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friendofcars · 8 months

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for the ask game!

"Electric joy surged through Ronan, overpowering the worry."

hi!

my guess: definitely feels like it came from the dream thieves and the word "electric" is making me think it's in chapter 27, which is the substance party chapter (is the worry perhaps about being around gansey and kavinsky simultaneously, or the mitsubishi burning?). i suppose this could also be after ronan dreams the replacement camaro later in the book but i think it's less likely. also as i'm reading my answer back to myself i'm realizing i am biased since i literally just finished re-reading tdt and it might be in greywaren when ronan is sleeping and hears adam talking to declan (chapter 9??? whichever the chapter is when adam tells declan he's deaf in one ear) but ALSO this might be in the sweetmetal sea soul merge chapter. oh wow this is exceedingly difficult but very fun to try to figure out. final answer is the sweetmetal sea "reader, i merged souls with him" sequence. which may or may not be greywaren chapter 25. the "through Ronan" is giving me the sense of not being in a physical body and it would be logical for him to be worried about adam being untethered from his body in such uncharted circumstances.

the answer: it is in fact the sweetmetal sea scene when adam scries and his consciousness finds ronan (although the chapter number is 19, not 25). not sure how i stumbled into the right answer but here we are.

my thoughts on this line: i love how ronan's emotions are described as electric (as things that can surge, like power) given his intrinsic tie to ley energy. and while it was a speculation when i was guessing, i think the fact that ronan (rather than his body) is mentioned emphasizes the fact that he's in his most greywaren-like form, which makes me think back to the dream thieves and how we learn that ronan is both dangerous and beautiful (and manifests both danger and beauty). here, we see him in an otherworldly form but with intense human emotions. the way he swings from worry to joy feels very in character for him, and we learn why his emotions are so intense and all-consuming in the same book. i think it's particularly apt for his feelings regarding adam, specifically, to embody electricity and power given symbols and plot points in trc (the thunder and lightning in the dream thieves, adam essentially rewiring the ley line to give ronan the brief moment of time necessary for ronan to decide to save himself, etc.). the joy is because adam has "come all this way" to find him in the sweetmetal sea, because ronan no longer feels abandoned. he's like a dog with separation anxiety who destroys the house and then jumps for joy when its owner gets home, as if they never left.

i know this chapter gets a lot of criticism for evading what could have been a more satisfying conversation between ronan and adam re: their relationship and i do agree. greywaren could have been 100+ pages longer imo. i think there should have been more writing devoted to better resolution of character arcs and more thorough exploration of interpersonal relationships.

HOWEVER i do really enjoy the chapter itself, even if it's a symptom of greywaren's main weakness as a series finale. i like how adam embraces ronan's eldritch self so readily. i love the refrain of they were wanted, they were wanted, they were wanted. i think it's wild how integral they are to each other's sense of integrated self (this is terribly unhealthy but fascinating to read about). i think due to personal problems the lack of verbal communication is actually kind of appealing in isolation even if i don't condone it. i am thinking about how ecstatic ronan is when adam is with him and how despondent he gets when adam's not and how there's some emotional object permanence issues going on here that i'm a little scared of thinking about. i'm getting off track here but at some point i imagine my focus will shift from trc to td3 and i'll do a much more thorough analysis of the chapter beyond this line/my general opinion.

#rchl #ask #thank you for sending these!!!! i'm having so much fun and this was quite difficult to pin down but once the idea popped into my head i KNE #W #i will try to keep my future responses more concise though #<- i am not capable of doing that #trc

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clotpolesonly · 1 year

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📔!!

(content/trigger warning: abuse and dubcon) (also this turned into a whole-ass notfic, it's lengthy, sorry not sorry, i think about this one so much alkjfgakfg)

badwrong Declinsky AU where Kavinsky runs an underground boxing ring. he's invited Ronan a dozen times, but Gansey told him no, and Ronan is obeying that edict as long as Gansey doesn't try to stop him from racing too.

