#now my knees are killing me

[tending-the-hearth]

"what, no hug for me?" "that depends how good your intel is."

echo and cross weren't even reunited for five seconds and were already snarking at each other your honor they're each other's favorite brother

#echo being the peacemaker KILLED me #like he already had to deal with one squad at each other's throats #and now he has to deal with hunter and cross #i'm going to be sick #anyways my ori'vod echo and vod'ika cross hcs were so validated with this episode #the bad batch #the bad batch spoilers #tbb crosshair #arc trooper echo #do not tag as clone/cest or i'm taking your knees

[arachnid-party]

fellas is it gay for you and your homies magic to mirror each other

#yeah this is about chip and gillion #jrwi #jrwi show #jrwi chip #jrwi gillion #gillion tidestrider #chip nolastname #chip bastard #jrwi fish and chips #jrwi fnc #im catching up on riptide now #(on episode 84) #and gillion saying ‘i guess ever since meeting you i guess my magic has gotten trickier!’ #fucking killed me #as well as chip literally developing magic because he MISSES GILLION SO MUCH #HIS YEARNING UNLOCKED MAGIC THAT WORKED EXACTLY LIKE HIS #on my hands and knees

[pinacoladamatata]

"if you fancy Astarion, you might want to consider therapy. He's so damaged I must have him! Enjoy the fantasy and then call a therapist. It's a two step thing and it's very important you do both." - Amelia Tyler what do your narrator eyes see? 😂😂😂

#ohohooooohoo the little random tidbits devs and voice actors have dropped about his companion arc is making me NERVOUS #just throwin out some meta thoughts here #in order for astarion to *get rid of* the tadpole; cazador *has* to die first. like i'll bet my left tit this is conditional #since cazzy is apparently a control freak he might be enemies w the mindflayers/absolute cult bc ''bleh bleh my city'' #i think its entirely possible that we could ally w cazador against the absolute; this would like have to result in astarion attacking tav #im just worried it might be like; you have to at least temporarily side w the absolute if you kill cazzy? #idk! idk! #and like i do think there will probably be a 3rd option of like 'i hate both these groups kill them both' but man. #and then there's whatever is going on w his ''this soul is not for sale except in the realm of the undead'' stamp #like are we gonna have to go the there? wherever the fuck that is? #pls amelia i am begging on my knees i need a sign! of hope! #bc now the hug and hand holding in the trailer is making me think larian is trying to trick me into believing he'll be okay #only to hit me with a devastating ending(s) no matter what #idk. man. i read astarion's writer was fanes writer. idk dos2 but like i am aware of what......happened w that 'romance' #pls i need a sign larian #i am so sick of the bioware style romances! the morrigans! the solases ! the unresolved endings of it all! ENOUGH #i want closure from this i am begging #for once in my life i just want closure for a video game romance ending #i JUST THINK LIKE ideally. for me. he'd have at least 1 ending where he's not cured but lives happily ever after* #i am having a hard time picturing him cured of vampirism. tbh. but if it's possible without him immediately dying then. well hats off #its 2 AM here i need to knock it tf off and go to bed #........unless.....yall want to enable me and discuss this further #i am 1 more bad day away from writing a thesis on this in MLA format istg

[twunkus]

bored at work stuff

#ik i draw men on their knees a lot. and thats bc its hot #feel like my poses r still kinda stiff in some ways..hopin to work on that now that work isnt killing me

[mattodore]

"show off your music" tag 🎧 using this spotify app

this looks so sexy... anyway thank you for the little tag @machinegrl

tagging @wldestluv-rs @fizzytoo @rottengurlz @lucidicer @woohooincoffin @omgkayplays @void-imp @helltrait @raiiny-bay if any of you want to do it as well <3 no pressure tho obv!! also if you've already done this pretend i didn't tag you dkjnhk haven't scrolled very far back on my dash yet

