#some emotions for you today <3

[the-adventures-of-dave]

I think this summer, in addition to building a new catio, I’m gonna try to get the cats out hiking more. This is just a big vent/ramble under the cut.

The last couple years we haven’t been out as much. A part of it is just mental health making it hard to Do Stuff, but also I’m apprehensive about going hiking on my own with the cats. I’m not really concerned about coyotes or bears or elk, but the prevalence of off leash dogs on trails still makes me afraid for my and the cats’ safety. I can do everything right and responsible with my cats and still have someone’s dog chase or attack us— both have happened before and will again if we go out. It’s just frustrating that other people’s irresponsibility and selfishness keeps me from enjoying time outside with my pet. I can only control myself- I can’t control someone’s “””friendly””” dog that is “good” off leash and *only* chases people for 15ft before going back to its owner. It’s not barking and chasing for 50 ft, so it’s fine right?

All that being said, I think I might try to do what I can to better prepare myself and my cats for encounters like that and actually get out again. I can tell Dave misses hiking and being outside, and my mental health has gotten worse staying indoors all the time.

Cat wise I’m gonna try to train the cats’ recall better this spring, and maybe invest in some shorter leashes to keep them closer by on walks. I was also considering getting a hard-shelled cat backpack and seeing if they’d like cycling. Dogs can’t kill them if we’re on a bike…

#this post is brought to you by: depression and the Instagram post I saw today where someone’s cat got mauled #ughhh this is all so frustrating #I USED to like dogs #I WANT to like dogs! #I like the idea of dogs #I like dog photos #I like my like 3 dogblr mutuals who are actually decent dog owners! #however I am now afraid of dogs #bc SOME people think it’s more important to let their dog run around off leash #than to keep other hikers safe and comfortable #I go to leash only trails. I go to no dog trails. I tell people I’m afraid of dogs when they pass by #what more do they want from me 😭😭 #all I want is for your dog to be walking nicely on a leash when it’s in eyesight #is that really too much to ask #i’ll probably delete this later #I’m just having Big Emotions #aughhh

[kyurochurro]

only now ive lost the main piece;

where might it be?

(redraw of the MV art for puzzle by kuwagata-p ft. hatsune miku, originally illustrated by ryono ♡ )

#churro art #my art #illustrations #hatsune miku #miku hatsune #vocaloid #vocaloid fanart #drew this mostly to blow off some steam bec.. i could not draw at all today LMAO #i get frustrated when i cant draw chatracetrs as fluidly as i want to #it leads to making it harder for me to draw anything at all #cus the more i try to be fluid; the more forced everything looks for lack of a better word #so yknow i took a break from the comm sketch i couldnt figure out; and drew this!! #and i really like it :") it really reminded me of older art where i would mix colors way more #thats not rlly my style anymore but i always love experimenting with hues <3 #and this is one of my most fav voca songs EVER!! its SO underrated :( #i watched some live performances of it while drawing this ofc and it saddens me how little ppl give it fanfare ToT #maybe its nostalgia speaking but i rlly love it and it got me thur a tough part of the pandemic.... #like it was just a tough time but this song was a good emotional outlet for that heartbreak and loneliness yknow? #ANYWAYS! i really like this; i hope you do too! it was good for taking a break while still putting those drawin muscles to good use HEHE

[fantomette22]

One shot : A Small Hair Ornament

[…] “I have something for you…” 

She titled her head in anticipation as he extends his right arm in front of him, his palm towards her. She reaches out to the invitation, putting her own hand above his, the back of it resting against his palm. He holds it softly.

He finally takes out his other hand from his pocket, holding tightly the famous object. Attempting not to shiver he puts it gently in her palm. It was a small golden ornament, a hair ornament. The metal feels warm in her hand.

After a moment he lets go of her hands as she observes it intensely, without a word. At first glance it looks quite ordinary, it was certainly not some highly precious jewellery, yet it harboured quite a few detailed floral motifs. It was made with great care and with a particular attention. 

