#saikikusukekin

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You know, the best part about being Kusuke was probably the fact that I got to die two or three times. Sounds weird, I know, but trust me: dying for only a little while is a super interesting experience.

Now though? I don't have a little brother that can rewind time or heal me or use some other psychic nonsense to save me. If I blew myself up for science I would just. Die. How boring, how dull. I want to jump in front of trains for enrichment again - Saiki Kusuke

(Disclaimer: I am mentally Fine. Just a bit sleep deprived)

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Sometimes I feel very embarrassed about my kinfessions because I know some people who kin Kusuo will see them and it's like. I don't want to make it weird for them. I'm sure they don't want to hear their big brother talk about them the way I do.

But I don't really have anywhere else to dump these feelings. I could just not share them, and bottle them up inside, but it's so hard not having anyone to talk to about these thoughts. Every time I'm in this shift they fill my head and I can't just make them go away.

It just sucks. This kin sucks - Saiki Kusuke

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I wish there were more Saiki K kins. I wouldn't interact with them because I'm an introverted freak, but seeing people from my source makes me feel comforted in a weird way. I wonder if that's just me - Saiki Kusuke

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This kin is really weird to me because I still have some of my old feelings but they're more... Detached than they were back them. Kinda like intrusive thoughts? But not really distressing, just somewhat odd.

More often than not it has to do with Kusuo. I'll see some fanart of my brother and my brain will quickly fill itself with Bad Thoughts™ (both the sexy and the violence type) but it's all in the background. Like they're not really my thoughts, just memories of what my thoughts used to be. If that makes sense?

I also sometimes get the thoughts about making machines, but less often. Occasionally when I look at my cats I'll think of Warp or the Cat Tank. Pretty funny - Saiki Kusuke

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Kinning older siblings that suck is the worst thing imaginable. Why would the kin gods forsake me like this - Dion Aquato and Saiki Kusuke

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All these horrible stories about the kin community has me feeling a lot better about not being very involved. I'm pretty introverted and have a few unpopular kins, so I typically don't interact much with other kins. I didn't think there were such shitty people in the community.

Thankfully, the two canonmates I'm friends with are great people. I didn't realize just how much I lucked out - Saiki Kusuke.

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Kin pet peeve: People referring to Kusuo as Saiki. I mean, it is his last name, and people in the source call him by it all the time. It's not weird or unusual or insulting... But as the other Saiki it annoys me a lot sometimes dhshshsjshdhdjsjaj.

Also I just really like his name. Kusuo. Why wouldn't you want to use it? It's the prettiest sound in the world - Saiki Kusuke.

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I worry sometimes that having this kin makes people see my other kins as tainted. Like, I have other canons in which I have siblings, and I had normal sibling relationships in all of them, but... Would one of my siblings from those canons reach out to me if I also have an incest canon?

Tbf, the only sourcemate I have right now is Kusuo (despite my many kinfessions about being profoundly in love with him in the past) so. Maybe that's a plus for some people, idk - Saiki Kusuke.

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My memories of this canon fucking suck, tbh. Mostly because of all the damn self harm and the one suicide attempt, but also because of what happened right after; Kusuo came to help me with both! He used his powers to cure me and went back in time to save me from myself after he found out I died! And what did my emotionally stunted ass do???

I thought "oh, this means I can use my life as leverage" like no, no, it MEANS he fucking CARES ABOUT YOU, which is WHAT YOU WANT. BE A GOOD BROTHER FOR ONCE. Look past your stupid self hate for two seconds and you'll realize it's your chance to fix shit.

Is it normal to want to snap your past self in half sometimes? Because I swear this canon makes me insane - Saiki Kusuke.

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For the offspring ask game: I genetically engineered myself a daughter a few years after canon. I planned on making a clone of myself at first, just as a baby, but eventually decided not to because it wouldn't be as satisfying and it wouldn't fulfill the weird family fantasy I had in my head.

Kusuo was surprisingly involved in her life- mostly because he didn't fully trust me to take care of a child, I assume. But it made me so happy to have him around often. It almost felt like he was her second dad... Which is exactly what I wanted. For Kusuo and I to raise a baby together, have a child of our own... It was perfect.

I don't know if my daughter is out there, but if she is, I hope she's doing well and that I didn't do as poor a job as I remember doing. I truly did love you, even if I wasn't really capable of showing it - Saiki Kusuke

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Occasionally I see ship art for Kusuo and Akechi but confuse Akechi for being me and it always makes me feel a certain way. It makes up for the lack of content between the two of us, at least... Though I always feel a little bad, since I'm sure the artists wouldn't be happy if they knew my thoughts - Saiki Kusuke.

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It's always so weird when I see Kusuo kins tolerating me, much less liking me. I mean, we were brothers and all, but also... *gestures vaguely at canon* you know? You know????

I mean I'm not judging! I'm very very glad for every Kusuo who likes me and hope they had a wonderful Kusuke (or at least one that was less of an asshole than I) but still. Damn - Saiki Kusuke

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anonymous said Nothing quite like finding ship art between me and Kusuo and scrolling through the comments that are all like "aren't they brothers" or "yikes ksy" <3I feed on spite back then and I still do. Like everytime I think I shouldn't ship us just because I liked Kusuo in that past life, the spite reels me back in. We're brothers and we're in love and you can't stop me 💕 - Saiki Kusuke.

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This shift makes me wish I was smarter. All of my life I've always been treated like I'm stupid, to the point that even as an adult my parents won't let me use the oven or an iron, much less teach me to drive, because apparently "I wouldn't be able to handle it". I want to be independent! I want to grow! I'm tired of being stifled and yet! Yet!

It just really sucks that I'm not the genius I was before. Back then, my parents respected my intelligence and they had faith that, at the very least, I'd be able to take care of myself. My parents in this life, though? Probably don't think I could ever live on my own.

And, to add insult to the injury, I also have a younger brother in this life who isn't treated like this!!! Hell, they say that he's brilliant. That he's talented and that they have big expectations for him. I hate it here - Saiki Kusuke.

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I don't want to say bad things about Teruhashi, because I was way worse than her in every way and thus don't have any room to criticize her, but... One thing I don't think I'll ever get over is her implying that Kusuo wasn't good enough for her. In front of me, no less, as if I would just agree with her looking down on my brother.

I mean, I sort of get it. He was trying to blend in and look average. But still! It's like she didn't even know Kusuo. They were supposed to be "friends", and yet she only ever bothered him because she wanted his attention to later break his heart. How was I supposed to play nice and not insult her? She deserved it! - Saiki Kusuke

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I don't particularly care about going into the tag and seeing people talk about how much they hate my guts and whatever; everyone has their own opinions and I'm extremely shitty ngl so I don't judge anyone that doesn't want anything to do with me.

I do, however, judge everyone who wants to do "rewrites" of my character and basically cuts off all my edge. Like... You could just pretend I don't exist, I'm really not that relevant of a character. And idk it just annoys me to no end when people try to make me all cookie-cutter and shit. I killed people. I wanted to have an incestuous relationship with my brother. I stalked, kidnapped and brainwashed someone. Let me be awful, please - Saiki Kusuke

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