#river dipping #playlist #gold guns girls is a song olly sent me bc it reminded him of matthias <3 so i spent hours listening to it #if it weren't for the repeated lines mentioning women i'd put it in his playlist but alas............... he is a gay man fdkjndjf #on my knees asking ppl to send me more music that reminds them of my ocs btw. i'm so normal abt it... :) #also........... god......................................... #listening to futile devices and thinking abt theo is enough to kill a person where they stand #i would know. typing this from the grave if you were wondering #famous last words / i'm a liar / silver / lemon eyes are all songs that if i'm listening to them i have to sing along. like i have to. #like it bursts out of me and then i'm banging my fist on the floor. like. literally. like actually. #ESPECIALLY i'm a liar. it makes me want to die and it's in the echthroi story playlist. god. #PLEASE TAKE ME HOME . BAM . WRAP ME IN A TOWEL . BAM . THE MARKS ARE ALL GONE AND I'M FEELING MYSELF AGAIN . BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM #CRAZY . IT'S JUST SO FUCKING CRAZY #lemon eyes turns my brain to mush too because it's SOOOOOOOO matthias coded. #like especially early on in mattodore's little situationship when theo was just. so jealous. like caustically so. #hush now baby there's no need to cry let me wipe away those lemon eyes...... #all your worries such a waste of time... you can't even see how much you're Mine. . .... #I BET YOU WANNA WALK AWAY RUN AWAY LOOK AWAY TURN AWAY HONEY YOU CAN'T HIIIIIIIIDE #LEMON EYES YOU'RE MINE. YELLOW EYES ALL MINE. #YELLOW I WILL HAVE TO BITE YOUR TONGUE. . . SONGS THAT MAKE ME CLAW AT MY OWN SKIN

[charlespecco]

ducaticorse: A new teammates' era begins! 📸 Snaps from yesterday’s 2022 FIM #MotoGPAwards! 🥇🥉😜 #PerfectComb1nation

#enea bastianini #pecco bagnaia #ducati #motogp #girl WHY is this making me emotional!!!! no one look at me right now!!! #on my knees asking them not to kill each other ❤️ #pecco

[arowrath]

one thing i just do not fucking get is the difference between "regulating emotions" and "suppressing emotions" i cannot get my head around how those are different. like if im sad and then i go "well im not going to be sad anymore" that's "dissociating" and "suppressing healthy emotions" but if im sad and im like "well im going to cry until i actually pass out" that's "not healthy" and it's BAD to suppress emotions but it's ALSO BAD to get super upset so WHAT IS THE SECRET THIRD THING cuz i do not fucking get it. "feel your feelings But not that way that's not healthy feel your feelings but less than that" ???????

#text #IT'S DRIVING ME UP A WALL IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT FOR MOTNHS #LIKE????? is it like. like is this a me problem is this just me having feelings that are too big #like do other people just.. like for other people does 'feel your feelings' just mean like. feel sad for a while and then stop. cuz i cant #do that i dont get normal sad i get chest pain and think about killing my self for hours on end .is that the problem #like okay if i trip down the stairs and break my leg. im going to cry and go to the hospital. suppressing that would be just using my #broken leg anyway and ignoring it. would regulating it not also be Crying and going to the hospital. would regulating it be like.. putting #a bandaid on it or something is it like.. a middle ground . i do not fucking get it #like okay if i trip down the stairs and i scrape my knee and then i call an ambulance i see how thats not the right response . and i guess #regulating there would be like. calming down thinking things thru and choosing a less drastic solution like a bandaid. i get it #in that situation. but if ive ACTUALLY BROKEN MY LEG. then that would just be the first thing again essentially #but when i put that back into. real world not metaphor world. like. i dont get it again #because if theres not like. an obvious reason for however i feel how am i supposed to judge if im calling an ambulance for a scraped knee #ALSO I THOUGHT THERE 'ARENT ANY WRONG EMOTIONS' WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THAT -_- #okay no okay it's like. if i trip down the stairs and i skin my knee i dont have to call an ambulance. but if several times a day i fall d #down the stairs and skin my knee in that exact spot and now i can see bone. SHOULD I NOT CALL AN AMBULANCE? #cuz its not just one thing thats upsetting me most of the time it's a combination of a bunch of things and then like one extra upsetting #thing added on top of that. which would necessitate an ambulance. does this make sense #THIS IS GETTING ME NOWHERE IM STILL JUST AS CONFUSED AS I WAS BEFORE I STARTED TYPING. i need 2 remember 2 ask my therapist #what the fuck ''feel your feelings'' means and how it can coexist with ''regulating feelings'' or whatever cuz i feel like im missing smth #NIK OUT ! PEACE ! ✌️

[saltydoesstuff]

owie my bones hurt

#arms and knees are killing me #i'll be 20 in like 4/5 months what the hell #my bones should not hurt right now #but they been hurting since like freshman year kdsjan #it gets worse in the colder months #saltydoesstuff #saltyrambles

[nobody-expects-the-inquisitorius]

Normalise throttling people who hit their children

#we’re sat at a cafe and there’s this girl who looks about 4 #and she’s really scared of all the pigeons around the table #and her dad just wrenched her arm to stop her from crying #which made her cry harder. no shit sherlock. #she’s sobbing and it makes me so angry #he’s slapped her knee about three times by now #i want to kill him #and he keeps throwing chips at the pigeons to try and show her theyre not gonna hurt her???? #so there’s more to scare her???? #entering my crosshair era (about to snipe a bitch)