“This is a gift, for you. I wish it will bring you comfort and peace. That, when you’ll look at your reflection you won’t think ill of yourself anymore. That you will see yourself how I… how everyone sees you. As the most incredible and kind-hearted lady that you are.”

The gold ornament would indeed stand greatly against her pale hair, they had almost all turned grey by now. Even if she tried to hide it, her light blonde hair changing into a complete white and colourless mane weight on her mind. She was unsure what to think of it or feel, but she sure noticed how others looked at her strangely.

Still looking at the accessory she asked him a question. “Did you… make this yourself ?” 

That present meant a lot to him, he wanted to keep it for a special occasion but himself was not feeling particularly well in those troubled times. He didn’t intend on telling her obliviously, it wasn’t the time to worried her even more. Besides, he wasn’t sure how everything would evolve in Yharnam. In these conditions it would be better simply give it to her as a mere gift. If that could soothe her pain, it would be more than enough. It’s all that mattered.

“Yes… I made it. I know it’s not much, but you always said you wanted one, right ? I intended to offer you this in other circumstances, but you weren’t feeling well these times, so I thought-” 

He stops abruptly, was she… crying ? “I deeply apologize you can just throw it away if want, you don’t have to accept it ! It was fool of me, I’m sorry-”

“No, it’s perfect ! I’m truly happy and very touch… It’s the best gift I could ever receive. Thank you dearly Gehrman !” She was holding the ornament close to her smiling and removing her silvery tears. Even if it was only for a short time, the simple small ornament was enough to lift all her worries at this very moment.

He returned the smile. “You’re more than welcome, Maria.”

A small, very ordinary hair ornament.

Although it has been lost for quite some time, one can still see signs of the care with which this tasteful ornament was once kept.

Its color would stand most brilliantly against a head of greyish hair.

#bloodborne #my art #bloodborne fanfiction #small hair ornament #lady maria of the astral clocktower #gehrman the first hunter #gehrmaria #interpret it how you want #part 3 : looking for the stars in the abyss #some times after the hamlet and before… well you know.. #i had some thoughts and emotions about it recently T_T I got inspired so I needed to write a bit #of course it's missing the scene before and after but I just wanted to do a small thing. it's enough for now #I swear it's a total coincidence I happen to post it today as well #fantomette22art

[casualhedonists]

DATING IS SO HARD WTF

#vent to follow in the tags lmao #like. what???? #people!!! chill the fuck out!! #i had some dude unmatch with me bc i didn’t respond to him YESTERDAY #and like it’s not that big of a deal we’d only just matched but like?? patience is a fucking virtue?? and i have a life? #he was all like come back :((( then two minutes later he was like ok sorry for bothering you bye and then LEFT #like. fine if you do that but the message?? what?? #anyway it came at a bad time bc. a bitch is already in crisis rn #cause i kinda feel like my irl friends hate me for some reason and i already feel bad that i’ve been so busy i’ve not been able to #talk to them that much #and i was supposed to go on a trip with my friend but that’s been postponed (not her fault or mine) #and my car still won’t start. we tried to jump it today and it didn’t do anything #anyway i’m like rapid cycling through major emotions and it’s like mimi chill the fuck out #and listening to way too much phoebe bridgers i know the end #also i’m in crisis bc i’ve made up with like. my oldest friend who used to have a crush on me and when i told him i preferred girls he like #stopped talking to me for a while #that was years ago and now we’re slowly becoming friends again but i feel so much guilt over it for no reason #and i get into avoidant episodes as a coping mechanism and like. i feel like im going into one atp #okay okay vent over im okay lmaoo #sorry folks hope your days going better than mine <3 #｡･:*˚:✧｡ mimi speaks!

