#she left for a number of years

[coyote-catcher]

one thing i actually really like about star stable (and wanna embrace more in my own lore building stuff in my brain) is that it doesn't actually matter at all where your character came from, just that they're on jorvik now

#and it's exemplified in other characters too #and like with nova specifically #she left for a number of years #and essentially broke contact with all of her connections on jorvik #even her horses #but for the most part they welcomed her back as if she had never left #i think it's something that can be heartwarming on the surface and also a little bit sinister? #and surreal #it adds to the isolated and bizarre atmosphere on jorvik #where on the surface everything is quite warm and pleasant #but a lot of the juicy stuff in star stable for me comes from exploring like #what it means to not fit into the culture on jorvik #or what happens when someone embraces the isolation that the culture exemplifies with its unique equestrian relationships #like the hermit #or the vala #idk #these r just my thots #star stable online #nova snowfoot #ssoblr

[natjennie]

I need everyone to watch this right now please

#something about dorky british women is sooo #to me. #like she's my ideal woman #and shes only 4 years older than me wait omg #hello molly rose please call me #the faux bravado of 'the other kids didnt like me so i left' #then her demonstration of her moves #the casual reveal of 'sniffing em and stuff' #then sully's high-pitched 'sniffing em and stuff??' #ive noticed in a couple videos sully seems to find molly rose really funny #i think that's sweet #her response when jon asks if she really sniffed other kids #'yea yea yea' 'did you?' 'no.' 'did you-' 'maybe 🤪' #the immediate 'i dont think it was in a dojo' #the callback to joking about her being 27 #i love you nrb #no rolls barred #molly rose treves my number is-

[gideonisms]

you know after one has not been a part of a religion for 10 years some might think "damn guess it wasn't for her! Oh well" and move on.

#whyyyy do you want me to get back together with my toxic ex i left 10 years ago #while we're complaining about xtianity kgjhnnj #an old family friend i went out to lunch with a couple of months ago recently sent a letter which is nice! she does that from time to time #but she was like 'i want you to have space to ask questions about religion to people who aren't family here's my number' #idk can we just be friends who catch up sometimes? #i've asked the questions how fortunate for me there were straightforward answers in my case #actually hang on. do you think i can deconvert her or would that be mean

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Oh god.

This summer you sent our mutual friend a package, to get to me. An heirloom, a bit of camp history. Passed down to me.

And on that package, your phone number and address. Your phone number, that I had long deleted from my phone because the urge to call you was always too strong.

When I last saw you in person, you said that when you finally moved to the city it would be with your girlfriend. You would move in together. And surely, she would become your fiancee and then your wife.

There it is. On the package. Your new address, in the city.

I have to keep myself from calling you right now. You probably have my number blocked, and I truly don't know what I'd do if you answered. But I would give anything to hear your voice again.

Even if it's just you saying, "Hello? Who is this?" While her voice is in the background, asking you what you want for dinner.

At this point, I don't even need to be the voice in the background asking what you want for dinner.

I just wish I could be the voice on the other end of your phone call.

#idk if this made sense. its 4am #but storytime i guess #years ago. like four now. i had a best friend #i loved her so much. truly i was in love with her. which was the problem #she had a girlfriend. im sure you can guess where this is going #she cheated on her gf with me. i felt guilty and made her tell her gf. months later but better late than never i guess #her gf made her choose between us. understandable. she chose her gf. understandable #so i got a call one night from her. where she said we could never speak again. we couldnt be in each others lives. and i deserved that #it still killed me though. it still kills me. i havent recovered #but this past summer she sent a package to our mutual friend. for me #just something from the camp we both work at. and there on the package was her phone number and address #two years after she left me she volunteered at the camp i worked at and she used to woek at #we ended up talking. and being friends for that one last week. and she mentioned that she wanted to marry her gf #and move in with her. in the city. so when i saw her city address... yeah #i took a picture of her number and address before throwing away the package. something i remembered tonight #its just sitting in my camera roll. her number and address #and i could never call her. never send her a letter #idk what the point of this storytime was #but this is some half decent writing for 4am #i hope you enjoyed

[zincbot]

god. ame suvi and eursulon drive me insane. characters of all time

#suvi's story where i can see that ahead of her she is going to have to grapple with something that changes her whole worldview #and it's going to be the hardest thing she's ever done #but i think suvi now can see it too #but is working hard to direct her thoughts away from it #and ame. she wants to understand and she understands a lot. but she's also so afraid to lose what she has left. that she backs down. #she apologizes and backpedals and gives her friends what they ask for even if she can tell its not what they want #and eursulon. his rolls are hilariously bad in a way that really cements how everything has gone wrong for him forever #he sees this opportunity to finally make himself into what he lost everything to be. but years of failure and running and loss have made him #very very hurt. and his quest for greatness. to become a knight. to hold a quest. to protect. #it's maybe all he has. and sometimes it doesn't feel like he really has anything at all. #worlds beyond number #eursulon #suvi #ame #the wizard the witch and the wild one

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

should i wish my ex closest friend who is also kinda my ex a happy birthday

#it's tomorrow #i hate noticing the date i wish i would have not realised it until it passed #i don't think i will i even deleted her number so the only way to reach her would be over tumblr #she won't care right she doesn't think about me it's been a year since we talked and 2 since she left this town forever

[cuteniaarts]

Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way. #so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

[terrorbirb]

Our work cafeteria is dead silent. Like worse than a library tbqh. Why do people keep telling me to come here? And there are like 12 people here.

