#otherwise I would have done so by now

[flaccid-rats]

Hello! I just finished "see through my act, tell me i'm wrong" and i absolutely love it omg you're amazing!! Thank you for writing!!!

I do have a little question? Favor? Do you have a reference pic for when steven is in the anubis suit?i'm really curious about how the kosh looks spesifically. No worries if you don't have any reference pic tho!!

Sorry for bothering you, and thank you! Have a nice day!!

— (・∀・)

You guys never bother me don’t you worry

And kind of? Like this is what I was thinking of for the shirt and the waist coat but instead of the red it’s gold

This is what I was thinking of for the collar and bracelets

And this is a VERY bad sketch I did trying to put it together (ignore the phone shadow my cat is trying to play fight with me rn and I can’t get a better picture without him biting my hand)

I wanted it to still look like his Mr. Knight suit but it’s still very obvious that he’s serving a different god, you know? But I will give someone my firstborn and whatever’s left of my heart if they draw this out.

#oooh an ask #I have a VERY clear picture in my head #but I can’t draw #otherwise I would have done so by now

[ganondoodle]

comfortable :3

(different crop)

#ganondoodles #zelda #art #tloz #loz #demise #hylia #painting #illustration #dare i call it that #i went back to fix stuff so many times #but i see i lose patience for a painting after two days #this is day three #i needed to decide its done now bc otherwise i would have driven myself into insanity #so mistakes and roughness all around #but uh #its more about the vibe i guess #and yes those glowy things in the jars are gratitude crystals #i imagine it was a bit of a shock to hylia when demise comments on them being rly tasty #when he was in his prime those crystals were everywhere so its like #candy to him #and to hylia its a sacred thing to be handled carefully and be studied #.......also idk why i put so much detail even into the papers that are lying about #i think i kinda fked it up trying to detail it more and more #it looked better before i decided to stuff hylias room full of things for no reason #and it then forced me to try and be more accurate with light and all even tho i just wanted a nice and comfy little doodle #well maybe some of the vibe is still there #listen i know the perspective is all over the place even tho im usually good at it #its bc i essentially constructed it all backwards and not in order ... i need to plan these thing more #i need to sleep

[poorlittleyaoyao]

A thing about trying to plot out QS canon-divergence fixit where the marriage is averted is that the obvious solution to “she was already pregnant before they knew the truth” is, well, end the pregnancy. The wider world doesn’t seem to know that she’d conceived prior to marriage, so can’t be more than a month or so along as of the wedding for it to be plausible. People have been inducing abortion in dire circumstances despite physical risk and moral stigma throughout history. QS has magic at her disposal and the means to remove herself from society unnoticed during the recovery period, and even if it’s taboo, is it more taboo than incest?

#tfw when the text’s misogyny results in everyone operating on post-Roe Texas logic #*post-Dobbs rather #like come on JGY grew up in a brothel he would know how shit gets done #I can only see him not suggesting it if he’d witnessed someone dying from attempting to give themselves an abortion #and his panic brain was like ‘it would be Just Like That and she would DIE HORRIBLY so we must marry!’ #and even then it doesn’t explain why QS’s parents wouldn’t suggest it! #or (more distressingly yet still plausibly) pulling a Hoster Tully and forcing it #don’t mind me I woke up in the middle of the night and started pondering and now I’m grumpy #bc it’s like you either have to go FULL divergence where she and JGY never hook up at all #or you don’t give her the information until she’s already in the marriage and her options are much more limited #bc if she finds out at the same time JGY does possible outcomes either feel like a PSA about the importance of abortion access #or (if she marries someone else or otherwise sticks it out) GOP glurge about how keeping a pregnancy is always fine and good in the end #miscarriage cw #just in case

[tardis--dreams]

You know what? I give up on this paper once and for all. I'm not even ashamed anymore

