#probably gonna delete it in an hour anyway

[sprucewoodmpreg]

still thinking abt the life series as a video game so here's a mockup of a chiptune battle theme for bdubs' ender dragon fight ^_^

#this whole track is kind of a followup to one of my favourite songs from the original block game album btw #this also isn't my best work LOL but i had fun with it so hopefully someone can get some enjoyment out of it #secret life smp #bdoubleo100 #anyways i get scared as hell when i post these things so i'm gonna log off for a few hours or else i'll probably delete this post 😭 #music tag

[themoonunderstoodmydadjokes]

Y’all ever just wanna have fun and not worry about anything but then your brain keeps yelling “be sad! Be sad right now! No fun only sad!

#I’m probably gonna delete this later lol #I am a mixed bag of emotions tonight #and I didn’t even drink #so sad hours are also sober sad hours #anyways you saw nothing #sad girl hours are here #sorry y’all #gonna have to deal with my emotions for the night

[hyperfixation-tangentopia]

Mmmmm I am so tired

#IN MY DEFENSE #IT WAS NOT ALL ON ME THIS TIME #but this does get a little venty so there's your warning #had a flashback(?) earlier at around 11 PM that took me until 4 AM to mentally recover from enough to go to bed #and then proceeded to have a 2 hour breakdown accompanied by flashback time (still uncertain but more likely) #and literally have just pulled myself out of that #located where I am in the timeline like 10 - 15 minutes ago because whoo boy #my brain had me in like 3 or 4 different time periods at once #sense of identity? never heard of it apparently #gonna go back to reading fanfic and see how badly this screws me tomorrow #but yeah #in my defense the exhaustion today is mot totally on me #and I am not going to sleep right now because knowing me I will get nightmares if I do not complete the calming down process first #anyway #sorry for the vent #it's 7 AM and I have no other options #on the upside #I did get a hug #anyway probably delete this later just had to get it out there #ignore this

[mattodore]

i hit 3k pins on the oc boards last night without even noticing 🥺

#river dipping #what’s funny is i just deleted like forty pins from theo’s board that didn’t represent him anymore and i STILL have 3k 😭 #theo’s board is years old and i cleaned it out a few times before but i finally was like okay no. #some of these pins just don’t make sense for him at all you need to delete them even if you’re attached to them atp. #i need to do the same with some of matthias and dionte's early pins too but i've been putting it off #anyway <333333333333333!!!!!!!!!! i'm going to read for an hour or two and then it's back in cas to start on theo's mom #i finished his dad last night i just didn't post abt it #theo's parents are gonna look much younger than matthias's but they're probably close in age. theo's are maaaybe a little younger... #ALSO...... i realized when i was making theo's dad that like. theo and matthias aren't close in age like matthias and imani. #like there's a 2-4 year age gap there... so like. for the edit i'm just gonna make them both fifteen anyway and say Oh Well! #like just pretend there's no age difference #me being like 'i don't wanna give exact ages at the current spot in the story' is fine until i wanna do something like this kdfjgnk #theo's in his early twenties and matthias is in his mid-twenties #theo's like..... somewhere between 22-24 and matthias is somewhere from 25-26... no more than 27 that's for sure #theo's still in university is the thing... like i've always been like theo's 24-ish but realized like hang on... he should be younger #he's very studious and his course load is STACKED so if anything he should be out of university by 22... which is where i've hit a snag #i was thinking oh maybe he could've taken a gap year but like. his parents wouldn't have allowed that at all. #and then i was like okay... maybe he went to rehab for a year so he's behind...? #but again........ his parents wouldn't have allowed him to disgrace the family name publically like that by admitting he has problems #so like... i'm just sort of covering my mouth and mumbling whenever i talk about ages lmao #i just don't want theo to be really young and i don't wanna budge on matthias's age either #idk idk i'll think of something. maybe it can relate to the breakdown he's meant to have... #...anyway. out of the oc soup and into this book <3

[sonknuxadow]

#not actually gonna wait an entire day btw will probably delete this in a coupoe hours #only making this a poll because people are more willing to vote on polls than they are to leave a reply #like just look at the number of notes vs the number of votes on any poll post #anyway tell me what sonic game i should play

[bonetrousledbones]

lately i’ve discovered that there’s a special kind of hell in most likely not being able to go to a concert you really really really wanna go to right before the person goes on an indefinite hiatus

#trousled rants #YES this is about will wood leave me alone #all his shows are 18+ and i'm not gonna be 18 until like 2 weeks AFTER his last show. pain and suffering and hell and blood #i'm starting to really really consider just trying to buy a ticket anyway and seeing how it goes ... my mom would Not be happy abt it tho #particularly because the closest show is 2 hours away and also on the 25th #i've NEVER had issues with FOMO before but now.......................i understand. for the love of god please help me #delete later probably

[gh0stlymoth]

My insomniac tendencies DID catch up to me, shocked and terrified, who could have seen this coming.