[skyburger]

"fnaf is the scariest game ever" "no its silent hill" "well i think its resident evil" everyone shut up!!!!!! youre all wrong. its actually zack & wiki quest for barbaros' treasure (on the nintendo wii) but only the level "keeper of the ice". that level scared me so bad as a kid and you can tell because its the only individual level i remember the name of off the top of my head. like there is nothing scarier than a) being chased and b) being on a time limit. and you know what this level has? BOTH OF THOSE. this level is still scary to me im like AHHHHH!!!! and then i die

#i had to google horror games after i thought really hard for silent hill and fnaf #because like. resident evil is just not a horror game in my mind... its just cool zombie game... #to be fair though. the only one i actually played a portion of was re6 which is probably the least scary one in the whole series #anyway do the kids still find silent hill and fnaf scary. i dont know. #well the former id say yes given how prevalent ps1 horror has been in recent years #fnaf i have no idea. im a massive wuss so its scary when i play it for myself #but watching someone else play them especially when i know them well isnt scary #and ive watched fnaf videos for YEARS #so i dont know. (old man voice) these damn kids... back in my day we watched markiplier scream at freddy fazbear and we LIKED it! #anyway its objectively a horror game and thata literally fine thats all i needed for this post #MY POINT HERE. my point here #IS THAT HIT ZACK AND WIKI LEVEL KEEPER OF THE ICE. IS SOOOOO SCARY #its not that scary but i see tjat level and im like 3 years old making my mom play this level for me again #and for the record yes me and my sister really did make our mom help us with z&w #she remembers helping us with frost breath the most because we like did notttttt get that one at all #and she could never remember how to do the mirrors based on what combination of stands is there (because tjeres like a few variations) #so she always had to look up a guide 😭😭 #my poor mother on fucking gamefaqs or something in like 2010... legends only #anyway if you have no idea what level im talking about (any of my oomfs reading this that isnt end) (hi end) PLEASE look up this level #and i need you to think of like a 5(?) year old making her mom play this game. #this aforementioned child is still a massive wuss as an adult btw. some things never change #anyway watch that level and think about how someone like me. whos already a scaredy cat! #imagine how someone like me felt at age 5 possibly younger playing this level #I WISH I COULD LIKE CONVEY EMOTIONS OVER TUMBLR. why cant i attach a .emotion file to this post #anyway ramble over <- hes said that like a million times today #scariest level in a game ever...!!!!! FUCK that keeper of the ice bitch im GLAD he died #muffin mumbles

[taeyungie]

😺

#i haven't addressed yoongi's situation yet because i'm honestly still not hit by it i guess. like it didnt gwt to me yet #i dont think ill ever love anyone the same as i love him you know what i mean #he has been the first reason of my self development. like he literally raised me??? i learned from him how to be the person i am today #and its like im saying goodbye to a family member. the thing is i have never griefed anyone's absence like this #its like a part of my soul will be missing until he comes back #but at the same time i know what he would want for me. to move on and to become my own reason #he would want me to be kind to myself. to focus on myself and not miss him that much. #he would want that for all of us right #but i have a very hard time processing things. do you guys remeber the festa last year? when we found out theyll be going on hiatus #the reality of it snd the fact that it will be happening hit me onky after around 3 months. #thats when i first cried because i realized what it meant. ofc i knew but it didnt occur to the emotional part of my brain at that time #and i feel like im truly gonna fall apart when THIS hits me in 3 months lol #my life has never been worse and thats honestly the time when i need the reassurance the most #when i need the people i love and find comfort in the most. #but its just me and thats technically just my problem. but since i am talking about my view on this then thats okay i guess hahah anyway #i just hope he knows there are milions of ppl who love him as much as i do. and thats like extra love like forever & beyond type of shit #i honestly dont think other people ever truly fully understand how we feel towards them. especially when you really love somebody #because they have their own opinions about themselves. they debate whether they deserve some kind of treatment or not. we all do that right #and i just know he does that too. i just reslly want him to feel completely loved and cherished and appreciated. #i want him to see himself through our eyes. to surround himself with people who see him exactly the way we do. #to fall in love with somebody who will see him like we see him #nobody deserves better life than this man. and i hope that after our reunion he will live that life to the fullest 💓 i can't wait to see it #anyway. if somebody needs to talk about it or wants to get sadness out of your system - im here 💓 #please keep your heads up and lets wait for him 💓 #we have esch other and we will be okay 💓 #sorry for typos i can barely see its 1am 🤓

[roseinthestars457]

In case the earlier angst wasn’t enough...

here’s a little look in Jupiter’s skull when talking about his past (ch66 of give you my best shot)

This is for the best. This is for the best. If he keeps telling himself that, it'll make it easier, it'll make it hurt less, it'll be okay, right?

