he just couldn’t have any control of what he felt, and that was alright...Though it was always positive feelings. 

Love. Awe. Adoration. A strong friendship. Passion. Devotion. Respect. Affection. Tenderness. Yearning. Fondness. Adulation...

He was of course always worried about you because 1. since you became a Wayne you also became a target for people who’d want something from him or his company, or for those who wanted a huge ransom and 2. because he’s as much the Batman than Bruce, and if one day his secret identity was to be discovered by any of his enemies, your life would be in a life threatening danger...Well, more that it was already. 

This thought was already almost too much to bear (he broke it off with you in the first few months of your relationship, scared to lose you...until he realized that he would lose you anyway if he left you, and since you accepted him back with wide arms...). 

So now, faced with...All this. It was too real. It was too close from home. 

Both literally and figuratively. 

Because those “things” (he refused to give it the name he knew it actually had) arrived in your house. At Wayne’s Manor. 

He felt like a pregnant woman, as if his hormones were playing tricks on him, because it wasn’t possible that a single human being could feel all those feelings at once, naturally...Right ? 

And yet. And yet here, in front of your desk, reading all those terrible things...

-Bruce ? Are you there ?

Your voice makes him jump, and, startled, he whips around and is faced with you and all your Glory...Oh because you’re nothing but glorious, as the light of the sun going down hits you just right and makes you look like a goddess. 

His Goddess. And oh Bruce is glad that you cannot read minds, because if you could, you would mock him and his cheesiness right now. 

-Oh hey, here you are my heart. Say, for tonight, I was thinking...What is that ? Hey are you alright my Broosh ? 

You approach him, worried because he’s just so pale and he seems almost lost, as his eyes follow you as if it was just an automatic reaction. It’s only when you reach for his face, and stroke his cheek with soft fingers that he finally snap out of his strange haze. He leans in your touch, and, without saying anything, shows you what’s in his hand. 

You look down and...

-Oh. That. I knew I should have burn everything...But I always forget. I receive them with the rest of the fan mail and I just shove it in there promising myself to destroy it, in case you’d find them, and then...I forget, or get too busy with something and then forget. 

Bruce doesn’t answer, and just stares at you. His gaze makes you uncomfortable (which is so rare, only when you feel guilty about something in fact)...And so you add :

-I’m sorry Bruce.

He narrows his eyes at you, and shakes his head. Oh dear, did you anger him ? 

-You’re sorry (Y/N) ? No. No my love, don’t be. I should be the one that’s sorry. I’m so, so, SO sorry I never noticed...those things. I should’ve paid more attention. I knew you were receiving those fan mail from readers who loved your book...I should have made sure that there weren’t anything bad in them. 

You chuckle lowly and get closer to him, you go on your tip toes as he bent down, and give him a small but oh, sweet, so sweet kiss. 

-You can’t protect me from everything honey. 

-Non sense, of course I can. 

-It’s not even that important. 

-Not even that important ? (Y/N), there’s death threat in those ! 

He’s showing you specific letters he seemed to have put on a side

-Yeah and ? It’s not like they would ever act on it, they’re just a bunch of low life trash who got nothing better to do than send hate mail to people they don’t even know. It happens when you start to get known, especially if it’s something artistic. There’s always gonna be people to put you down, and honestly, someone being so cowardly that he sends anonymous hate letters to total strangers ? That someone, if he was in front of me, would probably act as if I was the best thing ever, and when I’d look away, just like, stick his tongue out to me or something. They’re cowards those people. They’re pieces of shit that get a kick out of bullying people. They do this for fun, they feel powerful when they send this kind of letters. But really, they’re just extremely stupid and ignorant people, because I refuse to think anyone with even one brain cell would be this hateful, and there’s that. Again, probably, if I ever see them in real life, they’ll cower under false niceness and then give me the finger when I turn my back.

-Or stab you when you turn your back ! 

-Bruce, you’re being overdramatic babe. 

-I am not (Y/N). This letter says you’re just a stain on this planet, a waste of space, and it would just be better if you’d kill yourself ! This one actually says they’d kill you if they ever see you ! They...

-Oh for God’s sake Bruce it’s just hate mail ! 