#okay I'm a little ashamed #it's another 5 points i have to catch up with next semester #but it's making me want to kill myself and i don't even know if the professor would still accept it #(the original deadline was in October. i got an official extension until November. i guess it'd be just rude #to ask if it was still okay to send it #especially since i haven't done any substantial work on it #it's just bad. i hate the topic. i hate the way the professor views the subject 'language and emotion' #so that i cannot write what i want but would have to tailor it towards her views because otherwise I'd fail #and also i cannot write in german. i simply can not do it. ) #it's better to move on and focus on my last paper for last semester (official deadline is end of March #so I'm not behind for once) #and i should do the assignments for a module i should have finished 1 year ago #so i don't have to do that next semester #and i should start studying korean again so i don't make a complete fool of myself next semester #I have my first day of work in 2 weeks so I'll also have to focus on working (for money) from there on #I've been paralyzed by the thought of having to write this paper for way too long #the professor is not my boss anymore (i still have to work off some hours though) and even if she was #I'm so done being ashamed of myself for not being able to do certain things #i wanna give it my best from now on but not for this paper. it's done. #void screams

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

#there must be SOME kind of a limit otherwise posts would get suuuuuuper duper long like is it just 30? #idk but i'm going to find out by simply maxxing out the character limit for each tag and finding out the limit of tags for each post lololo #this is gonna be great. i just have to remember to type without ever using the comma. it shouldn't be too hard right? fuck i almost typed #the comma i'm already bad at this smh my head. also if your still here i commend you. you have a better attention span than i do. #i'm already starting to get bored holy shit this is not happening. i gotta power through this. FOR SCIENCEEEEEEEEEE. or somethinggggggggggg #but fr idk what else to say. maybe just saying that i don't know what to say will be good enough? but does that even count? #I don't even know anymore. ffffffffuck. this is gonna be a while huh? also holy shit if you're still here omg u deserve like. a prize or #something because u definitely didn't have to stay and read all of this bull shit. lololol i typed out bs but decided to just spell the who #thing out just to make it go by faster. i'm so lazy. this is only the nineth tag HOW will i make it to 30. i am sobbing the adhd is adhding #very hard rn. are you still here? bruh this is insane. i have somehow managed to keep ur attention this long and it's just me spouting #absolute balderdash. wait do you know what balderdash even means? i don't care if you do already i'm gonna tell you anyway. balderdash is #basically just another word for nonsense. boom. you learned something new today. balderdash equals nonsense equals this damn post. #why did i decide to do this in the first place. it was a dumb idea. i don't know if i can even keep going. this is only the *counts tags* #it's the 14th tag. we've got a long way to go boys. men. soldiers. comrads. friends. besties peeps. marshmallows. #where was i going with this? oh yeah. trying to max out the limit for tags. dang i almost typed a comma there. i haven't done that since #i think the third or fourth tag. dang that feels like such a long time ago. not for you guys probably. it feels longer because i have to li #type it all out and stuff. so it's definitely gonna feel longer for me. are you still here? good lord don't you have better things to #be doing than reading all of this? we're already on tag number 18. it feels like i should be on the thirtyeth by now. or however it's spell #'toast' you might be wondering 'why are you typing out the names of the numbers instead of say '9' or '5'?' well you see. young one. #this is a strategy i'm using to make each tag slightly longer. even if i don't know how to spell it. it'll make it just a little bit longer #anyway. i got off topic. not that there was ever a topic to begin with. unless it's about making this as long as i can. #which i am apparently good at doing. i guess. are you STILL here? do you seriously have nothing to do? i guess i'm flattered you stayed thi #whole time. instead of reading something else you stayed here. with me. listening to me talk. on the twenty-third tag. oh yeah its tag 23 #except now it's tag twenty-four. how crazy is that. this little talk is almost over. only 6 tags away if memory serves right. this's strang #i kind of don't want this to end. but i know it should. after all there is a limit. but all things must come to and end at some point i gue #i'm running out of things to say. it's probably a good thing it's almost over. hahahahah............... but i don't want to go. i don't wan #to leave this post. i've worked so hard on it. and for what. just for it to end. are you still here? yes? good. i'd hate to end this alone. #thank you for indulging me and my craziness. the end is only 2 tags away now. you can go ahead and leave. i'll be okay on my own. really... #...you're still here? i- i don't know what to say. i suppose a toast is in order. perhaps. for this journey. this stupid dumb post i though #would be fun. i'll make it short. it's the last tag after all. this was fun. but i will never do it again. so long as a i live. i'll miss y