Declan has also told Ronan no, and tried to get him to stop racing, and tried to get him to stop going anywhere near Kavinsky because Kavinsky is fucking dangerous and the worst kind of influence and gonna get him in trouble or hurt or in jail or

but also.......Ronan isn't the only one who boxes. and if anyone needs an outlet for pent up aggression, it's Declan. so, against his better judgment, in spite of all the warnings he's given to his brother, in a moment of shameful weakness, Declan goes. he goes to one of Kavinsky's warehouses, he gets in the ring, and he lets himself go a little feral.

and it's fucking great. it feels fantastic to let loose, to not have to worry about the person he's hitting, to let himself sink into the physicality of it and just fight, to WIN unequivocally, to have a whole crowd of people cheering for him and chanting his name.

it's not so great dealing with Kavinsky himself. he's sleazy and provocative and casually dismissively cruel in that special way of his, but he's the one in charge here. and he likes the way Declan fights. he invites Declan back, says he could make him some real money, put him on the books. says Declan could be something special.

Declan has never felt special.

at first Declan tells him to fuck off. this was a one time thing and it's not happening again. but that only holds until the next time Ronan calls him a selfish bastard, until the next time he gets called out of his own class because Matthew missed too many assignments in his, until the next time his burner phone goes off and the reminder of the utter shit show his dad left him to deal with makes him feel like the world is falling apart around him.

then he's back in the ring. then his opponent is on the ground and Kavinsky is holding his arm up and declaring him the winner, pounding him on the back and calling him a champion. then the crowd is chanting his name like it means something more than just Declan.

after a lifetime of deliberate underachievement (and parental emotional negligence), the acknowledgement alone is intoxicating. combined with the endorphin thrill of the fight and he's flying high. he wonders if this is what Ronan feels like when he races. it's gotta be, to make it worth the risk. to make it worth Kavinsky, pressing in close behind him, hands on his bare shoulders, shouting in his ear about what a fucking show he put on.

Declan tries to keep his distance from Kavinsky, he really does. the problem is that Kavinsky really gets off on provoking people, on getting them react to him, and that makes Declan -- staid, stoic, tightly controlled, unflappable Declan -- his white fucking whale. (at least while Ronan is still playing lapdog to Gansey and out of his reach. he's playing the long game there.)

for now, he's set his sights on Declan, and Kavinsky always gets what he wants eventually.

it's a back and forth between praising him for his prowess in the ring, making him feel special and valued, and pissing him off once he's out of the ring, negging and confrontational and, worst of all, comparing him to Ronan. always reminding Declan that Ronan was his first choice, that Ronan is everyone's first choice. Kavinsky is nothing if not good at knowing what pressure points to hit, and Declan's aren't exactly hard to guess.

it takes him a couple of weeks to goad Declan into a big reaction, but it only takes a few seconds to turn the tables on him when it happens. in the aftermath of a big win, Declan riding the high, still shaking with adrenaline. Kavinsky, with one well placed snide comment, shoved back against a wall and about to get hit. pulling Declan in and kissing him instead, the bait and switch too quick and destabilizing for Declan to react appropriately at first. Kavinsky gets them off, rough and quick, and leaves Declan there to stew in the confusion and mixed feelings of it.

it becomes a pattern, sex with Kavinsky. it's not something that Declan ever intends to do, but somehow it keeps happening anyway, and Declan's never entirely sure how he gets there. especially because it's not exactly pleasant. not that it doesn't feel good physically (it does, usually, even when it's rough, and Kavinsky always makes sure he gets off) but the dichotomy of it, emotionally, doesn't. one minute, praise, the next, degradation. petting his hair with one hand and slapping his face with the other. he feels perpetually off balance, and he hates that feeling.

if asked, Declan would say it doesn't matter. it's just sex. he's had plenty of casual sex with people he didn't particularly like, and this is no different. it's just part of the whole fucked up bad idea stress relief thing that is this boxing ring. he's got it under control.

except that he's on the books now, contracted (so to speak, for whatever value that has in an illegally run underground operation like this) for however many fights Kavinsky thinks will be profitable, which is a lot. he's Kavinsky's prize fighter (he croons that in Declan's ear when he fucks him sometimes, that he's K's champion, his favorite, that even Ronan doesn't compare) and Kavinsky isn't going to let him go. the fights themselves are getting harder, and the stakes higher. word of the ring is spreading and people are coming in from all over to get a piece of the action.

there's also K's dreaming to contend with. he's not doing a whole lot with it here, but Declan knows about it, and K knows he knows about it, and that knowledge hovers over them without needing to spoken. the fact that Kavinsky has power and Declan doesn't. that Kavinsky could do anything and Declan wouldn't be able to stop him. the fact that, whatever control Declan thinks he has over this situation, he's lying to himself about it. Kavinsky holds all the cards here.