There are microwaves, but no sinks. Just a water dispenser. I don't know if there are trash cans? There are no napkins offered.

#totes bro #sometimes government building unreality really sets in #the other place i kept up the entire building #now here i dont do any cleaning #so the spaces continue to be foreign #the idea and why people take this job is to stay in it forever so they pay you a pension and 25k down on a house and other benefits #but understand when people say 'when you get to your twentieth year here you can have them pay for more schooling' #is somewhat scary #now you may know i stayed in the worst job for 5 years which is a long time #so lets see if i can make it #i used to want to leave my home city for a number of reasons #but this is not my wife's home city so she left #and shes so sick we couldn't move anyway

[ansburg]

people be like "damn it's fucked up that milk and eggs are 700% of normal price. anyway prepare to vote for biden"

#like. you do understand there's a whole ass year of campaigning debates and policy discussion to be had before that right. right #yes the democratic establishment will push biden as the incumbent if not kamala but you SHOULD be hoping that progressives #such as marianne williamson do get traction (and btw she is polling at 10% now which is huge #bc not even bernie had those numbers at this point in the game when he ran in 2016) #bc progressives on the stage - even if they don't WIN - push the needle left #bc they are running on popular movements which would otherwise get shafted as impossible #like the $15 minimum wage. college debt forgiveness. literally anything that has had populist support LMAO #like i swear to god. get your heads out of the sand and start dreaming bigger than the hellhole you think we're stuck with #politics cw

[born-to-lose]

Oh I forgot I went to a black/dark metal concert last Friday (or well. I worked behind the bar that night so I pretty much only heard them but didn't see the stage), anyways check out Eisregen and Maahes if you like that kind of music

#i'll be real i'm generally not super into black metal but maahes had some good riffs and the guys were so friendly and happy to be here #eisregen is more dark metal but pretty cool and elektro hexe was stuck in my head for two days after #they left the backstage area so tidy too when i went there to clean up (said area is so cool btw omg part of it used to be a dungeon) #the fans were so sweet and one of them was eye fucking me every time he ordered but i was too stressed/awkward to ask him for his number #he looked like a hot viking 😫😫 maybe next year i'll see him again at the ragnarök afterparty #a middle aged metalhead lady called me adorable and tipped me a lot and invited me to have shots with her 🥺🥺 i love women #she had snakebite piercings and stretched ears and had tattoos and was wearing a battle vest 😳😳 that night was bi panic #oh and i didn't have the time to take a selfie but i was wearing my bodom after midnight shirt with a longsleeve underneath and black jeans #mel talks #the bartender chronicles

[parappa-the-killer]

psychiatrists will be like "hell yeah i have work today. i will be telling patients they have persecutory delusions right to their face (which according to online snowflakes might be suboptimal but im a doctor so its fine) when they tell me something that's quite plausible and i don't have any proof that it isn't true other than the fact they're in a looney bin so they're certainly a looney"

#tim.pdf #like. yeah sure i willingly left home as an unemployed uneducated 18 year old because i was convinced my mother kicked me out. #and she definitely was good to me always but for some reason didn't try to reach out to me after i left. makes perfect since. #i blocked her number in dissociative fugue so i can live in the delusion that she doesn't like me that much. which is a thing that happens. #good fucking lord why are shrinks like that

[agents-are-dicks]

Me being a bitch (waayyy more drama in tags):

Decided to stop all the petty shit and actually text my cousin to explain things and have an actual conversation and the bitch laughed at me so I’m officially done with her royal highness

#ps. maybe don’t be a bitch to the person who pays for your streaming services 👍 #talking shit about me is fine but my mother?!? sweetie you don’t deserve the nights she’s wasted worrying about you #idk why I’m even explaining things at all #I left her alone for months and then she has to go and acuse me of something I didn’t even know happened #like??? I hadn’t been on Netflix since new years but sure I deleted your Netflix profile but left your Hulu alone #ya figured me out. I’m an evil mastermind *mwhahaha* #and then to drag it out via Netflix names bc you can’t just ducking text me??? #I was trying to be an adult and distance myself and she just drags me back into the drama #at least my mom knows I’m innocent #even tried leaving thing on a positive note via Netflix #told her to text my mother sometime bc (despite me thinking she’d a total bitch) my mom still cares about her #and she had to get all sassy like “she has my number 💅” #yeah and ya know what? you have hers #funny how she uses it to check in on you and you don’t reply till you need something #funny thing is my brother told me she and her baby daddy have been fighting more and more #I hope one day she wakes up and realizes her sucked her dry and now has no one to turn to bc she made sure to bitch them all away #sweetie I tried being there for you but I can’t be there for someone who makes it very clear they wish I was never there in the first place #enjoy tearing your vagina in two for someone you gave up your entire personality for #and before any of y’all come here saying “we’ll if she cut everyone off and made her entire personality about him maybe she’s being abused” #she was in an emotionally fragile state when they met- her mother had just died #and it’s our understand that she decided it was easier to purge herself/life of anything that reminded her of her pain/old life #it’s very evident when you look at her behavior #that being said she’s always been a bitch #I had to stop attending holidays at one point simply bc she didn’t want me there (I was 11) #couldn’t wear her hand-me-downs around her bc she’d make it clear I wasn’t pretty enough to wear them #oh and she tried to fight me in the chilis parking lot after church when I was nine #bc my grandpa opened the car door for me instead of her #amazing how just two years ago I was hoping we could finally be friends