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: January 7

"Devil Put the Coal in the Ground" by Steve Earle

#song of the day #my laptop's about to die because I'm too lazy to get up for my cord but it was a really good day! #spent half of it on the train (love the train. my knees not so much but me I love the train a lot a lot) and the rest with my friend!!!!! #very happy #heard this song at stupid o'clock this morning because Nick couldn't figure out the words #I love Steve Earle. this is off his Ghosts of West Virginia album #'devil put the coal in the ground / said I double-dog dare you to follow me down / devil put the coal in the ground' #and 'good lord give me two hands / said is you an animal or is you a man / good lord give me two hands' #my personal favorite lines #the one Nick was having trouble with was 'black lung kill me someday / I'm already underground I reckon anyway' which is also a heavy hitte #really the whole song's like that #okay for real laptop shutting down now love you bye

[loveofastarvingdog]

hello I love u ❣️ what was one cool or fun or nice thing that happened today?

hi hi hiiiii hi hello i love you 💕❣️💫 i walked to hobby lobby AND michaels and i got beads for bracelets for chappel roan concert <3333 they’re so pretty and i also got dinosaur ones <3

#I LOVE YOU #also now my knees and hips are killing me evil and sick style but my beautiful friend ibuprofens is there for me #tw emoji #frog tag🐸🧀

[lill-th]

idk the last time i posted my face on here but i wanted to share these cool earrings i got today and also i have a (faded) green/yellow mullet now

#my face #i pushed myself too hard at the expo and my knees are KILLING me #many cool alt baddies with mobility aids were there tho and im inching closer to looking at getting one 🥲 #people did not start taking my disability seriously until it started visibly showing and ! #it sucks ass because now i’m too nervous to start using something like a cane just so i don’t have to hear assholes #i’m screaming into a chamber about this i KNOW i shouldn’t care about them and care for myself but !! that doesn’t make it easier idk #if you have read this far and are a young disabled person who uses part time mobility aids can u pls tell me your experience / tips #why did these tags get emo LOL look at my cool earrings damn

[widevibratobitch]

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#im so tired of this lalalalalalalalaa #something is Wrong lol #i really need this therapy on wednesday but guess WHAT im not going. im going to a funeral instead 🤡 #and ill be singing in that stupid fucking church because have to but i dont fucking wanna i hate doing it and i hate churches #all i feel rn is the overwhelming urge to selfdestruct and like obv im not gonna kms now #but im so fucking angry that im not even *allowed* to do that anymore. like it was such a comfort all this time to know that i can just Quit #and now i cant because guess what someone has to take care of my mother 🫠 and im so fucking tired of being someone people depend on #to handle THEIR feelings and THEIR emotions and just take it all with humility and acceptance and kindness and never snap and bite back #like i dont WANNA hear about your dead husband i dont wanna hear about your stupid fucking boyfriend #i dont wanna hear about the new guy/girl who's hitting on you because you're so hot and perfect #i dont wanna be responsible for how people feel. i should just shut up and take it and be humble and never ask or expect anything back #but when is it MY turn to call at 1 am crying about how im tired and want to kms #or to start expecting shit of people and allow myself to get properly angry at them for not meeting those expectations #or to braggingly 'complain' about something the other person clearly lacks without any consideration for their feelings #or to just openly cry and say deeply personal shit without any filter not caring if that other person is clearly uncomfortable af #because *i* need it right now and i need someone to listen and let them worry about how to even respond to that stuff #im just so tired of people expecting shit of me im tired of being made responsible even tho i clearly cannot handle that responsibility #i wanna be mean i wanna snap and get angry and openly say that i dont give a shit and am tired and cant listen to this rn #but i cant because i have to be a motherfucking mother theresa and never dare to demand something for myself #and idk where that comes from. idk if it's coming from the fanatic catholicism of my childhood or my mother or just from myself and idc #i just feel so horrible and guilty and wrong for wanting anything for myself #and it once again feels like im making myself the victim and the tortured martyr here when i should just shut up and take it #i just wanna lie down and die and not care about who'll get angry or judge or blame me for it im tired and i dont know what to do #i want someone to take care of ME and reassure ME and make ME feel like i matter and that they really will help me if i ever need it #and that they'd be kinda sad if i were gone not because i had a role to fulfill that i failed at by killing myself but because i am a person #<- math calculations flying around my head as i come to the terrible realisation #of just why exactly im so deeply obsessed with my voice teacher (aside from her being literally the most beautiful woman alive lol) 🤡 #like babygirl stop being so utterly overwhelmingly kind to me my knees are weak i would do anything for you queen and I MEAN IT

[hussyknee]

Mum's had a stroke. Left side paralyzed. Expected to recover but time frame unsure. Her friends are looking after her (she's a retired surgeon). Am letting my sister handle it and curling up into a ball.