Declan comes to that realization, in truth, long before he allows himself to actually acknowledge it. he's very good at suppressing thoughts and emotions he doesn't want to deal with, and the nature of his relationship with Kavinsky gets packed into a neatly labeled box and shoved in the back of his mind where he can ignore it while he hides bruises from his brothers and his teachers alike. this is fine. everything is fine, he has it under control.

spoiler alert: he does not have it under control. also, Kavinsky is getting bored with the holding pattern. he wanted Declan, and he got him. with that out of the way, he sets his sights back on the other Lynch. he tries again to get Ronan to join the fight, which doesn't work, so he tries sowing a little entertaining mayhem instead using his new favorite toy: he starts dropping hints about Declan. nothing overt, but enough to get Ronan's attention.

Ronan, not one for beating around the bush, tries confronting Declan to find out wtf K meant by what he said. asks him outright what's going on. but Declan is not about to admit to anyone, especially Ronan, that he got himself into an abusive relationship with Joseph Kavinsky and is contracted to fight in the underground boxing ring that he specifically warned Ronan away from.

he tries pushing Ronan away, which usually works cuz Ronan gets pissy and defensive and is more than happy to leave him alone. this time, though, Ronan is determined not to be pushed so it just pisses him off. they end up fighting, as they often do. but Declan is still injured from his last match. and he's so tired of fighting. for once, he doesn't actually want to fight with Ronan. some part of him wants to tell his brother what's going on, but he has his pride, and a bigger part of him honestly doesn't think that Ronan would care or even believe him.

he doesn't tell him. he lashes out, tells Ronan that it's none of his goddamn business what Declan does, to fuck off back to his never-ending self-destruction and stop pretending that he gives a shit. he knows what buttons to push and it ends with him, alone on the ground, bleeding, knowing that Kavinsky expects him back in the ring in an hour.

the confrontation shakes them both, though. Ronan, pissed as he is, is now even more determined to figure out what the FUCK is going on. and hey, Kavinsky's invited him to this fight a hundred times. maybe it's time he checks it out.

he gets there right around the time that Declan rebels. it's been a while since he went toe to toe with Kavinsky. Declan had hardly noticed the gradual change in his and K's dynamic, the way their previous push and pull has become a lot more push and a lot less pull over time, but it becomes glaringly obvious when his aggression, once a standard part of their relationship, is met with a backhand that almost knocks him to the ground.

Ronan sees this. but he also sees the way Kavinsky shoves Declan up against a wall and kisses him. he sees the way Declan doesn't (can't) fight it. whatever he was expecting, it wasn't that.

Ronan turns right around and walks back out the door, trying to wrap his head around what the fuck he just witnessed. none of it matches up with the image of his brother that he's always had in his head -- someone untouchable, someone strong and proud and in control. someone who does things, not has things done to them. and after the last few years and all the shit that's gone down between them, Ronan is hard-wired for blame where Declan is concerned, that's his first instinct and knee-jerk reaction. anger is a safe and familiar emotion, so he defaults to an explanation that's easier to swallow than any of the other ways that what he witnessed could be interpreted.

Declan yelled at him for racing and warned him off of this exact fight. Declan told him to stay away from Kavinsky. why? so Declan could fuck him himself? so Declan could fight without Ronan knowing about it? Declan is a fucking hypocrite.

he's worked himself up good and mad by the time Declan comes out after his match, Kavinsky draped all over him (praise and affection, to balance out the slap Declan drove him to earlier, of course). Ronan starts throwing punches. Kavinsky is, of course, fucking delighted. now he has both Lynches' attention.

Declan, not so delighted. deeply horrified, actually. he somehow manages to get things de-escalated to the point of non-violence (or at least violence temporarily suspended) and tells Kavinsky to go, that he's done enough damage for one night. K only leaves, grinning wolfishly, because he knows it's true. he'll have plenty of fun picking up the pieces later.