[fckpostal]

my shin burns????? what????

anyway tumblr doesn’t have any of the silly sparkly good night gifs im so sad rn (there’s an explanation, it’s just an inside joke w my sister HELP)

#cw for drugs idk if anyone needs it but hey #so #me n my sister used to get high together back in 2021 a lot and one night my ex fp’s (bpd shit) gf messaged me saying he cheated on me #BTW WHEN SHE TOLD ME WAS A YEAR AFTER WE DATED. but anyway #so i had just like fully healed from that shit (first & last fp breakup it was horrific) i still had his number bc yk i was a lil silly #so like. me and my sister got high and shit and i came across a post on ig that was like ‘good night sweet dreams’ w like that glitter text #we PISSED ourselves at it bc yk being high anything is funny and then i had the genius idea of ‘oh what if i sent ex these images like- #-every morning and every night’ and my sister was like fucking do it so i did it for around 4 months shit was entertaining #he always left it on read. + i made the good morning one #i’ll post the good morning one in a reblog #it’s beautiful #ok thanks bye bye gn oomfies

[ex-furry]

the way people do not realize how traumatizing it is to have a sick parent is baffling to me

#the reactions to that (probably fake) aita post that's making the rounds on twitter are soooo..... #''why couldn't a five-year-old just go to the hospital and see her sick mom?'' #number one thing is germs #number two. we didn't think it was a good idea to let my little cousins see my mom when she was dying because having to see someone #you love in that state is horrifying #having a sick parent permanently changes you. a kid with a sick parent would likely want opportunities to feel like their life is normal #i know i did #god dude. so many people have no idea how fucking lucky they are #also when my mom was in the hospital on my 13th birthday getting her transplant we still left and did a few things #like not much but we still got out #we would always try to do stuff when she was in dialysis so she wouldn't miss us #but we still needed to get out. this last time in the hospital the nurses were practically begging my dad to get out for a few hours #they just don't understand how this shit works and it's astonishing because it's all i've known for so much of my life

[thedeadthree]

EVERY SINGLE SONG ON VIKAS PLAYLIST MADE IT INTO MY TOP FIVE SONGS YOURE THE WINNING GIRL MY DEAR

#happy wrapped day! 🤍🕯 #THIS MEANS I CAN REBLOG THE WRAPPED OC SHORT FIC ASK GAMEE ✨😌🤍🤍 #and congrats to health my beloved for making my top artist this year for the second year in a row 🤍😌 #the w*eeknd has been a staple of my top five artists for YEARS 🤍🤍 good to know he still is <3! #its likely dynasties and dystopia from the arcane soundtrack 🤍🤍 #and also that i took my brother to his concert this year for his birthday? #russian fairytale is VIKAS SONG congrats babe! #she really said EHEM reminding me who THE queen of the mountain is ✨😤🤍😌 #loves in my mind rent free ordering luxury room service etc etc #listen im doing vindameas playthrough in s * #s*kyrim but I MISS HER #her walking back to sit on her throne as queen of the mountain ksjsjxjx #and the icon miss meg in my top five..! icon! icon! #t: about leg #leg.txt #the left one for the number one corpo rich bitch 🤍🤍❄️😌 #im so excited for the dlc i miss the queenie girl IMMENSELY

[fly-sky-high-09]

Not to complain about the system for a 1000th time but like

The hospital mom was in and doing tests before her upcoming surger have forgotten?? She was already on the observation there?? At the hospital?? For almost a week??

They called her in this morning to come and stay at the hospital for the said testing and observation. And she was like "i'm not doing that. I was there in march and did my tests. What i need is for you to tell me when to check in for my heart holter readings, it's been two weeks??"

And the nurse was so confused, told her reading is not done and hung up

???

At least mom is finding this funny and I'm just like. Nervous I need to place her well being in their hands. If they don't even know what the hell she's suppose to go through still.

#even worse they kept getting her phone number wrong #and using a system entered number from ages ago #as in her old work number #she left work 3 years ago...... #and then rudely claim she's not picking up phone #and she had to remind them TWICE that's not her number and give them the real one #so it's nice they finally got it to call her for this but #how do they not see in the said files that she did all tests aside from mri #like damn