#now tomorrow and then off for four days

[blazingstarship]

Uuuuuuggghhhhhhh

#im tired im tired im tired #first part of the study days survived #now tomorrow and then off for four days #now Im wondering if I should ask the sixth grade teacher if I can help on their camp too since I know these kids for a very long time and #Im sure they would love to have me there instead of this other teacher #but i dont think so

[c-l-y-d-e]

yeah i should have just booked this entire week off what a fucking mess

#kicking off my monday with a legal call #finance meeting tomorrow looked like it was gonna be fine and now its not #execs are trying to harass my team about things they should 100% talk to me about first #lead dev is down with covid (again) #junior devs serious lack of people skills is generating angst (again) #nothing is gonna get solved in the next four days #we should all just log off and try again in January #clyde.txt

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: February 23

“Inkpot Gods” by The Amazing Devil

#song of the day #'if I don't make it back from where I've gone / just know I loved you all along' #I'm setting up my queue for a more proper recommendation tomorrow but I've been rereading 'shoulder the sky' by Night_Fury #the whole series draws from various Amazing Devil lines for titles and such #'back then I was dauntless' is my favorite reworking of the Melidaan arc I've ever seen absolutely anywhere #and the title is a line from my favorite Amazing Devil song 'The Calling' but 'Inkpot Gods' is used to stunning effect in-story #and the beautiful refrain from the end of the song is playing in my head now as I keep going into the series #today was a deeply unpleasant day: the inevitable finally happened and Duncan cut himself doing his mudlarking #we'd been trying to schedule a preventative tetanus shot but several times we've gone in for the properly scheduled shot #and found out that they didn't actually have one in stock. unspeakably frustrating #and today we ran out of time for a preventative one. I woke up #(actually I woke up for work as he was going out for his walk but I got a migraine halfway through my morning meeting--no good-- #and took the rest of the day off--turns out to have been a very good thing--and went back to sleep. so I woke up the second time) #to Duncan coming back from his walk with a sliced finger and the grody plastic-and-tin swan that had done the slicing #(picture of said swan under the cut because why not. it does look neat. can't see the sharp edge in the pic though it's underneath) #and so then we called the pharmacy and got the same automated 'of course you can have a tetanus shot' as ever so we made an appointment #and we got there and they did actually have a shot in stock this time! except that they weren't able to administer it #because now he's post-exposure that's a different shot and they aren't allowed. so we had to go to the urgent care instead #all told we spent about four hours out of the house on this mission but Duncan did get his shot and some bonus antibiotic goo for the cut #and it was worth it but also bleeeeeeegh it was miserable. which is where my recommendations do come in #when I tell y'all that I spent today reading Night_Fury's fics and also looking at valiants' CoD art and it saved me #whooo I mean it. being simultaneously stressed + bored is the nightmare state for me and instead I had wonderful things in my phone

[oatbugs]

. anyway after writing the tags 4 this post i told my research partner i will no longer follow his dreams lmao. still helping w it but i need to engage in research that i find satisfying

#i think ive been waiting for something for a while and i will spend the next year waiting for it too #i thought i felt panic but i have decided to read it as anticipation. the thrill of rejection or of moving forward or the latter as #a result of the former. i left you with your backpack unattended in the cafe because on fridays i am done #putting my life on hold for another whim-without-a-warning #this cross country service is delayed by 26 minutes so i will grab a bucket and start shovelling the water away from the tracks #everyone is moving on in some different way and im sorry if you think im mean for telling you getting so drunk will disable you from #recording your brainwaves effectively but it seems like you think i owe you an awful lot. one year ago in four days my friend got me hegel's #science of logic for my birthday and i thanked him for proving to me the existence of things this is what i do he said #and then he will spend the rest of his life breathing philosophy and i dont want to spend the rest of my life #breathing someone elses dreams i wait for the moment of realisation. this is now a 30 minute delay. i was supposed to worship beautiful #things and that is what i will do. i think i have a best friend and i know i have a lover and i know to #restrict my love the way you have. im sorry. i hope you understand when i tell you. i am now sitting on the floor in the luggage section of #this incredibly busy train and i saw a photo of her with her boyfriend and her hair in braids smiling like a fool this is the #except a week ago you told me you almost took too much this time to live. you are a beautiful girl with a beautiful soul and you know you #have already changed the world and it somehow was not enough. now you are smiling without any makeup on next to him #and yesterday you cried in an airport in the states when you were too full of love. this is the most extraordinary human being i have met. #tomorrow he heads off to princeton while his best friend heads to harvard. he goes there to make the world a better place. he is the most #extraordinary person i have ever met. the issue with human beings is that we are incredibly good at almost dying and keeping going. #you try to kill yourself and publish a paper and give a talk. you negotiate the seperation between your own parents and submit another #phd application. i am surrounded by extraordinary people with extraordinary minds and incredibly broken happy hearts. #i only see you smile when you talk about robotics. i still dont know how manifolds work and i love the concept anyway. i dont know. #i do know that i refuse to live unsatisfied. #you can keep drinking. im going to drink this reality up #i think i was a horrible person and i refuse to engage with that mentality again no matter what it takes.

