#so I don’t have to repeat myself

[twopoppies]

Different anon-

I do not believe harry is with Taylor even 0.0001%.. because it’s clear atleast for me that Harry is not straight neither Bi.. its just it’s becoming too much for me to believe that HL are together.. after seeing grown up relationships and people around, wanting to truly believe that HL when they spend half of their time oceans separating them, and knowing ppl wouldn’t put that much effort moreover in their field.. I’ve seen all your responses and India’s too .. i want to believe those because i like those kind of relationships and may be because we all do and have seen both boys going through something so beautiful together.. its just few things that happened last year made me think all i was assuming was just that.. just if you don’t mind can you tell me what you think of B being only person from H team(band or crew) on the yacht full of couples and being invited to brit and H posting his pic on valentines day.. am not sure if you’ve seen this before i kind of asked similar thing when it happened, i don’t think you responded, ‘cause may be you’ve missed the ask or you did not wanted to.. but yea just these when it happened i thought may be harry has moved on.. no intention of annoying you, you are my favourite person here, not just saying for the sake of it, hope it does not come across that way..just wanted to take this moment to say i really appreciate all that you do😇

Hi, sugar. Here’s the thing. I really have no idea if they’re still together these days. I’ve said often that there are moments that make me think yes, they are. There are song lyrics that make me think yes, they are. And there are a lot of questions about other things that make me feel that they’re not. I go back and forth.

But I’ve always said that what I want most for them is for them to be happy. If they’re happier apart, then that’s the way it is. The idea of that makes me sad, but it’s not my relationship and I’m not here to convince people they’re together.

However, I can say that there’s absolutely nothing about Brad that makes me think they were dating/hooking up etc. There was a much sexual energy between the two of them as between Harry and a stick of wood. I do think Harry’s team was very aware of fandom chatter and they probably played it up at times. For me, Brad’s existence has absolutely zero bearing on whether I think Harry and Louis are together. I can’t tell you how to feel about it. But if you think it was a relationship, it’s pretty clear it isn’t anymore as he appears to have moved to Los Angeles.

Thank you for all the sweet words, love. I really appreciate it. ❤️

#I suppose I should tag this #so I don’t have to repeat myself #current thoughts on Larry #Brad Gould

[atopvisenyashill]

This Is How I Can Still Win: How The Penroses Are Related to House Targaryen

SO. In case you don’t remember - you probably don’t, it’s a throwaway line and likely just George retconning and not doing it on purpose - Jeor Mormont misremembers Aelinor Penrose as being Aerys I’s sister instead of her cousin. Here’s the quote, from Jon I in A Clash of Kings:

"No, this was Aerys the First. The one Robert deposed was the second of that name.” “How long ago was this?” “Eighty years or close enough,” the Old Bear said, “and no, I still hadn’t been born, though Aemon had forged half a dozen links of his maester’s chain by then. Aerys wed his own sister, as the Targaryens were wont to do, and reigned for ten or twelve years."

Potentially, this means that Aelinor has ~the Valyrian look~ and that’s why Jeor got them mixed up. But when you look at the information surrounding the Penroses that existed in this era, it looks a little wonky because of this line from The Mystery Knight:

"At the crossing of the Mandel, he cut down the sons of Lady Penrose one by one. They say he spared the life of the youngest one as a kindness to his mother."

So how can Elaena marry Ronnel, Lord of the Parchments, only have one son, yet Quentyn Ball slew all of “Lady Penrose’s” sons? How is Aelinor related to the Penroses and the Targaryens? What woman of Targaryen blood would marry into this random ass house in the middle of Stormlands? Why was it so important to retcon Aelinor from a sister into a cousin? Well - let’s have a think about what other houses have recent Valyrian blood…we have some female lines after all…perhaps even Targaryen women that married into politically active houses, who would love to marry back into the main branch again…I wonder who that could be…..Oh what’s that? Is that-

DRAGON TWINS TIME.

Allow me to spin two family trees for you, one where Rhaena’s daughter marries into the Penroses, and one where Baela’s daughter marries into the Penroses:

(pls applaud me for the amount of math i did for this very unserious post!) green is a romantic/marriage line, black is a parental relationship.