They leave an exit path for you. You're not blocked in, they're not threatening you, you can leave or do whatever you want. They won't fight back, they won't stop you, they- they deserve anything you do.

---

You're so quiet as he speaks.

He- he appreciates it, he doesn't know if he could keep going if stopped. He tried to show what had happened, to make you understand. They- they hadn't wanted it, they- they had held out for so long. But the hunger had been so bad.

It had been so bad.

He could see the way dust had spread through the forest, the nights getting colder, darker, longer. The way he had always stayed alert while sans was out, desperately waiting for him to come back, fearing the day he wouldn't, he only had 1 hp--

A touch.

Sans' hand. They were- they were here now.

He was speaking now, voice low and slow. They had fought over who would cover this bit, but Sans had pulled the big brother card, the bastard. But he couldn't do it.

He wasn't surprised when Sans had to leave. He had asked black to keep n eye out earlier. The skeleton had been… helpful in the past. Understanding.

He tried to reassure you of this, bringing himself back as you began to panic. He- he didn't know why you were so concerned about Sans right now, if it was concern for his safety or for others but- but he had to finish.

He couldn't leave it there.

---

He- he brushed over how bad it had been.

Un- she had been ruthless, fueled by desperation, friendship long forgotten. The sound of his brother's scream-- he didn't remember it well. Just jumping in, throwing an attack, a desperate defense, and pain.

They must- they must have fought her off, but Sans- he- he had been in a bad state.

(His skull had been turning to dust before his eyes, and he remembers screaming at him as he poured healing magic into him, trying to keep him. To not be left alone. He had passed out at some point, before waking and trying again, and again, and again--)

There- there had been days before he had woken, working eye light now a bright red. He had stormed out of there the second he had the strength, despite arguments against it, killing Alphys as soon as he got the chance. After that… they had closed themselves off.

Right. Right. You're here. Explain why they can't see them now. Make sure you understand.

And pray for forgiveness.

(Although he gave up on praying long ago. On forgiveness too.)

---

…

Your voice was so gentle when you finally spoke, reassuring him.

He didn't deserve your kindness, your understanding, you. You should be afraid, disgusted, fleeing out the door- why were you still here?

Were you truly that good?

Stars, he was so sorry.

Sorry.

Sorry.

Sorry.

.

.

.

Okay, time to pull himself together. You're still here.

Yes, this is what they wanted to tell you. You deserve to know, and- and they both hold so much affection and care for you.

And now came the rejection. They both expected it, this- this wasn’t meant to convince you to stay.

Only to show you why you should stay away.

But you seemed determined to hold on. You really just kept defying expectations, huh?

...maybe with you, he can allow himself this. Just the tiniest bit.

To- to finally stop being the monster he sees in the mirror.

#:3 hehe #this is pulled from the spreadsheet i have for this fic #since most chapters have notes on where the guy's headspaces/emotions are at #but this one is definitely closer to a frame-by-frame stream on conciousness #(also ch67 with mars should be up soon it just needs some final touches) #todays just for angst didn't you know? #gymbs #cypress writes

[d0d0-b0i]

always get so pleasantly surprised when people really like my stuff i post :) love you all. whether you celebrate something or not around this time i wish you all the best <3