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

It's 4am and I cannot go to sleep because I have half an hour left in my book, and it's a murder mystery, and I need answers

#its so good #its called fifty feet down by sophie tanen #its about a lesbian reporter investigating the murders of teenage boys in a small town #it reminds me of the town i grew up in #its so cool and suspenseful and ive been hooked since the beginning #like ive been reading 50-100 pages a day because i desperately want to finish #and now its 4am and im so tired but i need answers!! #i cant wait to add this to my book blanket #i have so many rowd now and it looks so cool #i chose black for the horror genre but i just had a horror kick and read four horror books #so it goes navy for a few rows and purple for a couple rows and then just a huge chunk of black #i cant choose between gray and dark green for mystery #on one hand. gray really reminds me of the book. on the other hand ill probs read a decent amount of mystery #and i want my blanket to be full of cool colors #idk ill figure it out later. im currently unraveling an old blanket to get the yarn for this blanket and tomorrow im getting a yarn spinner #so thats gonna help me so much! i tried to learn how to make yarn cakes by hand but that is too difficult #especially with huge skeins of super bulky yarn #this post went off the rails a little bit #anyway should i read until 4:30 or go to bed? im gonna read #goodnight!!

[killerchickadee]

In the last three hours I bled through a super duper mega sized tampon AND my backup pad.

So. Makes sense that I don't feel well.

#stress affects my period in weird ways #so because I've been less stressed the last month and 1/2 my body is like idk what's going on here #my period is usually light for a day or two then yeets all my innards for three days #this time it was light for four days and now it's making up for lost time #this might be a new record lol #gonna have to sleep on multiple towels tonight #but hey I'm off tomorrow #tmi i guess

[loverboybitch]

idk man idk!!!!!!!! having two jobs is so crazy one of them is like literally we hate you please die and then the other one rules and everyone is so nice to me all the time and makes me <3333. anyway guess which one pays me a livable wage lol.//.

#imjustsittinghere #uploads #refusing to be a negative nancy but holy shit i have been dealing with the most annoying situation in the fucking world at work #like i have to reply to an email but im literally dumbfounded th whole situation is so fucking dumb i cant believe it #anyway though love my little vintage store job #i work there four days a week now and its great : ) #even just like. in almost 6 years of my one job i never went to the christmas party cause ick even my boss was like yeah it sucks #went to store jobs christmas party last weekend got drunk and sang karaoke and i dont even feel that stupid about it lol #simply wish i could get paid like a good amount so i could just work there and not have to sweat about money #might do it anyway though other job making me so > : | #ok refusing to stew about it its christmas holiday season #going to my moms to bake cookies tomorrow <3 then im off saturday maybe ill have a nice little day n enjoy myself

[princeanxious]

I’m gonna fist-fight my gluten intolerance in a back alley, just as soon as i regain the ability to move again.