Bruce winces at those two words he’d been avoiding for a while. 

Hate mail. 

He couldn’t associate anything with you with the word “hate” in it, and yet...You were receiving hate mail. Anonymous hate mail to be exact. 

And giving it the name it deserved, “hate mail”, made it a reality, but also a potential danger (hate always lead to violence in his book), and that angered him again, but also worried him. 

You can see all the thought process he’s going through and you laugh lightly. The sound of your laughter, that he loves so much, seems to soothe him, if only just a bit. With a smile that makes him melt, you say : 

-It doesn’t mean anything Bruce. It doesn’t even hurt my feelings. And believe me, if I felt that any of those were life threatening, I would have told you ok ? But they’re not. They’re just meant to put me down, to make me sad, to make me want to actually commit suicide ! Those people who writes hate mails, they’re terrible people, and if I wasn’t that merciful, I would say they’re useless but that’s implying they’re a waste of space too and I’m not willing to put myself down on their level. But hear me out my heart...it. Doesn’t. Mean. Anything. I’ve been bullied enough in my life that I’m impermeable to this shit ! And to be honest, it’s even kind of flattering...After all, if people send me hate mail it means I became popular enough as a writer that I make some people jealous haha. And that was my pretentious moment of the year...Besides, don’t worry Bruce... I receive way more compliments or love in letters than hate. And again, it means nothing, I don’t feel a thing when reading those, my days of being hurt because of bullies are over. 

Your husband listened to you, without saying a word, waiting for you to finish and...you just break his heart. Because for you to be able to ignore those awful things people told you, you must have gone through a lot...and he knows you did. He knows your childhood wasn’t the easiest. 

You lost your parents young too, but you didn’t have an Alfred. You weren’t rich. You ended up in a terrible place where you got abused both physically and mentally and...He couldn’t think about it for too long. It made him angry and sad again, and those feeling mixed together were the worst. 

You caress his cheek once more, and wrap your arms around his torso, laying your head on his chest. You take the letters from his hands, you take all those : “you should kill yourself” and “you’re the worst writer ever” or “erase yourself off the face of the Earth” away from him. 

And, you throw everything out in the room, papers flying all around. 

-It’s just ashes in the wind Bruce. I don’t care. I really don't. 

With a deep sigh that makes his chest rumble, he says :

-I know my love, and that’s the problem. You might not see those threats as an actual danger because you’re too used to them, but I do see how it could become dangerous. And I can’t loose you. 

-Bruce you...

-Please let me finish. I know you say you don’t mind, that it doesn’t hurt but...what if one day, in a moment of weakness, you fall on those letters ? What if you decide to commit the irreparable and take your own life ? Neither me nor the kids could ever come back from it. And Alfred either. 

You pull away from him a bit, a can’t help but notice the way his fingers grip the sleeve of your shirt, as if afraid you’d suddenly disappear. It distresses you a bit, to see him in such a state over such a silly thing...

-What if one day, you start to believe all those awful things ? What if I don’t see that you’re depressed and decide to...to end your life ? 

There’s an unnatural crack in his voice, and you realize that...maybe it’s not just a silly thing. Silly things couldn’t put your Bruce in such a state. 

-What if one day you stop listening to the good and loving mail, and starts only to listen to the hate ? What if their words become your truth ? 

His arms are now crushing you against him, with so much force that you have some trouble breathing. He realizes though, and lets go a bit. Just enough for you to breathe properly, that’s all. He keeps you close. 

-I hate the fact that you think this is ok. That it doesn’t hurt or touch you anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want you to be hurt or anything the like but...For you to be used to be bullying so much that it doesn’t even faze you...It makes my heart bleed. You don’t deserve the hate (Y/N), love of my life. You’re the most passionate, nicest, sweetest, and any positive superlatives I could think of, and you don’t deserve this hate. You deserve all the best. 

