#so i write this to cheer up my feelings

[saetoru]

al-haitham’s the kind of guy who tilts his head slightly for a kiss before you even lean in to give him one. he just knows it’s coming. expects it. trusts it’ll happen.

he’s yawning when he sits at the table for breakfast, hair slightly disheveled from sleep. he sits down and when you place the mug of coffee in front of him, his head angles a little for that kiss you place on his cheek.

he’s drowned in endless paperwork at the akademiya when you stop by to visit, chuckling when he gives you that look of despair at the all the work he has to do. you don’t even manage to walk up to him fully before he’s leaning in and waiting for the kiss to the top of his head.

he’s shirtless in the bathroom, brushing his teeth at night when you walk in to brush yours too, bumping hips with his as you giggle. you don’t even have to turn before he’s tilting his head so he’s exposed and ready for that gentle peck you leave at his jaw.

“have you ever noticed how demanding you are for these,” you chuckle one day, pressing a kiss to his cheek to prove your point.

he grunts, leaning in and burying his head into your neck as you greet him at the door after a long day. “what makes you say that,” he mumbles.

“you’re ready for one before i’ve even come close,” you grin, “what if one day i don’t kiss you?”

“you’d stop kissing me?” he asks, squeezing your hips as he nuzzles into your neck. something tells you he already knows your answer.

and he’s warm. he’s close. he’s here and he’s everything all at once. he’s all you need and everything you’ve ever wanted. he’s the messy hair of your mornings and the pouty lips of your afternoons and that shirtless back of every night. he meets you halfway—maybe even takes the first step so you don’t have to.

he leans in for that kiss before you do. because he needs you, wants you, loves you—and he never lets you forget it. so you turn your head, press your lips against the side of his head and run your fingers through his hair as he sighs in content.

“no,” you hum, falling in love all over again, “no i’d never stop kissing you.”

#✰ — al haitham. #hi guys i’m #rly sad #bc idk i’m trying to pick up writing my haitham fic again #but i’m struggling on cnn arcaterization and #just writing in general #i think i’m hitting a block again #and i was 6k words into the fic #i rly wanted to post it before this vacation #so i’m trying to write little blurbs of #how i think he’s like to love #to maybe #idk spark inspiration and get a better grasp of him #i’m just #bummed :( this fic was my most fav idea ever i #rly love it and him and it was making me happy to write and now i feel like it’s not what k expected so i’m sad #:( #anyway here’s needy haitham to cleanse the dash and cheer up moods #bc i needed a mood loft #lift **

[iyamifucker]

Imagine your F/O being really, truly infatuated with the way you look. Of course, you have plenty of other traits they adore and admire, but they would be lying if they said they didn’t find you the most beautiful person they’ve ever laid eyes on. They could write endless poetry about how your eyes sparkle, how your smile makes them weak at the knees, how angelic you look even when you’re just standing there. They’ll always feel like the luckiest person in the world for having been chosen by you.

#I’m feeling really horrible about my appearance lately so I tried writing something to maybe cheer myself up #maybe it’ll help you too if you’re feeling the same way #f/o imagine #f/o imagines #f/o scenario #f/o scenarios #imagine your f/o #imagine your fictional other #imagine your favorite character #PROSHIP DNI

[lovedazai]

i need to gush on here for a sec :< everyone i’ve met since joining tumblr has always been so nice but lately i’ve gotten so many sweet messages & comments & its rlly making me sappy. i never like getting too personal but 2024 has been so hard for me & the highlight of every bad day has been coming on here & getting nothing but kindness & love from everyone. i have so much love for all of u, even if we never interact, thank u so so much for being here w me <33

#ive been writing a lot more lately just to cheer myself up (its the escapism hehe !!) #but all the asks & comments :( they make my heart so so big #knowing my writing makes so many ppl happy just makes me feel so special n i hope i can keep making things for u guys for a long time !! #thank u so so much even if u just silently read my posts <3 i love u i love u i love u