Ronan is convinced to continue the confrontation at Declan's apartment where there are at least fewer people to watch from the doorway, thanks, but he doesn't hesitate to let loose as soon as they get there. about what a hypocrite Declan is, about the fighting, about him fucking Kavinsky, about everything.

Declan doesn't even know how to defend himself because saying that he didn't plan for this, that he doesn't want this, is too dangerous to say. because what it really means is "this is non-consensual" and he's not ready to unpack that yet, even just to himself. he's still trying to convince himself that he's got some measure of control over the situation, which he absolutely does not, and what little he had left is rapidly spinning out of reach. Ronan is still yelling, and there's nothing he can say to him that won't make things worse, and all he can think of is how K is going to take advantage of this, and this is the story of Declan's first panic attack.

it's not a loud sobby one, more like Gansey's silent one when he was down the hole in the cave. he's distantly aware of what's happening, but outwardly he's just frozen. pale and shaky, heart racing, breath coming fast, eyes wide open on nothing, hands clenched white knuckled on the table edge.

it takes Ronan ages to notice. it isn't until he shoves Declan, thinking he's ignoring him (he's done that before, when he deemed Ronan's tirade a tantrum) and that shakes loose some of those hyperventilation gasps that he's been keeping so carefully controlled. Declan just sits down on the ground, head between his knees.

Ronan has no idea what to do with that. suddenly, he's reminded of the backhand. of the look on Declan's face after the kiss with K, which he had kind of sort of disregarded in favor of being angry. it's getting harder to willfully misinterpret. harder to be mad at Declan when he's curled on the ground on the verge of tears.

he doesn't know what to do. Declan freaking out really freaks him out, cuz Declan doesn't do this!! Declan is the one with the cool head, the one who always has it together, the one who knows what to do in every crisis situation! what the fuck is happening?? nothing about this situation is computing for him, and Ronan zooms past angry and straight into alarmed and concerned.

Ronan has seen Gansey's panic attacks on occasion and he's finally like FUCK OK and figures he would actually at least try to help a little. tries to get him to breathe, tries not to yell anymore at least for now, tries the counting thing that Gansey does sometimes. he can't really tell if it helps or not, but eventually Declan does stop wheezing like that.

the first thing Declan says when he has his breath back is "get out." he says it repeatedly at increasing volumes when Ronan says fuck no. he wants Ronan out of his apartment before he starts crying, because he can feel it coming on, it's the worst feeling in the world and he knows from experience that he can't stop it after holding off a breakdown for this long. when Ronan won't go, Declan scrambles to shut himself in his room and locks the door behind him.

unfortunately for him, Ronan has moved past the angry and confused part and so far into concern that he actually tries being nice.

"look, I don't know what's going on here, man, but just…..just talk to me, okay? just tell me what's going on, you're really freaking me out. never thought I'd say this, but i can help. i wanna help. come on, don't make me kick down this door, Decklo."

Declan, on the floor with his back against the door, sobbing as quietly as possible with this hand over his mouth. he ends up opening the door before he's done crying solely because he knows that Ronan 100% will actually kick his door in, and the last thing he needs right now is the hassle and expense of getting it replaced. but he says "DON'T" and Ronan, for once, obeys and keeps his mouth shut. he just sits down next to Declan, close enough for their shoulders to touch but not looking at him, and waits.

eventually he asks "what the hell did Kavinsky do to you?"

it's the only conclusion he can come to.

Declan says "nothing I didn't let him do" which isn't strictly true, but it feels true.

Ronan asks if Kavinsky needs killing (his way of asking if Kavinsky assaulted Declan, because he's certainly not gonna ask that out loud, but the thought is definitely in his head by now. he knows what K is like better than most.) Declan is like "jesus mary and joseph, NO" and Ronan is already getting frustrated, but Declan -- so so tired and worn down -- asks, very perfunctorily and much more fragile-sounding than he likes, that Ronan not yell at him right now.

Ronan is reminded of something that Blue said once, about how all women are instinctively afraid when men raise their voices, because of the rates of violence against them. he doesn't like being reminded of that by Declan of all people. It implies that Declan was a victim of violence, which is all kinds of wrong and impossible to conceive of. Ronan is SO far out of his depth and he does not know how to handle this.