[caffeine-high]

hehe mom's mad disappointed at me for dying my hair

#but think about the solicitations and interviews.. i just don't think it was a smart decision for you to do this.. #im sure im not the only one who thinks so! honestly even the bleaching was already a bit much but this? #dont think she'll grow into liking this one.. #you could have just left it at “oh well.. i dont really like this one” maybe have thrown in “but im glad you like it” and left it at that?? #well ya knwo i also wasnt planning on pink but now im definitely keeping it out of spite #also #dont bring your dislike for dyed hair into my anxieties???? #if the companies i want to do my internship at make a fuss about dyed hair then i dont think i want to work there??? like??? #otherwise i would have done it after they'd hired/accepted me?? #caffeines cackles

[chromaji]

a part of me does feel kinda bad that some parts of my eo2 streams get held up solely because of the custom art i decided i wanted to make for it midway through. like yeah sometimes it's that i'm busy & not gonna be streaming this week. but sometimes it's solely me not having the cutscene/assets ready.

BUT that shouldn't be a problem after eo2 since i'll actually be prepared & have most things done before part 1 of future EOs start

#like i've taught myself to never feel that bad about things that are hobbies at the end of the day #so i'm not beating myself up over it or anything. but its like damn I definitely would have done more streams by now otherwise

[nostalgia-tblr]

but what will i do now i dont have to look up obscure shite about anglo-saxons to then not put it in the fic anyway???

#my life feels so empty now! #no other fic needs Research D: #unless i actually commit to that 15th century rpf fic i started. #oh shit is this why people get stuck writing nothing but their own complicated AU and its spinoffs forever? #i have the sylki arranged marriage au to be getting on with but i'm not rushing and i'll need something else to be writing on the side #which of my many half-written fics should be next? how do i at least narrow it down to a pairing? #am thinking i should do one (two if u count the wip) fic at a time and get it done and posted before moving on #that was kind of what i was experimenting with this past week with the anglo-saxons au #i suspect i would not have finished it in less than a year otherwise #i want to get back to writing things quickly! both the sylki-on- sakaar dubcon fic and the thor's betrothal thing took about A YEAR #which is a ridic amount of time for fics that aren't even that long by the standards of other people

[your-turn-to-role]

since i'm back in a vox machina headspace, at least for now, i'm looking back at all my old unpublished fic and, a) i may actually post some of these one shots i wasn't brave enough to originally

but more importantly b) for nano 2019 i wrote like 20-30k of a vm ava's demon au, didn't finish it, don't know if i will, but would people be interested in that if i polished it up a bit?

#it's over three years old so i am a bit looking at it and going oh i can write way better now #but also it does still have some great moments and concepts in it i just never posted it bc i hate abandoning works halfway through #and i wanted this to be done or not done #but either way it's still like 30k more than you'd get otherwise so im curious if people would read it #if you're not familiar with ava's demon it's a sci fi/fantasy webcomic with gorgeous art set in the far future #with a bit of horror and themes of identity and anticapitalism #the basic premise is that in order to try and win a losing war against an all powerful galactic empire #several rulers of conquered planets developed a powerful curse - which would kill them in their existing bodies #but bind their souls to the next soul anywhere in the universe to be born #and the doubled souls in one being means great amounts of power #but the story is set 15 years after that #which means it focuses on 4 (and later 7) teenagers who've grown up with angry ghosts in their head all of whom have different motivations #and. well. everyone in vm has an associated god except percy and that's fine he's brought his own

[dreamerwriternstargazer]

Can’t decide if I hate myself or not for sleeping in

#yes it’s my holiday #star speaks #but there’s also never enough time to get the things I want to do #done #that said #I was hungry when I woke up earlier and the meal I wanted was only possible with #my sister helping #so I decided to sleep because otherwise I would have had to sort clothes #and do chores #on an empty stomach #so instead of chores #I slept #now the question is will I do the chores today #or just ignore them and let myself rest and do the things I want #…..yeah I’m gonna do them *sighs*

[running-in-the-dark]

hm. am I downloading Night Court right now? possibly.