I am noting that this would mean Alyssa (I made her name up btw, mostly because I thought it would piss Daemon off to have a Hightower named after his beloved mother) gives birth at around 34, which is a perfectly reasonable age to have a child at, and Laena gives birth at like 40, which is definitely a lil risky! BUT there’s plenty of time for Laena to have other children, and for a second born son to have had a child at that same age, so if you think it’s a stretch for Laena to have a kid at 40 (perfectly fair) just pretend there’s a son there named “Roland” or something as Aelinor’s dad and Laena’s second born.

Now, FIRST OF ALL, this makes the cousin thing make sense, but also it makes it deeply funny - Aelinor is Aerys’ great aunt’s granddaughter. That’s a close enough relationship that you would consider them a cousin but it’s also the exact relationship Robert has to Rhaegar (because Rhaegar is Robert’s great uncle’s grandson). Both Aerys and Robert avoiding incest/kinslaying on a technicality lol.

But SECOND OF ALL. Do you know what makes me absolutely fucjing feral about this. Alyn Velaryon is messing around with a woman so much younger than him. That she marries his GRANDSON. because SHE IS THE SAME AGE AS HIS GRANDSON. i feel like george is weird enough to do the Baela scenario too.

And LASTLY OF ALL. Notice there’s plenty of time for Alyssa/Laena aka Lady Penrose after she’s married, to have several sons for Quentyn Ball to slay on the Redgrass Field, including Elaena’s husband, Ronnel himself, and for Elaena’s son, Robin Penrose, to inherit the seat afterwards. It also means, since it’s mentioned that Elaena married Michael Manwoody soon after her second husband died, that the two of them got a long time together. Why is this important? Because Michael Manwoody was her marriage for love and I want Elaena to have been with him for a long time.

This scenario gives her like 9 years with Ronnel (kinda sad, their kids don’t get to know their dad very long) and a minimum of 15 years with Michael Manwoody, who is apparently not the step dad but the dad that stepped up.

#me giving myself ronnel/elaena feelings for no goddamn reason making this akskkd. also used show casting but its book canon. #valyrianscrolls #elaena targaryen #aelinor penrose #michael manwoody #rhaena of pentos #baela targaryen #rhaena targaryen #aerys i targaryen #ronnel penrose #house penrose #getting on my soap box #rani attempts meta #i realize this is basically a secret targaryen theory. but the targaryens they're descended from are THE DRAGON TWINS so its fine #also don’t talk to me about the aerys fancast. yes it’s wwe superstar sami zayn. what about it. #i wanted to fancast someone with some sort of swana heritage that could pass for white. had a bitch of a time not repeating anyone from my #dornish graphic. gave up and threw in my man sami bc he’s a white passing syrian icon. #i'm otherwise very proud of these fancasts. if we ever get the blackfyre rebellion and elaena isn't played by kylie bunbury #i'm gonna be disappointed now lol. also if you are wondering yes the aelinor and ronnel in the rhaena graphic have one (1) black grandparen #alfred molina is probably too sexy to play aegon iv but mark addy is already robert so. #also the longwaters sigil is from the asoiaf rp wiki bc i didn't want to give them a velaryon one #bc fuck alyn that's why #echoes of sansa and arya

[fatestitcherr]

i am so sleeby ausghhsh

#if i get through today without a breakdown it’ll be a miracle #i’m seeing friends but also #it’s literally a competition so i’m gonna get judged #realised that’s what i like about my friends. no judgement we r all as weird as each other and we don’t have to prove anything #i’ll be okay just gotta believe in myself #seeing besties tonight and we r having cuddle pile:))) #n i know there’s a fic coming out soon which im so excited for #i know what i need. jawbone the guidance counselor #k time to repeat his speech to adaine in my head #however fuckin wild it is it actually helps #i have a goddamn medical condition and it is okay #hoooooo boi #let’s do this

[rapidhighway]