#went from like 6 to 5 hours to almost 12 hours with a short interruption today and i feel. like trash sldjsldkdk #gg to my work for thinking i would make it today like nah my guys i can't fly. #i also feel not great in general so. yeah #Fs all around.... #really tho why is my work at 9 am like ey yo can you be here at 10 am. like. babes i don't live that close to the trains. #gotta take a mental rest day today instead cause i am sick of my brain chemicals being like woops serotonin ran out lmao gg nerd #also cw mental health talk but yeah not a fan of all my bad thinking patterns just hitting me all at once this weekend but what can you do. #but living with avpd is so easy ahaha all of us have a little social anxiety ahahaha doesn't hinder u or ur self perception at all ahaha /s #i do want neurotypicals to shut up sometimes lmao this goes for any mental illness but i can ofc only talk for my lived one and christ. #anyway gonna make soup today probably. #delete later #bc this got rambely but also i am tired #the ghost rambles

[daughterofhecata]

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#meistens glaube ich dass es gut für die sicherheit meines arbeitsverhältnisses ist #dass mein chef es mir nie ins gesicht sagt wenn ihn was stört #weil wir uns sonst häufiger mal *richtig* in die haare kriegen würden #aber manchmal wärs schön er hätte die eier das zu tun anstatt immer passiv-aggressive mails an den gesamten mailverteiler zu schicken #yes he probably has adhd and massive rejection sensitivity #but sometimes i think he needs to be told he's being irrational and annoying #unfortunately i can't really do that if i wanna keep my job #on the other hand. what's he gonna do? fire me? the only employee who's been there for more than a year? #while my other boss is constantly begging me to work more hours because she needs someone she knows can do the job? #and in this economy? #anyways vent over #to delete later

[faggot-friday]

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#what if....... i made the mutuals in the sims............ #and we were all roommates and interacted as such.......... #jk jk unless........... #okay i probably won't do this but my brain is on something and it's gonna mull over this idea for hours #anyways. ignore this post i'm deleting it in a few minutes anyways (if i remember. please remember to delete this)

[lazyconfessionscrazyintentions]

You love a fool who,

Who knows just how to get under your skin

#self. #my face. #click for better quality #I’m probably gonna delete this tbh #my bare face is 😬😬anyways #harry styles #red hair #bralette #white hair #golden hour #ed recovery #freckles #silver jewelry #pierced #ink #genderfluid #I’m trying to like my face and stuff ok😩🤡 #the lighting BYE who is that #androgynous hair #the Gender🤌🏻 #lgbt #lgbtq #my hands are actually tiny lmao #curly hair

[squuote]

hhhh wondering if I should just finish this piece or go to sleep cause it’s already past 12 and I only have a few hours till work e_e

#crow thoughts #delete later probably lol #LIKE IM ON A ROLL AND I WANNA FINISH IT #but I know at this rate it’s gonna take me another hour cause I still have to finish rendering and then add on top layer details #which I want to do but it’s gonna take me a while ughugh #for some reason I’ve only been able to really draw during the night and IT FUCKING SUCKS!!! I CANT STAY UP LATE AS SHIT ANYMORE CAUSE WORK #anyway imma just. go to sleep I guess 🙄 literally suffering and agony I just want to finish j/ophie art

[bich-the-moss]

No yes, I’m sorry. I’ll be sure to get better pictures for a ceremony that’s over by the time you send me there and I’ll never trust a PR person who says that they have photos to send ever again. How stupid of me to think this would work out. My deepest apologies, prayers, and regret, sire.

#GOD #I saved this as a draft cuz I was like ‘no I’m not gonna post anything when I’m mad’ but it’s been 24 hours and I have decided I am #rightfully pissed #the person who arranged this whole thing got the times wrong so there was nothing or me to cover by the time I showed up but an organizer #said she had pictures that we could use and would send them by tomorrow morning #I tell my boss the whole situation and he’s understanding at first and tells me to send the photos once they come in #queue fucking yesterday: I email the pics and he’s like ‘you don’t have anything better?’ #no. you sent me to an event that was over. there was nothing to photograph. you are aware of the situation. #’well you need to understand that it’s important to get good photos for things like this but whatever this will work I guess’ #so I spend all afternoon emailing other people at the event asking if they had pics we could use. finally hear back from someone #and send those over to my boss. #only for him to fucking say: I actually like the first photos better. we rearranged the layout for them #anyway pardon me while I go fuck myself ig #fucking vent. I’ll probably delete this later but Jesus Christ I’m so glad this week is over

[sinclarsupremacy]

isnt it so fucked up that i can tell when my cycles gonna come based on how much i hate everything about myself and think i should do everyone a favor and move to a different city

#anyway! gonna cope by not movibg for 24 hours :) #and ill probably delete this post in an hour :)