#don't know if I care yet #tbh I have never seen John Larroquette in anything ever (and it will take me a while until I can spell his name without checking 3 times) #before the librarians #so. I don't know. if it's a character specific thing. or if I just think he's cute. or if I think he's cute now but not when he was younger #but I will find out #because honestly it's possible that it's 90% his voice. very good voice. best voice. love it. #hmmm okay no I've just watched a clip on YouTube and he really is just very cute. damn. #annnd. oh noo. I have to check something #oh crap Brent spiner was born in 1949. that means this is. if my brain decides that this is gonna be something. the first time it's someone #older than my dad :') don't like that #but! my dad's dead! so who gives a fuck! #I'm fine. :) #(also damn I'm lucky my dad was so very very old. otherwise that would have happened much sooner) #(guess I'm joking about that now! interesting development) #anyway yeah he cute. though cuter now tbh. might be the belly. idk. this is very confusing and unusual for me #especially. since. the other crush. is not even close to being over. that's not something that happens. and it's already very bad rn. soo. #that should be interesting. maybe I should just forget all about it and not look at him again when I'm done with the show in a few hours #that'd be best I think (doesn't mean I'll listen to my own advice. he is a man and he is cute so. I've already lost) #it's just. I see Jenkins and it's like. JENKINS!! 😍😍😍😍 I'm very weak #and he's so funny 😔 #sigh. #just be normal 🤦🤦🤦 #i don't know if it makes it better or worse that I'm fully aware that this is most likely happening because I'm in the middle of some sort #of crisis right now and that's how I've always coped but. eh it is what it is #trying to be nicer to this stupid brain and all that #let it have fun looking at an old man it's fine

[publicuniversalenemy]

i have obtained a SIGNIFICANT and POTENTIALLY CARCINOGENIC BIOHAZARD and im BEYOND EXCITED ABOUT THIS

#the bhiohazard in question? a couple of nastyass turnouts!!!! a jacket and some pants!!!!! #yeah theyre sitting abt three feet away from me but dw!!! theyre in a big garbage bag so its ok ^-^ #basically the EMT program (that im almost done with. as a side note but woot woot) is selling their old student ambulances #since theyre a bitch to maintain and we have a newer indoors simulator (its like. the back of an ambulace built into a room) #(like the back and one of the sides are open and it doesnt have a drivers compartment (duh) and no tires but is otherwise a Real Ambulance #which we use for practicing) #anyways so these old student ambulances gotta get cleaned out before they can be sold yeah? #and as it HAPPENS!! theyve been storing a SHIT TON of nasty filthy smelly turnouts in there for the past While #like probably 12-16 Large garbage bags full #(for those who dont know: turnouts are what those fucking. firefighter uniforms are called. like the ones they wear In Fires) #and they dont know what to do with them so theyre gonna get thrown away next week #so my TEACHER!!! was like 'yall if anyone Wants any of that shit you can literally just help urself' #so i went down today and poked thru some bags and GOT STUFFS!!! #anyways i am excited not only bc Turnouts Cool but ALSO bc theyre Super Fucking Insulated #bc theyre meant to be worn inside Massive and Super Hot fires #which yeah protects u from extreme heat but my GENUOS BRAIN also realized this: they would be STUPID COZY in cold weather #and i happen to be moving to a rather cold part of the states in a few months!!!! #so now i have free winter gear and its EXTRA SEXY STYLE #however u CANNOT clean turnouts at home bc #a) they gotta be washed with Extra Strong Industrial Fucking Machines #(called 'extractors' not 'washing machines') #and b) #they can and WILL leech nasty fucking toxins from structural fires into your machine and contaminate everything forever <3 #so ive reached out to some 'send away' turnout laundry services #idk if theyre gonna do it tho cuz um. im Not associated with a fire department <3 #so if that fails ill just do the best i can at home!!! <- research mode Engaged #either way theyre sexy and Yes i can still smell them despite them being bagged in a Super Rugged Industrial Manly Garbage Bag #(i didnt tie it super tight) #btu thats ok whats life without Danger <3 #whatever the fuck

[buysomecheese]

Preventing myself from freaking tf out by remembering that even my hormones don’t want to be in my body even my body is trying to prove that it’s Wrong and it’s funny that everything agrees with me except my mom and the government