You want to say something, but he pulls away from you, takes your face in his hands, and gives you one of the most passionate kiss he ever gave you. Finally, as you catch your breath as best you can, he continues : 

-I...I can’t stand the thought of you ever feeling like you’re worthless. Like you’re less than nothing. Like you’re a waste of space. Because you’re nothing short of perfect. And if you don’t believe me, ask our sons. Ask Alfred. Ask Clark, Diana, J’onn, Hal, Barry, Hell, even ask Bizarro, even him, with his simple mind, can see you’re the most amazing being on this Earth. It will never stop to break my heart to think that anyone ever made you feel like you were nothing, that anyone underestimated you and...

-Bruce, stops...I can’t handle that many compliments at once...

-Which is exactly why I must say them ! I love you (Y/N), from my very core. I love you so much that even thinking for an instant that people sends you hate mail enrages me, as well as saddened me beyond any measure. I cannot think of you as sad. I...You’re my light. I can’t see you tainted in any way...

-Bruce...

-I love you. Please believe me when I say that all this hate, on you and your writing, all this mindless cowardice...it truly means nothing. 

-I know, I told you saw, I don’t feel b...

-No (Y/N). Look at me. 

His hands are still holding your face, and he forces you to look at him, though you need a few minutes before stopping avoiding his gaze. 

-Look at me (Y/N). Look at me. 

And you do. And he doesn’t let your gaze get lost. His eyes are locked on yours, and he tells you everything once again. 

That you mean something. That you’re not worthless. That you’re not a waste of space, not a terrible writer, not a stain on the World or a mistake. That if you kill yourself you will be missed horribly, you’ll tear their hearts apart, him and the boys, and Alfred and...everyone. You’re perfect. You really are. And sure sometimes you’re a bit too sarcastic and sassy, a bit too careless and your glare is too scary but...You’re their damn World. The central pillar of this family. 

-You stole that like from Clark...

-But I mean it even more than he does. You’re our World. And those hate letters...

-I told you Bruce, it doesn’t faze me one bit. I had no intention of ki...

-I am just making sure. 

He can see that you’re trying to hold your tears. But he wouldn’t take it. He knew better than anyone else that sometimes, you needed to let things go and...So he continues. To praise you. To love you. He will continue for eternity if he had too. But he doesn’t. 

You collapse in his arms. You promised yourself you would never cry again for a bully, and you never did...but crying because you’re overwhelmed by love ? That would do. And so you cry. For a long time. And when finally you regain some composure, you only say : 

-I love you Bruce. 

He smiles, and bends down to kiss you when...

-You gotta promise though, never show those damn letters to the boys ! 

He chuckles, and as he kisses you, making a mental note to burn every “hate mail” you ever received once and for all. To make sure you’ll never have to read them again, to make sure you’ll never feel belittle ever in your life again (he would settle a “pre-reading” team the day after, to make sure you’d never actually get hate ever again, to filter anything too negative, not the constructed criticism, no, but the brainless hate that was meant only to hurt you, to get you down and make you feel terrible about yourself). But also to make sure his sons would never discover all that, because they didn’t have the self control their father had (and even him almost lost it to anger and vengeance) and would hunt whoever were those “anonymous” and make them regret their words...Even Tim  and Dick, who were a bit more responsible and had lots of self-control (Damian and Jason would jump right in and hunt them down restlessly), because all of them...Well...

They just loved you too much to let anyone hate you like so. 

Especially not a coward like that. 

...Eh, who was Bruce kidding ? He would eventually find who were those anonymous sender, and would make sure, personally, that they would never write such a letter to anyone ever again. 

Fin.

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This didn’t turn out like I wanted it to. At all. I was planning something at a gala, with medias being bullies and lots of stuffs showing her sassy side more, showing the boys and...instead I wrote that thing. So bad. I feel I wrote Bruce out of character though we all know he can be sensitive and...Yeah this is bad. I need sleep. Might erase come down morning.

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TW Ep 6.07

Okay, here we go!

The beginning was actually pretty interesting. Because it was just Theo, lol. He was hallucinating his sister ripping his heart out over and over. It was gross and kind of heart-wrenching (sorry!). He had actual tears in his eyes as he told his sister it was okay she could kill him as many times as she wanted. 

Then YIKES it turned into Malia, well, being Malia, and trying to kill him while he was out of it, with the rest of the Scooby gang standing around watching [StickyNote: So  Malia attacked someone who was incompacitated? That doesn’t sound like her at all! /intensesarcasm]. Then the One True Leader decides to finally step in and stop her from mauling Theo.