#i always first and foremost post for me if not otherwise stated on the post itself #and that is what i always have done and aspire to continue. but #it makes me happy to see so many likeminded people around me #sorry. i am getting sappy and emotional; today has been draining for reasons i do not know #i am very tired and it is late for me so i will try sleeping soon #i am glad to have found such a nice and large fandom in sonic. it has allowed me to try and be more approachable and friendly while still #being myself at my core interactions. this year has been strange and new and exciting so i figured i might as well try #and make some more friends. which i have; i am happy to say :’) i have always had a hard time socializing. and to find people willing #to understand the things i say even though it’s worded weirdly #and i’m happy so many can enjoy the art i post <3 it means a lot to me #especially when i feel as if i don’t do enough. i like many others have some. issues regarding worth and content but i am trying my best #and. am getting better at it 👍 i think i might be getting sick ergo the sappiness and long tags #but i don’t regret the things i say. i love you all followers mutual ppl i follow #there is so much space in my heart and i am not afraid to admit that i get attached easily and do not know where friendships begin. #but i. am willing to try and find out! if the gods are willing; hopefully a good new year for us all next week! and more commmunity and love #i hope you understand what i am trying to convey. ive been scared of being this open but if i am not then i will never know living #and loving <3 will still be posting obvs i am simply joyous rn! gonna sleep now :3

[laazucena]

✨ I can't wait to see Cake and Eiw kiss on my screen ✨

#just throwing this out here just for fun and positive vibes #but seriously when the first kiss happens i will cry and scream and cry some more #don't mind me my mind is kind of in an overdrive since friday #if my calculations are right ep 12 is going to be my favorite episode #since cake needs to be jealous and coming to terms with his feelings starting next ep and also the plot needs to thicken #it is 12% after all and it really takes its 2-3 episodes build up & ep 12 is right in the middle of the still coming ep 10 to 14 #also it would be numberwise funny if ep 12 would settle the 12% chance of your love loving you back by them getting together #kinda excited thinking about this while typing this all. and getting a bit emotional too #also since today is coming out day: happy coming out day to all celebrating🌈 #btw if someone wants to talk together about them and 12% ... feel free to send me a message 😊 #my only 12 percent #my only 12% #cake x eiw #cakeeiw #eiw x cake #santaearth #queued post #laazucenas stuff

[yuukimiyas]

(๓´ ˘ `๓)♡ happy tues lovies!! i hope you had the sweetest of dreams & woke up so refreshed & ready to take on the day!! <33 kissin the crown of your head so softly ♡(´ε｀〟)

#ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals! #good morning!!! :3 its a bright new day!! <33 #sorry for bein a lil distant on here lately ໒꒰ྀི っ◞‸◟c ꒱ྀིა my energy has been a lil off the past few days for some reason #but im gonna take today 1 step at a time & try to give myself a lil grace to sit w my emotions (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)⁾⁾⁾ #no matter what!!! im tryin my hardest to make today so v great!! (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و #ik i owe you guys lots of fic reads!!! i pinky promise im gonna get to the ones in my tbr!! ૮꒰ྀི ∩៸៸៸∩ ‎꒱ྀིა hopefully tonight or sometime 2 #this lil bun has gotta get movin for work!! ૮꒰ྀི› ⸝⸝⸝ ‹꒱ྀིა i’ll ttyl so so soon!! have the v best day in the whole WORLD!!! <33

[indigodawns]

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#aren't hyperfixations funny like. i must think and talk about this all day everyone i know should also watch this #and then WAIT ACTUALLY having someone watch/listen etc can feel terribly vulnerable or anticlimactic #or like some of the joy of ohmygod secret new thing just for me disappears right?? bc then it's a Thing #(at least for me all of these can happen to varying degrees for different things?) #and it's just interesting to witness it with friends as well like we watched one of my friends' dnd show today #and she's so down to earth and laidback but she was definitely having conflicting emotions about it i think #and then she was like we'll watch your mafia show too im curious!! and i love her #and also yes/no/yes/no/yes yk? (probably yes HSJSHS) #please read this as lighthearted im just musing but yk #and then getting into your friends' hyperfixations also always feels a bit like intruding while also being exhilarating and fun #and idk it's just interesting to see it go back and forth and i hope im okay about it both ways #(if not please tell me dhdjdjjd) #but yeah! #again this sounds so serious it's all good dhsjshdh and i maybe seem possessive or something and no i wanna share (and by god do i GSHSHS) #you just notice your own/others' reactions and it's Something #ive now repeated myself enough times g'night i hope you're all well <3 #tell me about your most recent hyperfixation or interest/fandom if you want <3