Kinda wish she'd kick it once and for all tbh. Not only will she not be able to work her private clinic and keep this place afloat, but it will probably be my little nest egg that goes into doing so in the interim. And then she won't be able to work as much afterwards, when she's deep in the red already.

Sane thing to do is (has always been) sell the house, pay off the bank, put the rest in an FD and live off the interest in a small flat closer to the city. Put my brother into an assisted care facility. But she won't do that as long as she's alive and will instead go even more turbo Born Again Jesus stan, keeping my brother imprisoned, abused and neglected under the iron rule of her awful housekeeper.

Otoh, if she does pop her clogs right now, our funerals are several-days long open house affairs that would be hell for my current mental stability.

Imagine being a bitch enough for it to be a toss up whether surviving is beneficial to the health and sanity of your dependents lmao.

My sister seems to have the "functional adult" thing handled for now so she's welcome to inflict her own brand of insanity on the situation. The only thing I give a damn about anymore is the poor cat and dog. I'm burnt into a charcoal smear and just...dont give a shit. Imma let it all crash and burn and then move out of the rubble into a cardboard box.

Second stroke usually comes up within two years of the first one and finishes you off. That was what happened to Dad and my MIL. So I guess it's just a matter of time before she joins her husband in hell anyway.

I just want things to stop happening for five fucking minutes man.

#that Tumblr post about parents been flopping for generations is so right #fuck all of this shit #I've only just stopped actively plotting to kill myself #this is of course the universe's cue to take a golf club to the Jenga tower of my mental stability #I'm so sad because I just got the first instalment of my divorce settlement #it was supposed to help me move out of this hellhole eventually #now it arrived just in time to keep us fed and the lights on till Mum recovers #bye bye my money #also I had to pay for her cat's vet bills out of my therapy fund and now I'm never seeing a cent of that again #siiiiiiiiigh #fml #life stuff #parental abuse #tw child abuse #tw disabled abuse #knee of huss

[bunnyb34r]

Really missing having good/good enough managers man :/

Super fucking slow at work and they just let the auto-scheduler put in our shift schedules which is fine when it works but.... we're so fucking slow at work. Like my area is completely filled (with what I have... new shipment save me... save me.... new shipment) and recovered by 6am. I'm not needed. Not atm.

Now a good/good enough manager would remove my shifts (which would SHOCK save the company money! :0 and leave more of a budget for the managers which means bigger paycheck! Wow!) Or at least tell me that the reason I have ONE shift next week is in fact bc I'm not needed, and not the scheduler being fucky. But god we cant have THAT now can we!

I mean if I see "shift for DAY has been removed" on my app then hell yeah free time off! But bc they routinely forget to reprompt the scheduler, there's consistent weeks where I have 0 hours, but know to come in/assume I'm needed.

Like ffs arent you supposed to cut hours?? Which would be MINE since I'm only 20 a week??? Come on man 😭 I'm so bored

#marquilla #i swept under every table except NewLady's bc shes a wackjob that would assume that you did that bc you think she cant do it/ isnt #cleaning right/enough (she isnt) but i did all that. swept in basics and the battery isle bc i was so bored 😭 and part of hardlines #Tuesday i was sweeping and trying to get shit out of the cracks in the floor and ngl it was fun and i got most of em in our area but i #couldnt finish today bc NewLady's territorial lmao like man i just wanna pick shit out of the floor im not trying to invade your area ffs #anyway swept all that. zoned the hanging racks. zoned the womens shoes and basics shoes. and then fucked around on the computer #THOROUGHLY reading my emails and store survey reviews (so many OFFER SMALLER QUANTITIES motherfucker this is a WAREHOUSE #WHOLESALER STORE! NO!) and only got off the computer bc i apparently had the only working one and someone needed it #all this and i STILL had time to kill 😭😭 oh and straightened my boxes like they want. i was gonna do the womens boxes but i didnt #feel like going to my locker for my knee pads and didnt really care enough to do it anyway sgdvdvdgdg #but BaldBastard saw me cleaning and thanked me for it which was nice i guess like yeah you should try it sometime Mr Clean #anyway the old managers would always pull me from the schedule if we needed to cut hours and i was fine with it! i told em i was! #but we went through 8 managers and the few we have now are dumbfucks so yknow