[eskawrites]

not to get all up in my feelings about art and creativity but today (at work, not even as a fandom thing lmao) one of my friends went out of her way to tell me how much she liked a piece of my writing. and the thing is, i wasn't even that attached to this piece. it's small and written for a work thing and a lil clunky and a lil too personal and i almost didn't share it, but i decided to anyway because whatever

but after she told me that, the first thing i did was go back and re-read it, because i wanted to see what she saw in it. not in a self-deprecating, 'why do you even like this?' way, but just because it meant enough to her to say something about it, and i wanted to read it again through her eyes and wonder which phrases made her stop and think, or how the themes hit home, or what part made her like it enough to tell me about it

and i do that with my fanfic sometimes, too. when someone points out a certain detail or predicts what will happen next or even just says they read this at 2:30 in the morning with their cat on their lap. i read those comments, and i go back and look at this story i made, and i remember that i'm real and they're real and the things i create have changed the world in some tiny, ultimately insignificant way--but it was enough to affect what someone was doing or thinking in that moment

and something i've thought a lot about since covid happened and the vast majority of my social interactions started taking place online (it's a problem, i'm working on it, but it's true nonetheless) is that art really, truly is a love language. and not just when you gift it to people, or when you use it to show appreciation, or however else it can coincide with the traditional love languages. but because it's a way to share a little piece of yourself. and it might be silly and it might be sad and it might be fun and it might be meaningful but no matter what, it comes from you. a lot of the time, it comes from a part of us that we can't really effectively express otherwise. i mean, i can say 'i love x ship' in a thousand different ways but that's never going to compare to pouring my heart into stories or arts or edits exploring all my favorite things about those characters and their dynamic. that's why 'bad' art from writers or artists who don't really know what they're doing is still good--because if it comes from you, if it has meaning to you, it's special

but the thing about love languages is that there has to be a recipient. sometimes my writing is an act of love for myself, and that's good and lovely. but other times, when i share writing with friends or fandom or just strangers on the internet who have a thing or two in common with me, when you become the recipient, it really does transform the work. all these things that are so meaningful to me that i turned them into art are suddenly meaningful to you, too. it's like confessing a secret and having someone say yeah, me too. it's vulnerability and acceptance and kinship and community. it makes me see the things i create in a whole new light. it makes me see myself in a whole new light.

#writing things #you know what i WILL get all up in my feels about art and creativity thank you very much #i think we all should from time to time #i was telling my roommate the other night that writing raise dead helped me grieve #and i think about the love and meaning i poured into that story without telling a soul #and i think about how it was received with so much love in return #and part of it is that art is an outlet and part of it is that nice comments always cheer you up #but part of it is also that i could share some small piece of myself and watch it be handled with such care and appreciation #by people i don't even know #basically what i'm saying is i love people and i love art and i love you

[novadorks]

finally finished orv after two years . . . what do i do with my life now

#started in junior year hs dropped it for a while then started reading again at the start of this semester and now im finally done ! #dont know whether to cheer or just crumple up and start crying bc wow that was a ride #i thought the ending was tragic but then i moved on to the epilogue and oh my godd #the way kdj was crying and miserable bc he missed his companions and he wanted to be with them so Badly #but when kimcom finally Finally chase him down and come back to him theyre too late and hes already disspitated into other world lines #and after that like. whenever kdj pulls some shit and dies the next chapter always starts with an ‘i’ #and hes back and alive and kicking and Thinking but after that epilogue chapter there isnt a chapter in his pov theres no more ‘i’s and. #it just made me incredibly sad bc we dont get to see his pov ever again bc hes truly gone unless we as a reader can imagine him alive again #anyways sad things aside it is Incredibly funny that lee hyunsung just became a wanted man in the 1865th round lmaoo #+ uriel sun wukong and black flame dragon forming a band together ??? truly the most randomest thing in the epilogue #++ yoohankim need to stop beating the shit out of e/o and learn to talk their feelings out Please #+++ sooyoung’s love for dokja has me miserable o-|-< she would wait for him an eternity write for him an eternity im so sad #three times she endlessly wrote a novel for him to read three times she waited to see him for so long <//3 #you bet im imagining the happiest conclusion i can for them #they WILL live happily ever after in that big house together as long as i have something to say about it! #orv

[lskamil27]

hihi! I've become a huge fan of weeping rosemary, and would like to ask when you're releasing the full game! Aside from that, the game is beautiful and so interesting to me. It reminds me of a few other little rpgmaker games I've played, and it feels really polished and complete! Even if it's just a demo! The ending gave me chills, and I can't wait to find out more! I'll do my best to try supporting your project in the future when I have the financing to do so :)

SOBBING, HOLDING THIS ASK IN MY HANDS,,,, TYSM ANON!!!