Declan can see that Ronan is on the verge of jumping up to do something stupid -- he's always been a man of action, not of words and feelings -- and he realizes that he's going to have to tell him. whether he wants to or not. for Ronan's sake, always sacrificing what he wants for Ronan's sake. he feels like shit for being resentful of Ronan right when Ronan's decides to be a good brother for once, but he's got K's voice in his head, rubbing in how much everything is all about Ronan all the time, Ronan the favorite, the prodigal son, and poor little insignificant Declan, so desperate for attention that he'll bend over for anyone who asks nicely. or not so nicely, as the case may be.

it's canon-confirmed that none of the Lynch brothers want to be seen as anything other than deliberate, even if it's deliberately cruel. so Declan wields the truth as a weapon and a shield, opting to hurt them both so at least it's not just him.

"what do you want to hear, Ronan? do you wanna hear about how we fuck? do you wanna hear about how I let Kavinsky get in my head? about how I was so fucking tired of being the only unspecial person in the family that all he had to do was call me his prize fighter and I was rolling over for him? about how he treated me like shit and I kept coming back anyway because I'm so fucking lonely and desperate that I didn't care?"

it's one of those "oh god, my brother is a person" moments for Ronan. he's never really thought that Declan was bothered by being the normal one, because he'd never given any outward indication that he was. Ronan doesn't do repression the way that Declan does, he doesn't understand it or expect it the same way, but he sure is seeing the effect of it now. it's all Declan's polish stripped away to leave him worn thin, ragged at the edges, wild and young and exhausted. angry and resentful and hurting.

weirdly, this Declan is a lot more relatable. it looks a lot more like him.

Ronan tries to think of what Gansey would say. or what Blue would say, she seems like she'd be comforting or whatever. but all he can come up with in the end is "do you need help? getting out?"

Declan's mouth goes dry. "there is no getting out."

he's tried to leave before. he's always been goaded into another fuck, or talked out of it, or promised another fight, or given an ultimatum, or outright threatened. you don't just leave Kavinsky, and Ronan does understand that to an extent. he's raced with K for years now, and he's never managed to quit him no matter how many times Declan and Gansey have tried to convince him to, even when he's sworn to himself that he will.

and K has never had his claws into Ronan as deeply as he does Declan. Ronan has never been isolated, K can't convince Ronan that no one else can give him what he needs because Ronan has Gansey. he has Noah, and Adam, and Blue, and Matthew, and even Declan, if push came to shove. Declan's never had anyone to rely on like that, anyone that he trusted enough to ask for help if he needed it. when he needed it.

but he does now. fuck everything else, fuck all the water under the bridge, they can come back to that shit later. all that matters right now is that Ronan's brother needs help. he's damn well gonna get it. and Kavinsky's gonna get what's coming to him.

send me a book emoji for the plot of a fic that i haven't written but daydream about!!

#and the answer is #Anonymous #Declinsky #Declan Lynch #Kavinsky #Ronan Lynch #TRC #fics by me

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silouvertongues · 2 years

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FULL THOUGHTS ON THE RAVEN CYCLE PLEASE fave book fave character fave relationship??

HIIII it's so funny whenever u ask me questions like this about media I've consumed just bc. i don't think i have enough braincells to have coherent thoughts but im gonna try <33

ok fave book i can't pick one and bc i kinda read them back to back to back things are sorta blending together but i really liked the dream thieves bc the dream stuff is just really cool and ronan is so fun to read and there was quite a bit of him in it but i also loved the raven king bc all their little friendships and relationships sorta solidified and i loved it more than i can put into words. actually i think plot wise the third book was the strongest for me just because the stuff that happened felt more substantial? maybe? i loved how everything was written in the last one and how it kinda happened but i was expecting it to happen like that so i wasn't like . in awe or in shock yk

now the fave character . i love them all so immensely its a little crazy i didn't think I'd be this attached !! blue is literally my baby i need to shrink her and put her on my shoulder so we can be best friends forever i need to have her with me forever.

the funniest thing about gansey is that he's the stupidest genius around like my boy is so silly i love him for it but also idk how else to describe it but i have the like admiration for him that everyone in the book did??? idk if it was bc I read the others' povs but the way they were like we'd do anything for this man. yeah . yeah .

