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All these horrible stories about the kin community has me feeling a lot better about not being very involved. I'm pretty introverted and have a few unpopular kins, so I typically don't interact much with other kins. I didn't think there were such shitty people in the community.

Thankfully, the two canonmates I'm friends with are great people. I didn't realize just how much I lucked out - Saiki Kusuke.

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Kin pet peeve: People referring to Kusuo as Saiki. I mean, it is his last name, and people in the source call him by it all the time. It's not weird or unusual or insulting... But as the other Saiki it annoys me a lot sometimes dhshshsjshdhdjsjaj.

Also I just really like his name. Kusuo. Why wouldn't you want to use it? It's the prettiest sound in the world - Saiki Kusuke.

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I'll keep this short because. Honestly at this point im sure everyone was tired of hearing me talk

I wish more people would include me with the psykicks/psykids (heard people use both). I know I didn't have any special abilities but kusuo was my only friend ever and I felt. Sort of close with the other 2.

I'm just thinking too much. I'm kind of glad I didn't get much screentime, I. Kind of want to erase myself from existence

- akechi touma

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I worry sometimes that having this kin makes people see my other kins as tainted. Like, I have other canons in which I have siblings, and I had normal sibling relationships in all of them, but... Would one of my siblings from those canons reach out to me if I also have an incest canon?

Tbf, the only sourcemate I have right now is Kusuo (despite my many kinfessions about being profoundly in love with him in the past) so. Maybe that's a plus for some people, idk - Saiki Kusuke.

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My memories of this canon fucking suck, tbh. Mostly because of all the damn self harm and the one suicide attempt, but also because of what happened right after; Kusuo came to help me with both! He used his powers to cure me and went back in time to save me from myself after he found out I died! And what did my emotionally stunted ass do???

I thought "oh, this means I can use my life as leverage" like no, no, it MEANS he fucking CARES ABOUT YOU, which is WHAT YOU WANT. BE A GOOD BROTHER FOR ONCE. Look past your stupid self hate for two seconds and you'll realize it's your chance to fix shit.

Is it normal to want to snap your past self in half sometimes? Because I swear this canon makes me insane - Saiki Kusuke.

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My kin phobia is mind reading, for what I think are obvious reasons. I mean, I love Kusuo, but having someone know what I thought about 24/7 was legit anxiety inducing. I had intrusive thoughts all the time and having someone criticize me just for having them even though I never acted on or talked about them was literal hell.

I mean, I don't blame Kusuo for it, because he was a kid and couldn't possibly have understood why I would randomly think of stabbing my classmates or ripping up my nails but... I could've used a bit more mental health support and a lot less "what the hell is wrong with you?" in my childhood - Saiki Kusuke

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It's always so weird when I see Kusuo kins tolerating me, much less liking me. I mean, we were brothers and all, but also... *gestures vaguely at canon* you know? You know????

I mean I'm not judging! I'm very very glad for every Kusuo who likes me and hope they had a wonderful Kusuke (or at least one that was less of an asshole than I) but still. Damn - Saiki Kusuke

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anonymous said Nothing quite like finding ship art between me and Kusuo and scrolling through the comments that are all like "aren't they brothers" or "yikes ksy" <3I feed on spite back then and I still do. Like everytime I think I shouldn't ship us just because I liked Kusuo in that past life, the spite reels me back in. We're brothers and we're in love and you can't stop me 💕 - Saiki Kusuke.

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This shift makes me wish I was smarter. All of my life I've always been treated like I'm stupid, to the point that even as an adult my parents won't let me use the oven or an iron, much less teach me to drive, because apparently "I wouldn't be able to handle it". I want to be independent! I want to grow! I'm tired of being stifled and yet! Yet!

It just really sucks that I'm not the genius I was before. Back then, my parents respected my intelligence and they had faith that, at the very least, I'd be able to take care of myself. My parents in this life, though? Probably don't think I could ever live on my own.

And, to add insult to the injury, I also have a younger brother in this life who isn't treated like this!!! Hell, they say that he's brilliant. That he's talented and that they have big expectations for him. I hate it here - Saiki Kusuke.

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I don't want to say bad things about Teruhashi, because I was way worse than her in every way and thus don't have any room to criticize her, but... One thing I don't think I'll ever get over is her implying that Kusuo wasn't good enough for her. In front of me, no less, as if I would just agree with her looking down on my brother.

I mean, I sort of get it. He was trying to blend in and look average. But still! It's like she didn't even know Kusuo. They were supposed to be "friends", and yet she only ever bothered him because she wanted his attention to later break his heart. How was I supposed to play nice and not insult her? She deserved it! - Saiki Kusuke

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I don't particularly care about going into the tag and seeing people talk about how much they hate my guts and whatever; everyone has their own opinions and I'm extremely shitty ngl so I don't judge anyone that doesn't want anything to do with me.

I do, however, judge everyone who wants to do "rewrites" of my character and basically cuts off all my edge. Like... You could just pretend I don't exist, I'm really not that relevant of a character. And idk it just annoys me to no end when people try to make me all cookie-cutter and shit. I killed people. I wanted to have an incestuous relationship with my brother. I stalked, kidnapped and brainwashed someone. Let me be awful, please - Saiki Kusuke

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we're talking kin jobs? Kusuo working at the starbucks, what food crimes will they commit? (hint: it's dunking my chips in iced coffee) - Saiki Kusuo (#tiredpsychic👁💖)

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it makes me sad that like, everytime i see a kaidou shun post, theyre looking for everyone but me. like, i miss you :( but its ok!! he's going to talk to me eventually! im sure he's just scouting things out -toki kaidou

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Happy Father's Day dad. I'm sorry I was so dismissive of you all the time, but I really do love you, even when you were incredibly annoying. -Saiki Kusou

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Why am I miserable all the time. Why is this kinshift always so intense. Why does it do this shit to me - Saiki Kusuke

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Fun fact about my canon: Those flashbacks of my as a child with blonde hair? Pure bullshit. I was born with brown hair like dad. It's just that, once Kusuo was born with his cool and shiny pink hair, I felt sort of boring. Like, I was born a prodigy, but he was so special that the universe decided to mark him as important with his cute colored hair? What the hell?

Anyway, I had a breakdown in the bathroom when I was like eight after a particularly rough loss and just made DIY hair bleach to look better. It didn't turn out perfect because I did it in a rush and didn't have the necessary products so it turned out a dirty blonde instead of a more white-ish color, but I decided to just go with it. I made a promise to myself that I'll make it look better once I earned it by defeating Kusuo.

...That never happened. So I continued to bleach it badly on purpose as a mark of being a failure. And then being a failure just became part of my identity, so I stopped planning on ever changing it. So yeah, that's... A lot to unpack. Thanks, memories - Saiki Kusuke.

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