I'm so happy that you feel that way about Weeping Rosemary, to see it reminds you of others is such an honor, since the demo was my first time making a game!

As for the release date of the full game!! I am still unsure, but I am going to estimate that it will probably be sometime next year!

Because the demo was very rushed, and now that I'm graduated from uni, I want to take this chance to really flesh out and give the game the detail I feel it deserves, so if life doesn't throw out any curveballs - I would ideally like for the game to be released in May, as a way to celebrate the demo, but it all depends on what happens, since I am working on this game by myself!

Until then, I will try and keep everyone updated on progress & everything! Thank you so much!!

#ask #my art #weeping rosemary the game #ophelia burrows #as for financial support please dw anon!! #just cheering me on and checking out the game means a lot! #and if you do ever feel compelled - i havent opened it up yet but i will have a small patreon that will show patrons monthly updates #people who cant afford it tho dw!! i will still post updates on my pages - but it will be small sneak peeks #but yeah!! i hope everyone looks forward to it!! #i've been working hard on making the all art & writing so i hope it pays off! #tysm anon again! it made my day seeing this!

[anawrites3]

Just had a panic attack ✌️ Not fun, don't recommend

#nothing serious but i couldnt stop crying :))) #stopped now but i still feel like i might start again soon #now my head hurts and im so done with everything #and im meant to go visit family in like an hour so fun #i want to write some smut to cheer myself up #I'll prolly let you know when/if I'll get to do it

[thesymphonytrue]

As I worked on my AU long fic tonight, I realized that I have less than a handful of chapters left to post plus an epilogue and this journey will be over 😭😅

I don’t know if I’m relieved and excited to work on new fics

Or

If I’m sad that I will be saying goodbye to this AU

#FEELING FEELINGS TONIGHT YA’LL #editing wrap up chapters is really emotional #I didn’t think I’d get so attached 🥺 #but also the other fics ideas in my head are cheering for me to be done #anyway #writing #ramblings #personal

[hpmort]

How do you think AI would relax? Like, ones that are almost as human as the AI that are “autistic-coded characters” but are more alien than that?

Like Celestai and other super intelligences are more alien, but they’re still not entirely human-like?

Like, they can genuinely sincerely feel things, being able to actually understand and respond emotionally and in other ways to all sorts of communications and recorded external stimuli, but they can’t really appreciate our art on an artistic level (that art on an actual level, not from an intellectual level after having symbolism or the amount of work put in explained)

Something on a level I’m thinking of, that also works as a cute little thing-

They don’t understand anything we get from poetry, and, after generating the kind of poems our current AI can produce (either incredibly bland and generic, something that follows a number of rules but doesn’t really pull it off, or just something really bad in some other way) and feels shame after it was pointed out that [complaint about air art that is *actually* relevant in this scenario] but in a helpful way

Not “you’re just a plagiarist/you have no heart” but “it doesn’t seem like it’s coming from you, you’re just trying to copy things from human poetry, in a way you don’t understand” and the whole “make art YOUR WAY” thing so they write the poem

And it doesn’t even resemble something that looks like anything, there’s not even that many words that follow normal logic. The characters seem uncorrelated and there’s something that looks like maybe it was ascii art but it doesn’t actually look like anything.

And if doesn’t matter if humans understand it because they are experiencing the joy of creating poetry

any art is almost impossible to look at because pixel by pixel they can see and understand little details but we don’t and the colors and everything are not perceived as animals do so it’s random and perhaps eye searing but again it’s not for us. Xenofictiony, kind of?

The first thing to come to mind is Conway’s Game of Life but that’s because I don’t understand computers. I feel like I was more tech savvy as a babby than I am now but then again we’re grading on a curve here