#went to eat at a place i’ve been fine w/ before #except they werent as catious this time and i didnt catch it and now im bedridden bc my stomach hurts and #*my stomach aches and my body hurts and my joints are reacting & all i wanna do is crochet damn it #its my first day off after four stressful as hell days and today was /still/ stressful and now im stuck and sick reacting and /have/ to- #-go right back to work tomorrow and i’ve /still/ got chores to finish and i just want to cry i hate my stupid fckng biology #edit: and b4 u bring up (have u taken any pain medicine? yes. i took some before we went out to eat bc driving at sunset gives me headaches #this is /with/ ibuprphen in my system

[the-wild-wolves-around-you]

working for 12+ hours today in front of a computer screen made me come to the realization that maybe murder IS warranted sometimes 🙃🤪

#this project has been the BANE OF MY EXISTENCE FOR MONTHS NOW #i told my boss MONTHS ago that there were all these issues with this project/employee #and he kept blowing me off and telling me to give the project/employee ‘one more week’ for weeks on end #so i slog through while doing my best and then he randomly gives me a deadline for the project thats like a little over a week away #and i asked if he was going to glance through the project to give me feedback/SEE THE FUCKING PROBLEMS #and he says ‘yeah ill get to it’ #then four days before the deadline he says ‘actually im not going to look at the project just pass it off to the final editing team’ #at this point i KNOW there are problems in the project but ive read it so many times its gibberish #so im like fine whatever maybe some new eyes will help #well the new eyes helped a LOT and spotted problems that hadnt occured to me #a bunch of problems #normally im very good at my job but i just needed a little guidance on this project and got NONE until the very end #so i got up at 5am today and worked on NOTHING but this godforsaken project for like 13 hours #AND IM STILL NOT DONE #but i had to stop working tonight bc my eyeballs where literally starting to flick back and forth #with literal stress induced nystagmus #so i gotta get up at 5am AGAIN tomorrow and prob get shitty anxiety filled sleep tonight 👍🏼 #FUCK i hate being an adult #personal

[milflewis]

i generally walk around like 🫤🙃😐 but tonight i’m like. fight me 🙄 what is going onnnn

#normally i am feeling Nothing but my head is buzzing right now i am so full of Rage el oh el #bit frustrated with myself and the whole fucking world and im going to a protest of sorts and getting buzzed after but i have a full #day of classes tomorrow and a four hour lab so i’m not going that hard also i want to be in bed also i’ve been in #bed the past few days so i am eating myself whole i am spitting myself out #do u understand me . ah . Ah . aH . . yes. logging off now i will not be getting involved in a fight tonight 🫡 #god is useless im using u people as my witness . i am walking away from all drama tonight . no! i am Running thank u #delete later

[kittyhazelnut]

had a nice long cry over the fact that the tour I've been waiting to go to with my best swiftie friend for four years is no longer selling any tickets. almost puked a few times in the process. now I'm gonna spend the money I would've spent on concert tickets ordering delivery for chicken tenders instead.

#i turned off every twitter notification except for taylor‚ taylor nation‚ ticketmaster‚ and tom hiddleston #ive contacted the DOJ and signed a govt petition about TM's unfair business practices/its monopoly on the industry #and i plan to email my representatives over the next few days to urge the doj into investigating them #but i dont expect it to do any good. a judge ruled in their favor in the 90s and they'll do the same in the 2020s #i can't return all the rhinestones i bought on etsy for my Bejeweled costume for tour but ill return the corset i was gonna use... #... and the things i got from Michaels on Saturday. ill keep the shorts i was gonna use to make her The Lucky One outfit tho #maybe ill finally get to make and wear it when im 40 #i guess I didn't have to pick up all those extra ahifts after all :/ #im just waiting for Taylor Swift (or even her management team) to acknowledge this. I don't have high hopes that they will. #I'd like for her to add more shows but idk if i see that happening. she's already got 52 and she hasn't even announced international ones #idek if i want more shows because if i sit in the TM queue for four and a half hours and leave empty-handed again idk what id do #I really dont want to go to school tomorrow. idk how im supposed to study for my test like this #if id known when i was seven what i knew now maybe i would have picked a different favorite artist

[goldensunset]