ADAM . ok this is ridiculous but i went in thinking I'd adore him right away and then i started reading it and the first book i did really like him but then the second book i. i didn't feel so good about him at times and i just couldn't understand why because it's adam and i thought I'd love him so much but then i realized it was bc he was a little too real? idk how else to describe it i was reading his pov and suddenly there was a mirror somehow despite me never having been in a situation like his before and then i understood why he was getting on my nerves and then i got over it as the books went on and he became less of a mirror lol and i am simply so fond of this boy now i need to take care of him and give him several hugs and put him on my other shoulder.

i don't even know what to say about this next guy im. immmmmmm . feeling very much jane austen if i loved you less i might be able to talk about it more. now this one i also knew i would like bc he's just . angsty angry little guy with a softest spot for the people he loves and im always gonna be a sucker for that BUT MYYYYYYY GOD he's like . he's in my heart he's around it he's inside it he's everywhere i love him :(( i think part of it was also because his story had more depth imo and was more interesting to me personally so I just enjoyed reading his bits more but he's so so lovely idk what else to even say

this is way longer than i thought it was gonna be so im gonna be basic and say my fav relationship was just all 4 (5 ig hi noah) of them i cried so many times over just like little moments of love between them im so insanely attached like they're all seriously in love with each other and i loveeeeee them i have moments just running through my head on loop since last night but also like romantic relationships wise i think i feel equally insane about the two main ones (well maybe a teeny tiny bit more insane about THE OBJECTS OF RONAN'S WORSHIP BEING FOCUSED IN ONE DOWNTOWN BLOCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCKK but also gansey feeling homesick and calling blue made me lose it i lost it i went insane)

#does this make Any sense idk i loved the books i dont know how to put it into the right words sorry this is so long ????#kikuism #asks #trc

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blonde-batgirl · 1 year

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I posted 3,249 times in 2022

That's 940 more posts than 2021!

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#the fact that ronan did the whole love at first sight thing and then completely failed to make any sort of positive impression at all

My Top Posts in 2022:

You know, we talk a lot about Adam letting Whelk die and Ronan and Adam blackmailing Greenmantle with the dreamt-up evidence of gruesome crimes, but I really feel like we’re not getting enough milage out of Gansey bribing the head of Aglionby TWICE like it’s nothing or the fact that EVERYONE pretty much accepts that they are now on more-or-less friendly terms with the hitman who killed Niall Lynch.

Like, the line between being a Raven Cycle character and being a morally questionable individual is a circle.

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Anthony: I have very high standards.

Kate, appears, riding astride instead of side-saddle on horseback, clearly somewhere she's not supposed to be: Oh no! She's meeting all my standards.

101 notes - Posted March 25, 2022

UM. Can we talk about how Declan put out a hit on Bryde to protect Ronan, even though they both have a lot of hitman-related trauma. And Adam, at the very least, knew about it and did nothing to stop it or warn Ronan.

Like, when Declan’s arranging it, he literally says, “Ronan’s a follower. He’s always needed a hero to follow. When he was a kid, he idolized my father. When he was in school, he idolized his best friend. Now he’s obviously idolizing this Bryde.” and this draws direct comparisons between Bryde and Niall Lynch, who Ronan literally found dead in the driveway after he was taken out by a hitman. Not to mention that it also draws comparisons with Gansey, who Ronan has also seen die.

I could say a lot of things about this, but I think it really points to how dangerous Declan and Adam think Bryde is and how much of an influence they think he’s having on Ronan that they’re willing to go that route, that they think it’s worth the pain now for everything to be okay later.

Also, the fact that Ronan takes a little bit to clock that Adam knew about it is sort of heartbreaking because, honestly, this is the sort of thing that has Adam written all over it: it’s a cold, calculated, morally questionable plan for the greater good.