[petrichoraline]

You are doing your best dear 🥰

A++ from me

wish I could say I was 😮‍💨 ive done some ppl dirty

happy to know I'm thriving in your class though 💓

#youre so cute and im so sleepy that im getting emotional #let me log off rq hahah #special amount of kisses for you today 💞💗💞💝💞💕 (also its so latee hope you get some sleep <3) #petri replies

[itspileofgoodthings]

me: i love redemption arcs and stupid foolish boys who grow

also me: eww no not you Steve Harrington

#it was really about me being like ‘I’m sorry but I shut you out of my heart you don’t get to have a redemption arc’ #but on the deepest most subconscious level because I really just DIDN’t SEE IT #okay I need to stop talking about it but it has been A JOURNEY #Emma with extreme gentleness and devastating emotional precision fully understanding the delicacy of the situation: #‘Maria it’s time to get on board’ #Emma: we can do this together [ holds out her hand ] #me: SHRIEKING #i called her three days later like. In TEARS about it all and thus the journey began #I cried about it and then laughed about it #healing in many ways #and on many things #Anyway I JUST NEEDED TO MAKE SOME TUMBLR POSTS ON THIS TODAY THANK YOU FOR LISTENING <3 #going to try to stop now

[the-everqueen]

i forget how much masking i do in work and even friendships until the weekend comes and i have an excuse to not talk to anyone except the gf and my mom via text. 

#about me #brain things #the gf is a good safe person #my mom requires at least one text to be appeased that i didn't die overnight #this post brought to you by: #yesterday i babysat for my cohort-mate #and it was 8 hours of childcare and then 3 hours of letting the mom vent #and even when i'm being relaxed i'm not always... #NOT thinking about modulating my facial expression or being tactful #today she asked to talk on zoom and i was so much more curt #just because i...need some space to not be processing her emotions #is this my fault for not asserting better boundaries? #do i inadvertently make myself available to people in Crisis because then i get to be the person who is In Control? #probs! but also like. i do feel like there's maybe something on her end to be aware of. #like maybe how she isn't the only person in the universe

[interdimensionalspaceworm]

augh!!! *i am torn to pieces by swarms of mice*

#so today i watched seasons 3 and 4 of uh. #some guy's youtube original escape the night. #it's not great but i liked the uh... the uh #the story. and the bonds between characters. im emo over them. #specifically what emotions do you do thru when you die and your best friend watches you die and then you come back and you watch her die??? #and then at the end of the day you're a guardian angel and she's in actual real hell #how does that make you feel #*breaking bad voice* jesse we need to psychoanalyze the detective

[avatardoggo]

ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

#sometimes i feel like i feel too much yk? like i’m so in touch with my feelings that when i get hurt or when i am happy i feel it on a #grander scale than others? idk if that makes sense?? this might be presumptuous of me #it’s just something i’ve noticed about my behavior and ppls reactions like ppl say ‘why do you care sm’ and ‘it’s not that deep’ or ‘it’s #just xyz’ and the thing is for me i cant not care and it’s always that deep for me and nothing is just Just and ya some days i wish i could #be nonchalant and cHiLl and not be so effected and not go into a downhill spiral whenever i’m in emotional pain but at the same time no #i like that i feel sm bc when i want to show the ppl i care about how much i <3 them i can bc i feel it so deeply and i couldn’t do that if #i didn’t feel the way i feel #anyways sorry for rambling #here’s some pictures clouds and a field near my house that i took on my run today #vk overshares in the tags