Happy one month until tears of the kingdom 🎉

WAUGH YOU’RE RIGHT

#time is passing soso quickly… #june 2019 feels like it was only yesterday #we’ve really been waiting for this game for almost four years huh #now suddenly it’s like that’s way too soon oh man just a month #can’t believe it’s even happening feels like this was never supposed to be a real game just a myth #i’m gonna be out of school in less than a month… probably working in less than a month… #funny my brother has been saying for years now ‘once botw2 comes out i’m gonna request an entire week off of work’ LOL #imagine if i did that lol. hey i know i’ve been here for two days but it’s really important i need to play this game right now #man this summer is about to be lit… a real and interesting job… a game i’ve been waiting for for years… #i’ll be in class for the final trailer tomorrow AUGH #maybe i just shouldn’t watch it anyway. like just to avoid spoilers #i wanna go in as blind as possible actually #me from a year or so ago would’ve NEVER passed up the chance to get more info on totk but that’s bc i needed crumbs to sustain me #but now it’s like. hey it’ll be here in a month anyway and i’ve got other stuff to do in that time #same with the gameplay showcase i haven’t seen that #i’ve had all the relevant tags filtered on here for like a month ever since the art book leaked #just gonna leave ‘em on #once we get closer to the date itself i might eventually log off indefinitely #actually that’s probably gonna happen anyway #if it’s anything like last summer having a job and a game to play over the summer means i don’t need tumblr to fill my time #anyway this has been a ramble sorry #asks #rosie-kairi

[prettyboysmlm]

i’m gonna put a hole thru the wall

#my fucking mom always does this #whenever it’s her turn to do laundry she never finishes it and tells me i have to or else she’ll ground me #and whenever it’s my turn i have to finish all of it myself or else she’ll ground me #and now that i’m done and thoroughly pissed off bc now my knees hurt and i’m overstimulated by the fans downstairs #she wants me to go out in almost 90 degree heat to help do yard work #bitch i haven’t had a break in four days bc i’ve been either working or hanging out with friends #i’m so fucking tired today’s supposed to be my break day before i have to work again tomorrow #i don’t want to have to go outside and get all sweaty and shit #plus i won’t even be able to take a shower right away bc she always gets in the shower first bc mines broken so i have to use hers #and she takes fucking forever #i’m gonna kms i swear to fucking god i’m so upset right now #i never get a fucking break around here #vent tw #k.txt

[heybaetae]

.

#idk how to write this #i've been debating for hours if i should say anything at all #because writing things down makes shit Real #but i figured i should just say that i don't know how active i'm gonna be after my queue runs out tomorrow #my older sister is passing away very suddenly #she's only 46 #she's a twin #there's nothing to do for her #i am terrified about what this is going to do to my dad #and i have to be present for the rest of my siblings #this is happening only four days after my brother moved out of state #and now he's turning around and coming right back #he's a mess #i don't know how to Process or cope with anything like this #it's been a few hours since i've heard an update from anyone #but all i know is they're turning off her life support #if they haven't already #so i guess i have a lot of grief coming my way and trying to help keep my family stable #i might delete this later but for now #i felt like i should get it out #idk what else to do

[udekai]

at this point im just hoping that disassembling and reassembling the car fixed it. like turning it off and back on again

#non dd #car posting #she bit me #i feel like some of you are seeing this and going 'oh stu knows about cars' #and that is inaccurate #i watched a 4 minute youtube video about how to remove my starter because my brother told me to #and then spent four days failing to do that #broke something to get it off #and then dragged my broken body and shattered pride into autozone #to ask the man at the counter for an identical thing-a-majig to but it back on #there is a wire held together by the grace of god and electrical tape alone that my entire engine is now dependent on #this is the pizza box laptop all over again #please just let me jump start it tomorrow #p l e a s e

[thelastspeecher]

today was a really REALLY long work day, but not long as in I'm exhausted emotionally and mentally now, but long as in I'm exhausted physically.

and I'm glad to have this improvement, since I keep coming home exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally lately.

:)

#knowing that I have tomorrow off and am taking a nice four day weekend def helped #but I got everything done I needed to #and ran into only a few minor problems that were easily and quickly resolved - WITHOUT TEARS!!!!!! #I feel accomplished and proud of the work I did #now to shower (bc I spent over three straight hours in the sun) and then watch some anime #speecher speaks