111 notes - Posted August 13, 2022

Really getting the sense that some people are missing that Eloise’s feminism is deliberately flawed - we were shown that multiple times in season one - and it’s also a defence mechanism because when she lives and her class both dictate marriage and children as the only path. Not only does she want other things, she specifically talked about how overhearing her mother have a traumatic birth with her youngest sister made her terrified of childbirth (episode two of season one to save you having to search for it like I did). She exists in a society that is actively hostile to her as a person, constantly telling her that the horror she overheard as a child is her ultimate destiny and there’s nothing she can do about that. Every time we see her engaged in having her first season, whether it’s being introduced to the queen or attending a ball, she’s shaking, she’s stumbling over her words, she’s breathing too fast, she’s running away.

In short, she’s terrified.

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My #1 post of 2022

Absolutely wild that when Bachira is first introduced he seems a little... unhinged (affectionate) and then he turns out to be the second most normal of the major characters (second to Chigiri). Like, the kid just wants friends. Meanwhile, Reo could potentially be normal if he wasn’t a billionaire’s kid, but then there’s his whole friendship with Nagi to consider, Kunigami wants to be a real-life superhero (wrong manga), Nagi is apathy-incarnate and knows nothing about the sport but is somehow not only holding up but excelling in a setting that is designed to be as intense about it as physically possible, Rin’s whole tragic backstory is that his brother came back from training abroad and wanted to - gasp - switch to playing midfield instead of striker - the horror - and Isagi is. Well. Isagi is concerning. Personally, I don’t trust Ego and I will be very surprised if there isn’t some eventual twist regarding him and his philosophies (Chigiri mentions as early as volume two that he doesn’t think everything Ego says is true), and Isagi buys into all of it. Hook. Line. And sinker. Finally, somebody is telling him what he wants to hear and he develops rapidly into a poster boy for Ego’s whole philosophy. Like, it’s gloriously entertaining and I am here for it, but it’s objectively concerning.

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micamicster · 2 years

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bestie ronan Lynch Bruce springsteen opinions now!!! Also blue and Adam if u r so inclined…

gooood morning cringe nation!

While there are many many bruce springsteen songs that we could associate with these characters this is in fact a significantly MORE cringe post about. what these characters think of bruce springsteen. Since they are of course real people who grew up in small town virginia they have real experiences with Bruce's music.

Blue as a child enjoys his music because it has fun associations, like... it's the soundtrack of county fairs and fourth of july fireworks. Then for the first half of her teenage years she thinks of him as trucker music good ol boy music and is deeply condescending towards his music. Then she reads some interview or listens to some lyrics more closely and flips to being an equally passionate Bruce Defender. Because my baby girl is a condescending thousand year old brat and a hypocrite, she never acknowledges having ever held any other opinions <3 She says she loves him for his politics, but really she loves him for writing songs about longing for something More

Adam (another beloved case of cognitive dissonance) hates certain Bruce songs in particular because they're the ones that his dad (and men like his dad) listen to. Glory Days etc (honestly most songs off Born in the USA) he can't listen to. But he's also very much the sort of person who listens to the lyrics of, say, Nebraska. Streets of Philadelphia. Adam Raised a Cain. Brilliant Disguise. and thinks wow I'm probably the only person on earth who Gets what this song is about. Because teenagers <3

And finally Ronan! What Ronan (a guy whose music taste consists of traditional irish folk music and EDM) thinks of bruce springsteen is that he went back and forth about fifty times over whether or not to put I'm On Fire on his cringe mixtape for his cringe crush (hidden between renditions of cringe meme songs). He dreamed so many alternate versions of this mixtape that he's not 100% sure which tracklist ended up on the final copy, and it's possible (it's fact) that im on fire slipped through.

Bonus Gansey, who likes to cosplay as a country boy, wants Bruce's cover of Shenandoah to be his wedding song with Blue <3 (or possibly If I Should Fall Behind)

#hi bestie <3 #SO happy you're here for me in my moment of madness <3 #the raven cycle

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pretty little liars and the raven cycle!