Scoot says put him back in the ground [StickyNote: So all the other villains are worth saving and rehabbing, but not the ones who actually one-upped Scott?  You guys, this world DESERVES him!] , Scrappy Doo, I mean Liam, says no way, Satomi [StickyNote: omg PLEASE let him have said Satomi and not Noshiko, lol!]  gave me the sword not you, yadda yadda yadda, who cares. (2.0 don’t listen to Scott at ALL!) Liam insists Theo is of us because he remembers Stiles and the Dread Doctors knew about the Wild Hunt, which does not follow that Theo knows as well, but whatever.  Coyote Ugly pipes up that she remembers Stiles too! [StickyNote: Specifically what he  looks like sleeping.]  And so does Scott and Lydia, so there! Do what she says or else, basically.

It went from being vaguely interesting to dead boring with a flash of Malia’s skanky claws.

Scott starts spouting things that one of the writers got off the fan pages about how can they trust Theo, because when they did before look what happened! Liam points out Scott made mistakes as the Alpha (bless him) and Scott agrees, but still wants his own way, blah blah blah. Typical TW writer recycled bs or appropriated from fan pages, so we’ve heard all that already or thought of it ourselves. Never and original thought with that crew!

Cut to the Stlinski home. Sheriff goes into the room and Dead Claudia pops up out of nowhere and tells him to come out (she noticeably doesn’t go inside) and tries to tell him he’s being cray to suppose they had a son and why don’t they just pretend the room’s not there.  [StickyNote: Also, HOW DID THEY NOT NOTICE THIS ROOM!?  IT HAS WINDOWS!!  WHAT DID THEY THINK WHEN THEY WERE OUTSIDE?!?]

We all saw the bit about Theo being walked like a dog, the stupid dialog that went with it. (At this point I noticed everyone keeps saying ‘ride the lightning’ like it means something. It probably means nothing at all because it’s TW!) Theo cannot believe how stupid they are. It was complete filler. Cody looked good, but that’s about it.  

They hook up with the rest of the McCall Fail Pack and find another secret lair in the woods which happens to have a huge ass transformer in it. They spout some bad science about how they’ll be able to trap a Ghost Rider behind a chain-link cage and some mountain ash. (We need a Hale eyeroll gift, istg.)

They should all be dead. Except Theo, who can still not believe how stuipd they are.

So then we go on to Melissa and Malia abusing Peter in the hospital even though Melissa said he was burned over 90% of his body and Malia should probably say her goobyes. Malia wants him dead, of course. Malia wants everybody dead so big surprise, but she agrees that if he helps them get back to the train station she…won’t try to make him fully dead? Her part of that deal was not clear. Again, big surprise.

Melissa said he always has a devious plan to hurt everyone around him. NOT TRUE!! He always has a devious plan to benefit Peter Hale, hurting *select* individuals around him is a side bonus!

Melissa injecta him with the SEVEN HERBS, which I guess is the magical cure all now, and Peter has a very painful recovery with the the health care professional and his daughter just standing there watching him scream with their souless eyes.  [StickyNote: So... mistletoe, poinsetta, mountain ash, wolfsbane, bleach, garlic and chocolate?]

Now we have Lydia was laying on the bed (making her boob job very noticeable) and Natalie comes in to talk. Lyida tells her about the woman in Cannan (I don't think she told her the woman was a banshee) and puts out her theory that the woman 'conjured’ her son to fill the VOID (void kept being oddly stressed, like VOID STILES, GET IT? GET IT?!!) Oddly enough, this is almost the Natalie I remember from the old days and I liked this scene.

Now comes the major stupidity - True Alpha Pack and the GR.

Scott is the worst. He lets Theo get hurt so he can steal the GR’s gun. Send Mason and his Boo (the two most vulnerable) with Baby Selena out into the woods and the storm where the other non-captured GR’s are, then Alpha roars at the GR in the cage like that was supposed to do something, which because this is TW, it did! *eyeroll* The GR sort of takes notice of Scott, which of course his crew mentions, “It must be because you’re the Alpha!” because god forbid we should forget that important point.