I didn’t go to sculpture again……

#please please please I have anxiety I have a mental illness #I can’t make myself go there it’s hell idk why I’m just so nervous every time I make myself feel sick #and then I get another excuse not to go becuase I literally feel like I’m gonna throw up #I’m not going to pass if I don’t start going there……. #and I cannot handle repeating a semester #I live in fear #and it doesn’t help that I have intermedia class later today which is my second greatest enemy and just as dreadful #banging head on the table #I need to be wrapped in a blanket and go to sleep forever #god even if I go there I’m never going to be able to come up to my prof and talk to him about my project I get physically I’ll at the #slightest suggestion from my friends that I should finally do it #everyone’s done it already #I will literally cry if anyone talks to me #the profs just intimidate me so badly I feel like they hate me #and everyone says they’re super nice but I can’t make myself believe ittttt they will eat me alive #but if I never go I won’t pass the class and repeating the semester will cost money #pleas I have the stupid project idea ready but I just can’t do it I’ve thought about just emailing them and doing it all through email but #I couldn’t do that either I’m just in panic mode instantly #so yeah I’m just venting not asking ppl for solutions 😶✌️ I just don’t want to text my friend again bc I’ve been putting way too much on #them #they do practically everything for me anyway bc I can’t do shit by myself #uh ok I just need to put this SOMEWHERE #I’m gonna curl up and draw metal or whatever #ugh I know I’m making things worse by not coming #but I can’t make myself I just cant I’m gonna have an anxiety attack ✌️ #no one look at me #I being sensitive and vulnerable here

[foxgloveinspace]

I did what I always do when I get this storm anxiety and I watched goofy videos and reels all day and today ha get like three days and also I’m just so so so stressed about tomorrow night cause my whole family is gonna be split up around the county and I’m so so…. Not ok.

#very much so #uuugh #I hate tornadoes so freaking much. #would feel better if we had a storm shelter of ANY KIND but the closest we have is the half basement in my aunts hous (in the same yard as #us) but like!! NOTHING HERE. we live in a tiny ass trailer house!!! #I’m gonna fucking vomit. #and of course no one actually takes me seriously #like they are predicting SOFT BALL SIZE HAIL. not even tornadoes this time is the main worry 🥎 size hail. #uuuuuuugh. I think most everyone in the family will be home….. when it hits….. but fuck dude I think my sister will still be at work and #she is the BIGGEST liability in this shit thunderstorms do NOT scare her at all and I HATE IT. #and by that I don’t me ‘she doesn’t worry’ I MEAN SHE STANDS OUT ON OUR METAL FRONT PORCH AND WATCHES THEM. #she’s crazy!!!! #I know I’m just….. repeating myself a lot but I’m so terrified you guys. #I don’t think anything will happen and yet…. this is so scary to me #and I’m just…. it’s the first time in a while we’ve been directly in the Bad Zone and it’s so so scary

[theworstcreature]

���Don’t overthink it one day at a time kid add up the days you got someone to do life with”

“Don’t overthink it it’s not fuckin science add up the days you got someone to do life with”

“Love isn’t big kid it’s little and quiet”

I think about these particular lines so damn much I’m so glad that song exists

#like sometimes my brain will take little snips of a line #like you’ll catch me falling ass over monkey into the pit of despair and overthinking and awfulness #and then I’ll just hear “don’t overthink it it’s not fuckin science’ just like repeating in the back of my head #and this usually makes me realize that yeah #what the fuck am I over-analyzing this one particular thing or thought #why am I making my own hypothesis about others or myself #it’s NOT fucking science #(unless ofc it overthinking about something relating to science like how i have so many misssing assignments in that class and-) #yeah then it’s not terribly helpful #I get that isn’t what the songs about like at all #but hey man if it stops the stupid ass speeding train that is my brain then who am I to complain

[venusssss01]

little tiny psa. If you overstep with me or ignore my boundaries, you will be blocked. I do not care who you are, how long I’ve spoken to you, you will be blocked. I cannot and will not light myself on fire to keep anyone warm anymore, it isn’t my job.

also, pls don’t try any stuff with me, I have a very lovely partner who I will not be sharing/leaving anyone for or anything like that. Thank you xo

#tiny psa #putting this out there now so I don’t have to keep repeating myself.

[babyfairy]

i think i just need to lower my expectations and start treating everyone around me the exact way they treat me so i can stop having to re-draw boundaries and re-explain how i feel every 3 seconds

#it’s like no one gives enough of a fuck to listen the first time around. and it’s consistently too like why am i having to repeat myself #on a constant basis #i don’t expect people to like remember every fine detail about me #but like idk i just feel like my words fall on deaf ears a lot. why am i so easy to like brush off or ignore #makes me feel like i’m boring or i’ve done something wrong lol

[knight-commander]