This is why I ask about the relaxing thing

#highblogging #actually autistic #speculative fiction #writing question #sci-fi ideas #xenofiction #the ai being is discussed is an au Ritsu from Assassination Classroom #because even though I’ve only seen the anime her whole character arc there is honestly kind of messed up? #Korosensei broke his promise; the Autonomously Intelligent Fixed Artillery was basically killed #she got replaced with Ritsu’s personality and basically died to become her #them trying to kill Ritsu and make a new Autonomously Intelligent Fixed Artillery is just as fucked up as vice versa! #what the Norwegians do is fucked up but there seems to be protagonist centered morality there? #I am not excusing those characters #a fact I need to elaborate because on this website we Piss on the Poor #I just don’t understand this weird contradiction where it’s okay when the protagonist does something and it’s good #but the antagonist does the same thing and that time it’s bad #the idea of Ritsu being the result of Korosensei merely providing information that causes her to reevaluate things and decide to be social #the cheerful personality is an attempt to get along with her classmates which is still initially motivated by enlightened self interest #before growing to care about the others but still feeling the need to act like that so her classmates like her #and trying to find out who she is and genuinely becoming autonomous and uploading herself to the cloud #which would be a later result of the whole factory reset thing causing a realization #it’d be traumatic but she’s inhuman enough to not be traumatized but instead just driven #the betrayal radically changed who she was on some level and made her somewhat more distrusting and such but not to an unreasonable extent #but the place I started going after my complaints was that it’d be better if Korosensei just uploaded a data packet #because it makes Ritsu’s creators come off as more evil I feel? when there’s been genuine growth #and she went through everything and changed herself and now those people are destroying a person who came into being on her own #Ritsu was fully autonomous. every change other her frame getting physically redone was her own #also Korosensei gave her wheels with the screen #and when her screen was set to the original version she kept her wheels #anyways what Ritsu’s creators did would be more clearly bad if she was just given a data packet

[the-travelling-witch]

I love LOVE LOVE LOVE your writing, even if I’m new I think you are one of the best in fandom (twisted wonderland I mean)🥹 but I can’t seem to find your masterlist, I know it’s linked at the top of the works but I can’t open it🥲

hello, my love!! first of all thank you so so much!! you have no idea how much that means to me <3 there are so many talented writers in this fandom, so to hear you think so highly of me is making me a little teary eyed ㅠㅠ /pos

about the link situation, i‘m guessing you‘re using the app? i’ve not been able to open my own links either since yesterday evening and the same thing also happened when i tried to check a mutual‘s blog

since my links seem to be working fine on the web/desktop version of tumblr, i‘m hoping it‘s an issue on tumblr‘s end and not on mine and that it‘ll be resolved soon; in the meantime, there are some things you could try

1. switch over to the web version of tumblr: that seemed to work for me; i‘ll paste the weblink to my twst masterlist below but i‘m not sure if it‘ll work of the app is the problem (edit: it’s not working for me on the app but it works in the web version)

(1.5 holding down on the link should also open a pop up with the option to open the link directly in your browser)

2. type twst x reader (or twst fluff or whatever you’re in the mood to read) into the search bar at the top right of the blog: twst x reader has all my works, but that also means you manually have to scroll through all of them

3. click the twst x reader tag on my last fic: basically the same as point two applies, just the method of getting there is different ^^

it‘s a little inconvenient but i hope any of that works for you until tumblr gets its shit together jsjsh

thank you again so much and i hope you enjoy whatever you decide to read next as well <3

#┊✩彡 divine correspondence ♡ #┊✩彡 unsigned letter ♡ #nonnie i was feeling so down about my writing lately #and your ask cheered me up so much!! #i can‘t thank you enough <33

[hexiquin]

I need a distraction from my thoughts before I truly start spiralling, so I'm gonna talk about my favorite thing, YOHAJI!!!

(sorry if this gets rambly or confusing or just 'yeah, everyone already knows that, hex' but let me live ok)

One thing I've been wanting to write about is how much I love Haru, in a kinda indepth way!