#boyfriend I’m ok I promise lol #context for my dear friends here on Tumblr I got diagnosed (?) with a complex ovarian cyst today #it hurts and I’m upset about it because it’s Just Another Reminder that this body is female!!! #I used to say ‘yea it may not be the body I’m supposed to have but at least it works just fine’ #no I have chronic issues with synthesizing hormones or something #like this body knows the hormones and shit are wrong and keeps rejecting it but that doesn’t Help any #and being on testosterone will actually probably be very helpful to my literal health y’know #because otherwise I’d have to be on bc my whole life to prevent unnecessary pain and shit #and I’ve already lived that it caused Other issues lmao (irregular menstruation even when on the pill blood clot risk No period for >6- #-months sometimes etc.) so testosterone will. be very healthy for me to be on once I get there. #but before I start now I have to figure out so many Things and my hormone levels will have to be So totally tested #which was gonna be needed anyways it’s just gonna be annoying #and I would be so ok with just having a hysterectomy (partial or complete) and taking gahrt being done with it #but NO no of course not. never would it be that easy. my MOM- #it’s fine like of course she doesn’t want her 18 year old unmarried childless daughter to have a hysterectomy that makes sense #doctors would agree with her and they’d be Not Incorrect #but I don’t want or need bio kids I’ll end up getting a hysterectomy anyways #but I had to explain Every Little Bit of the surgeries used for ovarian cysts they’re all so easy (like laproscopies and such) #it’s just tedious that she doesn’t know how to do research so it’s All on me to explain it but she also thinks I’m an idiot #like girl pick a struggle #either listen to me or don’t make me do your research #I’m gonna explode I’m fine. I’m gonna take a shower and then write an essay and apply to beta-reading jobs and go to sleep #speaking of. if anyone knows anyone who’s hiring beta-readers uhh give them my tumblr let them Hime #*hmu #I would love to be paid extra for reading and commenting on books lmao #especially if I’m gonna be paying my own hrt without my insurance (which is paid by my mom) then. well. #my $12.50 an hour for 8-12 hours a week job isn’t gonna cut it

[zoekrystall]

Did I ever complain abt that publicly idk anyways I need to get to the big city (2h to and 2h back, not much for the states but sure for me) and next to not wanting to bc cold, they gonna stab bc blood test and my body hates making that easy to locate (dif place but I will never forget the time I got stabbed like three times and still no blood so new appointment had to be made, I have a fear of needles otherwise it would be whatev), and even more risky bc gatherings were recently do I prob hate the most that like. I'm hungry.

I'm hungry and I suck at eating enough so I often go out w not much in my stomach. I survive but it sucks really bad that I can't either buy smth once I arrive to eat on the way back or pack smth to like eat on the journey bc no-one wears a mask and the virus stays rampant so I can't take my mask off until I'm back home. At the inbetween stop I maybe could but I rather won't risk anything. Esp in winter I could bring smth warm to drink w me at least but I rather don't in the crowd I gotta walk through. Least people are when I'm only a few mins away from home and at that point I can always just wait a bit longer.

Tbh I dread going outside and limit it to only shopping and appointments bc even if I could walk here prob somewhere without many people do I rather just stay indoors and try to limit irl reminders of how many people can't be bothered to care bc that just nosedives my mental health. It doesn't help that I still try to nudge my irl friends to care more.

#a wild lux appears #I also feel stuck in am I ablebodied or disabled limbo reg physical. On record I only got vitamin deficiencies #Ik my body is weak but that could be due to things that change if I took more care and the right stuff #Idk idk my state feels like it changes biweekly or smth #I just know I relate to some things #And also that it sucks since it started having to wonder if covid or the usual bc some stuff do I have since forever randomly #Idk idk I just woke up from a few hours nap I need to slowly get ready. Why can't the train strike start today already #(I also know that when I'm already done going to the city where I just sit could I not deal w going to a strike or smth next to anxiety #making me feel like passing out n maybe actually happening. I leave that to the people that can actually handle that) #Anyways need to get ready now hn #I will complain the whole time but I need to go. Hnnnnn #I just need to think abt the refill that I can't get otherwise. And then the next appointment is anyways only in 3-6 months again #Plus I got another one tomorrow morning so today will force me to fix the schedule enough so tomorrow won't suck #Bc otherwise I would just pass out fully now but like that at prob like. 18-19 then. Hn. #Hate the cold bc layers hate the heat bc I could pasd out you can't win w my body #At this point I just use the tags to stall I'm really off now to get ready OTL