Sheriff has called Lydia over about the room. Said it was on the blueprints, it was there when they moved in 18 years ago, and how could they have forgotten it.  Lydia starts seeing stiles stuff in the room, which is not in the right place because it ain’t their house! (They start with the bed of course, throwing the stydia’s a bone. Ugh.)

Sheriff says, “I don’t understand how you knew this was here. If you want to discuss the possibility that I had a son, I’m listening.” I got some eye moisture at that line, Linden gave Stilinski Family Feels again. Then they ruin the emotional build up they had going but cutting back to the Idiot Squad. *sigh*

Mason apparently has special Boo-Vision where he can see Cory when no one else can because of light refraction and possibly pheremones, lol. It was adorable. They so in love. 

Then they ruin that special moment with Mason spouting some TW leap of logic about how the Ghost Rider must have been trying to talk to Parrish at the party because he was a Hellhound! Whu? They pulled that out of their ass, and poor Khylin could not pull that off.

And we’re back to Lydia and the Sheriff, where he is now starting to not believe her because that would mean that Claudia is not real, that he 'conjured’ her up, which makes sense because she was his biggest loss. Except now it’s Stiles, and he replaced Stiles in his mind with the dead wife who they both loved.  [StickyNote: But wasn’t the kid last week a trade off from the GR’s?  Does Lydia know that? Why are they going with this “made up a physical person” thing?]

Then Lydia sees his jersey and helmet, and squeezes out that tear when she picks it up and smells it, but the Sheriff doesn’t see it and tells her she cray. She tells him he’s afraid to remember because he loved stiles. Then she threw the jersey at him (in slow-mo of course) and he caught it and now knows Stiles is real. (I got wet eyes again. STLINISKIS COME BACK TO ME!! I will fight everyone about my Stilinski Family Feels!)

[StickyNote: Wait, she  remembers the  Jersey so it comes back, but it takes the sheriff touching it for it to be real? What?  Oh man this is gonna be stupid.]

The 2.0 dumb asses bring Parrish to the GR, who immediately fixates on him, which is so not a good idea, but you know, dumb asses! They ask Parrish to ask the GR how to get everyone back. Like, seriously McCall Pack? He’s going to tell you?

Peter and Malia go into the preserve, which is Hale property, [StickyNote: Didn’t they put up condos? ] which they seem to have forgotten because they show their 'preserve closed’ sign, and Malia is stupid and says that bs about Stiles being her anchor. Peter tries to apply actual logic, but Malia don’t understand that shit and ignores him.

Back to Idiot Pack, trying to question the GR. The GR is all, we don’t give nothing back! Losers! Then Scott speech-ifies in a Hero Moment about how *he* will get everyone back from them and won’t stop until he does. GR retaliates by activating Parrish, lol!

Back to Peter and Malia, blah blah blah, then Peter hears the GRs and tells her to run. Also 2.0 pack is in the woods for whatever reason. Scott and Liam wrestle Parrish to the ground outside because they suddenly have that ability and to hell with season 5!  Nazi Werewolf shows up (Hauptman!) out of nowhere and he and Theo exchange stupid dialog with Theo going, 'Are you going to tell them who you are?; and NWW basically saying STFU, Theo. Theo has also been left alone with the GR because of dramatic plot reasons! NWW hurts Theo (sticks his claws in Theo’s back and hauls him around like that, poor baby!) to make him break the mountain ash. NWW implies that he’s met the GR before and then kills him! Which, WTF?! He bites GRs brain and eats the gland and steals the GR’s whip. Parrish runs off into the woods in his fireproof Under Armor, and the GR that was about to reclaim Peter also goes WTF?! when he feels his brother GR die and gallops off, leaving Peter still on this side of gateway.

The McCall brain trust immediately blame Theo for the dead GR, but backtrack when they sort of apply logic (it takes all of them to puzzle it out), then crazy NWW either kills poor Cory or sends him to the UpsideDown.

The End.

I thought you needed all this because I’m sure a lot of this mess has to do with Will’s epic episode next week! UGH!!!

Thank you for your service, boo!

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