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#having horrible oc funk #I feel like. I am constantly having to make my ocs palatable or accommodating #and if I make them appear in ways I like or that represent me #they are.. criticized #and I don’t think I’m above criticism #but I do think that something I’m making for myself should be left alone #simultaneously #I feel so bad about this that I am #on the verge of deleting all evidence of my ocs from everywhere lol #no one can see them no one can judge them #I’m just so miserable lol #it’s not even about being palatable to strangers #but I feel like my friends are judging me #like yeah sorry I have repeat themes or styles #it’s my brain😭?? #I just. I should never make an oc again #I’m feeling so poorly about this :’) #I wish the comments from people would stop >> about my oc designs #and to an extent the changes I make about them #maybe I should just. Leave the internet lol #seems like a good a time as any

[catastrxblues]

hi so i just finished bridge to terabithia and now i’m unwell and my eyes are red because i’ve been crying before i’d even reached 20 minutes of it for i actually knew what was going to happen and by the time i reached an hour something something i just straight up sobbing screaming into my pillow. and now it’s 12 am and i’m still thinking about them. because god, look at them, how they were, the little world they lived in, wouldn’t you just love that, to run away, to escape, to grasp that childhood naivety and innocence that you lost a long time ago, to feel the sun in your skin and the air in your lungs and to paint fantasies and laugh and play and run hidden away from the world and find an old run down tree house and decided to make it your own little shelter and pin up canvases on the worn wood and paint and let your creativity goes wild and have someone understand you and gets you and do it with you, and wouldn’t you just love to have something so constant, so sincere, so genuine, so pure, so real, that there wasn’t anything else. if i knew i was going to cry this much, if i knew how much space this movie would make in my life, i wouldn’t have started this movie tonight. i would have been in peace on the floor of my room, not realizing how badly i actually want something like this even though i would never unironically admit this to anyone in my life or even myself when i’m outside of the familiar place of my mind, for that matters

#bridge to terabithia #how am i supposed to recover #i wasn’t planning to write a paragraph about it but yeah i kinda love this movie i guess #i needed a good cry and the universe didn’t stop me from choosing this movie i don’t know if that’s nice or simply mean #i was going to watch la la land after this but that’s not gonna happen now #i’m not reading back what i wrote otherwise i would just delete it because i’d think this movie deserves better more coherent thoughts #and i’d say that i’d just rewrite it tomorrow but then i wouldn’t #because nothing would ever beat the “everything i create has to be great or nothing” in me #and i never am proud of what i made unless it’s supposedly only for my viewing #so i actually don’t know if what i just wrote make sense but yeah #my eyes feel so weird right now #also the ending was definitely up to interpretations!! (spoiler alert* just in case) #i myself personally like to believe he dreamed up the last 30 minutes of it and didn’t even go to the museum #and so he’ll just wake up definitely shocked but then still find leslie in her house who was just about to meet him so they could go!! #and because the rope was cut off by the lightning from last night they decide to build the bridge so everyone could cross safe and sound!! #i like my ending better they really should change it #but no all and all the end was really beautiful #even though it took me maybe even an hour to get through it because i keep sobbing and have to repeat over and over to hear what they said #yeah okay anyways sorry for the rant<3 #i’m not sure what this is #but glad i could get it off my chest #let’s see how to tag how to tag #movies #just #childhood #whatever <3 #nadirants

[lilypixels]

I had seen it was simblr gratitude day(?) and wanted to make a little post before I went to bed :3

I wish I could tag everyone, but I’d be here forever and fearing I forgot anyone. Maybe that sounds like an excuse but I for real wish I could tag everyone I follow, especially mutuals.

I just want everyone to know, no matter how present I am or not at a time, I truly do appreciate everyone I have ever interacted with in any way! It’s been a ride for sure, but I love the creativity that flourishes in this community and am in awe everyday. I count myself lucky to have encountered the number of wonderful people I have in this lifetime, you have each had an impact and I cherish it.

Whether we’ve known each other for awhile now or have only recently begun to interact, I am grateful for your existence crossing mine and look forward to more interactions 💖

Thank you, happy holidays, take care of yourselves!!