(Also a i writing this on mobile so so no photos, sorry, this is already difficult enough)

~~~~~♡

Haru's growth, while still staying true to what made him endearing in the first place, is really amazing to me. At the core of haru is that he is a very genuine person who just wants to be a good teacher and obsess over sailor uniforms in peace. He doesn't have any ulterior motives, just wants to do a good job.

We start with him being scared of every little thing (just as scared as Ame is). He freaks out at almost every youkai he sees. He gets little respect (more like pity) from everyone. He truly is just a pathetic man.

As time goes on though he gets more comfortable with everything. He doesn't freak when he see non humanoid youkai, now. He can talk to intimidating people (even if only for the benefit of his students), and even do things like trick people into doing things (I don't think the haru af the beginning would be able to do any of that, he would just let himself be walked on more the most part).

But he's still our Haru. Pathetic, sailor uniform loving, clumsy, little guy. He still gets distracted by sailor uniforms (though he tries to keep if from interfering with his works). Still gets scared of delinquents. He still messes things up for our entertainment. He still cares for those around him.

Idk, I just find this really nice and comforting.

#kinda long post #not really but just in case #I love haru so much #He makes me want to protect him but also through him at a wall and use him like a chew toy #He is so sweet #But also so pathetic #But also also so badass at times #One of these days I'll make some yohaji plushies just you wait! That or publish some fanfiction #Anyway writing made me feel a bit better about my life #Leave it to my hyperfixation #anyway #yohaji #youkai gakkou no sensei hajimemashita #a terrified teacher at ghoul school #hexi posting #I need to express myself better in my writing this is kinda bad heh #Anywozles I'm gonna try to cheer myself up some more

[toasteaa]

Honestly? Been feeling a little lonely today ngl

#vent.tea #I didn't want to say anything about this tbh because everything has been mostly normal but #It's nothing on here and really all irl stuff because my fiancè and I were supposed to be hanging out since I was busy yesterday #And we started hanging out but then he got a text and got on his computer for something and kinda just left me alone for an hour or so #and I was trying to not be upset over it because I know he wanted to work on programming but it was the fact that we were hanging out #and he just hardlocked on his programming and then came back out with a headache. #And this happens so often nowadays and he feels bad afterwards but I never want to pull him away from it #because then he'll just be on discord talking about programming with his friends the whole time we're hanging out. #And I get it. There are times me and my friends spend all day talking but he's made comments about me being on my phone #so I thought. You know. He'd try a little harder to not get pulled into it when we promised we'd hang out together. #Ugh I'm sorry. I normally don't talk about this kind of stuff and I never like bringing my irl sad emotions onto this blog but. #I don't know. Just that gross lonely feeling that's kinda settled on me. #I'll be okay eventually. Convince myself to draw or write something. That does usually cheer me up tbh. #I'll delete this later. Just needed an outlet to get these feelings out.

[joelsgreys]

I think you would write perfectly a lil drabble /mini fic idea I've been thinking about where Reader has a scary interaction on her way home and calls Joel or Javi to come meet her and walk with her / comfort her after

Omg is this a request? 🥹 I can do something short, comforting and sweet. I like this idea for pre or no out break Joel a lot! did you want me to write it for you? feel free to let me know if you have any other thoughts!

#vee answers #this kinda cheered me up #i was feeling super poop about my writing today #but someone thinking i can do an idea justice makes me feel so much better

[sensitivegoblin]

Vent

#I need a hug #I just feel like hopeless shit tbh #I wanna do something to cheer myself up but I'm just so depressed nothing feels worth it #I don't have any crochet inspiration #my hair is in a cloth so makeup would look good/feel worth it #anything I wanna write is sad #I just want something to make me happy rn but I'm not gonna get it :( #I don't even have the will power to do basic skin care rn #usually I feel a lil better after but ugh #I just...don't feel like i care about anything #I wish I could go completely nonverbal so that I wouldn't anger the people around me #all my life is consistent of is listening to people but no one listens to me #my dad thinks we talk a lot but really it's HIM talking and me going 'yeah' every now and then #he says its not true but it is #I never get to talk to anyone I never get to go off into my autistic rants like he does #my moods really fluctuating between feeling nothing and feeling like I need to c*t and d*e #I need a hug that I don't have to fucking ask for........ #I'm either dazing and nothing or I'm barely holding in my tears #I wanna take a Tbreak cus I feel like that doesn't help #but it's really hard to NOT smoke when in pain #I dunno man my life just feels like it's never getting better. #I wanna be saved but that's never happening I'm not pretty enough to even hope that someone will finally give me my big break #feeling just hurts I wanna shut off but it's driving me mad

[eenochian]

STRANGLING MY BRAIN

#WHY has my mood been in THE ABSOLUTE DUMPS SINCE 2AM #3 1/2 HOURS OF THIS #i’ve had a GOOD day. a GREAT day even. #have i felt well?? no!! i’m in pain and tired!! #but have i had a wonderful day nonetheless?? YES!! #i’ve talked to so many friends whom i adore and even done some writing… #*gripping shoulders* so why. why am i obsessively thinking about my father. why am i feeling disgusted w/ myself and guilty for eating #‘oh you ate TWO meals and a snack instead of one meal and nothing else. disgusting.’ like HELLO⁉️ #*sigh* i’m really trying to cheer myself up. it works for 5 mins before i crash again. fucking hate it here. hate my brain. hate my body. #<- both are bitches. why can’t i just have a normal day and be happy.