Pretty Little Liars

will do show first then books :)

Show:

favorite character: Spencer Hastings!! Mona is a somewhat close second and I love all 6 of the main girls but Spencer is everything to me

least favorite character: Ezra Fitz. Byron Montgomery is in second place which makes sense as they are practically the same person 💀

brOTP: I’ll say Spanna even though I also like them romantically, and Spencer and Jason have a really interesting dynamic as siblings/foils that I appreciate a lot

OTP: Vandermarin and Spemily, Vandermarin’s probably #1 ultimately because they’re soo the canon love story of Pll… but Spemily is so underrated imo and it’s my favorite Spencer ship and Spencer’s my favorite character so that gives it something extra for me. 3rd place is Spencer x Mona

OT3: going to say Hanna/Mona/Alison is ultimately the most fascinating one to me in the narrative but I’m open to a lot of different poly combinations with this show

NOTP: I don’t like any of the main het pairings but especially not Ezria

favorite storyline: Spencer’s 3b arc and Spencer’s 4b arc I love when my fave is suffering and in a spiral it’s fascinating xd. 4b is probably my favorite section of the show period between the Spencer addiction plot (which definitely has it’s issues in the writing but Troian is just fantastic playing it), Shadow Play, the EzrA stuff and Aria’s processing which I find very engaging especially in She’s Come Undone, it’s also where Emily/Alison is most interesting to me because of the attention given to Emily processing her feelings (attention that it never given again after this :/) Hanna stepping into the role of detective more than Spencer and Spencer and Emily’s fights so a lot of interesting shifts in dynamics caused by them knowing Ali is alive now, Ali’s coded diary… I just love it in all it’s messiness xd.

least favorite storyline: Ezria and the deadnaming both were terrible. A lot of post time jump storylines

what I wish had happened but didn’t: Ezra going to jail, men being held accountable for literally anything, for the writers to care more or at all the last two seasons I think anything even slightly good that happens post time jump is thanks to the actors and not the writers and even most of them seemed tired

what happened that I wish hadn’t: Ezra/Aria endgame male chars being given unwarranted grace in general

Books

favorite character: Aria Montgomery she has a slight edge over Spencer if we’re going with book versions of the chars specifically.

least favorite character: Wren since Ezra is less relevant in the books

brOTP: Spencer and Hanna + Spencer and Emily

OTP: Aria x Noel and Aria x Emily

OT3: Aria/Courtney/Emily

NOTP: Spencer/Wren since Aria/Ezra is less relevant in the books

favorite storyline: Emily faking her own suicide to then hunt down Alison in the last book slayyy.

least favorite storyline: Spencer’s romantic storylines in the second half of the series why so many flops :/ and then the Wrencer endgame yuck

what I wish had happened but didn’t: I wish Hanna’s arc had been stronger in the second half of the series although I’m not a fan of her post jump arc in the show either so…

what happened that I wish hadn’t: Wrencer endgame ugh.

TRC

favorite character: Blue Sargent there was a time when I readily considered her my favorite character in anything full stop still one of my forever girls I adore her.. Adam Parrish is a close second love him to pieces <33

least favorite character: I don’t really have one, I’ll say Kavinsky but mostly because he’s overrated/his stans are insufferable, while I’m reading he works fine within the story (this is the same way I feel about the Darkling actually)

brOTP: Blue and Ronan, Calla and Persephone and Maura, The Gangsey as a group

OTP: Bluesey ultimately but also Adansey and also Pynch and also Blue x Noah I contain multitudes <3

OT3: there is a lot of poly shipping potential in this series… Blue x Gansey x Henry is practically canon and I love them but I also am very into Gansey x Blue x Noah and Adam x Gansey x Blue… and Ronan x Adam x Gansey is also good…

NOTP: Ronan x Kavinsky less because it’s toxic I’ve shipped worse more because again the fandom is annoying

favorite storyline: the entirety of Blue Lily Lily Blue there’s so much in that book I adore, Persephone mentoring Adam, Blue and Calla scenes and Blue’s internal conflict while her mother is missing, Gwenllian and her dynamic with Blue and learning more about mirror abilities/what Blue is, Adam’s character arc in that book in general, so many of my favorite Bluesey and Pynch scenes and Persephone’s death is a gut punch that really works and the title… I love it :).

least favorite storyline: the ending of TRK is kind of anticlimactic even though I still love it like the other books

what I wish had happened but didn’t: Blue’s arc to have better closure in book 4

what happened that I wish hadn’t: the whole Adam and Ronan being racist to Henry part :/

ty!

#asks #pll #pll books #Trc #s speaks #parijati #prev.juliablackthorns #mutuals

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