#txt post #:D #I got tagged like two times and that’s only reason I knew about this lol #shoutout to raiiny and deen hehe #I wanted to try tagging everyone #but it’s happened before where I’ve realized I forgot someone in tagging #and I don’t want a repeat😭😭 #it’s never on purpose tho #everyone is awesome and just I have so much warmth for you all #I’m not even fully sure I could express myself fully in words here #but I made an attempt #goodnight and until next time xb

[kitkat-the-muffin]

Listen

I love Vrisrezi

I do

But as a ship it’s counterintuitive to Terezi’s character arc in which she learns to live for herself without regrets or anyone holding her back

And her spending years in the crumbling inciphisphere looking for Vriska, while romantic and heroic, unfortunately goes against what she truly needs to be complete

Pre-retcon Terezi and Vriska are the ideal Vrisrezi. They’ve both gone through their arcs, discovered their worth, and returned to each other healthier and ready to take on the world (or more accurately: the end of the world) together

Post-retcon Vrisrezi is not that, and I’m sorry they took that from you

#ALSO DON’T PROMOTE SHIPS BY DISSING OTHERS #EVERY SHIP HAS NARRATIVE RELEVANCE EVEN THE LATE-GAME ONES #even the fanon ones but in a paradox space kind of way #dude I have a whole essay about Davekat but it’s already been said before so why repeat myself #what we need is an essay about ROSEMARY heheh #and johnroxy actually <3 love my roxygen #vrisrezi #homestuck #vriska serket #terezi pyrope

[brookheimer]

oh man it’s a good thing i’m starting my internship after succession ended because now i have an hbo press pass and i would’ve had to use every ounce of my self-control not to use it for evil and get fired

#i’m joking. i would have been a good little journalist and kept my good little mouth shut #but. it is funny #hooray for behind the scenes content of the idol 😐 #and no not gonna say where i’m working cuz i don’t want to doxx myself #also it’s kind of an ass setup it’s unpaid but like 25 hours a week #so i’m trying to find a side job that can actually make me money bc i cannot afford not to #😬😬😬 #it’s a foot in the door tho. that is what matters #(clenching my teeth repeating that like a mantra trying to convince myself) #LMAO #when it looks great on your resume but not for your wallet!!! #😬 😬 😬 #editorial assistant slay :/ #that is a joke. no slayage occurring

[kaizokuseb]

me: *marks “Mr” on the paperwork at my doctor’s office*

every single nurse: Ms. [last name]?

#i can’t be mad at the individual #i know the nurses are busy and they just look at my legal name and my appearance and go by that #but they put my preferred name in my chart and i still get called the wrong thing #i just wish they were better informed so i don’t have to repeat myself every single time #i’ve been through this enough that it’s just tiring now

[gregmarriage]

i may know it’s healthy to interact with people and be social, but that doesn’t mean i find it easy in any way

#like i don’t actually mean to isolate myself i just get lost in doing my own thing #which isn’t bad in itself #but then i find myself feeling sad and idk why #bruh you haven’t spoken to your friends in quite a while #if i was a sim my social bar would be red #but i still don’t wanna talk to people sometimes #like i have to physically force myself just to say ‘hey! #everyone pray for gwen’s social life bc it sucks and isn’t really getting any better even tho i’m trying my hardest #i do wanna push myself more and talk to ppl i’ve always wanted to talk to #but my stupid brain won’t let me #i’m trying to push past it though #it would be nice to make new friends that i then neglect bc i’m bad at friendship #idk maybe that isn’t fair #but i still wouldn’t say i’m great at it #idk i just feel dumb for begging people to talk to me #or even just sending messages to new people #or even my friends who i know won’t judge me but still #idk i’m still sensitive after my episode and i just feel embarrassing and annoying and like i’m bugging people #and i believe them when they say i’m not but it doesn’t stop completely me from feeling that way #literally ‘hey’ feels like i just pissed on the floor in front of them #like god! way to be annoying gwen!! #yes i know it’s my brain talking but literally i use up so much energy trying not to feel it #and so much letting myself feel it #and i only have so much energy as it is #not that it matters #bc most ppl don’t care as long as i check in sometimes #but again i repeat my earlier statement #don’t wanna check in i feel cringe #need friends and communication but cannot maintain them #like the 100th post i’ve made but it’s what my thoughts are currently

[notmygrave]

it’s so fucked up that no one tells you the kind of issues you’re going to have with authority when you had to build your sense of worth from scratch

#this is absolutely oversharing but i had to generalize my own existence in oder to make myself believe that i don’t deserve to be abused #in a sense that i had to repeat to myself yes i’m a human being and by that logic i deserve the basic respect every human being deserves an #no one is above me or is worth more than me by default and i’ve internalized it so much i can’t actually respect any sort of forced #authority like i’m not going to do something simply because i’ve been told and i’m not going to fear you because you have higher status in #hierarchy and it used to drive my father and a lot of my high school teacher insane and cause me so much unnecessary problems